#commentary on the hamster wheel phenomenon

[newtkelly]

how’d i get so addicted (to the love of the whole world)

by newtkelly

Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Tommy Kinard, Evan "Buck" Buckley/Original Male Character(s), Evan "Buck" Buckley/Original Female Character(s), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Tommy Kinard, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Maddie Buckley Additional Tags: Unsafe Sex, Anal Sex, Vaginal Sex, Episode: s08e06 Confessions (9-1-1 TV), Episode: s08e07 Hotshots (9-1-1 TV), Episode: s08e08 Wannabes (9-1-1 TV), Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Angst, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Commentary, Post-Break Up, the hamster wheel is on full display Summary:

There’s something dutiful and ceremonious about returning to form. Eddie’s been talking a lot about religion lately. Spirituality. Buck’s church is bodies. He’s real polytheistic. He’s born again. He prays to all kinds, he worships by kissing at the soles of feet, the taut skin of groins. Buck makes eyes at the guy doing hammer curls a couple benches away. He’s bulky, hairy. Gorgeous light brown skin. He gets eyes back. Buck always does.

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Nothing ever changes. Run on the wheel, ride the carousel, spin on the axis.

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