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There Is Happiness (OMORI Kelbrey Fanfiction)

Description: Aubrey hadn’t always been this way. She could still remember a younger, less jaded version of herself who was actually excited about the idea of prom. A happier Aubrey who had used to giggle with Mari over the gowns in store catalogs and dream about all of her friends getting dressed up and going dancing together one day. A more innocent Aubrey who used to spend hours making plans for a future that would never get to happen. Her friends never got to go to a prom, and neither did she…Until now that is...

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Nearly a decade after the bad ending of OMORI, Kel and Hero plan a fake "prom" to surprise Sally, drudging up bittersweet memories for Aubrey about her friends--both the ones she had lost and, especially, the ones, who like her, had been left behind to pick up the pieces. Will confronting the past lead her to a brighter future?

Kelbrey Slow Burn, Hurt/Comfort, & How Their (Functional) Relationship Developed Over Time After the Bad Ending of OMORI. (Note: This is a standalone one shot that is a completely different bad end AU than my other really angsty bad end AU fic).

Relationships: KELBREY (Romantic Kel x Aubrey) CENTRIC (Functional, Healthy, Slow Burn Kelbrey). There are also important platonic friendships discussed & depicted in flashbacks: Aubrey & Hero & Kel friendship, Aubrey & Kel & Sally friendship, Aubrey & Mari friendship, Aubrey & Kel & Sunny & Basil & Hero & Mari friendship [Aubrey & Kel's friendships with Basil, Sunny, & Mari are a recurring & important theme]. Past Romantic Hero x Mari is referenced/heavily implied.

Characters: Aubrey (POV Character), Kel, Hero, Sally, and Mari (Sunny & Basil also appear briefly and are mentioned).

Genre: Slow Burn Romance, Friends to Lovers, Hurt/Comfort, Developing Romance Through the Years, Angst With A Hopeful Ending, Post-Bad Ending, Many Flashback Sequences, Prom

Word Count: 12,748

Rating: T for some heavy themes and thematic elements (i.e. grief & healing from grief and trauma. Implied/Referenced Canonical Character Death & Implied/Referenced Mental Health Issues including depression & suicide).

Warnings: Major Spoilers for OMORI! Heavy themes and thematic elements (i.e. grief & healing from grief and trauma. Implied/Referenced Canonical Character Death & Implied/Referenced Mental Health Issues including depression & suicide). Kissing.

Link to original post on AO3. Please do not repost to another website.

A/N: Unfortunately, I missed Kelbrey Week because I did not know the ship even existed at the time (and had never played OMORI back in the dark ages of a couple of months ago), but I saw the prompts on Tumblr and was really inspired by the Prom prompt. Not only did the idea of "Kelbrey Prom" get a bunch of wheels turning in my brain, it also just so happened to be the prompt on my birthday, so I felt like it was it was just meant to be and I needed to write this story as soon as I had the idea. So I just wanted to offer a word of many, many thanks to @kelbreyweek for the prompt & inspiration for this story. 💕

Story below the cut. Thank you for reading!

Aubrey slammed her foot on the brake. She had lived in Faraway Town her whole life and still forgot about that stop sign. She probably always would.

The intersection was bustling today, and there was far more traffic than usual for a Saturday night. Aubrey supposed that was to be expected seeing as it was their local high school’s prom tonight, and the streets and sidewalks were filled with gussied-up teenagers in suits and poofy, colorful dresses. Aubrey rolled her eyes, conveniently ignoring the fact that she was in a pink prom dress herself—but at the very least it wasn’t that poofy.

Aubrey didn’t understand all the prom hype, especially now that she was trying to drive with teens darting in and out of the road and the straps of her dress uncomfortably digging into her arms whenever she tried to turn her steering wheel. She sighed. She sounded like such a grouchy old woman.

She hadn’t always been like that. The memories were hazy now, but she could still remember a younger less weathered, less jaded version of herself who was actually excited about the idea of prom.

*-*-*

“They’re so lucky,” sighed Aubrey glancing up from her pizza to watch the group of teenagers who had just walked into Gino’s dressed up in their finest suits and prettiest dresses for the prom.

Mari chuckled but patted her shoulder. “Don’t worry. That’ll be you too soon enough.”

“It’ll be you sooner,” Aubrey insisted with a widening smile. “You’ll get to go in just a couple of years, right?” She paused, then giggled teasingly. “With Hero.”

Hero’s face flushed, and he grew suddenly interested in his piece of pizza. Mari’s expression softened—something affectionate passing over her eyes as she chuckled at him behind her hand. She shrugged her shoulders then teased, “I don’t know. I might have to think about it,” but she winked at him and the blush in his cheeks deepened.

“Why do you even need a date to the prom anyway? Can’t you just go with your friends?” asked Kel as he practically shoveled pizza into his mouth.

Aubrey rolled her eyes and huffed. “Don’t talk with food in your mouth. It’s so gross.”

“You’re gross,” bantered Kel, sticking his tongue out at her before shoving the rest of his piece of pizza into his mouth.   

Aubrey huffed again, but Hero gently interrupted changing the subject. “I think people do go to prom in groups with their friends. You don’t have to take a date like in the movies.” He paused before turning to his brother with a dry, bantering smile. “But if you want someone to take you, I’m sure Kel can.”

“No way! I’m not going to the prom with her. Basil can take her.”

“Wha—what? Why me?” stumbled Basil, bright red in the face.

“Because they always have those flower bracelets at the prom in the movies and you know all about flowers and stuff.”

“That’s called a corsage, moron,” bantered Aubrey. “And don’t worry, I’d rather go to prom with Hector than you.”

With a confused tilt of his head, Kel blinked at her. “Can we take dogs to prom? Awesome!” Kel beamed, and Aubrey rolled her eyes. “I’ll take Hector then, and Basil can take Aubrey.”

Basil’s blush deepened as he twisted his hands. “Well…um…I mean…” He paused, swallowing hard. “Well…maybe Sunny can take you…? He’s probably better at dancing.”

“Sunny will take you,” agreed Mari with a warm smile. “Won’t you, Sunny?”

Sunny pursued his lips together and pensively stared at his hands. Aubrey wasn’t sure but his face seemed a little more flushed than usual. He finally nodded briskly and quietly said, “Okay” though he wouldn’t look up from his plate.

Mari’s smile widened, and she chuckled. “See, problem solved.”

“I don’t understand why we can’t just all go to prom together,” sighed Kel. “You, me, Sunny, Basil, and Hector, and Hero and Mari too even though they’ll be older. We can all just go as friends.”

“That sounds nice,” said Sunny so quietly he was difficult to hear over the low roar and ruckus of the restaurant patrons.

“See!” exclaimed Kel triumphantly. “Sunny agrees with me. We should all just plan to go together as friends.”

“You might change your mind when you get older, Kel,” teased Hero with a dry but affectionate smile. Kel grimaced, sticking his tongue out at his older brother.

“No way!” He huffed then turned to Basil. “You think this sounds like a good idea, right Basil?”

“Wha—what? Oh…uh…yeah okay…” he stammered unsurely.

“Aubrey?”

Kel crossed his arms and glared at her, but Aubrey sighed and conceded, “Alright, but only because Sunny likes the idea. It might be nice for all of us to go as friends, but if I get a date, he’s coming with us too, okay?”

Mari started laughing behind her hand as Kel exaggeratedly rolled his eyes and huffed, “Whatever.”

*-*-*

A bittersweet smile tugged at Aubrey’s mouth. How silly they were then—how innocent. There was a pang in her chest, even now, so many years later as she remembered how they had spent hours together talking and laughing—making plans for a future that would never get to happen. She remembered how she used to giggle with Mari over the evening gowns in department store catalogs, sighing wistfully at the billboards advertising that year’s prom theme at the local high school, and dreaming of the day they’d get to go to one themselves. Aubrey’s chest ached as she sighed. Mari never got to go to a prom, and neither did she…

*-*-*

Tears prickled in Aubrey’s eyes as she glanced over the unworn prom dress still hanging up on the back of the closet door. She would probably feel better if she just shoved it into the back of her closet, but she couldn’t bring herself to. She had worked so hard for that dress—picking up extra shifts at Gino’s to afford such a luxury. She had justified it by reminding herself it was probably the only time in her life that she would get to wear such a dress, and this one was exactly what she had always dreamed: deep pink, floor-length chiffon. As soon as she saw it in the department store, a real, genuine smile had tugged at her mouth for the first time in so long that the sensation had felt almost foreign to her. And when she had finally bought the dress and tried it on for her friends to see, Charlene had quietly said she looked happy in it. She didn’t need to add that Aubrey hadn’t looked happy for a very long time.

A tear streamed down Aubrey’s cheek. She had wanted to wear that dress and go to the prom, but she just couldn’t—not today. Not now. Not without them.

Aubrey sniffled—rubbing her hand across her throbbing forehead. Her headache was so severe that she was actually starting to hear the pounding of her head. Or at least she thought she was until her mother called in a slurred, irritated voice,   

“Aubrey! Get the door.”

Aubrey quickly wiped her eyes and scurried downstairs.

“Tell them whatever they’re selling we don’t want it,” her mother added with a dismissive wave of her hand as Aubrey walked by the couch carefully tiptoeing around the empty liquor bottles which littered the ground.

Aubrey wasn’t sure who was at their front door, but she doubted a salesman would be bothering them at this time of night. Still she mumbled, “Okay” as she turned the bolts of the lock and opened the door.

“Hey, Aubrey,” said Kel with a slight wave of his hand and a friendly smile. “How’s it going?”

Aubrey could only blink at him. He was dressed in a nice, dark suit with an unexpected bright pink tie. If she had been feeling better, she probably would’ve thought of a dry quip to tease him about it but instead she just sighed, ushering him out onto the porch before her mother got irritated by the noise.

“Kel, what are you doing here?” she asked through her teeth. “Aren’t you supposed to be at prom?”

Kel shrugged. “I was there for a while, but you weren’t there so I thought I’d come check on you.”

“Sorry…”—Aubrey’s face flushed—“I tried to call you…”

“I know,” he interrupted. “I got your message. Is everything okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. It’s just…I…uh…wasn’t feeling up to it.” Aubrey sighed, hoping that Kel wouldn’t read too much into it.

“Oh…are you feeling sick? The pharmacy should still be open. I can run down to—”

“No, Kel,” she cut him off, placing her hand on his arm. “That is…uh…I’m fine. You should go back to the prom. I don’t want to ruin your night.”

Kel’s expression softened, and he smiled at her. “Don’t worry about it. The prom was kind of boring without you anyway.” He paused. “You sure you don’t want to—?”

“Yeah,” she cut him off just a little too forcefully, trying her best to frown despite her flushed face.

“Okay…” he said quietly. “Then…do you mind if I hang out here for a little while?”

Aubrey’s face grew warm with guilt and embarrassment. Just because she had ruined her own night didn’t mean she had to ruin Kel’s as well. “You really don’t have to do that.”

“Nah. I want to. I’d rather spend tonight with you than at the dumb prom anyway.”

“Kel, I can’t let you do that,” she insisted, but he smiled at her.

“It’s just a bunch of people dancing and stuff—and sure that’s fun and all but it’s not as cool as everyone acts like it is.” He shrugged his shoulders. “They did hang all these Christmas lights from the ceiling though and that was kinda cool—since the theme is ‘A Night Under the Stars.’” Sighing, Kel took a seat on the porch—leaning back on his hands and looking up at the sky. “But there are real stars out here which are better anyway.”

“Kel…” Aubrey began to argue, but she wasn’t sure what to say. “You can’t just miss your prom.”

“Sure I can,” he shrugged with matter-of-fact nonchalance. “You are, aren’t you? And the prom always mattered way more to you. You were really looking forward to it…” Kel’s brow furrowed thoughtfully. “Did someone break your heart or something so you didn’t want to come anymore?”

Aubrey stifled a breathy chuckle but shook her head. “No. Nothing like that. I wasn’t even planning on going with a date.” She paused, glancing over at Kel’s pink tie. “Won’t your date be upset that you left?”

“Oh uh…” chuckled Kel awkwardly, fidgeting with his tie. “I didn’t go with one.”

“Really?” The question slipped out before Aubrey could think to stop it, but Kel just shrugged his shoulders.

“Yep.” He paused and sheepishly scratched the back of his neck. “To tell you the truth, I—I kind of wanted to ask this one girl, but it didn’t work out. Oh well…”

Aubrey paused. While he was one of her best friends, they never really discussed their love lives or lack thereof. She didn’t even know Kel was romantically interested in anyone and couldn’t even begin to guess who it was. She supposed it was none of her business, but if Kel had left prom early because of this girl rather than just to check on her, it would certainly help her feel better about things.

“Is she the reason you left?” asked Aubrey taking a seat next to him on the porch.

Kel froze, and his cheeks flushed. “Wha—what?” he stumbled, more awkward than she ever would’ve expected from the happy-go-lucky Kel. He chuckled lightly but didn’t say no.

“It’s okay if she is. I wasn’t going to tease you or anything. I just—” She stopped. “I just don’t want to you miss out,” she said in a shaky voice. “Especially not because of me.”

“I already said don’t worry about it. I’d rather spend prom night with you, even if we don’t actually go to the prom.” Aubrey���s mouth twitched, she could almost hear the smile in his voice, but she frowned with a heavy sigh.

“But you already missed the last one…”

“Because Basil—” Kel’s voice cracked. He didn’t finish that statement, but he didn’t have to. Basil had died just a few weeks before their Junior Prom and the last thing either of them had wanted to do was go to some big party, especially one that Basil should have been attending himself, and instead they had spent prom night at the spot in the park where they had always had picnics with their friends, then sitting around Kel’s kitchen table looking through Basil’s old photo albums.

Aubrey had never told Kel that she had been considering skipping prom months before Basil’s death anyway, too saddened by the idea of having to go without Sunny and of Mari having never been able to go to hers. Basil’s death and the note he left behind for them was the final straw. She wouldn’t have blamed Kel if he had still wanted to go himself, but he had told her he was just too sad. She could understand that. Back then, it really felt like neither of them would ever be happy again.

But this year… she had been so determined, so set on going and trying to have to good time because she knew her friends wouldn’t want her to miss out on it on their account. Aubrey’s insides twisted, and her eyes burned, tears prickling behind them again.

“Aubrey?” When she turned to look at him, the faint flush of red had faded from his cheeks and his expression had softened but a look of concern quickly passed over his eyes. “Have you been crying?”

Aubrey’s face grew hot, and she swallowed hard as she frantically swiped at her eyes again. How red and puffy were they that Kel had noticed? “You can’t just ask someone that, Kel,” she replied with a shaky, bantering huff, but Kel only blinked at her.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked, and Aubrey bit her lip. She couldn’t believe him—skipping over the ‘are you sure you’re okay?’ questions and straight to the ‘do you want to talk?’ Aubrey sighed though she felt a blush fill her cheeks and she fidgeted. She should probably expect it by now, given how many deep conversations she and Kel had been having over the past two years ever since Sunny and Basil had passed away. Her chest ached at the thought. Kel was giving her that look now—like he could see right through her, knew something was wrong and knew she was hurting even if she didn’t have the words to say it. She could see his pain too—that hollowness that crept into his smiles, that bittersweet sadness in his eyes. Kel’s eyes reflected the same pain that ached in her chest whenever she thought of Mari or Sunny or Basil. She was sure he could see his own grief in her as well, and perhaps that’s what had led them to find each other in the first place, in the wake of the loss of their friends—clinging to each other like two lost souls, sharing things with each other they could never even begin to tell anyone else.

“You can talk to me,” he gently encouraged her, placing a gentle hand on her shoulder.

Aubrey took a deep breath. She didn’t know if she wanted to unpack this, and she certainly didn’t want to dump it all onto Kel. She already felt guilty enough that he had left the prom to check up on her. But the look on Kel’s face was so warm and so kind, and the words, the painful truth was eating away at her waiting to be told to someone.

“You remember how we’d all promised we’d go to prom together someday?”

Kel’s brow furrowed. “Not really, but my memories of everyone are getting fuzzy…” There was a painful sadness cutting through his words as he said them.

“It’s okay. It wasn’t a big moment or anything. We were just at Gino’s joking around about it once, after a group of teenagers dressed for prom came in.” She paused. “You said you wanted to bring your dog.”

“Oh yeah…” said Kel with the slight twitch of a smile. “I remember that now. Mari was teasing Hero about taking her someday, and Sunny agreed with me that it would be nice if all of us could go together as friends.” Sighing, Kel paused—something bittersweet passing over his eyes. “You’re sad you couldn’t go with them, aren’t you?”

It wasn’t really a question.

Aubrey sniffled and nodded, and Kel cut her off reaching out to her. “Oh Aubrey, I…”

“It’s not just that. I was actually planning on going. I wanted to go. I bought a dress and everything. I knew it was going to be a hard day, but I was determined to do this. I knew they wouldn’t want me to miss out—would’ve wanted to me to go, even if I was sad they couldn’t be there with me.” Her voice cracked, and Kel nodded solemnly, understandingly.

“But…but…” she stumbled over her words as her eyes burned. “I was out of hairspray and knew I needed some for tonight, so I was riding my bike down to The Other Mart, and I saw there was a group of kids in the park and…” The tears started to pool in Aubrey’s eyes, and she took a deep, shaky breath, barely managing to choke out, “They were making flower crowns…”

She swiped at the tears that began to splash down her cheeks as she stumbled in the bits and pieces of sentences she could manage despite the panging ache in her chest, “I just—I just froze. I…I couldn’t stop thinking about…I turned around and came straight home and I just haven’t been able to stop crying…” She sniffled, wiping her eyes. “I know it’s so silly…to let something like that ruin my whole day, especially when it’s the prom, but I just started thinking about them and how they never got to go to prom and all the things they never got to do and will never get to do and…” Her voice trailed, as her words got choked by a sob in the back of her throat.

“I know,” sighed Kel quietly, giving her a reassuring pat on the back and pulling her into a hug. Aubrey took a few deep shaky breaths as she pressed her chin to Kel’s shoulder.

“It’s so stupid…” she mumbled, angry with herself as she pulled away from him.

“It’s not stupid at all.” He sighed heavily. “You know the other day I was supposed to be picking up a couple of groceries for my mom, and I was in that aisle in The Other Mart where they keep all the soups and sauces and stuff, and there was this lady there with her kids and the one kid dropped this big jar of spaghetti sauce—made a huge mess”—he paused as his breath hitched—”And I remembered that time we all tried to make spaghetti to surprise Hero, and I dropped the jar on the counter and the sauce splattered everywhere—it got in Basil’s hair and… Sunny was blinking at me with sauce all over his face and you were so mad but Mari just laughed…” He paused, swallowing hard. “It was like I couldn’t breathe. I ran out of there—totally forgot about the groceries.”

“Kel…” Aubrey began as she hugged him more tightly.

“I guess the moral of the story is neither one of us should be going shopping at the Other Mart, huh?” Kel chuckled lightly, but he sniffled and Aubrey could feel his shoulders trembling like he was trying not to cry.

They just sat there holding each other for a long time. No words were spoken, but they didn’t have to be. They understood—shared this pain of being the ones left behind. Kel sniffled, and Aubrey wondered if he was crying. It wouldn’t be the first time he had cried in front of her, and she knew—they both probably knew—that it wouldn’t be the last.

“You know, sometimes I think, I’m okay,” Kel managed in a wavering voice. “I still miss them, of course, but I’m not going to just start crying in the grocery store…but then…something like that happens and I just…I don’t know if I’m ever going to be okay. Like there was this whole life that I had before, but it’s all over and now I have this new life and even if things get better and it doesn’t hurt as much all the time, that sadness is always going to be there. There’s always going to be something missing, and I’m never going to not miss them.”

Aubrey sniffled and pulled away from him to look in his face, but that deep, indescribable pain in his misty eyes made her forget her words. She supposed it didn’t really matter. There was nothing she could possibly say that would make him feel better—she knew that better than anyone.

“Sorry,” he said hurriedly as he wiped his tears away. “I didn’t mean to make this about me. I feel really bad for dumping all that on you, especially when you were already upset.”

“No. I’m…I’m glad you told me, Kel,” she said hugging him again. “It’s…nice to know I’m not the only one…”

“You’re definitely not the only one—but it really does feel like you and me against the world sometimes, right?”

A kind, bittersweet smile pulled at the corners of Aubrey’s mouth as Kel wrapped an arm around her and she leaned her head on his shoulder. “Sometimes.”

“Hero too, but…” Kel paused, fidgeting. Aubrey nodded in understanding. He didn’t have to explain. She knew Hero worried especially about his younger brother which made it more difficult to open up to him about all of this sometimes, plus he was away at school and neither one of them wanted to bother him, especially when he was suffering a lot on his own.

“He missed his prom, too, didn’t he?” asked Aubrey quietly, changing the subject. Kel hummed, and she could feel him nod in response.

“But it’s overrated anyway…”

*-*-*

Kel was probably right, and the prom was overrated. That didn’t mean that she didn’t have the occasional regret about not going to hers, however. It wasn’t something she ever really talked about, but if she didn’t know better she would have thought that the fact she had skipped out on hers was part of the reason that Kel had invited her over tonight for the “prom” he and Hero had been putting together to surprise their younger sister, Sally.

Even though Sally was far too young to go to a prom, she was fairly vocal about the fact that she desperately wanted to. Though Aubrey thought it was a little odd to throw a prom for a little kid, she supposed there was no harm to it, and it was sweet that Hero and Kel were always trying to do such nice things for their little sister. She had also offered to help put it all together though she reminded Kel that she had never actually been to a prom so what would she possibly know about it? He said it wasn’t anything too fancy, but still insisted they should all dress up nicely. Just luckily Aubrey had had her unused prom dress from her own senior prom still hanging up in the back of her closet collecting dust. She supposed it was nice to finally get the chance to wear it, even if that meant getting stuck in stop-and-go traffic for half an hour.

Aubrey sighed. There was never any traffic on the way to prom in the movies. The people just got into their car—or their limo—and whipped right to the school without another car on the road. It was more than little unfair. Though she supposed she should know better than thinking of movies, especially teen rom coms, as real life.

*-*-*

“Okay, okay. I know we watch this movie every year, but I still don’t understand: can everybody at this school afford a limo? And where do the limos go when they’re all at prom?” asked Kel between bites of what had to be his third or fourth piece of birthday cake. Hero had been apologizing profusely for the fact it was store bought this year, but they understood he was extremely busy in medical school. They tried to reassure him that Mari would understand too, but Aubrey wasn’t sure if he had believed them. “How do all the limos even fit in the parking lot?”

“I don’t know, Kel,” Aubrey sighed, setting her piece of cake on the coffee table. “Just don’t think about it too much.”

“Listen, I went to prom—well part of it, and nobody came in a limo. Nobody,” Kel insisted forcefully, gesturing emphatically at her with his fork and flinging cake and frosting onto her face.

Aubrey huffed. “Kel!”

“Oh, you’ve got something on your nose,” he teased before playing poking at it with his finger.

“Here’s some napkins,” said Hero, handing her a stack of napkins with that said ‘Happy Birthday’ surrounded by balloons.

“Thank you.” Aubrey nodded at Hero then rolled her eyes at Kel shaking her head, but his attention was transfixed on the movie again, probably still wondering about the limos.

Aubrey sighed. Every year they watched Mari’s favorite movie for her birthday, and every year Kel found something else about it that didn’t make sense to him. Last year, it was how nobody in the school had worn anything even close to the same outfit. The year before that it was how the main character who was supposed to be smart hadn’t ever questioned her love interest’s obviously complicated motivations in asking her to the prom in the first place. This year it was the limos.

Aubrey sometimes wondered if Kel had only started this tradition of chattering away during the movie in the hopes that it would keep her and Hero’s spirits up and prevent them from being too sad that Mari wasn’t there to celebrate her birthday with them. But other times—like now, when she watched him pick up his piece of cake with his hands and shove it into his mouth as the icing squished into his face, she thought it was probably more likely that it was just Kel being Kel.

A smile tugged her lips in spite of herself, but she pushed the thought away. She’d never admit that she was glad Kel was around to ask dumb questions about the movie, and as she watched the small smile in the corners of Hero’s mouth, she was sure he felt the same way.

When the credits began to roll, Hero started cleaning up the cake, plates, and napkins, and Kel started prattling away again. “Why do movies make prom into such a big deal, anyway? They act like it’s the most important thing that will ever happen to you.”

“Well…” Hero sighed, his brow furrowing thoughtfully. “I think they need a climatic moment for the story, and when the characters are teenagers, they can’t have a wedding or something like that so they use the prom.”

“It’s really not as cool as all that though. I was honestly kind of let down.” Kel’s mouth curved into a teasing, lopsided grin before he chuckled, seemingly getting distracted once again by his cake. “This cake was great, by the way!”

“You can thank Aubrey for that. She picked it up from Nona’s.”

Aubrey shrugged. “It’s no big deal. I was in there anyway.” She stopped, not quite ready to admit that she was in that bakery a lot. It was one of her favorite places in their college town, and she liked to treat herself with a pastry every now and again after exams, if she did well on them of course.

“Sorry I couldn’t make one this year…” Hero apologized again with red, apologetic cheeks. “Neuroanatomy is just kicking my tushie.”

Aubrey and Kel broke into raucous laughter. “Your tushie? Really, Hero?” teased Kel.  

“What are you—five?” Aubrey bantered.

“You know what I mean,” sighed Hero. Though his cheeks were flushed, he was smiling in spite of himself. “Medical school is hard.” He sighed again. “I’m sure Aubrey understands being in nursing and all.”

“I’m glad I’m going to be a nurse and not a doctor—there’s too much memorizing. I’m not smart enough for that.”

“Don’t say that, Aubrey,” chimed Kel. “You and Hero are both super smart—you know all kinds of medical stuff. I could never do what you do.”

“Well I’m sure neither of us could ever do what you do either, Kel,” Aubrey insisted, and Hero nodded in agreement. “You can fix anything, and I wouldn’t even know what to do with a welding torch if my life depended on it.”

Kel chuckled his face brightening. “I can show you sometime if you want. It’s really not that hard.”

“Says the ‘Welder of the Year,’” bantered Aubrey.  

“It was only ‘of the month,’ and…”  

“I still have the newsletter hanging up on our refrigerator,” interjected Hero with a proud smile. Kel scratched the back of his neck as his face flushed.

“You can take that down, you know? It’s really not that big of a deal…” He sighed. “I only fix engines and stuff. I don’t save lives or anything like you guys.”

Aubrey sighed, shaking her head. “I’ve never saved a life.”

“I’ve barely even left my classroom,” said Hero. “So you’ve at least got one up on me. You’re in clinicals now, aren’t you?”

Aubrey nodded. “Yeah. I’m trying to get a job as a student nurse too. I just interviewed in behavioral health and psychiatry.”

She stopped abruptly as Kel and Hero’s eyes widened, a certain sadness in them that Aubrey had used to see all the time but which hadn’t been in their expressions in a while. A silence spread through the room, and Aubrey sighed, wishing she hadn’t mentioned it. She was about to apologize for bringing it up and ruining the mood of everyone’s evening, but then she felt an arm wrap around her shoulders and a gentle hand patting her back.

“That’s great, Aubrey,” said Kel with a kind smile and soft expression. “I hope you get it and help a lot of people.”

“Me too,” said Hero. “I think you’ll be great at that.”

“Thanks,” Aubrey mumbled, her face feeling suddenly warm.

“Well, I think this deserves a toast.” Kel stood up from his seat and poured some cups of coffee from the coffee maker for them.

Aubrey quirked an eyebrow at him. “We’re toasting coffee?”

“Yes,” he answered, completely unphased as if it was the most natural thing in the world. He held up his coffee cup. “To Aubrey, soon to be ‘World’s Greatest Nurse.’”

He winked at her, and Aubrey shook her head but bantered, holding up her own cup, “And to Kel—Welder of the Year,”

“Would you stop it with that?” he teased under his breath as a flush of red filled his cheeks. He shook his head and turned to Hero. “And to Hero—who can do anything!”

“And everything,” added Aubrey as Hero turned away from them blushing a bright red.

“You guys…” he mumbled.

“And let’s toast Mari too,” said Kel. “Happy Birthday, Mari!”

“Happy Birthday, Mari,” Hero and Aubrey replied with kind, bittersweet smiles.

As they took sips of their coffee, Aubrey’s lips puckered, and her face contorted as she resisted the urge to spit hers out. Even Hero grimaced.

“What in the world is this, Kel?” She reached for her water to try to rinse out the taste.

“Oh you’re never gonna believe it, but Orange Joe makes ground coffee now.”

“Why?” groaned Aubrey.

“You really should warn us first,” Hero quipped dryly with a slight smile, but Kel just shrugged.

“What? I thought it was pretty good.”

“I don’t know how you drink this garbage. It tastes like rotten oranges,” Aubrey bantered. “It would’ve been better if we toasted with broccoli juice or something.”

“I have some soda in the pantry. Let’s just use that.” Hero, always the peace-maker, got up from his seat and made his way to the kitchen with a gentle smile. Once he was gone, Kel finished off his cup of coffee and turned to her with a soft expression in his eyes.

“Hey Aubrey?”

“Yeah?” she asked, her brow furrowing.

“I think it’s really great that you want to be a psych nurse and everything.”

Aubrey sighed. “I don’t know if it’ll work out, Kel. I mean I just interviewed so…”

“It’ll work out,” he cut her off with a reassuring smile. “I know it will, and when it does, I know you’re gonna be great. I…”—he paused and glanced away from her—"I think you’re really great—at everything.”

Aubrey’s cheeks grew warm from the compliment. “Thank you, Kel. I think you’re—”

She didn’t get to finish that thought, however, as Kel wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into an unexpected but welcomed hug. Aubrey pressed her chin to his shoulder and gave him a pat on the back. She waited for him to let go of her, but he held her far longer than usual.

Finally, he whispered so quietly she almost couldn’t hear him. “Do a good job, okay? For all of us…”

Aubrey nodded. She contemplated pulling away from him, but he ran his hand through the ends of her long hair mumbling, “And Aubrey…Uh…I was wondering…”

“Yeah?” she shivered, in spite of herself.

“Uh…” he began again, and she could feel his hands begin to shake as they gently held onto her.

“Do you want diet or regular? I also have a few cherry—” Hero’s voice stopped abruptly. “Oh sorry… I didn’t mean to interrupt.”

Kel and Aubrey quickly pulled away from each other. Aubrey could only hope she wasn’t blushing as much as she feared. Her cheeks burned, but she and Kel hurriedly talked over each other, reassuring Hero it was fine, and he wasn’t interrupting anything. Aubrey’s head reeled, but Kel seemed completely unphased, politely declining Hero’s soda and pouring himself another cup of Orange Joe.

As Kel stood up from his seat beside her on the sofa, Aubrey could have sworn that Hero shot her a knowing, somewhat teasing smile that made her stomach twist. She bit her lip and tried her best to push the thought away—nervously, reaching for her coffee cup in an attempt at nonchalance and unfortunately failing to remembered it was still full of Orange Joe until she had actually taken a sip. Aubrey grimaced at the bitter taste, but her cheeks burned as she watched Hero’s mouth twitched in the corners at her.

*-*-*

Aubrey wished she could say that was the last time she ever accidentally tried Orange Joe. It wasn’t, but both her and Hero did get much better at predicting whether or not Kel was trying to pawn the drink off onto them. It had a distinctively putrid citrusy odor that, eventually, made it much easier to identify. If she knew Kel, there would probably be a whole pitcher full of it at the “prom” he was putting together even though Hero had insisted multiple times that Sally was much too young for coffee.

It was nice to hear that Hero was going to get to come tonight, too. He had been so busy with his residency that they didn’t get to see too much of them these days. Even Kel who was his roommate said he was lucky if he occasionally managed to catch Hero as he was heading to the hospital when Kel himself was getting home from his third shift at the manufacturing plant where he worked. Hero promised them that he was happy, just very busy, and they respected his need for rest, even if it was starting to feel a little bit like her and Kel against the world again.

That reminded her, she ought to give him a call about the traffic—letting him know she was going to be late.

“Hey Kel,” she began, but his voice, muffled and staticky from what Aubrey presumed was a bad connection, cut her off.

“Hi Aubrey. What’s up?”

“Well, I’m on my way, but I’m stuck in traffic. You would not believe how many cars are out here right now.” Aubrey sighed wearily. “On their way to prom probably”

“Have you seen any limos?”

Aubrey laughed. “No, Kel. No limos. I really don’t think we even have those in Faraway Town.”

“That’s probably true.” He chuckled before changing the subject. “It’s no big deal if you’re late or anything. Just drive safely, and you can let yourself in through the fence to the backyard.”

“Oh, are you having it outside?”

Kel hummed. “Yeah, it was such a nice night that I thought it would be fun to dance out on the porch and stuff. I’ve been practicing my dancing, and I think I’m a lot better than the last time you danced with me so…”

Aubrey’s face grew suddenly hot, but she took a deep breath, trying and failing not to think of the last night Kel had danced with her…

*-*-*

“Okay, explain to me again how you came to win dancing lessons?” quipped Aubrey, quirking an eyebrow at Kel, but he merely shrugged at her.

“Well I bought a bunch of raffle tickets because I wanted this ceramic chicken.” He paused before adding hurriedly with a sheepish smile, “And, you know, to support the hospital and everything too.”

Aubrey sighed and shook her head, but Kel didn’t seem to notice. It was very nice of Kel to come with her to her hospital’s charity benefit. They were raising money to build a new wing which would mean more beds in the juvenile behavioral health ward where she worked as a nurse. She had told Kel that the gala was mostly for the really big donors, and she was just inviting him for his company so he shouldn’t feel obligated to donate anything. Even so, it was sweet of him to try to buy some raffle tickets for some of the less expensive items.

A smile twitched in the corners of her mouth. It was just like Kel to do something thoughtful like that—especially for a dumb reason like wanting a ceramic chicken he could probably buy for himself half-as-cheap at a local home goods store.

“I was going to put all the tickets in the drawing for the basket with the chicken,” Kel prattled on. “But then some of the other people were giving me these weird looks, so I started to put them in the drawing for some of the other raffle baskets too, and I guess I won the one with the dancing lessons.” With a slight shrug of his shoulders, Kel frowned disappointedly. “Didn’t win the chicken though. I was pretty bummed about that.”

“What would you even do with a ceramic chicken?” Aubrey teased dryly.

“I don’t know, but I’d probably get more use out of it than dance lessons.”

A chuckle escaped Aubrey’s mouth as she barely stifled a laugh—turning back to the stove where she was frying some potatoes as they waited for the lasagna they were making for dinner to be finished cooking in the oven. It wouldn’t be nearly as good as Hero’s, but he was far too busy with his residency to cook for even himself these days. They were making this meal to surprise him when he got home and to celebrate his first weekend off in months.

“Do you want to take them with me?” asked Kel as he absent-mindedly stirred the pudding they were making for dessert.

Aubrey tilted her head at him. “The dance lessons?”

“Yeah. It’s for two people, and I didn’t really know who else to bring.”

“What about Hero?” She didn’t realize how silly that suggestion sounded until Kel laughed.

“Hero is a great dancer already, and he’s super busy right now anyway.”

With a conceding shrug of her shoulders, Aubrey sighed. “Isn’t there someone else you’d rather bring, Kel?”

“Nope,” he replied immediately, clearly not understanding the meaning behind her words. “Why would there be?”

“Well…you know…some people think that dancing can have a more romantic connotation, so I was just thinking that if you were interested in someone you might want to bring…” Her voice trailed as she tilted her head confused and inquisitively at the unreadable expression on Kel’s face.

“Oh…uh…well…” Kel chuckled though he rubbed his hand sheepishly across the back of his neck. “Actually, I’d rather take you, but if you don’t want to come, you can just say...”

“It’s fine, Kel.” With a shrug, Aubrey stared down at the potatoes, put the lid over the pan, and turned the stove down to low heat so they could simmer. Her mouth twitched into a bantering smile. “I just meant, you should probably be careful going around asking other girls to go dancing with you. They might get the wrong idea.”

“Is it really that much of a romantic thing?” asked Kel blinking at her.

Aubrey shrugged again. “It is in the movies.”

“But that’s just the movies. They make everything romantic, especially when it doesn’t have to be. Like how they always make it seem like prom is the best night of your life or when the couple dances together there one time, they’re suddenly desperately in love forever.” Kel laughed, but Aubrey frowned.

“I didn’t mean it like—” She huffed, shaking her head. “And what would you know about prom anyway, you barely even went to ours?”

“I went to enough of it to know that it wasn’t super magical or anything, and yeah, I danced with a few girls, but it’s not like I’m just pining for them forever now.” Kel paused, chuckling to himself, and Aubrey’s face flushed but her brow furrowed. Was he making fun of her?

“That’s not the same thing. For some girls it’s different. They romanticize it in their heads”—she sighed—“not me but…”

“That’s because you’re a cynic,” teased Kel.

“And you’re a moron—especially if you think that another girl wouldn’t take your invitation to dancing lessons in a romantic way.”

Kel just shrugged and admitted, “I don’t get it.”

“Well…what if you had danced with that girl, the one you actually wanted to take as your prom date? Don’t you think that would’ve been special?”

“I didn’t get to dance with her—ever actually, but I don’t think it would’ve changed anything. A dance is just dance, isn’t it?” He tilted his head as a bantering smile tugged at his lips. “You’re acting like if I just started dancing with you right now, you’d—?”

“K—Kel?” Aubrey’s breath hitched as he slipped his arms around her waist. “What are you doing?”

“Proving a point,” he insisted with a shrug.

Aubrey huffed. “There isn’t even any music.”

“Oh.” Kel absentmindedly tilted his head before pulling out his phone, presumably choosing a song to play. As the song’s intro began to play, he set his phone on the counter and held out his hand to her.

“Can I have this dance?” he asked with a playfully melodramatic bow, and Aubrey sighed with a somewhat affectionate roll of her eyes.

“Fine,” she sighed. “Whatever will get you to focus on cooking again.”

Kel smiled brightly as he wrapped his arms around her waist again. As he met her eyes, she looked away abruptly—clearing her throat as she snaked her arms around his neck. He was so close to her. Her cheeks felt warm, and she swallowed hard, pushing the thought away. ‘It’s just Kel,’ she reminded herself.

He began swaying—Aubrey shook her head—off tempo with the music. “You really can use those dance lessons,” she teased though there was a certain, uncharacteristic shakiness that seeped into her words. She pursed her lips and mentally kicked herself. What was wrong with her all of a sudden?

She could almost feel Kel’s chuckle reverberating in his chest. “Yeah, well I guess it’s good I won them then.” He smiled at her, and as he met her eyes, Aubrey shuddered in spite of herself.

Kel pulled her closer to him—almost pressing his cheek against hers and began to quietly sing along to the music. Aubrey’s face flushed. Knowing Kel he probably wasn’t even aware that he was singing, but she could feel his warm breath, those affectionate words almost whispered in her ear. For the life of her she couldn’t even begin to guess why Kel had picked what was probably one of the most romantic songs in the universe. The slow crooning of the melody alone screamed romance, but there was so much devotion, so much longing in the lyrics—and to hear them in Kel’s voice... Aubrey inhaled sharply—hoping her face wasn’t nearly as red as she feared.

“How”—her voice hitched, and she pulled away from him—“How do you even know this song?”

Kel just shrugged. “Hero showed it to me. He likes all those old songs, you know? And I thought it would be good for this.” He paused. “Why? Do you like it?”

“It’s fine,” shrugged Aubrey though she found she couldn’t look at Kel for some reason.

When she finally met his gaze again, there was something so warm, so gentle in his expression, and his dark eyes seemed to glisten with an emotion that she couldn’t begin to describe but which made her heart pound all the same. He lifted his hand from her waist and gently pressed his palm to her cheek.

“If this was a movie, this is probably the point when I’d say something corny like…” Kel paused, blinking at her with heavy-lidded eyes before he continued with a gentle sincerity that made her breath catch in her throat, ”‘You are so beautiful.’” He stroked her cheek with his thumb, and as his eyes fluttered closed, he sighed, “‘I’ve wanted this for a long time.’”

Aubrey swallowed hard. She tried to frown even though she was sure her face was bright red from that…that pining underscoring his voice. ‘This is just a game,’ she reminded herself—one that Kel seemed to be getting extremely into, but a game all the same. Still... the way his voice faltered, the earnestness in his eyes made it easy to forget.

“You’ve been watching too many romance movies with Hero…” she quipped, but her voice wavered.

Kel chuckled lightly. “Maybe…”

His hand softly stroked the side of her cheek until the tips of his long fingers began to tangle in her hair. She shivered as she took a long, shaky breath. His lips parted slightly as his mouth relaxed. She bit her lip and watched as Kel did the same.

“Aubrey…” he whispered as she tangled her trembling hand in the hair at the nape of his neck and gently pulled him towards her in slow, deliberate movements that didn’t feel like her own. His long, dark eyelashes fluttered. He was close enough to her now that she could almost feel them against her skin.

Her heart pounded. Her hands shook. He hovered in front of her mere inches away from her face. When he whispered her name again, she realized they had stopped dancing.

As Kel’s eyes fluttered closed, he tilted his head and cupped her face with his hands. His breath was warm against her skin, so close Aubrey could almost taste the coffee and citrus lingering from that awful Orange Joe he loved so much. As she began to lean closer to him, her hand curled around the unruly strands of his hair, and she pressed her palm to the back of his head—pulling him in. Closer. Closer.

He began to lean forward. That space between them was almost non-existent now. Aubrey froze—unable to move, unable to breath. Her heartbeat raced, and she could almost feel Kel’s heart pounding as he stopped, a breath away from her. She gripped the soft fabric of his shirt and shut her eyes tightly. Waiting. Waiting until…

BEEP! BEEP! The sound of the oven timer rang through the living room. Aubrey exhaled deeply though her cheeks flushed. What had just happened?

Kel startled, pulling away from her abruptly. “Oh! The lasagna!” he exclaimed with a bright smile, seemingly, completely unphased by what had just happened, by the fact that they had almost…

Aubrey inhaled sharply, then took a few deep breaths to calm herself down. She bit down hard on her lip. It was just a game to him. Of course it was.

“Alright fine, Kel…” she laughed it off with as much of a frown as she could muster as the music stopped. Her racing heartbeat and wavering tone of voice didn’t seemed to get the memo, however. “You’re right.”

His face beamed. “Seriously?” He chuckled, playfully poking her in the arm. “See, I told you that you didn’t miss out on anything at the prom.”

Aubrey sighed—willing that blush she could still feel in her face away. “Yeah… It’s just a dance—nothing necessarily romantic about that. But you know I agreed with you from the beginning, right? So don’t get too excited about it. I just meant a lot of other girls might get the wrong impression.” ‘Especially if you dance with them like that,’ she mentally added, barely managing to stop herself before the words tumbled out of her mouth.

“Yeah, alright. You know, honestly, I actually kinda see your point now too.” Kel tilted his head and chuckled breathily though his expression was unreadable. Aubrey’s heart raced in spite of herself as she tried to push these thoughts, these feelings, whatever they were away for good.

*-*-*

Aubrey let out a long and heavy sigh. She could feel the blush in her cheeks even now just thinking about it. She hadn’t done a very good job of pushing the memory away. Even though they had never talked about that dance, about that almost-kiss ever again, Aubrey had mulled it over in her mind more times than she could count, until she could almost believe that she had been imagining things, that she had just gotten caught up in the music and dancing and that nothing had actually almost happened. But…—Aubrey sighed—the way he had looked at her…

She swallowed hard and pushed the thought away. This was Kel. Kel—dopey, happy-go-lucky Kel who used to eat spray cheese directly out of the can until she and Hero staged an intervention to ask him to stop and who once got a popsicle stick stuck up his nose because he wanted to see if he could touch his brain with it. Granted he was seven at the time, but still… this was Kel, and Kel was…was…

Aubrey sighed. Kel was sweet and thoughtful. He’d do anything to make his friends and family happy, and he loved making people laugh. He could make friends anywhere he went, and he always found things to smile about. And yeah, he could be awkward sometimes, airheaded, oblivious, and occasionally stubborn, but he had a big heart and even if his words didn’t always come out the way he wanted them to, she never doubted how much he cared. He was a great friend—her best friend, probably if she was being honest, but she wasn’t about to waste another minute of her life sitting around analyzing whether she may or may not have almost kissed him once. And she especially wasn’t going to sit around analyzing whether or not she should have or, worst of all, whether she had wanted to.

“You will dance with me again, won’t you?” asked Kel’s voice through the phone. “I gave those dancing lessons to my parents as a gift, but Hero was helping me practice a little bit, so I think I’ve gotten a lot better.”

“Uh…yeah…sure Kel…” stumbled Aubrey trying her best not to think anything of it.

“Okay, great! I’ve got to go now, but I’ll see you soon, okay? Bye.”

“…Bye…” mumbled Aubrey. She let out a long and heavy sigh, shaking her head and mentally kicking herself for getting so flustered about Kel of all people. It was nothing, clearly…given the way he could mention it so nonchalantly like that. She should just stop thinking about it and worrying that it was something that it wasn’t.

She pushed the thought away—trying her best to think about something else, anything else. What was everyone going to wear tonight? Sally would probably look adorable all dressed up in party dress or a costume if she wanted to be an actual princess—though Aubrey supposed Kel had specifically used the word “prom” rather than “ball” so Sally might not want a princess dress. Would Kel and Hero go all out and rent tuxes or just wear nice suits? Maybe Kel would bring back that bright pink tie from their prom…

Aubrey stopped. That tie. She hadn’t thought about it in years until it got brought up a couple of weeks ago when she and Kel were going shopping at the outlet mall with Sally.

*-*-*

“They’re so pretty,” Sally sighed wistfully with a little twirl as they passed some of the clothing racks filled with sparkly prom dresses. “I can’t wait ‘til I’m old enough to go to the prom.” She giggled and squeezed Aubrey’s hand. “What was it like? Did you get to wear a pretty dress like that, Aubbie?”

Aubrey smiled. Sally had given her that nickname years ago when she was a little toddler who struggled with her “r”s, and it made it happy to think that it had somehow stuck all these years. Her smile quickly faded however, as she awkwardly replied, “Well…Sally…I didn’t actually go to my prom.”

“Oh…” Sally’s eyes widened sadly, and she tilted her head. “I’m sorry.”

“That’s okay,” she reassured her, giving her a gentle smile and a reassuring pat on the head. “Your brother went though—to part of it. He wore this bright pink tie.”

Kel laughed and playfully poked her in the arm. “You remember my tie?”

Aubrey’s face flushed, but she bantered. “It was kind of hard to forget. Why’d you pick a color like that anyway?”

“Oh uh…” Chuckling, he scratched the back of his neck. “I never told you?”

“No…” Aubrey quirked an eyebrow at him, but Sally giggled.

“I wanna hear about it.”

“Well, okay, just for you Sally,” Kel’s expression softened, but he shrugged his shoulders. “But I’m warning you, it’s…kind of silly now that I’m thinking about it…” He sighed. “There was this girl…She was really amazing. I wanted to ask her to prom, but I was really afraid she would say ‘no’ so I kind of chickened out. But she really liked pink so…I thought maybe she’d like that pink tie. Kind of silly, right?” He laughed it off, but his cheeks flushed.

“Did she like it?” asked Sally, curiously blinking up at her older brother.

Kel’s mouth curved into a smile, and—Aubrey blushed—she could have almost sworn he glanced over at her when he said, “Yeah. I think she did…”

“You know, you never told me—that girl, did she go with someone else?” The question slipped out before Aubrey could stop it. She had spent years wondering, worrying if she had ruined Kel’s prom with her own problems or if he was nursing a broken heart of his own that had nothing to do with her grief. It was probably selfish to be bringing it up now after all these years, but she couldn’t give up the opportunity to find out for sure if Kel would have left the prom early anyway, even if she had been there.

“Nope,” Kel shook his head with a sigh, and Aubrey swallowed hard.

“Did you get to dance with her, then?”

A smile twitched in the corners of Kel’s mouth—something unreadable but undeniably affectionate flashing across his eyes. “Eventually…”

“Was she a good dancer?” giggled Sally.

“Better than me.” Kel shrugged, but he reached out to take Sally’s hand and gave his sister a little twirl. “But I am getting better.”

He flashed Aubrey a teasing smile, and she shook her head at him as she stifled a laugh. She knew it was a sign that this conversation was over, but it nagged at the back of her brain for the rest of the day as they absentmindedly wandered from store to store, eventually stopping for soft pretzels at the food court and surprising Sally with a bright yellow bow for her hair. There was no more talk of prom.

When it started storming, they decided to call it a day and headed back to Faraway Town. It wasn’t long before Sally fell asleep in the back seat of her car, exhausted from the long and exciting day of shopping. Aubrey dreaded the silence left by the absence of Sally and Kel’s cheerful prattling, but she was grateful for the opportunity to focus on driving rather than on mulling Kel’s words over in her head. That guilt she had been feeling ever since he had had to skip out on their prom on her account was suddenly fresh again, gnawing at her, getting harder and harder to push away.

“Hey…uh…Aubrey? Are you okay?” asked Kel quietly enough so as not to wake up the napping Sally. “You’ve been kind of quiet…”

“Well Sally’s asleep Kel,” she replied with a tilt of her head as she glanced in her rearview mirror.

“Yeah, but I meant before that…Ever since we were in that department store…”

Aubrey took a deep breath and tried to muster a, “Yeah…I’m just…”

She stopped abruptly. Even if she didn’t take her eyes off the road, she could almost picture Kel’s reassuring smile, encouraging her that she could tell him anything. Maybe it would be best to ask him now when she didn’t have to look in his face...

Before she could decide, however, she pulled into the driveway of Kel’s parents’ house. Grabbing a nearby umbrella, Kel got out of the car and gently lifted a sleeping Sally, draping his jacket over her head so her face wouldn’t get wet from his attempts to carry her and the umbrella.

Kel fidgeted until he was shielding Sally completely with the umbrella, getting himself soaked in the process. Aubrey sighed and shook her head with a somewhat affectionate smile. He was going to be sopping wet by the time he got back to the car, but if Aubrey was being honest, she didn’t mind. It was sweet how much Kel cared about his sister. Aubrey supposed that was really just Kel—he always thought about everybody else and how to make them happy. He’d give a stranger his umbrella if they needed it, even if that meant he’d get himself soaked. It was something Aubrey admired most about him.

Her face felt suddenly warm, and she pushed the thought away, watching as Kel handed Sally off to his mom on the porch. She gave Aubrey a bright smile and a cheerful wave as Kel rushed back across yard. Aubrey waved back.

Sure enough, when Kel got back inside the car, he was dripping water. He ran his hand through his sopping hair.

“Sorry, Aubrey. I’ll clean it up when you drop me off,” he insisted with a sheepish smile, but Aubrey waved her hand.

“Don’t worry about it. It’s just water.”

Chuckling, Kel’s mouth twitched into a lopsided grin, and he shrugged his shoulders, “Okay, now that Sally’s inside…what’s up? Something’s bugging you.”

“I’m fine,” Aubrey said, but she knew Kel knew her too well to believe that.

He sighed, a look of concern passing over his eyes. “Are you sure? Is it something I said…?”

“No…” She bit her lip. “It’s not you. It’s just…”

“You’ll feel better if you just tell me. I know you will,” he teased with a kind smile.

Aubrey huffed. He was right, of course, but she didn’t really want to admit that.

“Why did you leave our prom?”

Kel’s brow furrowed, and his eyes widened in confusion. “What?”

“You know…was it for that girl you wanted to take but didn’t end up asking or was it for…?” She stopped and cleared her throat.

“Well…actually…” Kel stumbled, his face flushing. Aubrey sighed guiltily. She didn’t mean to fluster him like this—it wasn’t fair.

“I just…I know it’s none of my business, and I feel bad asking but I just don’t want to be reason that you had to skip out on our prom, you know? So if you left because you were heartbroken or…”

“Oh,” Kel interrupted. Clearing his throat, he rubbed his hand across the nape of his neck. “Uh…I wasn’t heartbroken or anything, but…yeah, I did leave because of that girl—the one I wanted to ask…”

Aubrey sighed. She didn’t feel as relieved to hear this as she had always imagined she would. She felt almost…sad…

“Do you regret it?” she asked quietly, staring at her hands. “Leaving her there at the prom?”

“What?”

“You know, you could’ve stayed. You didn’t have to miss out on it, especially not to just waste the whole night sitting on my porch…” She cleared her throat though she twisted her hands around the steering wheel, staring intently at the swaying windshield wipers. “Do you ever wish that…things had been different?”

“I mean…I guess sometimes, maybe, but only to wish that you had been there and that everyone had been there to come with us.” Sighing bittersweetly, Kel paused. “Why? Do you?”

Aubrey sighed, adjusting her grip on the steering wheel even though the car was still parked. “Sometimes…” she admitted. “But for the same reason as you, I guess, and…” Her voice trailed, and she could feel Kel shift next to her.

“And what?”

“I’ve just…” Her face flushed as she took a deep breath. “I always felt guilty for making you miss it. I really am sorry about that.”

Kel chuckled lightly and placed his hand on her shoulder until she turned to look at him. “Aubrey, don’t worry about it. I already told you. I wanted to spend it with you.”

His smile was warm, and the look in his eyes was so tender that Aubrey’s hands began to shake as her cheeks blushed rose. She turned away from him, and he shrugged his shoulders and admitted, “I think about that night a lot, actually…in a good way. I don’t have regrets.”

He gently pushed a piece of hair out of her face, and Aubrey shivered but not from the cold and wet of the rain on his fingers. “Aubrey, I…There’s actually…” He stopped and pulled his hand away from her abruptly as water began to drip into her face. “Oh shoot. I’m sorry,” he stumbled, panicking over the damp streaks in her hair.

“It’s okay, Kel…” Aubrey sighed—politely failing to mention that his panicking over dripping water everywhere was just spraying water and making everything wetter. “Let’s just…get you home.”

“Okay…” Kel nodded, but his face was flushed. Aubrey was sure hers was bright red. She could only hope he wouldn’t notice.

*-*-*

Taking a deep breath, Aubrey parked her car on the street in front of Kel’s house. This was probably the worst possible thing she could have been thinking of right now. Why did she do this to herself?

She sighed heavily, burying her face in her hands before she composed herself, pushing all those thoughts away. She didn’t even know where they were coming from, and even if she did, now was definitely not the time to be thinking about any of that. She could almost guarantee that Kel certainly wasn’t. There was no way he was sitting around wondering what would have happened if the timer hadn’t gone off when they were dancing or if water hadn’t started to drip into her face when he was running his hand through her hair. These were just things Kel did without thinking—it didn’t mean anything more to him than that they were just friends, so why should it mean anything more to her? And…perhaps more importantly, why would she even want it to? Why would she want affection for him that would never be returned?  

Her shoes clicked across the pavement as she made her way down the sidewalk and up the driveway to the house where Kel lived with his brother, at least until Hero finished his final year of residency and paid off enough student loans to afford his own place. There was the faint sound of music echoing from the backyard and lights shimmering from what she assumed was probably their decorated porch. As soon as she walked through the gate to the yard, however, she realized she was wrong. There was a beautiful trellis canopy covered in Christmas lights with twinkling icicle lights hanging from the ceiling—underneath it was Hero’s record player, playing classic love songs.

Aubrey froze just staring at it—how it beautiful it was. She didn’t even notice Kel until he chuckled beside her.  

“Aubrey, you made it!” He paused, his expression softening. “You look beautiful. I’m glad I finally got to see your prom dress.”

Aubrey’s face flushed, and she curled her toes in her shoes both at the compliment,  and at the fact that Kel didn’t look too shabby himself dressed in his dark suit with combed hair and shiny dress shoes. “You look nice too, Kel. I see you’re wearing that tie—” she tried to tease him, but her voice cracked. Kel, however, just chuckled lightly.

“Oh yeah…well, you know…” With a slight shrug of his shoulders, he paused fidgeting with the bright pink tie around his neck. “Do you like it?”

Aubrey somehow managed a playful roll of her eyes. “It’s great, Kel.”

“I got you this,” he exclaimed excitedly, holding out a plastic container with a corsage inside.

“Wow, thank you,” she stumbled as he helped her slip it onto her wrist. “You really did go all out, huh?”

Kel hummed and nodded enthusiastically, but Aubrey’s brow furrowed as she glanced around. “So, uh…where are Hero and Sally?”

A faint flush of rose filled Kel’s cheeks. “Oh. Uh…well…about that. They’re not here.”

“Why not?”

“It wasn’t really a lie,” he tripped over his words. “I was just trying to surprise you, but I…I didn’t do this for Sally…”

As he met her eyes, Aubrey shivered and swallowed hard. Kel chuckled sheepishly. “I knew you were kind of upset that you missed your prom, and so I thought I’d make you your own prom. Surprise!”

Aubrey looked around the yard—at the twinkling lights, the trellis, Hero’s record player, then at Kel, all dressed up in his best suit with his pink tie, the kindest look in his eyes and the brightest, beaming smile on his face.

“You...”—she inhaled sharply—“You did all this…for me?”

“Yeah…Is it overboard? I was worried it might be a little overboard.”

Aubrey could scarcely put coherent sentences together—her head was spinning. Kel…Kel had done all of this…for her…? “Why?”

“Why?” Kel repeated with wide eyes. “Well…because it’s a lot…with the music and the fancy clothes and the decorations…”

“No, uh—” she stumbled. “Why did you do this for me, Kel?”

“Oh…well I thought you were upset about our prom ever since we went to the outlet mall, and I thought maybe a ‘do-over’ prom would make you happy.”

Aubrey’s blush deepened as she stared down at her feet. “You…you really didn’t have to do this Kel. Especially since I’m the one who basically ruined your prom in the first place.”

“Aubrey…” He pressed his palm to her cheek—smiling, waiting until she finally looked up at him. “That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you this whole time. You didn’t ruin my prom—not at all. I wanted to spend it with you. I know I probably should’ve just asked you, but I don’t know, I was just…I had never felt so close to anybody in my whole life, and I thought you were so amazing, I didn’t know what to do with myself…” He paused, chuckling awkwardly with a sheepish shrug of his shoulders.

“Wait…you…you…” she stammered trying to make sense of what she was hearing. He couldn’t have possibly just said…? “You wanted to take me to our prom? I’m the girl?”

Kel’s cheeks blushed red, but he nodded. “You’re the girl.” Aubrey could only blink at him as he chuckled lightly, awkwardly again and joked as he fidgeted with his hands, “You know…if this was a movie, this is probably the part where I’d say something really corny like ‘You’ve always been the girl.’”

As he met her eyes, Aubrey froze. His words may have been corny, but the look in his eyes was so sincere, so…affectionate. She swallowed hard—sure her face must be bright red by now, but she couldn’t move, couldn’t think. She tried her best to take a deep breath and shakily tease him but her voice was wavering, breathy—it almost didn’t sound like her. “Yeah…that’s—that’s really corny…”

“Yeah, I’m no Hero…” Kel chuckled self-deprecatingly. “I’m really not good at any of this stuff…” He bit his lip and looked back up at her with a gaze that made her shiver. “But I really do think you’re great—probably the most amazing person I’ve ever met. I’m sorry for not saying it before.”

“Kel, I…” Her voice hitched. “I had no idea you felt this way…”

“That’s okay,” shrugged Kel. “To be honest, I didn’t even know I felt this way for a long time. It took me a while to figure it out…I was just kind of dense, I guess.” He laughed with a sheepish grin. “When I finally mentioned it to Hero, he gave me this look like ‘it’s about time…’ Then he was the one who was really encouraging me to tell you, but I just never really could figure out how and…then I was worried I was going to mess up our friendship and I didn’t want to make things awkward…But I guess this is kinda awkward, huh? All the movies make it look so easy…”

Aubrey blushed. If one of them should be feeling dense right now, it really should be her. Kel was…Was he really…?

“Listen, uh…you’re really quiet right now. You don’t have to say anything. We can just pretend that I never said anything,” he began to ramble quickly, nervously. “I didn’t want to put you on the spot, I just—I thought that was something you should probably know about me, er, about you, er how I feel about you because I—I really like you and I think you are really great and if you ever talk to me again after this, I would really like to take you to dinner and…”

Aubrey could only blink at him, unable to get a word in edgewise as he let out a long heavy sigh. “And I am totally messing this up…” Sighing heavily again, he ran his hand through his hair, before he met her eyes. “Aubrey…I’m sorry—”

“Don’t be…” Aubrey interrupted, reaching up to stroke Kel’s cheek with her hand. “I know it’s not an easy thing to say…”

“No, but you don’t understand. I tried to practice and everything. I was going to say all kinds of really nice stuff like that you’re probably the most important person in the world to me, and I don’t know what I’d do without you. After Mari and Sunny and Basil…”—his voice hitched—”Things were so dark and so sad…it was probably one of the worst times in my life, and I felt so alone, but then, you found me…and you showed me that even if this world without them is always going to be a little sadder than it was, that doesn’t mean that there aren’t still good things in it too. And a lot of those good things were because of you—when we tease each other and we’re throwing popcorn at each other or I’m wiping frosting on your nose or splashing water at you at the beach—when we laugh about corny movies or dance in the kitchen or when we just talk for hours and completely forget about the time…or when your face turns all red when you’re trying not to smile or the way your nose wrinkles when you laugh. And you”—he cupped her face in his hands—“You’re the best thing.”

“Kel—I…I…” Aubrey began to trip over her words, unsure what she even wanted to say.

Kel sighed, his face blushing red as he pulled his hands away from her, and mumbled, “I don’t even know if that makes sense…”

“No, it…it does,” Aubrey said with a reassuring smile. “I…I completely…” She stopped. “Back then, I…I never thought I could ever be happy again, but you showed me I could be, that there’s still…happiness…” Her voice trailed, but Kel wrapped his arms around her and pulled into a tight hug.  

“Aubrey…I’m…I’m so glad…I…”—Kel’s voice hitched—“I just want you to be happy. I want you to be so, so happy. I just never thought I’d ever be lucky enough that you could be happy with me.”

“I am happy, Kel,” Aubrey whispered, unable to think, unable to breath. Something she couldn’t even begin to describe seemed to propel her forward—her whole body almost moving on its own as she pulled back from him just enough to close her eyes and brush her lips against his.

“A—Aubrey?” stumbled Kel with a look more akin to having been whacked on the back of the head rather than kissed.

“Kel, uh…sorry…” she began staring off over his shoulder. “I just um…”

“No, I’m sorry, I just…I wasn’t ready.” Aubrey’s eyes widened, but Kel hurriedly added, “Ready as in prepared not as in ready like I—I didn’t want…because I—I do…”

A playful smile tugged at Aubrey’s lips, but she was blushing too much to actually tease him.

“I—I…” Kel began to stumble again, and Aubrey could have sworn she heard him mumble, “Oh forget it…” under his breath before he finally just threw his arms around her neck and kissed her. His hands tangled in her hair as hers gripped the collar of his suit pulling him even closer to her. She could taste that sickeningly sweet Orange Joe on his breath, but she didn’t even care.

When they finally broke apart from each other, red-faced and breathless. Kel chuckled teasingly, “I guess I should probably ask you to dance now, huh?”

As that familiar song began to play, Kel wrapped his arms around her, and Aubrey slipped her hands around his neck. They swayed in time to the music, and neither one of them could hold back their smiles.

As Aubrey nestled into Kel’s chest, she could feel him chuckling lightly to himself.

“What?” she asked quietly.  

“Nothing it’s just…” Kel pulled away just enough to look at her and meet her eyes as his mouth twitched into a soft, playful smile. “Maybe it really is true what everyone says about prom after all…”

[opalescent-apples]

How the Homestuck Trolls would play Omori

Aradia: She made it through Black space and somehow wasn't freaked out by the "friendsssss...." Scene (you know the one). She will find every door. She will not shut up about this game. She's a HeroMari stan.

Tavros: Kins Basil and has to have Gamzee and/or Aradia near him to finish the game during Black Space. He mostly wanted to quit over the bunny side quest. He really didn't want to kill them; he's with headspace Aubrey there. He makes Fiduspawn teams for everyone.

Sollux: Considers the game too easy, though the story hits home for him. He intends to mod Black Space to have actual bosses; Aradia and Feferi are cheering him on. He adds new phobia bosses.

Karkat: Rage quit the game on Sweetheart. Sollux makes fun of him for being bad at video games.

Nepeta: Like Roxy, she could not kill Mewo. Equius offered to step in before she figured it out. Later, she becomes the most prolific Baseball (kelbrey) shipper on ao3.

Kanaya: finishes the game with Rose. She prefers games with more customization or straightforward combat, though. She does appreciate Aubrey.

Terezi: almost quit in white space before getting into the pastel world. She appreciates the use of color in Omori, and has absolutely looped My Time before. She's pestering Karkat to finish the game so she and Dave can throw memes at him.

Vriska: Guys you don't understand. Aubrey is the best character to ever be written. She deserves the world. She deserves to hit people with that bat. She should commit more crimes with Kim, actually. Those stupid other characters should just leave her alone!!!!!!!! Ugh she's not a 8ad person this is not up for de88.

Equius: Nepeta made him play it, but he actually got scared of it (sorry it's hard to write this guy). He eventually told her to seek more dignified entertainment. She did not listen.

Gamzee: Plays it with Tavros. He wouldn't have figured whitespace out otherwise. He's a relatively casual fan of the game, but he relates to Sunny a little more than he admits.

Eridan: "Wwhat do you mean there isn't a route wwhere you kill everyone. Wwhat's the glubbin point then?" He puts down the game for more flarp.

Feferi: Got the hikkikomori route on the first try. She wanted to see where the colorful story went. She loves the underwater sections. Went back for the main route and cried up a storm. Reads Rose's obscure fanfiction about Tako.

[doodlinge]

GOSH U ARE SO SO RIGHT!!! extremely based honestly

my opinions on ships between the main 4 are similar to yours, except im a little more aubrey centric since shes my favorite character out of the bunch, with the second being kel and the third being hero (basically all of the “b” cast, who weren’t directly involved in the recital incident 🥲). altho, kelbrey is obviously top priority and like you, i just always come back to it! for something that’s more “controversial” in the fandom, it’s such a reliably amazing ship—when its comforting, it’s soooo so comforting. seriously, the kelbrey fluff just hits different than those of any other ships imo. my second favorite ship is probably the polyamorous one between kel, basil, and aubrey because i can never get enough of their Punk Girl Who Can Totally Beat You Up (but wont, unless heavily provoked) x Sunshine Guy Who Is Hilarious and Always Ends Up Being So Endearing It’s Charming x Soft Dude Who Has Been Through So Much But Still Ends Up Being A Sweet, Kind Person, Somehow dynamic that is SO UNDERRATED! Especially when you realize that they all only really have eachother after sunny moves and hero goes back to college (which just opens up almost endless kelbrey, photobomb and cactiflower opportunities for reconciliation, love, angst and general amazing stuff to think about imo) :)

i also love adding on kel to sunburn because i think it just makes it cuter™️. hehe kel is just so bubbly and fun and is such a sweetheart that he makes anyone who he’s shipped with happy and its SO CUTE

if im being honest, i never really thought about cactiflower that much. it has always been the most underrated ship of the main cast in my opinion, and maybe thats why i never tried it out! but as i think about it, basil being so soft and sweet could always use another sweet guy who just wants the best for him. they would just be so easy and loving together and as i think about it i think i become a fan!!!!

and with heromari, i always just shipped it along with the rest of the fandom. honestly, i dont care for the ships with mari and hero and other characters (such as the bread twins or whatever) 😅

this might be weird, but i also love the trope of jealous characters. its just so interesting to me to see maybe a normally easygoing character or a normally confident character become suspicious, hotheaded and protective over a lover (or even a friend!) . i LOVE the idea with crowley jealousy with aziraphale, with that whole “naked man friend” joke that just itched my brain in the right way. i see some people write aus of aziraphale breaking up with gabriel and then dating crowley, and i LOVE the jealous crowley factor in that context, but i gotta say i could never imagine gabriel and aziraphale dating outside of that. its good for plot convenience but yeesh NO THANK U tbh

i love jealous aubrey too (and jealous kel, but i think of that way less because i think its just less common in fics). i love imagining them to songs together, and some of my favorite stories i make up in my head are the ones where kel dates someone like cris (cris because she looks a lot like aubrey, so extra angst points >:), and because she generally would seem like a good option for kel to date if they didn’t radiate so much friend energy due to how similar they are) and aubrey, who is maybe an ex of kel OR just an admirer posing as a friend is jealouuuuus. not necessarily even mad at cris and she doesnt have a good REASON for being annoyed at kel so shes just bitterly thinking “he’s just trying to replace me and it won’t work”

(^^also, if ur a taylor swift fan, “is it over now” is a PERFECT song to imagine with this storyline :) i know some people arent tho, so no pressure lol)

GAHHHHH U LIKE GOOD OMENS AND ARE A HUGE KELBREY FAN I LIKE GOOD OMENS AND AM A HUGE KELBREY FAN LETS BE FRIENDS PLEASE :D

whats ur fav kelbrey fic. i love paper rings on ao3

OH OH OH YOU GET IT!!!!! I’d love to talk to you haha i love. having common interests with someone

do u mean i’ll marry you with paper rings by rikaism…it IS really good…i love it a LOT ough….ough…it’s also gotta be one of my favs i think. Pink Umbrella by Electricbagels IS ALSO SO GOOD. I also really like Old Habits Die Hard by Starfood. In Vino Veritas by towardthesun AND You’re Something Special by CrystalQueer are like.at the top of my list i think…dhddheh SORRY im indecisive. I get all gushy when it comes to Kelbrey…I have all their titles and authors memorised bc im insane like that 💀💀 KELBREY REAAIUUUUGH 🗣️🗣️💥‼️

[enbiart]

still thinking abt that one ask about kelbrey and girlfriend by avril lavigne. i don't rember if it was kel or auby getting jelly but what girl is gonna be the face of aubrey's wrath if it was aubrey.

cris my best friend cris

[kelbreys-baseball-bat]

Welcome Kelbrey/BaseBall enjoyers!!

My name's Astro and I am here to deliver you Kelbrey content!

First and foremost, I might not be updating as much because I'm still in school and I have a LOT of things going on. But just know that I love them very much.

Second, tags:

Original posts from me - #kelbrey enthusiast times

My art - #kelbrey art

Text posts of just saying things - #hitting a homerun

Reblogs - #run around the baseball field

Reblogged art - #ball from outside the field

Fanfics/Headcanons - #burntans as we write

Kelbrey videos - #baseball score on record

AUs - #different baseball bat

Asks - #baseball asks

And third! Reasons as to why I love and adore Kelbrey. Prepare yourself for an essay:

Kel and Aubrey have that INCREDIBLE bond where they're constantly at each other's throats half the time, getting on each other's nerves and making fun of each other; but in any other case, every situation away from that, they care about each other so much. They bounce off each other SO well and it's amazing. They're constantly in agreement, but not to each other's face.

It's the best kind of relationship where, no matter how much they fight, or how many insults they've already thrown each other's way, when the moment comes, they're always by each other's sides, they're always gonna be there to support each other. They fight a lot, sure, but they always come back to each other. That kind of relationship is the best. Because if you're in a relationship where it's all sunshine and rainbows, disagreements are harder.... For them, they're so comfortable around each other that... disagreements are casual and somehow slowly resolves itself.

For example! At the picnic with Mari before going to Basil's house, Kel comforts Aubrey when she was about to cry, saying he doesn't like it when she cries, and reassures her about Basil. Aubrey accepts it and even smiles at him. In which, Kel says it's creepy (which is honestly probably Kel not knowing how to react to her smiling at him but shhhh) and them going back to their banter. Which makes them so human.... I love them SO MUCH.

Okay, that's that for now, because if I keep going, this'll become SEVERAL paragraphs.

I also like other ships in Omori, most of them actually! This is just my favorite, a little bias perhaps..... Anyways! Enjoy the blog! Good job for getting this far!

(Oh also, main blog is @astro-inthestars , if you guys are curious)

[acacia-may]

Hold Up The World (OMORI Fanfiction)

Description: "Kel liked getting to play Mr. Fix-It for his friends’ problems. He just wished he was better at it, so he wouldn’t have to watch helplessly as his friends suffered with a pain he couldn’t even begin to understand."

OR

Kel faces the aftermath of "the truth" and, as always, tries his best to keep everyone together while continuing to run from his own negative feelings, but his memories of Mari and an unexpected conversation with Aubrey might help him confront some more difficult truths of his own.

Relationships: Kel's Friendship with Sunny, Hero, Basil, Aubrey, and Mari. Heavy emphasis on Kel & Mari's friendship and Kel & Aubrey's friendship (could be (Romantic) Kelbrey if you wanted to see it, so I've gone ahead and tagged it, but this is not an intentionally romantic work).

Characters: Kel (POV Character), Sunny, Basil, Hero, Aubrey, and Mari

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst With A Hopeful Ending, Epic Friendship, Post-Good Ending.

Word Count: 6423

Rating: T for some language and heavy themes and thematic elements (i.e. grief & healing from grief and trauma).

Warnings: Major Spoilers for OMORI! Heavy themes and thematic elements (i.e. grief & healing from grief and trauma). Some language.

Link to original post on AO3. Please do not repost to another website.

A/N: This story was written for my sister whose favorite video game ever is OMORI. Since she lent me the game, I offered to write her any fanfiction she wanted about it. She asked for a Kel friendship story, post-good ending feat. reactions to "the truth." This is what I came up with. Of course, this is just one possibility of many. Thank you so much for giving it a chance.💕

Story below the cut. Thank you for reading!

How’d you do it, Mari? How’d you hold up the world?

*-*-*

“It’s okay, Sunny.” The words fell out of Kel’s mouth almost automatically. He didn’t need to think about them—didn’t want to. His mouth twitched into what he hoped was a reassuring smile, but Sunny merely blinked at him with his one eye. The other or what was left of it was covered in bandages and—something twisted in the pit of Kel’s stomach—he wasn’t sure if it could blink anymore.

Kel paused, wondering if Sunny would say anything in response. He wasn’t sure if he wanted him to or not but imagined anything would be better than sitting in this heavy silence alone with that sickening coiling feeling in his stomach and that painful ache in his chest—panging now like a reopened wound. With a heavy sigh, Kel pushed the thought aside. Sunny had to be hurting even worse than that, and that’s all that really mattered right now.

“Let’s get you back to bed, yeah?” Kel shrugged his shoulders as Sunny offered a brisk nod. Kel held out his hand to support him and wrapped an arm around his shoulders—scrawny and practically drowning in his hospital gown. His fingers tensed. Kel could practically feel the bones of Sunny’s shoulder blades, his arms, and his ribs as he leaned against his side for support and eased back into his hospital bed. Since when was Sunny so scrawny—so frail? When was the last time he had eaten anything? “Do you want me to get you something to eat? I’ve heard hospital food is the worst, but I’m sure I can scrounge up something for you, maybe out of a vending machine or….” His voice trailed, scrambling to think of something, anything he could do, and Sunny merely shook his head.

“That’s okay. Thank you,” he quietly replied. Kel swallowed hard. There was something so sad in his expression.

“Listen, Sunny. Hero and Aubrey…they’re going to come back, okay? Hero is just…in the bathroom and uh…Aubrey...” He paused. “Well you know how she is—she probably just needed a minute to…you know…think about things. She does that sometimes…But she’ll be back. They’ll both come back.” His mouth twitched into a slight, reassuring smile, but whether he was reassuring himself or Sunny, he wasn’t entirely sure.

Sunny blinked at him. “I wouldn’t blame them if they didn’t.” The words were so callous, so matter-of-fact, but something panged inside Kel’s chest all the same.

“Don’t say things like that Sunny. Aubrey and Hero—they’re your friends. They’ll understand. They just probably needed some time to—” He stopped—unsure of what he could say, what he should say to make Sunny feel better. He finally decided on a long sigh and “It’s… it’s a lot to take in.”

Sunny nodded. He probably knew that better than anyone, Kel thought, after all he and Basil had shouldered the horrible truth alone all these years. Kel’s insides coiled and twisted at the thought. Why…why didn’t they tell us? But he wouldn’t think about that now. No, he couldn’t think of that now, not since Aubrey had quietly excused herself and Hero had muttered something about having to go to the bathroom and disappeared leaving Kel alone to pick up the pieces of a remorseful Sunny and a weepy Basil. He couldn’t bring himself to leave them alone—not when they needed him, but he didn’t mind it at all—that’s what friends were for, and truthfully, he was kind of grateful to have something tangible to do—anything to distract himself from that pain, that hurt and frustration gnawing at the pit of his stomach, prickling in the hollow spaces of his heart. He liked getting to play Mr. Fix-It for his friends’ problems—getting to be useful and helpful. He just wished he was better at it, so he wouldn’t have to watch helplessly as his friends suffered with a pain he couldn’t even begin to understand. He wouldn’t have to watch helplessly as the world crumbled…again.

Despite his vow he wouldn’t rest until his friends were all feeling okay again, having the resolve to fix a problem and actually knowing what to do, were two totally separate things. Kel should have known that by now.

Still, he stubbornly fumbled his way through reassurances and somewhat awkward pats on the back until Basil had finally calmed down and fallen asleep from emotional exhaustion. Sunny was trickier—harder to read and better at hiding his emotions. Kel could only prattle to fill the heavy silence—try his best to reassure Sunny everything was going to be alright, but even he could admit that the words felt cheap and empty.

It was times like these that he really missed Mari. She was so comforting, so reassuring. Kel had no doubt in his mind that she would know exactly what to say if she was here. But then again, if she was here this wouldn’t have been a problem in the first place.

Kel sighed. All he could do now was help Sunny back into his hospital bed—making sure he got enough rest and took care of himself. He wracked his brain for anything he could say that would make him feel better, but it was empty.

“Even if they’re upset right now, I don’t think it’s at you. I mean, Hero blamed himself for Mari’s death for such a long time, I’m sure he understands that…” Kel stopped. “And Aubrey’s just…mad at everything and everybody all the time. I don’t think it’s personal.”

Sunny nodded again, followed by a long, heavy pause and an extremely quiet, “And you?”

Kel swallowed hard. Something panged in his chest. His shoulders stiffened before he let out a light, awkward chuckle and waved his hand. “Oh, you don’t have to worry about me, Sunny. I just want you to feel better, okay? I know that’s what Hero and Aubrey want too. They just have some personal stuff to work through, too, but—” He stopped abruptly—thankful for the faint knock on the door that gave him reason to stop tripping over his words and, probably, making everything worse. A very sheepish Hero hovered almost awkwardly in the doorway.

“Sorry for interrupting. Can I come in?” he asked in a voice that was almost as quiet as Sunny’s. Sunny nodded and Hero shuffled his feet across the floor tiles—walking slowly, carefully to Sunny’s bedside.

“Are you okay?” asked Kel, and Hero nodded with the twitch of as reassuring a smile as he could probably muster.

“Yeah,” he said but his eyes were bloodshot red like he had been crying, and Kel figured he probably had been—he just hadn’t wanted anyone else to see. “How are you, Kel?”

Kel hummed and nodded, parroting the words “I’m fine” without a second thought. There was something so automatic about his response that he hadn’t even really considered the question.

Hero offered him a nod before turning to Sunny and asking him the same question only to be met with a slight shrug and another long, heavy pause.

Kel racked his brain for something—anything—to say. Maybe something else about vending machines? But Sunny’s quiet voice finally cut through the silence. “Hero…I’m sorry.”

Kel watched as tears caught in his brother’s long eyelashes. Hero sniffled—wiping the corner of his eyes on his sleeve, before he pulled Sunny into a tight hug. “I’m so sorry,” his voice hitched with a shaky inhale of breath. “I’m so sorry.” Sunny’s rigid arms relaxed and wrapped around Hero’s back as he continued, “It’s not your fault. I know that it feels like it is. Believe me, I kn—” Hero paused, cut off by a sorrowful, garbled sound from the back of his throat. “But it isn’t. What happened to Mari was a tragedy, a tragic accident. I know you would never want to hurt her, and no matter what happened, she wouldn’t want you to blame yourself.”  

Kel could hear Sunny sniffle as he burrowed his face into Hero’s shoulder. He couldn’t be sure if he was crying. He supposed it was probably none of his business. With a sigh, Kel tilted his head almost in disbelief. Hero sorted out his own feelings, then swooped in with the save, as usual. He always knew what to do, what to say. If anything Kel was almost in awe of that. Whereas he had fumbled around awkwardly for what had felt like ages trying his best to cheer his friends up but probably making everything worse, it had taken Hero all of two minutes to say the perfect thing—now he and Sunny were hugging and crying, and Kel could only watch—fidgeting in place and feeling sorely inadequate, wanting to help but being unsure of what to do besides pass Sunny off to his brother’s very capable counsel and support.

“I’m…I’m gonna go get something to eat. I’ll be right back…” he mumbled, fidgeting with his hands and shifting his weight from one leg to the other. “Do you want anything?”

Sunny shook his head as Hero turned to look at him with teary eyes, “Oh, um…no thank you, Kel.” There was something in his face that said, ‘you don’t have to go,’ but Kel just shrugged. They didn’t have much use for him here. Sunny was in capable hands now, and he was grateful for that.

“I’ll probably just pick up a granola bar and a coffee—Orange Joe if they have it somewhere—it’s been a long night.”

“Aubrey said she was going to get food,” said Sunny so quietly Kel almost didn’t hear him. He tried to muster the most reassuring smile he could.

“That’s right. She’s probably still down in the cafeteria or something. I’ll check in on her and make sure she’s okay for you, how about that?”

Something sad passed across Hero’s face just then, and Kel knew he was thinking the same thing: there was no way Aubrey was in that cafeteria. They’d be lucky if she was still in Faraway Town, hiding out somewhere. Kel shrugged his shoulders and his mouth twitched in the corners to reassure Hero he’d try his best to find her and bring her back here. He was probably the last person she wanted to see right now, but at least this gave him something to do to make himself useful.

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The hospital hallway was eerily quiet when Kel stepped out into it. He could hear someone over at the nurse’s station shuffling papers, and he tried to focus on that rather than sitting alone with his thoughts as he made his way down to the cafeteria. Even if Aubrey wasn’t there, he was still hungry and figured it would be better to look for her after he had had something to eat. He made a quick detour by Basil’s room and peeked through the door with a quick wave to Polly and a relieved smile finding Basil still fast asleep. Kel couldn’t imagine how much he needed that rest after everything that had had happened. If Kel was being honest, he could probably use a nap himself, but he would have to settle for some caffeine to keep him awake for the next couple of hours.

He took the elevator down to the basement—humming to himself, listing off places that Aubrey could be, and thinking about what kind of food he was hoping to get. When the doors opened and the hospital cafeteria smell wafted into the elevator, however, his stomach churned. That granola bar was sounding better and better.

Squish clip. The strange sound pulled Kel out of his thoughts. Squeak clop. His brow furrowed as he tried to place that oddly familiar sound echoing across the corridor. Squeak clip. Squish clop.

A little girl appeared pulling an older woman by the hand towards the elevator. Squish clip. Squeak clop. Her little purple rainboots were making the squeaking sound as she skipped down the hallway. Kel swallowed hard as something twisted in his chest. Mari. A long, long time ago, Mari had had little purple rainboots like that. They had made the same sound as they squeaked and squished across the tiles of their kitchen floor when she had rushed over to excitedly show them off to him and Hero. Kel remembered that it had been him who had suggested they all go jump in puddles together on the street and sidewalk outside their houses so that Mari could try out her new boots. Hero hadn’t been too sure about it—he was always worried about her slipping and falling when it was slick out on account of her bad knee, but since Mari loved the idea, it only took a few words of coaxing and encouragement from her to get Hero on board for it. A bittersweet smile tugged at Kel’s mouth as he waved at the lady and the girl in the rainboots as they passed him to board the elevator, and Kel glanced out the nearby glass doors to get a good look outside. It was cloudy and a little overcast. Maybe it had been raining a little earlier or maybe it would rain later or maybe that little girl just loved her rainboots so much she wanted to wear them everywhere. Maybe she was hoping for a rainy day. Mari had told him once that she sometimes hoped for rainy days—to make the flowers grow, she always insisted, and because rainy days can help a person really appreciate the sunny ones. She always said that the sun shined brighter after a rainy day. Kel’s chest panged. That was why she had loved them.

Kel stopped—his breath getting caught in that ache in his chest. He would give anything to have just one more rainy day with her—to jump in one more puddle together, to hear the squeaking of her rainboots across the tile floor. His hands curled into fists as his eyes burned. Mari… Is it…is it really true? What Sunny said about how you died…?

Kel pushed the thought away as best he could, but it lingered, gnawing at the back of his mind. When she had died, he had thought about her love of rainy days—wondering if she liked them because they were kind of sad, just like she was. Wondering if everything inside her was so dark and so stormy, with no jumping in puddles or drawing melting pictures with chalk on the wet pavement or jousting with umbrellas to brighten things up. He just hadn’t known how much she was hurting until it was too late, none of them had, and now—he took a shaky breath—now he didn’t know what to think.

It hadn’t rained the day she died. It hadn’t rained the day she had been buried either. But it had rained the first time he had visited her grave on his own, and the next and the next. Whenever it rained he could almost hear her teasing him that rainy days love company so she was glad that she got to spend her rainy days with him and Hero and their friends, and Kel couldn’t stand the idea of her having to spend all of their remaining rainy days alone.

He used to go on stormy walks in his rainboots, but he didn’t jump in puddles anymore. He used to sit under his umbrella, talking to her for hours about anything that popped into his head.

Mari, I got a C+ on my science test. I asked my mom to hang it up on the refrigerator. She says she will when I get a B-.  

Mari, Hector learned a new trick this week. He can play dead, but I think he might have just wanted to take a nap.

Mari, my basketball team won our game today. I scored the winning shot from the three point line. My coach says I’m a natural and if I get any taller, I’ll go straight to Varsity when I start playing in high school.

Mari, I haven’t seen Sunny in a while. I hope he’s okay. Aubrey dyed her hair pink recently. Did you know? It looks pretty cool, but she’s hanging out with a bunch of hooligans now. I tried to ask Basil about it, but I think he’s been avoiding me or maybe he’s just busy with his garden.

Mari, I’m sorry that Hero hasn’t been to visit you. I think it makes him too sad. I’m starting to worry about him. I can hear him crying himself to sleep when he thinks I’m not listening, and he looks miserable all the time. I’m afraid he’s never going to smile again.

He had felt so stormy himself then. He may not have been as close to her as some of the others, but he still cared about her and still missed her, especially on rainy days. The last time he had visited her grave by himself had also been on a stormy day—dreary, damp, and overcast, exactly like Mari would’ve liked. He had forgotten his umbrella, but it didn’t matter.

Mari, sorry it’s been a while. I’ve been really busy with basketball. It’s been good and I have lots of new friends from the team, but I… it makes me miss my old friends sometimes too. I tried to keep everybody together for you, Mari, but I guess I just couldn’t do it. Sunny hasn’t left his house in years—I try to visit and to call him but he won’t talk to me. Neither will Basil. Aubrey’s a delinquent now and hates everyone, especially me, and Hero is so sad I don’t think he even remembers how to be happy. Without you, it feels like the whole world is falling apart—like you were the one holding it up. How’d you do it, Mari? How’d you hold up the world?

He had never gotten an answer to that question, and up until this week when he had gone to the cemetery with Sunny, he hadn’t been back to visit her. He told himself that he had to move on, that he couldn’t bear to sit in that sadness, in that hurt, any longer, and that Mari wouldn’t want him to. He said his goodbyes to her that day assuring her that he had made his peace with what happened, found healing and acceptance or whatever, and was trying his best to move forward, thinking it didn’t help anything to dwell in the past so he couldn’t come visit her anymore. And all of that was true, but there was always this sinking feeling in the back of his mind that maybe he was just ashamed to visit—ashamed that he couldn’t hold up the world like she could, that he couldn’t do anything to help the people he cared about most, that he couldn’t keep them together—that he couldn’t keep them together for her...

Kel’s chest tightened, but he took a long deep breath, shaking his head as if he could somehow shake his thoughts away with it. He decided he needed some air and headed outside through the nearby glass doors.

It wasn’t much of a garden—just some outdoor tables and chairs and some benches nestled in some nearby flowerbeds, but it was nice enough for a hospital. Basil would have liked it and could have probably told him the names of every flower and plant in it. Maybe he’d try to get a picture to show him when he woke up. As he fumbled around in his pocket for his phone, he caught sight of a long wave of pink hair.

No, he thought. Couldn’t be. Surely Aubrey was miles away by now. But there was no mistake—even with her back to him, he’d know that pink hair and blue headband anywhere.  

Curiously he approached her with a cautious, “Hey…Aubrey…?”

She tensed as she whipped around to face him, and she frowned, almost glaring at him though her puffy red eyes and the tracks of her tears on her face were evidence enough that she was far more hurt than angry. Something panged in Kel’s chest. Seeing a friend cry had to be one of the worst things in the world, but knowing there was nothing that could make them happy again was even worse.

“Aubrey are you—?” he began, reaching out his hand to her, but she turned away from him abruptly, swiping at her face. He stopped and changed directions. “You’re still here…”

She shrugged her shoulders but wouldn’t look at him. “So?”

“So I thought you left already.”

She huffed, and Kel was sure she was about to start arguing with him, but she just sighed. “I thought about it, but I didn’t want to go too far in case something happened…And then I ran into these…”—Aubrey motioned the cluster of flowers to the side of the bench she was sitting on—“It’s like Mari didn’t want me to go.”

Ignoring the ache in his chest, Kel tilted his head. “What are they?” he asked though he could probably guess the answer.

“Lilies…her favorite.”

Kel swallowed hard, but he pushed his feelings aside. He changed the subject. “Basil would probably tell us lots of fun facts about them if he was here. He knows a lot about all kinds of flowers.” He paused. “Sunny and Basil are okay, by the way.”

“Good,” answered Aubrey though her voice was distant, detached.

“Hero is with Sunny right now—they’re having an important talk or at least they were went I left them, and Basil finally fell asleep. Then I came to look for you.”

Aubrey huffed and jerked away from him abruptly, crossing her arms. “Why? What do you want, Kel?”

The question caught him off guard. He wasn’t sure he had an answer to it. “Well…uh…Sunny was worried…”

“Are you here to tell me off?” Her whole body seemed to tense up almost defensively. There was vitriol behind her words, but it was cold, icy not the usual fire he had come to expect of the girl who picked a fight with him with a nail bat. It threw him off guard. He almost wished she’d just yell. “Tell me I’m an ass for being so angry and for leaving when everyone needed me?”

“I wasn’t going to—”

“Save it,” she interrupted with a bitter scoff. “It’s what you’re thinking isn’t it?”

Kel sighed. He wasn’t sure what to think anymore.

“Just leave me alone, Kel,” she snapped though her voice sounded tired and weary.

Kel’s brow furrowed. He wasn’t sure what he was expecting—perhaps a little more of Aubrey the hotblooded hooligan and less of this bitingly icy, seething anger. Kel’s insides twisted, she seemed so…wounded.

He sighed, pushing the thought away. Regardless, she was still Aubrey so she was probably still ticked off.

“Look I know I’m the last person you want to see right now, but—”

“You’re right. You are the last person I want to see right now.”

Kel frowned. “Aubrey, however angry you are at me right now…we can work that out later. Right now, Sunny is worried about you, and it would mean a lot to him if you’d come back in.”

“This has nothing to do with you, Kel.”

“Okay…” he stumbled. “Then come back inside with me and—”

“You don’t understand,” Aubrey huffed in a weary, exasperation. “I’m not like you. I care about Sunny and Basil, but I just…I can’t stop myself from feeling angry. And maybe that makes me a bad person, I don’t know, but if I go back in there, I know I’ll just say something I’ll regret later. It’s better for everyone if I just stay away for a while—especially from Sunny.”

“Are you…are you angry at Sunny?”

“I don’t know how I feel. It’s complicated.”

Something twisted inside of Kel, and his heart pounded. “You can’t just take this out on Sunny,” he interjected, far more forcefully than he intended, but thinking of that sorrowful look on Sunny’s face—the pain behind his eyes when he had said he wouldn’t blame them if they never came back… the words stared tumbling out of his mouth without a second thought though if Kel was being perfectly honest, he wasn’t sure if the message was entirely for Aubrey. “It’s not his fault. It was an accident. He doesn’t deserve it—especially since it probably took everything he had to finally tell us the truth!”

“Don’t you think I know that?” snapped Aubrey standing up from her seat. “What do you think I was just going to lash out at him—yell in his face or something when he’s already so broken? You think I’m capable of something that heartless?”

“I don’t know what you’re capable of, Aubrey. You picked a fight with us in a church with a nail bat and pushed Basil into a lake,” he spat blunt, thoughtless words back at her, the emotional temperature palpably rising. “You’re so busy being angry at everything and everybody that maybe you just don’t give a damn about your friends anymore.”

A mix of something pained and indignant passed across Aubrey’s face. Tears welled up in her eyes, and Kel wished he could shove his words back into his mouth so she wouldn’t look so broken. “Fine. I’m the asshole who gets mad at her friends for things that aren’t even their fault. Is that what you want to hear, Kel? You want an award for being a better person than me? For always forgiving your friends, for never getting angry or upset? For moving on from Mari’s death right away? Well congratulations: everything’s always peachy in Kel World”—her words dripped with a biting sarcasm— “But maybe if you weren’t so shallow, it wouldn’t be.”  

The words cut through Kel. She might as well have just smacked him. It probably would have hurt less. “Is that really what you think about me?” he asked in stunned disbelief. “That I’m not upset—that I never get upset? You think I’m not confused and hurt and frustrated by all this?” His heart pounded—indignant frustration rising in his chest. “Just because my feelings aren’t as deep as yours, doesn’t mean I don’t have them. I just happen to think my friends are more important than my feelings.” The words were far more forceful than he had been intending.

“It’s not that simple Kel. You want to make blanket statements like friends will always win out over feelings, but it doesn’t always work like that. Sunny and Basil are our friends, but Mari was our friend too and I cared about her—I miss her.” Aubrey threw up her hands in frustration, her face twisting as if she was trying to will herself not to start crying in front of him. “I don’t know how to process the fact that her death was avoidable and that our friends lied to us about the truth for years. Even if I understand why they did it, I still feel hurt—feel angry about the whole thing. And yeah maybe that makes me a jerk, but it’s just the way it is. I can’t just pretend like everything’s fine like you. I don’t understand how you can stand there and act like there’s nothing wrong here!”

She stood up to her full height and glared up at him. He hadn’t really realized how much taller he was than her until she marched over squarely in front of him, glowering up at his face—over a head taller than her. Kel fidgeted. He could tell she was furious—seething with frustration, but he couldn’t stop looking at her eyes and the deep, stormy sadness in them. She was more hurt than angry. There was no doubt about that, and the tears that caught in the corners of her eyes and in between her eyelashes made his chest tighten. He jerked away from her—focusing instead on her gritted teeth and her clenched fists and begging himself to ignore that feeling of helplessness creeping into the hollow spaces of his chest, gnawing at his brain to think of something, anything that would make this all end.

“What do you want from me, Aubrey? Do you want me to say that this whole situation is sucky? Because it is—it’s sucky! I just don’t see the point in sitting around and stewing over how awful everything is—just sitting here in that sadness. And yeah, okay, maybe that makes me shallow, but at least it doesn’t make me selfish.”

The words tumbled out of his mouth before he could stop them. As his hands began to tremble, he could feel the anger welling up inside his aching chest and boiling over. He had no choice but to continue. “When Mari died, someone had to keep their shit together. Sunny wouldn’t leave his house. Basil’s anxiety destroyed him. You started terrorizing the neighborhood, and Hero cried so much I could have sworn he was never going to smile again. So that left me—and yeah, maybe I don’t feel as deeply as you guys. I missed Mari and I was sad, but I worked through that on my own and tried my best to keep it together, to keep everything and everybody together just like Mari used to do.” He paused inhaling sharply, his voice wavering. “I just wanted to keep everyone together for her, but I couldn’t—I wasn’t…”

His words got garbled and jumbled as his voice hitched, and his chest tightened. He found it difficult to breathe. He had been so close, so close to bringing everyone back together only for everything to fall apart again. How’d you do it, Mari? How’d you hold up the world?

“I’m not Mari,” he admitted in a shaky voice that almost didn’t sound like his. “She could hold up the world. Without her everything just crumbled and went to hell, and no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t...I just wasn’t strong enough to...”—he swallowed hard—“I couldn’t save her. Couldn’t save Basil and Sunny from suffering and carrying this horrible secret alone. Couldn’t save you from becoming a hoodlum. Couldn’t save Hero from blaming himself for everything. Couldn’t save our friendship from completely falling apart. And now…to know that it was all some tragic accident—that so much of that pain and suffering could have been avoided—” He stopped abruptly, his face wrinkling and his stomach coiling as he tried his best to will back the frustrated, helpless tears he felt prickling behind his eyes. He clinched his fist. “Yeah, I’m frustrated,” he admitted, but quickly added, “but not at Basil and not at Sunny…at the situation. At the fact that this all happened the way it did, when it never had to. I’m upset that Mari had to die. That Hero cried himself to sleep every night for months thinking it was all his fault. That Sunny and Basil had to shoulder the truth alone—that they felt like they couldn’t tell us. That you’re sitting here crying in the hospital garden right now. That you’re hurting—that Hero’s hurting, and Sunny and Basil are hurting, and there’s nothing I can do to help. But you know what, Aubrey, mostly I’m just mad at myself because I’m just useless. I can’t even keep us all together. I couldn’t make us stay friends. I couldn’t…I can’t do anything to stop the world from falling apart. I can’t hold up the world!”

Kel’s eyes burned. His throat grew suddenly dry and parched. He choked on the words he desperately wanted to say. Mari, I’m sorry…I just couldn’t do it without you.

Instead, he snapped as his vision grew blurry and his voice cracked, “Is that what you want to hear, Aubrey? Does that make you feel better? You’re not the worst one here.”

Aubrey just blinked at him, tears pooling in her eyes. She bit her lip, and Kel was sure she was about to yell at him, tell him to shove it and storm off. As she practically lunged forward, he braced himself for the worst, but she wrapped her arms around his shoulders, buried her face in his chest and started to cry. He would be the first to admit that it stunned him much more than if she had just picked a fight with him.

“Uh…uh…” he stammered as he stumbled backward in surprised. “Aubrey…what are you…?”

She stiffened and started to pull away. “Sorry. Do you not want me to…?” Her voice trailed, and Kel cut her off wrapping his arm around her and pulling her back into their hug.

“No, I…I was just surprised is all…” he answered as she pressed her chin to his shoulder. “Just…why…are you…?”

“You’re not the only one who doesn’t like it when their friends cry, you know?”

Kel paused, and his brow furrowed. Cry? He reached up his hand and felt the tear which had finally struggled free from his left eye. He cursed under his breath.

“Sorry about that, Aubrey,” he stumbled apologetically as his cheeks burned. “I didn’t mean to dump on you like that or make this about me…We can just forget about the whole thing…”

“No, I’m sorry. I was being unfair to you.” She sighed with a slight tilt of her head as she pulled away to meet his eyes. Her eyes were so teary and bloodshot that his chest ached and twisted, so he really had made things worse. He was about to apologize again, but she cut him off, “Honestly, I’m actually really glad you told me. It’s nice to know that you’re human.” Her mouth twitched into a bittersweet smile.

“Yeah,” he teased with a shaky chuckle. “I’m just like you.”

Aubrey chuckled lightly, but she shook her head. “You’ve always been better than me, Kel. You never gave up on us—even when we gave up on ourselves, and you brought us all back together again. That’s something only you could do…”

“You…you really think so?” he asked, his cheeks growing suddenly warm. Aubrey nodded.

“It’s pretty amazing that anyone was able to do it,” she quipped before her face softened. “And look, I know it’s probably not my place to say, but I don’t think Mari would want you to try to be anything but Kel. She wouldn’t want you to try to be her—just like she wouldn’t want Basil or Sunny to blame themselves for what happened. And I think she’d be really grateful because thanks to you Sunny and Basil were able to finally tell us the truth and they won’t have to carry that alone anymore, and you…” she shuffled her feet and stared off over his shoulder. “Mari wouldn’t want you to carry anything alone anymore either, so…if you ever want to talk...”

Kel let out a long deep breath and sheepishly scratched the back of his neck. “I don’t know, Aubrey. I think I’d rather just stick to the positive stuff. I feel kind of guilty dumping all that negativity on someone else.”

“It can be…hard to keep all that bottled up inside sometimes though…” Aubrey fidgeted, staring at the ground. “And I’m the last person who will ever judge you for feeling angry or upset…so if you ever…” Her voice trailed, but she added hurriedly, with a dismissive shrug of her shoulders. “I understand if you don’t want to talk to me though. I’m—”

“No, I…” His face softened. “That would be nice.” His mouth twitched into a smile. “But you’ve just…you’ve got to be patient with me. I’m new to all this talking about my bad feelings stuff or…talking about any of this feelings stuff, I guess,” he teased with a chuckle. A smile tugged at the corners of Aubrey’s mouth, and Kel grinned at her.

“I got you to smile again,” he declared triumphantly. “I’m glad.”

Aubrey blinked at him. “Are you about to tell me that this was all some elaborate ploy to make me happy again?”

“Heck no, I’m not smart enough for that,” he laughed. His smile widened when Aubrey joined in with a breathy chuckle of her own.

Without even thinking, he wrapped his arms around a very surprised Aubrey and pulled her into another tight hug. “Aubrey,” he murmured, the grateful words reverberating in his chest. “Thank you…”

He could feel Aubrey’s tense shoulders relax as she pressed her chin to his shoulder once again, and he could have sworn he heard her whisper, “You don’t have to hold up the world all by yourself…”  

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Epilogue:

“I’m sorry, Sunny, and I’m sorry, Basil. I’m back now,” said Aubrey apologetically as she walked over to Basil’s bedside and joined the group hug they were sharing with Hero.

“It’s okay,” insisted Basil, and Sunny nodded in agreement as they each wrapped an arm around her.

“You have nothing to apologize for.”

A smile twitched in the corners of Kel’s mouth as he heard Aubrey’s breath hitch—relieved and, dare he even hope, happy. She glanced over her shoulder with tears glistening in the corners of her eyes as she and Hero both motioned for Kel to join their group hug. He didn’t need to be asked twice.

“Alright! Group hug!” he exclaimed as he enthusiastically pulled his friends close. Shutting his eyes tightly, the warm glow of a smile beamed across his face, as he thought of his friends—together again at long last.

When he finally opened his eyes, he noticed a ray of sunlight peeking through the clouds and shining onto the tile floor of Basil’s room. Kel could have sworn he had never seen sunlight so bright. A bittersweet ache panged in his chest, but he smiled. Maybe Mari was right, and the sun really did shine brighter after a rainy day.

Kel’s expression softened as he wrapped his arms even more tightly around his friends’ shoulders with the knowledge that he would never, ever let them go again, and he felt the words like a warm glow in his heart, We did it, Mari…

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I know this is an ask game, but it’s more fun for me this way

1. Kel

2. Charlene, and a bit less seriously, Longsnout

3. Good Morning

4. Omori

5. The one where Sunny is crying, and Kel being happy

6. Unless the truth/Memory Lane count, I don’t really know.

7. Black Forest 2 (Shattered glass Omori and Longsnout, my beloveds)

8. The treehouse or the cemetery

9. Faraway, because angst and Kel

10. Suntan, Cactiflower, Kelbrey, in that order

11. Kel and Sunny

12. Sunny route, good ending. As much as I love angst, there’s something special about the proper ending.

13. Trans Charlene, Kel is actually sad sometimes, selectively mute Sunny

14. Boss fight to secret ending

15. When I saw the Faraway photo album for the first time, I cried. For an hour. The first time I had cried from anything other than a panic attack in almost a year.

16. Having done a low exp challenge run, I’m a big fan of the rubber band and big rubber band

17. Also Omori

18. Am I allowed to say all the controversy? If not, beating Humphrey at level 17 took twenty minutes.

19. The controversy, and the lack of character building for Hero and Kel.

20. I wish the graveyard scene with Kel wasn’t missable.

21. See above

22. Crying for an hour. I would say it broke me, but that’s not quite right. It let me believe a better ending was possible for myself, I suppose.

23. Horror.

24. “Do you want to jump?”, the Basil dies ending, the Basil fight, and the jumpscare at the start of blackspace.

25. Basil dies ending

26. The Omori? shirt, A Home For Flowers sweater, disc set, Faraway album, and this keychain by LuvlyArtCharms on Etsy

27. I think I touched on part of it in 22, but it also managed to increase my confidence online, and get me into some new hobbies. Speaking of…

28. Writing, and to a much lesser extent, drawing. It also reignited my interest in reading.

29. I’m terrible at defining relationships, but it definitely has. A long list of lovely people, who I won’t name here for brevity’s sake, and in case I’m misreading things

30. It hit at a time in my life where I really needed it, and has been stuck in my mind for almost ten months now.

31. Of course I high five Kel!

🔪 Omori Ask Game 🔪

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I originally posted this on my Twitter (@/voltrinity) and Instagram page (@/omori_omoreo) and I see it making rounds here. I don’t know why I never posted it here but here y’all go~

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See What It's Like To Be Loved (Kelbrey Fanfiction)

Description: Sunny's plans to propose to Cris prompt Aubrey and Kel to discuss the future of their own relationship.

Relationships: Established Relationship Kelbrey (Romantic Kel x Aubrey)-Centric, but Established Relationship Sunfish (Romantic Sunny/Cris) is also mentioned.

Characters: Aubrey (POV Character), Kel, and Sunny. (Cris, Hero, & Basil are mentioned).

Genre: Slice of Life, Romance, Established Relationship, Aged-Up Characters, Pre-Proposal, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Good Ending, Aubrey Has Family Issues and Abandonment Issues, Some Fluff, Declarations of Love, Some Angst But With A Happy Ending,

Word Count: 4,071

Rating: G

Warnings: Some Spoilers for OMORI! Implied/Referenced Canonical Character Death, and Implied/Referenced family issues & abandonment issues. Kissing.

Link to original post on AO3. Please do not repost to another website. All other interaction (likes, reblogs ect.) appreciated!

A/N: The title is a reference to a line in the song "Strawberry Sunscreen" (YouTube) by Lostboycrow (which is on my Kelbrey playlist 😉).

Story below the cut. Thank you so much for reading! 💕

“It’s beautiful, Sunny,” sighed Aubrey with a kind smile as she stared down at the ring glistening in the small velvet box Sunny had set on the table in front of her and Kel. She blinked at it in shock and surprise that she tried her best to hide. When Sunny had asked if he could get their opinion on something before he headed out for the evening, she had not been expecting him to pull an engagement ring out of his pocket. After all, Sunny and Cris had started dating almost a year after she and Kel had, and they certainly weren’t engaged yet. She supposed every couple took things at their own pace, but since Sunny was usually so shy about his relationship, she had, albeit wrongfully, assumed he and Cris were taking things very slow.

Kel, it seemed, had not made this assumption, however, as he enthusiastically exclaimed, “Congratulations! This is great!” and quickly pulled Sunny into a tight hug and gave him a congratulatory pat on the back with not even a hint of shock or surprise.

With a curious tilt of her head, Aubrey wondered if Sunny had given Kel more of a heads up about his plans to propose. It was difficult to imagine since Sunny didn’t talk much to begin with and, as far as Aubrey knew, was usually very shy about his relationship, and even if he wasn’t, Kel had assured Aubrey multiple times that they never really discussed their love lives with each other. She wouldn’t have minded if they did, as long as Kel didn’t share anything too personal or private about her. Seeing as they were all mutual friends, it would be awkward both for them and for Sunny if he was privy to a lot of intimate details about their relationship, and to be fair, she didn’t feel it was her or Kel’s place to know a lot of intimate details about Sunny relationship either, even if, at least according to Sunny, Kel had, supposedly, set him up with Cris in the first place. The details were all a little fuzzy since Kel swore he hadn’t been setting them up on purpose and didn’t even know that’s what he had been doing, but Sunny was very insistent and very grateful that Kel had played a formative role in their relationship. Aubrey shrugged. Maybe he had involved Kel in proposal plans, if only for that reason. Still...Aubrey had to admit it was surprising that he was showing off the ring to them.

Sunny’s mouth twitched in the corners as the lightest tint of pink flushed in his pale cheeks, but he managed a nod at both her and Kel in turn and a quiet, “Thank you.”

“Cris is going to love it!” added Kel practically beaming at them.

Thoughtfully, Sunny pursed his lips together, but it seemed he couldn’t hold back his smile. Aubrey’s expression softened. It was nice to see him so happy.

“I hope so…” he said.

“Of course she is,” reassured Kel, draping an arm around Sunny’s shoulders. “I mean it looks like a seashell—it’s perfect!”

Aubrey’s jaw fell a bit slack as she tilted her head at the ring again. She hadn’t realized it before, but now that Kel had mentioned it, she could see that the jewels were cut and arranged in such a way that actually did look like a seashell—a gold and diamond seashell with a beautiful pearl in the center. Wow, thought Aubrey. It must have cost Sunny a small fortune, and where would he even find a ring like that? Did he have it custom made?

“I went to that place you told me about,” said Sunny turning to Kel who just smiled. Aubrey blinked at them. Wait…what?  

“Ah, cool! I’m glad it worked out.”

“Hold on,” Aubrey interrupted. “You told Sunny about a jewelry store?”

Kel shrugged with a laugh. “Hey, don’t look so surprised. You don’t know what I do in my free time,” he teased shooting her a wide, toothy grin, but Sunny’s eyebrows twitched and the blush in his face deepened. Aubrey’s brow furrowed, and she swallowed hard. Oh no. No. There was no way…

Aubrey took a couple of deep breaths to calm herself down. If this really was what she thought, that would mean Kel had ordered his ring before Sunny, and there was no way that Kel would have been able to keep that a secret for so long. He would have told her or at least given some indication that he was planning to propose to her…right?

“You okay?” asked Kel with a concerned tilt of his head. “You’re looking kind of pale. You need to sit down or something? I can get you some water…”

“Uh, no,” she stumbled over her words, rubbing her hand across her forehead. “No. It’s fine.”

“Are you sure? You don’t look fine.”

“Kel—” she began but stopped abruptly. She knew the answer to the question she wanted to ask as soon as she met his eyes. Her heart raced, but her insides coiled and twisted. She didn’t know how she felt—shocked, happy, worried, excited, terrified, overwhelmed…angry? No, that wasn’t right. That last one was unexpected, especially given how much she loved him. She was mostly just…scared. Her hands began to tremble, but she rose to her full height on shaking legs.

“Do you…have a ring?” The question just slipped out before she could stop it.

“Huh?” Kel’s eyes widened, and he blinked at her dumbfounded, before a sheepish smile tugged at his mouth and he rubbed his hand across the nape of his neck. “Oh…uh…well…”

“I’m sorry,” mumbled a particularly red Sunny who Aubrey was sorry to say she had completely forgotten about.

“No, it’s fine, Sunny,” Kel awkwardly reassured him before turning to her in confusion. “Aubrey, uh…” He stopped. “Do you really want to talk about this now?”

She took a shaky breath, and her face grew hot. “Right…Sorry, Sunny.”  

“It’s okay,” he replied, but he wouldn’t look at her. He added hurriedly, “I’m actually supposed to meet Cris.”

“Are you gonna propose tonight?” asked Kel, completely ignoring the tense atmosphere.

Sunny shrugged. “I dunno.” He stumbled around, awkwardly gathering his things, and Aubrey could have sworn she saw him glance over at her before he added, “I think I’ll ask if I can first.”

Aubrey cursed under her breath, then started to trip over her words. “Sunny…Cris loves you. If you want to propose you—” She stopped. “That’s not what…”

As her voice trailed off, Sunny just blinked at her then mumbled. “Okay.” He paused, and his expression was frustratingly unreadable. “Thanks. Bye.”  

“Sunny…” Aubrey called after him, but within moments he had darted out of the front door. With a heavy sigh, Aubrey buried her face in her hands and wondered if she had ever seen him run out of the house so quickly. She cursed under her breath again.

“It’s okay,” Kel reassured her gently running his hand across her back. “Sunny just hates conflict—almost as much as Hero,” he added with a chuckle. “We’ll just apologize to him later. It’ll be fine. Don’t worry.”

“I feel terrible,” she mumbled, mentally kicking herself at her outburst.

“You want that water?”

“That’s not what I meant…” Aubrey sighed, but Kel disappeared into the kitchen anyway. While she waited for him to return, she glanced over at the clock. Hero would probably be walking through the door any minute, and she had no idea where Basil was but he could be home soon too. Aubrey sighed again. They needed to save them from also being unwitting witnesses to this…personal discussion—an unfortunate side-effect of them being roommates with Kel, she supposed.

“Do you think we could talk outside?” she suggested, gesturing at the sliding doors to the deck Kel had built on the back of the house.

“Okay,” said Kel with a nod as he handed her a glass of water. “Do you want me to get it?”

Confusedly, Aubrey tilted her head. “Get what?”

“The ring.”

Her chest tightened, but she opened the sliding door and stepped out onto the deck. “You have it here?”

“Yeah, uh…Hero said I could keep it in his safety deposit box at the bank, but I dunno, I just didn’t feel right about that. I’ve been keeping it in my sock drawer,” he chuckled. “With my clean socks, of course.”

“How long have you had it?”

Kel shrugged then closed the sliding door behind him and took a seat next to her on the outdoor sofa. “A couple of months. I had to special order it, so it took a while to come in.”

“Were you going to tell me about it?”

“Eventually…” Kel teased, but his smile faded, replaced by a certain helplessness in his eyes that made her heart ache. “Are you unhappy?”

Aubrey sighed, then evaded the question. “I just thought we talked about this—decided it was too soon and we weren’t ready.”

“No,” he gently corrected. “You decided it was too soon and you weren’t ready, and I said that was okay and I can wait until you are…which is exactly what I said the time before that and the time before that and the time before that.” Kel stopped and let out a heavy sigh, before he tilted his head towards her and gently teased, “You can’t be surprised I want to marry you. I keep bringing it up.”

A smile twitched in the corners of Aubrey’s mouth, and she stifled a chuckle in spite of herself but sighed. “I just…I didn’t expect you to have a ring already. I thought we’d…talk about that before you actually bought one.”

“I’m sorry,” he sighed. “I just wanted to surprise you, and the last time we talked about it you said that you knew you wanted to marry me someday, so I guess I was just hoping it was someday soon. I wasn’t going to ask you until you told me you were ready… I just didn’t see the harm in having it for whenever that was.”

Aubrey supposed he had a point. It was very practical, but… “That’s just such a big step, Kel. I just don’t want to rush it.”

“Aubrey, we’ve been together for years now, and we’ve known each other most of our lives. I don’t know how we could possibly take things any slower,” he chuckled lightly, but his expression softened. “I think at this point you know me better than anybody else on this planet—maybe even better than I know myself. If after all of that, you still don’t know if you want to marry me, then what are we even doing?”

“Kel, I…” Her voice cracked. That wasn’t fair. “You know that I want to marry you eventually. I just…want make sure that we’re ready.”

“Yes, you keep saying that, but what do you mean by ‘ready’?” he asked with a long exhale and an almost helpless shrug of his shoulders. “I’m not sure anybody can be completely ready because it’s always going to be a little scary but mostly exciting. If you’re waiting to feel 100% sure, I’m just not sure that’s ever going to happen.”

“Kel, I don’t think you’re thinking this all the way through. It’s a big decision. It means forever.” Swallowing hard, Aubrey curled her trembling hands into fists. “I just want you to be sure about this—sure that you aren’t going to change your mind.”  

“I’m not going to change my mind. I already spent three months’ salary on that ring.”

Aubrey gasped. “Wait…you spent how much?”

“I read about it online,” shrugged Kel with far more nonchalance than Aubrey felt the situation warranted. “It’s a tradition.”

“Kel, you didn’t have to…” she began, but he cut her off.

“It’s really pretty. It doesn’t look like a seashell or anything, but I got it in rose gold so it’s pink—your favorite color, like your hair used to be.” He playfully ruffled his hand through her hair with a warm, affectionate smile. “You sure you don’t want to see it?”

“No, I…” Aubrey turned away from him, staring intently at her hands. “I wasn’t talking about the ring, Kel. I meant the marriage—our marriage. What if you wake up one day and realize you’ve made a huge mistake? And decide you don’t want to be married to me anymore?”

“Aubrey…” He pressed his palm to her cheek, tilting her head until she was looking up at him again. “I love you. I’m not going to change my mind about that.”

Her heart raced, but she clinched her hands into fists. She wanted to believe him. She wished she could, but… “Talk is cheap, Kel.”

He tilted his head at her in confusion, and before she could even think to stop them, the words began to race out of her mouth, “Sure it’s easy to say that now when things are good and you want to get married, but what about when things get hard? Have you even thought about that? It’s not always going to be like this—life is hard, Kel, and things will eventually get difficult. And when that happens, actually sticking around will be really hard, and it’ll just be easier to pack up your stuff and leave.” As her eyes burned, tears began to prickle behind them. “And those words—those ‘I love you’s—they can’t change that. They can’t stop someone from leaving. Believe me, if they could, my—” Her voice hitched, and she stopped abruptly. She had already said much more than she had meant to.

“Aubrey”—he said her name with such an aching sadness, a helplessness that made her chest pang—“Aubrey, please don’t cry.”

With a gasp, she held her hand up to her face, catching the tears which had somehow struggled free from her eyes. She hadn’t even realized she was crying. Sniffling, she resisted the urge to bury her face in her hands. It was by no means the first time she had cried in front of Kel, and she knew it wouldn’t be the last.

As Kel wrapped his arms around her, she pressed her chin to his shoulder and began to tremble, tightly closing her eyes, trying to will herself not to cry anymore. “I’m sorry,” he said, running a comforting hand through her hair. “I’m really sorry about your parents, but I’m not your dad. I’m not going anywhere.”

“He wasn’t the only one who left.”

Aubrey hadn’t realized she had said those words aloud until she felt Kel’s shoulders stiffen as his arms turned rigid, his hands recoiling from her. The pain that crossed over his stormy eyes as he pulled away from her made her insides twist—a lump forming in her throat. She wished she could shove her thoughtless words back into her mouth.

“Is that what this is about?” he asked, the hitch in his voice betraying that he was far more sad than angry. “You know how much I regret that—how sorry I am that I wasn’t there when you needed me. I was a stupid kid, Aubrey, trying to deal with things way too complicated for a kid to have to deal with. I never wanted to hurt you. I just felt so useless.”

His voice cracked, and he paused, catching his shaking breath before he said apologetically, “I know that’s not an excuse, and if I could do it all over again, I would do everything differently—not just with you but with Hero and Sunny and Basil too. But we don’t get that option, and I don’t think it’s fair for you to hold me to that one mistake, even if it was a big one.”

“Kel, I’m sorry. I’m not…” she began, but she didn’t even know what she was trying to say. She took a long deep breath then admitted, “That hurt me, but I’m not still angry about it. I mean, that time after Mari’s death was…” Something panged and twisted in her chest, even after all this time. She couldn’t find the words to describe it. There were some things in life that were too painful to name. “A really bad time for all of us. It definitely brought out the worst in me, and then after my dad left, I just…I started taking all that out on everybody else, including you, and I’m sorry about that too.”

“It’s okay. I have no hard feelings,” he reassured her, running his hand across her back again. “Things are different now. I’m different and so are you. That was all I was trying to say. We’re not going to make the same mistakes again—at least I know I’m not.”

“I don’t know, Kel…” sighed Aubrey, sniffling with burning eyes. “Sometimes I feel like that angry girl with a nail bat is still in me—still hating the world, pushing everybody away, and trying to protect herself before…” Her voice trailed, but the look in Kel’s eyes told her that she didn’t need to finish that sentence. She fidgeted in her seat, feeling suddenly exposed, vulnerable. Swallowing hard, she changed directions. “I just…I feel like if you knew that, if you really knew that, you wouldn’t want to marry me.”  

“That’s not true,” Kel insisted, but Aubrey sighed, tilting her head at him questioningly.

“You’re sure you want to marry a nail-bat girl?” she teased, but her voice hitched and wavered.

“You know I always kind of thought that nail bat thing was badass—even if you did hit me with it a couple of times.” He gave her a reassuring smile before he bantered with a teasing grin. “Wouldn’t it be funny if we got married in that church where we had that fight? Like you’re walking down the aisle, and it’s the same aisle where you—”

“Kel,” she interrupted with a pointed glare, but he merely shrugged as he watched the smile twitching in the corners of Aubrey’s mouth. He always did this—tried to make her laugh with they fought. She twisted her mouth to one side with a somewhat begrudging concession. It usually worked.

“Made you smile though,” he said before his expression softened, and he tilted his head towards her. “I think you’re looking at this the wrong way, Aubrey. Yeah, I mean, I know all about your nail-bat delinquent phase—I was there, so don’t you think that if I really wanted out, that would’ve been it? I mean, if I didn’t really love you, I’d just be like ‘yeah, this girl fought me in a church with a nail bat, so she’s probably not the one…’” he teased with a laugh, and Aubrey stifled a chuckle of her own in spite of herself.

“Would it kill you to take this seriously?” she bantered dryly.

“I am being serious,” he insisted with an expression that was so affectionate and so sincere, it brought a blush to her face. “I love you, Aubrey, and I’m not going anywhere and I’m not changing my mind. I’ve wanted to marry you since like our 5th date.” He laughed, but her brow furrowed. She couldn’t be entirely sure if he was joking or not.

“Our 5th date?” she repeated, quirking an eyebrow at him. “I don’t even think I remember our 5th date.”

Kel chuckled, but his face seemed to light up. “We went to the movies—I don’t remember which one, but afterwards we went for a quick walk in the park. You still had some of your soda left so you were finishing that off on our walk, and I made you laugh so hard that soda came out of your nose.”

Aubrey pressed her palm to her forehead and shook her head as her cheeks burned. “Oh, I remember that. It was so embarrassing.”

“No, it was adorable,” Kel insisted with a bright smile. “And I just remember thinking: ‘I want to make you laugh like that forever.’”

He paused—something ardent and wistful in his eyes. “It was just the first time I really thought about that—us being together forever. I didn’t dwell on it too much, but as time went on, I thought about it again and again, until finally I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.” Reaching out to her, he gently stroked his hand across her damp cheek, catching one of the lingering tears with his thumb. “And I do, Aubrey. I want to spend forever with you—want to settle down and have family, grow old together and someday when we’re both gray and wrinkly, I want to make you laugh so hard that prune juice comes out of your nose…”—he chuckled—“or whatever it is that old people drink. I’m sure we’ll figure it out.”

Aubrey laughed, and the words slipped out without her even needing to think about them. “I love you.”

His warm eyes lit up—beaming at her as he gently pushed a piece of hair out of her face, “I love you too, and I will love you forever. That’s why I want to get married. I want to promise you that, promise you that I’m not going anywhere, so we can start the rest of our life together. I know forever is a long time, but I’m not scared of it. Honestly, it really can’t come fast enough.”

“Kel…” She pressed her palm to his cheek, the tips of her fingers tangling in his hair.

“I don’t know what else I can say or do to convince you that I love you and that that isn’t ever going to change. I’m always going to be here—you’re probably going to get sick of me,” he joked with a bright grin before his face softened, something so ardent, so sincere in his eyes as they met hers. Aubrey’s breath caught in her throat. The way he looked at her… She didn’t know what it was that he saw. “At a certain point, you’re just going to have to trust me.”

He let out a breathy chuckle as Aubrey’s hand tangled in the hair on the back of his head. She pulled him towards her, watched as his eyes fluttered closed and he gently cupped her face in his hands. He leaned forward and kissed her, slow and gentle but longing. As her eyes closed, she sighed against his mouth—finally letting go of a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding.

When they broke apart from each other, Aubrey lingered mere inches from his face. “I do trust you, and I love you, Kel.”

She could feel the warmth of his breath as he laughed. “Enough to marry me?” he teased, and though she could feel the blush in her face, she pressed her palm to his cheek.

“Yes.��

He pulled away sharply, and his eyes widened. “Woah, seriously?” Aubrey’s blush deepened, but she shrugged her shoulders. “You want me to get that ring, now?”

“You really want to propose in your backyard?” she bantered.

Kel’s brow furrowed. “What’s wrong with that?”

“Usually it’s somewhere more…” She paused trying to think of that right word. “special.”

“Okay, princess,” he teased, rolling his eyes though there was something playful and affectionate in them. “What did you have in mind?”

“I don’t know…it would be nice if somebody could get a picture of it.”

“Basil, maybe?” hummed Kel. “But then we’d probably have to invite Sunny and Hero too so they wouldn’t feel left out, so we’d have to find some place that was big enough for them all to hide.”  

Her brow furrowed. “Why would they have to hide?”

“Because I want to surprise you.”

Aubrey laughed. “Good luck with that. I already know it’s coming.”

“Yeah, but you don’t know when. Now that you’ve given me the greenlight, I can propose whenever I want,” he bantered, but he beamed at her. “I won’t wait too long though, don’t worry.” He ruffled her hair before she laughed, and he wrapped his arm around her. She leaned her head on his shoulder watching the sun disappear below the trees at the edge of the yard.

“I’m not worried,” she said. And she wasn’t. Not anymore.

[opalescent-apples]

The trolls:

Aradia: She made it through Black space and somehow wasn't freaked out by the "friendsssss...." Scene (you know the one). She will find every door. She will not shut up about this game. She's a HeroMari stan.

Tavros: Kins Basil and has to have Gamzee and/or Aradia near him to finish the game during Black Space. He mostly wanted to quit over the bunny side quest. He really didn't want to kill them; he's with headspace Aubrey there. He makes Fiduspawn teams for everyone.

Sollux: Considers the game too easy, though the story hits home for him. He intends to mod Black Space to have actual bosses; Aradia and Feferi are cheering him on. He adds new phobia bosses.

Karkat: Rage quit the game on Sweetheart. Sollux makes fun of him for being bad at video games.

Nepeta: Like Roxy, she could not kill Mewo. Equius offered to step in before she figured it out. Later, she becomes the most prolific Baseball (kelbrey) shipper on ao3.

Kanaya: finishes the game with Rose. She prefers games with more customization or straightforward combat, though. She does appreciate Aubrey.

Terezi: almost quit in white space before getting into the pastel world. She appreciates the use of color in Omori, and has absolutely looped My Time before. She's pestering Karkat to finish the game so she and Dave can throw memes at him.

Vriska: Guys you don't understand. Aubrey is the best character to ever be written. She deserves the world. She deserves to hit people with that bat. She should commit more crimes with Kim, actually. Those stupid other characters should just leave her alone!!!!!!!! Ugh she's not a 8ad person this is not up for de88.

Equius: Nepeta made him play it, but he actually got scared of it (sorry it's hard to write this guy). He eventually told her to seek more dignified entertainment. She did not listen.

Gamzee: Plays it with Tavros. He wouldn't have figured whitespace out otherwise. He's a relatively casual fan of the game, but he relates to Sunny a little more than he admits.

Eridan: "Wwhat do you mean there isn't a route wwhere you kill everyone. Wwhat's the glubbin point then?" He puts down the game for more flarp.

Feferi: Got the hikkikomori route on the first try. She wanted to see where the colorful story went. She loves the underwater sections. Went back for the main route and cried up a storm. Reads Rose's obscure fanfiction about Tako.

How the Omori kids would read Homestuck

Sunny: Reads it more than once. Would have done it while not leaving the house. Relates to these kids on a "normal" level, especially the strilondes. Goes through a fanart phase. Would develop crushes on both Feferi and Vriska, somehow.

Aubrey: Straight up kins Vriska. Probably gets into arguments online. Vrisrezi shipper along with Kim. Tried to cosplay once. Kel would not stop mentioning the gray stains everywhere. Thinks Vriska is cool and not a failgirl actually. She is wrong.

Kel: Skipped the first few acts. Gets into the meme part of the fandom. He blasted Karkalicious for three hours once. He is the one who Aubrey is arguing with online. He thinks Dave is actually a cool kid, and really likes Egbert. His favorite troll is Karkat (he's so funny!), even though Karkat would hate him.

Hero: How does the internet work again? This is such a strange comic. Why is this child so ungrateful for cake? Is it a game? A puzzle? For the life of him he cannot figure this out. At least he doesn't have to read about the various spider people in the comic.

Mari: Aradia fan. Terezi fan. She gets into the memes with Kel. Who do you think he borrowed the speakers from to blast Karkalicious? She has multiple sets of cosplay glasses. Probably recommended Homestuck to Hero because of all the spiders.

Basil: Loves Tavros, Jade, and Nepeta. Has created an AU where everything is fine. He likes the carapacians and hates how people ignore them. Cosplayed with Aubrey once. Polly made him scrub out all the gray face paint stains.