#cw: LONG POST

[a-girl-named-angel]

The moment he started spinning, Angel let out a short cry of excitement, followed by a burst of genuine laughter. She had no idea what he was doing or why—but she wasn’t about to stop him, not when it was bringing her so much joy.

When they finally stopped, it took her a moment to recover from the dizzy spell. But as soon as she steadied herself, she was met with a strong yet gentle hand tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

With that all-too-familiar blush once again spreading across her cheeks, this time, she had no witty comeback to his words. She simply listened, her heart swelling with even more love for him.

Wrapping her arms around his neck, Angel leaned up—this time to pull him into the best hug she could manage in the position she was in.

“I’m not sure how I got so lucky,” she murmured, nuzzling into his neck, “but I’m grateful every day to have someone as sweet as you.”

Wing didn’t hesitate—not even for a second.

As soon as he caught the shift in her tone, the way her teasing dropped into something more raw, more real, he stopped walking. Right there on the path with the breeze from the lake picking up and catching the ends of her hair.

And then—without a word—he spun.

Strong arms still wrapped around her, he twirled her through the air in a smooth, controlled circle, laughing as her hair caught the light like a halo and her clothes fluttered like wind. He spun again, slower this time, just once more for good measure before settling her back in his arms, holding her close. His grin was still playful, but there was something steadier beneath it now—something sincere, unmistakable.

“I don’t think you’re that pretty,” he said, brushing a wind-blown lock of hair behind her ear. “I know you are. And anyone who said otherwise?” He scoffed, his smile curling into a cocky little smirk as he added, “They’re just mad I beat them to you.”

[janearts]

Roisia in her original Divinity: Original Sin build was a witch and witchcraft spells are a combination of D&D's Necromancy + Enchantment schools. I replicated that in-game and had a think about the… complications that might arise when Astarion realises that this unassuming woman has also been a bit of a deft hand at persuading, deceiving, and manipulating her targets too.

[zhouyes]

you briefly get a taste of what you desire. then isn't death, a worthy price to pay?

BYEON WOOSEOK as RYU SHIOH

strong girl nam soon, 힘쎈여자 강남순.

[darliings]

your f/o would be patient with you. how they would support your through your moments where your only fight is against yourself. how you attempt to sabotage any worth you have persisting in your body and how they would want to protect it.

“i’m useless.” “i’m not good at anything.” “do i even matter in the end?”

how many times have you heard those words thrown at you, stabbing into you for days, weeks, months, years possibly? words that you’ve learned to take within and shape yourself into other’s perception of yourself. because that’s all you feel that you know. they’re right aren’t that? that’s what you’ve been taught.

“no you’re not.”

its such a simple phase. it was out of the blue. frustrating, tiring, and… different. feelings that are strange, difficult, hard to manage on your own just being challenged by three words that you didn’t expect from someone you has shown you nothing but kindness. did you deserve it? did you not?

“you’re trying your best. keep up the good work.”

its like it didn’t stop. like a tidal wave crashing against your soul and drowning you in its current as you struggled to breathe. it was wrong to hear this. you didn’t want to hear it so you could wallow around in your own self hatred without consequence.

“you mean a lot to me.”

just for once. you want to listen. allow that selfish part of your being that craved and begged for that validation to take over and be held into the embrace of what ifs and praise that always felt like a dangling fruit on a tree. for once, after days, weeks, months… years even. you try to learn something new.

your f/o wouldn’t rush you. they would know you were holding onto pain that was bursting at the seems, held together by strings that stretched beyond their capabilities. how, they wouldn’t want to just stitch you back up. they would want you to allow that pain out, and opened up your heart to them when you were ready. no matter how long it would take. they would be by your side to remind you how special you were, how it was okay to feel, okay to make mistakes, okay to just be yourself.

its difficult for you to understand for now. but you’re trying your best.

“i’m so proud of you.”

[thetumblerroguesgallery]

Should DO YOU LOVE THE COLOUR OF THE SKY from THIS FUCKING WEBSITE join the tumblr rogues gallery?

Propaganda: wasnt that a lovely long scroll that didnt waste any time whatsoever :3c

[theycallme-thejackal]

❝ It just seemed so obvious that I loved him. That I was in love with him. ❞ ❝ How could I be around Daisy Jones and not be mesmerized by her? Not fall in love with her? ❞

[13hemoglobin]

Edward Gallaudet. Tell us about him

I will let you know that the following post I am about to write is from my memory of reading Never The Twain Shall Meet years ago (I think three years ago) and not doing any further research but thinking about this fucking guy consistently ever since learning about him. None of my words should be taken at face value.

Edward Gallaudet was the son of Thomas Gallaudet and his mother, Sophia Fowler. Thomas Gallaudet ran the first school for Deaf individuals in the United States. (I can't remember how many grades this covered, but I'm certain it was only for white people and that none of the courses were university level.) It should be noted that Thomas was hearing but Sophia was born Deaf, making Edward what we today call "CODA".

I think (if memory serves) that it was being CODA and his love for his mother and family and friends he made in the Deaf community that propelled Edward on the path to wanting so badly fight for the first Deaf university and for what was then called "manualism" and (I think) is now called "combined education" or "integrated education". This just means that he believed that Deaf/HOH people deserved to have access to learning American Sign Language, which he considered to be "their natural language". (Many agree and so do I by the way.)

Things got complicated due to the "oralist" movement. AG Bell (Alexander Graham Bell, I mean) was a huge proponent of oralism. Along with many others. He fully believed that every Deaf person could eventually learn to speak with constant elocution courses and depriving them of sign.

(Side note: this led to fucking inane shit. Since in oralist schools, NO ONE was allowed to use sign language, it led to humiliating shit like wearing locking gloves and sitting on your hands if you got caught signing. But also, teachers [HEARING teachers] were obviously not allowed to sign but were also not allowed to GESTURE. Have you ever tried teaching and not gesturing? It's basically impossible. You can't rip "body language" out of a human.)

AG Bell is still considered an adversary to the Deaf community to this day, and I don't like the guy. But I do want to say that in his weird brain, he did believe he was doing something right by the Deaf community. He thought that if the Deaf could be just like hearies that they would be accepted in society. But he also fell under the spell of eugenics and supported the idea that two Deaf people should never marry.

I think about Mabel Hubbard a lot, AGB's wife. She went Deaf around age 5. She wrote a beautiful piece about "the sensation of sound". I still think about it. It includes a description of how it feels to "listen" to someone signing. Which people who still can/remember how to hear but know how to sign understand this particular sensation.

Anyway, back to my special boy, Edward.

The clash between Gallaudet and AGB was (if I remember) professional at first and then as time wore on and on between the oralists and the manualists, things got personal. They talked shit about each other amongst colleagues. Letters got heated. It was some 1850s shit in America. And while most of America was in a civil war over "state's rights" (read: slavery), Educators of Deaf/HOH were also fighting amongst each other as well. Not civil war level type of shit but it got nasty at times.

Edward spent basically every waking minute of his life trying to get the college for the Deaf up and running. It was a ton of going to court and getting land and money and staff.

Im not going to say, this caused him to be distant in his marriage(s) but like. Maybe? Some historians think that he was completely immersed in work. Some think he may have been gay. After he married his first wife, he built her a small house on his property but basically never talked to her. After she died, he seemed unbothered, some sources say. He got married again and it was sort of the same thing. Maybe he was gay! But maybe he was like "I have court in the morning of course I cant talk to you" every night for like decades.

(For those wondering: a man called Amos donated the land to build what is now Gallaudet University and Abraham "Baberaham" Lincoln signed a law stating that Gallaudet University had the authority to confer college degrees. All while the civil war was going down. Fuck yeah Abey Baby.)

Apologies for this long post!

*Post written by a hearie (who knows sign) but is a hearie all the same.

[muses-galore]

3.) Who was your first tumblr RP muse/URL?

6.) Who do you wish your muse could interact with?

7.) Why did you start rping?

3) My first Tumblr muse was Ryuji Sakamoto from Persona 5 (why my discord name is the way it is too XD)

6) I have a few but ones that are on my mind are

Louis meeting anyone from the Last Defence Academy community (it would be fun for him to see what *humans* are actually like)

Eito with another version of himself or Takumi

Bazz-B with Jugram or any Quincy

Basilio with anyone from Savanaclaw especially since the dorm is filled with 'beastmen'. He would just assume they're fellow Paripus and treat them like brothers only to find out Leona is actually royalty. XD

7) As for why I started roleplaying, it started by accident. I was on Facebook when the roleplaying community was big there, I had a Grimmjow profile picture and someone mistook me for a roleplayer.

Of course I didn't know what it was at the time so I explained that I just liked him as a character but soon after he became my first ever muse. I was accepted into groups but since I was new I would god-mod unintentionally. After being kicked out of a few groups for slipping up someone explained the reason why I had so I worked on fixing that issue. That led me here.^^'

[a-girl-named-angel]

Cont. from .

@lewdmeridian

Ever since she found out, Angel had a special someone in her life, Letty was determined to get Angel more out of her shell. And what better way, then to show off a reveling outfit?

Of course the thought had crossed her mind before. She had seen him without a shirt before. Perhaps this could be her “payback”.

Naturally, just as she expected, his entire expression changed from his normal relaxed self to one of pure shock. Not far from the reactions she’d given him. But, unlike hers, it was short lived as he was quick to bounce back.

With his arms wrapped around her body, and teeth lovingly grazing her ear. Part of her wanted to moan out from him finding one of her weaknesses. The only thing stopping it, was the cute sound he always made when he nibbled her.

It was a sure fire way to get her to giggle.

So instead, Angel let out a light hearted chuckle. But with her face red as a rose and tail wagging, it was clear she was enjoying this attention, even with the cheesy/flirtatious comment.

[janearts]

Cazador was a disappointing Act III villain for me. He looked a little too much like a poor man's Strahd for my tastes, and I wanted to play around with a design that ran in the opposite direction. Although, that being said, in this reimagining he does take a page out of Strahd's book: I wanted him to be more suave, composed, and self-assured enough to be willing to chat, like a cat that wants to play with its scampering food.

[zhouyes]

the word freedom is too extravagant.

YU SHUXIN as YUN WEISHAN

my journey to you, 云之羽.

[king-and-his-consorts]

Need to get a little something off my chest.

I am currently avoiding twitter because lots of people seem to be at each other's throats currently. One of those topics discussed is Sanji's "betrayal" in WCI. WCI is a favorite topic of mine so I figured I'd share some quick thoughts on this.

I always see people say things like "why didn't Sanji trust Luffy?" "Why did he attack him?" "Why didn't Sanji just leave with Luffy?" etc.

We're just going to get the "Why didn't Sanji just leave with Luffy?" out of the way first.

Answer: Sanji was being threatened with the promise of harm coming to Zeff (and others). Sanji knows that Germa has incredible reach. For all Sanji knows, they could have Zeff just in the dungeon right that second. He can't take that kind of chance because he has no definitive answers on the health and security of any of his loved ones. It would destroy him if he let Zeff come to harm. Also, I'm sure he's thinking that Luffy would be disappointed if he threw a loved one under the bus to save his own skin.

Next: "why didn't Sanji trust Luffy?" and "Why did he attack him?"

Answer: The answer to these are deeply intertwined.

Sanji and Luffy canonly have an extremely close relationship. They're very affectionate towards each other. They share a deep, passionate bond. The trust expressed between them time and time again cannot be denied. So, you see, Sanji did trust Luffy. He trusted Luffy to act as Luffy does.

The thing to remember is, Luffy is extremely possessive and territorial as well as headstrong and foolhardy. Sanji is his. Both he and Sanji know that he will stop at nothing to regain what is considered his. Knowing this, Sanji had to try whatever pitiful means he had to make Luffy not want him anymore. Verbal and physical violence were the only tools Sanji had available to try and get Luffy to drop his possessive mindset.

Verbally and physically attack Luffy were Sanji's last ditch effort to get Luffy to turn his nose up and leave. I believe that by saying mutinous things and attacking his captain, he was trying to simulate the conditions that caused Luffy to turn on Usopp in Water 7.

Why would he want this, you ask?

The answer is actually Robin in Enis Lobby.

Sanji knows Luffy. Sanji was there when Luffy literally declared war on the World Government in order to get Robin back. Sanji knows that Luffy still has the foolhardy conviction to declare war again.

The problem is that this time he would be declaring war on both Germa and the Big Mom pirates.

Half the crew is literally on their way to fight a war against Kaido at that very moment. If Sanji lets himself be rescued then his captain will have started a war with two yonko and a deranged warmonger all at the same fucking time. The thought of that has got to be frightening, especially in Sanji's currently extremely traumatized state of being. He can't handle the idea of his crew being murdered by three incredibly strong factions. So, Sanji does what he always does.

Sacrifice himself.

Sacrificing himself to a life of misery and loneliness. Sacrificing himself to an existence of his nakama hating and resenting him. Sacrificing himself to eternal guilt and agony that he attacked and betrayed those he loves most in this world.

Unfortunately, I believe that Sanji has not realized how much Luffy's logic and ability to read his crew has drastically increased. Luffy read him like a fucking book and refused to fall for Sanji's game. All it did was tighten Luffy's grip on Sanji's metaphorical leash. Luffy is incredibly selfish. He wasn't letting go of what was his and that was devastating to Sanji because now he has to live with the memories of beating the shit out of his captain and the fear for his nakama's safety.

___

Anyway, that is my personal view of Sanji's headspace in WCI. It's a very deep and drawn out topic but I don't have the spoons to expand further. sorry.

[stubbornstalwart]

(( I spent way to long on a funny joke I made with my friends. Did I try that hard, no. But I think that made it better lol. ))

Bonus:

[kyokosasagawa]

conspiracy theory

katekyo hitman reborn is inspired by buddhism in the same way houseki no kuni is and the ending is a cop out, sure, but its a inspired one.

(disclaimer: im not a buddhist)

we already know about mukuros bullshit. we're going to ignore him. throw him to the curb for now. we'll get back to him.

no, specifically i'm talking about the tri-ni-sette.

we know that seven is a significant number in KHR. I think it's not just because of the rainbow having seven colors in it.

i think its because of the lotus sutra.

in buddhism, there's a scripture called the lotus sutra. in the lotus sutra, there's seven treasures mentioned. they're gold, silver, lapis lazuli, seashell, agate, pearl, and carnelian.

its in black and white and looks like generic gemstones, but then you notice the fucking pearl. and we all know who the the seashell is---we don't even have to mention it.

"aight so you think the gemstones correlate to some buddhist gemstones. what else?"

I think all of serious!khr is inspired by the lotus sutra, actually!

specifically starting in the kokuyo arc, we're introduced to the six paths of reincarnation. mukuro introduces the concept of buddhism into the KHR world, to the possibility that its real.

"The Six Paths[1] in Buddhist cosmology[2] are the six worlds where sentient beings are reincarnated based on their karma, "

but more importantly, there's more to this!

in the lotus sutra they talk about something very funny!

"From the depths of the Avīci Hell Up to the summit of existence, The ray of light from between his eyebrows Illuminates the eighteen thousand worlds, Which shimmer like gold, And, throughout all these worlds, The births and deaths of the living beings Of the six transmigratory states of existence, And the good and bad deeds, Through which they have received Good and bad consequences, Are all to be seen from here."

it talks about the ray of light from between his eyebrows, which shimmer like gold

it talks about the six transmigratory states of existence

Notice the concept of "being reborn up or down the scale"

it talks about consequence, which we see constantly in the KHR-verse. especially with the Shimon family, including Enma, who is named after the King of Hell---including the Avīci Hell.

"The buddhas, the Sage Lord (Narendrasiṃhā), Who teach the subtle and supreme sutra Are also seen. Uttering soft sounds With their pure voices, They teach innumerable myriads Of koṭis of bodhisattvas. With their voices, deep and enticing Like the sounds of Brahma They make the people eager to hear them.

O Mañjuśrī, Heir of the Buddhas! We entreat you to rid us of our confusion! The fourfold assembly is joyfully Looking up at you and me. Why did the Bhagavat emit this ray of light? O Heir of the Buddhas, now answer! Resolve our confusion and gladden us! Why is he emitting this ray of light?

"Will the Buddha teach us the True Dharma That he obtained while he sat On the terrace of enlightenment (bodhimaṇḍa)? Will he predict enlightenment to us? It is not for a trifling reason That all the buddha lands, ornamented With various jewels, And all the buddhas have been made visible. O Mañjuśrī! You should know that the fourfold assembly, Nāgas, and devas, Look forward to hearing What you shall reveal.”

with that, peace out and chaossu.

[loser-pet]

Cw: long post, (maybe) not screen reader friendly.

Tw: mentions of abuse, upsetting scenarios, self harm.

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[cyber-corp]

Suburban music videos: What's the deal?

Some of you may know that a couple of days ago I started a playlist of music videos from the 1990s and 2000s which all seem to be featured in or prominently feature American suburban areas. I forget what the actual post was that pointed this out, but I think I kind of had that idea before I saw it.

One of the first music videos I thought of was 'Rockin' the Suburbs' by Ben Folds from 2001, because not only does it explicitly mention a suburb, but the video is done in such a way that I think it was meant to poke fun at the angry white boy music that plagued the late 90's (Limp Bizkit, Korn, etc).

The other video I thought of was 'Pretty Fly (for a White Guy)' by the Offspring from 1998. Like RTS, it's meant to poke fun at middle-class white dudes who think they're hot shit because they listen to rap, when in reality they come off as cheesy wannabes. So it would make sense for the MV to have that setting.

The main trope these MVs have in common is that they both have the "haha 90s ironic edge" on them. Like it's very obvious that the songs are about how tough some dudes think they are, when really they live in a relatively safe and secure area. "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden did something similar in 1994, but I think that it has a completely different vibe to the others. More surrealism, less irony.

But I think the true golden era of the "suburban neighbourhood music video" was during the early to mid-2000's. With a rise in pop-punk and emo, comes a rise in angsty teens going "blehh!!! screw this place!!!! screw the establishment!!!!!! its not a phase mom!!!!!!", which then resulted in music videos featuring an environment they were probably most familiar with (and probably stuck in).

Here's '1985' by Bowling for Soup, released in 2004. The colour palette for this video is a lot more muted, which is (I find) a common link between most MVs in the 00's. Which gives a more "this is the way things actually are" vibe, compared to the much brighter palettes of the 90s.

'The Anthem' by Good Charlotte (2003) is quite possibly the most early-00's MV ever, and I consider it to be the definitive suburban neighbourhood music video. The song is about "not living the way you're meant to live" according to Joel Madden, and the video reflects that sentiment! Just a bunch of punk and emo kids going out and causing a ruckus, having a gay ol' time.

It also has this weird blue/greenish filter on it, which is very indicative of its period. That's a whole other story.

The suburban neighbourhood continued to thrive in music videos throughout the 00's, mainly in pop-punk and emo. I believe this was an attempt to target its demographic; adolescents aged 14-19 who had yet to find their place in the world. Some notable MVs include 'You're Going Down' by Sick Puppies (2009), 'Only One' by Yellowcard (2003), and 'Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground' by the White Stripes (2002).

(side-note: michel gondry, director of the white stripes vid, never misses when it comes to his music videos. this is one of my favourite music videos ever, but it definitely isn't one of my favourite suburban music videos ever.)

SNMVs began to go out of style around the early 2010s, presumably along with pop punk and emo. The closest to it would be 'I Sold My Bed, But Not My Stereo' by Capital Cities, which came out in 2014. It's very much of a more nostalgic style compared to the others, but it's most likely one of the last of the SNMVs.

So: Does this specific sub-genre of MV mean anything?

I think individually the videos definitely represent and reflect certain zeitgeists of their eras, but the SNMV is very much rooted in adolescent angst. That feeling that while you are living comfortably, there's definitely something more. Boredom is present in every teenager, and these videos are like a fantasy for them: getting to live out your days without responsibility with your friends, but are suppressed of having any fun because of the 'system' at large.

"Let me tell y'all what it's like

Being male, middle class and white"

(also i think all star is partially responsible for the rise of interest because of course it is. it's all star by smash mouth. mentioning its very existence feels redundant.)