#chrolloesz

[minniepetals]

SOBBING WHILE THINKING ABOUT NAMJOONS REACTION.

But also like the fact that it's namjoon makes me worry a little less because he's a very rational man I wouldn't expect him to just lose all reason. BUT ALSO NOT YOU SAYING YOU HATE HIM.

I am scared and excited at the same time

(Also this might be the first or second time I've interacted, I'm usually scared to but that one anon prompted me. You're awesome and I'm extremely thankful that you write such wonderful content taking into consideration your schedule and own private life, you also do it for free and I could not be more thankful that this is the case. Take however much time you want you're amazing and it's none of that anons business. Sorry😭 I know we've moved on from the issue but I just felt like telling you this because you're the best author on Tumblr for me right now)

THANK YOU SO MUCH💕💕

aww thank you so much!! getting lovely messages will always lift my mood up no matter the content so i'm very happy to receive such kind words! glad you went out of your way to write me a message as well!!

and listen...i said i hated him but i actually dont oop-

chapter 16 will give you more insight to namjoon's thoughts and the way i've written it so far gives him more of a human side. i'm not saying forgive him for what he's done but i want you to understand him if even a little when you read chapter 16. it'll probably hurt facing the truth and i cried a few times writing hoseok and the others in that chapter but cmar is a series meant for us to feel angst so...i'd say prepare yourselves but at this point you're probably already expecting all the angst to come lmao 🤧

[minniepetals]

HELLO MA'AM I HAVE FINALLY CAIGHT UP TO READING CMAR PROPERLY!!!

I love that I hate some aspects of everyone's personalities and reactions. Personally I don't really like mafia AUs because I feel like it's too romanticized and sugar-coated but I absolutely love how you've brought out the reality of what mafia is in this story. Even if namjoon is a good and kind person most of the time, his upbringing has influenced his behavior way too much to now just change on account of one person and as hard as it was to accept (because I love our MC too much) it makes A LOT of sense 😭😭

I'm really glad that you're realistically portraying the main characters journey to heal from her past. It's not some dramatic and easy journey, it's a slow process full of hatred as well as sadness and she's confused aswell as angry (all of which is valid) and most importantly she doesn't know HOW to heal. I feel like this is the hardest aswell as the most important step to healing. Most films and fics show quick recovery from past trauma (ones I've watched and read) but you're really highlighting this and I could not be MORE grateful for it.

And I love the choice of words and phrases and ofc THE AWESOME TITLES TO ALL THE CHAPTERS. Your titles are underappreciated FR FR.

SORRY FOR RANTING😭 BUT IM SO EXCITED AND ALSO GREATFUL (writing this at 2am on a sugar rush please forgive any excessive ranting)

AS ALWAYS I LOVE YOUR FICS AND YOUR WORK TYSM FOR POSTING 👹👹🤩💕😭💕💜💜

don't ever apologize for ranting about my fics because reading long paragraphs of my works due to appreciation makes me so much more excited and happy than seeing a short "i loved it" sentence.

when we're in the fic world, we tend to romanticize a lot of things, and i admit i do that as well just because we just like fantasizing living in a different world and my guilty pleasure is having overprotective villains loving me and only me lmao.

cmar's route is definitely different from any other fics i've done so it's definitely on a different scale. i feel like a lot of readers just either want namjoon and the boys to apologize already or they're just hating on them because of what they've done to y/n, and obviously the story will have a lot of biases but i tried to make the characters as real and as authentic as possible because obviously no one is perfect and even the people with the right intentions will still hurt others whether on accident or on purpose. it's the human part of us and i wanted to show the rawer side of things in relationships rather than always going the fluffy sunshine and rainbows route.

as for the healing, i know that it'll definitely be difficult once i get to the point when y/n will have to heal. obviously i don't wanna rush through it, hence i'm estimating the story will be 30+ chapters long. once y/n's done with her revenge and the healing arc comes, she's obviously not gonna just go "ai, we're done with the enemies, im all good and okay now"

i mean we see it with the death of her father. he's dead but his legacy still lives on. she hears him, still influences her to this day, and haunts her every thought.

i just hope i can execute everything well and have a good finish and be able to call it complete once we get to that stage 😌💞