#date: 01.03.25

[khajiit-journal]

Fredas, Morning Star 03, 2025

(Friday, January 01, 2025)

Dream interpretation first, as always.

I was friends with this family who ran this restaurant. For the first half that I remember, I was sulky and upset for having been scared and tormented by someone else entirely. But the rest, I was trying desperately to save the matriarch from a god-given illness, by performing a ritual and pleading with the gods. I woke up before I succeeded.

I... don't know what this means per se. I can make a few solid guesses, that the former part is due to the haunting I'm enduring. But the part about the god-given illness? I... really don't know.

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My new tools arrived today! Safaa (Rumi oracle), Aileas (Imbolc oracle), Bao (Mahjong), and Lilian (Sibilla oracle). I've done some test readings with them today, and also did some with Nadia (G-Witch).

I made sure to thank Hermaeus Mora for all of this. As always, I deeply appreciate the work It puts in for me and this part of my practice that I am utterly Feral about.

I opened some free reading slots for Nadia/G-Witch. Quite a few people took up slots which I'm really happy about, but I feel a bit bad I can't do it all same-day delivery, but then again, I need to be kinder to myself and not be a little butt to myself. I think as of writing this I'm done for the night, I'm physically tired and maybe a bit spiritually tired? I dunno, I'm not very good at listening to myself, but Hermaeus Mora and Lucifer both are asking me to at least take a break before returning to it. So I will. I'll heed them, maybe eat some dessert or something. Watch some stuff.

I am proud of myself for saying "Thank you for your patience!" instead of "Sorry for the wait!" on my reading posts end blurb. I know it's small, but it's kind language like that that I deserve.

I did some personal Mahjong readings and plan on roping some friends into receiving some. If I wasn't so shy I'd reach out and ask a mutual or two if they want some, at least the mutuals I properly interact with.

I also made a taglist for this blog, visible from here. I'll update it daily as I need to. I like having taglists. It's something that used to be more popular on Tumblr back in the early 2010s of its life, when I used it the first time, and I haven't quite let go of that aspect.

I wanna write some TES related posts or queue more stuff up for that blog, but I dunno what to do. Maybe "worship" posts. How to worship them, with a section on subtle worship. I got the idea from someone else, but I don't know how many ideas I'll have for actually worship, despite doing it every day of my life.

I just feel very strongly about TES. I have a post in queue about Azurah's triple aspect/triple form as Human, Mer, and Khajiit and how it looks like the depiction of the Triple Goddess and what that can mean for Her worship; and another about Clavicus Vile likely being based somewhat off of the Christian idea of Lucifer.

TES means a lot to me. The Gods in it mean a lot to me. I would give up so much for them, but they would never ask me to do anything like that. Well. to an extreme, I mean. They do ask me to give stuff up to them, just nothing... "so much".

I should work on finishing Clavicus Vile's quick start so I can post it. I don't have to worry about Akatosh's, but Meridia's day is the 13th, and Haki's day is coming up on the 24th. I know I can churn these out at the speed of light if I just focus, but with ADHD, it doesn't always happen, lol. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself...

Speaking of the 13th, I need to... focus more on the actual cleansing rituals and everything. I know everyone (my spirit guides) is telling me to chill, to not speedrun it, but... I. y'know. I like to get things done. I don't like having a to-do list.

And also, as an aside, I added something to my parents list for myself for groceries (that I can use otherwise) and turns out it's not at the store so it has to be ordered online. Which is really good I did that, because otherwise I wouldn't have been able to find it when I needed it for my spells, which I really wanna do The Big Shadow Realm One on the new moon this month. To start the year with January's new year energy and the energy of the new moon. I also don't want to wait to perform it even longer.

There's really not much else for me to say today. No spellwork done or anything, just messing with decks, as ya do. So... well, it's not goodnight, I won't be in bed for another hot minute, but g'night.

[stressedlawsecretary]

Today's Focus

01.03.25 - Almost wrote a December date today lol. I'm very pleased it's Friday; I want the weekend to sleep again, especially because the temperatures have dipped due to incoming lake effect snow. This office is freezing and I don't have my blanket; it's packed away for the renovation so I'm just huddled in a cubicle, cold. So cold; so very cold.

Work - I have a parole hearing that has to go in NYM, but other than that it's just following up the defendants in the Ramsey case because there are so many of them. With any luck, other than seeing SJC so she can give me an Xmas gift, it stays quiet and I don't have to run around like I did yesterday.

Background Noise - I am in the office, and this time I did NOT forget my Raycons, so I get to actually listen to videos today. I have plenty lined up, most of which are between 30-60 minutes, watched on 1.5x speed. As for yesterday, I managed to get a dozen (12) videos off of the slop playlist, all of which were between 30-60 minutes; then, I got seven more off of my watch later while I cooked & did my chores - giving me a total of 19 total videos.

Study - Friday means I need to be reading Wikipedia pages (as if I don't already; I read like half a dozen on the way home yesterday) and I have like three, plus one from NamuWiki set up to read today. Meanwhile, yesterday I read pages of books, but I didn't read full chapters or anything - I was running around most of the day trying to do a hand service and a mailing for Connor in a particularly difficult case of his. Had me printing nearly 600 combined pages of bullshit to be hand delivered to a judge and FedEx'd to an incarcerated plaintiff.

Extras - Friday means I have to clean the catbox out and prep it for the weekend; probably have to buy more litter during the errands this weekend too. I don't have to cook, however; we moved order out day to Friday because Wednesday was the holiday. We're doing subs from Jim's, then I'm coming home and watching like five episodes of Zyuohger and maybe bullying hunny into playing more Fairy Fencer F for me. Today's writing project is to make more headway on my updated version of the hierarchy of needs.