#dang reading that made me feel like I was CP and I gonna think about that everytime I tried to sleep/hj

[dooodle-bug]

Caedon took a sharp in hale and took the backpack off and started to search through it "no no no-please dont be broken or rippped please please please-" he wispered to himself. He pulled out of it a heart shaped locket and medium sized photo album with leather covers "oh thank the godeses of hylia they're both ok" he told himself

Colored Pencils stiffened, realizing the mistake they made. "Sorry," they mumbled and pulled their hood further over their face, supposedly sulking.

[thedappleddragon]

last night I dreamed that I was an archeologist tortoise and I was looking at dozens of “human” skeletons in Buckingham palace that was also my backyard. the skeletons all looked like combo human and turtle because the whole torso looked basically like the first google image result for sea turtle skeleton. then my sister woke me up, giving me a comforter and telling me my mom need help with some things.  cleaned up around the living room and did some laundry and boiled some eggs and made meatloaf and swept the floor. the meatloaf turned out surprisingly good, idk what I did differently. I evemtually went back to my room and tried to remember what I wanted to do today. last night as I was falling asleep I told myself that I was gonna clear off my desk so I could finally use it, so I moved some stuff around and set up my laptop. I havent been able to sit at a real actual desk in SO LONG and its SO NICE to have just like a space where I can sit down and work and have a chair that will support my back instead of sitting cross legged on my bed or laying down while doing stuff on my laptop. it almost makes me feel productive even I'm just playing the sims. I feel especially cool when im just typing out whatever bullshit because it makes me feel like im at an office job typing up ~important documents~ :) idk man I think quarantine has changed me lmao. if im getting this many emotions from just being able to sit down at a desk and do ANYTHING idk how im gonna handle collage. I keep calling whetever im doing (playing the sims, scrolling through Tumblr, typing up this summary of the day) work because it just. feels nice sitting at a desk and typing. even if it’s dumb bullshit!! idk how to describe it I just feel amazing. it makes me feel like im writing a paper with all the horrible parts like research and thinking. the sound of typing on my MacBook makes me feel like im in school again, but without the horrible stressful parts. idk mn I know I've been going on about this desk and stuff for too long and im gonna hate it if I eventually read back through these daily logs but I just feel so nice. ill change topics anyway. I hung up my calendar again! I literally didn't have any open wall space aside from maybe the wall behind my bed but why the hell would I put a calendar where I can't see it. instead its kind of hanging above my closet. I pinned it to the wooden board in the “doorway” (idk what other word to use) where there would normally be sliding doors that open and shut if they hadn't been taken off YEARS ago. I also played a lot of the sims 4, juggling aspirations for 5 sims. I quit because I got frustrated that all my sims are dumb and the ai Is buggy and doesn't let me do what I want them to do. I also plopped in a house on my family’s old lot and spent some time adjusting the colors and the trees and adding those paper craft cieling things that can either have stars or leaves or snowflakes that came in the free winter holiday stuff pack and holy shit as soon as I found those I think they became my new favorite decoration item. I threw them everywhere but eventually took down most of them, leaving some leaf ones in the bedroom. I was gonna move in a family of a bunch of young adults and children to help with the first kid’s serial romantic aspiration and one of the twin’s social butterfly aspiration, but I ended up not doing that in favor of just decorating more and playing with the family some more. one thing I realized while playing is that there are fucking MICE in my CIELING. well not really in the cieling, in the attic, but I can hear them chewing on shit and its sucks. I would turn on a fan to drown out the noise but my room is fucking FREEZING. I threw the blanket back over my window hoping that it would keep heat from escaping but I don't think that really did anything. so after freezing my ass off I got fed up and put on fluffy socks under normal socks, wore my owl onesie as pants over my shorts, put on my comfy (oversized hoodie), and threw a fluffy blanket over my shoulders. thankfully I was pretty cozy after that, but as I type this after taking off the cosy and blanket, I can feel my toes getting cold again. damnit. ANYWAY after quitting the sims for the night I ate some salad and got a heart shaped crouton :) and I scrolled through Tumblr for a bit. then I decided to finally work on the paws my friend wanted. but I couldn't find the pattern so I instead worked on the brown paws instead. I could only work on them so much, since I still have to finish the lining before I can do much else. I attached the backs of the fingers to the back of the hand. I didnt get much down but what matters is that I did SOMETHING. I'm gonna keep an eye out for that pattern that I need, and if I cant find it, I'll just make a new pattern. tbh I think thad’s be the better way to go anyway since I wouldn't have to figure out how the fuck the old one goes together and I can also have a pattern that perfectly fits the foam underneath. also tbh i have mixed feeling about the white paws my friend wants. I like how dextrous they are and how easily you can emote and move your fingers, but I dont like how ovular I made the paw pads and the hints of black thread peaking out where I sewed the pads from the back. I WOULD just remake them with the free curl works pattern im using for the brown paws but I figure I might as well finish this pair since there’s already one done and the foam interior is already made. whatever. I dont wanna think about it too much. I also dont like the head that goes with the paws, it was a fish job in comparison to my first head and I kinda hate it. but I think I'll eventually get some longer fur for the neck and a hair poof and cheeks (maybe) and do a little refurbishing and give it to my friend if she ever wants it, since it matches the paws and all. I have lots of plans for my 2 WIP heads but not all the materials/motivation. plus I just need to let the ideas stir before I do unything, making sure they’re goof before I act on them. I'm exited that I can shave down fur relativey easily and evenly without an electric dog shaver, which opens up a lot of opportunities. anyway as I was working on the brown paws I had TAZ on in the background and it still baffles me a little bit how different griffin and Matt mercer operate as dms like holy shit. its really funny. and it got me thinking about how I wouldn't mind dming for my friend group if he chance ever arose. I DO have the forgotten realms campaign setting book. I haven't actually looked at it but I assume it has a few pre-built quests and plot lines n stuff in it. I'll probably take a better look at in the morning when it’s not 1:40 am. dang now I'm thinking about my Minecraft dnd idea again. I think the real problem keeping me from being a dm is that I CANNOT keep a straight face when doing improv/roleplaying, so I dont know how well I could hold together a world for them to play in. I would love to give it a try tho. not with the Minecraft idea at the same time, fuck no. I would need to do like. a classic vanilla dnd experience the first time, maybe even using our tiefling family characters since I'm at least a little familiar with them. can you dm and also play your own character? is that fair? is that a think you can do? I think that could be fun but also hard to juggle and also maybe kinda suck because you’d already know all the answers to all the puzzles. meh. actually now I kind of really want to look through thet book tonight instead of in the morning. also I mentioned overnight oats a few days ago I think, and the first morning it was kinda gross, the second time I ate it was still a little gross texture wise, but I finished it off tonight and it was pretty good. maybe next time I'll try it without the banana and a little less milk and maybe slice up an apple into little cubes for texture. hell yeah peanut butter apple cinnamon brown sugar overnight oats. that sound pretty dang good actually. I'll try that some time, but I dont think I can right now because I dont think we have any apples in the house. phooey. I should also probably put this oatmeal cp in the sink before it becomes impossible to clean. holy shit how long have I been writing? SEE THE DESK MAKES ME JUST WANNA KEEP WRITING AND WRITING FOREVER I FEEL SO PRODUCTIVE EVEN IF IM NOT DOING ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE!! I love just typing and typing forever its so soothing just hearing the tapping of the keyboard and getting my thought out without actually having to think that hard about it. goddamn im never gonna read back through this this is a nightmare lmao. no paragraph breaks no capitalization no nothin. I dont even wanna stop typing even though my arm is starting to hurt a little but from leaning the edge of the desk. now im thinking about the movie soul again and the cat as it rides on the escalator to the great beyond and how that dude in the band was the main characters student and how that scene with the girl trying to quit music and then immediately changed her mind didnt make any sense. like what the hell I dont understand that scene at all. also thinking about the transition where he’s like “ok repeat after me” as he’s in the cat and the camera goes over the mom’s shoulder and it’s just him talking, I like how they did that instead of doing dialouge between him and the cat. idk man. I think maybe I should stop typing now since my body is starting to hurt. sorry for putting this H U G E wall of text on your dash but I just like typing out my thoughts :) goodnight!

edit: OH I forgot to talk about something else!! last night I was thinking about valentines day and how cute it would be to have a little overall dress in the pattern on one of my childhood blankets, its like a light pink with white hearts on it so I looked up some fabrics and none of them were the right pattern. I also looked up a sewing pattern that I think would look nice and its on sale right now! I totally want to try and make it, but fabric is expensive so I think I might look at dollar tree for fleece baby blankets because I know they have them there, I bought a few a while ago for some plush sewing projects. they’re decently sized so I think I could do it.idk how many I would need to buy tho. or I might go to goodwill and look for a pink sheet? I have a thin pink blanket that could theoretically work but I want to use a planet im not attached to. or even just find a few big shirts in the same shade of pink? then I could maybe line it with something. I have red purple and white satin but that’s literally the worst fuckin fabric in the world to work with. my first experience with sewing was trying to make plushies out of satin and holy hell idk how I did it. anyway even though I literally never wear dresses I think it would be a fun project to try and make myself a cute little valentines dress. :) I could even give myself POCKETS >:)))

[zora-moyashi]

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Core

"Means stuff gets changed, come on." Shatter said, making a portal back to Chronicle

ZM

she huffs "no duh. but what happened? what changed you little know it all" she stands by her watching her make the portal.

Core

"Remember how frisk had that string attaching her to the creators?

ZM

"yeah bro"

Core

"Well, some creators like to 'update' their creations." Shatter said, going through the portal

ZM

.... she shakes her head still a bit confused "so you're telling me... that there's a bunch of gods that do whatever the heck they want with us whenever they want" "that's kinda messed up" steps inside the as well

Core

Shatter stayed quiet, looking for Chronicle.

ZM

chara rolls her eyes and folds her arms not appreciating being ignored. she grabs a book from a shelf that seems to be the history of the three trees (life, magic, feelings) lazily she starts reading about the story of dream and nightmare

Core

Chronicle had written about several versions of the same story, the majority were about two skeletal brothers, at the end she would write the 'name' of the creator, Joku, Bizarekai, and so forth.

ZM

she mutters to herself "what a f***ing mess." she's overwhelmed with the variations . "why bother learning any of this if there's no definitive answer hm? if there are multiple 'universes' and this is telling me there's multiple 'multiverses' why does anyone care about anything anymore gosh dang." she lays on the floor holding the book above her continuing to read.

Core

A different section referred to the 'star variant' of the story, in which it was two siblings, and this Nightmare had no choice but to eat the fruit. In this version, after becoming corrupted, she hurt Dream on accident and then fled. there were also notes from Chronicle, referring to how this variant was connecting the original story with traits from other multiverses, meaning it is possible or likely that future updates could change data.

ZM

chara sighs and puts the book on her chest rocking her head up to see what shatter's doing

Core

"Core must have told her....damn it!"

ZM

??? "what's up shatter?"

Core

"Chronicle isn't here, come on." Shatter said, opening another portal.

ZM

with a shrug and tossing the book to the floor she does as she's told

Core

This portal led to what seemed to be the ruins, but it seemed empty, and roses had grown here and there.

ZM

she strolls around and picks a rose "ya know shatter, not that i don't like being dragged around the multiverse or nothin' but what exactly are we doing?

Core

"Look, we need to, take care of someone." Shatter said curtly

ZM

chara shakes her head "whatever, lead the way then shatter" she starts to pick the petals off of the rose slowly

Core

Shatter seemed to be looking for someone, they had been wandering for 15-20 minutes when Shatter stopped dead in her tracks.

ZM

following behind shatter when she suddenly stops she ran into her back hurting her nose. she rubs it and looks up at shatter unamused. "find them yet?"

Core

Shatter nudged her head to the side, signaling Chara to look

ZM

she does so throwing her petal-less rose to the ground.

Core

She saw a pair of eyes looking back. The eyes were a maroon color, and belonged to a female.

ZM

"aahh... heyo?" she steps forward trying to get a better look. she looks back at shatter not really trusting either of them but looking at shatter for reassurance nonetheless

Core

Shatter glared at the other star. the unnamed person ignored Chara and spoke to Shatter. "You're late."

ZM

chara mostly gets out of their way wanting to see this exchange.

Core

"I ran into trouble, okay?" Shatter responded.

ZM

"she's lying" chara butts in "she was just messing around fighting with me." she states

Core

Shatter glared at Chara, The other remarked. "Is that so?"

ZM

she snickers

Core

"No, I was able to find where Chronicle has been hiding." Shatter answered.

ZM

"what? in that library? she didn't look like she was hiding to me." she turns to the other in the room. "by the way who are you?"

Core

"My name is Music, Chara." She replied.

ZM

"why does everyone know my name" she grumbles "well hi music, knowing shatter's friend circle I assume you're. important ?"

Core

"We aren't friends, we just are required to work together." Shatter corrected.

ZM

she chuckles "i sense a rivalry"

Core

"A rivalry is a waste of time and energy." Music said quite coldly, "Come on, we have a new assignment."

ZM

she giggles more, quietly and follows music

Core

Shatter follows as well. Music soon explained the assignment. "Blood has been causing issues again, we are to remove of the threat, be it by capture or killing her."

ZM

"what an ironic name for us to go kill her." "how powerful is this lady?"

Core

"Well, her cp is higher than shatter's and mine, but lower than I-3 and F-5."

ZM

"helpful" she says dryly. "you really think you can take her down if you two are weaker then her? i mean i know you have 2 people and all but if she's a good strategist then she could still break you both."

Core

"Her weakness is her instability, we can use that to our advantage to expose her core, then either grab it or break it." Music explained.

ZM

"cool beans, let's get this lady beat so we can go to core frisk and chronicle" she looks at shatter. "like we were supposed to be doing."

Core

Shatter looked at Chara, "they weren't there, we will try later."

ZM

"a'ight" she skips ahead looking around for wherever blood happens to be.

Core

THey soon came to an area where the trees were all black and dead, the air was dry.

ZM

chara likes the change of scenery and grins widely deciding to climb one of the dead trees. "so why are we killing this lady?" hanging out at the top of it

Core

"She is a threat."

ZM

"aren't all of us?" she motions to the three of them

Core

"Well, Blood is more like, can destroy planets and timelines kinda threat." Shatter said

ZM

"just cause she's strong we gonna kill her" she shrugs and hops to the next tree. "a little messed up but i'll roll with it"

Core

"Welcome to our world." Music said.

ZM

"this is what you do in your free time? who tells you to do this stuff? you know, sense you two don't like each other, you wouldn't work together if you didn't have to."

Core

"You can say that again, look, we work for the one who actually made us, you know his as W. D. Gaster." Shatter explained

ZM

"what a shame" she shakes her head.

Core

Music froze in her tracks, hearing something.

ZM

she looks at shatter "we need to get you guys free. maybe kill your gaster. if that's even possible ahah" she sees music stop and looks to were she's looking.

Core

Nothing but more trees. Music jumped out of the way as one of the 'tree's' branches shot towards her

ZM

chara jumps out of the tree and onto the branch that's going for music. she spawns her knife and cuts through the branch

Core

The knife wouldn't cut through, the tree moved revealing it was a star who was covered in a black armor-like coating

ZM

"well aren't you fancy~? " she shakes her hand out that she hurt from the inability to cut the branch.

Core

The star only responded with a screech, Music kept moving, to not be an easy target

ZM

"so are you blood" she asks staring star down to anticipate an attack

Core

"No, that's not her." Shatter said. Another 'branch tried to hit her, but she dodged

ZM

something burns in chara's chest and she has the urge to act against the star. thinking how frisk would have taken care of this she dodges until she talks to it in a chill tone "so how's your day been" she laughs at herself wondering how that came over her even though frisk is very much dead. she assumes it's something the body is accustom to so it keeps doing it.

Core

Music glared at Chara slightly, and Shatter looked at her like she was an idiot. The star kept up the attack.

THE STAR DIDN’T UNDERSTAND

ZM

"awww, poor little thing." she makes a sad face to the star. she laughs at music's reaction and decides to keep this up for her own amusement. she starts messing around with actions one of them being a lightning fast hug flinging her self away before she could be hit.

Core

THE STAR SEEMS CONFUSED, EVASIVENESS LOWERED.

Music scoffed, quickly getting behind the star to land a kick, before dodging. Shatter knew most of her powers were useless against the armor.

ZM

chara puts a hand over her mouth thinking. she wonders why she feels bad for this thing and not anything else sense taking frisks body. she stands back and decides to watch what the rest of them do for a bit.

Core

"Shatter! Use Boomburst dammit!" Music ordered. Shatter seemed confused at first, before turning to the split with the sewn up mouth, she then used her claws to break the strings, then screaming, it was extremely high pitched, like a jet taking off.

ZM

she holds her ears and squints to the star "is that going to crack that armor?" she wonders

Core

The armor did crack, giving Music a chance to attack, which she gladly too

ZM

chara grimices when music gets a good hit on the star.

Core

The star's spine was actually exposed, Music didn't hesitate to try and cripple them. She did miss,but it was enough to scare off the star

ZM

she lets out a sigh of relief glad the star's gone. they stand there in silence for a second ".... ookay, let's find blood i guess." "what was that by the way cause y'all know a lot more about this crud then me." she starts walking

Core

"Well, this place was supposed to be erased, as was the stars in it, but there was a glitch, corroding the data."

ZM

she nods slowly watching the trees carefully. "by the way music, shatter may not like you but you're cool" she pats her on the back waiting for a reaction knowing how shatter doesn't like to be touched.

Core

"if that is your opinion, that is fine." Music said, before continuing to look.

ZM

"pff okay glad to have the approval."

Core

"If blood isn't here, why was s-9?" Shatter asked Music.

Core

"not sure, but something is up..."

ZM

"the game is afoot" she looks both ways quickly and starts dashing around pretending to be a secret agent or something making her own theme music as she goes "dadadadadada"

Core

Music dashed infront of her, before flipping her in the air and slamming her on the ground

ZM

"owwwww"

she sits up with a glare "what the hell music"

she rubs her head and a tear starts leaking out her left eye

Core

"clever girl, Music." A black substance that was hiding underneath Chara's sweater, showed itself, forming into a star with blood red eye, long turquoise hair and a pair of messy wings. "She was somewhat easy to manipulate, but still, it took you long enough."

ZM

chara shakes her head and just seams confused. she backs off from the two of them and goes next to shatter not touching her but basically cowering she got so shocked.

Core

"good to see you as well, Blood." Music said sarcastically.

ZM

chara's soul starts to feel more like what she's used to, not so energetic or clowny. her eyes turn darker and she looks at blood with a blank stare.

Core

Blood had smirk, "Let me guess, my latest game upset your master, is that it, Music?"

ZM

she looks up at shatter and says her name quietly. she doesn't say much after that and just looks at her questioningly wondering if we're going to make a move on blood now or when.

Core

Shatter gave her a look which could be read as, 'don't do anything stupid' or as slight fear. Music kept her ground.

Core

"Does the guard dog need their master to tell them when to attack? or are you waiting for me to show weakness." Blood teased Music, who kept her ground

chara could easily feel the tension in the air she watches blood's taunts itching to go in guns blazing and take down blood. she soon realizes that she couldn't even harm the star. why would she be able to fight this one who's much more powerful.

"Besides, how are you appreciating my present from last time we fought?" Blood asked Music, who actually reacted, covering her left eye.

ZM

chara watches the exchange thinking about music's eye "um...." she starts wondering if she should really do or say anything. "blood were you made by gaster as well?" she squints not wanting to be attacked again.

Core

"No, I'm not a worthless dog like these two." Blood said, smirking

ZM

"It's not their choice that they were put in the position they are in." She says with a bit more confidence but still mostly behind shatter

Core

Shatter backed up slightly, Music tried her best to keep up her guard. "Blood, will you be coming with us peacefully

ZM

Chara takes a deep breath and blurts out "blood should help us kill gaster... Ya know, instead? So she doesn't have to die or be trapped for eternity. That would be cool for everyone right?" She steps away from shatter and starts to walk to the others

Core

Music glared at Chara, like she wanted to kill her for saying that.

ZM

She glares back at her irritated ready to fight just as much as she is. She takes a glance to blood to see what she thinks of the proposition

Core

Blood started to laugh, she found all of this entertaining. "You sure have some fire to you, don't you, human?"

ZM

She snaps her fingers and says "ayyy, Thanks"

Core

"Well, Music is far too loyal, so I guess you would be the first pawn to fall in this game.~" Blood purred

ZM

she kicks her foot nervously "haha " not ready to have pain 3,000 times what she felt when she was thrown on the floor. she looks at music strongly waiting to she if she'll attack or not. she had a savepoint a little bit ago so no big deal.

Core

Music didn't show weakness. Blood came down from her perch in the tree.

ZM

"what'll it be music?"

Core

"Screw you, Blood." Music hissed getting in a fighting stance. Blood smirked, outstretching her wings

ZM

"huh." chara folds her arms stepping back to shatter. she looks up at her "you're okay with the plan right? cause you're definitely the one i trust most here hahah"

Core

"I'm not sure about it. I mean yeah, Gaster is a d*ck, but, letting stars like Blood get free reign... could be bad." Shatter explained.

Music shot towards Blood, who turned into a liquid before getting hit and then reforming behind Music, catching her leg as she tried to kick.

ZM

she nods slowly thinking to herself "i get that but you and music and however many more people gaster controls can still do the job of keeping the 'stars' in check... right? or am i missing something. PLUS THAT STAR WE FOUGHT BEFORE WAS SO CUTE OKAY?" she waves her arms around.

Core

"You think we want to? Music is blind in one eye because of this job." Shatter pointed out.

Music spun, breaking her own leg to land a blow to the head. Blood recoiled back, Music kept herself balanced as her leg started to heal

ZM

"the stars simply don't ... seem very hostile? that star before was just startled and blood's just defending herself." she motions to blood. "would you rather be forced to work for wd or do his job when you can because it's the right thing to do for the multiverse. if you really hate it that much i'm sure we could find..." she takes that back because she's sure there's not enough others in the multiverse that are strong enough to take their job instead.

Core

"You do realize that Blood kills and tortures others because she finds it entertaining, right?" Shatter added.

Blood was laughing as she seemed to toy with Music, who was doing her best, even if it meant getting herself hurt

ZM

"hey i do too" she laughs and waves to the others "yo music, just give up would you? we have bigger fish to fry" that's a strange metaphor. she goes behind shatter again to not be right there when music blows up and tries to kill her.

Core

"Shut the f*ck up." Music hissed to Chara, before jumping to dodge an attack from Blood.

ZM

she snickers but she's shaking from fear at the same time.

Core

Blood soon did grow bored of Music's dodging, her eyes glowed as the ground spiked up, impaling Music's arms and legs.

ZM

chara kinda is happy that music is getting beat but she wants music to help kill gaster, so "you give up yettt? if blood keeps going I'll help and i bet shatter will too!"

Core

"I'd rather burn in hell." Music hissed, trying to get free and heal.

ZM

"at this rate you will be idiot."

"you said so yourself that she's stronger then you."

Core

"If that's what you want~" Blood purred a spike going through Music's chest hitting a gem-like stone that was in her chest, breaking it. Music's body soon turned to dust

(I was adding this b4 u answered lol)

ZM

chara grimaced. that looks like she's dead. if she's able to heal herself after THAT. i don't know what i'll think. she glances to shatter and then starts to talk to blood. "so, that's that."

Core

"No, we've just started." Blood laughs. Shatter had a look of shock, knowing that Music couldn't even respawn now.

ZM

"what you planning?"

Core

"Just a little game~, and I think it's the funnest one yet, but first." She quickly grabbed Shatter by her throat, pining her to one of the trees. She then put a hand to keep her mouth closed. "We should have some discord."

ZM

chara feels like sh*t not being able to do much of anything knowing how much stronger blood is. "what? gonna attack this world till it dissapears?" she assumes it's bigger than that but she's trying to be gentle as to not get shatter killed. she assumes she also have a core that'll keep her dead if broken.

Core

Shatter tried struggling, even turning her body into flames, But Blood wouldn't let go. "

ZM

".... blood?" she hesitates "can you put her down? i like her."

Core

"Not quite," Blood smiled, "Shatter, unless you want me to literally kill every part of you except her, i recommend you do as I say."

ZM

she blinks and makes that face waiting for shatter's response

Core

(lol, also i made smthng) Shatter slowly admitted defeat, and nodded,Blood then released her.

ZM

(ooo i wanna see) she quickly is by shatter's side seeing if she's alright.

Core

Shatter rubbed her throat, eyes locked on Blood.

ZM

( >:O gosh that's pretty ;aoirhvb;aolrvnkr; )

Core

(that's how Shatter knew about chara and frisk)

ZM

(yeeyee) if shatter's on the floor chara pats her head lightly and looks to blood. "so what is she cooperating with?" she raises an eye brow and leans against the wall

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