#cuz i hate carrying around half finished muffins in plastic wrap in my purse since i can't eat normal fucking portion sizes

[elprupneerg]

the worst part of vague plans without a specific timeframe is the adhd waiting mode. i'm supposed to go shopping for shoe inserts for my new boots and grocery shopping today with my gf. at....... some point. in time. preferably before the stores close. and also maybe go to the coffee shop near the shoe insert store and sit outside since its supposed to be decently warm (by february in wisconsin standards its practically boiling out) and sunny. but that requires us to be out the door and in that part of town before it starts getting colder later in the afternoon.

so now i've been dressed and ready to go since about noon since i wasn't sure what time we were going and i take forever to get dressed since my gender changes on the daily and i need to make sure i'm wearing something that's not gonna make me dysphoric halfway through the outing. and i can't start working on homework since the moment i do i'm gonna get caught up in it and have trouble task shifting if my gf is ready to go when i'm only partway through a reading assignment. and i can't eat something or have my normal morning cup of coffee since we might be going out to coffee and snacks and i'm trying to have caffeine and i want enough room in my tummy to not be sick if i get a pastry.

so now i've been sitting crocheting for almost 2 hours which like. cool yeah i made some progress on my sock (even after having to frog things like 4 times since i kept miscounting the increase stitches). but also i'm feeling like a lazy ass cuz that's 2 hours i could've used to read a chapter in one of my textbooks or finish working on a bio lab assignment or eat a late brunch or do fucking Anything besides sitting here waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting.

and i can't even start on something now. because its been 2 hours. which means that as soon as i start something my gf is gonna go "oh wow! its been 2 hours! i should rush and get dressed and be ready to go in 20 minutes!" which is not enough time for me to finish anything i start. but also if i Don't start anything then its gonna be another hour or two before she's ready to go.