#complete projecting

[vio-starzz]

Sleepless Nights

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~ Tw- Swearing, implied sh/ed

~ Vio Link, Shadow Link

~ Vio&Shadow

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It was hard. Fighting a feeling so demanding, yet they knew just how exhausting it would be to give in.

Either way, it was tiring.

For once it wasn't pretending to be others, playing along in a game Vio could care less about.

Yet instead, it was the hellish war they never win. Even as the others came by, knocking on the locked shut door, voicing concerns of whether it was gonna eat, sleep, needed something, was okay.

It wasn't that either. Maybe food was always a struggle, maybe it was really hard to eat more than a single bite some days, but everyone was used to that. They were all patient, and respecting of the struggles, yet this was somethint ze wouldn't voice concerns about.

Something that ate, and nagged at Vio in the worst ways. Always taking advantage when he lay alone, or just, was alone. When it was vulnerable, the voice always crawled deep inside their fucked up head. Pleading for ze to listen.

Yet they always fell for it, they always caved in, and listened.

The first time they were caught, late at night, when Shadow walked in. Shadow instantly panicked. Someone he was going to betray, someone who thought the world of their only ‘friend’ who was going to get stabbed in the back and killed later on…. Someone who shouldn’t have cared, cared more than believable.

For the longest time, since that one mistake of being caught, Shadow’s been the only one who knows. Who recognizes, even after the rough patches, and betrayal, and months it took for them to have even a sliver of trust again after the revival, knows a bit about what Vio’s fucked up thoughts lead to.

Which is almost funny, someone who shouldn't have trusted ze again, is the only person who knows just how pathetically vulnerable they can be.

Vio always found it stupid, how pathetic they could be to fall for something so illogical, until the voices got stronger. Until it finally opened its eyes to the truth.

They deserve this.

The knife is right there…

So close-

So tempting—

Just enough to make them bleed!

Just this once-!

Just—

The knife ze didn't even realize they were holding clattered to the ground before them.

Shadow’s arms, now wrapped around him from behind- behind him? Shadow…? They didn't even realize the familiar sound of it teleporting in, or the presence of magic they carry, or the way he-

“No Vio. Not this time.”

His voice is commanding, yet soaked in a pit of worry.

Except, Vio listened this time.

Ze doesn't deserve to bleed, and if they cant trust themselves-

They can trust their friend. They can trust Shadow.

Ze will fight those thoughts tonight.

Tonight, for the first time, maybe they weren't able to do it alone, yet they win. This once.

They win the battle.

Because they don’t. They don't deserve to bleed.

They are worth so much more than what its own thoughts have tried to downgrade them too.

So much more.

[apollos-boyfriend]

something they don’t tell you about being autistic is that every character you write WILL end up autistic/autistic-coded whether you like it or not

[sunlit-mess]

coping real hard

[noirandchocolate]

Several weeks ago one of my coworkers called me over into her cubicle and gave me a very unexpected gift. Her mother passed away recently, and she'd been packing stuff up at her condo to give to relatives and sell, so the home could be sold. The mother was an avid knitter and crocheter, and when my coworker came upon her stash of equipment, she told me, she "immediately thought of me as someone who might get some use out of it."

So, I have inherited a varied collection of knitting needles and crochet hooks, cable needles, sewing needles, and, best of all, now-out-of-print pattern books, mostly for blankets, because that was what this lady loved to make most. Plus, I also have a bunch of gauge swatches she made, pinned to little bits of card covered in perfect schoolteacher handwriting setting out the patterns they were made to test.

And also...

My coworker brought another bag, full of yarn and...knitted blanket squares. Her mother's last started project, before she got too sick to continue. And she asked if there was anything I could do with it.

It turned out, there are twelve completed squares, and I quickly located the pattern book they are from amid those given to me. It's a book of 60 patterns, meant to be put together however the maker wishes into blankets of 20 squares. I figured out which of the numbered patterns were already made, and selected eight more that I thought might go well with them.

So now! I am working on completing! My coworker's mother's last knitting project!

And I really am feeling very good about doing it.

[chongoblog]

This might end up being part of a larger project, but I will die if I don't share it

[soapyakships]

HAPPY MIZUKI DAY

[heartorbit]

searching for a star that's still unknown to anyone!

[hibernation-fibres]

The Outer Wilds solar system: complete! It was a true labor of love and I'm so proud of how it turned out 🌌🌠

Video here!

Pattern: my own! Almost everything is some form of flat crochet circle, however, plus some embroidery details. Dark Bramble is partly tapestry crochet, and the quantum moon is movable as it's on a button! :D

Yarns: there are many so there's a list below!

Background - Malabrigo Dos Tierras in 'Paris Night' (yes all of it! The border is a different colourway! Looks intentional, right? :P)

Timber Hearth - Life In The Long Grass Twist DK in 'Moorlands' (thank you Northern Yarn)

Attlerock - Woollen Wytch SW Merino DK in 'Overcast' (thank you Woollen Wytch and Alterknit Universe)

The Quantum Moon yarn was held with silver thread and it has a clear button on the back (thank you Hester's Haberdashery)

(Below: all DK Merino/Nylon from Yarnside Hand Dyed Yarn)

Ember Twin + Hollow's Lantern - 'Cinders'

Ash Twin - 'Blushing Wood Mushroom'

Brittle Hollow - 'Ebenezer's Dressing Gown'

Giant's Deep - 'Woodland Moss'

Dark Bramble - 'Fellside', 'Oak Bark' 'Meltwater'

Interloper - 'Meltwater', 'Aurora'

[cherryfennec]

Summer Times

Hi! I'm finally back from my two week abroad trip!

[donelywell]

They then spent the rest of the night talking about Hot Wheels modifications and the flavor Blue Raspberry. Until Tails fell asleep by accident and Sonic had to carry him to bed.

Swap AU belongs to @foolnamedjoey!

I love this au so much you have no idea.

[mimimar]

finally completed my comic based on the song ivy by taylor swift!✿ please zoom in to read the text and see the details~

✿.✿.✿

you can get the digital zine pdf here! it includes extras like character profiles, costume design, more art of willow and ivy, zine-exclusive sketches and an illustrated guide to the symbolism of all the flowers in this comic.

you can also get prints of individual pages here!

✿.✿.✿

[mearchy]

Fox's reports are the most sardonic, passive aggressive reports anyone in the Senate Security Office has ever read. But they have to accept them because they are all technically by-the-book correct and unnervingly thorough, and nobody can find fault with them as hard as they try. The less caf he has had, the worse it is. He goes from "As per Coruscant Guard records..." and "As all Senate employees are aware..."

to "As one might be able to assume by means of basic observation and an approximately swamp-rat level of intelligence-" and "To elaborate on that, as one is required by Report Administration Regulation Clause 365:1a to do, despite a statistically proven decline in reading comprehension among government employees-*"

My man is hitting the keys one by one so hard his keypad breaks. He's got reflexive tears of manic rage in his eyes. He's imbuing his incident reports with so much hysteria the next Jedi who comes into contact with them gets a headache. Free him

*he has a source for this, by the way. Fox includes citations in his reports like a maniac. Like Cody. This is because if he has to countenance one more follow-up email than is necessary he will brain himself against the desk. He will commit lobotomy by pencil. Just you try and fucking stop him, Thorn.

[handfetis]

From John’s letter to Paul and Linda

(The same one where John predicts Paul and Linda’s marriage will only last 2 years)

[mayasaura]

I don't wanna further hijack that poor poll, but the thing about Harrow's schizophrenia is that it's canon. The author has confirmed it, and shared that it's based on her own experience.

It's a pretty obscure bit of canon, so of course there's no shame in not already knowing, but that's why I'm so obnoxiously persistent about letting people know.

Whatever else is up with Harrow, autism or cptsd or any number of likely headcanons, she is also schizophrenic. I feel like that's too important to be handwaved away as a difference of opinion.

[soapyakships]

rooftop hangout

[hibernation-fibres]

This silly idea turned out SO CUTE it's worth the fluff that now covers every inch of my bedroom floor :D

usual catalogue post to follow ^v^