A good friend of mine told me that he knows my patience and faith are being tested these days, and he hopes I'm being kind to myself... that made me break down like a motherless child. It was so nice to feel seen and understood in that moment... something I haven't had the privilege of experiencing lately. Empathy and commiseration are more than well received on my end these days...
There's this girl that I've been social media friends with for the past 10+ years and I have the biggest crush on her. She's so fucking beautiful. She has such an amazing fashion sense. She's charming and feminine. And her sense of humor is on the same frequency as mine...We've been more actively speaking with each other over the past few months and her reaction to me is more inviting and receptive than someone who is simply being polite...I know for a fact she's interested in me on some level. But she has a man who she barely even mentions and doesn't seem to have the same fiery passion for these days. I'm not the type of person to press the issue on some homewrecker type shit but I can't front... I think about her all the time and I haven't been into someone on this level in quite some time... I'm super self Aware and usually great at reading the room when it comes to these situations...but I can't help but wonder how she genuinely feels about me... am I on point with my assessment or am I being delusional???
Feeling super burned out and overwhelmed today... I wish there was some sort of support group for children of people with alzheimer's... don't get me wrong, I'm honored to be taking care of my mom during this unfortunate time in her life but I desperately need a recharge and it sucks because I really don't have any help...