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When I tell you this scene is so damn precious.
It's so justifiably heavy, but it somehow makes you feel like you are floating between the ticks of the clock.
Just the relief. They aren't clinging to each other with a feral desperation of someone, afraid and insecure, who doesn't know how to express themselves anymore.
They are embracing each other, getting lost in the absolute heady brilliance of their feelings, finally bare and open. This is bliss.
Boun and Prem put their whole foot in these scenes. Just 🤌🏾✨️.
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As someone who is hard of hearing and has been since I was 12, it pains me as I feel my connection to the hearing world continue to fade, that screeching yelp of tinnitus, the pulsing ache before the muffled fog takes over, the days where everyone thinks I am ignoring them but it's just that my ears don't work for a bit and I am left alone in the silence. And all the while, nobody in my family is taking the initiative to learn with me.
No energy was spent practicing with me, because I can still hear, most days, and so it's not a priority. They still have time. Throw another match on the bridge and watch a plank disintegrate into nothing. Another widening of the gap.
So when I tell you I was screaming, in rage, exhaustion, fear, and empathy. That the white-hot flash up my spine and the punch in the gut I felt as Heart's own mother calling him a mute because she couldn't be bothered to meet him halfway. To go on that journey into a new reality with him. To keep that line of communication open. Instead, she tucked him away, buried him in shame, and ignored his very real need for connection open because it required work on her part.
The abandonment is bitter, acrid, and heavy. A potent mix of longing, hope, resentment, and acceptance. As if you are no longer valid, your existence is no longer of consequence because you are different.
Dear gods in heaven and hell, I was right there with him and it was cathartic. In the best and worst kind of way.
it was so powerful that heart's snapping point was when his mother called him mute. there was something so real about that moment, i felt myself go cold and hard like concrete and the vindication of having heart give out to her - in HIS language, for HIS emotional service, taking no burden of translation [sidenote i find the choice to not subtitle the sign language soooo delicious].
she called him mute, and implied that he cannot speak for himself. and that is what abled people do to disabled people all the time. they create barriers to your agency, no effort to understand how your expressions of agency may be different or require different facilitation to theirs, and then claim that agency is something you don't have.
they call you mute because they will not hear you.
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Top 10 Personal Favorite Hit Songs from 2015
This is the last list that was kind of difficult to do and where some cuts had to be made. The next four ones weren’t very good years music-wise and generally speaking.
Also there’s something that embarrasses me even more than Blue (Eiffel 65) somewhere on this top ten. Oops.
Disclaimers:
Keep in mind I’m using both the year-end top 100 lists from the US and from France while making these top 10 things. There’s songs in English that charted in my country way higher than they did in their home countries, or even earlier or later, so that might get surprising at times.
Of course there will be stuff in French. We suck. I know. It’s my list. Deal with it.
My musical tastes have always been terrible and I’m not a critic, just a listener and an idiot.
I have sound to color synesthesia which justifies nothing but might explain why I have trouble describing some songs in other terms than visual ones.
2015 was a bit calmer, apart from the fact I moved out of the appartment and bought one instead of renting one. This is still where I’m living nowadays, it’s not big but having no landlord is a LOT less stressful even if it will take a long time to pay the loan (one time the lock broke and I couldn’t get out and the landlord refused to fix it OR pay for a new lock if I decided to call someone to fix it ; another time someone who had a spare key opened the door while I was wearing a bathrobe and was like “oh. You’re here” and I was like “...I mean..... yeah.... 'cause I live here”). I also made new friends online that year and felt less isolated.
Sidenote, my first “flat” mp3 player’s battery died today but after a quick emergency operation I was able to save the data on it. I used that mp3 player from roughly 2008 to 2013 so that’s a relief, it kinda has sentimental value and I was still using it to listen to DW audios nowadays from time to time.
As you can see in the first picture, my super old portable cd player, which still works fine, by the way, is judging this little amateur so hard right now.
So! This is the year Faithless dropped Faithless 2.0, 21 Pilots dropped Blurryface, Mylène Farmer dropped the surprisingly quite good (for this point in her career) Interstellaires, and Carly Rae Jepsen dropped E MO TION, which would have been my favorite album of the year... if Nightwish hadn’t made the absolutely jawdropping Endless Forms Most Beautiful. A symphonic metal concept album about Earth and evolution and the place of humanity in the universe?? Excuse me? Who’s read my christmas list? My favorite songs on it are Alpenglow, Shudder Before The Beautiful, the title track, Edema Ruh which has the best intro, and of course The Greatest Show On Earth, which is an incredibly ambitious, kinda bloated and quite pretentious (in a good way) song about the history of Earth, looking back from a future where mankind is extinct and concluding “we were here”, and holy shit I get emotional every time, and it’s 24 minutes long, and I still never get bored when I relisten to it. Just amazing.
As far as unelligible songs that piss me off go, it’s all Carly Rae Jepsen: I Really Like You, and especially Run Away With Me. If they had been elligible, that last one would be my #1, definitely.
Here’s some... uh, a lot of honorable mentions, actually.
Budapest (George Ezra) and Chandelier (Sia) - Still elligible, still not on the list.
Cheerleader (OMI) - I have no idea why people dislike this song.
Ex’s and Oh’s (Elle King) - This is one of these songs that would be higher on the list if I had better taste. I still like it a lot though.
FourFiveSeconds (Rihanna, Kanye West, Paul McCartney) - Ditto.
You Know You Like It (DJ Snake) - Great drop. The rest is meh.
Miracle (Julian Perretta) - The opposite of the previous one ; a fantastic song let down by its drop.
Uma Thurman (Fall Out Boy) - This song makes absolutely no sense but it’s a lot of fun nonetheless.
Lean On (Major Lazer) - Super overplayed but holy shit this is incredibly catchy. The bridge is especially great.
Want to want me (Jason Derulo) - If this guy had that kind of song in him why does he suck most of the time. What happened.
Hundred Miles (Yazz) - Nice earworm that never got annoying.
Are you with me (Lost frequencies) - Basically a less good version of Waves from the previous year. This is a compliment.
Ain’t Nobody (Felix Jaehn) - And this is the less good version of Rather Be from the previous year. This is also a compliment.
Laissez Passer (Maître Gims) - When I started to check French hit songs from years where I basically wasn’t listening to the general local radio anymore, some friends told me they were grabbing popcorn and waiting for me to start hating some specific acts. Maître Gims was one of them. To their disappointment, I love just about every non-love, non-breakup hit song he’s ever made. Oops.
Love Me Harder (Ariana Grande & The Weeknd) - It took me ages to like The Weeknd but this song helped a lot. This just sounds fantastic regardless of the content (just saying this because I have a tendency to dislike stuff like that). He isn’t even the best singer of the two on this track, wow.
Millionnaire (Soprano) - In a worse year, this would make the list without question. The lyrics aren’t that original but still very good (love the line “remplis-moi les poches d’espoir” (fill my pockets with hope)) and the melody is just beautiful.
On écrit sur les murs (Kids United) - If you recall I put the original version of this on my 1990 list because I liked the Kids United version a lot and also had nothing else to put at the 10th spot on the 1990 list. The fact that I don’t even have enough space for the better version on this list says a lot about how abysmal 1990 was, music-wise.
And now, the actual list!
10 - Centuries (Fall Out Boy)
US: #43 / FR: Not on the list
Why are these guys still on my lists.
No, seriously. Why. This is yet another song that would be better if it was faster. And the sample is badly used. So I have no idea why it works. One of these days I’ll have to reevaluate Fall Out Boy’s entire discography, take a good look at myself, and admit I possibly like this band and that I’ve been lying to myself for like 15 years... but today is not that day.
9 - Sapés Comme Jamais (Maître Gims)
US: Not on the list / FR: #10
Told you I liked Maître Gims!
Listen. It’s not my place to comment on the ethics of the whole La Sape movement (which can be summarised as “modern black dandies trying to get the most expensive & beautiful clothes possible”) but you have to admit it’s super cool to have a more energetic and fun version of Suit And Tie. God, that beat. And it’s a ton of fun to sing along with the chorus! And it’s such a convincing song when it’s combined with the music video, you kinda want to look as cool and confident as these guys.
Also quick shoutout to the Sapeuses. Absolute legends & queens, every last one of them.
8 - Style (Taylor Swift)
US: #29 / FR: Not on the list
That year my s.o went to a party I didn’t want to go to and came back home completely drunk & way too late, crashed on the couch and started to ramble about how “Style” by Taylor Swift had a better sound mixing than the entirety of Epica’s latest album at the time and how amazing it was. For like half an hour.
I completely agree, just to clarify.
7 - Cool For The Summer (Demi Lovato)
US: #53 / FR: Not on the list
In what is possibly the least controversial opinion on this entire list: I love Cool For The Summer, the melody is great, the lyrics are good, the singing is the best, and you all know that and you all love this song, so yeah. Moving on to-
Oh god here comes #6. Oh shit. Oh no.
Can’t we just skip it and pretend-
6 - Animals (Maroon 5)
US: #46 / FR: Not on the list
So. I.
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuh.
How can I justify this bullshit.
The truth is: I can’t. Not really. I’m not even entirely sure what happened here. I hate this band and have always hated them, from the start. The lyrics are painfully stupid. The singing is as atrocious as ever. The “AWOOOOO” bit on the bridge is absolutely ridiculous. None of Levine’s “oh look at me I’m so dangerous” act remotely works. There isn’t a single thing I find competent here apart from the melody. I mean it. I’m not saying any of this to look cool. If I wanted to look cool, this certainly wouldn’t be on the list.
But you know what, the sheer incompetence on display here may be exactly why I like it. If it was a credible serial killer song written like an upbeat pop song, it would be disturbing and unlistenable. But the way it’s made, it simply sounds stupid, so you keep imagining some sort of inoffensive nerd pretending he’s a horrible monster (and failing) whenever you hear it. And that, I think, is what pushes it squarely into the “so bad it’s f█cking fantastic” territory, where it joins Butterfly from my 2001 list.
That sounds about right.
5 - Adventure of a Lifetime (Coldplay)
US: Not on the list / FR: #29
I haven’t mentioned A Head Full of Dreams in that year’s albums, because it came out at the very end of 2015 so I mostly consider it to be a 2016 album. It’s not as good as Mylo Xyloto, and not as consistant as Ghost Stories, but it contains some real gems. Adventure of a Lifetime isn’t nearly my favorite song on it, and I still put it super high here. I love the lyrics in particular (”under this pressure, under this weight, we are diamonds taking shape” oh damn) but the song itself just makes you want to move. I literally can’t listen to it without at least moving my head in rhythm a little bit. It’s nearly as colorful as the album cover. And it’s a joy to sing along the “woooohooooo”s!
4 - Stolen Car (Mylène Farmer & Sting)
US: Not on the list / FR: #61
This is Stolen Car (Take Me Dancing), from Sting (2004), rewritten as a half English half French duet where it’s unclear if the female singer is the imaginary lover or the car in the story. You might want to re-read that sentence.
What did I say on a previous list? Ah yes, “I see a duet between two singers I like and I die instantly”. This is also the last time Mylène Farmer is going to appear on one of my lists. I could say “self care”, but I genuinely don’t like any of her more recent hits, at all. Whatever. She’s been on these lists since the very first one (1988) anyway.
It’s been a wild ride, to say the least.
3 - Shut Up And Dance (Walk the Moon)
US: #6 / FR: Not on the list
And for the second least controversial opinion on this list: despite the massive overplay, I never EVER got tired of this, it’s colorful, energetic, super fun, and it’s still on my mp3 player to this day. Just a fantastic song. And a great band! I wish One Foot had been elligible for a future list, it’s super good. Aw.
2 - Ego (Willy Williams)
US: Not on the list / FR: #69
This is a song about a guy who imagines himself as this super cool elegant dude, but when he looks at himself in the mirror he hates everything he’s seeing.
I know this isn’t supposed to be a song about gender dysphoria but my god is this shit relatable.
To make things even better, it’s served by creepy music box sounds ala The Birthday Massacre and by an untouchable, strange beat. It’s a dark, weird song, but it’s all kinds of wonderful and catchy as hell, and apparently I’m not the only one to think that considering the mindboggling number of views on the youtube music video. Watch it if you haven’t seen it, it’s hypnotic and makes the song even better.
I only discovered this song last year but I’ve listened to it so much since then I really debated if this should be at the #1 spot. It’s just... so horribly relatable.
But you know what’s even more relatable?
Being broke and sad and still trying to have the time of your life.
1 - Downtown (Macklemore & Ryan Lewis)
US: #84 / FR: Not on the list
Some people call this Thriftshop 2.0 but I think it’s even better than Thriftshop, which was, if you recall one of my previous lists, already pretty damn good in my opinion.
As you probably already know, it’s a song about a guy buying a moped and bragging about him and his friends, and their mopeds, and how cool they look when they ride downtown on their mopeds. I never owned a moped in my life. But I have a super small & shitty car which I love very much and so it’s very relatable. Also I’ve never written the word ‘moped’ so often in a single paragraph before in my life.
I love every single person who sings on this track. I love the music video. I’ve been trying to match the flow of the second verse ever since it came out and I still can’t do it with my shitty accent. It’s full of weird and corny lines, but that’s also why I love it so much. The dialogue at the beginning! “Dope, my crew is ill, and all we need is two good wheels”! “Head into the dealership and drop a stack and cop a Kawasaki, I'm stunting on everybody, hella raw, pass the wasabi”! “My seat is leather, alright, I'm lying, it's pleather / But girl, we could still ride together / You don't need an Uber, you don't need a cab / F█ck a bus pass, you got a moped man”!! “Cut the bullshit / Get off my mullet / Stone washed, so raw / Moped like a bullet - NYAOOOOOO”!! “Running around the whole town / Neighbors yelling at me like, "You need to slow down." / Going thirty-eight, Dan, chill the f█ck out / Mow your damn lawn and sit the hell down”!!! Oh shit, I basically quoted one third of the song. I just. Ugh. I love it so much, okay?
Cringe culture is dead and we peed on its grave. We spend enough time in our lives feeling miserable. Like what you like. Even if it’s super ridiculous. No: especially if it’s super ridiculous. Live a little, damn it.
Next up: The Year Everything Went Wrong Except Pop Music
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Prapai & Sky Get Married!!!
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#fabled flux media#dandy demi rambles#a dandy demi does fandoms#love in the air#thai bl#wedding plan the series#sky x prapai#prapaisky#prapai x sky#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#the joy in my heart#look at my babies
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The Payu x Rain Engagement
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#love in the air#wedding plan the series#payu × rain#fabled flux media#a dandy demi does fandoms#dandy demi rambles#thai bl#noeul nuttarat#boss chaikamon#its the gift that keeps on giving#i am so happy for them
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Love In The Air - FMV 20/24
Episodes
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
Special Episode - Love Sky
Special Episode - Love Storm
Couples
Phayu x Rain | Prapai x Sky | BONUS | The Wedding!
The Engagement
Character Showcase
Phayu | Rain | Prapai | Sky | The Weather Boys | Bisexual Biker Heaven
Special thanks to @min-teez and @yilinggusu for this post which inspired a very impromptu video. Enjoy
#i am rewatching this series#insomnia brain made me do it#bl drama#love in the air#thai bl#thai bl fmv#capcut#clearly i am coping in a healthy way#ode to the bisexual bikers boys#phayu x rain#sky x prapai#boss chaikamon#noeul nuttarat#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#lita#nothing like a quick manic hyperfixation edit to get the blood pumping and further destroy my sleep schedule#worth it#i love this#dandy demi rambles#fabled flux media#crossposting
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Love In The Air - FMV 23/24
Episodes
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
Special Episode - Love Sky
Special Episode - Love Storm
Couples
Phayu x Rain | Prapai x Sky | BONUS | The Wedding!
The Engagement
Character Showcase
Phayu | Rain | Prapai | Sky | The Weather Boys | Bisexual Biker Heaven
#I am back on my bullshit#i am rewatching this series#insomnia brain made me do it#bl drama#love in the air#thai bl#thai bl fmv#capcut#dandy demi rambles#phayu x rain#clearly coping in healthy ways#the weather boys#its raining men#sky x prapai#bossnoeul#fortpeat#noeul nuttarat#fort thitipong#boss chaikamon#peat wasuthorn#i still miss them#honestly very proud of how this turned out but god the timing killed me#bl series#fabled flux media#crossposting
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Every time I see someone try to downplay that scene it makes me so angry. DID WE NOT JUST SEE THIS BOY FINALLY YIELD TO THIS MAN? Even if they are in the early-ish stages of a formal and official relationship, this pendejo just spent months all up in Sky's space, face, and inserted himself into his world. At the drop of a hat will come to his aid, and deleted every hookup and potential smash from his fuckboi rolodex ....
And you mean to tell me there wasn't a single solitary neuron that fired to tell him that maybe if you tell your boyfriend you will be right back, DROP OFF THE DAMN GIFT AND GET YOUR ASS BACK TO YOUR MAN.
And we both know that Rain would have thrown hands and possibly a nearby drink first and let Phayu deal with sorting out the questions later. Phayu for all his big energy and menacing hover would have still tried to be civil while Rain would be taking off his proverbial earrings and slathering vaseline on his face, ready to destroy Prapai, that handsy little twink of an upstart, and anyone who argued with him.
He probably would have shat in his left shoe for good measure.
And for someone who knows how fucking fragile and guarded Sky is, how dare you lose the plot and get sidetracked for a second? Didn't you two just have bathroom/shower sex like an hour prior. Sir, this is not a Wendy's but it was about to be his fucking funeral. Sky didn't deserve any of this and while yes, it did make him say the words, if he hadn't let Prapai in, I would not have blamed him. He has been through enough.
Whew chile.
Im watching the cast react to ep 12 of LITA and im fucking dying at Boss’ scandalized face of disapproval seeing Prapai sitting with his ex fling
#love in the air#prapai x sky#rain is our feral disaster twink#but he is a loyal ass bitch#dandy demi rambles#that scene sends my blood pressure sky high
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The Valentine's Day Scene
One of the things I will always adore about Win and Team is that outwardly, they are the chill couple. No big sweeping gestures visible to anyone other than them. (Yes I am ignoring the Finale clip, thats just the natural course for the plot.)
But they always stand juxtaposed to the syrupy sweet confession with roses, the aggressive and star crossed courtship, the loud us against the world couples.
Just good vibes, snacks, and a lot of sass. And in most shows, these type of characters are background. They were in UWMA.
Between Us took these archetypes and made them well rounded, humanizing them and showing us the complexity. We got a glimpse inside where they have a lot of big feelings, a massive iceberg of obstacles, almost all internal conflict.
But even before and after the conflict resolution, they still let them be true to their personalities.
The weight is lifted, and now, instead of looks of longing and insecurity, we are rewarded with looks of "this beautiful idiot is mine 😍".
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Episode 12 : Soft, Sappy Serotonin
My Communication Princes (Bee and Prince) with the time honored tradition of throwing shade at the Thai government. Also, bless these horny little upstarts, the world is not ready for the saccharine these two have brewing.
Honorable mention to the manager who apparently understands what side his bread is buttered on. Better get with the program while the getting is good.
On to our Gaymers, sweet stupid babies. Win, forever the emotional janitor for his family, pulling the old faithful "admit your feelings when they aren't around but sike, they are on speaker phone."
Modern bullshit requires middle child bullshit solutions.
Cause we both know that Waan was just too prideful to admit he said some shit in anger, pushed away his boo and ran to the beach.
The drama. 🤌🏾✨️
But like the precious little chaos gremlin that he is, Tul was ready and willing to fight for his man. And whew, chile. They wasted zero time getting down to brass tacks at warp speed.
And Wiew, my precious little fiesty tink tink who can do no wrong, is so adorably wholesome. It's just too much. May the universe never consider touching him because I will throw hands.
We got Dean and Pharm on the beach, which is giving me UWMA war flashbacks and I was so emotional for such a ridiculously short scene.
And the call back to marriage in the US with Pharm's mom is just....
I really hope Pruek eats his Wheaties and prepares himself because Manow is so extra 24/7, 365, and she is gonna be the life and death of him in the best possible way.
I'm glad that she is finally getting some acting gigs and now we can see yet another round of Supportive BF staring the most underrated king.
And piece de resistance, the softest sassy boys, the Consent Kings.
Oh Team, oh baby. Let it out. You poor thing. So much therapy. But look at you verbalizing your pain instead of burying it.
Also, I've said it once and I will say it again:
YOU DO NOT SAY SHIT LIKE THAT TO A CHILD (in general but also) THAT LITERALLY JUST ALMOST DIED & WATCHED THEIR COUSIN DROWN!
Win, being Win, giving no fucks and all the love. So soft for Team and its giving me very normal reactions. The carry had me cackling especially when I think of all the times it happened in fan meetings, events, and variety shows. Ya boy was ready.
And don't think we didn't see that pampas grass arch and beach wedding set up. We see y'all.
And we both know that if Thailand allowed it, Win would have married Team on the spot and worried about telling the family later.
And OMG, the announcement bait and switch.
It's such a Team thing. The King of the Himbos.
The ending was iconic and perfect in the way that only Between Us could justify delivering as the ending.
#dandy demi rambles#between us#thai bl#bl drama#asianlgbtqdramas#win x team#bee x prince#waan x tul#manow x pruek#dean said we are not the same#dean x pharm#win has zero chill and i love that for him#team is gonna be the death of me#but bless wiew#waan really said enough talking#reblogging because i said what i said
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OG Mashup Credit: here My other FMVs found here
Trigger Warning: Flashing Lights
#once again back on my bullshit#maybe she's born with it#maybe its the chokehold of Love In The Air#phayu x rain#sky x prapai#i blame the internet#unholy x taste#sam smith x stray kids#im a sucker for a good mashup#a dandy demi does fandoms#dandy demi rambles#fabled flux media#crossposting#sorry not sorry#lita#aka legs in the air#tw flashing lights
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Love In The Air - FMV 15/24
Episodes
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
Special Episode - Love Sky
Special Episode - Love Storm
Couples
Phayu x Rain | Prapai x Sky | BONUS | The Wedding!
The Engagement
Character Showcase
Phayu | Rain | Prapai | Sky | The Weather Boys | Bisexual Biker Heaven
#I am back on my bullshit#i am rewatching this series#insomnia brain made me do it#bl drama#love in the air#thai bl#thai bl fmv#capcut#dandy demi rambles#phayu x rain#clearly coping in healthy ways#lita special episode#LITA aka Legs In The Are#noeul nuttarat#boss chaikamon#fabled flux media#crossposting
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Love In The Air - FMV 5/24
Episodes
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
Special Episode - Love Sky
Special Episode - Love Storm
Couples
Phayu x Rain | Prapai x Sky | BONUS | The Wedding!
The Engagement
Character Showcase
Phayu | Rain | Prapai | Sky | The Weather Boys | Bisexual Biker Heaven
#i am rewatching this series#insomnia brain made me do it#bl drama#love in the air#thai bl#thai bl fmv#capcut#phayu x rain#clearly i am coping in a healthy way#let me know if you want me to do any others#dandy demi rambles#clearly spending my lunch breaks productively#lita ep5#boss chaikamon#noeul nuttarat#Fabledfluxmedia#crossposting
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Between Us Pontification - Episode 10
Ok, ya girl has had a little bit of time to sleep and rewatch Episode 10.
(Am I still miffed, yes. To the ends of the earth.) And here are my thoughts...there are a lot.
However, I think it's important (and other tumblrs have likened to this already) to keep in mind that our beautiful idiots, so full of love that they throw at others, leaving nothing for themselves, do not know how to ask for what they need; What they want and also believe that they deserve it.
Team is dealing with basically a decade of untreated survival guilt and in some ways is afraid that his love for Win is a projection simply because Win is good to him and makes him feel wanted, precious, and loved. Especially when his Aunt still grieves (and also needs some damn therapy) and probably has made way too many comments about what could have been her son's life. Team is living for two people, not even content to do it, but as a kind of forced repentance for something we all know is not his fault. And his self-loathing is manifesting as insecurity, low esteem when it comes to worth, and pushing Win away to stop himself from loving any harder, deeper, or truly in fear of loss and disappointment. But with Win, he needs certainty, clearest of day level clarity of how their relationship is defined.
And then there is Win. Sweet little competent middle child king. As someone who is also the 2nd sibling, I am painfully aware of how much pressure, expectations, and loneliness is wrapped up in it. How the only way to remain sane is to be useful and self-sufficient. Wiew is baby but a fiercely loyal one (as he should be, I love that precious nugget), and Waan is crumbling under the suffocating role he is being forced to play by his crappy workaholic father who has lost the plot in more ways than one. He needs to give that man a raise and a 3-week long vacation (with Tul there to just smile at him and play video games) and stop yelling so damn much. These three need a hug, a nap, and a break. But I digress.
Back to Win, he is a giver. Hyperindividualism manifested as the kind mediator, the soft but strong protector. He sends out all the love he never gets to keep for himself and doesn't expect anyone to stick around. He has crafted this self-fulfilling prophecy and doesn't hold tightly to anyone. Waan has even mentioned to him that his kindness could turn into something that hurts him and the ones we love, which is what we end up seeing in Episode 10. Because with Win, what he needs is someone who looks at him and tells him that he is loved not for what he provides but for just being him. Someone who wants to refill the empty cup he has been pouring from.
This is a story about reciprocation and fear of abandonment. A song of isolation and anxiety.
The confession scene for many of us was not what we wanted because we have the sweetness in UWMA that we know is on the horizon. Death by a thousand cuts, is what we are getting. But the point of Between Us is to show the complete road of how our boys with horny hearts of gold go from being in two very different types of emotional exile to a supportive and loving relationship. And I would be remiss if I didn't remind myself and others that this is their FIRST serious relationship. These boys have little to no previous experience with big feelings and taking that leap and hoping the one they love is jumping with them and simultaneously catching them at the same time.
Its a terrifying and heartwrenching saga to go through in the best of scenarios and there is so much hurt, unsureness, and need to be wrapped up and it can be scary if you are waiting for the other shoe to drop while, in tandem, praying for it not to. And in a way, both Win and Team need this kind of tension and to be forced to make solid steps forward.
Unfortunately, Win must have a moment of fear, of being confronted by the consequences of the cavalier nature he has curated. His coolness, the aloof cat-like humility that makes him so darn unattainable. He has to be vulnerable instead of hesitating and testing the waters again. He must cannonball into the depth. And Team, in direct parallel and in some ways opposition, must learn to accept that he is loved and is worthy of love. To not be afraid of being too much, of burdening someone he finds important with his affection, of handing over his feelings and feeling the reciprocation. He must trust that someone swimming with him isn't going to end in pain and loss again.
And that brings us to the emotional rollercoaster at the end of Episode 10. This is called the Black Moment or the Defining Moment when we look literarily at this story arc. Internal conflict must be confronted and we all must accept that we are gonna get a whole lot of big feelings in the last two episodes.
Have faith, intrepid travelers, and keep your arms and feet inside the vehicle at all times.
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Love In The Air - FMV 14/24
Episodes
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
Special Episode - Love Sky
Special Episode - Love Storm
Couples
Phayu x Rain | Prapai x Sky | BONUS | The Wedding!
The Engagement
Character Showcase
Phayu | Rain | Prapai | Sky | The Weather Boys | Bisexual Biker Heaven
#I am back on my bullshit#i am rewatching this series#insomnia brain made me do it#bl drama#love in the air#thai bl#thai bl fmv#capcut#dandy demi rambles#sky x prapai#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#lita special episode#LITA aka Legs In The Are#fabled flux media#crossposting
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