#chooseyourgoddamnself

[tawnyamber]

Entered 2021 with 30 sheets of paper, scrawled across each one, random thoughts, a daily prompt, spiritual guidance from current to future self, in hopes the future will recalled with love in love for past self...a way to cleanse the soul, clear the programming, and chase the lunar cycle like a wolf chases a rabbit...but no longer sheep. You can’t chase what doesn’t run, what no longer breathes. #10deadlambs Always recall a specific moment, a defining memory, engrained in the layers of lyrics, music notes filling in between, the silence and lips paused in symmetry, quoting these simple words, and in your sobriety, made me feel whole from inside my well of suffering, and I crawled, I clawed, up and out and over the edge, nails torn off from digging graves and gaps between, every inch of brick gripped, fingertips stripped to bone, bloody as bare knees, bruised to the cap, never turning back, and to the fire put my knees... Someday, someday, someday boy, baby boy, beliail, brother, thee... will drown no more, stand up, and on those very feet, service no longer provide nothing to that which favor returned unseen. The echoes will sound selfish, a boomerang muttered now a beast, returning to the point of release, thrust past and split, a tongue tonsil to tip, and lodge in your throat, and gasp until you choose to exist. #10deadlambs #myoblyfriendismyonlyenemy #nowombforyourshit #purgatorychasm #freewill #chooseyourgoddamnself #getoutofyourownway #itsallyourfault #surprisemotherfucker #freedomsjustanotherwordfornothinglefttolose #goodbye #farewell #brotherinarms #foreverisamightylongtime #yourmonkeysyourcircus #chooseyourweapon #boundariesareagovernmentconspiracy #getthebandbacktogether #yourmove #exitthesimulation (at Chautauqua Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CORzRehDnPG/?igshid=efoproolp6ma