#curtbuckybuck

[goldthorn-archive]

“Curt? Curt! Yeah it’s Buck and John”

im going insane im going insane what do u mean its buck and john? what do u mean gale? do u mean that you are now the version of yourself that bucky saw immediately and loved, that you are the strong wonderful person that bucky immediately saw u for? that bucky is john to you bc everyone calls him bucky but u know him, really know him, u know the man beneath the bravado, u know john. and that curt knows both of u like this too?

[goldthorn-archive]

someone commented for recs so off the top of my head:

this one by @avonne-writes is v lovely: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56528812

ofc there’s this one by @anachilles, really like this one: https://archiveofourown.org/works/56195833

this one is so good and @soliloquy-dawn constantly breaks my brain (affectionate): https://archiveofourown.org/works/56571391/chapters/143780557

this is a buckybuckcurt one by my fav @johnslittlespoon: https://archiveofourown.org/works/55929076

There’s not enough clegan somnophilia out there and I think it should be illegal

[meyerlansky]

i have two chaptered WIPs that feel like they'd be nice to post some of during the Winter Months, i.e. they're both kind of low stakes and not super angsty, but idk which to focus on.

on the one hand i have multiple chapters of the post-war dctctc fic done or very close to done. i haven't written the in-between parts, but like. fuck it. i can go back and write the other stuff, or not! for now, like i said, summertime is post-war curtbuckybuck vignettes, so atm it's mostly domestic/curtainfic and/or smutfic.

on the other hand, i have a lot of cruiseverse done too. that one's curtbucky Only, precanon, bucky runs away from home to nyc and curt runs into him and things go from there. on top of being low-stakes compared to canon, it's a bit of a love letter to pre-war nyc already, especially the city's queer history, which may or may not be a draw for other people but i'm having fun fleshing all of that out :P

SO! different kind of wip wednesday post:

[solittles]

mota rewatch with subtitles in my native language (swedish), something i have never done before . spoilers™ below

sometimes the translation of the lines are soooo incredibly good like wahhhh

sometimes i cringe because ???! not that swedish is embarrassing, but it's vulnerable to me. i struggle with expressing myself in general, and especially in swedish because how personal it is to use that language.

so this rewatch made me feel soooo many more things than this show usually does. because swedish. i love these boys sm and they came so much closer than they usually do because of subtitles in my mother tongue

every of bucky's gay lines to buck? in swedish? screams into a pillow i love them so much

also fun to think of the swedish equivalent to all the references to places in the us the characters refer to

but ok lets leave the language part behind

bucky's way to change between his personal self (that is partially a performance though) and his leader role. when he starts barking orders 👉👈🥺🫣 im on my knees and so is buck . he can be a good dom and he'll ask buck if he can knock him up because with buck by his side he wouldnt mind having kids. anyway

goes insane about curtbuckybuck btw. it's like buck knows bucky loves him and wants him, he's too repressed to accept his queerness, so bucky finds curt. the two of them love each other, but curt isn't buck, though he's the best bucky can find. and buck and curt respect and care for each other, despite both of them know that bucky is with curt because he can't have buck (though, if he could he would have them both). and buck knows he can't give bucky what he wants, so he has to keep curt alive for bucky's sake, even though it means he partially loses bucky to someone else. but that's how it has to be, he can't. be queer.

and that's another reason why episode two where the buckies work together to make sure curt doesn't get shot down is so good

ALSO the relationship between pilot and co-pilot. pilot and bombardier. trusting another man with your ship. homoeroticism much!!!!

the superstition is. insane actually, i'm obsessed with it.

100% that buck and bucky are raised religious but lose their faith individually from each other and when they arrive in the uk during the war, superstition is all they have left.

everyone says it but bucky's waist.... he's. a unit!!!!! while buck is just an itty bitty ken doll

done with my buckies thoughts, over to ROSIE

my beloved!!!! i wanma write about his grief losing nash so bad. too bad i can't write i hate it here

him humming the chant when theyre the only ones left. darling boyyy!!!!

im also Obsessed with the entire arc he has in episode 6 at the flak house. rejecting he's not ok, trying to find meaning in their stay at the house, solidifying his role as a pilot and a leader after the talk with the doctor. being responsible for the rhythm of the whole band.....

then when he's going to get back into the plane, he's scared!!! he actually is!! he's feeling something, he's not fine! and that's such a huge step for him!!! and then he finds the beat, he gets back into the drum solo a week after he had to stop and he just goes!!!!

rosie's arc in ep 4-6 is Insanely good. that's my fav character right there!!!!!!

the chant starts playing and the cut over to bucky in the stalag... come On one of the best scene transitions. obsessed

bucky seeing his boys, his and buck's kids!!!! crank!!! murph!!!!

only to be reunited with his husband, the mother to his kids!!!!! HE SMILES SO WIDELY HES SO RELIEVED HIS OTHER HALF MADE IT . THAT BUCK'S ALIVE WAHHHH

sorry guys but. this show. i hold it in my hands

[goldthorn-archive]

im also thinking of the way he looked when he realised biddick was hit during pt2, when he was suddenly doing calculations at a mile a minute, trying to figure out how to save his friend and be professional and not jeopardise the rest of his squadron. of the way he breathed out such a sigh of relief once there was a plan, once curt heard him, once he saw curt land that hunk of metal in scotland.

and of course im also thinking of curt’s yelp of relief when he heard bucky was going to stick with him

rn im thinking about john egan’s pilot voice. yk how pilots have a specific sort of cadence when talking over the mic system? yeah, major john egan does that when giving orders over the intercom, draws out certain words and clips others, new york accent accentuated