#dedicated to the cw super natural in the year 2020

[hvggybear]

looking back on the now 12 seasons of destiel its actually so insane that i was here for the 2012 era and not just like casually i was Here making shitty edits, browsing the tag on my ipod touch before school, making fic rec lists on livejournal and stupid little album art for my playlists. and thats so wild because i checked out of the fandom when s8 was airing bc i was frustrated with the writers not making them canon when they all Knew that was what the fans were here for and i sat thru lines like “he was your boyfriend first” and went insane at literal crumbs and STILL thought “these two are literally in love Hello.” fast forward 1pm november 6 2020 AEDT: episode 15.18 had just finished airing but i had no idea until i refreshed my twitter timeline and the one (1) random person i followed who still watched supernatural was screaming DESTIEL CANON and i just burst out LAUGHING and shared the confession scene immediately with my two bestfriends (that i met on twitter in 2011 and later all three of us went through destiel2012). two minutes later one of them changed the groupchat name to destielcrew and the pfp to some oldschool fanart and we laughed and shared every single meme for about two days all the while in the back of my head something was stirring. like i laughed at the last minute play for LGBT points but at the same time holy shit these motherfuckers really did it they really made this absolute fandom beast of a ship canon. and i get curious i open tumblr dot com and look at my old blog. i dont remember what gifset set it off but the same yearning i felt all those years ago smacked me in the face and ive been riding the train ever since being dealt incomprehensible amounts of damage by new things i’d missed like the widower arc and THEE biblical cain. and the stupidest part of it all is that like before november 5 had you asked me if there was anything about any piece of media that i’d ever consumed, you know what’s the one thing you always wanted, the one thing that’s fucked u up the most, made u feel the most, despite the bitterness and secondhand embarrassment i had felt towards supernatural over the last 7 years i still would have said fucking destiel