#daoc Acien

[narutomaki]

my rattling one of my Wardens around in a tin can until he falls out in Inquisition: looks guys in playing Dragon Age too!!!

[narutomaki]

OC Smash or Pass

Tagged by: no one in particular and thus tagging no one in particular unless @shikakunaras wants to do it with any of his Naruto ocs

Rules: Include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. The “other” label can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idk).

ACIEN TABRIS

Dual braid + mullet as of DA:I single braid in DA:O , darker skin tone than appears on my camera bcus I can't take screenshots and the phone lightens it slightly, facial scars are fairly new (2-3 years old) along with his tattoo , hairy as fuck under his clothes

Quick Facts:

Height: 5' 6" to 6' (how slouched is he, what time of day is it, hows his spine doing, etc)

Age: 27-28 (as of DA:I)

Class: Rouge Mage (mage powers awoke during the Circle of Magi quest in DA:O)

Gender: nonbinary male

Pronouns: he/him or he/it depending on how close you are

Sexuality: he tries not to think about it ( probably bi is the best/shortest way to say it)

Pros:

- really good knee and ankle strength and stability

- maxed out locking picking and persuasion ;)

- bottom sub or dom

- Alistair or Zevran or both may "accidentally" drop in

- naturally gravelly/deep voice and a slow drawl when he's not nervous

- doesn't have high expectations in or out of the bedroom EXCEPT in relation to time spent on/with him and communication

- enjoys giving gifts and pampering and surprising those close to him

- will and has used his political clout for personal gain ♡

- one of his main hobbies as of DA:I ends up being hawking / bird care with hawks, crows, ravens, and pigeons

- makes soft noises in his sleep while cuddling and tends to nuzzle whoever is closest in bed

- loves giving and receiving anything oral (kissing, rimming, oral sex, biting, hickies, licking, finger sucking, etc)

- incredibly sensitive thighs and neck/chest

Cons:

- has only ever dated cisgender men, only experience with women has been in one night stands or flings

- Alistair or Zevran or both may "accidentally" drop in (in a committed semi-closed polyamourous triad)

- a history of being incredibly self destructive, if you'd met him around DAO/DAA this con is increase 10x lol (volatile, emotionally violent and manipulative, drunk)

- now he's mostly just generally emotionally unstable and tends to be distant and unavailable but in more of a "customer service I'm here to please you" kind of way , tough to get to the centre's of issues with him unless you're incredibly dedicated and persistent, but he's sober

- incredibly busy and in high demand as the Warden Commander of Fereldin and the Inquisitor

- has maybe 15-20 years left alive

- complicated familial relations

- hates most humans and dislikes most animals

- does not like topping/being the one doing the penetrating

[narutomaki]

I finally got Dragon Age Origins running on my laptop (between two people we managed it) and it's only crashing every..... 20 mins. during cutscenes and when I go between areas that need loading or if I enter combat sometimes but like. It WORKS it RUNS I won't lose 2+ hours of gameplay and that's what MATTERS

I can have nothing else running, I have to have it at the wrong proportions screen wise, I has to revert to/ install windows 10 over windows 11 and upgrade my graphics card software

BUT

it WORKS and I can use SOME MODS that are CRITICAL to the role playing experience for Acien (all bi characters + poly mod (he romances Zevran and then they both woo Alistair)) and SOME other ones

I do have to occasionally go into the mod folder with a gun and stare down my like. 6 working mods bcus it gets too much sometimes when it crashes/freezes 5 times in a row but. sometimes you have to kill your lovers. or whatever

any way

I wanted to be doing art fight. and I am! working on one! but I chose a fuck ass complex character to do as my first one so im

ORZ

but it's cool I'll get there

[narutomaki]

thanks to all the DATV posting I am slipping back into DA madness and thinking about Acien this morning, unable to fall back asleep, despite getting up at 5.20am on a sunday

TW: Suicide and self harm mentions in the context of a fictional character mentions of cheating

Acien is, like, for all intents and purposes a good person! he makes good choices for the benefit of many people, helps those in need without asking for anything in return, tries to get a grasp on people's true intentions and leave them better off than when he first arrive!

however, he is not a good man. his ability to trust and maintain the trust of other in interpersonal relationships is.... difficult. he finds himself unable to believe the people he loves and who love him are sincere, he tries to drive them away habitually for a long time, it takes him months of Zevran and Alistair teaming up to actually believe they love him. and then the second the party is split up, and Morrigan dips, that trust is erased. how could they love him?

his late teens and early adulthood are spent trying to fix the lives of others while he himself is stuck in a spiral of self-destruction that no one who knows him can help with, or knows how to cope with

he makes irrevocable mistakes in DA:A and almost ends his own life over them, the fact that he lived was (in his mind at the time) an accident of circumstance. that he successfully drove away one person who loved him (Alistair) was a victory in his mind, because now he can't hurt him even more

by the time DAI rolls around he's... not doing BETTER, but he's also spent a lot longer fixing interpersonal bonds and realizing how hurting someone intentionally doesn't save them any grief, despite what he was "taught"; and he's better at trusting and believing the people he loves when they say they love him, he's not forgiven for what he did but they come around to understanding why, and are able to all Actually trust each other again and then....

well then the conclave happens, Acien inserts himself in a situation that once more thrusts him into the limelight after defying death yet again and well

he backslides... "a little". he still has an easier time trusting people are being honest with him, but he can't handle the pressure that being the savior of the world AGAIN puts on his shoulders and there's two ways his story "ends"

in one of the Leliana catches him drinking and makes note of how strange it is in a letter to Zevran and Alistair and both of them show up within two weeks and immediately set about propping him up, getting him sober, and ensuring he Is Never Alone to make the choice he would have otherwise made

in the other ending.... Leliana never mentions it, or never catches him, and he's left to spiral and flounder with no one the wiser; Leliana wasn't with him when he was at his worst or best so she doesn't know just how bad he is until. He tracks down and confronts Solas. He's alone. He thinks "I can't so this, but if I do something drastic, maybe I can change his mind." and succeds where he failed in DA:A in a much more violent display than he'd tried back than.

the second one used to exist as the sole option for his ending scene lol. he was heavily based on a LOT of the internal problems I was having at the time I created him, and a lot of his temporary/permanent growth was only inserted YEARS LATER after I'd gotten help for myself

it's sad! he's a sad and tragic character! he's only 17 when he loses his best friend and way of life and is thrust into an environment where everyone looks to him to solve their problems; which isn't unusual for his life but the risk of failure is so much higher as well

also. this isn't me saying his family/clan ever hurt him intentionally, sometimes families don't know what they're doing to you and years down the line you mention something you learned and they go "what the fuck are you talking about? that's not what I meant by that at all!" and your sibling goes "that's not what I learned at all idk where you got that from", sometimes a family can be great but accidently hurt someone because they never check in on the ACTUAL things their child is taking away from things. Acien is very much like me in that case, and his family is MUCH kinder and much nicer, but he was always more sensitive and tender hearted than his siblings and cousins and friends and instead of learning to ask for more kindness, he internalized that hurting those you cared for and lying to them about how you were feeling were appropriate ways to maintain relationships (the gentle ribbing and teasing and boundary setting, but taken in the most literal and unflattering way possible) he does have a few Big Traumas from early in his life that set up his brain for this kind of thinking that no one ever caught/caught how it affected him

any way. I think he deserves to be happy and learn that he's allowed to communicate his needs and wants even (GASP) and Solas was never going to have the Revelation that Acien was aiming for lol ("if I kill myself violently in front of him he will realize that violence is wrong!" baby NO)

edit: realized I was very vague on what he did and that's bcus I spent an hour straight thinking about it and was like surely it'll be understood

he cheated on them with Anders

Zevran is ""okay"" With this (it affects his trust in Acient less) BECAUSE he's an assassin and ex-Crow, he's seen better people do worse and order others to so worse things in healthy states of mind, and Acien had always had an easier time communicating his problems to Zevran (because Alistair would try to comfort him too much, and reassure him he was a good person, which in turn made him feel worse); as well he's the one who notes that not once does Acien try to defend himself (Anders tries to defend him) and he finds a letter he'd never sent begging them to come visit

he offers to be a mediator (it takes years after the fact for either of them to learn Acien tried to kill himself a couple times before and after his affair) on the condition Acien get sober again and actually communicates with them instead of not sending them obvious distress signals, Acien has an easier time trusting this because it's an ultimatum and obviously means Zevran loves him for real (which is true, not Zevran loved him for real BEFORE as well)

after is when he finally opens up to Alistair, once Alistair is willing to sit down and talk (about a year given their respective jobs, time to heal, and travel) and finally admits a lot of his insecurities and Zevran shows Alistair the letter and while it does make Alistair feel worse and almost fully ruins any chance of reconciliation, it's the finally being honest without being self defacing (obviously reigning himself in (Zevran had discussed with him common manipulation tactics and Acien is trying his best)) that gives Alistair space to heal and understand and listen

Alistair still doesn't like leaving Acien alone, but needs must, and for a while around the conclave they had to and in the bad ending Alistair and Zevran are kept away by jobs and helping others because they assume Acien is Better Now because he hasn't had more then a Bad Week in over a year at thst point

idk if in the bad ending anyone ever finds out it wasn't Solas that killed him, which.... leaves some interesting implications seeing as Solas attacks but very intentionally leaves the Inquisitor alive HAHA any way

he was my vent oc and I made that very obvious in his storyline LOL

[narutomaki]

not sure if im done yet but not sure i really want to add colour!

Acien Tabris tarot card; 5 of cups: Upright: regret, failure, disappointment, pessimism. Reversed: personal setbacks, self forgiveness, moving on.

[narutomaki]

Sorry to my angsty daoc Acien who does horrible things and then dies