#cuz i think that would fix the pen pressure issue

[super-done-dead]

got a drawing tablet! cannot for the life of me get the pen pressure to work. tired. wip

if anyone has a pirated photoshop cs5 or cs6 for mac.... lmk... gimp is doing my head in

[elsfairy]

Also, i don't see that many headcannons of Sevika with an autistic gf so I'm going to write it, babe. It's so sweet and heartwarming it's gonna give you a cavity and heatstroke. At least, how I think it'd go down based on my experience as an autistic person:

-since her gf carries a backpack with all the lil amenities she might need (like headphones, stim toys, glasses, a heavy sweater, meds, snacks, water, pens, notepad, etc.), Vika carries it for her a lot of the time because "it's too heavy for you, I wanna carry it".

-I don't like holding hands, i get clammy and it's just uncomfortable. So I can just picture her holding on to Sevika's elbow junction or sleeve instead. Gf probably needs to hang on to Sevika bc of the sensory overload Zaun sometimes causes and directions disorienting her (i can tell from experience loud, bright places with many people have lead me to one too many anxiety attacks/meltdowns, even if I know the place).

-OMG SEVIKA HELPING WITH WEIGHTED PRESSURE THERAPY. 😭😭😭 Like, asking Vika for hugs or to squeeze her sometimes to help regulate her anxiety or sensory issues. I would sell a kidney for this to be me.

-when they cuddle, Sevika basically substituting the weighted blanket. She's warm, she's heavy and her heartbeat is soothing. No more comment on the matter.

-Vika coming home to her gf burrowed in 3 different blankets lmao. Me

-Vika keeping a lil notebook with her for when her gf goes non-verbal, so it's easier to communicate. Specially if she's getting overwhelmed. It's a glitter pen and she loves said gf's handwriting.

-if gf's feeling averse to touch that day, the cold of the metal hand is more comfortable to hold on to.

-as I said, Vika might have hearing loss. With a gf who is averse to some noises, specially loud and complex noises, those two might end up resorting to sign language.

-basically sharing a closet with Sevika, even if said woman's clothes are too big for her gf. Sev's clothes are so soft and comfy, her gf will wear them casually. Meanwhile, Sevika is wearing a xxl pink hoodie, with unicorn ears and everything, belonging to her lil gf bc said gf kidnapped them all.

-y'know how I mentioned the nerdy gf rambling about the stuff she's interested in? Exactly that but more specific like "did you know there's a type of shark that's basically concentrated piss? If it's cooked wrong, you can end up drunk." "I'm sorry what." "Yeah, and since it lives for up to 500 years, it takes 150 for it to sexually mature." "Babe, that could never be me"

-sleeping way more than Sevika, to get enough REM sleep. So she's used to her gf laying her head on her arm if she's getting too tired. She has so many pics of you cuddling on her pillow while sleeping.

-is extra patient when talking with her gf, and gently helps her articulate sentences when she's having a hard time structuring her thoughts.

-when Vika lost her arm, she did all the research she could to help her cope with the loss and the phantom pains. Her being the only person capable of convincing Sevika into going to therapy every once in a while. Making sure the professionals helping her with her prothesis and everything are treating her well and that she's as comfortable and as happy as possible.

-they each have their rooms for when they each need space, as both have a strong temper and get overwhelmed/triggered for different reasons. Both are welcome in eachother's rooms, but it's a symbol of understanding y'know??

-Sevika being careful and watching out for the smell of alcohol or cigars to not be too strong, as the last thing she wants is for her gf to avoid kissing her. Her gf loves the smell cuz she associates it with being happy and with Vika, but strong smells feel like her brain will pop.

-this one is a bit more personal to me: Vika punching the actual daylights out of anyone who says her gf is "too much" or that "her problem is she can't be fixed". Her gf is perfect for her and she'd rather kill someone than make her gf feel like she needs to change or fix herself.

I'm kinda sleepy so this is all my yearning-obsessed lil brain could conjure up at 10:30pm. Also, I have 0 romantic/erotic experience so these are mostly based off of what I'd wish it'd be like lmaoo. I hope you like it, have a lovely night. Might write more later on.

THE WAY I SMILED LIKE I HAVE A FUCKIN CRUSH.

tbh, I've always wanted to write about Sevika having an Autistic gf but I also didn't want to fuck anything up so I just never write it. I would hate myself if I wrote something that was not correct. I do however love reading what you write though.

pls, sevika carrying your backpack for you:(((( god, she's just so fucking precious and loving I want to cry. Genuinely, I think she would take such great care of you, yk? If she knows you don't like holding hands, she is completely fine with whatever part of her body you would hold onto, holding her elbow is so fucking cute PLEASE IM GOING INTO OVERLOAD

(replying to this while listening to slipknot is not fucking helping me LOL)

Please, hugging sevika sounds like a fuckin dream. Can you just imagine the way she lightly wraps her arms around you?? just to calm you down if you're feeling anxious??

Can see her being a human heated blanket. I won't make any more comments. Yall know.

"-Vika coming home to her gf burrowed in 3 different blankets lmao. Me" UHM??? WAY TO CALL ME OUT IN THIS TOO LMFAO.

"-if gf's feeling averse to touch that day, the cold of the metal hand is more comfortable to hold on to." you've woken up my soft side, why would you do this to me??? now I just want to hold her hand. But I agree. Also, because I have no idea, is that like a soothing mechanism? to hold onto something cold? i need to know

I need to see someone write sevika and sign language:(((( like I just... since I thought about her being illiterate. I can't get it out of my head :(((

"-basically sharing a closet with Sevika, even if said woman's clothes are too big for her gf. Sev's clothes are so soft and comfy, her gf will wear them casually. Meanwhile, Sevika is wearing a xxl pink hoodie, with unicorn ears and everything, belonging to her lil gf bc said gf kidnapped them all." THE WAY I GIGGLED. I CAN SEE HER IN A PINK HOODIE WITH UNICORN EARS. STOP THIS RN. WHY AM I FLUSTERED???

God, she would be so patient with you. Like you don't understand my love for this woman. She would literally be so soft, gentle, and slow with you. I also love a rambling gf, talking all the time and she just looks at you with a smile :( yes, i need it right now.

"Babe, that could never be me" i love her sob

The bedroom part, yeah i can understand that 100% and honestly? I don't think she's the type to rush you if you're not feeling okay. She will let you have your space, but she's still there does that make sense? not there right in your space, but around??

Fuck, sevika beating someone shouldn't be this hot. You need to relax before I start blushing again. With my whole heart, she knows you're amazing and perfect, but protecting you is always going to be her first thought when someone talks shit about you.

I'm sorry it took me a while to reply :( i hope you're sleeping well, or slept well <3

YES SEND ME MORE, I LOVE READING WHAT YOU SEND. i also want to learn new things <3

[badgalyadi]

random survery. / 474 + 560.

How’s your mood? Do you feel any different than you did earlier today? def better than it was earlier

What do you look for in a friend? Is it important that your friends have similar hobbies and interests to you? Or is it more important that you just enjoy their company? i think as long as i enjoy your company, we’re good.

Has anyone ever spread a malicious rumour about you? people have been doing this since middle school lmaooo

Are you comfortable with talking to the opposite sex, about sex? yeah, sex isn’t that deep of a topic lol.

What are your views on people who claim to have had spiritual or paranormal experiences? damn that’s crazy.

Have you ever had a friend that you were really close with, but you ended up drifting apart? Why do you think this happened? lol, life.

How much of an issue would you say peer pressure is for you? FAKE. no way ur gonna get me to do something i don’t wanna do, idc.

Would you be able to give up eating your favourite food(s), if your doctor said you had to? nope.

If you’re single, do you ever feel jealous of people who are in relationships? And if you’re in a relationship, do you ever feel jealous of people who are single? no.

What’s in your pencil case? pens, unsharpened pencils, mechanical pencils, erasers both big & small, a sharpener, a stapler, extra staples, and highlighters.

Is there anything in your room that you wouldn’t want your parents to find? maybe so.

Are you wearing anything fragranced atm? i’m wearing the fragrance i brought back from cuba. it was only $3 and it smells so good, deadass makes me it :(

Was your last illness something contagious? i had a cold, so i guess yeah.

When did you last update your Facebook profile photo? it’s been a year.

Have you ever felt confused about your sexuality? in middle school. terrible time to wanna figure that shit out but 💀

If you found out your friend was sleeping around, what would you say to him/her? nothing b/c i don’t care lmao do you.

How should someone of the opposite sex go about starting a conversation with you? it’s not that deep, just say hi.

Tell me about someone you dislike. Why do you dislike them? Do they know that you dislike them? obsessive and shady asf, can’t mind her business.

Have you ever felt so strongly for someone that you believed them to be totally irreplaceable, as if you could never be happy with anyone else? yeah, and i don’t think i’ll ever feel that way about somebody again b/c i learned u really can live without anybody whether u like it or not.

Out of all the horror films you’ve ever seen, which one scared you the most? uhhhhhh sinister or insidious idk

Who was the last person to tell you that they were disappointed in you? not airing out names. she didn’t directly say it, anyway.

If you’re an only child, do you ever wish you had some siblings? And if you have siblings, would you like any more? i always wish i had other siblings lmao i see people w theirs and be feeling sad as hell :(

Are you friends with the last person you texted? yeah.

Your last Facebook friend request - was it from someone of the opposite sex? no.

What does the eleventh text message in your inbox say? issa meme.

Has anyone ever called you easy? yeah LOL

Would you consider having a child with the last person you kissed? whommm... can’t be having a baby rn when i’m still the baby myself

Is there a cover version of any song that you like more than the original? soooo many.

Have you ever liked someone who was a player? yea lol

Do you own anything that has sequins on it? also yes.

Have you ever done anything to embarrass your parents? not on purpose but they def do shit that embarrasses me too so we’re even 

Do you own a teddy bear? yethhhh

What’s the worst relationship advice anyone has ever given you? all of it. nobody ever knows what they’re talking about LMAO.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with yourself as a person? a 6.5 lmao.

Would you ever kiss someone with facial hair? yeah. Have you ever drooled in public? nah. Do you agree that facebook is taking over the entire teenage population? ???????????? what 80 year old wrote this Have you ever met a mainstream band? no. Have you ever yelled at an electronic as if it could hear you? i get mad sometimes & be fighting random shit LMAOOOO so yes Have you ever been bitten by a dog? yeah LMAO

Would you ever shave your head? if i didn’t have to? no. Have you ever spelt your name in Alphabet Soup? no. What do you think would happen if the Earth suddenly stopped spinning? my stupid ass has no idea & i’m not boutta guess so i can be made fun of What did you want to be when you were little? probably some generic shit like a princess idk Have you ever drawn a picture with sidewalk chalk? yeah. What is the worst possible way to die? slow, painfully. Have you ever burnt yourself with a lighter? sooooooooooooooo many times. Would you ever meet someone you met online? mayhaps. What’s your favorite online game? cricket noises.. What do you think of gay/bisexual people? A1. Have you ever kissed the TV? no. Have you ever thrown your cell phone across the room? yeah, then regretted it LMAOOOOO Have you ever been hit with a ball in gym class? not often but once in hs i got sockedddddddd in the face during volleyball & thought it was on purpose so i hit her w the ball even harder and ended up getting suspended cuz i wasn’t discreet about it lmao Will you be single over winter? [brain muscles overworking themselves] what season is this Where do you wanna live when you grow up? out of miami mayhaps. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajama pants. Would you get married if you could right now? nope. Do you consider yourself spoiled? maybe so. Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don’t like? i usually just focus on other shit. Could you see yourself dropping out of high school? surprised i didn’t. Is there anyone you want to see right now? santi?! What were you doing 12 a.m. last night? fixing my living room. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? :] Are you a mean person? no, i really try not to be. What woke you up today? yesterday*, alarm clock. Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a T? probably lmaoo

Did you date anyone last summer? nah, i was minding my business, enjoying my life. Where will you be twelve hours from now? class. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeth Have you ever slept on a couch with that person? also yeth Have you written a letter to a soldier? no. Ever been in a perfect relationship? lmao “perfect” How do you feel about the person who texted you last? loveeee me some them. What are you looking forward to? cricket noises.. Do you think you are an argumentative person? hhhh.. maybe..  How did you feel when you woke up today? tireddddddd asf. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? mhmmm What time did you go to sleep last night? i always go to bed late asf. i’m boutta go to bed now just to be up in two hours. What color are your eyes? brown. The last song you listened to? a veces, it’s literally on repeat. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? if i don’t get up, yeah. Do you believe change is always good? sometimes.

How long was your longest relationship in highschool? 3 years. Do you know who Philip DeFranco is? nah. What’s the most illegal thing you’ve EVER done? 💀 the OP responded to this with weed, i’m really screaming rn.. Where did/do you want to get married? all these questions about marriage, whew. What’s the highest level of education you’ve reached? i’m in college rn Is your last name extremely common, like Gonzalez? no, but i don’t think it’s rare either. Ever notice how most flags are red white and blue? no. Have you ever had a crush on a family member? what the fuck How old is your YOUNGEST friend? bitch.. i don’t know How old is your OLDEST friend? i don’t. know. How long should people be together before they propose? these questions are starting to make me uncomfortable lmaoo Have you had your first touch screen phone yet? that’s how you know this survey is old. Don’t you hate when parents divorce but then still argue regularly? can’t relate, hope i never do. Would you ever join the military? sike. If you could have any dog, what dog would you have? a shihpoo. Would you ever kill a bunny and make soup out of it? what the fuck x2 Do any of your friends own a ferret? no. Do you believe that Christians are better than non-Christians? no? Do boys really rock pink more than girls do? ????????????????????? Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? yerrr What’s your view on the Islam culture? hard to have an opinion on something you know nothing about. Do you know what, “C'est la vie” means? i know i’ve seen this but idk what it means Do balloons make you have a better birthday? nah; they’re loud asf too when they pop, so. Krispy kreme donuts aren’t as good as Dunkin Donuts, are they? DELETE THIS. What is your favorite song from, “Aventura?” THE SPANISH GROUP?! WAYMENT...... i don’t even know. prob something generic. yesterday i was listening to por un segundo lmao :( If you could legally assassinate any celebrity, who would it be? bro.. Do you use Twitter or Formspring? twitter. rip formspring babie love you. Why did you last cry? a few hours ago, real crybaby bad bitch hours. If you had to lose 5 lbs, how would you do it? lower my calorie intake. Is there anyone who seems to think that you are a pillow? ???????? Tell me about your BEST New Year’s Eve ever. wasn’t this one. If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? alejandra, idk why that name sticks with me. i just feel like i look like someone named alee & idk how that makes sense but it does to me LMAO. Lunapic editor is amazing, no? whommmm... How do YOU write, “Okay?” depends on my mood, who i’m talking to, what we’re talking about.

How old was the last person who kissed you? 28. Do you have any plans for the day after tomorrow? not that i know of. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yeah. What time did you wake up today? 7. Name something you can’t wait to do: idk. If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead? pothead. What has pissed you off today, if anything at all? cricket noises. Can you honestly say that at this point and time you’re happy with the way life is going? no lmao. Can you easily tell if someone’s fake? mmmmmmmmmmm.. depends. Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out your life? yeah. Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours? yeah. Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl? feel like most ppl have been thru this. Has anyone ever sang to you? yeah bfsjklj Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? LMAO yeah. Coffee or alcohol? oof.. both. together. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with C or J? yeth and yeth. Do you ever cry during movies? hell yeah w my crybaby ass Do you have any piercings? ears. Have you ever found someone you really like? my BOO. 🗣 Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today? yeah LMAO Do you remember who you liked three months ago? was that november... idk how to do math LMAO pretty sure i liked ques by then.