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Fetchin Bones - (I Feel Like An) Astronaut

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American Horror Story

Dara Ann Lynch

Dara is a medium, expert in both tarot and reading hands, that isn't really a fan of her 'powers' or at least she isn't fond of them at all. Her personality is the thing most of the people are curious of, because she is really secretive and gives that sultry vibe thanks to her low voice; but in reality she is a really down on Earth person, calm, patient and positive half of the time, with some antics that got their way into her after being with Billie Dean Howard for almost such a long time. 

Since her mid-20′s, her clothes and her habits always made her seem older than she was, but all of that is just a combination of Billie's lifestyle rubbing off on her. She also seem to held a secret, but this isn't something anyone can notice.

Dara an Billie met through mutual friends at a cocktail party and ever since they found each other comfortable and overall loved in the presence of each other. They have never addressed their relationship, however, not even when Dara moved from her tiny studio to Billie's apartment after four years into their 'affair'.

Billie tries to put her on her show, but Dara often refuse since she doesn't really like any kind of fame. However, she appeared there a couple of times as an assessor of some sort. She also is specialized in the 'white spirits light'.

During Murder House’s events, Dara accompanied Bilie most of the time, being her like an ‘item’. She is interested in the house, but it scares her to no end and she doesn’t want Billie to go there alone. Nora and her met while Billie was busy helping Violet and Costance, talking to her here and there about what’s going on in the house but also bonding over their experiences.

At some point she takes in her cousin Dahlia, hearing from her about the Roanoke house and trying to talk her out of the idea of going back there. 

From this on wards, Dara and Billie started to see Audrey as their new lover thanks to Billie, also helping her get through the rough patch that was Roanoke’s trauma and becoming quite close. Once Billie and Dara eloped, Audrey remained as a close friend and eventually, she would meet Danielle, one of Dara and Dahlia’s cousins, and started to think she deserved to love again.

Age: 25 (before Murder House, 2010), 30 (Hotel, 2015), 35 (post Cult/Roanoke, 2020)

Birthday: May 22nd

Description: 5'9, with heavy brown eyes and dark brown hair, wavy and styled short (under her chin). She has several moles all over her body but have a couple of beauty marks in her face: a little mole in her lower left eyelid and in the right side of her nose. She also has a double scar that go up her chin to almost the left corner of her lips in two lines, Dara got it when she was a teenager. Her complexion is a bit strong, broad shoulders and strong thighs, and natural tanned skin.

Relationships: Billie Dean Howard (wife), Nora Montgomery (Billie and Dara's lover, close friend), Constance Langdon (acquaintance), Violet and Vivien Harmon (friends), Dahlia Deen (cousin), Shelby Miller (sister-in-law), Danielle and Danna Bishop (cousins), Damien Bishop (niece), Audrey Tindall (Billie and Dara’s ex lover, close friend),  Ally Mayfair-Richards (sister-in-law), Oz Mayfair-Richards (nephew-in-law).

Powers: Mediumship: Sixth Sense, Clairsentience, Divination, White Spirit Light, Empathy (ability of swifting the mood in a room with her own feelings, unknown by herself).

Karina Sväre

Adopted and raised by a Swiss couple, Karina grew up being the eldest sister of four. Since young age she is strongly opinionated and very vocal about social injustices, which gets her in trouble more often than not. During her childhood the only one that seemed to not be backed out by her personality is the youngest McKee, Mary Eunice, and both become best friends.

After Mary Eunice decided to devote herself to God, Karina got terribly mad at her because in her words ‘she couldn’t let some fucking posh hicks ruin her life’ and she was sure her aunt brainwashed her. 

She took that chance to put not only distance between them because she was disappointed with her but also because she was in love with Mary Eunice and didn’t want to hurt her. They kept in touch while Karina was in college trying to become an athlete and afterwards, but when Mary Eunice stopped from replying to her letters it worried her that something could have happened to her.

Karina went back to their hometown just to learn that her friend was in Briarcliff and she set her mind in ‘rescuing’ her from there. It took her a couple weeks to go ‘undercover’ as a new novice, but she never felt more relieved than when she saw Mary Eunice fine. Karina really tried to talk her out of there, telling her that she could help her to escape and that she could live with her if Mary was afraid of going back to her family.

However it only lasted a few days until The Devil took over Mary Eunice’s body and everything went downhill. Karina learned about Kit and Lana and, as much as she wanted to take her friend with her too, she set herself the goal of helping them out as much as possible. As time pass and she sees how much Mary Eunice has changed, Karina start to lose the will that first drove her there, being her sudden death the last straw. Mother Claudia caught her trying to leave and also knew that she wasn’t really a nun, so when she helped Lana flee from Briarcliff the mother superior put Karina as Lana’s guardian so she could get out of there safely. 

Time eventually healed Karina, but she still blamed herself for not being able to help Mary Eunice. She found in Lana a good friend, setting aside her athlete dream to help her with her journalism career. It put her in contact with the second-wave feminism and Karina redirected all her pent up feelings into it, standing up for it and also dedicating her life to it. She never married, but she usually engaged here and there with women (even with Lana, both turning to each other for over the years but always remaining as good friends) and devoted her life to help young girls in need.

Eventually she moved to Michigan’s suburbs, wanting to rest and finally mourn for Mary Eunice’s loss. She became the Mayfair-Richards family’s neighbour at some point and took a like for Ally quickly, being both their emergency nanny for Oz and a friend. During the events of Cult she tried to help Ally with her phobias and talking her through it, being the one to be Ally’s confident during her hospital stay. Karina spent the end of Cult at Lana’s, only coming back to Michigan when Ally called her to ask if she wanted to be her counselor in her political campaign.

Age: 25 (Asylum, 1964), 73 (Asylum, 2012), 77/78/79 (Cult, 2016/17/18)

Birthday: April 4th

Description: 5′7, black long hair when she was young, short when she is old; and green-hazel eyes. Freckled, a little mole under her eyebrow, where she has a scar from her teens when she punched a guy for catcalling Mary Eunice. People used to pick at her for having a more boy-ish complexion and she had some troubles with coming to terms with her body, but as she grew older she started to appreciate herself more. She was going to be an athlete, so even when that goal changed she still trained and was in a very good shape for almost all her life. Karina always had this half-annoyed expression, frown and all.

Relationships: Mary Eunice McKee (former love interest, best friend), Lana Winters (friend, casual lover), Ally Mayfair-Richards (friend, counselor in Ally’s political campaign); Gabrielle Summers (grand-niece).

Raleigh Ocean

Raleigh is a witch the same age as Cordelia, knowing each other since they were 12 or so. She has been missing since 1998, only appearing again in 2013. Coming from a long line of witches with the Future Sight, Raleigh seemed the first one to skip such power but Fiona put a hex on her, triggering that magic, to use her powers for her own benefit. As magic is something that doesn’t like to be contained, the power overgrowth with such strenght that put Raleigh into a trance and made her body flee away without her mind being conscious of it.

After nine years in trance, Raleigh woke up in 2007 to find herself at a sanitorium in Vancouver. After a few weeks awake, her power took over again and repeated the process from the first time after six years just for her body to find its way back to the Academy. During that time, Raleigh saw what was coming and when Queenie and Cordelia woke her up, she begged her best friend to put an end to it. Cordelia, as the years passed by, improved a concoction that would put at ease her friend for short periods of time, nothing ever-lasting; and Raleigh took advantage of that concoction to research for a definitive way to stop it. 

During her new stay at the Academy she forged a strong bond with Zoe, which she took under her wing and became her favourite; and she found herself involved with Misty in only a sexual way that ended turning up in romantic feelings, but they never got to address it due to Misty’s death at the Seven Wonders. Cordelia and Raleigh’s relationship kept growing over their past feelings, still loving the other to pieces but having the situation with Hank and Raleigh’s disappareance as something they couldn’t move past on.

Before the trance, Raleigh was quiet young woman with dark humor, methodic, intuitive (thanks to the dormant Future Sight) and an admirable hunger for knowledge. Cordelia’s happier demeanor rub off and she started to be more open and less anxious when she was around. However, after being on and off of the trance for fifteen years, it’s hard to say that there’s something left from that persona. She became more quiet, shameless thanks to being in pain and being tired; and also sadder and kind of selfish. As much as her body grew, her mind grew up slower, sometimes showing a demeanor of a younger person than she physically is (she may look like 33 but she behave as someone in their early 20′s). Thanks to Zoe, Cordelia and Misty she started to crack that toxic shell, only to be completely broken when she got stuck in the Hotel Cortez with Saly.

Thanks to Fiona’s blood and magic heavily involved in the hex, Raleigh couldn’t kill her herself out of fear that everything could backfire; when Cordelia became the Supreme, she broke unknowingly the hex and gave Raleigh her cue to leave in order to find a way to heal and also a way to help the Coven in what was coming for them. 

She went to the Hotel Cortez to use all the power within its walls to trigger and speed up her Future Sight (now more bearable, only taking her away for days), Sally nursing her and both developing a strong bond with each other. It also helped her to find the right spells and potions to lock the Future Sight. During that time, Raleigh started to grow more powers thanks to being free of Fiona’s hex, which made her powers stop blooming so the Future Sight could burst more powerful at the expense of everything else, making not only her Future Sight but her Elektrokinesis and Power Supression too; but both her new founded telekinesis and Destiny’s Touch are much weaker. 

Raleigh was the one finding Mallory, full knowing she would be crucial for both the Coven and herself, and sent her to the Academy with a hidden memory spell which only could be broken after using Tempus Infinitum. In that hidden ‘memory’, Raleigh explained Mallory what she had to do in order to help her lock her power and apologizing for putting her through all that.

From 2015 to past the Apocalypse, Raleigh spent it all buried in the backyard of Misty’s shack, trapped inside her Future Sight as to not lose her knowledge and see if she could be strong enough to heal herself; but she also saw everything display and suffered from it. She set concealment charms around the patch so none could find her. When Mallory used Tempus Infinitum, it was clear that she needed her to heal, and Raleigh spent three years hidden in Misty’s shack (again) until she herself woke up when both Mallory and her magic locked the Future Sight. That day also marked the day for Madison to come back from Hell.

After that, Raleigh still is a quiet woman but her tiredness and anxiety skyrocketed, making her behave always like she is walking in thin ice. She got more confident than she already was, except when it came to Cordelia and Misty. She knew that she couldn’t have them back, as much as her love for them has reached its peak, so she prefered to have them as friends than not having them at all. It took her by surprise knowing that both still wanted her in their lives as more than ‘friends’ and Raleigh found herself trying to be the best for their sake. It becomes a hard task, but she promised herself that they were the only thing worth to not give up for.

Cordelia put the younglings at the Academy under Raleigh’s care as their History teacher, which helped her greatly to heal and come to terms with what she wanted now that she wasn’t going to leave. Raleigh also becomes a ‘teacher’ for the eldest members of the Coven (Misty, Zoe, Queenie, Mallory, Madison) under Cordelia’s supervision to help them develop their powers since Raleigh’s vast knowledge of magic comes in handy for it.

Cordelia also sends Raleigh to meet with possible witches outside of Louisiana, those which are more in trouble, to use her powers to help them get to the Academy. In one of these trips is when Raleigh meets Wilhemina, which with she has a relationship for almost a whole year before things got serious and the option was obvious: Wilhemina or Cordelia and Misty. With Wilhemina, Raleigh learnt that she deserved not only to be loved, but also respected and after all this time she decided for herself what was best. It all ended with Raleigh and Wilhemina leaving the main house, moving out to the second house the Coven bought to host more students, along with Queenie and Madison.

Raleigh also took a more ‘maternal’ feelings for Mallory, seeing her as the child she could have had with Cordelia and helping her to carry with the burden of the Apocalypse’s memories. Soon she realized that Mallory wasn’t their love child, but Misty and Cordelia’s; only to later see that Zoe, the only one that was there through thick and thin, was the real love child.

When she discovered that she had a half-brother, it made her rethink a lot of things, but in the end she only wanted to spend all the time they had left on that Earth with him, the only bit of family she had left and could fill for her years of void. 

Age: 18 (Academy Days, 1998), 33 (Coven, 2013), 35 (Hotel, 2015), 38 (post-Apocalypse, 2018)

Birthday: May 1st

Description: 5′11, dark auburn hair, shoulder length until 2018, then mid-back length; and brown-hazel eyes. Raleigh has a scar that goes from the left side of her forehead to the right corner of her lips, she also have a couple beauty marks in her right cheek along some other moles in her neck and chest area. When she arrived again to the Academy she was underweight for her height but it isn’t till 2018 that she has a stable weight. She has strong hands and usually a pensive expression, as if she isn’t really there thanks to her power.��

Relationships: Cordelia Goode (ex-lover, best friend), Misty Day (ex-lover, friend), Fiona Goode (frenemy, aunt), Zoe Benson (protégée, favourite student), Madison Montgomery (protégée, friend), Mallory Prince (protégée), Sally McKenna (best friend, lover in 2015), Wilhemina Venable (best friend, girlfriend since 2018, wife since 2032); Eric Ocean-Venable (son); Kaya (neé Ramírez) and Eric Ocean (parents); Rowan Ramírez (half-brother); Coco St. Pierre Vanderbilt (friend, sister-in-law); Abigaíl Prince (aunt).

Powers: Elektrokinesis, Power Suppression, Telekinesis (unlocked in 2015), Destiny’s Touch (able to see and manipulate social links, unlocked in 2015), spellcraft (high ranked), Future Sight (triggered by Fiona Goode in 1997; locked in 2018 by Mallory and herself). 

Cold-hearted Severa (neé Selene Regnault)

Severa is part of Fräulein Elsa's Cabinet of Curiosities, considered as part of the ‘staff’ most of the time but performing here and there thanks to her capuchin monkey, Mr. Mumbles, which knows how to juggle and mostly behave like a human being.

Knowing Elsa from a young age, Severa respect her the most even when she disapprove most of the time her bad behaviours. The older woman took her with her to the States with her, becoming one of her first ‘freaks’. Severa got caught in crossfire, not only mutilating and scarring her for life but also agravating her PTSD to the point of not remembering much before Massimo Dolcefino found her and made her his apprentice. 

Once in the States with Elsa, she learnt english to communicate if necessary but as time passed by she took a like to being in silence, so many think she is mute. Elsa took advantage of this and found her the monkey, becoming like that a mor active part of the show. Mr. Mumbles helped her get better with her PTSD somehow and most of the time she is in charge of the animals at the Freak Show, finding their presence more comfortable than people.

Jimmy and her developed somekind of sibling bond and he respect her highly, always trying to step up for her when in need. Evie and her started to be friend after having an act together, so it isn’t weird to find them together spending time over a cup of tea or a whiskey.

It isn’t till the Tattler twins arrived that Severa didn’t show more emotions, that behaviour earning Severa her nickname. She really is stunned by them and push herself out of her insecure shell to win them. However the twins doesn’t show much interest in her aside of becoming friend and Severa ressigned herself to that, becoming a fierce protector when it came to them.

She isn’t afraid to confront Dandy and over the events of Freak Show, she keeps proving to the twins that she is going to be by their side no matter what. That demeanor makes Bette fall for her eventually, but not Dot. When the show is sold to Chester, Severa refused to act and considered flying away; but she stayed when Dandy takes over in order to have an eye on him in case something happen.

After discovering Mr. Mumbles’ body along Eve’s, she ran to the twin’s tent to check on them. She gets to fight Dandy a bit before being shot too in front of them.

Age: 38/39 (Freak Show, 1952/53)

Birthday: April 1st

Description: 6′4, auburn hair with patches of white hair, waist length; and black eyes (only one). Severa has a scar that covers the right side of her face and goes all over her right shoulder; she doesn’t have any beauty mark now (she had one under her right eyelid) but she has vitiligo. She is tall and slim and her right arm is also missing. All her wounds/scars are from WW II, she was a collateral victim from crossfire. 

Relationships: Amazon Eve (best friend), Mr. Mumbles (best friend), Elsa Mars (saviour), Jimmy Darling (non-blood little brother), Bette Tattler (unrequited love at first, returned feelings at some point), Dot Tattler (unrequited love, friend). 

Adriana Girardi 

Adriana was afflicted by mistake at a party, condemning her to that life. At first she had a really hard time coming into terms with her immortality, but after a few years she decided to migrate from Italy to the States, wanting to start a new life away.

Cunning in all its meanings, Adriana used it to survive and then, through a fianceé she procured herself arrived to the Hotel Cortez. She met James and Elizabeth there, becoming friends pretty quickly with them. Discovering that Elizabeth was also an afflicted like her, Adriana found that maybe she could have a future.

Keeping in touch, even after James’ death, she learned how to find something to live for. Eventually she found someone and she moved in with her, considering in afflicting her too but the woman fell sick and died not long after. It took a toll on her, throwing her into a depressive episode and back at the Hotel Cortez till she got better.

Adriana spent the last decades of the century amassing money, focusing in finding someone that could make her feel whole again, but each year that it passed put her closer to giving up. 

She eventually did, coming back to Elizabeth one last time during the events of Hotel. The woman wanted to put an end to her life, but stayed around as support for her only friend and making some acquaintances with the guests. Meeting Alex Lowe after Elizabeth afflicted her, Adriana start to think of giving another chance to life since the woman looked almost exactly like her past lover and maybe, only maybe, she could get the life she dreamed of.

However it didn’t work at the end and Adriana ended up as the main investor of the Hotel to her dismay, trying to contain the ghosts from time to time, playing cards with James and sometimes getting some drinks with Sally. She also made friends with Queenie, at least in the erased timeline.

Liz will say that she is still around for a certain blonde that appear every Devil’s Night.

Age: 27 (afflicted, 1917), 125 (Hotel, 2015)

Birthday: March 31st

Description: 5′8, long brown hair, styled with californian wicks; and deep amber eyes. Adriana’s beauty mark is placed near the corner of her mouth and another one in her chin. She has a scar that cross her lips obliquely from right to left. Her natural tanned skin faded as the years passed and settled as an olive skin, showing the lack of sunlight. She always has a quick smile quirking her lips but her eyes show how empty she is, lacking any kind of emotion.

Relationships: The Countess (old friend), James March (friend), Sally McKenna (acquaintance), Alex Lowe (unrequited love), Liz Taylor (acquaintance), Queenie (acquaintance).

Dahlia Deen

An intern at ‘My Roanoke Nightmare’ production, Dahlia handled props and ran errands most of the time. She was just trying to pay her bills someway, not finding a job in her career path: biology. Dahlia is a happy-go-lucky woman most of the time, always finding a way to make the people around her smile just with the silliest thing and having an overall positive attitude.

While being there she started to listen voices and seeing ghosts again, her mental health getting worse but also her powers. Dahlia comes from a family known by having mediums but she didn’t want to be like them, like her cousin Dara. She just wants to live a normal life.

Sometimes she helped at the filming location with the actors, but other times she helped at the interview setting, where she met Shelby and became friends with her. Dahlia was always compliant with anything they asked her to do. Audrey and her became friends after the actress helped her through a panic attack, triggered by one of the ghosts there. Dahlia thinks that both Audrey and Shelby could be friends if both weren’t that self-centered, but she is happy that she can have them as her friends.

That was until Shelby played the affair card with Dominic and then she played it with Dahlia, however it seemed that being with her was more than a simple affair. Thanks to that they start this on and off relationship for a little while till she hear Shelby speaking with Sidney about the reboot. Both have a heated discussion in which the blonde woman tell her the truth: that she wanted to get back with Matt.

The only one Dahlia could turn to was Audrey. They got drunk and slept together out of spite, Audrey being in a really low point of her confidence just gave in. Both promissed not to tell anybody and keep their friendship, stronger than ever; even Dahlia attended Audrey and Rory’s wedding, dancing with the bride and all.

When both Shelby and Audrey decided to do ‘Return to Roanoke: Three Days in Hell’, turning a blind eye to Dahlia’s warnings of not going back because she knew something was off with the place; Dahlia called her cousin Dara and stayed with her for the week of preparation.

But when she received a message from a panicked Shelby, she set off as fast as she could to get there and pick her up. Dahlia do arrive on time and Audrey survived, only a gun shot in her arm from Lee. Shelby managed to make it alive too, but she lost a lot of blood and is really weakened. 

They three try to keep going, but obviously Shelby and Dahlia have a lot to talk too before being able to be in a healthy relationship. Eventually, they engaged a few years later and started to live together, moving to a better future for both now walking hand in hand.

Age: 28 (Roanoke, 2015), 29 (Roanoke, 2016), 33 (post Cult/Roanoke, 2020)

Birthday: May 5th

Description: 5′10, dark brown hair and brown eyes. Dahlia is of strong built thanks to her rutine. She needs glasses to see. She has a scar in the middle of her nose and another one in her jaw, both from an incident she had as a kid. She has a beauty mark under her lower lip and another one in the right side of her nose. Her dimples are her signature mark.

Relationships: Shelby Miller (fianceé), Audrey Tindall (best friend, sister-in-law), Dara Ann Lynch (cousin), Danna and Danielle Bishop (cousins), Damien Bishop (niece), Billie Dean Howard (sister-in-law), Ally Mayfair-Richards (sister-in-law), Oz Mayfair-Richards (nephew-in-law).

Powers: Mediumship of some short: Sixth Sense, Clairsentience (both suppressed by antidepressants) 

Gabrielle Summers

Coming from a big family, Gabrielle always felt like the outcast of it. 

Moving from that, dropping out of college made everything worse at home with her father: a heavily old-fashioned man that’s been controlling her life in ever possible aspect. Not only her suffer of this, but also her mother till the point in which she just flee letting the divorce papers over the kitchen table.

After this, everything got worse and worse and Gabrielle took all what she had and ran away from Phoenix to the only place she knew she would be completely safe: her great-aunt’s house in Michigan.

She always heard and knew stories about her, how she devoted to help the youth and how much of an outcast she was too; that’s why she dug up in her grandpa’s dresser to find whatever address he had of her before buying a plane ticket.

Gabrielle showed up in summer of 2016 at Karina’s doorstep. Karina knew every one of her brothers and sisters’ offsprings, so it took her by surprise to find the young woman in Michigan. Upon hearing about what Gabrielle left behind and why she was there, Karina took her in without much question. After that they both tried to sort some stuff out to help Gabrielle to start a new life there, Karina feeling like she was having another chance to help her family.

Soon the girl started to show her true colours, showing Karina that they both were pretty much alike but Gabrielle is much softer and gentle than her when she was young. Gabrielle also took interest in Karina’s life, more than before if possible, wanting to get closer to her in someway. Before the events of Cult, pretty much a few days after she arrived to Karina’s house, she met Winter Anderson at the hair salon and some kind of friendship started after having a one night stand.

Gabrielle met the Mayfair-Richards family when Karina babysat Oz, not liking them very much aside of their son, which she helped babysitting. However she starts thinking something is going on between Winter and Ivy after she found them in front of Winter’s house talking.

During the events of Cult, Winter and Gabrielle start to get closer more and more, making the former start to ‘protect’ her from the cult but as stubborn as Gabrielle is soon she picks up in her antics and tries to help her get out of there. At some point Gabrielle fight Ivy, not only because of Winter but also defending Ally (even when the woman is not her most liked person). 

Karina encourage Gabrielle to resume college and help her with it if she decide to do so, since she’s been reading a lot of books and decided she wanted to be a journalist/writer. When Karina offered Gabrielle to spend some time at Lana’s house with her in the end of Cult events, she decided to stay for Winter (her now girlfriend) and get her out of there together finally. 

The day Kai allegedly killed Winter, Gabrielle witnessed it since she went to the Andersons’ house in order to get her and flee. However, she finds that Winter is still breathing and beg to be the one carrying her out of the basement as a last favor. As the rest aren’t paying attention to her, Gabrielle takes advantage of that to escape with Winter and hide in Karina’s house.

Gabrielle and Winter move with Karina and Lana for sometime after that, helping Winter to recover from everything. At the time Ally calls Karina to help her with the campaign, both decide to went back to college and live together not going back to Michigan. They watched Ally’s speech together and when Kai died, both felt as if a huge weight was lifted from their chests.

Her story is somewhat similar to Karina’s but she did manage to save the person she loved in the end.

Age: 22/23/24 (Cult, 2016/2017/2018)

Birthday: May 28th

Description: 5′9, black hair (mid-back length before moving out of Phoenix, really short once in Michigan) and hazel eyes. Slim for her height, but she start to get stronger thanks to Karina’s excercise routine. She is always seen as someone slummy but with a soft smile on her lips, instead of a scowl. Her face features are a bit similar to Karina’s, luckily since they aren’t remotedly ‘blood’ related, but she only have a few of beauty marks instead of being freckled: one near her left eye corner, other under her brow and another in her jaw. Gabrielle has a a scar that mark her across her right eye since she was a child, her cello bow broke and hit her in the face, luckily not taking her eye and leaving only a scar.

Relationships: Karina Sväre (great-aunt), Lana Winters (acquaintance), Winter Anderson (fling to friend to girlfriend), Ivy Mayfair-Richards (dislike), Ally Mayfair-Richards (frenemy).

Rowan Ramírez

Rowan’s story is a bit detached from everyone else, to begin with. After Raleigh disappearance, Kaya tried to rebuild her life on her own and that eventually led to meet a man two years later, who seemed to love her. When she told him she was expecting a child, the man went away over night, leaving her alone.

Kaya found shelter in Abigaíl’s house, an old friend of her family, and there she’d spend the rest of her days. Once Rowan was born, Kaya’s Future’s Sight started to drift more and more, worsening her state as the years went by but the only constant that she didn’t seem to forget was the love for her children. As result of that, Rowan grew up knowing of his long-lost sister and at the same time made him grow up a bit faster than a kid should. But it didn’t make the happiness that he carried inside him go away, it only make it grow more and more, becoming Kaya’s only will to live in the end.

Around 2010, Kaya got completely lost in her power and passed away in her sleep due to a heart attack, leaving Rowan in Abigaíl’s care. Through his childhood, Rowan grew up with Mallory (Abigaíl’s grand-daughter) and the two consider each other cousins and best friends. 

Eventually Behold Chablis was called by Abigaíl herself, since he started to show up his magic abilities in a wider spectrum, and found himself at Hawthorne School for Exceptional Young Men, living among the warlocks as one more. In the beginning Rowan had a hard time adjusting, not having many friends around, but he made room for himself just by demonstrating his abilities. Behold, along John, kept an eye on him in case he developed a late stage of the Future’s Sight as his mother and sister, but both started to not worry when after a few years didn’t seem he was going to get it, trying to help him in improving the skills he already had.

When Michael Langdon arrived at Hawthorne, Rowan saw him as rival, without caring about whatever the rest could say about him. Even more when Michael, using his Clairvoyance powers, started to try and make him take his side by just trying to scare him with every single doubt he had in his mind. But as her mother, and sister, Rowan had a too strong sense of freedom and his own persona to actually fall for that. So the only thing he decided was to surpass him.

This would lead to try to stop Michael when the Hawthorne’s massacre happened. Michael considered in forgive his rival, let him live by his side to watch everything burn to ashes, but Rowan didn’t want to live nor be the companion of Satan’s son. Michael killed him with his own hands instead of his powers, giving him that last respect in his end.

After Mallory restored everything with Tempus Infinitum, Rowan kept honing his skills as warlock and Behold took him under his wing to make him a teacher at Hawthorne eventually. It wasn’t till 2022, when the Council payed the warlocks a visit, that he finally met Raleigh. He, that heard of his probably dead big sister for all his life, froze in the spot and Behold was the only one to act upon clearing his suspicions about the witch. He called Rowan to his office to talk with him about what he wanted to do and the, now, young man just burst into tears after twelve years of not shedding one, telling him that he really wanted to eventually search for her, having it promised over his mother’s grave, and just pull the pieces of what’s left of his family together.

As the years passed by, Rowan and Raleigh grew close to each other, which lead him to spend some months here and there learning from his own sister and he eventually developed a huge crush over Coco, that fortunately ended up in them starting a relationship.   

Age: 13 (Coven, 2013); 22 (post-Apocalypse, 2022)

Birthday: May 12th

Description:  5′10, dark auburn hair, mid-back length; and green-hazel eyes. Rowan shares the same tanned skin as his sister, Raleigh, but the only difference is that the only scar he has is in his left brow from where he hit himself with a stone window border when he was a kid. He’s a tall man, but his frame is narrower than his sister, making him thinner just by constitution. Rowan always carry a happy demeanor, soft smile always tugging at his lips. He also have freckles here and there, making up for all the moles Raleigh has but they have the same one up in their cheek.

Relationships: Kaya Ramírez (mother); unknown father; Raleigh Ocean (half-sister); Wilhemina Venable (sister-in-law); Eric Ocean-Venable (nephew); Coco St. Pierre Vandelbit (friend, girlfriend since 2027); Mallory Prince (cousin, best friend); Behold Chablis (teacher, guardian, colleague since 2022); John Henry Moore (teacher, colleague since 2022); Abigaíl Prince (guardian, aunt); Michael Langdon (rival).

Powers: Hydrokinesis, Atmokinesis, Telekinesis, Deflection (can deflect others powers, but not making them disappear), spellcraft (high ranked). 

Danna and Danielle Bishop

The story of these two is long in their own parted ways.

Born in a large loving family of ‘mediums’ as the oldest of the new generation, the twins grew up as pillars for their cousins, especially Dara and Dahlia, which respect them as much as they were their older sisters. 

Danna was always the happy-go-lucky one, mischievous, hot-headed at times and having a plan for everything except what she was going to do in the future. More like the party girl, the outgoing twin that was always ready for everything and nothing.

Danielle, in exchange, was the more down on Earth of both, her life goals clear and probably the overachiever of both twins. She was going to be a lawyer, she was class president, the whole nine of the studious one plus being the more maternal one of both.

Despite their differences, they were always side by side, even when they did argue (and still do) a lot. None loved Danielle as much as Danna does, and the feeling flows the other way too. But before they started college, they had a big argument and it made them split to follow what their hearts wanted.

For Danna, life took a chaotic spin that she took gladly and followed the path that revelead itself before her. She skipped college altogether but manage to get in a chef’s school somehow later than intended. She wasn’t the best at studying but her passion for food and enjoying herself made up for it, taking her to decide she was going to enjoy her life as much as she wanted. While she was at it, at some point, Danna met Audrey and had a brief relationship while the latter was trying to do castings and get big in the States. They met at New Years Eve of the first year of Audrey in the States, and they parted when the summer hit and Danna decided to start travel to keep honning her skills and because better offers were made to her. She kept travelling, living, enjoying herself until she fell ill and had to go under heart surgery, which brought the twins together again and promise each other they won’t ever part. Danielle and Danna kept in touch, she even visited her sister in Canada for some time, until Danna’s life took her to Michigan and met Ally there. Eventually, Danna and Ally became friends and one thing led to another and maybe the Senator taught the crazy twin that maybe it wasn’t a bad idea to finally settle.

For Danielle, every spin was carefully calculated and her attitude took her wherever she wanted. Fresh out from lawyer school, she landed a job in Canada and moved there to start a her new life. It was pretty normal though, she eventually got married to this other lawyer, their life going smoothly and soon finding herself about to have a baby that, after too many troubles, was born healthy. After that things started to went downhill for Danielle, which for her started with Danna’s heart problems not long after Damien was born and then went on and on for years until she divorced her husband. When that happened, Danielle took the best decision for her daughter and her, which was moving back to the States to be close to their family and start a new life. For her was easy to slip into ‘work mode’, which was the easiest way for her to not think about how she maybe wasted some of her younger years being too worried but she had the will to keep going on in the for Damien. So with all this turmoil, she packed up their stuff and flew home for Christmas with a broken heart and soon to be an annoyed teenage daughter.

That way, the twins reunited finally together not only both of them, but also with Dara and Dahlia, which were there with their arms open for her to fall and cuddle.

However, that same Christmas, Danielle met Audrey at the big family gathering and maybe they found in each other what they were truly looking for.

Age: 40 (Cult, 2018), 42 (Roanoke/Cult/Murder House, 2020)

Birthday: May 20th

Description: 6′, black hair + white hairs, past shoulders length (both); and light brown eyes; Danna and Danielle are quite similar, making difficult to tell who is who from a bit afar, but up close the differences are visible: Danna is a bit plumper, Danielle a bit bonier; Danna has always a permanent happy demeanour, Danielle gets a more serious one; the way both have moles here and there, but Danna has a specific one near her eyelid while Danielle have it almost in the tip of her nose; Danna has more ‘happy’ lines in her face while Danielle have the ‘stress’ lines; being quite tall, Danna always fight that she’s the tallest because she walks a bit more care-free than Danielle, but there’s barely any difference; and, of course, they are tanned like Dahlia and Dara, and pretty much everyone in their family. They also have their share of scars, but the important ones are: Danna has a big ass scar in the middle of her chest from heart surgery, while Danielle has a vertical c-section scar. They both have some similar traits, like having a good heart and being quite the jokesters, but as I said before they grew to be the balance of ‘happy go-lucky gentle woman’ and ‘serious yet tender woman’.

Relationships: Dara Ann Lynch (cousin), Dahlia Deen (cousin), Shelby Miller (sister-in-law), Billie Dean Howard (sister-in-law), Ally Mayfair-Richards (Danna’s girlfriend), Audrey Tindall (Danielle’s girlfriend, Danna’s past lover), Damien Bishop (Danielle’s daughter, Danna’s favourite niece).

Powers: both have some sort of Mediumship, mostly the Sixth Sense, but they aren’t bothered by this because it never got serious to them as with Dara or Dahlia. They feel the ‘bad jujus’ as Danna say, and she’s the only one of the two that actually think the ‘Mediumship’ in their family is real. Danielle just doesn’t vibe with it but she respect it.

Marvel

Astrid Winters

Growing up in Skagway, Alaska, Astrid lived a pretty normal life with her parents, Sven and Dinah, and her older brother, Isaiah. Most part of her childhood was spent running around the decks with Isaiah, always at his tail as if he was a comet, and being loved by their parents. It wasn’t until she was eleven that her mutation flourished completely, using her telekinesis to save Isaiah from falling into the ice cold water of the port.

At first she was confused about it, but after her brother’s mutation was presented as well as a control of psionic energy, they drew attention from the ‘Jean Grey School for Gifted Youngsters’. Their parents weren’t mutants so the shock came in pretty hard, however they were supportive of their children nonetheless. Isaiah, as they grew to control their powers under the institution, started to resent having them at all since he was old enough at the time to remember how their mother left them in the care of the Winters, quickly discerning that that was the true motive behind both being abandoned like that. Astrid tried to persuade her brother that now they had somewhere to fit and belong, but Isaiah only went on with it even when he excelled with her powers while Astrid only had trouble with hers.

It wasn’t until Isaiah was sent to a mission with some others for some time that Astrid managed to get a grip of her mutation…but discovering, along the way, her telepathic powers which were much stronger than those she thought were her primes. Ororo took her under her wing right away, being reminded of Jean’s powers and the shadow of her best friend still hunting her to this day, and started to train her so she didn’t end up like Jean.

However, Isaiah never came back from the mission and sent Astrid into a spiral that made her unable to control her powers at all. In that haze, messing even more with her weakened psique, she decided to escape the school, wanting nothing else but runaway from what took away her brother. She managed to go back to Skagway, into her childhood home, and was taken in with all the bad news, memories and grief. All of that was enough to block her powers, creating some sort of bubble surrounding them and locking them away for the years to come, greatly helped with antidepressants and other pills that muted the buzzing feeling of her powers trying to come up. None came looking for her, as if she just vanished even from the view of Cerebro, and that helped to her hiding a great deal.

Six years later she would met Bobbi, who was in an undercover mission for S.H.I.E.L.D in Alaska, and during the months she was stuck in Skagway they developed feelings for each other being just them, without telling the other their real truth. It wasn’t until Bobbi got discovered while being with her that Astrid’s powers didn’t flourish again, destroying a great part of the decks in the process as a result of bottling up everything for so long. That not only put Astrid in the position of telling Bobbi the truth, having Bobbi to do the same as well, but also put her under the X-Men’s radar again. Two days later of the incident, Storm arrives to Skagway to try and coax Astrid to go back with her to the school, which only prompts Astrid to follow Bobbi to the States.

Storm takes that as leaving her alone, but keeping an eye on her from time to time without interfering in her life. Astrid managed to lie low after that in her own, working through the first steps in her and Bobbi’s relationship, but always tries to stay as far away of Bobbi’s line of work as possible. When Bobbi told Astrid how S.H.I.E.L.D had gathered the Avengers, and was starting to be more proactive on searching people with special abilities, it only sent her in panic taking in count her own abilities which only made Bobbi promise to her that she wasn’t going to let them get near her.  

For a few years everything manage to go well, calm even, until the chaos after S.H.I.E.L.D being compromised ensues and, in between all the files that are put up for the world to see, Astrid’s information ends up visible for Coulson’s team. That information was gathered by HYDRA along the years, because they were the ones behind Isaiah’s disappearance and it also uncovered what happened not only to him but also with their biological mother: Emma Frost. 

Astrid was unaware of this, still caught up in the bliss of living a normal life as much as she could, until she got a panicked call from Bobbi telling her what was truly going on and that there were both S.H.I.E.L.D and HYDRA agents going her way, which only made Astrid to use again her powers in order to protect herself from the latter but she decides to be caught by the her girlfriend’s ‘comrades’ is way better than fall into the hands of God knows who they are. 

During the war between S.H.I.E.L.D’s factions, Astrid is kept as a ‘prisoner’ once Robert Gonzales discover the length of Astrid’s abilities and put her under severe vigilance. Astrid is dragged to the Inhuman’s front, trying to help as she can and only making her starting to understand why Isaiah didn’t want to have anything to do with being a mutant and also being very upfront when it comes to the relations between mutants and inhumans. 

Astrid has a major breakdown that make her unstable and Storm have to take her back against her own will back to the school in order for her to retake control of her powers, which went under a secondary mutation due to the trauma upon Bobbi’s kidnapping. There, Isaiah is waiting for her along with Emma, bonding and learning from both her brother and their mother for a few weeks. However she leaves once again everything behind and decides to stay with the team to take care of Bobbi. 

During this time is when Astrid and Bobbi’s first clashes happen, taking in count they spent much more time together and it makes them open up but at the same time let go all of Astrid’s fears. The bottling up only strains their relationship, which makes Astrid to grow more and more tired and hurt - since much of the Inhuman conflict is still affecting her - until she decides that she can’t do this in her current state and tells Bobbi that they need a break. She decides to go back to the school and stays there, honing her powers and finishing her training in order to live the ‘normal’ life she always wanted, as much as it pained Isaiah, Emma and Ororo.

Jemma calls Astrid to tell her what happened with Bobbi and Hunter in Siberia, which leads to Astrid going to get them, making that the point in which both women decide to rebuild their relationship while Astrid finish her own training.

After Astrid finish it, she and Bobbi take their lives to Europe as a married couple, settling there comfortably with some visits from Hunter here and there. Eventually Emma and Isaiah disappear fully, which leaves Astrid broken and confused, but focusing in her life with Bobbi is what helps her get through everything. 

In those years her powers seem to increase little by little until one day Esme, Phoebe and Sophie show up in her door, claiming not only who they were but also what had happened to Emma and Isaiah: both died trying to take down the facility that created the triplets. With the news at hand, Bobbi doesn’t trust them but knowing Astrid’s mental estate isn’t the best allows the triplets to move in with them, mostly in order to restore Astrid’s health and faith in everything.

Being around the triplets only made Astrid’s powers to grow even more, the influence and constant crash of their powers being the principal cause. Little by little, the triplets and Bobbi got along and that was what helped her the most in her recovering. 

When the snap happened, however, it took Bobbi and the triplets away from Astrid, leaving her in the house in a near shocked estate. It wasn’t until Natasha called to Bobbi’s phone, trying to contact any possible agent out there that was still there, that Astrid wasn’t pulled out of that. She went to the compound because she had nowhere to go and stayed there with Natasha until, after a year or two, she became close to Carol through visits and all and decided that there was nothing in Earth for her anymore, following Carol to space.

She found solace there, managed to finally unleash her true potential after being found by Jean in her Phoenix form and eventually the call from the Avengers came. Carol and Astrid went back immediately to help them, arriving in time, and among the million voices in the battlefield Astrid heard Bobbi and the triplets’ thoughts and went directly to them. At first they didn’t recognize Astrid but when her voice boomed in their heads, it was obvious.

After the battle, Astrid and Bobbi decided that this time was truly their time to settle once and for all. Declining Storm’s invitation for Astrid to teach at the School, the triplets go in her place, letting the couple finally go to live their lives back where they started.

Age: 23 (2006, X-Men new timeline); 29 (2012, Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D S1); 31 (2014, Captain America: The Winter Soldier); 35-40 (2018-2023, Endgame)

Birthday: May 13th

Description:  5′10, dark brown hair, mid-back length in waves; and ochre eyes. For a great part of her twenties she has her hair dyed white, roots showing, and her skin is tanned and freckled, except for some parts in her body that have some sort of discoloration. She always has an eternal soft smirk in her lips and most of the time Astrid keeps a natural upright position, as if it was engraved in her brain somehow, in comparison with her ways of talking, walking and dressing which are more relaxed. She has a distinctive beauty mark in her lower left eyelid and another in her left cheek.

Relationships: Emma Frost (biological mother); Isaiah (Winters) Frost (biological older brother); Esme, Phoebe and Sophie Frost (younger half-sisters); unknown biological father; Dinah and Sven Winters (foster parents); Ororo Munroe (mentor); Bobbi Morse (girlfriend/wife); Alphonso Mackenzie (friendly); Lance Hunter (dislike-friendly); Natasha Romanoff (acquaintance); Jemma Simmons (dislike-acquaintance-friend); Carol Danvers (best friend); Coulson’s team (acquaintances).

Powers: Telepathy (featuring most of her mother’s related powers), Telekinesis and Psionic abilities.

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18

Welcome to my first blog post as an 18 year-old! And yes, I am well aware that I can legally drink and could be sent to jail, thank you very much. (Not that I have any plans to, though.)

I reached this milestone in my life last July 5th. As I mentioned in an earlier entry, I decided to not go the traditional route and instead, opted for a trip to Korea last April and a week’s worth of festivities with family and friends.

I kicked off the celebration with lunch at a Korean barbecue place with my parents, then had a feast with my extended family (mother’s side) in Italianni’s.

I even got my cousin, Miguel, to go on with me on the ferris wheel nearby where I tried my best to admire the beautiful view of Manila Bay before us while screaming my head off.

For my actual birthday, I treated my closest friends from high school at yet another K-BBQ place for lunch, and then went to my favorite buffet place with my family for dinner. My friends Junelle, Danna and I also finally pushed through with our months-old plan of dropping by the karaoke bar relatively near to us, which served as a great release for pent-up emotions and a showcase of our non-existent vocal abilities.

This year, I also decided to go out on a limb and hold a project of my own. I was originally planning on giving away some of the old books I had piled up in my room to nearby orphanages, but with the time constraints I had, I couldn’t really afford to execute something so grand. So, with the help of my mom, I decided that it would be best to start small. We bought these tumblers from the nearby grocery and filled them to the brim with candies and chocolate bars, then gave them to the kids selling sampaguita at our church. I was really iffy about writing this part, because I know it’s easy to misconstrue my intentions for doing so: some people will probably just dismiss this as some put-on act of charity posted for clout. But, the experience was just so rewarding for me I had to. The children were all so appreciative, beaming at me, expressing their gratitude through belated birthday greetings and musings of how they could use my little gift for school – it kind of made me feel like my heart was on fire, but in the best way possible.

Anyway, now on to the standard realizations I make sure to include in nine out of ten posts.

This birthday in particular was a big deal for me, for obvious reasons. I had always regarded 18 as the age of independence and freedom: I equated it to having the liberty to do whatever I wanted, go anywhere I pleased with anyone at all, make the big decisions and know the answers to all the questions I’ve been asking my elders since I was a kid. I guess I forgot that I’m not the protagonist of the coming-of-age films I grew up indulging in, but a sheltered kid who has had most things done for her and thus has yet to acquire the basic life skills needed to survive The Real World. My parents said that I’m this way because they wanted to give me a life of convenience, and thus did anything that required me going out of my comfort zone, for me. All these years, I never found myself complaining about it or demanding that something be changed but for some reason, this stage of supposed adulthood has pressured me into thinking that there’s something terribly wrong with this because now, I have so much growing up to do.

Obviously, the biggest life change that I’ll have to deal with would be college: having to balance academics, extracurricular activities and different people in an entirely foreign environment sounded so terrifying for me. People would always tell me that grades have and could never be an issue for me: I was born the Smart Kid™ with a lot of potential, remember? I was generally a star student in all the schools I had attended, and everyone knew about it: I didn’t have to exert any effort to prove myself to those around me, because my grades did the talking. But, suddenly I’m about to enter this prestigious university with a rigorous screening process that takes in the Smart Kids™ from institutions all around the country. How am I expected to stand out in a place like that and get the Latin honors I can’t help but aim for?

Extracurriculars also have a huge bearing and apparently are an essential part of the whole college experience, which is weird to me since I’ve never really committed to a specific club all throughout my grade school and high school life. It seemed like more of a requirement to me than anything else, so deciding which one to join was like playing pin the tail on the donkey with my friends.

And, while I’m on that note: what about making new friends? I do appear to be outgoing and loud—especially if you’ve heard my piercing shrieks in my old Grade 12 classroom—but I’m only like that around those I’m truly comfortable with, and even that number has dwindled over the years. It’s hard to find people with the same interests as I do, and I’m growing more and more unsure of the fact that there are Ateneans who like K-Pop boy groups and laugh at the jeje memes I have in my camera roll. (I will cry if I don’t find anyone who can watch Japer Sniper videos with me.) I haven’t had to introduce myself to a new person in two years both IRL and online and I let them lead the conversation for a long while before I can think of warming up to them.

I also have to learn how to drive, which can come off as a surprise to anyone who’s known me for a while. I’ve always been the type to let go of the steering wheel and cover my eyes when the situation got out of control at the bumper cars. But, once I found out that ADMU isn’t actually the most commuter-friendly of schools, I didn’t really have a choice. On my first day of lessons, I was scared to my very core: my mind couldn’t stop bombarding me with stories of vehicular accidents and picture slideshows of cats that got run over. Although I did pass all four days and am now eligible to have my own license, I still have much work to do before I can take our Civic for a spin along Katipunan: please pray I learn how to parallel park without crashing into anything. I guess it would also be a bonus if I learned how to commute to and from places. I love going out, and I wish I always knew how to get to where I wanted to go and what mode of transportation to take instead of always relying on trikes and taxis all the time.

Since I’m of legal age, I’m also qualified to register to vote. I’ve started immersing myself in current events and politics a few years back, and I witnessed several people my age get shot down by adults when they did so much as express their opinions. “Masyado kang bata,” they’d argue. “Di nga kayo botante eh, wag na kayong makialam!” (But, the indifference of the youth would still be met with biting remarks like, “Wala na ba kayong ibang gagawin kundi mag-Internet? Magkaroon naman kayo ng pakialam sa nangyayari sa paligid!”) So now, I feel a certain kind of satisfaction in finally getting a say in who runs my country. But, at the same time, there’s also an intense kind of pressure since I am expected to discern which candidate serves the people’s best interests and hopefully lead us out of the downward spiral we’re currently making our way through.

It was only very recently—towards the start of the final month of my vacation—that I realized how stagnant I still was a person. Must be surprising for some of you. I feel like I somewhat project this image of being constantly put together. Very rarely do I let myself be vulnerable around other people. This is probably why every time I turn to someone to talk about my problems, I’m always met with reassurance: I, of all people, would have it under control, they say. I have absolutely nothing to worry about.

But, that’s the thing: when we’re on social media, we have this tendency to present only our best selves, turning our accounts into heavily filtered highlight reels. This is not only pretentious but toxic behavior, because of its failure to put things into perspective and show that everyone has their own fair share of both good and bad days. My Instagram feed may be its busy and color-coordinated self at the moment, but it doesn’t show the many nights I’ve spent crying because of how overwhelmed I was by this sudden surge in responsibilities and my inability to handle all of them. I mean, things can seem way beyond your control when your brain refuses to shut up and calm down.

I guess my failure to prepare for everything could be traced back to the beginning of this summer. In hindsight, the goals I had set for my four-month break were all very short-term and not exactly centered on self-improvement. I looked through the bullet journal I was keeping at the time, and found items like “clean my room”, “delete Facebook friends and Twitter followers I don’t interact with” and “buy a new study table” – one word for April 2018 Angel: why? I easily could have used the time to learn a new language or pledge to write 10 posts, maybe even pick up an instrument so I could have started a career as a Soundcloud artist and gotten myself a record deal instead of going to college (Mom, Dad, I’m kidding.) But for some reason, I didn’t even think of setting my standards that high. I spent a lot of time lying on my back, scrolling through the same old timelines several times a day as if the constant refreshing would bring anything of substance in my life.

It's much easier to let the regret paralyze me, to beat myself up for all the mistakes I’ve made and wonder why I didn’t do better. But, we all know that won’t help me get anywhere. As of now, I’m trying my best to be more vocal about my problems with other people so they don’t build up inside of me until I spontaneously combust. I admit I’m also quite the emotional person, so I really want to work on having a rational approach to whatever I’m going through.

I found this thread of healthy coping mechanisms and emergency plans to use during times of distress floating around. In case you guys are too lazy to click on the link, it basically says that you should first identify the trigger thought or whatever is sparking the negative emotions, identify the unhelpful thinking style that you are subscribing to and counter them through coping thoughts and actions to bring your mood back to the center. Twitter user thecolor_teal also says that one important thing to note is that you should never believe in your thoughts without critiquing them.

I’ve been doubling down on the worrying and channeling all that energy on pursuing other interests and planning my life out. I’m on my fifth book in the span of two weeks (I have a post coming up on this, so watch out!) and I just hit the 2k word mark on this post, so I can pretty much say I’m on a roll.  I also came up with three main goals that I want to prioritize as I venture into this new chapter of my life. I read somewhere that publicizing whatever you want to work on, jinxes them in a way but since there’s no scientific evidence to back it up, I’m taking the risk. It could serve as a constant reminder of what I have to do, or pressure me into following through because I’ve put it up here to everyone to see: either way, I win, I guess.

1. Be more involved – maintain a firm stance of my own in issues concerning the country, give back to my community, continue to take genuine interest in the lives of those around me and do whatever I can to help them

2. Be more sociable – judge people less; get to know and interact with people from as many different social circles as possible; learn how to make the first move, engage in small talk (!!!) and not end the conversation with an awkward laugh

3. Be more street smart – be confident when on my own in public places, distinguish when I’m being fooled by people, learn how to get out of sticky situations without having to ask for help

I don’t exactly have everything down pat yet but at this point, it’s become somewhat comforting for me to think that I’m not expected to, and that no one my age knows exactly what they’re doing. We’re all clueless kids with no idea what the future holds and if we’re truly capable of handling it – we’re all hanging on to our empty attempts at reassuring ourselves. Anyone who denies this is probably just trying to make themselves feel better and I’d like you lot to know that we see through you! Despite the sheer hopelessness of our situations, I hope you all make amends with your right to not know whatever the heck you’re doing with your life right now and learn to trust the process. You’ve probably been through worse in the past, but here you are: beaten and bruised and still dusting yourself off from the last time life let you down but still alive and valid and fighting and that’s all that matters. We got this, fellow adult-er. And that is not to be mistaken for adulterer, by the way. That’s not something we should strive to be.

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"Breaking Up" - by @festival-kitten

Kagura rested her head on Gintoki’s oak-wood desk, lazily pulling a strip of sukonbu from her box and nibbling on the end of it. The other two in the Yorozuya couldn’t help but stare at the typically energetic girl, who had now developed a sloth-like state. 

“Kagura,” Gintoki started, approaching the girl steadily just to ensure she wouldn’t snap. Her eyes shifted upwards ever so slightly, only to return to a dreamy daze. “I’d ask if something’s wrong but I think your ruined mascara speaks for itself.” he said, smoothly sliding himself onto the corner of the desk and propping his hands comfortably onto the edges. 

“It’s gotta be boy troubles, Gin-san. She went on a date with Okita-san today.” Shinpachi mentioned, keeping his distance but his worried expression was apparent to them all. She merely sighed, her mute face broken by her peers’ involvement. They had only just returned from a job and had stumbled upon Kagura looking rather…dead. 

“How’d you know about the date we were supposed to have today? W-we were going to go view the cherry blossoms b-but…” her voice began to crack, causing her to break out into uncontrollable sobs. 

“He broke up with me!” she cried, wiping snot on Gintoki’s kimono as she roughly clutched onto it. Gintoki, overwhelmed, attempted at giving her a comforting hug. He gritted his teeth, allowing the girl to let it out for a few moments before he fastened his grip on the hilt of his sword. 

“That little…I’m going to go fi–speak to Souichirou-kun!” Gintoki said, spite lingering in his tone but fading away as soon as he came to a realization that he shouldn’t assume it’s his fault. Besides, he hadn’t heard the full story from her or him yet or much of the story at all. 

Gintoki patted her on the head and gently pulled her off of him, allowing her to slide from his kimono and sink into the chair. She was still rubbing at her eyes, attempting to keep the tears from slipping down her face and spilling elsewhere, but thankfully her loud crying had settled down so he could finally get the chance to speak.

“So what happened?” Gintoki asked, tip-toeing around the question of, “Why did he break up with you?” Asking so would hopefully lighten her up and wouldn’t be as harsh hitting as getting straight to the point. 

Kagura muffled her sobs, ever so slightly recovering from the damage Sougo had caused to her heart an hour or so beforehand. She didn’t know how to respond at first, regaining her composure as she saw in their eyes how much they cared about her well-being. 

“Well, I was waiting on the bridge, our set meeting place. As he approached, he told me, ‘Hold on, let’s break up.’ then he walked away!” she muttered, before bursting into tears yet again. 

Gintoki and Shinpachi merely stared at each other awkwardly, unsure of how to handle the situation. They’d never dealt with a girl who had a broken heart, so frankly, this was new territory for all of them. Kagura didn’t lift her head up, allowing the tears to tumble onto her cheongsam. Both felt sad for her, yet they had no idea what to do. Okay, maybe Gintoki had sort of an idea…

Kagura twirled the chair around to face the wall, as to block her profuse crying but to no avail. Her sobs echoed across the walls, reverberating into everyone’s ears and taunting them to deal with her problem. At this rate, she’d be crying for a whole week and none of them wanted that. They especially didn’t want to have to deal with Otose’s constant complaints. 

“Now now Kagura, it’s okay. Papa Gin will deal with the boy.” he reassured, resting his hand on his sword and tightening his grip as he quickened his pace towards the door. Shinpachi stared dumbfounded at Gintoki, who was resorting to violence to solve the problem. Not unlike him, of course, but he’d rather not hear of the fierce battle between the two strong opponents. Everyone knew that if the two were to duke it out seriously, that the outcome wouldn’t be good. Of course, the same could be said for Kagura and Okita as well.

“W-wait, Gin-san! This won’t sol–”

“Hey danna.”

Shinpachi was cut off as Gintoki stared mutely at the guest on their front doorstep, on their porch, having no qualms about doing so. He merely kept his signature deadpanned face, as if nothing had ever happened.

“Is China there?” he asked, peering over Gintoki’s shoulder for a split second before Gintoki stepped inside his line of view. Sougo raised an eyebrow, curious as to why the silver-haired man garnered a daunting expression. They could hear muffled sobs in the background, piquing his interest. He couldn’t see what was going on though, as Gintoki refused to budge.

Gintoki gave him a scrutinizing gaze, examining him from head to toe. He had no idea why the sandy haired individual had the audacity to show up at his door, but from what he could tell, it seemed as if Sougo was acting like nothing happened at all. 

“You…you think I’m going to just let it slide? You broke that poor girl’s heart!” he said, draw his wooden sword and pointing it squarely on his chest, not letting the boy past it. Sougo appeared as confused as ever, backing away from the challenge. He was only wearing his hakama, clearly not doing his officer duties today. 

“Oi, what did I do?” he asked sincerely, his hand rested behind his back but not lingering at all towards his own sword. Both parties were confused, having furrowed their eyebrows. Gintoki couldn’t tell if he was playing tricks on him or not at first, but the tone of his voice was gradually giving it all away.

“You’re serious? You don’t know what happened?” Gintoki questioned, letting the sword and his arm fall lazily to his side. Sougo shook his head, pulling out what he had behind his back.

“It was supposed to be a surprise, but I couldn’t find her on the bridge where I told her to wait.” he said, holding up a bouquet of pink daffodils with a quaint little bow and ribbon wrapping it all together. Gintoki’s eyes widened, thinking that the two sides of the story didn’t mesh together at all. 

His gaze wavered between the two, wondering just how this all ended up coming into fruition.

“So you’re telling me, you didn’t break up with her?” he motioned his thumb towards the sobbing girl behind the chair, who had still not realized that the very same guy she’d thought had broken up with her was right at their door. 

“I said, “hold on, let’s break up” as in breaking up our party. I went to get these.“ he waved the flowers in his face, causing the puzzle pieces to fit into place. Both Gintoki and Shinpachi facepalmed, knowing that this was all one big misunderstanding. 

As they all knew, Okita is a police officer, who had been doing so for so much of his life that he had gotten used to using different ways of communicating that he’d typically use while on a mission. Of course, he had to use this way of speaking at the worst time, at the one person he shouldn’t have. 

“You idiot, don’t say that to a girl you’re dating!  They’ll get the wrong impression!” Gintoki spat, moving out of the way to let the boy in. “Geez, police officers these days, causing all sorts of problems.” he sighed, sitting himself down in the blue chair along with Shinpachi.

“Go apologize to her.” Gintoki said, but Sougo still clearly didn’t get it. So, he told him the truth if it weren’t obvious enough.

“'Breaking up’ in dating terms means you’ll no longer be together intimately. Therefore, she thought you were through with her.” he explained, realization finally dawning on the naive police officer. This was his first time dating after all, so he was very inexperienced. 

The boy inched closer to Kagura, who still was weeping from the heartbreak. Sougo couldn’t help but feel bad, but was also smirking because he didn’t know she’d miss him this much. At least something good came out of it, at least for him. 

“Oi, China,” he started, resting his hand on the top of the chair and spinning it around to face him. 

“What do you want?” she snapped, but even then he could hear the hurt in her voice. Feeling slightly guilty, he handed the flowers to the girl, who began to wonder why he was giving them to her. 

“I didn’t break up with you,” he said, causing her to raise her eyebrows. “you idiot.” he smiled, allowing her to stop crying and get up from the chair. 

“You’re the idiot!” she said, almost whacking him with the bouquet but restraining herself from damaging the poor flowers. Sougo handed her some tissues, allowing her to let out all of the pent up snot and wipe away her sticky tears. 

“I thought you broke up with me.” she admitted, causing him to flick her forehead. It didn’t faze her, rather it caught her attention. 

“If I wanted to break up with you, then I’d tell you a lot better than that. Come on, let’s go see the cherry blossoms.” he insisted, grabbing onto her hand and walking straight out of the Yorozuya house. 

“He’s grown a lot more soft.” Shinpachi mentioned, Gintoki agreeing along with him. 

“Well, that’s what being young and in love does to you. Not that I’d know.” he said, a faint smile appearing on his face as he thought about the two finally finding happiness.

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CHAMPAIGN — For all the pent-up concern about this Michigan football team, there was never much of a question as to whether it would beat Illinois on Saturday. The question lay in the “how” of it.

For a time, it seemed like Michigan (5-1 overall, 2-1 Big Ten) might answer that question emphatically, beating down Illinois and taking momentum into a trip to Penn State next week. But it’s hard to be optimistic after a second half in which the offense stalled, the defense let Illinois back into the game and the Wolverines needed late heroics in a 42-25 win over the Illini.

Those late heroics came on both sides of the ball. Once Illinois had cut into a 28-0 lead to make it a three-point game early in the fourth quarter, senior quarterback Shea Patterson strung together a 10-play drive, converting a key fourth-and-2 in the red zone with his legs and lofting a pass that found junior wideout Donovan Peoples-Jones in the corner of the end zone.

That brought the lead back to 10 and from there, it was the defense’s turn. Sophomore linebacker Cam McGrone and fifth-year senior defensive end Mike Danna forced fumbles on two consecutive Illinois drives, killing any chance of a comeback and securing the win.

“The things I’m proud of as a team is — there wasn’t this, ‘Here we go again,’ ” said Michigan coach Jim Harbaugh. “They rose up and got a few fumbles of our own.”

Still, especially against Illinois, a perennial Big Ten doormat with a 2-4 overall record, it’s hard to square the victory itself with everything that made it so hard to get.

On paper, this should have been easy for Michigan, and for the first half, it was. The offense ran the ball straight down Illinois’ throat, passing last week’s rushing yards total by the end of their fourth drive. Patterson worked off that success, hitting sophomore Luke Schoonmaker and senior Nick Eubanks for touchdowns to make the lead to 28-7 at halftime.

Then it nearly fell apart. The offense fell back into its struggles after Illinois started slanting a defensive end hard in the run game. Patterson’s rhythm seemed off in the passing game, and the Wolverines didn’t score in the third quarter as its defense gave up 18 points.

Suddenly, minutes into the fourth, senior running back Tru Wilson fumbled — the same issues that have haunted Michigan all year cropping up again. Illinois running back Dre Brown scored and then converting a two-point attempt to make it 28-25 with 12:50 to go.

“Anytime you got a lead like that, coming out of the second half you gotta keep the foot on the pedal and in full throttle,” Patterson said, admitting there was frustration. “But sometimes in a game, it happens like that and just gotta stay within ourselves.”

Michigan did, but still, the tune felt familiar. Here the Wolverines were, again, fumbling the ball, playing down to an opponent and taking a win that felt just a little bit hollow.

“I think it was after they scored a two-point conversion, everybody kinda started wilding up and not really trusting each other at that moment,” McGrone said. “But I think we got back to the sideline, got to talk. It’s all good.”

It was an oddly candid moment from McGrone, who admitted things started to break down with the defense yelling at the offense as others continued to speak in the language of optimism and positivity.

To be sure, there are positives to take. A season-high average of 6.1 yards per carry behind Zach Charbonnet and Hassan Haskins — and a first-half stretch in which Josh Gattis’ offense seemed to work as intended. Another standout performance from sophomore wideout Ronnie Bell, who went for 98 yards as Nico Collins sat out with an injury. Another game in which the defense stepped up when asked.

Harbaugh, standing at the podium afterwards with his hands in his pockets, seemed genuine in his praise. “Pleased with the way the offense played,” he said. “Thought they performed extremely well.”

Michigan will take the win. But to meet any of their preseason goals, the Wolverines must navigate a gauntlet that still includes Penn State, Notre Dame, Michigan State and Ohio State.

“Our guys rose to the challenge,” Harbaugh said. “They were tested mightily and they did a great job. Didn’t flinch, kept playing, kept fighting.”

But when the challenge gets greater — starting next week in State College — it could take a whole lot more to meet it.

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Your Name, Age (18+), & Timezone: Victoria/20/Mexico City 

Karina Díaz turned twenty-one years old on April 4. She’s a college student with a major in phsycology in Greensville. Her face claim is Danna Paola.   

Bio: Karina was born in Mexico, but their parents decided to send her abroad with her aunt when she was 15, she is a proud feminist. People normally judge her because she is a feminist, but she saw so much pain at women in her birth country, that she couldn’t stay with her arms crossed. She is an only child, she was loved by all her family. Now she is 21, has two shit-zu dogs, lives in a gorgeous pent house, she loves her birth country, but she is aware that she can never come back, even if that means not seeing her family for a long time. She decided to study psychology because since she was little girl she was intrigued to learn how to tell when people are lying to her, she is basically studying to become a human lying detector. She leaved her aunt house when she turned 18 because she wanted to be an independent woman since young, she usually goes to feminist rally’s, their parents say to her that she doesn’t need to be a feminist, since she have it all, but how do they expect to her not to be a feminist? She was by her best friend side after a group of men raped her and saw how no one did nothing about it. 

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Karina is talking to her dad, which is angry again because Karina exploted on family dinner while their parents where visiting her, she was angry because his dad started to talk trash about the women who get raped and after have the courage to speak about it, to expose those who hurt them. Karina couldn’t stay quiet in front o such comments, so she started to argue about it, telling him that those women were brave, if they campare them to the man who raped them, who abuse of them in more that sexual ways. 

“Ay papá, por favor, no empieces. You know how I feel about this and where I stand, so please don’t come here and start telling this things if you already know how I’m going to react.” She said 

“No, you are the one who has no right to talk to me about the way you are right now, I’m your father and you have to respect me.” 

“I’ll respect you the minute yo start to respect to the things I believe in.”

“I respect them, but I don’t understand why are you so stubborn, you have to leave what it happened in the past.”

“How could I? That’s not something it can easily be forget, how they covered what happened, and it’s their fault that I no longer have her by my side.” 

“You don’t have anything to do thinking about those things.” 

“Yes I have, because what happened to Camila is the reason why you sent me away, and why I wasn’t able to be there to top her.”

“Don’t blame yourself for what Camila did”

“Who said that I’m blaming myself? You know exactly who is the one to blame.”

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Fetchin Bones - Bonework

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Fetchin' Bones performs at CBGBs - "A Fable"

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Fetchin Bones - A Fable