#cinemaquinn

[eddieschains]

see now i agree, he’s cute and i wanna bite his nose but then i see these pictures and-

im gonna bite his nose and then im gonna jump on him and fuc-

[unsolved-duvall]

i really want to start writing fanfic for eddie but i haven’t written anything in about two years so it’s probably going to be horrendous😭 i don’t know what i’d write if i did, so maybe send some ideas! okay that’s all ily

also i might eventually write for steve? and maybe robin? but not just yet because if my stuff for eddie is bad we’ll all just pretend this never happened

[babybluebex]

luna stop i just saw you liked one of my posts and i literally sat straight up in my bed, because hello? i love you. i love your writing. okay that’s all, i just wanted you to know i had a freak out moment <3

omg stop 😭 ilysm <3

[munsonthemisfit]

hi hi 🤭🫶🏻

HI, BABY 🥰����

Thank you for sending me an ask even though you’re sat beside me right now, forehead kisses for you. 👀

[joesquinns]

happy valentine’s day sweet <3

Thank you so much honey 🥹💗

[lovejosephquinn]

A highly requested sequel to this imagine

I hope you all love it, I put my all into it and I still feel like it could be better, UGH 💀

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Word Count: 4.3k (my longest JQ imagine to date)

There was no one who completely engulfed your mind like him; a close friend from over the years that you'd grown up with who had become so much more than a friend in your head. The feelings were unfathomable and you couldn't control them near as much as you'd hoped to. The way you clearly flirted around him to see if he'd catch your drift, he never did. The way you'd touch him softly and the way you'd take his soft features in, the way he spoke to you, the way he called you love, pretty, HIS darling girl. The way he looked at you gave you hope, but to no avail. To some it probably meant nothing, but to you; it was everything. So it was a thing that you just fantasised about almost every single day and you'd continue to keep your mouth shut on the basis of not wanting to ruin the closeness you already held with Joe, it had to be enough.

It wasn't just the things that you did to try and prove a point, Joe's features were in engraved in your mind, his eyes being your personal favourite - they held a thousand secrets yet screamed a million words, just not ones of mutual emotion, or so you thought. His sarcasm, the little cheeky side to him but also the shy side to him, his ability to make you laugh in any mood and then join you in chuckling slight when he heard you giggle, his toothy grin enough to heal the world, the way his hands soothed your back when he gave you a hug, the way he'd make time for you even out of your friendship circle. There was just no point in denying that you couldn't quit the way you felt, he gave you a new excuse to fall down deeper every day.

Your phone rang interrupting your thoughts as you laid alone in your bed that evening, the man himself popped up on your screen, his contact photo of him crossing his eyes and making the most idiotic of faces had you smiling, he cursed you for keeping that photo he took every god damn day, but it was impossible to remove it from your camera roll and the image was practically tattooed onto your eyelids, you could picture it now without even looking. You tapped answer and held the phone to your ear immediately before you unintentionally missed the call.

"Hello." You tried to sound the upmost upbeat, yet it came out profoundly louder than you thought.

"Hello love, I was bored so I thought I'd distract you from whatever you were doing." He was distracting you from himself inside your head, the real thing was much better though.

"Oh how gentlemanly of you, well I'm doing nothing so you made a good decision." There was the flirty act again.

"That's me! Best damn gentleman you'll ever meet." You giggled at his involuntary cockiness yet sarcastic remark.

You talked shit for at least an hour, general chit chat yet laughing over conversations you'd probably had at least 20 times, yet they were still as hilarious as the last time. The moment you yawned had him sighing over the other end of the phone.

"Am I boring you, pretty? Does Y/N need her beauty sleep?"

"Y/N does. Y/N also needs Joe to shut up talking trash about her being pretty." You don't know why you came out with that last part, maybe it was to try and avoid the butterflies that erupted into the pit of your stomach when he embedded the nickname he often called you into your ear drum whilst you were cosy and comfy in bed. You'd shut your eyes, placing your phone onto the pillow with him on loud speaker as if he were there next to you, minus the contact.

"What if I mean it? I'm not going to stop if I'm telling the truth now am I?" Joe muttered, the way he was biting down on his lip revelling in the way the same butterflies practically punched his insides.

"Well do you?" Your eyes flung open, staring to the phone inches away from your head, curious as to why you hadn't shut yourself up yet and ended the conversation before.

"Always, babe." Babe. That was new.

Becoming as ignorant as you could've been, shooting your walls straight up that were already barricading your emotions towards your friend, you said goodnight eventually after trying to find the right words to say, it took every ounce of you not to just blurt out the words I LIKE YOU, NOTICE ME. And just like that, once you'd hung up, the thoughts took over more than ever as you tried to ignore the heat growing between your thighs. Just two words had drove you and the entirety of your body insane, it was the tone of voice he'd uttered those two words together that made it so perfect, you had to relieve yourself of the tension you'd created alone, the fact you relished in his voice now carved into your thoughts made your fingers wander downward as you laid bare, stroking a straight line through your slit making you shudder, goose bumps caressing your skin like Joe had put them there.

Spreading your legs further apart to open up wide for your hand to gain perfect access, you spat onto your fingers, lapping it straight onto your clit, lathering what was already becoming a mess on your cunt, your hole gaped at nothingness as you shut your eyes and began to imagine Joe's face pressed between your legs, humming as his tongue flickered over your aching bud, staring up at you with his sparkling brown eyes, you'd of liked to think he was enjoying what he saw, the way you squirmed your hips, bucking them upward as his lips sucked harshly. You bit down on your lip, muffling the moans escaping you, it truly never felt the same on your own and even though you'd never felt his touch, you just knew it had to be a million times better than anyone's; including yours.

You were too busy to notice that your phone had slipped under your elbow and that you'd unintentionally leaned on the answer button when Joe was calling once more, bad timing. You were too involved in reaching your climax to hear him shout your name when you didn't reply, he shut up when he heard the borderline pornographic noises from the receiving end. You were also to busy to notice that he'd heard your fingers faintly fucking your pussy at a marvellous speed and as soon as you groaned "Ugh, yes fuck me Joey" he hung up. He knew instantly that you were referring to him, you only called him Joey - heck there were no other Joseph's that you were actually friends with that he knew of.

Your body relaxed instantly tightening from a surge of power that rushed through your body when you hit the spot, moving your fingers into the weak place over and over saw electricity jolting up in your stomach as you slowly moved and then fastened your pace once more, a sharp breath led you to leaking out onto the sheets, climaxing over the building desire that was your friend's cock fucking you deep. Your thighs shut together as you tried to make the sensitive ache last longer, clenching your walls around the small, narrow length of your two fingers. Not far after you'd laid staring at the ceiling for a while, you dragged yourself to the bathroom to clean up, you swatted your head to the faint knock at the front door, still in a daze yet confused as to who would be paying a visit at this time.

Unknowing to you, the moment Joe had hung up the phone and realised what on earth was obviously happening mirrored the way he'd clearly been masturbating over you earlier that evening. He grabbed his keys, barely pushed his feet into his shoes before he'd launched himself out of the front door of his flat and made a run to the car to get to you as fast as he possibly could. He had to know.

A louder knock came from the door this time as you unhooked your dressing gown from the back of the bathroom door, tying the robe up nice and tight and rushing to take your keys to open up. The moment you flung it open, your friend stood before you in a mesmerised state. You furrowed your brow at him, extremely bewildered yet of course in your head and heart, happy to see him. "Hey Joey, um didn't we speak on the phone all of 20 minutes ago, what are you doing here at this hour?"

You stared at each other, his silence actually starting to nerve you a little, it wasn't like Joe to be speechless around you, yet here he was, his mouth opened slightly as if he was going to reply, yet no sound was made. His eyes bore into yours as you blinked back at him. "Is everything... ok?" You asked, tilting your head to the side.

"Did you-" His voice whispered as if he couldn't quite string the words together.

"Did I?" You choked on your reply, giggling at his out of character and way less chaotic and more stern looking behaviour.

You gestured for him to come in, still realising in the last two minutes that you'd not got an answer, that he was still stood out in the corridor that led to your flat. He walked through and leaned his elbows down straight to the countertop beside the door, you shut it and leaned against it, scrunching your face up at his weird etiquette.

"Are you going to tell me what's the matter or am I-"

"Did you moan my name?" Joe blurted out, staring to the ground not being able to even look you in the eye after his organs had pretty much vomited themselves upward the second the words came out of his mouth.

Your jaw fell to the floor, slightly scoffing at his question. "Excuse me?" He looked at you this time.

"You heard what I said Y/N and I'm pretty sure I heard you. Did you moan my name?"

Shit. "I- I-" You stuttered, your cheeks flashing red.

"I called you to tell you something I failed to mention before and you answered but you were clearly busy..." His eyes fell down to your thighs insinuating he knew exactly what you were up too. "But then I heard you moan my-"

You rushed into your bedroom cutting him off, picking up your phone and checking your call log. It was there as clear as day. Incoming call: Joey - 1 minute 42 seconds. Your whole body was sweating, your heart was beating out of your chest at 100 miles per hour. Joe shortly followed after you into your bedroom, slouching on your door frame whilst you sat at the edge of your bed, now you were the one that simply couldn't look him in the eye. You made yourself look as small as possible, lifting your knees up to your face to hug them, gently sitting your chin on top, your arms caging them tightly in a firm grip.

He slowly moved towards you, kneeling down on the floor, resting his hands either side of you onto the sheets. "Y/N?" He was trying to get a response, you owed him your honesty.

"I did." You muttered lowly.

"You meant to?" Joe whispered shyly. A state you'd rarely seen him in before.

"I did." You matched his tone, there was no going back now. Not especially when his hands pushed your shoulders back forcefully, making you land flat down on the mattress, Joe brought himself to the side of you, laying next to you, his doe eyes almost forcing you like a magnet to draw yours to his.

"What were you thinking about?"

"You." You bit down on your lip, speaking the obvious, yet the other obvious thing was that he already knew that, Joe just wanted to hear you say it out loud.

"That's all well and good Y/N, but I need you to be a bit more specific." His face lowered merely inches away from yours, his watch fluttered to your lips a couple of times.

"This is weird, I-I'm sorry." You attempted to sit back up, trying to ignore the situation unravelling before you. Even though you wanted him bad and had done for a long time, he was still only your friend. Joe didn't let you get as far as lifting your back up before his hand pressed against your shoulder again, his fingers playing with the material of your dressing gown as you instantly looked submissive in his touch. "Tell me." He growled.

"The way you would fuck me." You purred.

"Is that what you want?" A rising smirk fell onto his features, his mind was running wild, how could you actually want him as much as he wanted you; yet you both never realised. You nodded to his question and his face lowered fully, his lips pushing themselves firmly to yours as you quickly reciprocated the contact, his hand came up to cup your jaw as your lips moved in unison. His tongue begged for entrance and you gladly let it, the muscles working together to make the open kiss a more desperate one as they writhed around each other sweetly.

Your eyes fluttered open when Joe broke the kiss, a kiss you never thought would ever happen. "Wait is that what you want?" You asked quickly, your nerves only relaxing slight after that reaction. "Because I don't want this to be a pity snog." Joe chuckled at you, snorting laughter from his throat making his cute dimples shine.

"My darling, I've been wanting you for so long it's stupid." Joe smiled truthfully and you believed him, you were both almost completely vulnerable to each other now that the first kiss had come into play so there was no way you were hiding your feelings anymore.

"Wanting to just fuck me? or-"

"Absolutely not. That's what I called for, I wanted to confess how much I like you Y/N, but it's not just that, it's wanting to kiss you, wanting to hold your hand, wanting to hold you at night, wanting to call you mine-"

You cut him off reaching your lips to his once more, passionately smacking your mouth against his, your stomach was doing flips, your heart was punching the air proudly. Joe untied your robe revealing your naked body to him, abruptly stopping the heated moment and giving it a glance over, he sighed returning his gaze to yours. "So beautiful, I told you that you were pretty. I just knew the rest of you would be too. My god."

"So does that mean I can see you?" Joe nodded and stood up before you, you eyed down at his crotch to see his tightening bulge bursting from his zipper line. He stripped completely naked in front of you, not feeling awkward in the slightest as you examined his body, his top half you'd seen before, still as sexy as ever, yet the way your eyes grew a little lower down had him licking his lips, an all too confident smirk hit him. "Fucking hell Quinn, you're big." You blurted out without even thinking and it only made his confidence leap. You removed your dressing gown off of your arms and pushed it to the floor as Joe made a bee line for you as a fire grew in his eyes, your legs spreading apart as they had before but now with the man of your dreams laid between them.

His hands roamed onto your boobs, grabbing hold of them and letting his fingertips massage your nipples, hardening them between his digits. You gasped when his lips latched onto your neck, kissing, nibbling ever so slightly and moving downward to meet his fingers that were kept busy, they moved to the side to squish your breasts closer together, replacing them little flickers of his tongue one at a time, the ache between your legs soaring higher than before.

"What else were you thinking about love?" Joe raised his face to look up at you.

"Your h-head between my legs." You looked downward innocently as if you hadn't just said that.

"Your wish is my command then." He kissed down your stomach, back kneeling down at the end of the bed where he'd started before he'd got the first answer from you that he needed. Reaching his arms out and pulling your thighs, he dominantly took a hold of them, the tips of his fingers moulding into your skin when he dragged you towards him, kissing around your thighs slowly, making the ache only more painful due to his now teasing nature. Joe took one look at your wet slit, massaging his thumb on your folds as he opened them up to the side to get a better view. "Look at that pretty little pussy, all wet, just for me." Joe groaned, his cock clearly reacting to it, his tip twitching as a little pre-cum leaked out, he could've probably came from just staring at your cunt.

Joe spat down onto your clit, using one hand to keep you opened up as his thick finger stroked from top to bottom, the slick instantly coating him. "Fuck she's ready." He let out a breathy moan and dug in. His lips sucked onto your clit, clamping onto it for dear life as he earned a moan from your throat when he slurped, the taste of you almost ending him. The way his tongue flickered over your bud was better than your fantasy, the way he lapped up your juices, the way he teased you further down, circling around your entrance.

"Is that what you wanted baby, is this what your wet cunt needed? My mouth around it, did it need this too?" His tongue shoved its way through your hole, your hips flying upward as your hands came to fist his messy curls, pushing him inward, surely suffocating him as you let him tongue fuck you deep. "Oh my god yes! Just like that!" You squealed almost suddenly as his thumb reached back up, his tongue at work and you were now being frantically rubbed vigorously by the pressure of his thumb moving over your clit in a constant motion. Your body was in ecstasy, you knew you were right about him touching you this way, better than anybody had ever touched you. Nobody had ever made you cum in foreplay, not one man had given you a real climax, but Joe was too much of an expert, knowing your body better than you did so quickly for you to be faking this orgasm. Your breathing hitched and you swatted your face backward, your eyes rolling to the back of your head when you felt your second pinnacle of the night starting. "J-J-Joey. I'm going to-"

His tongue curled upward and flattened out wide, hitting the right places and you gushed onto it, the loudest moan fell out of your mouth, your lungs fought for air when the sudden wave of sensitivity filled your body, your thighs twitching as you wrapped your legs around the back of his head, squeezing to fill any gap you might have had between one another, which was slim to nothing. Joe took a deep breath in as he pulled away, moaning into your cunt one last time, your legs relaxing back to their previous position and it wasn't long till Joe was back up met with your face again. "Your pussy is heaven Y/N, so fucking pretty and ready for my cock, now I get to fuck you - tell me how you want it baby." Joe moved his lips back to your neck, sucking at a part that made the soft little hairs at the back of your head stand up right.

"Ruin me." You groaned noisily and that was all he needed to hear.

He lifted himself above you, using his hands to hold himself up right as he lined himself up at your entrance, Joe knew he wasn't going to last terribly long at the expense of wanting you this way for so long and from the way he'd just eaten you like a starving animal but the time he had, he'd make it count. "Anything for my girl." My girl.

He slowly pushed inward and you took the entirety of his length perfectly, though scrunched your face up a little from his size. "Fuck you're so tight, you ready?" He was so sexy yet so thoughtful even still, making sure that you were ok before he completely wrecked you just as you'd asked him to. How was it possible to be so horny for someone yet still have those damn butterflies flipping around in your stomach like it was something beknown, like love. You nodded briefly. "Fuck me Joey."

"Where have I heard that before?" You instantly threw your hands over your face, embarrassed at what he was referring to. His came up to swipe them away from your face so he could look at you whilst he started to thrust his hips, starting slow and then building up a pace which saw his cock slamming in and out, his balls slapping against your ass. Your foreheads pressed down together, looking in unison at the way he shattered your hole, the way he fucked you so good.

"You take my cock so well pretty girl, so fucking well." You clenched your walls around him, squeezing the length of his cock making his arms flex as he shuddered above you, the headboard was smacking itself against the wall the more frantic his hips moved into you. "Shit don't do that I'll cum." You met each other's stare, biting your lip hard and he knew the game you were playing. Ripping himself apart from and kneeling upward, towering over you without any warning he flipped you over. "Fucking hell, that peachy bum is perfect, I knew it." He was completely done and you were completely under any command he could lay upon you, the way he man handled you almost made you cum again. "Arse up now."

You got into position straight away, your head pressed into the sheets as you raised your back end upward and his cock met your twinging cunt once more, his hands gripping at your waist as he pounded into you from behind, his head arching backward as he felt himself getting closer. "Oh god yes you feel amazing, better than I ever thought possible. Now tell me who you belong to baby, I want to hear it."

Your head was pushed down into the sheets as you tried to use your words, though you simply couldn't get them out. "Answer me when I ask you a fucking question." He demanded, one hand raised into the air and spanked straight down to your cheek making your head lean to the side, letting out a whimpered yelp from the hard blow. "I'm yours Joey, I've always been yours."

"And I'm yours, my darling, all fucking yours. Shit-" He pulled out quickly, jerking at his cock desperately, a moan so hot you couldn't quite comprehend if you'd heard it right saw him spewing his seed all over your ass cheeks. Slowly bringing himself back down from heaven, you remained in the same position whilst he darted to the bathroom and cleaned you up with a towel he found on the floor. Little did he know, this particular towel was the one you'd use to clean up earlier.

You rolled onto your back one he'd sorted you out, wiping his cock dry and tossing it to the floor beside your robe, he joined next to you, laying beside you as your chests heaved for air, looking up to the plain ceiling finding some sort of way to fathom on what just occurred. Both of your feelings now out in the open good and proper.

"Come here." Joe opened his arm out to you, instantly pulling yourself to rest your head down on his chest as his fingers bent awkwardly to sooth your still naked back.

"That was amazing Y/N, jesus christ." He sighed, pecking his lips onto the top of your head, your smiles beaming so hard you couldn't quite rip them apart from your features, it was like they were permanently moulded on your faces forever.

"Perfect. I'm so glad I accidentally answered you." Your cheeks flushed at your response, you had to start thinking before you spoke, idiot. You changed the subject quickly. "But what did you mean when you said better than you ever thought possible, Joey?" He wasn't dumb, he knew exactly what you were trying to get out of him. Joe licked his lips, his throat producing a small stifled laugh.

"You're not the only one who's had indecent thoughts about their friend love."

You laughed together, not an ounce of what had just happened was uncomfortable, it came so natural like it was genuinely meant to happen; the way Joe made you feel was like nothing you'd ever felt in your entire life. And now you laid there naked, snuggling like a couple that had been in love for years.

"Friend?"

"Say yes to me taking you to dinner tomorrow night and I might just make you more than my friend." Joe pulled you in closer as you lifted yourself up to look over at him.

"I'd love to go to dinner with you tomorrow night." Your eyes spoke to one another as a pleasant silence fell between you. You loved him.

[sweet-villain]

What Did I Know? ~ S.H

@its-quinns-bread asked:

Hello babe

Got an idea for angst😩 Steve and reader being together but he's cheating on her with Nancy. Eddie is Steve's best friend but has a huge crush on reader and just try to warn her abt them but she won't listen(she already knows). So one day Steve decides to tell her and break up while Nancy is there. As he's about to talk the reader interrupts him by grabbing Eddie's vest and kisses him all tongue and teeth. Steve immediately forgets about the break up and freezes. It takes him like minutes to understand what happened at the moment before the reader say "i dump you" and walk out with Eddie following behind like a lost puppy, smirking at his ex best friend.

That hurt him way too much than he thought and he can't accept the fact that the reader left him and his bestie betrayed him. Then he realizes that he actually loves the reader, he was just blind by excitement with Nancy.

Give him pain

Angst

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You know it shouldn't bother you from the way he walks in the house smelling like her, the way he doesn't look at you the way he used, he would never talk to you the way you two used to, he would always leave a small peck on your cheek and give you one of those looks. Those looks don't work on you anymore. You know things have changed. You know he's acting different. You know he doesn't love you anymore. You know. You know he goes to see her. You know when he's not with you, he's with her.

Your heart aches knowing she was the one who got to kiss him the way you used to kiss him. You know she is the one who gets to be held in his arms. You know she is the one who he's fallen for, it was her all along.

You were never the option to him. Steve doesn't think about any of it. He throws you a guilty look when your not looking, and it hurts him that he has to do this to you. But he can't seem to have that feeling he seem to lost when he's around you.

The kisses don't feel the same anymore, the hugs aren't filled with warm as they used to. The looks aren't longing and there isn't any happiness between the two of you.

" Hey" he greets you, making his way over to you and wraps his arms around you. The hug is distance and unwanted. Your arm loosely wrap themselves around his neck as your nose picks up her scent on him. He's been with her while he told you he was at work. You bite your tongue already knowing where he was going. Robin didn't need to lie for him anymore.

You just knew.

" Hey" you greet him with a fake smile as he looks down at you once he pulls away from you from the hug. His hair is out of place than usual. She must of had ran her fingers through his hair. You used to love doing it and now you'd do only a strand if he laid his head in your lap or on your chest while he slept.

He steps back observing you. He takes notice the bags underneath your eyes and there is a hint of puffiness underneath there, there is a deep frown on your face too. It seems like he was looking at a different person.

Panic rises inside of him as he try to rack his brain if you had found out what's been doing. He doesn't want to keep hurting you like this anymore. You deserve better and he knew that. You knew that.

Things weren't good between the both of you and it was time to close the chapter.

-

You sat on the bleachers of the school, doodling into your notebook with one hand while the other supported your head as you tried to keep your mind occupied. Eddie has been staring at you a little bit ahead as he noticed you weren't in lunch today or the day before. He grew worried that something was going on.

" You're not cold up there?" a voice broke you out of your thoughts as you stopped drawing in your notebook and rose your head to look at who was talking. The edges of your lips lit up a little seeing your best friend making his way up the silver bleachers and settling down next to you.

" I'm fine, Eds" you tell him going back to doodling in your notebook. Eddie remained silent as he looks down at what you were sketching. You were quite an artist when you wanted to be. You'd sometimes help Eddie with his figurines for Hellfire.

There was something bothering Eddie that he couldn't just tell you out in the open. His mouth ran dry when his thoughts took over to what he saw this morning. He had saw Steve drop Robin off at the school but in the back, it wasn't you that came out of the car. It was Nancy Wheeler.

His mouth dropped opened at the sight he saw next. Steve had gotten out of his car and walked around the car as he pulled Nancy close to him and planted one on her. His lips were on hers. Eddie couldn't believe his best friend was cheating. His eyes rose to take a look at your face or whatever he could see, you thought you deserve better than Steve Harrington of all people.

Deep down, Eddie was into you more than he thought he would. He looked over at you seeing the way you were focusing on what you were trying to draw.

" Nothing is bothering you, are you sure your okay?" Eddie thought that maybe, just maybe you one what was going on and that he didn't need to tell you what he saw. He couldn't watch your heart break. He wanted nothing more than to throw Steve across the parking lot and kick him around.

" No, is something bothering you?" you closed your notebook in your lap and laid your pencil on top as you turned your head to focus on him. Eddie averted your gaze when you turned to look at him. It was like something was on his mind and he didn't really want to tell you. But his eyes, they held a different story.

" Eds" you placed your hand on top of his with your eyebrows scrunched together. " You know you can talk to me about anything, right?" He nodded. He felt like his heart would explode any minute now with just your hand on top of his.

"I-I.." he couldn't form the words in his mouth. This was really hard to tell you. He didn't want to see the heart break in your face and in your eyes. It would break his. He can't stand you getting hurt. You didn't deserve it.

" Spit it out" you encouraged him, trying to meet his eyes as he looked down at his lap becoming more nervous as the words were just on the tip of the tongue. But yet, he couldn't tell you. His palm began to sweat and he kept brushing them against the leg of his pants.

This was unfair to you.

" If you-" you were cut off by Eddie forming the words and finally telling you what he saw this morning.

" This morning, I saw Steve drop Robin off like he usually does and I thought you were in the back seat of his car" he swallowed the lump on his throat, averting his gaze from you still as he continued, " and in the back came out Nancy. Nancy Wheeler" he says. " She was there for some reason" he shrugged.

There is a long silence between the two of you and it was killing Eddie every minute from not hearing a word coming out from you.

" I know" you finally spoke the words that caught his attention as he his head turned to you, wide eyed as he gasped. He shifts around that he's facing you as he takes a hold of both your hands.

" You know? What do you mean?" you shrugged averting your gaze from him as your eyes gloss over. " I have known for awhile, Eddie. He's different and I have picked up on the signs."

His heart breaks in two hearing the hurt in your voice. It kills him to see you like this. He wants nothing more than to hold you, which he does as he pulls you into his arms.

" I'm so sorry, sweetheart. You don't deserve any of that" you nodded into his shoulder. Eddie could feel the tears staining his shirt, but he doesn't care. He cares more that your hurting and he can't do anything about it.

" Do you want me to talk to him?" he asks as an offer. You pulled away wiping your eyes with the back of your sleeves of your long sleeve shirt. " No, it's okay."

" Do you want to go home?" he asks, " I can drive you" you nodded putting your notebook into your backpack as you grab the straps but Eddie beats you to it as he grabs it.

" You don't have to" Eddie shook his head, shrugging off his jacket placing it around your shoulder. His scent fills you with warmth causing you to stop crying as you walk with his help down the bleachers onto the ground.

" Thank you" you tell him. His eyebrows scrunch together underneath his bangs in confusion. " For what?"

" For being here for me, you know? Just being my friend" as more than those words hurt him, he wanted make sure you were okay getting home. You walked with him to the van as he helped you into the passenger seat.

You were just glad to have Eddie by your side to look after you.

-

Steve has been pacing his living room and running his hand through his hair as he tries to come with a way he was going to end things with you. Nancy sat on the couch in the living room, playing with her hands as she watched him pace back and forth. He could be drilling a hole in the floor from the way he was walking back and forth.

" Would you stop already?" Nancy speaks up as Steve halt in his steps. He turns to face her. " She's going to hate me, she's never going to want to see my face ever again" he says.

" Well, you did cheat on her with me" Nancy states like it's obvious thing. " I know, I just.. she's really is the sweetest thing" he says to her as she settles down on the couch next to her.

She sends him a soft smile, " I'm sure it will be okay" she reassures him. Deep down Steve doesn't know how you'll take it honestly, lately things between the two of you have been so stiff.

There is a knock on the door, three times. It was a way to tell Steve that it was you knocking on the door. His heart races and all the feeling in his fingers lose contact as his head snaps towards the door.

" She's here" he says, swallowing the lump in his throat as he stand up and wipes his hands on his pants. " Take a deep breathe" Nancy tells him as Steve takes a couple as he makes his way to the door. What he didn't expect was for you to show up with Eddie by your side.

Eddie casts him a looks that is unreadable following you inside. You don't even look at Steve feeling that something was off. As you turned. to the living room, you freeze in your spot spotting Nancy on the couch. You cast a look at Eddie as he gives you are you okay look as his hand falls to the small of your back as he rubs it in comfort.

Your head turns back to look towards Nancy as she waves to you with a small smile.

" Hi, Eddie. Y/N" she says. Steve walks back in the living room swaying back and forth on the balls of his feet with his hands behind his back as he tries to find the words to tell you. He doesn't mind that Eddie is there, but yet he the words are just on the tip of his tongue.

" I have something I want to talk to you about " Steve says. He doesn't look you in the eye and instead looks at the ground like he has never seen it before in his life.

" Okay" you nodded, waiting for him to speak. Eddie kinda has the feeling on what this conversation is about but doesn't leave your side as his hand still lingers on your back in comfort. You were glad he was there with you.

" I know things haven't been the best between us" he continues, he can't really put it all at once. You take notice of the way he is trying to say it out loud and in his own way.

" Hold on a moment" you tell him. Steve's head snaps up in confusion but he nods letting you know that he was waiting. You turned to face Eddie as he tilts his head in confusion.

" What are you-" he doesn't get to finish his sentence as his eyes go wide feeling your mouth on him. It's not a gentle soft kiss either. It's more with teeth and tongue. It surprises not only Eddie who still in shock that you were on him like this. But Steve's mouth drops open at the sight of you kissing his best friend.

His heart feels like someone ran over it over and over again until it was no longer in a whole piece. His eyes brim with tears as they run down his cheeks. Eddie's eyes closes as he kisses you back with the intensity as his hands falls to your waist, pulling you into him.

Nancy is shocked herself what is going on but more importantly how it's affecting Steve. Steve couldn't form words as his mouth opened and closed like a fish. Eddie pulls away from you casting a look towards Steve to see the heart break look on his face.

You turn to look at your now ex boyfriend, Steve who's in shock and heart broken at what just happened. " I dump you" your words grab his attention as his eyes turn to you.

" Y-you c-cant" he mumbles through his tears but you weren't listening as you grabbed onto Eddie's wrist and pulling him out the front door leaving a heart broken Steve Harrington to be comforted by Nancy.

Eddie couldn't stop smirking at the sight of Steve as he left. He didn't really feel bad about his best friend. It was his fault he let a great girl like you slip through his fingers.

He hoped that Steve was happy with Nancy now. That's what he wanted after all.

-

Steve can't shake the fact that you broke up with him to be with his best friend. His best friend out of all the people. He could feel the sting in his heart from the betrayal from Eddie. But he now knows what real heart break feels like, the scene repeats in his head the way you grabbed onto Eddie and kissed him.

Had you knew all along that he was cheating on you with Nancy? Did you do that out or revenge? Did you like Eddie at all?

His answers are answered when Dustin informs him that you knew all long he was with Nancy. How much he tried to cover it up, it didn't matter. You knew. You didn't do out of revenge, maybe a little but you realized there was one person all along that was right in front of you that loved. you and adored you.

Eddie.

He made you more happier than Steve ever did. He was the one you wanted to be with and Eddie was more than happy to be yours.

You stood outside of Benny's just as a familiar BMW pulled up, Steve had taken noticed of you standing there with a bag of food in your hands. You are waiting for Eddie, he had to be back to help Wayne with something before he told you he would come back to get you.

He steps out of his car and his hair didn't look like it used to. It didn't have that Harrington hair anymore, it looked more greasy than usual. His eyes had bags underneath them and they were red from the looks of it. His lips were in a deep frown as he turned to face you with a wrinkled long sleeve on with a pair of sweats that looked to have stains on them.

" Steve?" you asked overlooking his appearance. He halt in front of you with the keys in his hands. " Did you ever love me?" he asks. You snorted out before answering him, " I used to love you Harrington, but I should be asking you that."

" I did love you, it took to realize that I always did after you ended things with me and since then I regret letting you walk out my door that day" he says.

You nod, " well if we didn't end things then I wouldn't of been the happiest I have ever been" those words hurt him with a slice to his heart.

He nods, " Happy for you."

" Thank you" there is silence between the two of you before a van pulls up. Eddie parks it right in the back of Steve with a few inches away and quickly get out of the car. His fist to his side and jaw set seeing Steve standing there.

" Hi Eds" you greet your boyfriend as he wraps an arm around your shoulder and pulls you to his side. He turns to look at Steve, " Harrington."

" Munson" Steve greets him with a nod. The two never returned as friends after you broke up with Steve. The betrayal hurt Steve more than ever. It was another slice to his heart.

" Is he bothering you, sweetheart?" Eddie asks. You can feel the stiffness coming from him. You put a hand on his chest to grab his attention. He turns to look down at you and all the anger vanishes from him.

" He's not, but let's go home?" you asked. Home you referred to his trailer as you spend most night there with him.

Eddie nodded, taking the bags of food from your hands as he bumps shoulders with Steve.

" See you around, Harrington" He says as he makes his way to the van. You cast one look at Steve, " Take care of yourself" you tell him, sending him a soft smile.

" Thanks, and you too. I hope he treats you better than I ever did" Steve says as he motions to Eddie.

" He does" those were the last words you said to Steve as you walk past him to the van and getting into the passenger seat. Steve watches as Eddie leans over to kiss you and looks back at him with a smirk.

Steve hangs his head as he felt his heart crash to the floor. You were happy without him. You didn't need him. You didn't want him.

He was going to regret what he did to you for the rest of his life.

[sixofpomegranates]

All of them are Eddie Munson fics since I am going through some severe brain rot because of this spicy golden retriever.

The order is random and not indicative of how much I liked them. There is no ranking, just sharing some really good pieces of work so we can all enjoy it!

10 Recommendations || 🐇 = My opinion. || Pink Color = SMUT

As You Wish (series) by @corroded-hellfire

➢ Summary: When Eddie isn’t appreciated like he should be, his babysitter feels the need to step in and comfort him.

🐇: I am OBSESSED with the entire universe. Like, really, really obsessed. Older!Dad!Eddie has my whole heart. His boys too. Brittany can go to hell. Long story short: Highly Recommended! It rearranged my brain chemistry. Oh, and it's spicy. || Not sure if it's still ongoing, but the way I am stalking the author's page I’ll sure as hell find out.

Eddie Had A Little Lamb (one-shot) by @honey-flustered

➢ Summary: Eddie is trying to be good and with your help, he could be exactly that. But Kas, on the other hand, thrives in all that is unholy and he’ll stop at nothing to bring you and Eddie to the dark side.

🐇: This rearranged my brain chemistry. I want more like this. I love this. Send me recommendations with fics like this. Jesus H. Christ.

who’s to say [pt.2] by @quinnsbower

➢ Summary: your father, jason carver, promises you one thing and can’t deliver it to you. you decide to get back at him and it him where it really hurts: eddie munson.

🐇: This is responsible for getting me hooked on older!eddie. This is the reason I will be writing an older!eddie fic. This rearranged my brain chemistry. I liked this way too much. So good. Sweet, old guy Eddie.

Caught Me Slippin’ (one-shot) by @uglypastels

➢ Summary: [modern!au] feeling insecure about your skills in bed, you decide to find someone who could help you learn. Except, when the guy actually shows up, a mistake seems to have occurred. Fortunately, you're both quite adaptable (or, at least, you try to be), and the night quickly takes off into unexpected territories.

🐇: No, because YOU hurt my feelings. You gave me an amazing one-shot with banging smut and then broke my heart. I love you and this piece, and forgive you, but damn.

Honey, I'm Home! (series) by @trashmouth-richie

➢ Summary: you were desperate for a roommate after Nancy got married and moved out. An ad in the paper goes unanswered until someone comes knocking on the door.

🐇: Obsessed, but I’d kill this menace!Eddie. I do not have enough self-control to not go to prison for ending this feral raccoon’s existence. || It's still ongoing. Eventual smut.

The Soulmates (series) by @neonghostlights

➢ Summary: Eddie Munson never thought he would be one of the lucky ones. Him being the only one in his family to be given a soulmate mark was a miracle. What happens when his soulmate is not the one he wanted? Will he be able to give up his dream girl to be with the one he’s meant to be with? Or will he just have to learn to ignore the other half of his soul?

🐇: Like it a lot. I found it through a reblog and read all the existing parts in one go. It's a Soulmate AU, the first one I read. || It's still ongoing.

You Give Love A Bad Name [pt.2] by @cinemaquinn

➢ Summary: eddie munson was a world famous rockstar. and, apparently, an asshole. but you weren't one to believe rumours, so when eddie asks to meet you, who are you to say no?

Conviction (one-shot) by @tiannasfanfic

➢ Summary: Life takes an unexpected turn when a one time fling with your best friend leads to an unplanned pregnancy. Will years of friendship be enough to build a solid marriage off of...or are you destined for heartbreak due to a wandering eye like the town rumor mill predicts?

🐇: This was so cute. Especially the ending. Yes, this was spicy. Very good.

Destructive Solutions (one-shot) by @bimbobaggins69

➢ Summary: after becoming roommates with your high school crush and finally getting out of your crazy strict parents house, you get a little too close to him and his best friend (your coworker) —but they’re straight, right?

🐇: yes. I am Steddie x f!Reader trash. I love it when the chemistry is there. And it was there. I loved this so much that I am writing my thoughts on this for the 7th time now because tumblr is a bitch.

Show Me (one-shot) by @bimbobaggins69

➢ Summary: you accidentally stumble upon your best friend/roommates porn stash, you quickly learn he’s the main star. After seeing him in ways you never have, will your friendship ever be the same?

🐇: yes. yes. You may have noticed that that's the second fic from @bimbobaggins69 That's because I found her through reblogs and since then am sure that her fics don't miss, no matter what she posts.

Seriously.

Fuck Tumblr for always deleting the last couple of sentences.

[springautumn]

One Word Fic Recs II

We're back again! I really liked the first one I did, so here's the second! (18+ MDNI)

From now on, all fics will be reblogged on my sideblog @theseasonslibrary. I'll be writing on this main blog if anybody is interested!

Shout out to these Amazing authors:

@luveline @corroded-hellfire @tiannasfanfic @cinemaquinn @ceriseheaven @icallhimjoey

Perfect:

Love Comes Walking In- @corroded-hellfire

In Bloom - @suncatcherss

Breathtaking:

Conviction - @tiannasfanfic

The Soulmates (series)- @idkidkwrites

Remarkable:

Not Alone Tonight- @majestyeverlasting

I Wish You Would- @munsonsreputation

Something New- @newlips

Extraordinary:

Might Love Me Baby - @superblysubpar

Everlong (series)- @andvys

No words, just applause:

Saccharine- @whosjunglejim4322

You Give Love a Bad Name & part two- @cinemaquinn

[eddieschains]

sorry for distracting ur girl @cinemaquinn but we literally NEEDED to give each other a room tour and neither of us know when to stop 🤭

[unsolved-duvall]

username change!

eddies-hellfireshirt → cinemaquinn

i’ll still be posting all the same st/eddie/joe related stuff! i just get bored easily and wanted a new username 🏹🤎

[babybluebex]

you’re so pretty! i hope you have such a good time today! <3

thank you! i’m in line for the photo and i’m losing my mind omg

[munsonthemisfit]

thank you :( what movie are we gonna watch? i don’t mind as long as i’m with you. just want to lie down with your arms wrapped around me, maybe leave little kisses all over you, is that okay?

How about we watch Labyrinth? Or Gremlins?

You can leave as many kisses all over me as you’d like, want me to play with your hair whilst we’re watching?

[lovejosephquinn]

Have you got any recommendations on Eddie / Joseph blogs that really stand out to you with their writing? Yours is amazing btw <3

Thank you my lovely 🥰 Everybody's writing is completely different to the other and that's what makes each and every one of them stand out from the crowd. Here's a mixture of blogs to feast your eyes upon! Make sure to reblog your favourite works of theirs if you don't mind for other people to see, it's much appreciated 💛 @joeschains @choke-me-eddie @cinemaquinn @joejoequinnquinn @quinnypixie @icallhimjoey @msgexymunson @quinnsmunson @ceriseheaven @harringtons-cupid @eddiemunsons-missingnipple @eddiethefreakkmunson @hellfiremunsonn @josephfakingquinn @munsonsfairygarden @mybffjoe @pleasantlycrazyworld @daleyeahson @paranoidmunson

[sweet-villain]

What You Put Me Through~ E.M

Anonymous asked:

Song fic with I hate myself for loving you.

Reader is the lead singer of the band and dated Eddie but they broke up for some reason

The gang hears that the reader is doing a show the next town over and they all go and force Eddie to go even though he keeps reminding them that you two broke up

Angst

@woahlifehitsyahuh @cinemaquinn @pleasantlycrazyworld. @moonchildquinn @haileighboi @ceriseheaven @harringtons-cupid

He stared down at the rings on his fingers as Steve mentioned that you were in the next town over with your band, having a show there. It was like the world had stopped for a moment as Eddie overheard the excitement from Steve. Everything felt like a blur with your name dropping from his mouth. Steve had given you a call once he heard you were coming close by.

After graduation and the break up with Eddie, your life changed. You and your band have signed a record deal and making music around the world. You didn't know how it happened, one day you were a girl singing your heart out in Hawkins and the next you were on the front of magazines, over the radio your voice was heard, you had became a sensation.

Midnight, gettin' uptight, where are you?

Something in Eddie stirred once he heard that you were chasing his dream. The green monster inside of him knocked on his door, he talked to you about being on tour with you and making music together. That dream sank when the two of you broke up.

" What do you mean you don't wanna do this anymore?" you asked, standing next to his bed as he had Sweetheart over his lap. Rather than looking at you, his girlfriend and the one person he thought meant everything to him, didn't.

You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two

He swallowed the lump in his throat, " I don't wanna be with you anymore" he spatted. His own eyes meeting your own. Something in him changed, he had overheard that you wanted to leave Hawkins. When were you going to tell him? Were you planning to take him? What was this even to you anymore?

" Why? What did I do?" he laughed, putting Sweetheart next to him. " Are you not listening or did you not clean your ears? I don't. want. to. be. with. you. anymore. Simple" he says getting off his bed as he pushed past you to get a beer out of the fridge.

" Just like that, we're done?" he popped open his beer as he chugged it. " Fine, have it your way. I hope your happy with this" you gritted your teeth in anger. Eddie watched you walk out of the trailer and out of his life that day. The following three days, he drove to your house to find out that you were gone. Your parents had informed him that you move on from him. They didn't tell him what you were going to do or where you were going.

You had informed your friends, Steve, Robin, Nancy, Jonathan and the others that you were going to be a rockstar. You were going to make a dream happen, your dream and you were right. You made it happened within a couple of months.

Next thing everyone knew, you were the rockstar everyone wanted to be. The first time Eddie saw you on the cover of the magazine with your bad, he threw it across the room in anger. You were busy making a life doing what you dreamt of while he was stuck in Hawkins, with sadness filling him every day and the hurt that he let you slip out of his life.

I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you

No matter where you were, or what you were doing Eddie kept thinking about you. You never left his mind or his heart. He never looked at another girl the same way he looked at you. You weren't them. You never were going to be them. You were one person he wanted and he regret letting you go that night. He regret breaking your heart because he broke his that night too. He felt so stupid, the one good thing in his life that he had, he let it go just like that.

Hey Jack, it's a fact they're talkin' in town

" Did you get tickets?' Robin asks Steve. Steve pulled out a couple of tickets from the back pocket of his pants flashing them. Nancy stood up as she over looked to see if they were real. Your bands name was on it and the time, the date and where the concert was happening.

" These are real" she says tracing over your bands name with her finger. Eddie sat silently as he listened to them talk. His heart clenched knowing he was going to be dragged down to see you. Did you remember him? What was your reaction going to be? He was scared and at the same time happy. He wanted to see how the stage made you feel, how you looked and listen to the crowd shout for you.

I turn my back and you're messin' around

" Eddie, your coming. Right?" Steve asks. They all knew that you and Eddie broke up before you left to become a rockstar. They knew your dream and his. His didn't happen. Yours did. They knew that Eddie still was hurting. They watch him take girls home, to never be seen again. He didn't tell them their name or anything else. They were just girls.

His head shot up to meet Steve's gaze, nodding his head without giving them a verbal answer. He felt that if he did speak out, and your name slipped his lips than he would break in front of them. He misses you so much and wishes he could go back in time to erase all the pain he had caused you. All the things he said. He just wants to see you.

I'm not getting jealous, don't like lookin' like a clown

He was going to take this night, to see you one more time. To see the happiness on your face. To see the career you build. Without him by your side.

I think of you every night and day

He stood in line waiting to be let in with his hands in his pockets, he hasn't said a word the whole ride to the venue. He hadn't know what you think or say to you if you were going to talk to him. Were you? He had heard that Steve was the only one that spoke to you on the phone. He wanted to badly ask Steve if you said anything about him or even mention his name. But he bite down on his tongue and held back.

" Hey" he heard Robin nudge him with her shoulder, he was too busy in his thought to notice the looks on his friends faces that they were giving him. His eyes met her own as she looked at him worried. " Do you want to stay in the car? I get it if you don't wanna see her" he shakes his head, his curls bouncing as he answers her, " I'll be fine."

Those words didn't reach to her liking as she sighed to herself, " I know it must not be easy to know she's living her dream without you. I remember the two of you talk about it all the time. I'm sorry" she says. " Do you want a hug?" she adds.

His lips quiver as he thinks back to the time you both gushed to each other the way you were going to live on tour together, traveling the world and making music as a couple. But that ship sank and it was all his fault. Arm wrapped around him before he even spoke a word to Robin, she wrapped her arms around him pulling him into her. Another pair of arms wrap themselves around him, and then a pat on his back from most likely Steve.

" You don't have to do this, Munson" Steve says once they pull away from him. Eddie shook his head again locking eyes with his friend.

" I want to see her, even if it's going to hurt me. I need it" he says. They all cast him a sympathetic look. He doesn't really need to look at them to know that they felt bad for bringing him with them. But he needs to see you, it would help him move on if that was the choice. He knows that he's going to live with this hurt for the rest of his life. You were the love of his life, always will be. No one made him feel like you made him feel.

The feeling was never going to disappear.

You took my heart, and you took my pride away

The line moved up and they entered the venue. There were so many people coming to see your band play. Eddie's brown doe eyes widen as he gasped seeing the crowd.

" We're up front" Steve informs them and looks at Eddie for his reaction. Eddie gulps as he follows them without a word, he stands next to Robin as she rubs his back in comfort.

" I'm sorry" she says like it was going to fix everything for him. For what he felt. His eyes met hers for a moment as he shrugged. He wanted to run outside for a cigarette in hopes it would calm him down. He felt his hands become clammy and his mouth felt dry. Was he ready to see you?

His eyes found the microphone that you'd be using to sing and he found your guitar on the stand. It was a maroon color and looks as beautiful as ever. His mind raced if you knew he was coming and if Steve told you that he was here.

I hate myself for loving you

You, on the other hand stood backstage with a leather jacket on with make up ready but you had spotted him in the front row. He looked as good as ever with his hair a little longer and his brown doe eyes searching like he didn't know if he belonged there. He sported a leather jacket of his own and his hands gripped the railer with those rings on his fingers. He didn't change at all, a little scruff on his face was all that was added to him. But he looked much older, lost and searched. Was he searching for you?

You had spotted Steve, Nancy and Robin as they stood with him waiting for the show to start. A hand appeared on your shoulder scaring you. You jumped putting a hand on your heart as you turned to Andy, your drummer.

" What's up?" he asked. His eyes followed where you were looking at and he must put two and two together because it looked like a light bulb went over his head. " Is that him? Is that Eddie?" he asked. He knew the answer already because you had described your first heart break and your first love to them to a T.

" yes" you nodded your head turning around to face your bands mates. You all huddle together as a ritual before the show, for some good luck and for some fun during the show. You have been doing this for awhile with them.

Can't break free from the the things that you do

You put your arms over Andy's shoulder, your drummer and Pepper's shoulder, your bassist as you all shouted and roared to have a good time and shouted your bands name. A shot was offered to you by Andy as he knew you would need it for tonight.

" You know me all to well" he smirks as he downs one too. The first one to go out was Andy waving a hand in the air with two drum stick in his hand hearing the crowd shout for him. The front row screamed his name and reached out their hands as they had tears strolling down their face. The rest of the band started to head out, Pepper shot you a thumbs up before she headed out to her spot.

You took a deep breathe knowing you were the last one to go out there, running fingers through your hair putting a smile on your face as you walked out. The crowd screamed your name, the lights beamed at you shining at you on the spot light.

I wanna walk but I run back to you

" Hello! Hello!" you waved while the other gripped the mic, adjusting it. The crowd were screaming, screaming your name and a bunch of I love you and marry me signs were raised over people's heads. " My name is Y/N, but you already knew that" the crowd laughed along with your bandmates. You introduced your band and each member as they waved to the crowd. " We have been doing this for some quiet time now, and love every minute of it. I hope you enjoy the show and if you know the lyrics of the songs, sing with me. Dance with me. Be loud and more importantly enjoy the night" you blew kisses to the crowd as the first song started.

Your eyes catch where Steve stands as he looks up at you. Once he notices that you spotted him, he waves excitingly and jumps up and down. He's gushing over you even though he knows since the two of you were kids.

A smile appears on your face, in mid break of the song you spoke into the microphone.

" There are some long time friends in the house tonight, Hi Steve, Hi Robin, Hi Nancy..." your eyes turned to lock with Eddie's, those brown eyes that you used to get lost in many times, " Hi, Eddie."

Eddie's eyes widen hearing his face as his mouth open and closed hearing his name like it was something new he had never had heard before. He looks around to make sure it wasn't another Eddie that you were talking about.

That's why I hate myself for loving you

As you continue to sing, you kept glancing over to him. It's been such a long time since the last time you saw him. Many memories flash through your mind as you over look at the crowd. Eddie was the one that pushed you to sing, push you to your dreams and without him, you wouldn't of been here.

Daylight, spent the night without you

" Are you doing okay?" Robin shouted over the music, looking at Eddie to see he has never taken his eyes off of you. You were like an angle that he had never seen before. He was in awe of your voice, of your beauty and how you were singing your heart out. His breath hitched when you first looked at him and his heart sped up feeling it tug at his heart strings.

His shoulder shook him out of his thought looking over at Robin, she had concern written on her face. " I'm okay" he nodded reassuring her. But was he? How was he suppose to be okay after this? You were right there in near reach from him but he couldn't move from his spot. Your voice melted him as his hands on the rail gripped harder.

But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do

" There is someone in the crowd tonight that put me through a lot during my teenage years back in high school. He was the love of my life, at least that's what I thought until he took my heart and threw it in the trash. But I want to let this person know, they are forgiven and they always have a home in my heart" you spoke into the microphone over looking down at Eddie. His eyes brim with tears knowing he was the person you were talking about.

God, he hated himself for what he put you threw and how things ended between the two of you.

You sent him a small smile reassuring him that you were past on what happened between him and your relationship. Things were better.

I'm over being angry 'bout the hell you put me through

As the show came to the end, the rest of your band lined up next to you raising your hand in the air as the crowd cheered. Your hair was matted to your forehead. The set list went by fast and the night was coming to the end.

" Thank you for having us, we hope you get home safe and enjoyed tonight. We love you!" you spoke into the microphone before leaving it on the stand for the crew to get.

Hey man, bet you can't treat me right

You had taken your leather jacket during one of the songs, putting it on one of the stairs next to where Andy's drums were. You grabbed it back in your hands following your band, backstage. They all high fives each other.

" Here" Pepper dropped a cold water bottle in your hands. " Thanks" you nodded and uncapping it as you downed it down. You walked past your band dropping the empty water bottle in the trash when you hear a familiar voice.

You just don't know what you was missin' last night

" You can't go back there" one of the security guards said blocking those that wanted to come backstage. You appeared from behind the curtain to see it was Steve and the rest of the gang trying to get backstage to see you.

" What's the problem here?" you asked, Robin breathe hitched as her eyes glazed over seeing that it was you standing behind the security guard. Nancy and Steve gasped at the sight of you. The three of them couldn't grasp still that this was really you. That they came to see you and you were real.

" They are trying to come backstage and-" you cut him off with a pat on his chest. " I got it, it's okay" he grumbled underneath his breath, looking at you as he says something about not being paid enough for his job.

I wanna see you beggin', say, "Forget it" just for spite

" Hi" Steve is the first one to greet you as he comes closer, hesitant lifting his arms up for a hug not really sure if that's allowed or not. " You can hug me, Harrington. I'm not made of glass, you know" Steve chuckled as he wraps his arms around you not caring if you were sweaty after the show. Your own arms wrap themselves around him, hugging him.

" Good to see you" you mumbled into his shoulder. His response was squeezing you tighter. Your eyes looked towards Eddie to see him turned to the side, his face covering by his hair as he looked down not really wanting to be closer than he already was. Steve pulled away as you were embraced by Nancy.

I think of you every night and day

" You and your voice are incredible, god I missed you" she says pulling away as she looks at you. The same old you stood there, just hair plastered to forehead and sweat running down the side of your face with eyeliner underneath your eyes that was smudged.

" Such a rockstar" Nancy says, " so proud of you"

" We are so proud of you" Robin corrected her as she embrace you next. Her hug was tight as she held you in her arms. " God you stink" she says pulling away causing you to laugh.

" Well, you know I just rocked out a show. It's comes with the job" she laughed as she stepped back.

You took my heart, and you took my pride away

You weren't too sure if he wanted to see you or talk to you. His head was turned to the side still as his brain tried to understand that he was still here and your were only a few feet away. He could hear you as you talked to the rest and now he couldn't even move to look at you.

I hate myself for loving you

Steve turned his head towards Eddie, trying to catch his eyes. He could tell Eddie was not doing his best seeing the eyes glazing over and his lips quivering. Robin put a hand on his shoulder to comfort him. His fist clenched and unclenched by his side. He swallowed the lump in his throat.

You waited and waited for him to say something but it never came. Did he hate you? He couldn't even look at you and that stung your chest.

Can't break free from the things that you do

" Well, I should be going..." you started to say and that's when his head moved as he looked you in the eyes. Those brown eyes of his were spilling with tears down his cheeks like waterfalls. He hated the fact that after all this time, he can't move on because you consumed him. The thought of you, the scent of you, you were even where. He still loves you and hates for letting you go.

Your own eyes fought the tears as you locked eyes with him. The one person that you thought was your everything turned into the bandages that kept falling from your cracked heart.

I wanna walk but I run back to you

" I...I..I'm happy....for.. you" he says through his swallowed tears. It was a hard pill to swallow. You were living his dream day in and day out while he felt lost and unwanted.

" Thank you" it melted his heart hearing you say it. " It's all because of you I'm here and doing this" you saw the flash of hurt in his eyes pass but it was gone before you could question him about it.

You hadn't noticed that Steve, Nancy and Robin had walked away giving you this time with him. You had no idea what this was, but seeing him brought a lot of memories and hurt that you were feeling.

That's why I hate myself for loving you

" I'm sorry for hurting you, and I hate myself more than anything that every time I look at you or listen to one of your songs, you are there with me..." he sniffles as he speaks. He has to tell you how he feels even if it was going to hurt him.

I hate myself for loving you

" You are and were the only person that made me feel loved and important" you were listening to him and every word leaving out of him was getting harder and harder to walk away from.

" You're living the dream, the one we talked about. We were going to do it together around the world. Eddie and Y/N" you nodded, licking your lips from the salty tears.

" You ended things between us, Eddie. You broke my heart" he nodded, " you ended our future there. It was gone just like that and I couldn't stay."

Can't break free from the the things that you do

" You didn't tell me you were going to leave for good, I didn't get a goodbye or one last word in" He shook his head as he took a step towards you. His eyes were red as more tears streamed down his cheeks, " I know I hurt you and I never deserved you, but you could of told me you were leaving to do this" he motions with his hands at the almost empty venue. " It wasn't fair to find out from your parents, from Steve and Robin... I wanted one last night with you.." he mumbles.

I wanna walk but I run back to you

" It wouldn't be fair for the both of us, you broke up with me and I needed to go. I needed to get away, everything was hurting me and I couldn't do it. I couldn't face you to tell you goodbye like that"

He chuckled as he wipes his nose with the corner of his sleeve.

" I'm never going to be able to get past you, because you were the love of my life and always will be. There is no one like you, not a rockstar like you" you chuckled with him.

That's why I hate myself for loving you

" I've tried to be with other people, but I can't. They aren't you. They will never be you"

" What do you want me to Eddie? I can't go back to you, I can't let myself get hurt" his hands reached out to take yours in his.

I hate myself (ow, uh)

" What if we went back to being together? What if we gave this another shot?" his eyes lock with yours trying to find the answer that would make him feel better. To make this all better. But there wasn't one that he found in your eyes.

" Eddie..." he shook his head not liking the sound of his name falling from your lips like that. " We can't" his lip quivered as his shoulder shook with disappointment and hurt.

I hate myself (ow, uh)

" You'll find someone" you tell him, but he stepped back with tears in anger shouting, " No!" he shook his head. " I don't want someone. I want you."

For loving you I hate myself (ow, uh)

" It doesn't work like that Eddie. I'm not home most of the year, I am always traveling with the band or I'm making new music" he shrugged. " Take me with you" he mumbles, " Take me on tour. I'll help..."

For loving you I hate myself (ow, ow, ow)

" Oh Eddie, you're always such a sweetheart. You deserve more than what I can give you. You deserve better"

He shook his head again, wiping his eyes harshly from the tears.

" I want you!" he shouted, " I don't want better. I don't want anyone but you, please..."

" You have to let me go, Eddie. You have to move on"

For loving you I hate myself (ow) I hate myself For loving you

You took a step towards him, cupping his face with both your hands. Your thumbs wiped away the remaining tears.

" You're so beautiful, always were" his cheeks hinted a little red, breath hitching watching you lean closer as your lips fall on his. They moved as one, Eddie closed his eyes as he kissed back getting what he can. It was way too fast and as his eyes fluttered opened, he stood alone in the venue watching as you walked out the back door with his heart in your hands.

God, he hated how he felt and how after all this time he was always going to love you.

His first love.

[b-ritney]

MY FAVS LIST PT.2

for some reason every time I try to add a new fic to my original favs list it says there is an "Error processing my post" *rolling my eyes* I have so many fics to add to the list tho, get ready to add some new HEAT to your TBR :)

PART 1 You DO NOT want to miss these

mostly Stranger Things and Avatar lmao

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Sleepy and Needy in Steves Lap by @lunarzstarz SMUT

Oh my f'ing GAWD, this is *chef's kiss* this writer is SO talented.

she's gonna save me by @newlips Fluff

Bestie im on my knees. You killed that fr, mechanic Eddie never disappoints. :) THIS IS A 2 PaRt SeriES so far!!

as long as you need by @lilacletter SMUT

As promised I was FINALLY able to add this to the list! :) I love the kindness and attentiveness the writer portrayed in Eddie it's so PerFecT, this writer is sooo talented! Get ready to MELT like a popsicle in JULY.

You Give Love A Bad Name by @cinemaquinn SMUT SMUT SMUT

Also as promised I was finally able to add this to the list :) come get ya'll JUICE!!! I am LIVING for the breaks in his dominant demeanor. Like even though he's a dick he still wants her to feel good and be comfortable. BUT THE ENDING TORE MY ASS UPPPPP girllllll it's soooo good!

Ok i had to come back and add more to this bc i've now read it 3 times.

You know when you're looking for that perfect dynamic in a fic that is the sexiest to you? This is that for me. Like you can tell that even though he is cocky and has the rockstar persona when it gets down to it you can tell he genuinely cares that she is comfortable and enjoying herself. and the CHECKING IN had me giggling and kicking my feet like... he is giving me whiplash in the best way... its like a fatal attraction, he draws you in with the bad boy persona and then switches up and is all sweet and caring and then goes right back to the bad boy. I'm so excited to see how the next part goes.

Lets Go Dont Wait by @carolmunson spicy Fluff

Girl... you've once again blessed me with a masterpiece, I'm officially dubbing it a New York Times best-seller

Check out @pandorxx and @tiredmamaissy for some KILLER avatar smut... I mean both of these writers are so talented... and the content they serve is *bitting my knuckles* SO PeRfecT.... if you love ten-foot-tall, blue, SHREDDED cat people then they've got you covered fr fr <3

Satiate me by @zujime SMUT

hehehehehe this is.. hehehe sensational... we love a tired, hazy dick down... at least I do. *cries in virgin* Listen... The casual dominance had me at attention like YES SIRRRRR when he goes, “Open up for me, yeah?” and “Tongue out, baby, come on.” I was GONE. seriously fabulous work <3

Just call me Mr.Munson by @bimbobaggins69 SMUT

Listen the idea of sucking dick has never been appealing to me.. only just recently have I discovered this itty bitty part of me that might like it a little... but THIS, this has given me a whole new perspective lmao consider my horizons broadened, and the idea not completely off the table LMFAO <3 awesome fic

Eddie Shotgunning blurb by @wndalovebot SpICy <3

Doing this with someone is in my top 3 fantasies lmao you should have heard the scream I scrumpt lmao I am a fucking fool for this. You know what I would do if this ever happened to me.... I honestly don't know... but my knees are weak just thinking about it. Sooo Good! <3

Steddie Tattooing blurb by @idkmanijustwannawrite SMUT

Y'all already know this was being added immediately, lmao this first time I got a tat was a religious experience bc I discovered so much about myself lmaooo I was like "you know what would be good with this???" ...Head... all these thoughts were internal. Don't worry I have some semblance of decency lmao then I found out that there is a whole community of people who think the same thing on here lmao all jokes aside, this is so so so good go give it a read, show the author some love, you will not be disappointed. <3

Mafia Eddie by @oneforthemunny

This shit has me giggling like a fool, I can not talk enough about how talented this writer is, I am on my knees fr queen. It's the type of writing you read over and over and NEVER get tired of. <3 Mafia Eddie does something to me frrrrr.

Jake Sully x Bimbo gf by @coffeeandbookskeepmealive SMUT

This keeps me up at night lmao I'll be so for real I'm in between finals rn and I read this before taking my next test... I can't tell you how many times I've read it already.... I'm not normally into the lil housewife type thing but BRUH this had me crossing my legs and giggling fr. What I like about this is that it fits the prompt but Jake doesn't dehumanize her for being lil slut for him. He still treats her nice and wants her to feel good and that makes me FERAL. Go show this writer some love! <3

The Truest Statement by @newlips 18+

I know this isn't necessarily fan fiction lmao but this is going to live in my head forever... lmfao 'big stretch' bruh i'm gone I blacked out.

Something Extra by @luveline SMUT

This was in my first favs list but the damn link broke at some point so I wanted to put it here again because it is sooo good and deserves proper recognition!!! putting my old comments below :)

It's the way he so sexily explains what he's gonna do to the reader and asks if it's ok and everything, we love a respectful man UGH actually though it is so so so so good.

I Need Something By @hellfiremunsonn SMUT

This is the first time I've seen an author (yes an AUTHOR you are so talented <3) mention a lil panic moment after sex which is more common than people might think, there are so many emotions flooding your system at once. and HOLY F this was just all-around amazing... when he "hey hey hey baby you're okay." My cheeks got HOT fr. <3

The "yes" Policy by @pinkrelish Fluff EVENTUAL SMUT

I have mentioned this before but I am just now on the last part and I want to tell the author with all honesty... your writing style blows my mind I was enthralled in every sentence and I could read this over and over and over... you are beyond incredibly talented.. this is the type of story that could EASILY become a brilliant movie and YOU did that! I really hope you are proud of yourself bc all jokes aside this series is a masterpiece. EVERYONE should read this.

Rabbit Food by @oneforthemunny SMUT

The truth is that I need to go through and write a commentary on all your master lists bc everything you write is gold but for some reason this week DILF Eddie has me in a fucking chock hold. Also, new kink unlocked... thank you. LMAO This is another author I can't recommend enough! <3

us versus them by @myosotisa SMUT

You should know I will be back to read this over and over and if I could leave 1000 hearts I would bc GOOD GAWD this did something to me fr fr. This part in particular:

"Did so good for me, sweetheart.

So pretty, so perfect.

Come back to me, baby. Nice and easy."

yeah, I died a little. As in I blushed so hard I had to get up and walk away to cool down. Take a bow bc you DID THAT!!

Phone Sex Operator Eddie by @bimbobaggins69 SMUT

pt. 2

Lord have mercy. Let me start with, this is relatable af bc not only can I not talk to men in person but I can barely make phone calls LMFAO. This is a 2 part series so far y'all come get you some this is such a cute idea.

Sort of similar... I got a phone call from a military recruiter that is always trying to get me and my friends to join the Marines and his voice was so sexy I just ended up flirting with him the whole time (respectfully). Then we found out it's the same marine that we see in person at the mall all the time lmao so I've met this dude in person bahaha (once again respectfully.)

I fr was like "oh haha I wish you could see who you're talking too, the military wouldn't want me." BAHAHA my ass was FISHING for compliments BAHAHA

TBC... <3