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feline-evil · 6 months ago

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Now we're nearing the end of my move (fucking finally) i can safely say that if i had not had the Song of Salvation on repeat for large stretches of time during this i do not think i would've made it through as well as i have

#jay talkin #like not to be dramatic but i really needed that damn song to grab my hand and pull me up so i could keep packing and tidying and going #obviously the support of my fiance means so much more than that and without him i do not think i would have made it thru this #in any kind of state at all. he's my world. but also yeah that song kept me going #its the specific kind of hope it brings that isnt a very sunshiney everything will be ok hope #but moreso ok. i know you hurt. i know you've had enough. but come on one last time lets go #bc you HAVE to keep picking yrself up snd going 'ok one last time' over and over till u dont have to do it anymore #and thats just. what i did. my body is a mess now my legs and arms keep giving way #cuz more than a month straight of this has exhausted me and exacerbated my prexisting conditions #but i made it through and im nearly done. and this song helped immensly #last time smth helped this much is when i was watching texas chainsaw massacre every night to be able to sleep #it was like the only soothing thing i cld latch on to. felt familiar and safe. got me thru some rough shit #now S.O.S has done much the same. thank u dethklok i suppose #feels kinda corny ey but idk. idc anymore S.O.S and AOTD in general has been a salve on my brain lately #grabbing nathan forcefully. my fucking favourite fuckhead o how u have helped in these trying times

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