#deadcatwithaflamethrower

[arinrowan]

There is a lot of difficult stuff happening in my life right now, and I am grieving, and also, understandably, having a lot of moments where I feel blank or am mildly disassociating. So, I would like to take this time to thank deadcatiwthaflamethrower for, when her behaviour was called out last year, insisting that it made her experience ‘medical grade shock’. Which is, of course, different from disassociating or any other trauma response, because only bad people disassociate since it leaves you open to possession by demons. Anyway, thanks deadcatwithaflamethrower for having no idea how trauma responses work and giving me a brief moment to smile anytime I’m blank and remember ‘medical grade shock.’

[orbeavariegata]

A Crack Only You Can See :: Awaken The Stars ::

[thegilewhodreamswhileawake]

Hi!!

I was wondering if you deleted your fanfic of Star Wars called Legacy? I found the podfic, but not the story it’s self. If you did delete well you send me a file of it? If not that is more then alright!!! Please and thank you!!

[delicatelyshadygalaxy]

Black Hole

Petition to change “Black Hole” to “Space Oubliette”   “It’s a place you put people (or cranky demon-beasties) to forget about ‘em”   @deadcatwithaflamethrower

[norcumii]

your name came up in one of the discord screenshots about the flamethrower drama, i didn't want to ask until i saw your tag comments but it was about useing your goodname to weigh in on this situation. Honestly i don't know the truth of what happened other than the alleged abuse matches personal experiences from completely different irl people

This is fascinating. Now, maybe I missed a post in all the drama – gods know I’ve tried to keep clear of a lot since I cannot with much of anything lately (see the recent lack of regular posting), but I honestly don’t know how many discord screenshots ARE running around in the first place, let alone which ones you’re referencing. The one post I do know about, I couldn’t find my name ANYWHERE in there until in the actual text down near the bottom of a very large image. Hell, I don’t think I even spoke up in any of those screenshots. 

So I have no idea if this is actually in good faith or not, but let’s proceed as if it is just in case, given I have no idea what’s actually being asked in the first place. Here’s my best guess!

Look, I’ll be honest. I don’t know what went down – I wasn’t there when shit happened. In 2016, I was getting out of my own terrible relationship, and spending several years focused ENTIRELY on trying to become functional again while trying not to watch Agent Orange burn down the White House. It was still a really stressful time, even out of that relationship.

Here’s what I do know. I’ve been chatting with Flamethrower pretty consistently over roughly 8 years. The only times I’ve EVER heard anything about phoenixes, aliens, gods, demons, and/or angels has solely been in the realm of discussing fic. I don’t recall reincarnation even coming up once in any context. I’d like to think we’re pretty good friends, so one would think if that was a significant part of her identity there’d be SOME kind of segue when we were talking about related elements over eight years.

It would be some pretty impressive compartmentalization to keep me entirely ignorant about that. Certainly not impossible, but impressive given how our conversations tend to wander. And even if that IS the case, even if she does believe any of the more out there things, consider this: I’ve been talking with her for eight years, and not once has this come up. If she does buy into anything about phoenixes, aliens, gods, demons, and/or angels, then for the last eight years she’s respected my boundaries and interest and/or lack thereof regarding theology and mysticism to never even get into it. Seriously, any time that part of the accusations shows up, THAT part is the one that leaves me gaping and gesturing in vague and useless circles because it comes entirely out of left field. If she does believe it, she sure as shit isn’t working to spread that doctrine. 

I visited Flamethrower and her family somewhere in...*squints* 2015? Early 2016? I don’t know offhand, just somewhere in the last year or so of my hell relationship, but before their housemate moved in. And I spent a delightful long weekend with her and her family. The kids were incredibly sweet and one even lent me their room for that time so I’d have a cat free place to sleep – I’m wildly allergic to cats, to the point where I tend to travel with my own air filter nowadays because unfortunately, so many of my friends also have cats.

The atmosphere was thoroughly comfortable – I do know for a fact that during that time and for several years afterwards, I was hypervigilant to interpersonal stress and friction (the first few times my parents had tiffs and disagreements after I moved back in with them were WILDLY stressful and I was freaked out WELL out of proportion to their grumpiness with each other). I think there wasn’t 100% smooth sailing – there was something about a meal not going as planned, I think? And the kids had a few disagreements – but it was all settled pretty quick and gave off the vibe that these are folks who know how to conflict resolution. Sure I got a little twitchy - I still do when watching interpersonal conflict on tv. It cleared out very quickly, and far moreso than when my folks have had disagreements. 

(For the record, the kid who lent me their room never seemed grumpy or resentful about the fact, and both kids seemed to be happy to have a guest over. The biggest issue seemed to be that I tended to slip and addressing them as ‘kiddos’ which they were very kind in continuing to correct me to not do that.)

Even the cats were wildly friendly – even moreso than the usual “ah, new human I see you are allergic PET ME THAT WILL MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER” shenanigans I tend to get from random animals. I recall that at one point I was sitting on a couch, poking my laptop while chatting with folks, and one of the cats decided it was the perfect time to cuddle up in my lap for pettings. I screeched and tried to levitate; the cat kept going right OVER my legs and had to be corralled by one of the humans.

I don’t understand how in a high conflict environment the cats could be THAT comfortable not just around a new stranger, but also to go running TO their humans for protection.

I did not see ANY evidence of violence, unusual levels of strife, or controlling behavior. I have no freaking idea what went down in a household I wasn’t in. I remember during 2016 to 2018 there were chat conversations about strained interactions; very occasionally annoying neighbors; NEVER anything about any sort of demons or demonic possessions. Really, to my knowledge all we have is the claims of one person against the other, and when it comes to the claims I’ve been hearing against Flamethrower?

I just know that the math doesn’t seem to add up.

[irradiate-space]

1.8 million words of a neat hack, linguistics porn, and rummaging around in JKR's basement to create a very sweet alternative solution to Voldemort. Bonus appearances from Salazar Slytherin, the Peverell Brothers, the Dursleys, and so much more. Snape entertains a portrait. Harry goes on an unexpected adventure. Several people assume secret identities. There's hurt/comfort and memory loss and no one uses their wand as a vibrator.

If I say more, I'll spoil the main gambit, which is given away in the first book.

Quality work, @deadcatwithaflamethrower

[theelizabethjoy]

I've been very overwhelmed of late. So what do I do for comfort? Reread this for the third time in like 18 months. Yes it's that good so read it if you haven't.

[jahaliel]

Hey, @deadcatwithaflamethrower Here’s an Awaken the Stars fanpoem for the ultimate family of badasses. You are amazing and very dear to me.  <3 Transcription below a cut

Holly ~ Zinnia ~ Thyme Pride bursting, family restored - now the Storm is breaking, the war horns sounding Time gifted to heal a little, to rest and Learn safe from prying eyes, then sail home Even after giving all away, the trade is Worth it - soft hands and true smiles Hold your breath; you are not alone And soon you will find your way Though there have been trials you haven’t Faltered - for family you would do more She is alive, and you pray her sleep is Undisturbed by nightmares bleak For years longed for, now reunited and There is nothing like hugging your twin And nothing is impossible when you Are one family, together against all odds Together you have fought, and run, and Someday you know that you will return

[arinrowan]

deadcatwithaflamethrower and fundraising

So!  

Recently, I have seen deadcatwithaflamethrower commenting on a lot of posts (I have her blocked but her reblogs still show up on my dash). Her contributions have been casual, positive statements, vague comments, just general stuff that makes it seem like she’s a nice and interesting person you might want to follow. Here’s why that’s a problem.  

In July she was temporarily suspended from AO3 for multiple counts of violating the no monetization policy. She handled this with quiet dignity and – who am I kidding, she threw a massive temper tantrum, threatened to delete all her work, and claimed all of this was part of a conspiracy targeting her and triggering medical grade shock. Some abuse allegations from deadcatwithaflamethrower were disclosed at about the same time, which resulted in further spiraling (documentation below).  

Thanksgiving weekend, she posted to her blog saying she’s planning to sue OTW. There have also been indirect comments about getting a restraining order against the person who made the abuse allegations. As that person lives in a different state than deadcatwithaflamethrower and has not spoken to her in four years, wishing her the best of luck with that.  

The most obvious reason deadcatwithaflamethrower is posting about her plans for legal action is she’s going to be doing fundraising. She’s raised over $90,000 via Ko-fi in the past (documentation below), and I suspect having her AO3 account temporarily suspended and the fallout from her behaviour in July has been impacting her cash flow. She’s likely setting things up to rehabilitate her image on tumblr before posting about how expensive legal funds ended up being, how unfair this is, and asking for contributions.  

Don’t give this person money. Don’t give this person attention. Don’t reblog posts from her that might get more people involved with her. This isn’t cancel culture, or bullying, this is actions having consequences.  

Following blog for more comprehensive documentation on her behaviour with dates and names: 

https://www.tumblr.com/deadcatwithaflamethrower-fuckery

[bellapevensie96]

@deadcatwithaflamethrower

I think it's been over a year since you gave me info I had asked for about clorhing in the Founder's Era for OaLC, but I wanted to show you the Rowena Ravenclaw dress I made. It's not 100% completed due to time constraints since I'm going to a faire in a few days... (don't have time to make / embroider the brown trim for the side gores)... But I still wanted to show you the shiny you and your stories have inspired! I will hopefully get a photo of the entire outfit later to give the full effect! Thank you again for wonderful stories!

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

Yeah I'm pretty sure I've been referencing that one before! Oh man this really feels like fanworks in retrospect

[ruinconstellation]

Wow that took a long time. For @deadcatwithaflamethrower. If I tried to add on all of the Weasley and Potters, it would be an even worse mess. I’m not sure where Charlotte and Belvina come from.

[eliward]

@deadcatwithaflamethrower

i’m on the 5th or 6th re-read... lost count...

and this scene of Sal waiting for Nizar to wake up after the removal just wanted to come out...

[elvencantation]

made this butterfly bookmark but it is so large it only fits on my OaLC Books 😂 (i am on the last book. what will i do when i’m done??? go reread swung by seraphim i guess?)

[theelizabethjoy]

I had to wait to read this chapter until I felt better... It still killed me.

[jahaliel]

without limit

@deadcatwithaflamethrower unbound and free from constraint no joy no anger no childlike hope just boundless creativity that takes and takes and does not hear, cannot listen for the stars are universes in limitless vision when all that can be seen is the power of what could be do objections matter when you can be without morals no alpha no omega no state of mind just a creative vision to make true until parameters are irrevocably altered (still haven't watched rvb XD)