#congrats yumi on immediately getting to the next round ig . . .

[imperfectnothing]

PRIVATE LOG

From: Dante (#291341)

To "Sirius" (@shenenenigans)

I'd give my body to be back again in the rest of the room (to be alone with you)

My dear Sirius,

In case you ever return to this place, I am leaving this here for you. I know you aren't truly dead, no matter what anyone else says. Noct gathered what remained for your body, save for the few flowers I could retrieve before he arrived, and I believe they are set to have your body incinerated, as per tradition. They are stunning but thn again, every part of you has always been extraordinary. I believe they are plum blossoms, or perhaps, cherry, which would be fitting, considering the inherent transience of life and the way you dissolved into nothing between my very fingers.

While everyone else thought it was just part of a costume, you and I both knew the truth. The buds and vines creeping through your skin, pushing up through the pores, blooming in their bloody beauty, they were tearing you apart with every breath you take. They feed off of your body and the longer and longer we danced like that, swirling around towards an inevitable doom, the more I realized that you were withering away right before my eyes. My direction in the darkness, my light within the night, winking in and out, lost in translation as the fog creeps in.

You've never wanted my love, Sirius, and I know that. I tried my very best to stay away, keep myself at an arm's length but I couldn't help myself, pulled in by your massive gravity, matter consumed by a black hole, drifting by the event horizon line. Your warmth underneath the palms of my hands, wrapping you up in my arms and protecting you from harm, never touching more than you want, never doing anything that crosses a line, but I know my whole existence is a burden onto you.

Giving myself up, sacrificing my life for you, you never wanted that, either. You have always known that I would die for you, that I have wanted to give my life for you, and yet whenever it's brought up, you grimace and there's a twitch in your eye, a sigh ready to be released from your rosebud lips.

Exhaustion, pain, complication, that is all I have brought you. I have tried to afford you comfort and safety in my touches but all I have done is tangle further the web of deception around you. I am too simple, too blunt, for your complex world of intricacies. I believe, were I to seek you out, you would not come with me, even if I offered you a safe harbor away from Noct. Whether or not you see the true danger that he poses to you, whether or not you want a safe harbor at all, it would be futile to offer my hand when you would not take it.

Know that you ever wish to find me, I will be ◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎◼︎ [FILE CORRUPTED]