#choicesgiveresults

[gogoemi]

It's that feeling like the world is going to swallow you whole. It's still to think that this despair and loss I feel is my own doing. I chose to feel all these feelings. Nothing I wrote or did made you want to go back to me. It was your choice to leave and not look back. It was my choice to let my emotions get the best of me. As I hit almost a month of the day I was left with my heart hands, drying up and running out of nutrients, I crave those feelings. That high of something new, the feeling that I am wanted and needed... Don't get me wrong... I have it... Maybe I just crave security, I'm a basic bishhh. Routine. Materialistic. Lazy. I have so much to offer, but it seems I have been selling myself short. Here I go... mending my bled/dried out heart. I will wait patiently for that one person who will offer and provide everything I need and want... I will give them the world because they deserve it... they will give me the world. I long for sanity, peace, repetition, stability... most especially, a love so deep to drown and ease my thoughts in bliss. <3