#cw.detransition

[spitdrunken]

do you not want to share conversion works because you're worried ppl will judge or because you'd feel uncomfortable encouraging people to fetishise it? i don't see it much floating out there but it's like… ssdhfudshgsdu sorta awful but so, so good. fear and horror kink go brrrr

notes: discussion around conversion and detransition kink

a little bit of both, honestly!

there's a loooot of vitriol aimed at conversion works. like, a couple of days ago i saw a screenshot from a 'dyke conversion' subreddit posted on a lesbian sub, and the amount of comments just wishing death on the author was A LOT. i really understand why it gets such a strong response out of people, it's just people's gut reaction, but it doesn't exactly encourage me to start posting it online :') even though i do quite. enjoy it?? though even saying that sounds weird LMAO

like, im already avoiding interacting with writers that i am not 100% sure dont mind my works,, i feel like posting this would push me even further out on the fringes /hj HAHA

people often also get accused of being 'cis men with a fetish' writing it and... i'm an ace lesbian though, but it feels like people will just dismiss that as soon as they see you write conversion works. (im sure there's a similar response in regards to detransition works, but i'm cis, so i've never read any of it.)

and yeah, hypocritically enough, the idea of people outside of my identities reading and getting off to my 'lesbian reader gets mindbroken into loving dick' nonsense does make me a bit uncomfortable!! but the main reason is just. the idea of getting bullied off of every social media ever LMAO

i will say rn though that, in regards to the hzbin htel fandom i think characters who i would be able to write conversion stuff about would be adam n val HAHA i kinda have the same feelings as you where im like. 'awful but..... it's so good' LMAO

again, im still doubting whether i will post abt this online but if u have thoughts about it feel free to send em in! also just always feel free to dm me with any ideas :3!! they are always open for people!