#clenches my fist

[tendermiasma]

I had more thoughts about Halsin being unable to keep his hands to himself

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[oooocleo]

imagine.. isometric pixel roleplay environments.... i dont know how to code but i love making little assets and thinking about putting little guys in them haha

**edit** added... sidetables.... this is addictive

[jadelemonadee]

uhhrh I’ve been feeling like absolute shit today and idk how to explain why 💔💔💔 it’s like..,,.,..ik ive already posted about this but i hate how i get jealous over other people’s art and success and it makes me feel so inferior when my art and other posts flop but when other people post about the exact same thing everyone eats it up!!!!!!! why not me!!!!!!!!!!!! am i just not as popular on the tumblrs or do y’all just not like me 😣/hj this is probably all because of mood swings or me overthinking or some other mysterious third reason but aaaghhg im just tired man 😭 i want to keep posting my art and stuff but this makes it really unmotivating AND I HATE ITTTTT

[halfyearsqueen]

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I remember the day he was born, how frantic i had been in those few precious seconds before he had begun to wail. I had reached for him blindly then, desperate to hold him. to have proof that he was alive, and healthy, and real. I did not know what it would mean to have a child, to be a mother. to raise a boy into a man, much less a man into a king. he had been so small then… so fragile. and I was walking him into a viper’s nest to be presented before all as their future king. my little baby, a king. it had seemed so impossible then as i had stood there, watching as his grandsire climbed those stone steps, and sat with him. cradling him in his arms surrounded by so many sharp, jagged points. I remember standing at the base of it and feeling as if my heart had been drawn and stretched, an odd and painful feeling. and cold. he had been born for it. he had been born because I needed an heir and yet for the first time I wanted him nowhere near it. he has known such pain, since. the shadow of it.. his uncertain legitimacy has followed him his entire life long. I do not know when he has grown so. or if it was his own sorrow that has left him so aged and weighed down far more than his near five and ten years. I should have known better than to send them. I should have insisted upon the ravens. i should have done more to protect them - he should not need to bear the weight and responsibility in leading and yet he has done wonderfully, all the same. I need to do more then linger, to do more then offer council to them when it is my throne that men have fought and died for. I need to take command again in full. yet everytime I think of it feels as if I am drowning anew, lost on what to do. on how, if at all I could save them. I need to save them. yet no matter where I turn it feels as if the danger against them mounts and all I can do is watch helplessly. man though they had both claimed to be, he is still a boy for a year more yet, with no business in fighting a man’s war. I do not know what course to take to keep them the safest, which might provide them with the security they need —

he is the very best of me. he will be a fine king one day, should we win this war. he is a sweet boy, and brave, and good. I know he means well in his desire to fight for his claim, and to fight for mine, and yet. what if something were to happen to him, too ? what if he should fall as his brother did ? what would I become then ? his life is too grievous a price to be paid for my ascension. he is far too precious to me. it is he who claims that should I die all would be lost yet what of him ? how should I cope with the loss of yet another child ? it is his future, it is their future that I fight for. that I might leave the throne and crown to him, that he might be able to be the king I know he can be, the king he deserves to be. that he would’ve been without question, in time, had mine own grip on the throne not been torn away. had it not been ripped from my grasp before I had thought to hold onto it. he has proven himself, more then enough. he and his brothers are my greatest strength, and my only true consolation that remains to me in such uncertain times.

[tieria-erde]

had a sudden realization about the way i conceptualize ribbons in relation to alejandro. close enough welcome back warrior cats oc from a roleplay that died in 2022

[prnkill]

not wanting to post my hazbin art on my main accounts bc i've got mutuals that would lose their shit if they knew i liked hazbin but still wanting to post the art....

[incendiorum]

me + being home = look at freyja

[stupid-idiot-man]

Y'all can't tell me that with Seam being a mysterious old seapkeeper that they won't have a big role at some point!

[tvrningout-a]

     so i mentioned before that tengen gives me the vibe of someone who thinks they’re the best and worst at the same time, depending on when you catch them, and here’s why!! uhh warning: this one’s a doozy of a headcanon, meaning it’s long as hell :’ ) 

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     first of all, thank you ufotable for giving us extra scenes that let us see more of tengen and his wives bc that contributed to this headcanon <3 deviations that anime tend to take aren’t always for the better, but in this case, i’m really happy with the changes they made bc i feel like we can get a better look at tengen’s mindset/motivations. but let me not get ahead of myself here!!

     i know that tengen’s intro is him proclaiming himself a god, and generally he gives off the impression that he thinks highly of himself. when gyutaro asks, “ you’re their savior, aren’t you? ...their affection and gratitude toward you know no bounds, huh? ” he even eggs the upper moon on by saying, “ i’m a flashy, glamorous ladies’ man, so that’s a no-brainer. and i even have three wives no less. ” he is trying to provoke gyutaro, but tengen is well aware that he’s someone who naturally gains admiration and envy bc he’s tall, handsome, strong, and yeah -- he’s got three wives!

     so i don’t think tengen generally struggles with confidence or self esteem, but he does struggle with guilt. during that fight with gyutaro when he’s saying that tengen must’ve been special the day he was born, a chosen talent, tengen all but laughs in his face and denies that he has any talent -- it’s a load of crap when just how many lives have slipped through his fingers?? too many. he isn’t like kyojuro who protected an entire train of people and didn’t allow a single person to die, even if it was at the cost of his own life. 

     and the thing is, tengen is crazy strong and obviously does have talent since he has incredibly good hearing, but based on his background and opinion, he likely didn’t have a natural talent with combat. the training his father put him through molded him into the warrior he is, made him capable of becoming a pillar. he wasn’t like muichiro or even kyojuro who taught himself flame breathing. tengen wasn’t born extraordinary. he was made extraordinary through blood and sweat and tears and loss.

     but his lack of natural talent is nothing to be ashamed of! it’s the fact that he’s let so many people die and likely killed people as well. it’s the fact that his wives nearly died because of him. it’s the fact that his siblings are dead while he’s still alive. 

     in the anime, we get an extra scene between tengen and his wives in which they go to the uzui family grave to visit his brothers. there’s a moment where tengen slips and says, “ i’m going to hell,” and then proceeds to brush it off lightheartedly bc he doesn’t want another “ tongue-lashing ” from his wives. but he then thinks to himself, “ i’m going to live the flashiest life possible for my siblings’ sake. ” 

     first!!! the fact that he specifically says he doesn’t need another tongue-lashing from his wives implies he’s said this kind of thing before, and i love that little detail bc that means hina, suma, and makio are all three aware of tengen’s struggle and wholeheartedly believe he shouldn’t feel guilty. and the fact that they think he shouldn’t feel guilty plus the fact that he wants to live a “ flashy ” life for his siblings’ sake means that he 100% feels responsible for his siblings’ deaths. in the second official fanbook, we find out that tengen’s father tricked him and his siblings into fighting each other to the death by masking them, and as a result, tengen killed two of his brothers. it’s no wonder that he believes he’s going to hell despite having been tricked.

     i do wonder if it also has to do with his own feelings towards the shinobi way of life. they were expected to risk their lives for the mission, but that isn’t what tengen wanted from the start, i’m sure. how could he when he lost some of his siblings before they were even ten years old? or when he saw how his father treated his family? how could he when he married hina, makio, and suma, and suddenly had people who he felt responsible for, who he wanted to protect? he didn’t want to die for something like duty to a lifestyle he hated -- he wanted to live. he wanted to live beside his family, beside his wives, and he wanted them to live, too. and i wonder if that didn’t lead to deaths he could’ve prevented. you hesitate when you’re afraid of dying, after all.

     plus!! tengen says, “ those who have baggage like conflict or quandaries are spineless fools. that’s always been the story of my life, ” so his desire to survive has been a struggle for him even while he was a shinobi. but then oyakata-sama tells him thank you for fighting despite those conflicts and quandaries and validates that desire. it isn’t something to be ashamed of, and he doesn’t have to fight with the intention of laying down his life if need be. i’m sure he thought oyakata-sama would expect that of him, which is why he looks absolutely surprised by his response.

     HOWEVER, that doesn’t negate the guilt tengen feels for the people he’s lost as a result of his “ quandaries. ” he’s grown, and now he doesn’t hesitate bc he fights with the intention of winning so long as it isn’t at the expense of his or his wives’ lives. he’s got better judgement bc he has clear intentions without the weight of another’s expectations on him. but he’ll never forget his siblings and the others he’s lost because he wasn’t willing to die for them.

[simmonsized]

How can you truly understand my vision if you are unwilling to listen to El Paso by Nate Kipp?

[exlimix1a]

AUUUUUGH IM SUCH A SLOW BURN FAN

[ekleipsi]

❛ i like being close to you. you’re warm. ❜ // ( hermes&lyc hoho hehe )

--- Upon centuries past had the once-man come to know life as a beast; upon all fours had he scoured the earth and witnessed so many of its beautiful offerings in the time since his mortality. Even when full moon was presented, and Lycan form taken to wash the villages with blood and chaos, with curses of infection, had he simply attempted to accept as much. Each passing year was one of atonement, one he could learn from and try and be better for.

--- If asked, he would have happily responded that he didn't regret having attempted to deceive Zeus. Such was not the pain he harbored in chest, but instead was the misery and calamity he'd brought upon his family and all those thereafter that he'd come close to, come to care for. Perhaps a hunter to take them? Perhaps an inability to accept the shift? Sometimes, it was little more than a loss of control on the werewolf's part.

--- No matter the reasoning, it had left him filled to the brim with pain and while that pain wracked at muscled frame, it stole his coherent ability for words. For efficient thought- and even when he had a clear mind, how could he even begin to put to words the things his heart was telling him? The way it hammered and thrummed, pounding against cage like its own separate entity, raging to get out. Slate gaze lingers upon God of Commerce, and such he was, coming in and out of lives.

--- Not Lycaon's, though. Hermes was a constant for the old wolf, from start...to surly finish, he was sure. Despite the comfort that came with such a thought, he still couldn't find it in him to properly formulate the many things he wanted to say, the feelings he wanted to share, the gratitude he wanted to express; when they overwhelmed him like so, it was easier to exist as a beast. Beasts were simple and hungered only for survival.

--- Tail flicked, swishing back and forth for a moment as over-large wolf pads around the small God, already sitting in the grass; former King instead opts to settle just behind him, flopping upon stomach and curling his burly and furry frame around slender figure. A means of comfort, and being close to him, of keeping him warm when the sun begins to set and they're still...sitting there, enjoying the silence, and the company. Eventually he presses his nose beneath the others elbow, a whine and a chuff escaping, as if to express that Hermes can lay back into him, if he so desired.

--- The offered words that ensued...well, he was glad his expression was unreadable like this, though pupils dilated in thought before he curled tighter around companion and patron, to keep him warm as mentioned. He offered no words, save a short bark in response, before a rumble of a growl builds and settles as he nuzzles into the others side. Hues drift closed after a moment, content to fall asleep like this- to keep his patron warm, like this. This...felt as close as he could be to his company, without hurting him, after all.

[elfcollector]

i wanna replay code vein.....

[xaallo]

[tvrningout-archived]

i’m here to talk about makiko tonight bc it’s been a minute and i miss my volleybabe <3

piano and track are the most notable bc she enjoyed them the most and had a lot of potential for them, but there’s a bunch of lil skills/hobbies that makiko had growing up that she eventually gave up when the pressure to do well got to be too much. she became something of a chronic quitter tbh

now that i’m thinking about it, her family all probably joked about it at some point not realizing that teasing makiko about it actually hurt :(( her brother yuuta is the most aware emotionally, so he’s probably the one to start putting an end to that

this got a lil sad BUT i thought about this bc i’m thinking makiko’s parents had her take dance classes as a kid! her dad thought ballet would be nice, but her mom said no, put her in contemporary classes 

the reason? her mom just liked contemporary dancing more asdfg they also put her in a few ballroom classes bc why not?? baby makiko was more than happy to go for it!

so grown-up makiko is a pretty good dancer even after she stops taking classes -- she can hold a beat rather well and surprisingly doesn’t look awkward doing it!

she won’t dance without other people joining her, though :’ ) ma’am doesn’t want the attention on her and dancing just isn’t as fun alone

she will absolutely teach you how to waltz if you ask!! and pls know that slow dancing in her kitchen to some quiet music at 2 am is a dream scenario to her <3

[retquits]

save me winter elliott stardew valley... winter elliott stardew valley save me......