#daniza — 🤙🏽

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I SAW YOU WERE BACK FROM YOUR HIATUS AND JUMPED WITH JOY- catch me up on life olive !! i’ve so dearly missed you 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

DANIZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how are you equally unhinged and brainrotted bestie???? i am alright (and getting ready to EAT the newest fic you tagged me in - i know you think i have no basis for zombies but you're actually wrong, my sister and i sat through all of those films (except for the like,,,, last 10 minutes of the latest one asdfghgfds), but you're correct, i would have devoured it besides, asfghgfd) and despite having very little motivation to get back into The Tumblr Fic Writer Lifestyle, i am excited to be back!!!! i have missed my mutuals and queueing stupid posts, and screaming in the tags faaaaaaar too much to be a normally functioning adult, asdfghgfdsdfg.

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I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THAT HIS NAME IS ERIC JAMES CASWELL,,, IT SIMPLY ISN’T TRUE 💔 D23 I HOPE YOU’RE LYING-

LIES AND SLANDER.

This is clearly a ploy to get us off of the right trail, because an entire miscommunication arc in season 3 is going to revolve around Gina becoming increasingly worried because she thinks EJ is ~hiding something from her~, and it must be really important for EJ to lie about (!!!!), but it’s literally just that he lied to her about his name. What EJ stands for. He told her it was Eric James because he didn’t want to seem like a Nerd(TM) in front of his Cool Girlfriend(TM), with an honest-to-god given name of Elton John Caswell. ESP since everyone at camp knows and is making OBVIOUS rocketman references… Clearly, Ashlyn is going to spill the beans during a game of truth or dare or something and EJ gets vvv awkward but Gina is just going to be suuuuuuuper unimpressed like,,,,,,,, EJ,,,,,,, you don’t have to hide such things from me I already KNOW you’re a nerd. What a dorky boyfriend I love you and I’m glad our miscommunication arc was something dumb and stupid <3 summer camp goals <3

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me watching hsmtmts teasers,,, olive they’re FEEDING US !!! ONE OF THE CAMPERS HAS NICKNAMED EJ ROCKETMAN,,, LIKE THE ELTON JOHN SONG !!! I’VE MANIFESTED THIS

WE NEED TO GO BACK TO THIS AND THIS ONLY.

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OLIVE I KNOW YOU’RE ON HIATUS BUT THE HSMTMTS TRAILER DROPPED AND EJ CASWELL IS HOLDING A GUITAR DURING A BONFIRE SCENE…WE MANIFESTED THAT !!!! and ej talking about his second home,,, the uncle joel caswell era is coming and i can’t wait for it 🫶🏽 (also beloved i miss you dearly, and wholeheartedly understand why you’re away, but i simply can’t wait for your return)

I JUST RAN TO SEE THE TRAILER AND DANIZA!!!!!!!!! we made that a thing, and honestly, it's making me think about my half-baked camp counselor au that i fathomed for ej during like,,,,, season 1 asdfghjkjhgfdsdfghj. the hsmtmts writers need to consult us because we clearly have unique and total understanding of their characters, as we SHOULD asdghjkjgfdsdfgh. our brainrot is stronger than their entire writing team lololololol.

and i miss you so much, too, daniza! when i Officially come back,,,,,,,,,, the ej caswell content i will create will be legendary i think

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ohh okay so we can call him d for now :) he’s been in my life for like 12/13 years now?? but i’ve had feelings for a while. i was fine with the idea of just pining on my own, never thinking he could ever reciprocate those feelings. but now i’m in my senior year so lost and confused because he keeps giving me mixed signals. he’s been complimenting me more often than not lately (“you’re the smartest person i know daniza” “no one could ever be you daniza” “damn daniza you didn’t have to do me like that” “you’re such a big part of my life” “you’re so supportive”),,, and banter. lots of it, as well as saying my name in every sentence even though it’s just the two of us talking, and a whole bunch of other stuff. he barely got added to my close friends and he’s always the first to see everything, and apparently he stares at me when i’m not looking, even if it’s across the room. here are some pictures that kinda sum up our relationship?? my height difference with him makes me wanna weep UGH

not me disappearing after asking for more info— shh...... we can pretend like i answered this on time.....

but daniza!!!!!!!!! "no one could ever be you" ?????????? that sounds like a friends to lovers statement if i ever heard one,,,,, and catching the other looking? and a height difference? stop, you're making me yearn.......

(but also, only somewhat related, i love how in the first image it's clearly supposed to be "reacted 💗 to your message" but it reads "reacted 💗 to your mess." he loves your mess. love that. 😂😂😂😂😂 lol, i'm a lot. but it is the growing heart emoji too....)

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i want to write so bad but my brain is empty-

what a moooooooooooooooood.

what's even worse is when your brain is not in fact empty of ideas, but it is, in fact, empty of words and you can see a scene, and maybe you can even hear it, but for some reason..... coherence doesn't exist.

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I (politely) DEMAND A LIST OF THOUGHTS FOR PANIC WHENEVER YOU’RE READY OLIVE ❤️ FHSJFHS I AM THE SHIRO MEME I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU’RE WATCHING IT AHHH

I'VE ONLY WATCHED THE FIRST TWO EPISODES BUT I HAVE A FEW THOUGHTS AND THEORIES BELOW:

first of all, i can already tell you that i know heather and ray are going to get together at some point, but that's a big disrespect to bishop who is RIGHT THERE having SUCH best friends to lovers vibes for no good reason. i don't think there will be a ~love triangle~ so much as disappointment on bishops part (and lol probably heather. why would you choose ray????) but bishop deserves better i'm already calling it.

also, uhhhh,,,, heather sweetie I know you're the Bland Female Protagonist that we can all project onto but please get some kind of personality,,,, the sibling bond with your sister can only do so much.

secondly, can i just predict right now that somehow dodge is related to one of the kids who died in panic the year prior - maybe they're siblings or cousins or something - and he wants revenge. i saw him escorting a crying woman at the graduation ceremony, he seems very intent to win panic, and i have a feeling they're going to try to hit us with a ~twist~ motivation because he's very light skinned, and nO oNe WoUlD eXpEcT iT— but i come from a mixed family and the diversity in skin tone and features that you can have between siblings is vast, alright? idk how to account for the last name difference, but 'dodge mason' sounds very fake name-y to me, so who knows? maybe he doctors official documents in his spare time.

(also, i guess half-siblings and adoption are fair reasons for his last name difference, his light skin, and his anonymity in the town, but it feels like a cop out to me.)

third, i know we should be rooting for heather to win, but i'm rooting for dodge since i have that theory about his relatedness to the fallen. also, uhhh,,, dodge has personality asdfhjhgfdsdgh.

fourth, not gonna lie, i think dodge is making the ~moves~ on natalie and he's doing it strategically for a reason but i honestly don't know what reason it could be. it's most likely not heather-related, but he wants to be close to her for a reason

!!!!!! maybe it has to do with how her dad is a police officer! maybe he wants connections with the police for some reason! idk.

and speaking of,,,, uhhh,,,,, natalie's fine. i don't like or dislike her. i think she made a pretty quick change in judgement when she forgave heather with very little reasoning. i would forgive heather too since she clearly needs the money, but natalie was pissed like 'there's only enemies in panic!!!!!! there's no together!!!!!!!!!' and then, just,,,, immediately changes her mind?? idk. i would like to see that conflict stew (and who knows? maybe it is and she just has a killer poker face. maybe she'll lash out at some point. idk though... but she is an aspiring actress, right? i hope we get some theatre kid energy out of her asghjhgfdfgh.)

oh, also, heather has some kind of dog whispering abilities (mentioned offhandedly but has to have purpose) so i bet you that's going to be relevant to panic later on. they're gonna sicc dogs on them or something and heathers going to have some kind of ~magic touch~ idk

also, i know i mentioned how fake-y dodge's name sounds, but i also like how it implies a lot about his character. he's good at evasive maneuvering. he can dodge well, but it also implies he gets into a lot of fights - rather than flight, he holds his ground and dodges until it's time to strike. also, the surname mason has a connotation connected to strength. interesting....

oh, and, the name bishop really strikes me as someone who is level-headed and far seeing, but also someone strategic (bc of the chess connection, lol). idk if that's going to factor into any plotline he has (please say he's not just the best friend without depth character) but i have hopes he could be pulling massive strings.

also,,,, isn't it a thing that the heather plant is known to grow where there's been bloodshed on a battlefield? did i just make that up or is that a thing? because if so..... then even the name heather, which is just ~soft and feminine~ might have some kind of implication........ also, i think it has healing properties so hmmmm......

lol, i'm stretching with name connotations but i just think names are neat!!!!

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literally no thoughts just miguel with a songwriter s/o that his childhood bestie julie molina introduced him to after sneaking into los feliz performing arts high school to surprise her in the middle of the school day LMAO

!!!!!!!!!!!! 

no, but that’s so cute,,,,,,,,,,, julie introducing them because they were chilling when miguel shows up and seeing the spark,,,,,,,, her casually including miguel in everything they do together because julie knows that they’ll hit it off,,,,,, her pushing the s/o into showing miguel their music,,,,,,,,, julie molina has the chaos to be a matchmaker, all of you know it.

and !!!!! when miguel moves they can have a long distance thing and the s/o can write songs for him! and they can write letters to each other and stay up late to facetime,,,,,,,,, and when julie and the phantoms goes to perform at the all valley (yes, that is my canon now. thank you for bringing it to me <3) the reader goes along and can cheer for miguel!!!!! 

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you’re giving uwu and pain vibes when it comes to being a fanfic writer,,, but which one do you think i am 🧐🧐🧐 i’m curious !

okay, but i love that for me? i feel like everyone needs just a hint of intimidation, and if it's my writing that hits you with that vibe,,,,, i certainly try.

as for you, daniza, you are clearly 'too many thots' because you always have the most ideas, and i love the different rambles you put in my ask box. i'm constantly saying your mind, so clearly, i have to compliment your mind. (but also uwu. you'll have to tell me what your status is, though, on believing in true love. i feel like you could be a believer, but maybe you're a soft cynic like me.)

uwu: — rlly nice!! — writes fluff and tender stuff — believes in true love

pain: — intimidating — they will hurt you with their fanfic — a nice person under the scary

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okay so basically before miguel moves to reseda, he lived in los feliz a street away from julie, whom he met at around six years old when she scraped her knees while he was playing outside with his mom. miguel and carmen make their way over and while carmen rushes inside to get a bandaid, rose and miguel are at her side, thus forming a quick bond !!! but now that he lives in reseda and miguel can’t drive, it’s harder to see each other in person, but that doesn’t stop them from texting calling and facetiming 24/7. around the time of the second karate tournament (in season four) julie and the phantoms surprise miguel and perform instead of carrie underwood though, which meshes the two worlds together seamlessly

baby julie and baby miguel!!!!!!!!!!! they befriend each other and spend the most time hanging out during the summers. they're those kids who play in the streets at all odd hours of the evening, squealing and laughing in the dark and kicking off their sandals so they can ride their bikes and scooters faster (because not wearing shoes does make you ride faster, mom!!!). and half an hour before the ice cream man comes, they hover around rose and carmen in a not-so-subtle hint that they'd like some wrinkled dollars bills for an ice cream. they don't always get the money, but when they do julie clearly gets the powerpuff girls popsicle and miguel probably gets one of those chocolate-chip cookie ice cream sandwiches. and they sit on the hot pavement and lick their sticky fingers, swapping jokes in the oncoming night,,,,,,,,,,

and omg, yes, the text threads that they'd have together..... i mean, miguel having full of karate brawls? julie meeting ghosts?? these are crazy big things that you know they talk about 24/7. and jatp doing the karate tournament???????????? perfection.

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no thoughts just childhood besties julie molina and miguel diaz ❤️❤️❤️ i miss them and my silly little crossovers (BUT I ALSO DID WRITE A MIGUEL FIC SO THAT WAS KINDA FUN I JUST DK WHEN TO DROP IT) but how are you !!! i miss you sooo much

daniza!!!!!!!!!!!

the way you just drop an absolutely golden concept in my ask box and leave should be illegal, actually. tell me more about childhood besties julie molina and miguel diaz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your crossovers are the only crossovers that matter, and this one sounds like it could be so much fun. asdtyukjhgfdsdfghj can you imagine julie teasing miguel mercilessly about his weak musicality,,,, miguel diaz, i love you and support you, but you cannot sing,,,,,,,,

and you wrote a miguel fic??????? daniza, you simply must drop it and tag me when you do!!!! i miss your writing sm and the hsmtmts fandom hasn't been the same since we stopped screaming over ej caswell and carrie wilson,,,,,,

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LMAO OLIVE ONLY I WOULD END UP LIVING THE HEATHER BY CONAN GRAY STORYLINE 😭😭😭 (i’m basically conan’s pov) so guess who’s doing a main character photoshoot on december third ;) bc i’ve been literally been called the y/n by way too many people so i might as well embrace it at this point-

and i may be excited about it,,, argue with the wall but it’s a little fun and angsty for me LMAO

not HEATHER 😭😭😭😭😭

unrequited love is terrible, and i hope you're okay, daniza! things will get better, and hey,,,,,,, you're the y/n so i imagine things will turn out for you. someone is writing a 20k slow burn, long fic, unrequited love (or is it?) fic for you,,,,,,

but also, heather is a great song, so at least you have a good anthem.

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FHSKDHS olive i miss you 💗 how are you lovely? also i saw stuff about julie and the phantoms in a recent ask you answered and i just wanted to say i missed them but also that i’ve been watching cobra kai and it’s crossover time- (mainly bc xolo maridueña’s little sister is a jatp stan, i wish i could send you the video of her going off about the petitions and why it should get renewed) bc they’re my two current comfort shows no matter how cringe the love triangle is 😭

DANIZA!!!!!!!! i'm doing alright (though school is trying it's hardest to kill me with it's workload rn), how are you? and ohmygod,,,,,,,,, crossover time???? you make the best crossovers and i still think it's a crime that we'll never get to see it happen 😭😭😭. and don't reMIND me that julie and the phantoms is cancelled,,,,,,, if i don't think about it, it hasn't happened yet,,,,

and sksksksksksksksks,,, don't remind me about the love triangle because if i do not see it, it does not exist,,,,,,, they really couldn't think of any other fuel for petty drama other than a love square that plays ping pong every two episodes,,,,,,,, bLEASE sir they are mature enough to have other beef. i mean,,,, it's getting a little tired. it wasn't even engaging in season 1 imo.

and lol, okay, but what kept catching me off guard is that xolo maridueña looks like That but we're supposed to still buy that he's a teenager sdfghjhgfdsasdfg. i mean, i sure do hope he's a sENIOR who's graduating in two weeks because he has grown out of his high school years, let me tell you. but do you remember when he was so young???? when he had braces?????? wow. it's been a journey, for sure.

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i miss you sm olive 🥺 just wanted to check in and see how you’ve been ! i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself, much love bb <3

i miss you daniza!!!!! i've been okay, but i've had a lot of schoolwork, which isn't fun. (also my tumblr keeps glitching? idk what that's about, but staff will either fix it or die by my blade.) i hope you've been okay! i miss screaming about hsmtmts with you,,,,,, truly a crime it's not a never ending show with a new episode every week to facilitate bonding,,,,,,,,

lol, but you're messages bring so much joy to my life! you are truly such a good friend, and i adore you.

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NOT YOU POSTING ABOUT A FRIENDS TO LOVERS PLAYLIST WHEN I AM CURRENTLY GOING THROUGH MY FRIENDS TO LOVERS ARC RN 😭 I AM BLUSHING

daniza you can't just sAY THAT WITH NO CONTEXT TELL ME WHO—

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🐿️ mayhaps ??? also mega congrats on your milestone !!! ily <3

thank you, daniza! ily too!

🐿️ :

the feeling of sitting in the parking lot of a thrift store or walmart and singing along to the stereo with a group of friends before going in. energy is pumping through your veins and maybe someone is singing off key, but you can't hear it in the moment because the world is too bright for you to focus on anything other than the joy that fills your chest - heavy in sweetness and dipped in something youthful and shining. the world feels brilliant because it is contained within this small space, and you can feel every swell of emotion as the bass reverberates against your seat.