TAROT READING//Mingkey Sexual Attraction - Bum's pt. 1
Date: 5/Feb/2024
Marker: Transparent Umbrella - SHINee
Deck of Cards: Trungles' Star Spinner Tarot (Inclusive, Diverse, LGBTQ Theme); The Romance Angels Oracles; Manara Erotic Oracles
Notes Upfront:
I don't ask my cards questions that I already have answers;
I don't prey on information I should not know;
I respect their personal lives and;
This is for FUN ONLY.
✦ I also want to share the "reading-come-true" moment about taem that he truly cares about his art and what kind of artist he is becoming, please send love to his bubble ✦
In the following sexual attraction readings, be aware everything is "delulu" and I am just saying what I am seeing. Don't read this if you only see them as platonic friends/co-workers.
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Bum's part 1 - Subconsciousness Temptation [...] -> Garden [...] -> Flow of Inspiration
Action: Swords 8, Wheel of Fate, Page of Cups Reverse, Empress Reverse, Lovers R
Consciousness: Passion, Reconciliation, Wedding, Honeymoon
Subconsciousness: Temptation of Pleasure, Garden at the top of the World, Flow of Inspiration
Before I present you the readings, let me introduce you my oracle cards, and the layout meaning. We have the romance angel oracles (an optimistic they/then) that delves into mingkey's consciousness, and Manara erotic oracles (a cheerful and charming lady) to unpack their subconsciousness. Each subconsciousness card is the result of three action cards, and two consciousness cards. Thus, I group these readings by the subconsciousness part, while unpacking the reading from top (action) to bottom (subconsciousness) , left to right (the energies deepen/hide deeper that the far right is what they "value" the most in this relationship). In the end, I will give an overall summary that includes all of these cards. I know this is confusing, and I will try my best to explain ++ I will also include the descriptions of oracles, so you can also interpret with flexibility.
Group 1: Temptation of Pleasure
"Don't you want me? ...Take me, I'm naked! A throaty voice from secret dreams will make them look into your eyes. Reality will disintegrate, the mirrored corridors of desires will capture you both, together, body and soul."
This reading really gives the same energy that I received from bummie's view on mingkey - insecurities, self-restraint, and self-love. The question here is not whether if bummie finds ming attrative. Of course he dose. Objectively, everyone finds ming good looking and physical appearing. But why wouldn't bummie acknowledge it like taem or jjong in blunt honesty? Not using his aegyo tone and sweet words anymore? We have a 8 of swords as the first card of bummie's action - Don't do it! Kibum shouts it to himself. He retreats his hand, closes his eyes, and stops himself from showing fondness towards ming despite the passion flares like butterflies in his stomach. He is cautious, tip toeing and giving just enough for the fan services. Isn't it cute that bummie touches ming's arm when laughing, as if the laughter is an enough distraction. As if we won't notice how long his fingers lingering on. He puts on the cold mask, keeps hims in distance, but he is not blind nor heartless. Bum senses their mutual attraction - the fate of them being inseparable like the two sides of a coin - that ming also senses (spoil alert!), and it scares him. Remember the 10 of coins dropped in bummie's view? We have similar energy here. Bummie treats ming as a loyal companion, a close family member, and he acts as it's enough for him. Instead of accepting the truth, bum is trapped in the mud of desire and maintains the status quo (it drives ming insane!!). Yet...the card is reversed, and we ask, bummie, you know you're not acing the "fake till you make it" play right?
Ten of Coins/Page of Cups
And ming is indeed that exception because he is Choi Minho. He is someone bummie loved and continued loving. He is from bummie's past, a reconciliation bummie vowed to him and his younger self, and the now, the future, the forever. It is too hard to resist the temptation, no wonder deep in bummie's mind, he asks assertively:
Don't you want me? Minho-ah. Take me, I'm all yours. I am forever yours.
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Oracle reading of Temptation of Pleasure:
"Pleasure is a demon, but it's your demon. It is sometimes an unbound call that shatters and dwarfs reason and logic. It is not just desire, it is an instinctual need that forces your being to find satisfaction. If the need for pleasure is accepted, not denied, it becomes less of an instinctual force, but rather a right of your inner self to a sexual release and a sexual identity. Pleasure ceases to be a secret world and becomes a harmonious part of what you are."
Group 2: Garden at the top of the World
"I am in a place where I cannot be hurt. You are not invited...yet. I don't know the road you must take to reach me. But here, I am safe, and from here, I can love you."
Seeing this card, I immediately thought about the left-on-read messages and how I unpacked the situation as bummie healing himself instead of purely hurting ming. It is true, bummie only loves Ming from distance, from somewhere he feels safe, and Ming is not allowed inside just yet. We have the reversed Empress in action demonstrating that bummie is trying everything to act content and fulfilling in his current romantic relationship. To pretend he does not need Ming’s care and love when murmuring Ming’s name after getting drunk. The empress card goes with bummies zodiac sign that he needs to learn about love not just as an ideological concept, but also accepting what his body wants - the blunt nature of sensation. Bum wants a stable relationship (or more like family structure) that he only secretly calls it marriage. But…he doesn’t believe he can ever have it (poor baby) thus the wedding card in conscience. Marrying ming sounds impossible, even absurd, and this is why he only loves ming in distance. This energy appeared in bummie’s view too!!
Minho, you are cruel. It is just fan service for you.
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Oracle reading of Garden at the top of the World:
“There are times in life when a person needs to face battles, conflicts, and uncompromising fights. With every battle, either won or lost, there are scars, pains, and hurts. It's especially hard when life seems cruel and unfair, and when others seem intent on crushing us down and destroying what we hold dear. Even then, though, there is a safe place for us. Some of us know that place. Some are building it. And some are still searching for it. But it exists. A place where body and soul can rest and breathe. Where we can't be hurt, and we are free to forgive and heal.”
Group 3: Flow of Inspiration
“My love flows like the conversation of two souls in a sunny summer afternoon. I may disappear at the first sign of disharmony, but while I am here, we can fly together on heavenly winds. My hands may know your body, but my lips know your soul.”
This is what kibum meant in the Live Alone episode that the shooting was a good day for ming and him. In the days their energies match up, it feels like, literally, a honeymoon spent together. They laugh, they flirt, they smile at each other that makes us wonder if what they really want is to kiss and make out. Pining each other on the wall so they can taste the alcohol residual between teeth and tongue. Bum feels it too, and he can’t help but cling to these moments because he knows there will be “bad” days. Days full of anger, frustration, and disappointment. Days he realized he is not dating ming and what they do is only fan service in many eyes. We again see the reversed lover card dropped (which I hardly find surprising), meaning bummie has learnt to accept not being able to date Ming that he treats himself w those good days and not feeling helpless when it cannot last longer than he hopes.
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Oracle reading of Flow of Inspiration:
“What is inspiration? Inspiration is a connection with something that doesn't yet exist. A moment of irratio-nal, unexpected clarity. Inspiration moves like water, touching different parts of our soul and our mind, connecting them and taking them deeper and higher. Inspiration is not love, but it is a form of relationship: our inner self talking with the world, and the world answering back. Our potential finds a shape to grow into and takes the first steps in that direction. Before everything else, inspiration is a feeling. A feeling that can carry us, sometimes submerge us, even overwhelm us. It is a feeling we can only reach when we allow the world to envelop our being.”
-TBC-
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