#couldn't think of anything else to post bc I'm really upset rn

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[voidedaurora]

I just saw that Goatcatto made their stream on the situation public again, and one of their friends said it was because you implied that they were okay with children sexualising themselves (their own words) and that you were aggressive and dishonest during your conversation with them on Discord, did you knew about this or have you tried reaching out to them again?

THIS IS NOT ABOUT QUARTELZ

Oh trust me I'm aware of this, they pretty much threatened me when kicking me from a gc we had after I had a disagreement with them. Said disagreement was bc I boosted a post where someone had allegedly aged up a MINOR OC they had for Sexual/porn purposes and I obviously thought that was really gross and weird, they came at me ab how they disagreed with my take and hounded me for proof of that person I boosted actions, I did not make a callout on the person I replied/boosted, I simply went "hey this is really weird!" but despite this they hounded me for evidence I don't have and never claimed to have, coming down on me for the fact I'd made one opinionated post on my tumblr. Another part of the argument/disagreement was because they'd tried to convince me that I was like Idk, crazy? for thinking its wrong to age up characters for sexual purposes or use aged up characters for those period, they got really upset that I didn't have the same stance as them DESPITE the fact that my stance (that being: I don't think its morally right or correct for people to age up characters specifically to draw porn of them, or otherwise use previously ORIGINALLY child characters aged up forms for porn. I think its weird that people feel the need to make porn of a child character so bad that they age them up so they can, to me that's disgusting) and after a while of them arguing with me about it I'd gotten frustrated at them 1. trying to hound me for evidence I never had and never claimed to have (I never made a claim against the person I reposted/boosted) and 2. trying to change a like CORE moral belief I have that quite literally cannot be a bad thing, if anything It just makes me more careful than your average person. Anyway after getting frustrated I'd pointed out it makes them look really fuckin weird to be trying to defend all of this, at least to me, and they had started giving reasons why they COULDN'T possibly be weird (kyles was that they work with children and Goats was that this behavior is normal bc they drew porn of their 15 yr old oc but aged up when they were younger!) Yall can make your own conclusion on goat but this is exactly what they said ab that minor porn thing they drew (screenshot was actually used to try and go against ME on twitter by kyle, glad I have this bc they kicked me before I could get ANY screenshots)

Despite what they're saying, I was not dishonest about anything (though things could differ due to me interpreting it differently), and any rudeness was a result of them pushing me to that point with the way they spoke to me, when they don't agree with a take OR are trying to idk "interrogate" you about something they're very blunt, argumentative, and otherwise rude when talking. They take everything to the 100% , best example I can give rn is this 1. "that wall is a little blue"

Goat/Kyle: "Oh so you think that wall Is a deep blue? is that the bluest wall you've ever seen?" Obviously not the best example but I do not have access to the chats so I cannot grab an actual one unfortunately. At the end of our interaction it was either goat or Kyle that asked me smthn along the lines of "so you put an opinionated statement on your tumblr?" and I'd just replied "yes" and they both flipped tf out, going like "GOAT WE WERE RIGHT! both sides are hopeless!" calling me immature then telling goat to put their stream (where they did no prior research and didn't even know about my tumblr existing before despite it being a click n a half away, these people literally need to be spoonfed info or else they WONT look for it/have it period) as some sort of threat? and then kicked me :/ then Kyle vagueposted ab me on twitter and we had a short back n fourth where they tried to argue using the screenshot I provided. Anyway, just wanted to clear that up as best as I can since goat and kyle love their drama and do stuff like you mentioned, vaguelyshit-talking ppl that have differing opinions

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Wait guys I'm like sobbing right now and like I'm feeling so sad and yesterday (or today? idk when we went back to school) was actually so ass and I hated all of it except for like when me and yera ran off to get food and took a while to come back, playing pool with andrew and parker like those moments made me happy but the rest of the day was just bad. I wish I knew why I had such intense mood swings. Oh lord I wasn't supposed to rant abt this. ANYWAYS yesterday (today?) was shitty so I had been feeling bad.

Someone wrote me a paragraph and then sent it (yk who you are) and like, genuinely thank you so much. Idk if you'll read it or show in any way or form that you read this but genuinely, thank you so much.

I didn't say much after you sent me it but I'm actually so grateful for it. I'm really upset rn and like trying not to do anything bad which is pretty hard if you haven't had to try to force yourself not to do something lolz. Anyways. I reread one of my other rants (is posted on here) and it made me remember the message you sent me, which I did add to my notes because I knew I would probably reread it and honestly it worked 🙏

Like idk I'm just so insanely grateful for you and the fact you wrote that. You don't understand how important that was and how it helped me. I like, really needed it at this moment and when you sent it and probably in the future too, so I'm just happy you were able to create that and send me it?

You offered hugs to me and I would ask for one if I wasn't a whimp and scared of asking for things I want but I just want to say thank you. I'm like sobbing lol, idk like I'm real emotional rn and that like made it worse but like with positive emotions and not the negative ones I had?

Idk if im making sense but I should also be asleep rn but I'm not which yikes. I'll probably send you this in dms so like ik for sure you read it bc I do want you to know that I love and care for you so much but I'm a bit awkward when like having to say it to you? Idk like I can say it but in the moment where you sent the paragraph I was just so overwhelmed with happiness that I couldn't do anything but cry and I wasn't able to tell you how grateful I was for it which like I dont think I even skimmed the surface of it with this but its just idk what I needed to say for now. Uhhh anyways thank you, I love you. Uhm I might send you a random paragraph thingies about how grateful I am because this doesnt really meet my standards but im too tired to care uhm what else uh yeah idk i might be scared bc i'm gonna worry you wont care about it but im really trying to get better at that so watch out.