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[crimson-rose15]

Until Dawn - Chapter 2

(A/N): ...Not gonna lie, I have no specific updating schedule. I’m sorry for having not established something like that yet...

Well, on a different subject, I wanted to ask you all something;

If anyone, and I mean ANYONE, wants to make fanart of any of my chapters to show me how you imagine things when you read it, or your favorite part of a chapter that you read? you can. I’d absolutely LOVE fanart for a story, and you’d be fully accredited for your work if you decided to do such a thing (no NSFW fanart please, despite there POSSIBLY being future NSFW chapters, okay? I’m asking as nicely as I possibly can, because I don’t want my story to be taken down/flagged (not sure if that’d ever happen, but I’ve never had a post flagged, either, so...I don’t know how that sort of thing works as it is. I’m just trying to be careful is all...))

Well, if you haven’t read Chapter One, here it is! (I’m gonna start putting “Previous” when it comes to previous chapters after this one, by the way.)

Now; let’s get into the story, shall we?

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As soon as the two walked through the door, John's jaw nearly dropped to the floor.

The outside of the Cabin was impressive, but the inside was even more so; a large, lavish living room that seemed to stretch throughout the front half of the inside of the cabin, a massive fireplace with soft leather couches and recliners around it, a pool table near the front window on the right while a dining table was on the left side of the house next to the other front window, twin staircases leading to the second floor within said living room with hallways that went further towards the back of the house as soon as you rounded the corners next to the balcony, and many, many rooms that lead to who knows where on both floors.

All in all, it looked both amazing, and expensive. How were they able to afford such a cabin for such a short vacation time?!

“Look who finally arrived!” Tyler’s voice rang out, John giving a small, sideways smile as he set his bags down, watching as Tyler walked up to him, both of them giving each other a short hug before stepping away, “It’s good to see that you two fuckers didn’t die on your way up here, or get distracted by one another, if you know what I mean.”

That’s when Tyler turned to Jaren, “Has he told you what he is yet?”

“Nope,” Jaren responded, shrugging, “Then again, I forgot to ask, so...”

“Everyone?” Evan’s voice rang out, everyone turning and falling silent, watching as he looked back over his shoulder at someone, said person nodding before he looked to everyone else again, “Now that we’re all here, I wanted to introduce you all to someone. Properly, that is.”

Evan stepped to the side, everyone watching as someone- they were male with shortish, raven-black hair, pale-ish skin tone, the bluest eyes that they had ever seen, and the same height as Evan- stepped up beside the Canadian Alpha, looking around at them all with an almost scared expression, hands at his sides, popping his knuckles in an anxious fashion while keeping his mouth shut. He was wearing a Rynx hoodie, blue jeans, and a pair of black-and-white sneakers.

It was almost obvious who it was, and only one other person in the room knew who it was, but they all wanted to hear Evan to say it before saying anything themselves.

“Everyone, this is Jonathan, or better known as H2O Delirious. He’s an Alpha, like me.”

Jaren tilted his head at his words, walking towards the older male, Del’s eyes widening as he took a step back, an audible breath leaving his lips before looking to Evan, who was looking at him with calm, understanding eyes before nodding, Del saying nothing as he let Jaren walk up to him, the younger Omega looking at him with curious eyes before holding his hand out.

“Nice to finally meet you,” Jaren spoke calmly, giving a small smile, “I promise we’re not as scary as we may seem. You can be yourself while you’re here, and no one will judge you, we promise.”

Jon nodded, hesitating as he reached out before finally taking Jaren’s hand, shaking it before letting go, looking down at the floor between before looking up and around again, Jaren backing away slowly as he did.

“H-hi everyone,” Jon finally spoke, raising his hand and giving a small wave, “T-thanks for hav- thanks for letting me be h-here.”

“You already knew that I was gonna drag your ass here if you didn’t come when Evan invited you, Delirious,” Luke’s voice rang out, everyone watching as the Alpha walked up to his basically brother, slinging an arm around his shoulder, “You needed to get out of your house, ya hermit.”

“Hey! I’m no- I’m not a hermit! shuch up!” Del spoke, glowering at Luke, “I-I do things! I gets out of my house and do stuff, you just- I just don’t tell yous!”

Everyone gave a small laugh at the two’s conversation before slowly beginning to introduce themselves properly to Del, John choosing to walk over to the nearest couch and sit down instead, watching everything happen.

“Don’t fall asleep on us, John,” Anthony’s voice rang out, John turning and watching as the larger male sat down beside him, “We’re all gonna head out at sunset to hang out until dark so that we can watch the northern lights. They’re supposed to appear over this area tonight, and none of us wanna miss them.”

John groaned, leaning his head back against the couch, closing his eyes.

“I wasn’t told about going outside for any amount of time,” He spoke with a sigh, “Let me guess; Jaren was supposed to tell me?”

“yeah, actually,” Anthony spoke, John turning his head, opening his eyes as he looked at him, “We texted him to tell you about it. Maybe he just forgot to tell you?”

“Nope,” Jaren spoke, plopping himself down on John’s lap, John having barely any time to react as he did, the Omega giving Anthony an unreadable look, “I didn’t forget; I just wanted to surprise him, but it looks like you beat me to it, Anthony.”

“Shit, I’m sorry, I didn’t- “

“It’s alright, I didn’t tell anyone I wanted to surprise him, so no one knew. I’m not mad at you over something you didn’t know not to do, I promise.”

“Why are you on my lap?” John asked, Jaren looking at him as he did, “I’m not a seat, you know; there’s space on the couch to sit on.”

“Cause you’re more comfortable than the couch, and plus...” Jaren leaned closer, “...Maybe if I sit here long enough, I’ll be able to--”

“Hey,” Evan’s voice rang out, all three John, Jaren, and Anthony turning and watching as the Canadian Alpha walked up to them, Delirious half-hiding behind him, “Del wanted to meet you properly, Kryoz. Is that okay?”

John tapped Jaren’s thigh, the Omega getting off him before he stood up, looking at the other Jon, holding his hand out.

“Sorry for not coming to you. I was kind of uh, distracted, if you couldn’t tell,” John spoke, Jaren glaring at him as he did, “I’m the other John. You can call me Kryoz if that’s easier for you, though.”

Delirious nodded, shaking his hand briefly before they let go of one another, Evan looking to John as soon as their interaction was over.

“I know you’re not exactly someone who takes favors, but do you think you could--”

“What the hell!” Mini’s voice rang out, John turning, watching as Tyler chased after David, John snagging Jaren out of their path before he could be ran over, the Omega yelping softly at the feeling of his body being moved and spun against his will, his face being pressed into John’s chest, a growl leaving John’s lips while he glared at the Alpha’s that ran past them and up the stairs, the Irish Alpha letting out a noise of fear as he almost stumbled, Tyler nearly catching him, Mini rolling his eyes at their actions.

“NO RUNNING IN THE HOUSE!” Mini yelled, getting ignored before he turned his attention to Lui, who had his hand over his mouth as he tried to stifle a laugh, “Why is Tyler after David?”

“David told him that if he could catch him, he’d let him humiliate him in any way that he wanted to as long as it wasn’t TOO inappropriate,” Lui spoke, giggling, “Tyler told him that he was gonna draw a dick on his face to start with, but he didn’t say what he’d do after that, so...David just kind of took off running.”

Mini rolled his eyes at such a childish statement, turning his attention to those who had almost been ran over, his eyes widening at the...now awkward, position they were currently in.

“Uh...” Jaren spoke, his face heating up as he stood up properly, John instantly releasing him, a blush becoming visible on his face as he realized what he had done, “...Thanks, John.”

“Yeah, no problem,” John spoke, clearing his throat as he turned back to Evan, “What was that about doing something before Speedy Gonzales and his buddy ran by us?”

“Well, not at the moment, obviously, but whenever you could, do you think that you could help me with stuff around the cabin? Delirious will be there to help, but I just thought that an extra hand couldn’t hurt. Plus it would give you a chance to get to know Delirious a little better outside of just recording videos with him, if that makes sense.”

John nodded, Evan sighing as he turned, watching as the two Alpha’s rushed downstairs, his eyes flashing gold as he narrowed them, growling loudly.

“HEY!” Evan yelled, Daithi stopping dead in his tracks at his tone of voice while Tyler barrelled into the now still male, both of them falling to the floor with a shout, Evan shaking his head at their actions, “Can you two PLEASE wait to chase each other OUTSIDE, where there isn’t anything that you two could possibly BREAK?”

“Fuck off!” Tyler growled at him as he pinned Daithi down, forcing his struggling to cease while also glaring at Evan, “We weren’t gonna break anything, and you know it! loosen up, Evan! we’re all here to relax and have fun, after all, and that’s what we were doing, was having fun!”

“I didn’t stutter,” Evan growled, his eyes now a solid gold as he walked over to Tyler and Daithi, Tyler giving an equally intimidating stare back with icy blue eyes, not afraid of the Canadian Alpha, or his words, “If you’re gonna chase one another, take it outside. Please.”

“Let’s take our stuff up to our rooms while Evan has them distracted,” Jaren whispered to John, the older male nodding before they walked over to their bags by the door, picking them up, “I think our rooms are upstairs- “

“Furthest rooms down the hall on the left,” Evan spoke without looking at them, “Right next to one another.”

Neither said anything, instead walking silently past the now tense situation that was now happening between Tyler and Evan, leaving them to figure it out while everyone else simply watched, not wanting to get involved in the somewhat pride-filled struggle between the two, know that Tyler wasn’t gonna listen to Evan unless absolutely necessary while also knowing that Evan wouldn’t budge until he did.

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(A/N): Here ye go. Here’s chapter two. Is it good? bad? meh?

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Love all my Readers!

[marblehornets52]

I may as well post this just to get this off my chest, but I doubt anyone would have the time to actually want to care about this.

In my old blog, @rynxs-blog, literally you can't miss the description. I have autism/asperger's. While it's not so bad, I'm just making this post because, I guess I just want it out of my head.

Maybe 6th grade or so, I guess, my ex, was supposedly stalking me and it took until 7th grade for anything to happen. 7th grade (she was in 8th grade btw so one year ahead of me, keep that in mind) we started dating. I will admit, I was a little shithead back then [as in, VERY CRINGE FUELED] so with that being said, I didn't want to acknowledge my autism or my problems back then. I was 50% extrovert and 50% introvert.

I, however, never told anyone about the autism because it felt more of a insecure thing. No one back then, as far as I saw, in the middle school, had autism. Few years later I come to realize they were just hidden among the crowd. But that's not exactly what this is about.

Back then, I was a shithead. Never did my work yet somehow managed to go past both 7th and 8th grade. I still remember that the main reason was because when I was moving into 8th grade, my ex went to high school.

Now you might be wondering "so what's the big deal? You still like her or something?"

That was the answer back then, and honestly I don't know why I decided to go on ahead and reach out to her to see if she remembers.

Another question that might pop up "Besides the age difference, why couldn't you just see her normally?" or even "Why are you making that relationship such a big deal right now?"

1. My mom is [somewhat] a hardcore Christian and when I told her about the relationship, she kinda went haywire about it, specifically how it's against God commandments or whatever the fuck she told me. Even though she said she didn't mind people being gay yet when I come up with it "ThAt'S nOt ChRiStIaN lIkE." Also if your wondering about the dad, he's a marine, he would've killed me back then if he realized I was dating before the age of 18.

2. Because I was so stupid back then, we used to have wattpad [she deleted it] and I made a new account and started talking to her there. But I didn't reveal it was me until after. But what made me start to have more problems [that's gonna come in soon] is that she literally told me that she didn't even remember me. I could've just left it off as her moving on, I could've left it with me just a unimportant person in people's lives...but I just decided to remind her of everything and sooner or later, after 8th grade, I finally made it.

I told my friend group that I didn't want them to follow me when I am with my ex. Not because I was selfish but because she was going to introduce me to people I never met [who ended up turning up with vapes and soon smoking (I never smoked.)]

She had me so isolated from literally everyone I knew, just staying in one specific area of the school. If I tried to leave, she would chase after me and drag me back. I (still being a idiot) thought it was cute so I did that for awhile. Though it changed when my friends came along.

When they saw me hanging out with my ex, they came to the group. At the time I didn't mind since they gotten along with everyone till they decided to start vaping.

[Side note: While that was happening I got a betta fish named Ninja; I rescued him from a shitty pet shop and I did so much for him. I miss him greatly now, he has indeed passed away and he does contribute to the story.]

So with that being said, when I was in Sophomore year, I started sensing stuff being off. I wasn't allowed to leave anywhere without permission, if I was watching a video and just randomly smiled or giggle I would have to show my ex what I was seeing; otherwise she would force the phone out of my hand to see for herself, I told her about my autism and yet she still didn't even mind to acknowledge it and just blatantly forget it until I remind her again. She wouldn't let me go interact with everyone else, always trying to give me so much affection to the point where it was just a blank feeling. Whenever I would cry or whatnot, there was nothing she would do except just ask this "Stop crying please" + "Not even for me?" If I didn't give her a response. [Btw, if you ever tell me "Not even for me?" Go fuck yourself. (Sounds harsh but at that point I don't want to keep all of this in mind forever.) But the worst is when I told her about my insecurities. I told her most of it, opening up a bit more. My major one [which is still going on] is my weight.

The school has this BMI chart or whatnot and freshman year I was almost considered overweight instead of healthy. So I told her not I didn't feel comfortable with my own body. I still remember back then, she would pinch my body fat and always tease about it. I would just play the happy little partner and try not to take notice of it.

Though when Ninja passed away, I went through the biggest depression era in my life. I at that point, started to hide in my classrooms. I refused to go out because I didn't want to let anyone see how much of a mess I was. I remembered people thought I must've came back from a funeral or something.

I remembered back then, I wanted to end my own life, simply because [besides depression from the death of Ninja] I thought no one would care about my existence, that no one would notice me missing. But I guess overtime, I started to think back of all the stuff I been through in the relationship and compared it to how it was to my own friend.

[If you are gonna tell me "But it's just a fish, why don't you move on?" I literally told Ninja everything, from insecurities, to frustrations, to ideas. He was a better friend than many people I knew because he would do his best to support me even on his dying breath. Just ti get me better.]

So with that being said, one of my friends [who is not vaping anymore if I can recall] came up to me all pissed off. She told me that my ex had been bawling out her eyes because she assumed I didn't love her anymore. [Yes, me being away, 2 weeks inside classrooms for brunch and lunch, meant I didn't love her anymore.]

So I guess I told her everything (this was in history class btw, not exactly important but most history classes here are like fucking libraries, dead silent so whispering was just considered a regular talking voice.) I accidentally said everything out to the rest of my classmates too and honestly, I was surprised they were shocked. But I guess because I played the "happy life girlfriend" person, that there was nothing wrong with me.

[Another side note: I was in ROTC, and they did this thing called inspections. You wear the uniform you were given (usually utilities) and you wear it the whole day until you go home. Usually on Thursdays unless something happens. But the biggest rules are 1. No boyfriends or girlfriends kissing or hugging and 2. No one is allowed to touch you.]

So with that being said, when I told my friend that I was planning to break up she told me to time it right. So as you could guess, I did it wearing utilities, I told her that I was going to cut off the relationship and I was gonna give her back her stuff.

What I didn't specify was that I broke it off because I didn't want her to feel or even deal with all my emotional problems I had. So I told myself, after 2 years, from that day on, I was not going to let anyone be with me, I wanted to let myself mature more and just not fuck up on another relationship so quick when I'm a emotional wreck.

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I thought she would've done the same thing. I thought "Maybe she would take a year or so to move on, maybe see all the mistakes and move on?" Just only to find out 2 months later, her and my best cadet friend were dating.

So, I want to say that, yes, I'm happy for her I guess...made such a fast recovery or whatnot. But it felt like a big ol FUCK YOU to me, mostly because it just confirmed one of my insecurities I told her "I don't want to be forgotten, I don't want to be forgotten by everyone." Yet it already seemed bad enough that because she pulled me away from everyone, no one really cared about my existence, they wouldn't notice if I was missing, and that I really was the biggest mistake in everyone's lives. Even you, the person reading this, may as well scroll past this and not give a shit.

But if you want my honest opinion, I wanted to just tell my friend to not make the same fucking mistakes like me.

My insecurities have not been recovered, only worsen. My birthday was not too long ago, 2 days ago actually, and I honestly thought about ending it then and there.

If anyone just wants to talk to me or whatnot, not by trying to support me because of this post but because I guess there is something more to it, go ahead.

If you want to go ahead and talk to me, either to check up on me, that's fine.

But if people would just listen to everything I have, even the dark moments I...ah..

...Thank you.

I'm sorry that you just hate me more now, and I'm sorry I cause so much trouble just for this.

I just wanted people to know how I was doing I guess...so....

How was your day?