#currently I consider myself sort of gender apathetic I guess?

[just-watch-me-hachiko]

Fun fact: sociology and gender studies courses actually refer to all gender as “performing” gender rather than “being” gender

Cis women aren’t feminine by nature or somethin, they have to actively “perform femininity”

This is just my 2¢ as a nonbinary person but I genuinely think that cis people's gender is just as constructed as trans people's. Cis people love to accuse us of having making up genders or artificially modifying our appearance but....the entire makeup, fashion, diet, workout, and haircare industry exists so that cis people can maintain the illusion of two entirely distinct genders with no overlap.

[caustic-curses]

OC Interview~ Corbyn Reyes

name ➔ “Did we not just do this?” His incredulous tone escaping past the veil of vanishing respect. Glasses dip forward offering more of those narrowed lids to be seen. “Either you forgot and this will make for a terrible interview or you forgot how to listen. Either way, I don’t have any hope for you or this.” “Just say  your name for the recording.” “Corbyn Reyes.” The interviewer prompted for a full name which resulted in a long condemning stare before he spoke again. “Corbyn Samil Reyes.”

are you single ➔  “Is this relevant?” There was an exaggerated sigh and a nod to which Corbyn continued to be skeptical. Why would this be important? What did his relationship or lack of one have any significance? “No.” There was an additional prompting and an exchange of words, not all of them pleasant, before Corbyn revealed that he was currently dating Tulip Karasu.

are you happy ➔ “ With? What exactly should I be happy about? Not this interview.” As the interviewer became more exasperated, the more Corbyn found himself actually enjoying himself. Maybe this would be worth his time after all.

are you angry ➔ Perhaps he spoke too soon. It wasn’t even a minute before such a question was asked prompting another round of question validity before an answer was given. Was it necessary? Probably not. Did he enjoy it? Immensely. “Not entirely, but I’m sure you’ll find a way.” :)

are your parents still married ➔ “As far as I know that is none of your concern. If you’re going to try to analyze me by using my parent’s marital status-” “Mr. Reyes, please. Just answer the question. A simple yes or no will suffice.” The interviewer spoke with a low exasperated tone. A lingering smile was evident on the face opposite him. It rewarded him with the simple answer that he had no idea. He was sure they were still married but they had been considering divorce for a few years. It was clear from how he talked that his parents would not move further from the stage of consideration.

“We have some other questions for you. Simply answer them without so much dialogue. I only have so much paper to record this on.” “I’ll consider it.”

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NINE FACTS:

birthplace ➔  Muždinac village of Eastern Serbia

hair color ➔ Dark brown almost black

eye color ➔ Dark forest green (D20 on the 1998 eye chart)

birthday ➔ 11/15/1972.

mood ➔ apathetic with mild agitation? Check.

gender ➔. male

summer or winter ➔ winter

morning or afternoon ➔ afternoon

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

are you in love ➔ I’m not sure what love really is, there are so many definitions out there. However, am I enraptured by the very presence of Tulip? Does her voice make me smile and want to be with her? Would I sacrifice anything to ensure her happiness? Yes.

do you believe in love at first sight ➔ No. That would be terrible if I did because I don’t have the best eyesight. I would miss all opportunities for love if that were true.

who ended your last relationship ➔ While he may say it was mutual, I was the one that ended it. I could not continue to walk on eggshells to support such a fragile ego. Seth Drystan can go fuck himself.

have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ Probably? Haven’t we all at one point or another? Of course now you’re just being unbearable. 

are you afraid of commitments ➔ If I was, I wouldn’t admit it. I have no desire to admit something like that true or otherwise. If I say no then I could be seen as arrogant. If I say yes I’m seen as a coward. I have a healthy respect for commitments and that is all I will say.

have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ No. I’m not the sort to want to hug anyone. Usually I get hugs, I don’t give them. They are appreciated though, I guess.

have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ How the hell would I know? What part of secret do you not understand? If I knew this admirer then it would no longer be a secret to me. Some of these questions I have to wonder...

have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ Yes. I followed my heart instead of my mind. I will not do so again.

SIX CHOICES

love or lust ➔ Lust. It’s fun, fleeting, and temporary. Love is harder to find and everyone’s definition is different but lust is something all can agree upon. There’s no question of passion or desire. Nothing is lost, not really, not like it is when you love with complete surrender.

lemonade or iced tea ➔ Iced tea. There’s so many flavors and ways to make it. Lemonade is sour and disgusting.

cats or dogs ➔ Cats. They are the superior creature.

a few best friends or many regular friends ➔ A few close friends are preferred. I have a few friends that I consider close to me. I would rather have a few people that I know and trust well than a group of people I have only a vague interest in.

wild night out or romantic night in ➔ A romantic night in and no, I will not be elaborating on that.

day or night ➔ Night. It is cooler, the stars decorate the sky and I just happen to be more awake for some reason.

FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS

been caught sneaking out ➔ Devious plans and careful considerations make sure that I’m never caught. Of course, if I were, I have a few tricks up my sleeve to help my escape.

fallen down/up the stairs ➔ Down them. Once. I tripped but everyone has tripped on those damned stairs at least once. Some more than once!

wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Yes. Who hasn’t? Tell me. I’ll show you a liar. 

wanted to disappear ➔ On occasion. Just to sort my thoughts out without constant interruption. Oh. you meant for good? No. I value myself too much to leave the world alone.

FOUR PREFERENCES

smile or eyes ➔ Trick question but the eyes are far more interesting. Did you know they can smile too? I didn’t until I met Tulip.

shorter or taller ➔ I’d prefer shorter but it doesn’t matter. I just don’t want there to be a big height difference, that’s my only concern.

intelligence or attraction ➔ Intelligence is attractive. So is that not both? Tulip is both beautiful and one of the smartest witches I know.

hook-up or relationship ➔ Relationship. I am already in one with her and there’s nothing else that I could possibly want.

FAMILY

do you and your family get along ➔ My father and I get along well. Its my mother and brother that I have problems with but I’m not sure why? My mother continually blames me for the disappearance of Jakov. When he was still here, Jakov either was an older brother who cared about me or my worst enemy, blood be damned. I never quite knew where we stood. Still, as the favorite, I loathed him.

would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ Doesn’t everyone? If you look at it hard enough, everyone has issues or problems. My relationship with my mother isn’t the best but maybe it will get better. Or worse. There’s no way to tell. This life has made me who I am, I would not change it.

have you ever run away from home ➔ Yes. I was brought back. I don’t remember what happened after that, I think I blacked out. There was a lot of yelling and tension, I remember that much at least. It was enough to prevent me from trying again.

have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ No, I’m at least grateful for that.

FRIENDS

do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ I suppose I am more annoyed with some of them than actually hate them. I have no reason to actually hate any of them.

do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ We are close so I would consider that to be true. I can depend on them. I trust them. What more could I ask for?

who is your best friend ➔ Laurent King, Samuel Gabehart, and Rowan Khanna(in my universe)

who knows everything about you ➔ The only one who knows everything about me is my father, Ezekiel. I confide in him because I trust him. He’s always been there. Maybe one day I will trust my friends enough to confide in them more. The only two that know more than anyone else is Laurent King and Samuel Gabehart.