#death the kid my friend death the kid. not new but real regardless

[cloudbends]

I finished rewatching soul eater yesterday and I've come to multiple conclusions about it but mostly I didn't remember how gay stein and spirit were . Bro that shit isn't even in subtext it's right fucking there

[sarahghetti]

mcu masterlist

steve rogers

[ one-shots ]

we might fall | 2.9k, angst Steve has to fake his death for a mission, but no one can know outside of the Avengers. This includes the reader.

war of hearts | 2.3k, hurt and comfort Sequel to we might fall.

“This won’t happen again,” he said, reaching for your hand but you pulled it away.

“Can you promise me that?” He hesitated.

long time coming | 2.5k, angst, hurt and comfort Thoughts ran through your mind – what if you didn’t really break free, what if HYDRA was planning to infiltrate the tower through you – what if you hurt him again?

tall and two sugars | 1.4k, fluff There was a quaint little shop that he and Bucky would walk past everyday a lifetime ago and the smell of coffee replaces the one of sweets now, but she’s sweet enough.

cookies and coffee | 0.7k, fluff The team get curious about this little coffee shop that Steve loves so much. Sequel to tall and two sugars, but can be read as a standalone.

family relations | 2.9k, hurt and comfort Howard has a sister, and she has Steve’s heart. Then, seventy years later, she has a nephew named Tony and Steve is fast on his way to becoming his uncle-in-law.

collateral | 2.0k, angst The reader during the events of The Winter Soldier.

damage control | 0.7k, hurt and comfort Sequel to collateral. The reader after the events of The Winter Soldier.

catching up | 2.0k, fluff You’re on Coulson’s team and are dating Steve. Naturally, he’s curious.

countdown | 1.3k, hurt and comfort Soulmate AU. His mom tells him that it was nearly 85 years away, but smiles, saying how magical the moment would be regardless. Steve almost mentions the fact that people barely lived to be seventy-five.

heart hope | 1.3k, hurt and comfort, smut Steve visits the reader before the Civil War.

golden days | 1.1k, hurt and comfort Steve finds Pierce’s former right hand, the reader, after the fall of SHIELD.

salience | 1.7k, fluff, hurt and comfort Your relationship with Steve through the eyes of the rest of the team.

hesitance | 0.8k, hurt and comfort Steve's girlfriend saves his life by killing another person without hesitating and he’s not sure how to feel about it.

connection | 3.6k, hurt and comfort You woke up in an unfamiliar room, dazed and confused. There were dozens of guards outside who’d shoot you on sight and all you had was an earpiece with one voice on the line.

He said his name was Steve, and he promised to get you out of there.

[ drabbles ]

late nights | 0.6k, fluff You and Steve stay up late, only for him to confess something while you're asleep.

reality | 0.2k, hurt and comfort "This is real. You are real."

new objective | 0.9k, fluff "I'm going to be a dad."

"Correction, you're going to be a great dad."

et toi? | 0.2k, fluff French lesson with Steve.

ring toss | 0.2k, fluff Steve is stupidly good at carnival games.

redolent | 0.6k, fluff He’s handed a bottle filled with a thick liquid and Steve has to hide his reaction when the smell hits him, pretending to be hungry when he feels like he might throw up.

bucky barnes

[ one-shots ]

loose ends | 1.2k, angst He picks up a photo on a bookshelf and Bucky sees her face, her smile between him and Steve and-

He’s breaking down a door, she’s screaming. Metal around her throat, nothing more than choked gasps from her mouth

-he does not want this memory back.

even a broken clock | 1.6k, hurt and comfort The scientist barks with laughter as he sees the timer on the severed limb, frozen at 25497:01:23:02. Bucky doesn’t understand.

“We’re doing you a favour, kid.”

And closes the door.

[ drabbles ]

a different kind of love | 0.6k, fluff “Our best friends are that awful ‘cute’ couple that make-out in public and call each other “sweetie” and “sugar” and “babe” and god they’re awful let’s talk about how awful they are – develops into “shit we’re the awful couple now”

make-believe | 0.2k, fluff “I told my sister I have a boyfriend so she’d stop trying to set me up with people but now she’s coming to visit and I’m in too deep I need a fake boyfriend ASAP"

alias | 0.4k, fluff “You give me a different fake name every time you come into starbucks and I just want to know your real name bc ur cute but here I am scrawling 'batman' onto your stupid cappuccino AU”

misunderstandings | 0.6k, fluff Could you write a story where Bucky is your new neighbor and you’ve talked but not much, but he likes you and wants to ask you out. But he hears you talking things like “hey handsome?! I’ve missed you!” and stuff like when you’re home and he assumes you’re dating someone… but what he doesn’t know is that you have a cat?

best of wives | 0.3k, fluff can i request a bucky or steve x reader where they’re not married but he keeps accidentally referring to her as his wife and doesn’t realize hes doing it until someone points it out to him?

tony stark

luxuries | 1.3k, hurt and comfort He’s not ready for this – he’s never been loved, not in the way she loves him.

thor odinson

limited | 0.4k, hurt and comfort "I think I'm in love with you and I'm terrified."

matt murdock

exs and ohs | 0.3k, fluff The reader is in the apartment when Elektra breaks in.

[proseka-headcanons]

proseka casts fav anime/anime genres:

ichika: has only seen black rock shooter and mekakucity actors

saki: huge precure fan, her fav seasons are heartcatch, smile, dokidoki, and tropical rouge

honami: watches a ton of iyashikei while doing housework and cooking, loves polar bear cafe and natsumes book for friends the most

shiho: number 1 mecha fan, adores both real and super robot shows, has seen every gundam

minori: love live, need i say more?

haruka: huge detective conan fan, has every season and movie on bluray, every volume of the manga, and infodumps about the newest case every week at mmj practices

airi: has only really see the occasional ghibli movie and kids anime when her younger sister watches, likes ponyo and kikis delivery service the most

shizuku: giant rumiko takahashi fan, has seen and read all of urusei yatsura, ranma 1/2, inuyasha, and maison ikkoku

kohane: watches a lot of young shounen, but loves pokemon the most, has seen every season and has every game, avid fan of the adventures manga

an: biggest sports anime fan in the world, loves haikyu, free, kuroko no basket, and basically anything else, cries at every season finale

akito: ena made him watch the first episode of riddle story of devil when it first aired and he has not watched a single episode of anime since

toya: ena introduced him to kyoani pretty soon after they met and he's been hooked ever since, hibike euphonium was difficult for him to watch at first, but now he loves it

tsukasa: watches precure weekly with saki, doesnt particularly love the series but wants saki to be happy, doesnt really watch any anime other than that

emu: keeps up with seasonals just to find the most absurd and unknown anime, number 1 estab life defender

nene: has somehow seen and read every samey isekai light novel thing in existance, she's seen it all, from in another world with my smartphone to re:zero, she watches regardless of quality

rui: number 1 science saru geek, but will watch really anything if it looks experimental enough, has also seen a good number of samey light novel shows because of nene

kanade: watches the occasional original anime from kyoani or mappa if mizuki or ena reccomends it, but she usually only watches and episode or two

mafuyu: stumbled across space patrol luluco in middle school and would rewatch it anytime she felt like life was getting to be too much, forgot about it when she reached high school until talking about anime with mizuki and it was brought up, now watches basically anything mizuki reccomends

ena: kyoani simp, watches anything with good animation, also watches a lot of garbage death game anime and is always on the edge of her seat but wont admit it

mizuki: seasonal junkie, watches the first ep of every new show and always keeps up with at least 10, never slacking on magical girl anime, the first week of january, april, july, and october, the nightcord chat gets absolutely flooded w their reccs

I SEE THIS I think mizuki would love madoka magica

[sarahjtv]

My Hero Academia Chapter 427 Quick Spoiler Talk: Closure for Some Villains

I'm mainly writing this as a countdown of the final My Hero Academia chapters for myself, but because I wasn't as invested with this chapter as I was last week's Todoroki-centered one, I don't have much to write this week. Solid chapter, though so nothing to complain about there:

I really liked how Deku's conversation with Spinner was handled and how that contrasted with how the public thought of him. Spinner saw Shigaraki as his first real friend who understood him and had similarities to him. To Spinner, Shigaraki was his hero. To everyone else, Shigaraki was an actual menace to society who killed a lot of people and ruined a lot of lives. To the rest of society, Shigaraki is seen as a villain.

Deku handled the situation very well too by listening to Spinner talk instead of arguing against him at any point. Letting Spinner grab him in his massive form and not even flinching shows how far Deku has come for better or worse (he's still a good boy who's been forced to mature over 1+ year, remember). He doesn't even stop Spinner from telling his side of the story in the future and even suggests that Spinner write his story as a comic book. Maybe this is Deku's way of making sure that history isn't forgotten so that it doesn't happen again even if there's a still chance it might repeat itself. He won't ever forget about Tomura Shigaraki himself regardless.

Also, I want to quickly point out that this panel of Izuku is one of the prettiest panels of him we've seen in a good while. Like, goddamn Horikoshi; this is legit beautiful artwork 💚:

I mentioned it in another post I made here, but I'm so satisfied with how Horikoshi left Overhaul's fate in the worst way for him. There are absolutely worse fates than death and this is one of them. Having Overhaul essentially pay for what he did to Eri for the rest of his life via guilt, scolding, eternally apologizing, and literal haunting from his beloved boss (Eri's grandfather who was put into a coma by Overhaul before she was abused btw) who will remind him of his sins until he dies is some damn good comeuppance. This is another example of Horikoshi not letting characters off the hook when they don't deserve it. Not everyone gets a happy ending.

And ending the chapter off with the new first-year girls chasing Bakugo and Shoto down is fucking hilarious 😂 Shoto especially looks so done with everything and Bakugo is wishing they would be expelled already 🤣! I'm surprised this hasn't happened earlier, but better late than never. Ah, the curse of being pretty boys 😭🧡🩵

And finally, we are officially on break next week. This is the last one we will get and after that, it will be only 3 more weeks until the final chapter of the series. We're getting damn close, guys. I'm scared, excited, sad, all kinds of emotions. I assume next chapter we'll get to see more of our beloved kids in Class 2-A and some of the new first-years. I wonder if we'll get an update on Ochako and Toga too, but that remains to be seen. Right now, all we can do is rest up for 2 weeks and see what Kohei Horikoshi has in store for us for the final 3 chapters of the series.

[badlysummedupmoviestournament]

If you recognize the movies/characters hiding behind the decoy titles, please do not give identifying details about them in the notes.

Villain n°1: Carnelian Tortoise

I just wanted a new friend or two and to make sure a child didn't end up destroying my entire nation, and this person, who is super cool, threatened to kill me! Or threatened I would end up dead. Same thing.

I met an acquaintance's girlfriend a couple years back, they eventually got married, and she turned out to be pretty cool. I admittedly have a strained relationship with their family, but that's on their end. They wanna hang out with ME, I'm cool! We could be buddies! Well, I later got wind of a kid in their care that, for complicated, boring reasons, needed to be...dealt with. I said the reasons were complicated, I'm not a monster. I have a lot of people I am doing my damnedest to keep safe from being slaughtered, or starting a war we may not win.

Instead of just EXPLAINING things (kid isn't what I thought), cool girlfriend/wife's sister in law humiliated me and threatened me with a frankly disgusting death, in front of both her family and mine. I had no choice but to back off, but this could all have been avoided had they talked to me before this unfortunate game of telephone. My responsibilities are bigger than hers, and she didn't understand that, and now we'll NEVER be friends, which sucks, because I really thought we could hang out.

Villain n°2: Box Fright

My very nature demands what decent folks would say is horrible. I am, however, deeply ingrained with the desires of humanity. Nothing I do isn't anything others wouldn't have come up with on their own. Then some foolish naïve girl tries to step in. She is just like all the rest. And she can't see how her own actions will perpetuate the cycle. I let them think the end of this fight will bring lasting peace, but peace doesn't exist here. It is just a pause until humans start back at it. No one really should blame me, I am just the reflection and if she thinks I am ugly she might not want to look at the real thing. What's worse is she killed me for it and didn't thank me for opening her eyes and even helping her along the way.

[avoidantrecovery]

many many moons ago, when i was still in school, a boy confessed to me. or maybe he confessed to me, the thing is i don't think i'll ever know.

this avoidant thing is a real bitch, and quite frankly i don't know how others do it. when i wake up, feeling a bit less crazy than usual, i just have to remember this event and yeah, no normal person does this, but also idk.

we were on a school trip and i was smitten, okay? the kind of crush you can only have when you're seventeen. but at the same time, remember i am already in depth of my avoidance. in the depths of not talking about myself or connecting with others genuinely. i don't talk about this crush, he is a secret i harbour in the deepest depths of my consciousness, you couldn't have tortured his name out of me at that point. i couldn't even admit this crush to myself, even my diary is devoid of any mention of him. but when i saw him in school, my head would turn towards him like a freaking sunflower towards the sun, whilst hoping i was not too obvious about it all. did i mention that i sat next to him at the time, we shared a double desk lol.

so, fall turned into winter and nothing much changed. despite sharing a desk, we were not close and only exchanged a few polite words every day. every now and then he'd rope me into small conversations, but i was convinced he was just polite or perhaps it was just some ploy to get me to get my guard down/humiliate myself. (this was the peer-abuse trauma still reverberating). in fact i would try to observe if he was talking to others this way, too. and though i never saw him do it, i just shrugged it off. i may have had a crush on him, but there was no way it could happen the other way around.

winter turned into early spring and our school trip finally came. it was a week-long school exchange to a neighbouring country. half way through the week, we went to the morning assembly of our partner school with our exchange partners and all we had to do is sit around since we didn't speak their language. anyway, suddenly, this boy was on the stage with his partner and locked eyes with me and said something in their language. i just sat there looking kind of out of place and then the moment passed. i never understood what he actually said or whether he said it to me or just my general direction. my exchange partner, a really sweet girl, tapped me on my shoulders and was like, "i think..., i think he just said he likes you". and the only way i can explain what happened next, because i was shaken to the core and scared, is that trauma brain kicked in, because i just said "oh no, i don't think so" and that was that. regardless of whether that was a weird way to confess or not, in front of everyone, or i misunderstood the situation, that moment felt like death to me, that i narrowly managed to escape. also, strangely enough he never brought it up again either.

it's only recently i have been able to put together what i think happened (at least on my end). i've mentioned a couple of times how, much earlier than that, when i was a new kid in sixth grade, my classmates nearly drowned me. well, what i didn't mention is how it happened, it involved a lot of gaslighting me into believing they were my friends, a lot of lying and pretending essentially. and the day it happened, i had already decided that these classmates of mine were bad and that i would be very careful around them. ironically enough it was also a school trip, a daytrip to a pool. anyway, they spent the whole day trying to get back into my good graces, because i was fine playing on my own and just doing my own thing, ignoring them, i was grayrocking them pretty much.

but then this little hopeful voice in me kind of came up and said, but what if..., what if they actually finally want to be your friend? that voice was good and brave and hopeful and essentially it's that voice that we all have, that pushes us over the edge when we need that extra push to be brave, you know? and it told me how nice it would be to have friends to play with and not be alone. it told me to put my doubts aside and just try. i told them i wasn't a strong swimmer, and they insisted that that was no issue and they'd take me to the deep end with them no issue. and so i went with them. and just when i took that leap of faith, they left me alone for dead, nearly drowning me. it nearly cost me my life. and i think from that day onwards, that voice has been quiet. the one that makes us take a leap, you know?

and so i think when my crush locked eyes with me and said whatever it is he said, i was essentially (without being aware of it in the moment obv.) in the same situation, the kind that needs you to be vulnerable, have hope, be brave and take that leap of faith. and instead i felt like i was dying (drowning?) and just wanted to get out of the situation as fast as i could, like that kind of situation that needs you to be brave is also a trauma trigger. and i was convinced that it was just some ploy to trick me or humiliate me or maybe he lost a bet or sth, and i was not a dummy, i wasn't going to fall for that.

another moment that i remember from that trip is the whole class being invited to this youth center type place to hang out in the evening. since we were all scattered across the little town, his exchange partner who happened to live close to mine, offered to drive us but when they came to pick us up, he asked whether i wanted to watch a movie at his exchange partners house instead. i remember saying, we can't just watch a movie together, the others will wonder where we are. i didn't say no lol. but we ended up going to the youth center place. but the thing is, he never asked me watch movies when we were back home, why there? and again, he never brought it up again.

anyway, this is a story that has just been knocking about in my head recently when dealing with limerence and trauma and all this. i guess i'm writing it in an effort to "talk about me" from the quote i linked above. and since i don't have anyone i could possibly tell this story irl, typing it out will do for now. i'm kind of hoping this will purge it out of my system hopefully.

fun fact, because of the kind of job he does now, i had the pleasure of being jumpedscared by him on a billboard near my place. i also looked him up recently in the hopes of finding some anti-limerence information, so my digust (or disinterest) would finally help me put this chapter to rest. i went in thinking i will find some information that will just make me think ewwwww, but instead i folded as soon as i opened his insta. i folded like the weak bitch that i am, what can i say, he still has great arms. 🤷🏾‍♀️

if you've read this far, i am so sorry 😭😭

[foxes-that-run]

New Years Day

This song is bittersweet, placed at end to the album because NYE/NYD is an end and a beginning. Like Clean, this song is about moving on, but now with someone who stays. It was a surprise song when 1989 TV was announced. The subject and timing indicates it may have been cut from 1989. Also note the light up Anchor - like Harry's tattoo covering 'I can't change' in the World Premier video.

When Taylor performed it at the 2 June 2018 AT&T Secret Session in Chicago she introduced it by talking about Reputation being a 'bait and switch' that the album is about finding real love in the noise and learning who your friends are. Taylor Nation has a version of this with part of the intro by cuts Taylor off half way through a sentence at 24:38! They removed the part about a 3am icy swim (1:23)

"So... I found myself, um.. like 2 New Years Eve's ago I found myself in the midst of a very like incredible 3am moment where you think you are invincible and you end up like jumping in a pool in the winter and you feel super untouchable in that moment and the next morning you feel very fragile. And you're like this is love, this is what love really is. Like we all wanna find someone to kiss at midnight, that's cool or whatever But who is gonna want to hang out with me the next day? When you are like Advil or nothing! So this is a song about finding real love and finding someone to hang out with on New Year's Day."

WHY did Taylor Nation cut that? Is it because she sounds high? Because Joe was not there??? Inquiring minds need to know. The rest of their video is complete apart from a 8 second intro.

In her 1989 Grammy Museum talk Taylor talked about making 1989 sonically cohesive after Red didn't win AOTY on 26 January 2014. (6 mins) In other words, a song like New Years Day would have been cut to get AOTY. Harry and Taylors NYE kiss is well known and also in Question...?

Lyrics

There's glitter on the floor after the party Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor You and me from the night before, but

The first verse sets the scene of a morning after a party. On NYE 2013 they stayed in the Greenwich Hotel which does have hardwood floors in the suites and a lobby in which girls can carry shoes in. (I have always wondered about that combo!) Polaroids are a key theme of 1989.

(Chorus) Don't read the last page But I stay when you're lost, and I'm scared, and you're turning away I want your midnights But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

"Don't read the last page" is asking her muse to not close the book on them, to stick the relationship out through the hard and unfun times. There is a similar, or almost responding lyric in Death by a Thousand Cuts: "You said it was a great love / One for the ages / But if the story's over / Why am I still writing pages?" (Avoiding spoilers there’s also chapter references in a 1989 vault track)

Taylor is saying she will stay when it is hard and unglamorous. 'Stay' is in many HS/TS songs. Most recently in As it was "Seems you cannot be replaced / And I'm the one who will stay".

In the last lines of the chorus Taylor says she wants her muses midnights, meaning fun times, but that she will also be there to clean up the figurative and literal messes.

You squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi I can tell that it's gonna be a long road I'll be there if you're the toast of the town, babe Or if you strike out and you're crawling home

The first line of this verse gives us a glimpse of what happened after that Times Square kiss, Harry squeezing her hand to reassure her, them both knowing it was going to be hard. This video captures them as kids, people were yelling their names and police to get to the car. This line explores both 1 night and what was part of the downfall of the relationship.

The second half of the verse is Taylor reiterating that she will stay, if he is the toast of the town or strikes out, meaning regardless of fame. In Sweet Creature, (Released 6 months before Reputation) Harry has a similar message "When I run out of road, you bring me home"

[Bridge] Please don't ever become a stranger Whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

In the Bridge Taylor entertains that they may not stay. “whose laugh I could recognise anywhere" is so beautiful, perfectly capturing holding someone so dear fearing them becoming distant.

[Verse 3] There’s glitter on the floor after the party Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor You and me forevermore

After the bridge the first verse is repeated with 'you and me forevermore' instead of 'from the night before'. Making a vow to hold onto the relationship forever.

[Chorus] Don't read the last page But I stay when it's hard or it's wrong or we're making mistakes I want your midnights But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

Lost/scared/"you're" turning away becomes hard/wrong/"we're" making mistakes. This shows maturity. Rather than turning inward or away in a hard time they are supporting each other and accepting their mistakes.

In the context of the end of the Reputation album about drama and feeling alone Taylor is matured, looking ahead to a partnership.

[Post-Chorus] Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you And I will hold on to you

In the closing Taylor is imploring her muse to hold on, remember the good in them despite hard times and promising to hold on too.

New Years Day has Taymojis

[chidoroki]

182 Days of TPN - Day 168

Chapter 168: "Dad"

I know this is the same room Isabella & Peter were seen having their discussion in back during ch165, but to just have two plain chairs in such a large, empty room seems so extra. Regardless of that, I do like the panel of the trio here, even though they're surprised to find no one here due to the fake footage Peter fooled Vincent with that lead them there.

Dunno how all the kiddos are hearing Peter's message since the teams seem to only have one person with a communication device but whatever. Perhaps he's speaking loud enough for everyone to hear.

Although I have a hard time believing the Ratri men were able to tie up the Adam clones without a fight, I guess anyone will yield once you hold them at gunpoint. Also, the absence of Hayato in this panel is a nice hint to his role next chapter.

While the demon guards don't cause much of a problem during the rest of the story, it still would've been better if the kids killed them off instead of put them to sleep. I get that they didn't wanna kill if they didn't have to, but it would've been one less thing to worry about. Hearing about Sonju & Mujika's execution definitely adds to the stress. Not as much as their deaths could have, but we're thankful Peter was stupid enough to actually wait three days.

Along with all the citizens who drank the evil blood being killed, the Ratri clan and the higher-up demons taking control of the government, let's add the plan to assemble a ton of new Lambda farm into the mix as well. Talk about a big time panic. The premium farms don't sound so bad now huh?

Oh Vincent, you dunno these kids as well as you thought if you honestly believe they would shoot the adults in front of them. Emma, Ray, Don & Gillian couldn't manage to fire a shot at Andrew back when he held Dominic & Alicia hostage after the shelter raid. You're best bet would've been Oliver. This goes back to that old post of mine wondering who, among the kids, would be able to shoot at another human, but I still believe Ray could manage it, if only as a last resort.

The thought of Norman firing at another person was always a toss up for me though. Of course he showed no mercy towards demons during this WM phase, so even with the clear difference between demon and human, I wouldn't have been completely surprised if that cold persona of his came back with a vengeance once he heard Vincent get shot. Peter's been a thorn in Norman side ever since Lambda, so having this bastard personally hurt one of his friends just adds fuel to the fire. Norman (& Ray) did often mention taking down Isabella & Krone back during their GF days if they wanted to escape successfully, so they have level of brutality, it's just been real lowkey. Thankfully none of the children need to get blood on their hands. They've suffered enough already.

Please never say those words with your mouth. No one in this world considers you as that.

Hell yeah Oliver, let him know what's up!! I love that he, Zack & Gillian feel so strongly about the word "dad" because of the relationship they had with Lucas. The same can be said about Ayshe & her father but I can ramble more about all that next chapter.

Favorite panel/moment:

If you've been around me for a while, then you already know how damn hilarious this panel of Norman is to me.

I mean, in context, it's pretty serious, but thanks to a silly edit I've made years ago, I can't look at this panel anymore and not laugh like an idiot. So, now's the perfect time to upgrade it from a noticeable bad edit I made in the car on my phone once upon a time to something more worthy to use every time I lose my mind.

[toastedeggs]

A young doll walks nervously through the halls of its new school. Today is its first day, and the time it had been dreading has finally come: lunchtime. Not to say the doll had any problems with eating, far from it. The issue came in the required socialization that comes with school lunch. Where was a new doll to go? Where to sit? How to act? The answers to these questions eluded the doll, and it was terrified.

The doll entered the cafeteria after much hesitation. Most of the other students had already found their seats, which made the doll stand out even more. It skittishly scans the room, looking for any signs of a friendly face coupled with an empty seat.

There. In a far-off table near the corner of the room, the doll saw someone. A boy sitting with his few friends and laughing. Nearly everything about the boy was dark; dark eyes and darker hair. But in contrast, the boy had a bright smile. The doll could hear his laughter from across the room; it was the kind of laugh that drew you in and made you want to laugh with him. Quickly, the doll made its approach.

With a small wave and an awkward sort of curtsy, the doll spoke up. "Pardon, but is this seat taken? This one seems to be having a hard time finding a place to be." The boy and his friends looked up from their conversation, one the doll didn't understand. Something about cats and warriors? Regardless, the boy spoke up. "By all means, have a seat! Anyone willing to sit with us must be new around here... we're kind of the outcasts in this school," the boy admits. "What's your name, new kid?"

The doll extends its small hand towards the boy. "This one is called Xeruthana. Its friends can call it Xeri!" The boy looks at the hand extended out towards him before giving it a small shake. "It's nice to meet you, Xeri. My name is Oli."

‐--------‐------------------------------------------------------------------------- Many years have passed. Xeri and Oli became fast friends back then, and so it would remain for a long time. But there would come a time when the term "friends" couldn't describe what they had anymore. They would be firsts for one another. Oli was Xeri's first real partner. Xeri was the first to ever treat Oli like a decent human being, let alone be a good partner to him.

Now, in the present day...

"Do you, Oli, take Xeruthana as your lawfully wedded spouse, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, until death do you part?" Oli's eyes were as dark as always, his smile dazzling as he spoke. "I do." The minister nods. "And do you, Xeruthana, take Oli as your lawfully wedded spouse, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, until death do you part?" Xeri blinks back tears, not wanting to ruin the moment. "I do." "Then, by the power vested in me, I now pronounce this couple to be wed. You may kiss."

Oli and Xeri look at one another in a way they've never seen before. They've loved one another for a long time, but somehow, things felt different now. More right. Like things were finally how they were always meant to be.

Afternote: Hi bb! I hope you enjoyed reading this little story I put together. As we hit the end of our first year as a married couple, things feel whole for me. I feel complete in a way that I never did on my own. I know it's silly, and that marriage is really just a piece of paper, but there's no one I'd rather have my name next to on that paper than yours. I love you a whole lot. Here's to many more years together!

[pleuvoire]

2023 books i liked recap because why not

top faves, new entries on the all-timers shelf:

piranesi is like a sweet spot of novels made for me i swear. aesthetically beautiful (as far as mental images go), themes of wonder at the beauty of the world, a slowly unfurling mystery, a simple plot but with vibrant beauty and meaning layered on top. It's Good

giovanni's room also has a very simple plot that is so overlaid with soaring passionate emotion i swear it feels like an opera in book form. timeless classic. it's good idk what to tell you

oh man ancillary justice is such good sci-fi. when you start out reading it you're like this is rather dry but it pulls you in so hard. the worldbuilding! the themes of identity! breq is such a good character!

not quite all-timer shelf but still really good

fish swimming in dappled sunlight is ultimately a story about stories and memory and constructed narratives and the reliability thereof. it takes place over a single night and mostly just consists of characters sitting around talking, but manages to pull some crazy twists on you regardless. love the prose style too

i'm glad my mom died lives up to the acclaim. mccurdy has a real talent for narrative voice, effortlessly inhabiting the viewpoint of her younger self at various ages. balances humor and tragedy with frank candor. i sound like a review pull quote here so i'll stop

infect your friends and loved ones is actually a novella so pretty short! it's by the author of detransition baby and has definitely gotten me interested in reading that. really vivid meditation on trans womanhood and transmisogyny that bounces between post-apocalypse and pre-apocalypse settings. pdf here

less stand-out but i still liked it

what are you are looking for is in the library is a nice little series of loosely connected vignettes about people who are stuck at some point in their life and find inspiration at the library. all the staff at my library job wanted to read it so the hold list was a mile long lol. has inspiring themes about always being able to find a way forward when you're in a rut and the power of community and stuff

a people's history of heaven is about the life and times of a group of girls living in a slum in bangalore, india. i liked how it interwove different people's life stories together and used lots of vivid detail and i like how the trans girl's story was written. some aspects were hit or miss for me but it was still nice

temple alley summer is a kids' book but i like kids' books so that's fine. it's about a boy who sees a ghost and the next day she's a student at his school and everyone seems to already know her but him and it turns out this is because his house was built on top of a mystical temple. i like the meditations on life and death and the simple heartwarmingness. it takes a long unexpected detour in the second half which threw me for a loop but ended up working for the story

stuff i started reading but didn't finish and i swear i'm going to try to get to it this year

to shape a dragon's breath is pretty long so i didn't get that far in before i had to return it to the library but i really liked what i read. the worldbuilding is really interesting and the narrative voice feels fresh and unique and deftly avoids the samey YA mold that tends to grate on me. and it's got commentary on colonialism! definitely check this one out

i got halfway through radium girls which is an accomplishment for me since it's long. rare nonfiction entry on this list. goes into insanely meticulous historical detail complete with fiction-style descriptions and embellishments of the girls' lives which just makes it more tragic

i own a copy of the haunting of hajji hotak but it's seriously harrowing stuff so i had to take breaks. it's good man. but whew it does not shy away from the realities of living under war and occupation. death to america

ok that's everything i think seeya next year

[dcwnrisen-aa]

[ last ]:     a letter sent in the aftermath of the writer’s death. / shoto tehe

The letter arrives in the wake of the aftermath of Shoto's death, an international thing that had spread on the news, broadcasting along side the grief-ridden faces of his friends. The envelope is clean, script written on the front and when it's opened, there's blood on the pages, fingerprints smeared and writing a little haphazard.

Dear Mom( @hembralfa ) , BonBon ( @nvrcmplt ) and Grandpa Bell,

I knew going into this mission would be dangerous. We prepared and prepped as much as we could but there's never a real plan to prepare for death. Or getting seriously injured. I feel like my time as a kid made me immune to pain, to the rush of danger because I've never really been....well, not hypervigilant. But I knew my time as your son, I never worried. I knew you would bring the world down if it meant securing my safety. Time and time again, you showed me I could trust in adults and other than Aizawa-sensei, I didn't ever want to put that trust in someone else.

But I let go, because you made it easy. I felt free, like all my worries mattered, that each pressing emotion was validated and that the child inside me, he was safe, that I could trust his fear, his vulnerability with you. And I'm really glad I did, it was one of the best decisions I ever made. I'm....not perfect. I curse more than I should. I don't respect authority and I can be hotheaded but I've been trying to be better. I didn't realize how much I changed. How much I craved family until you, BonBon, and Grandpa Bell. Even Bobby and Darren. I felt seen, and heard and even laugh more than I'm used to. Bon....he's everything to me.

I've never had a bond like that, I want to protect him, to see him smile, to go on adventures and experience new things. Being a big brother, never knowing what that's like and actually being in those moments ? Don't tell Bon, but I cry sometimes after he's fallen asleep. I want to be his safe space, to know he can come to me when he's feeling sad, when his emotions are too much. When he wants to share things and gets excited when we get to play with my quirk. Tell him I'm sorry we can't do that anymore, tell him not to get sad that I won't be there. Tell him.....tell him he's the best little brother in the world and I'm rooting for him.

I wish you had been my birth mother. Maybe it's not right to confess this, especially given everything she went through because of that bastard, but I think in another life, we would've been mother and son, free of the burdens that weigh us down. Thank you mom, for loving me, for giving me something far more precious to live for. I want you to look back on the near decaded we had together, to know that I valued and appreciate the time as your son, for the family you've given me.

Tell Grandpa Bell, that I'm sorry that I died before I could tell him how much I enjoyed the light and laughter he bought into my life. He is and will always be important to me, my death changes nothing. And for you, I'll always be your son. I'll always cherish the traditions you've passed on. On knowing I could proudly be your kid. Don't be sad, Mom, don't cry for me. Don't tear the world down, save that for the bastards who hurt you. I planned on being by your until I was old enough to get married, and you'd give me away. Regardless, I love you Mom, and I'm sorry that you recieved this at all. Celebrate the memories we made. Goodbye, may this letter reach you safely. I'm sorry.

[the-somewhat-rambling-reviewer]

Love for Love's Sake EP1

I’ve only watched episodes 1-3 so far.

Given the opening scene, I’m worried Yeo Woon is actively suicidal.

Tae Mayung Ha adapts really quickly to this how possibly being in a virtual world thing. I always have trouble with premises such as these, because, I know if too much time is spent on the main character struggling, it’ll turn viewers off, but I also know someone like me would not last long at all if I suddenly found myself in a different world or what have you. I would question my sanity hardcore, and assuming I decided I was still sane, I would likely kill myself in the process of trying to reverse what had happened.

Did his author friend do this to him?

It’s interesting how I haven’t seen anything online about how a 29-year-old is actively pursuing an 18-year-old. Granted, virtual world (possibly), he’s in a 19-year-old body (possibly), and even in the real world, I don’t think there are any countries where a 29-year-old being with an 18-year-old is illegal, nor do I think it should be illegal, either. But also, if an 18-year-old loved one of mine was with or being pursued by a 29-year-old, I would not have good feelings towards this 29-year-old.

This said, it being fiction, I’m not counting myself as hypocritical for the fact I’m shipping Sang Won with Mayung Ha.

Sang Won reminds me so much of Jang Jaeyoung from Semantic Error.

And unfortunately, it seems I’m the only one shipping these two right now.

I don’t dislike Yeo Woon, but I honestly don’t understand why everyone is cooing over him, either. I feel bad for him. I do think people aren’t taking his grandmother’s death into consideration at all and that he should be given time, and possibly, counselling, to actually mourn her. But other than feeling sympathy for him, I don’t see what makes him so appealable to both the audience and Mayung ha

Back to Mayung Ha waking up in the classroom, the teacher’s reaction was milder than I expected, and in this circumstance, sending him to stand in the hall was likely best for Mayung Ha, but a good teacher would actually be trying to find out what caused such a bizarre reaction in a student.

So, Mayung Ha finds Yeo Woon, and it was smart convincing Yeo Woon that he was close to Yeo Woon’s grandmother. All the same, there are more plausible answers to the question of missing her funeral than, oh, sorry, I was so late that I didn’t even make it.  

Speaking of grandmothers, I no longer take cultural or generational differences into consideration when it comes to abuse. Mayung Ha’s grandmother is a horrible person. Parents from 1950s movies and Thailand BL series and so on who lay their hands on their children are terrible people.

Onto non-horrible people, I love that Kyung Hoon is basically Mayung Ha’s teddy bear. It’s not scary to see when he physically stops Kyung Hoon, and in later episodes, he’ll openly cuddle him multiple times.

Speaking of adorable, bedsharing!

I do find it interesting how Asian shows tend to make much less of a big deal about two boys/men sharing a bed when there’s no romantic relationship in play. Which they should. I’m going to squee over most instances of bed-sharing regardless of whether it’s parents co-sleeping with kids, a couple, or just two or more friends, but I don’t find it commentary-worthy in and of itself when two male characters who aren’t in a romantic relationship end up sharing a bed.

I know Yeo Woon and Mayung Ha will almost certainly end up together, but couldn’t it just be a case of Mayung Ha helping this depressed kid be happy and maybe Mayung Ha ending up with Sang Won?

I’m not sure this new format is doing much better at helping me present my thoughts in a coherent fashion, but I’m going to try it a few more times.

[thequietmanno1]

Thelreads, MHA 281, Replies Part 2

1) “WAIT A FUCKING SECOND

ARE YOU FKUING KIDDING ME

ARE YOU FOR REAL

IT IS HIM?

HE IS SHIGARAKI’S GRAND DAD?!

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD NO”- Well, by and large, I don’t think he was actually his granddad, but he certainly occupied an emotional spot similar to him in Nana’s life, being the one she turned to for emotional support when she just couldn’t bear the weight of her decision to separate from her son anymore. Given how he’s mentored both All Might and Izuku, I certainly see him as a pseudo grandfather-figure, so the emotional impact is very much there regardless of familial blood ties. 2) “WELP, BYE BYE GRAN TORINO, GLAD WE FOUND OUT OF YOUR CONNECTION BEFORE YOU DIED, NOW GO AND MEET YOUR FOOT UP IN VALHALLA”- It should be pointed out, Tomura’s hand has no cutting power to it. He rammed a hole straight through Torino’s guts through sheer brute crushing force, and almost certainly wreaked his spine in the process.

3) “OH MY FUCKING GOD HE IS SHIGARAKI’S GRANDAD

OH GOD NOW I FEEL LIKE HIS HATRED OF SHIGARAKI MAKES EVEN MORE SENSE THAN BEFORE, AS WELL AS HIS PEP TALK TO ALL MIGHT ABOUT HOW HE NEEDED TO BE TAKEN DOWN. HE WAS CONVINCING HIMSELF OF WHAT HAD TO BE DONE

OH FUCK SAKE

HE WAS HURTING HIS FAMILY TO HELP COMPLETE STRANGERS

FUYCK YOU HORIKOSHI”-  Not gonna lie, that would certainly make it a triple-ironic parallel for this chapter, but sadly no, it really does seem that gran Torino is just Nana’s close friend.

4) “You know, I just realized another thing to add to that phrase

Shigaraki, although a villain, is also seen by the people that follow him as their hero, someone to save them of this oppression of society, even though they don’t actually know him 

He’s a hero hurting his family to protect complete strangers

god fucking dammit.”-  Tomura’s ‘hero’ status amongst the villains is why he’s practically impossible to put down- he’s got the standard heroic tenacity buoying him up even time they smack him down to his lowest point, though he’s a great deal more feral and unhinged about it.

5) “Oh hey Aizawa, you’re still here? Silly question, of course you fucking are, as usual, we wouldn’t be able to kill you to death otherwise”-  You joke, but Tomura needs to get through him to get his powers back, and there’s a lot of chapters still to go in this story, so it sure doesn’t seem like he’s losing this fight….

(MHA ch 257) 6) “He`s trying to get away from the curse of doomed character Aizawa, what about you? You have a daughter now, you better make sure you stay safe as well, because if you die I`ll travel aaaaall the way to hell to kill you again, you got that?”- He’s doing his best to survive, but Tomura’s equally as determined to remove the obstacle that holding him back from freely unleashing his new might, the one chain restricting him from destroying everything as he pleases…

7) “OH OUCH JESUS CHRIST STOP THAT RIGHT THIS INSTANT”- Tomura has become the Pain Train, barrelling straight through all obstacles and tearing them apart with his never-ending charge.

8) “Well you certainly ain’t showing it Shigaraki, but I suppose that even at your current state you have a limit. You didn’t got complete after all, your potential is far below the limit”- The closer he gets to his limit, the harder he fights, because he refuses to lose. In a sense, when he starts going berserk and throwing everything he’s got at you, that’s when you know he’s on the ropes…and therefore, you are too.

9) “Eeeyy Midoriya, glad you finally got here, it was such a long journey all the way from five meter behind here, glad you managed to arrive right on time.”-  Tomura’s just that fast. Even with Ryukyu slowing him down and being dragged along, he was charging full force at Aizawa and nearly reached him regardless, and even Bakugou, whose Quirk makes him lighting-fast, can’t keep up with his sheer speed – it’s only Izuku, whose full potential puts him close to Tomura’s present level, that can react even slightly quicker to reach him, and even then he just really can’t match him on any category right now. 10) “oh wow fuck me that one was fucked up, even got some chills”-

Izuku: I’ll kill you for what you’ve done!! Tomura: I know. And in exchange, I’m gonna kill everybody for what they didn’t do. 11) “OOF THAT ONE HURT ME

MIDORIYA’S STOMACH ALMOST MADE A TRIP UPSTAIRS”- That’s a backhand from a awkward angle, in a position that he can’t leverage much strength, and Tomura’s hit still makes Izuku cough blood. A full swing would probably turn him into red mist. 12) “OH JESUS FUCK HE BROKE THROUGH THE HAND OH GOD OH FUCK NO THAT IS HORRIBLE”-  It’s not just that he gets more tenacious, but that Tomura maintains a tranquil state of mind even as his fighting becomes more unhinged. You can see him reaching for the bullet before he charges at Aizawa, and he forced his hand through Ryukyu’s in order to have a clear shot at him with it, not just vainly trying to tear his way through the obstacle with his flagging strength. On top of that, he’s also reaching for a second bullet with his free hand, in case his first one doesn’t work. He’s had a plan in mind the whole time he was running at Aizawa, and the heroes are barely able to react to his moves to slow him down, let alone stop him.

13) “OH GOD OH FUCK HE HAS THE FUCKING ERASING BULLET IN HANDS I FORGOT ABOUT THAT FUCKING THING”- And despite being intimately involved with the Hassaki raid, Izuku not knowing that Tomura got the bullets at the end of it all means he’s focusing on physically stopping his charge, not the items he’s aiming at Aizawa. 14) “holy shit it’s not every chapter that you go in and say “I think I’m going to be fucking emotionally obliterated tonight” but those are rolling out with an increasing frequency this arc

I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing to be honest But I’m absolutely and 100% down to find out”-  Oh yeah, Horikoshi’s chapters are on a roll this arc. I arguably feel like they don’t really drop off in quality or intensity even through the remaining ones up to the present. @thelreads

[brick-a-doodle-do]

You know what, fuck it.

All 50 questions, go

........................okay..! i'll do c!brick :D

1 : do they have any crafting hobbies?

of course she does! she's a borrower! brick is really good with a needle so she makes a lot of like blankets and tapestries, occasionally clothes too :D andd honestly she'll use anything to make anything,,,

2 : do they wear perfume/cologne? if so what scents do they prefer?

brick doesn't wear perfume because she doesn't know what it is. and if she did, she wouldn't touch it :) (i hate perfume irl too)

3 : do they enjoy cooking?

no, she wants things that need no preparation!

4 : do they enjoy baking?

no for the same reason, but she likes baked goods. then again no one's thrown her into a kitchen before,,,

5 : do they have any tattoos? if so what are they and do they have any meaning?

no tattoos!

(more under cut)

6: if they were badly injured, and for whatever reason couldn't go to a hospital, who would they go to for help?

well she can't go to a hospital at all, so the only thing to do would be to go to c!orchid or c!becky

7 : do they have any unusual fears?

c!brick is pretty fearless because of her cockiness and need to be brave. and if you look deep down inside her she doesn't have anything particularly unusual. i mean.....if being crushed under a hand or squeezed to death counts as unusual to a non-g/t fellow,,,

8 : do they collect anything? if so what and why?

she collects lil pieces of stone when she's outside. sometimes she does stuff with it but there's just a growing pile of pebbles and rubble in the corner of her room. the first lil piece of stone she found was a brick, hence the name :D there's no real reason behind this

she also collects the normal borrower stuff: bits of scrap, matches, string, etc.

9 : when they're sick what do they do to feel better?

she's standoffish as hell so she wouldn't immediately go to c!orchid or c!becky unless she was like dying, so she would stick to herself for a while until caving and maybe asking a human for help. but to feel better, she'll usually just craft something. maybe rearrange stuff in her room (terrible for being sick but mentally it calms her)

10 : do they have any regrets?

not really. being seen by c!becky and eventually meeting c!orchid can sometimes linger in her mind at night but she doesn't exactly regret it, it's just that underlying fear from when she bothered to follow some of borrower code

11 : do they have any addictions?

nope! she likes a lot of things in one serving

12 : do they have a sense of style? regardless of the answer do they believe they have a sense of style?

a borrower's clothing style (and just general style) depends a lot on the material that their human has, and more specifically the stuff they can get their hands on. but from what c!brick gets, she thinks she has a nifty gift for knowing how things will look.

13 : do they enjoy poetry?

she has no idea what that is! if she did, though, she probably wouldn't. she'd appreciate it but it won't hold her interest

14 : do they have a hard time opening up to people?

yes! chatting with her can come kind of easily (more so than actually opening up) but it takes a while for her to warm up to people

15 : what kind of sense of humor do they have? or do they have one at all?

i'm not going to bother thinking of a whole new sense of humor, so my humor. she has my humor.

16 : do they want or have kids?

she doesn't have any, and never wants any

17 : how easily would they be convinced to do something that goes against their morals?

it would take a while, if it ever did work. she does things a certain way and generally she doesn't like ruining that flow! very stubborn

18 : how easy is it to become their enemy?

very easy! even with the newfound friendship with c!orchid & c!becky, brick still kind of sees them like a playful threat. so imagine that but there's no underlying joke

19 : how easy is it to become their friend?

eh, depends. like i said, it takes a while for her to warm up to people, so therefore she doesn't exactly just click with people. and as she likes doing things her own speed, she prefers if people don't try and pry her out of her home or out of her comfort level (which is pretty non-existent considering her whole "fearless" facade. so it'd take a few weeks to be acquaintances, maybe a month for friendship. could be longer,,

20 : do they have a strong connection to their culture?

ehhhh not really. from the start she never really bother obeying borrower code because she knew the danger but also took into consideration how a handful humans don't throw a fit when they see a bug and knew there was some hope.

21 : what is more important to them: friends or family?

friends all the way. she doesn't really have any family because they left her on her own once she reached a certain age and she hasn't seen them, or any other borrower, ever since :)

22 : would they ever betray anyone for money?

money has no value to brick, but she probably would if it did or if she was human,,,,

23 : how would they want to die?

in a fight with a cat. context? nuhuh :)

24 : do they have any enemies?

everyone is kind of her enemy. sometimes in a playful way and other times in a genuine way

25 : do they have a daily/night routine?

as a borrower there isn't a ton you could do to spice up your day. it's either walls, house, or outside. so she kind of follows a routine of borrowing in the late night if she needs something, practicing hobbies during the day and venturing around the house in the early morning. but after she meets c!orchid & c!becky they do more spontaneous things since yk..humans

26 : have they met any of their heroes? did they regret it?

brick doesn't really have any heroes, her life has been independently done for her whole life

27 : has a chance encounter ever had an unexpected effect on them?

c!becky finding her ofc! that turned her life right around :D

28 : are they a #gamer

of course 😎 (no)

29 : if they were real would you be friends with them?

100%, she seems SO cool

30 : if they had the chance to be famous would they take it? if they are famous would they rather they weren't?

she probably would take the opportunity to be famous. just because

31 : what superpower would you choose for them and what would they choose for themselves? if they have one would they choose something else?

i would choose shapeshifting for her and she would choose invisibility!

32 : if they could change one thing about themself, what would it be?

she would change nothing! she is surprisingly satisfied with herself

33 : do they play ttrpgs? if so what kind of characters do they play? or are they more likely to gm?

they don't play ttrpgs but if she did she would get SO invested in acting out things. (tinies playing ttrpgs are my favorite thing ever)

she would probably be some like evil character with a god complex with a terribly high amount of betrayal arcs that are way too packed together to even be surprising anymore,,

34 : how well do they deal with grief?

she hasn't experienced it yet, but she would probably be bad at it and have unhealthy coping mechanisms

35 : do they believe in fate or do they believe that they are in charge of their own destiny?

she believes she's in charge of her own destiny! but there's also a part of her that believes everything happens for a reason, which is a part of her trying not to be so pessimistic about everything

36 : would they ever kill someone? have they already?

she would probably kill someone. not intentionally (maybe) but by accident maybe if she took one of her schemes too far

37 : are they religious? if so do they have a strong sense of faith, are they uncertain, or are they somewhere in between?

she's agnostic (leaning on atheist) with a sprinkle of unsure pantheism (like me :D)

38 : what are their dreams like? do they have any recurring dreams/nightmares?

brick rarely dreams. rarely rarely. when she does she barely remembers it in the morning and just continues on with life, unbothered by any nightmares or dreams she may have had!

39 : would they ever crash a wedding?

for fun, yes. for personal benefit, also yes, but it's more unlikely.

40 : if they found a sword in a stone would they try to pull it out? how would they react to being able to pull it out or not?

she would try and pull it out despite being so small, and DESPITE BEING SMALL, she would complain about it and call it rigged

41 : do they learn from their mistakes?

for about 2.7 days then she does it again :D

42 : can they speak multiple languages? if yes what do they speak and why?

brick speaks english and that's it. they've picked up the general like "hola" and "uno" but other than that she's boring

43 : can they handle stressful situations?

yes! she works really well under pressure, especially if she's yelling at someone :D

44 : who, if anyone, would she trust with her deepest secrets?

nobody. maybe a bug

45 : do they plan in advance or just wing it?

wing it! sometimes she'll make a rough outline for a plan but generally she just goes into it headfirst and hopes for the best

46 : would they lie to get out of trouble?

absolutely. she's really good at it too despite never being in a situation like that,,

47 : would they lie to get someone else out of trouble? even if they would have to take someone else's place?

she would lie to get someone out of trouble if they were close to her. she does like snitching. but she probably wouldn't do it to take their place unless they're REALLY close to this person

48 : how likely are they to go on a quest for revenge?

as soon as someone does something inconvenient to her, she's plotting revenge. this is the only time she plans something

49 : do they have trouble keeping their enemies and their friends straight?

she's small, so it's not easy, but she definitely tries to keep people straight. sometimes it works, but more often than not it doesn't,,,,

50 : what is your favorite thing about them?

ehhh appearance maybe? this is for borrower!brick not the like more non-human brick i have in the works but still i like her appearance a lot! her personality is close behind bc i stole it from techno & george sdhfdgdfjs

wow orchid you really just had me to do that...

t- thanks for the ask :'D

ask game !!

[empiriical]

reasons why you should && should not write with each of my baccanos:

JACUZZI SPLOT. pro: your muse will end up friends with him. he hasn't yet managed to make a real enemy within the events of canon. he will also look out for them selflessly. this is an ally for life. overall, a safe choice. con: his crybaby tendencies can be grating, && it takes a certain about of stalwart patience to deal with him. if your muse doesn't have some sliver of generosity in their heart, or they simply have better things to do, they might end up just being annoyed by him.

ELMER C. ALBATROSS. pro: similarly, elmer has a way of befriending anyone ; or rather, he will make an attempt to befriend anyone. he has very little filter, && no subjectivity, which means he'll approach everyone with the same enthusiasm && willingness to lend a hand in exchange for a smile, regardless of what kind of person they are. this makes him a chameleon of a muse, which is great for throwing him in any scenario. con: he can be obnoxious, which might be off-putting, but overall i have no real reasons to not interact with him. please. please interact with him.

CZESLAW MEYER. pro: if you like eternal children, immortality, kids with sharper wit than their age should allow, or someone who will get up to shenanigans if they like you enough, czes is the muse for you. he may as well be a well-dressed street urchin, at least in appearance && the mask he wears, && he does genuinely look out for people, even if he has an ulterior motive. con: he's not very trusting, && might be standoffish. he's also already got an adoptive family, so that's not necessarily gonna be an option. also, if you don't enjoy kids who act like adults ( even if they technically are adults ) then he's not gonna be the muse for you.

MAIZA AVARO. pro: maiza's got a good heart && is very genuine. he's gonna be honest && straightforward with your muse, but as long as you don't have it out for his friends ( the immortals or his organization, the martillo family ) he'll be nothing but polite && kind, && would likely be willing to help out with anything. also he loves musicals && i think someone should go to the theatre with him. if your muse is involved in crime in new york in any capacity, though, you've probably got an in with him, for better or for worse. con: he's somewhat secretive && guarded, && because he has such a complicated past && identity that he can't really talk about, there's a good chance your muse won't get to know him beyond a surface level.

LADD RUSSO. pro: if conflict is something you like writing, there's a good chance you'll get that writing with ladd. if your muse tends to ignore the possibility of death or is so egotistical that they believe they're incapable of dying, he's gonna try to kill them. but he loves killing, so it'll be fun. contrarily, if your muse manages to make him laugh, or earn his respect, then they've got a sworn brother in him forever. he's a real bro when he wants to be. either way, he's a fucking riot. if you want to write with someone completely unhinged, he's your guy. con: everything else about him, which honestly outweighs the pros. interact at your own risk ( but also please interact, he's so fun ).

BERGA GANDOR. pro: he's a sweet guy, even if he can be spurred to violence at the drop of a hat. you have to have a reason to be his friend or ally, but once you are, he's gonna look out for you, with plenty of affection. he'll make dinner for you. or if you're willing to get a little rough, he loves a good play-fight, && is 10x more likely to get chummy with your muse if they can tussle a little. con: he's not the best communicator. not for lack of trying, he's just not very good with words, && isn't the kind of person who can easily lead a conversation. he's also incredibly intimidating, so unless your muse can see through that or is willing to stand their ground, he may just frighten them off.

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Punisher season 1 thoughts

• why is it actually good?! I’ve been operating on the assumption that it’s mediocre at best for YEARS I am fuming

• there are 3 different nightmare-inducing moments in the first episode alone, maybe I’m glad I didn’t watch this earlier

• why are so many of the characters scumbags??? it’s painful, man. I don’t want the r-slur in my tv, thanks

• man, I could never do military stuff, I just don’t get it

• Karen!!!!

• Frank and Sarah’s interactions are everything man, they’re so real and vulnerable and befriending someone who inadvertently fills the hole grief left behind is just grrrrrrrrr /pos

• Karen and Dinah my favorite girlbosses gaslighting each other into oblivion, who’s interviewing who here lmao, regardless I’m down and I want more

• Frank and David enemies to reluctant friends my beloved

• Frank kissing Karen on the cheek I am going to implode

• GOD the scene with Frank and Zack and then David coming and Frank having to push him away

• LEWIS! Gosh darn it, I’m not surprised but dang

• Frank comparing Karen to what Sarah means to David, oh my heart

• Karen has never not girlbossed, all day every day, as she should

• Frank and Curtis :((( I have nothing to say but the scene where he cuts the wire means so freaking much to me

• Gosh, the news finding out about Frank is such a cool scene

• Karen my beloved <333

• Sarah and the kids :(

• Dinah does some girlbossing of her own

• David and Leo :(((

• Frank is absolutely terrifying and I love that for him

• Marion pulling Orange through the mud and serving his rear to him on a platter AS SHE SHOULD

• Midani!!! FRANK!!!! The gang’s all here!!

• Frank and Leo :((

• IF DAVID’S DEAD IM GOING TO SCREAM

• NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

• YES!!!!

• Slap him, slap him, slap him, Sarah!!! Oh this is worse, actually

• Russo redemption arc :) still don’t like him but y’know

• Frank Castle the man who doesn’t know how to die, it’s almost sad

• Bill’s still a creep and a scumbag and I stand by that

• David goading Frank to call him a traitor and then breaking down “my friend is dying” :(((((

• Dinah’s father serving Frank without hesitation my beloved

• You racist, ableist piece of crap

• Psychological warfare ain’t cool, bro

• Everything about Frank wordlessly cutting those kids free and them collapsing in to each other before sinking to the floor and sitting with Frank and a quiet “Thank you”

• Frank in therapy means so much to me, you have no idea. It really is the difference between him and all the bad guys this season: they all refuse to acknowledge that they are broken and view needing help as weakness. Frank has never tried to justify his actions to anyone else, he knows he’s messed up, he wants to fix the world around him and his whole arc here is about him learning to acknowledge his wounds and start to let them heal

• The last words of this show being “I’m scared” do something to me. Frank has never been afraid of blood or violence or death, he’s afraid of living, of finding something worth staying alive for, and of losing it all over again