#damn wouldnt it just be nice to have someone hit me up like 'woah that was so neat prince hey do you want to talk about it'

[mbat]

this is completely out of nowhere but i keep remembering my encanto fic and how much i loved writing it and how fun it was but then stuff kept happening and it got stressful until i straight up just stopped working on it despite having planned out the rest of the fic

and how it was almost a 100k word long project! i mean, what!

but i think what hurt really is how much i loved it and the effort and time i put into it, but how pretty much no one read it or any of that

and its like, no one is obligated to, and hey, its not like i was writing a masterpiece or whatever, but it still hurts. and sometimes i just wonder if i wouldve been able to finish it had it had more interaction. just makes me sad, really.

when i first started it, it was everything to me! i was in the midst of a fixation, my passion was through the roof! inspiration and ideas were everywhere, the doc i made of all the plans and stuff was like 11k words long, and thats not mentioning how many images i saved to it

i just never really finish things, especially not projects so big, and i know i had it in me to, but it just feels hard to want to do anything when no one cares, idk. sometimes i wish i could just open google docs and finish the thing already, but thats not exactly as easy as said lol