#couldn't think of anything else to post bc I'm really upset rn

[lifelessbystolenbabies]

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Wait guys I'm like sobbing right now and like I'm feeling so sad and yesterday (or today? idk when we went back to school) was actually so ass and I hated all of it except for like when me and yera ran off to get food and took a while to come back, playing pool with andrew and parker like those moments made me happy but the rest of the day was just bad. I wish I knew why I had such intense mood swings. Oh lord I wasn't supposed to rant abt this. ANYWAYS yesterday (today?) was shitty so I had been feeling bad.

Someone wrote me a paragraph and then sent it (yk who you are) and like, genuinely thank you so much. Idk if you'll read it or show in any way or form that you read this but genuinely, thank you so much.

I didn't say much after you sent me it but I'm actually so grateful for it. I'm really upset rn and like trying not to do anything bad which is pretty hard if you haven't had to try to force yourself not to do something lolz. Anyways. I reread one of my other rants (is posted on here) and it made me remember the message you sent me, which I did add to my notes because I knew I would probably reread it and honestly it worked 🙏

Like idk I'm just so insanely grateful for you and the fact you wrote that. You don't understand how important that was and how it helped me. I like, really needed it at this moment and when you sent it and probably in the future too, so I'm just happy you were able to create that and send me it?

You offered hugs to me and I would ask for one if I wasn't a whimp and scared of asking for things I want but I just want to say thank you. I'm like sobbing lol, idk like I'm real emotional rn and that like made it worse but like with positive emotions and not the negative ones I had?

Idk if im making sense but I should also be asleep rn but I'm not which yikes. I'll probably send you this in dms so like ik for sure you read it bc I do want you to know that I love and care for you so much but I'm a bit awkward when like having to say it to you? Idk like I can say it but in the moment where you sent the paragraph I was just so overwhelmed with happiness that I couldn't do anything but cry and I wasn't able to tell you how grateful I was for it which like I dont think I even skimmed the surface of it with this but its just idk what I needed to say for now. Uhhh anyways thank you, I love you. Uhm I might send you a random paragraph thingies about how grateful I am because this doesnt really meet my standards but im too tired to care uhm what else uh yeah idk i might be scared bc i'm gonna worry you wont care about it but im really trying to get better at that so watch out.