#chill trap

[sleepingxawake]

I KNOW YOUR SECRET

out now on streaming and avail for download

[ikvogel]

[Chill Trap/Hardwave] Skit & Klimeks - Azimuth

[cyfimusic]

CyFi - secondary

2024-10-22

my attempt at doing sort of an emo hip-hop type song

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By July 2020, I had been living in a small-ish southern Minnesota town for a solid year and a half. During that time, I befriended two very lovely people, and moved in with them. After that year of cohabitation, (which included my dating one of them,) they both moved to the Twin Cities while I initially stayed behind. And, being 4 months into the pandemic, in a town of 18k with not many people my age, I got incredibly lonely. In that first month of missing my friends, this instrumental came out of me. But I didn’t have any plans for it then.

In April 2022, I was in Nashville for my friend Jack The Underdog’s birthday. While I had a great time drunkenly celebrating at his party, I remember feeling a lingering sadness in the back of my mind. Along with Jack himself, there were a lot of friends of ours there who were chasing their musical dreams at full speed, and it had me doing some heavy comparing of myself to all the success stories I was surrounded by. I wrote most of the lyrics to this song on that trip to Nashville, after that party.

The first verse is pretty self-explanatory. But I definitely think my feeling that notion so strongly is due to my being the oldest of 8 kids, and the parentification that resulted. When you get it drilled into your head so early that you have to take care of other people before taking care of yourself, I suppose it becomes difficult to ever prioritize yourself in your adult life. I’m going to therapy now, so maybe a solution will be uncovered. But it was almost 14 months between me writing these lyrics, and my first session. And I highly recommend therapy. Wish I had gone sooner, to be honest!

I ran into many personal life delays that I won’t dive into here, but as a result, the vocals for secondary were sporadically recorded over a much longer span of time than I would’ve liked: January 2023 to September 2024. I would’ve preferred to have put this song out AGES ago, but sometimes things don’t work that way.

[nixiethefae]

what’s the vibe tumblr, is posting demos here not cool?

[bombfuse]

New music hahahahah

[our-delicatecollectorphilosopher]

(parkheightsmusic)

[ghosted-sound]

Harr. - Run And Hide [Chill Trap Release] by Chill Trap Records 🎧 Listen us on Spotify: https://ift.tt/3YQd6Rq 👉Harr. Instagram : https://ift.tt/XSVCxhn SoundCloud : https://ift.tt/YScA2KX Facebook : https://ift.tt/jZDqmE4

[gethighdropacidneverdie]

He's just like me frfr

[jeeaark]

Lol, I was scrolling through some of your older posts and saw the one where Greygold was an NPC in the adventures of a Durge. Which made me wonder: Do you think Greygold would willingly travel with a Durge and try to help them with their urges?

The key word is "try"

[pigskinmask]

I threw up

[boiledegghole]

so called "free thinkers" when euphrasie pulls up with the "something's failing, ROTTING"

[majickth]

So dark, no moon, no stars, no stars No sound, just hearts and walls of art

in which Grian goes to a small town and finds that things aren't as the seem.

[drapi0n]

Anyone else ever just use their homie as a popcorn bowl?

[averlym]

fairest of the fair

[our-delicatecollectorphilosopher]

(parkheightsmusic)

[thepartysdone]

no more fics of jeremy apologizing for the bathroom scene. he was totally justified for most of the scene btw. "maybe i got lucky, is that so weird? i'd say with my history the universe owed me one." don't make jeremy take that back. you know deep down he means those words more than anything. make him apologize for calling michael a loser and every other hurtful thing he did but do not make him apologize for wanting to move forward with his life!! his methods ≠ motivations. yes he kinda did it all in a really bad way but he is not obliged to stay with michael forever. if he wants to move forward onto a life without michael then he literally can. bmc bathroom scene i love you... ppl only ever talk about the loser scene and brush off what jeremy is actually saying and it sucks so bad he just wants to feel like his life isn't shit for once and that he actually has control in it. is that so bad. friends don't stay friends forever guys sorry sometimes you're the one holding your friend back from their true potential sorry sorryyyyy and it's not like that's to say that they have to stop being friend forever it's just. i'm sure jeremy only ever thinks of himself as this attachment to michael. always stuck in his shadow, player 2, michael's friend, etc. and he can never actually grow into his own person if he just lets himself stay there. if michael keeps him there. not to pull a completely seperate media into this but nozomi and mizore from liz and the blue bird rlly. show what i'm trying to say here .

"Was the blue bird unhappy?" / "I don't know. But she wants Liz to be happy. I know that's true. That's the blue bird's expression of love. She has to fly away."