#changed my brain chemistry since the first one I wrote for sky

[wayfayrr]

Self-conscious captain

the next self aware link and this time it's the captain my favourite boy, warriors!

[masterlist]

“Hey [Name], I’ve been going through some of my old games to clear things out. I found my copy of Hyrule Warriors and wanted to know if you’d like it?”

“I thought that was one of your favourites though, what’s come into you to give it away like this? Do you want anything for it, I’d feel bad simply taking from you.”

“Nah I got it as a gift anyway, I beat the game and did everything there is to do. Plus I know you’ve been wanting to play it anyway, so please have it.”

There’s something off about this, between how skitterish they’re acting and the fact they’re so willing - that they’re so desperate for me to take their favourite game from them? I’ve got nothing else to go off of though, and they are right I have been planning to buy it. They wouldn’t be offering if they didn’t want me to have it so what is there to lose?

“If you’re sure then. I can’t wait to play through it myself rather than watching you.”

Is there such a thing as too much relief? Because if there is then that was definitely it, with how their shoulders relaxed; all the tension left their body as they handed me the game. Why does this feel like the start of a creepypasta, am I simply gonna go home then suddenly there’s some new version of Ben drowned for me to deal with? I won’t know until I play I guess, but it might be fun. 

There’s no better time than now to learn though, I’ve got the whole afternoon to myself anyway so why not? Putting the game into my switch; booting it all up it seems fine, so there’s nothing there that should have messed with them. It’s up until the first cutscene for anything to even show up that could be wrong. Link’s eyes seem to be focusing on me far more than they should during it, more than what should be possible, with more of a smile than he usually does during this too. Then I finally get to the level.

I can’t control Link, the game seems to be frozen, not a single bokoblin moving, Link is still moving, the camera isn’t even focused on him now and he’s moving closer to the screen. 

“Honeybee? You’re here! I knew your friend would cave pretty face when I pressed them. It’s so nice to have you here alone with me!”

“...What.”

“Oh it’s all alright dear, I did think you’d be a little shocked at first because, well I mean I know this isn’t something that happens very often. Would you be against getting to know me better though?”

What. The. Hell. No wonder they were so eager to pawn the game off to me, a living character that seems to be obsessed with me? If the roles were switched then I’d be throwing it at them as quickly as I could, I’m amazed they could even keep calm for long enough to hand it to me without seeming any more suspicious than they did, he threatened them he’s already admitted that stop lying to yourself [name]. Why does he even want me over the person who actually played as him? None of this makes any sense. 

“I - No I wouldn’t, actually could I ask you some questions too? Just y’know, try to get my head around all of this.”

“I’d be more concerned if you didn’t ask me any, I mean right now? You’re treating me more like an actual person than anyone else ever has.” 

“...”

“Where would you like to start then honeybee? We can take this at your pace, you’re in full control here.”

Where should I start? There are so many different things I want answers to, I could stay here for hours just talking to him to find out everything; now that I think on that, it’s not like I have anything else planned today. I could simply just stay here for a bit and talk, it’s probably the safer option too. If I don’t, do I really want to test the sanity of a sentient game character, no. 

“Um, if it’s all up to me then. Can I ask when you first became aware? Of the fact that you’re you know, a character in a game.”

“Oh, that? Well, it was about three months ago now, two or so weeks before you played with them. They really just saw me as a toy, not caring if I got hurt or anything, which is fair they never knew I was anything more than that; but you didn’t know either and you treated me like a person. You always apologised whenever I took any damage, never tried to get me hurt for your own pleasure or replace me as soon as you could. It was only a matter of time until I started to want you, then it was fairly easy to get eyes in your phone.”

“You've got ‘eyes in my phone?’ what do you mean by that.”

He looks so pleased right now like he wanted me to ask that exact question, it’s such a smug look on his face too. There’s something else to it as well, I can’t pinpoint what but there is certainly another look on his face. With how emotive he is it really doesn’t feel like this is some kind of sick joke, he’s too alive.

“That’s one of the things I’m most proud of!! It was pretty easy when you linked your phone to their switch to download a photo, I just made part of that connection a bit more personal and permanent. I promise I didn’t listen in on anything too private, I swear on Nintendo that I’m not like Cia. I promise.”

“Moving on from… that then. Why’s the real reason you wanted to be with me like this, I mean I get the feeling there’s more to it than you’re letting on.”

“You caught me I actually wa-”

The scowl that crossed his face when he was interrupted by the doorbell was unlike the cheery demeanour he’s been using, it’s almost like he’s angry or jealous of me having my attention split from him; it barely lasts a second though. Before his face swaps to one of remorse possibly because he got so irritated over something so trivial, that needs my focus more than he does right now. 

“I think you already know, but I should go check that. I’ll only be a couple of minutes, it’s probably nothing after all.”

Not even a word, just a nod and a look of rejection as if he was a cat I’d had to move off of me when I turned to go and answer the door. True to my word it wasn’t something that going to take long, simply signing for a couple of parcels. It only took me a few minutes to collect it and then start heading back to my room, I’ll be able to open them while I talk to Link after all. Really it would be cruel to make him wait after everything else he’s been through, even if he’s been monitoring… most of my movements, is it bad that I still feel bad after knowing that?

A shrill yelp followed by a shattering sound right when I was about to go back in wasn’t the best sign, the worst thing is that this time there wasn’t a digital overlay. Did someone break in - or break out? Only one way to find out.

“Honeybee? I - I’m sorry I - I really was trying to keep it in one piece.”

He’s out of the game.

Link is in my room bawling his eyes out because he accidentally broke my LED screen, the hero of hyrule is standing in my bedroom crying his eyes out because he broke a piece of glass. Earlier there was always a feeling of him trying to come off as likeable to me, to the point where it was manipulative, he wouldn’t even consider the idea of me not liking him. Now it’s like he’s having a panic attack at the possibility that I won’t like him because he broke my monitor. 

“I - I’ll do anything to make it up to you. Please - just - I - I didn’t mean to break it.”

“Link -”

“My clothes would probably be worth a fortune to someone right? I - I mean it’s an actual set of armour from the Hyrulian forces - it’s real chainmail. If you sell it - it’ll more than make up the cost, right? You won’t hate me if I did that, right?”

“Link. I don’t hate you, it was an accident and even if it wasn’t I would forgive you.”

That seemed to snap him out of it, if only a little; he’s still crying but now he’s not rambling about ways to make it up to me. He clearly seems to want me, even if I still don’t entirely get why so maybe I could; opening my arms proves the fact that he really does just want some affection. Waiting wasn’t even on the cards as he practically dove into my arms barely seconds after looking at me for permission. 

“You really don’t hate me then? Really? Even though I’m not as good as the other games?”

“I don’t hate you for wanting to get out of what was essentially your prison or - you being as good as the other games? Your game is different but it’s just as good”

“But - you and your friend both said it. I - I’m not canon. You still treated me well that‘s why I fell for you, but I’m still - I’m still less than the other games. So I just, I really wanted to prove to you that I can be the only one for you [name]”

Stroking his hair seems to be calming him down now, the tears are slowing and his breathing is evening out the longer I stay here with him; only a few more moments until I should be able to get some answers from him. Adjusting to having a roommate might be a little strange, he really does seem nice though, nicer than anyone else I’ve ever met. Wait no I’ve only really just met him, why am I already thinking about that? It’s something to consider for certain - oh come on, just admit to yourself that you love this. He cares so why not see where it all goes?

“Canon just describes the story, it doesn’t change anything about you and I’m sorry if it’s ever seemed like that link. Come on, I'll clean the glass up, then you can finish explaining things okay?”

“No wait, it’s my fault, let me clean it up for you. If nothing else, please honey.”

“You don’t have to, it’s not a bother.”

So he already knows his teary puppy face can get me to agree to anything, he’s been here for less than a few hours and it already feels like we’re in a relationship as he knows me inside out… Which makes sense given that he has been watching me through my phone. Maybe it wouldn't be that bad if I stopped fighting against what he’s offering.  The gloves he’s wearing make picking up shards less painful than it would be otherwise, doesn’t take him that long either.

Long enough for something to flicker on my switch, but that can wait.

[goldenteaset]

You know, on the matter of Granblue's Dearest Friend event, since you wrote about it

I did like it a lot, but I think I liked the concept much more than the execution. It felt a bit dragged out at times and the ending by contrast felt extremely rushed and was overall a bit confusing.

But I'll be the first person to admit that I lost my mind when they told us "Yeah, it's gonna be a high school event and Belial and Lucilius will be there"

Just. Unforgettable. Iconic. Incredible.

Also it was fun to look into the meanings of their name and go full insane conspiracy theorist, I remember going a bit off the deep end back then

I'll also freely admit that I'm a bit deranged and deep in withdrawal, so whatever crumb of Belial they're willing to throw me, I'll eat it up, but he was undoubtedly the high point of the event

He and Lucilius, who fits surprisingly well into a high school setting, his entire "I'm gonna kill God because life sucks" mentality is peak 14 year old

But the one moment that elevated the event for me, is etched forever into the inside of my skull and permanently altered my brain chemistry is the Oribe raid battle where he pulled out his belt to beat you with

It was so unexpected and yet so fitting and perfect and to this day I think about Belial proper using the many, many belts he wears with every outfit for things other than keeping his pants just barely on his hips

Not necessarily just for hitting people, but also tying them up, I could even see him using them as a makeshift leash to drag his hapless victims around with. The sky is truly the limit

I'm sorry for bringing that into your inbox, but I felt the need to confess my sins

Anyway, big fan of your work <3

It's more than okay, nightmarenoise!! I'm really hyped, in fact. :D

From the top: I fully admit I'm that weirdo who loves when a story ambles along, but that aside I agree with you about the ending! The writers didn't need to use Lyria and Vyrn as apologetic mouthpieces "not going to Auguste this year". The ending would've worked a lot better if they hadn't done that, I think.

...Though speaking of that ending, if it turns out that Dearest Friend was written out of chronological order with "something else" (read: whatever's planned for Belial), I'd believe it.

The names! God I wanted Oribe to be a "shining prince" ("Akihiko") so badly, but it works on an ironic level. Maybe he's like that with his girls?

At this point I'm also in withdrawal but cooking frantically, so I understand. ^^; The crumbs are quite enjoyable but am excited for something more filling. (And it'll happen! They gave us Adam and Caro almost back to back...)

"I'm gonna kill God because life sucks" mentality is peak 14 year old I've been clapping like a seal at this for the past few minutes, thank you for the joy~

THE BELT. It was truly a life-changing moment! I always wondered why, besides accessories, he had so many, and then suddenly we knew! He could even try to pick a belt that matched the lover's taste... *v*

The entirety of that "All three of us, together~" combo still turns me into a squeeing mess (and the times he's been around Lyria after that haven't helped), but The Belt absolutely did leave a strong impression! "You need a spanking and I'm the man to do it", and then lo, he did...

Thank you again! Both for the ask and being a fan~ :D

[fcntasmas]

I don’t know if I have just one scene since I feel like all (but especially tmtts) your skam fics changed something in my brain chemistry (in the best way possible). I was going through a big change summer 2017 and reading your writing during it is some on my most vivid and best memories during that time.

Whenever I look up a the night sky I always find Orion’s Belt and I think of you and hope you’re doing well. So that’s probably the most memorable part (as well as the finicky doorknob/lock)

I feel its unfair how much I love it when it was a difficult time for you, but I honestly don’t think that any writer or story has stuck with me or has had such a big impact as you have

Anyways, love you mwuah 🫶🫶🥰

god as soon as i think y'all are done making me cry YOU JUST SHOW UP AGAIN AND MAKE ME CRY

first of all thank you for this???? this is really sweet and i'm so grateful to you because i don't think i would have written half of the things i did for that fandom had i not had such a LOVELY readership honestly y'all were so??? amazing isn't even cutting it close tbh

and second of all, please don't ever feel it's unfair to enjoy something despite the way i was feeling at the time when i wrote it. in fact, it's kind of a comfort for me to know that despite that for me, it's hard going back to it and remembering what i was going through at the time, it means such an entirely different thing to someone else who finds something good in it, something that made them feel good and smile and idk.

like. if a reminder of one of the toughest episodes of my life is going to exist physically online forever, then i'm glad it's one that brings some semblance of joy to someone else. because then idk. it makes me feel like it wasn't entirely bad, if something good could come of it, you know??

anyway, ily lots, thank you so much for this, and if i could i'd appear WHEREVER YOU ARE RIGHT NOW and give you a big kiss on the forehead, MWAH <333

what's the most memorable scene from any fic of mine you've read?

[yourstormthlaylirahh]

BL Tag Game

I was tagged  by @25shadesoffebruary thank you for tagging me! :)

If you had to watch one drama forever which would it be?

Bad Buddy is my comfort show, I love it so much and it is genuinely such an excellently crafted show (and also the first BL I watched ever ((back in January)) so it is sentimental).

If you could change the ending of a drama, which would you choose?

As much as I love the ending and think it fit the tone of the show, I would change the ending of Miracle of Teddy Bear. It may cheapen the show a little, but I like happy endings dammit! 

I would also change the ending of Plus & Minus - it started out so good and the ending fell really flat. Same with Kinnporsche - the writing went really sideways imo after episode 8 and the final episode was... something.

While I wouldn’t change the ending of History 3 Trapped, I would add a special reunion episode (side note but the anime No 6 is also in this same boat). 

Name your favourite drama and who your favourite character was.

I’m going to cheat and list 3 because making decisions is difficult.

1. Bad Buddy - Pran 

2. Triage - so many but if push comes to shove I’d say Tol

3. A Tale of Thousand Stars - Tian

Name a drama you dropped within a few episodes.

I’ve only dropped 3 dramas in total, so Check Out and That’s My Candy. Check Out was especially disappointing because I loved the special ep.  

Name a popular drama you've never watched and why.

Lots, since I am a drama newbie. A relatively popular one I have never watched and don’t intend to is TharnType. Some of the more popular ones I intend to watch sometime are SOTUS, Love by Chance, Utsukushii Kare, and the rest of the History series.

Name a drama you regret watching.

The episodes of Check Out I watched - I wish I had just kept the special as a one shot in my brain. Other than that I don’t really regret anything I have watched, even the shows that weren’t very good I still finished because there were enjoyable elements in them. The only possible exception to this is WBL2

Name a drama you thought you'd never watch but did and ended up liking it.

Honestly I didn’t think I would get this into BL in general - I assumed it would be like watching the yaoi I had dipped my toe into in high school, and we all know some of the uncomfortable tropes in old school yaoi asgkhjhxsjkd. There are definitely series which show this lineage more, but I started watching at a good time it seems, when more queer people are involved in production and there is a greater variety of stories starting to be told. Even the more tropey shows I have watched have been for the most part enjoyable. 

Man, I hope I worded that ok, I can’t get it to read like I don’t have a giant chip on my shoulder oops.

Specifically I didn’t think I would like 2Gether at all - I just watched for background for Still 2Gether because I wanted to complete P’Aof’s filmography. While there were parts I absolutely hated (cough the way they wrote Green cough cough) I did mostly enjoy watching.

Name a pairing you want to see.

MilkLove full series, please please PLEASE. I also think Gigie Chanunphat and Jan Ployshompoo would absolutely kill it in a GL. I have more GL pairings I want than BL honestly, though I am still holding out for NanonChimon. Edit: I also really want Mild and Baifern to do a GL together, their dynamic on 46 Days was so fun

Name a pairing you didn't think had any chemistry.

BrightWin. Also both pairings from Star & Sky, though I am not sure that that isn’t a case like OffGun, where as they got more comfortable they would develop chemistry and not just come across awkward.

Name a pairing you've seen in another drama that you like.

I am confused what this question is asking. Is it who we want to see more of? In that case, ForceBook please please please, and I will never say no to EarthMix. 

I can’t think of who to tag, so feel free to say I tagged you if you want to do it. :)

[t100ficrecsblog]

an interview with @elora-lane  (she/they) content warning: mentions of mental illness and past physical injury

what are you working on right now? what’s something you’d like to write one day? 

Right now, I am working on a Bellarke A/B/O period fic called Surely, You Must Know. I am also working on my Bellarke for BLM Prompts. The first one was posted a couple weeks ago, and I have a bit written for my Bellarke improv/roommates au, and the Josie/Bellamy Bellarke fic (where Bellamy goes through the wringer with an abusive Josie, and Clarke is there to help him heal). 

Something I’d like to write one day... I have a book idea about a genderfluid, bisexual individual based in the early 1820s. The main character (she/her, they/them) was born female and finds herself ostracized after she kisses her best friend (a female), when her friend says she is going to school elsewhere. It takes place over years, and involves the main character falling in love, her love being killed in front of her, having a child and ending up with the very same friend who couldn’t accept her own sexuality (the best friend is a lesbian). 

I’m not sure If I’ll get around to writing it, but I have it all planned out and the characters already live in my mind.  

what is the fanwork you’re most proud of?  Hmm... that’s honestly very difficult for me to answer because I’m rarely happy with my writing in the long term. But I’d say I’m proud of The Governor’s Daughter, which was written for Garcy (timeless, Garcia Flynn/Lucy Preston). I had a three-part story planned out for this fic, but I’ve since gotten so absorbed with Bellarke that I changed the ending so it wouldn’t torture fans. But in the original ending the main character is pregnant when she is kidnapped, and her husband is recovering from a gunshot wound himself, when shots are fired in her home. 

The main character leaves thinking everyone she loves is dead. 

I was rather proud of the fic because it’s the longest thing I’ve written- and I don’t write long works. Beyond that, it was about two individuals who should never have met. But did and fell in love despite all odds. In the story not everything is as it seems. I did a lot of research for it and wonder if I got it right (the language probably needs some work). I sorta get obsessed with research, although I know it’s not perfect. 

The Bellarke work I’m most proud of is probably How Not to Quarantine. I went into it wanting to write something smutty. But it became a bit deeper than that and dealt with issues of battling societal norms, sexism toward both women and men, and miscommunication. 

why did you first start writing fic?  I got inspired by Garcia Flynn and Lucy Preston from Timeless. I got inspired by the idea of time travel, and how the future is never as it seems. I’ve always written poetry, and very short stories. But fan fic has been my first time really writing stories with somewhat significant plotlines. I wanted to fill a plot hole, and well... I haven’t stopped writing since. 

Another aspect of it was that I was new mom and unemployed. I have twins who are toddlers now. But when I first started writing I had horrible post-partum depression and anxiety that lasted two years. Writing helped me funnel all of that and be the new mom I needed to be. The lovely comments and encouragement I got from fandom friends played a part in keeping me on the road to recovering from my worst depressive episode. 

what frustrates you most about fic writing?  Honestly, not to sound mellow-dramatic, but me. I frustrate myself. 

I’ve mentioned it a little bit, but I had a few head injuries and I have bad ADHD. It’s a lot better than it was when I first started writing about two and half years ago. I would revisit my works and there were so many errors and things that just didn’t make sense. After my last head injury (I fell 8ft on concrete right onto the back of my head about eight years ago), I would write papers that made sense to me in the moment, and then my instructor would show me what I wrote, and it was just totally jumbled up nonsense- some of it wasn’t even words. Needless to say, I had to drop out of college. 

So, as frustrating as it is, I’m proud of myself for continuing to write enough to retrain my brain (of course, it also healed, and anti depressants helped my brain chemistry realign). I still make errors and my brain gets tired quickly on some days, but I’ve come a long way. Grammarly is a huge help, too! 

what are your top five songs right now?  Oh boy. I totally blame @star-sky-earth for the first three... here is a list. 

Body by SYML

Touch by Sleeping at Last

Let Me by ZAYN

Bulletproof Weeks by Matt Nathanson

Nashville by Noah Gundersen

That was so hard to decide, thank you for the challenge!

what are your inspirations (books, songs, other fic, really good cake?)?  Music is huge for me. I’m very sensitive to the mood that music puts me in. A good tune can help me think of an entire plotline. Usually, it’s the music in a movie and the visuals that inspire me, and rarely the dialogue. 

Anything by Jane Austen is inspiring for my Bellarke ABO period fic. My fav JA book is Northanger Abbey, but I rewatched the film version of Mansfield Park, Emma, and Sense and Sensibility (the BBC three-parter) all in one night! 

Bonus note: the new Emma has a really good kiss scene that is just 100%... Muy Bueno. Loved it. ed’s note: the new Emma film is very good

what first attracted you to Bellarke? what attracts you now? Well, frankly I was attracted to Bellarke fic before I liked them in the show. But some of the Modern AUs and some of the Canon Divergent AUs have power dynamics that really get me. I love fics where one of them is a king/queen or boss, and it takes time for them to fall in love, but the one with the power is gracious and caring and uses that to help the other. Even if it takes a while to get there, I guess kindness and compassion attract me. As does conflict resolution. To me, conflict is worth it if it gets a good resolution. 

I also like other themes like loyalty, perseverance, transformation, epiphany and absolution. 

In the show, season six hooked me. 

BESIDES Bellarke, what character or pairing do you like best on t100?  I’m gonna answer this from a fic writer perspective. Honestly, I’d love to see season six Echo continue the road to absolution and end up with Gabriel (I mean, it’s a pipe dream, but Gecho, c’mon...). I’m okay with where she is in season seven, because I can’t control it. But it’s not what I would have done. 

Roan/Echo is fav of mine. 

I also would have loved to see Gina and Raven. Or more Gina/Bellamy. I really liked Gina. 

As far as 100% actual ships, I liked Linctavia. I do like season seven, too. Although it feels like a totally different show. 

why did you decide to start writing for bellarkefic-for-blm?  I decided to because it allows me to use something unique for the good of others. I try for the most part to help others.

what’s your writing process like?  Chaos. 

Writing for me is like cracking open a coconut. It’s tough to get there, but once you do it doesn’t stop. And if you hit it too hard, the stuff just goes all over the place. 

what are some things you’d like to recommend?  In general? Umm... Calm Magnesium drink, it’s super relaxing. Like last night I started having all this anxiety and drank some. It calmed me down enough to sleep (also listened to the sound of a snowstorm and crackling fire). 

I also recommend introspection and reflection. If you do that a lot, I recommend art or writing. Life is all about balance.

You can find @elora-lane here on Tumblr, or at their ao3 here. Request a fic written by her over at @bellarkefic-for-blm.

[visionsofus]

Field Trips, Infinity Stones, and oh mY GOD IS THAT SPIDER-MAN? 

CH1

| CHAPTER 2 ~ pop quizzes and panic attacks | 

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"You have twenty minutes to complete the quiz, pleasedon't look at your neighbours answers otherwise I will have to fail you." Mr Harrington's curt voice cut through Peter's Wednesday morning as the teacher walked through the rows of desks, distributing quiz papers.

Peter blinked his eyes blearily. It was too early for a pop quiz.

The paper landed on his desk and Peter reluctantly picked up his pencil, writing his name at the top of the sheet of paper. In the corner, along the date line he wrote todays date and then had to quickly erase it when he realised, he'd put the wrong year.  5 years of his life… lost. He wasn't any older but that didn't mean he didn't feel different.

Peter tried to focus on the questions on the paper in front of him. He went through the motions of filling out the boxes on the test paper, doing working out here and there when he needed it.

"When you're done please come hand the test paper in, along with your permission slip which I hope you have all remembered to bring after my numerous reminders." Mr. Harrington droned and some of the students groaned in dismay. Clearly his reminders hadn't been enough for some of them.

Peter was the first to finish the quiz from what he could see but he waited a little bit longer. After checking over his answers once, he retrieved his permission slip from his bag and walked up towards Mr Harrington's desk.

"Took your time, Parker?" the teacher asked, not looking up from the papers he had before him.

"Ah yeah it was a pretty tricky quiz." Peter lied as he set the two documents on his teacher’s desk.

"Was it now." Mr. Harrington said, raising a sceptical eyebrow as he took the papers from Peter. "Good to see you'll be joining us on the trip, now go back to your seat."

"Yep." Peter said nodding and trudging back to his desk.

"I hope you all put a lot of effort into that quiz," Mr Harrington said once the last paper had been handed in, "because if any of you failed you won't go on the field trip this Friday."

This statement resulted in a chorus of outraged yells from the rest of the class and Mr Harrington put his hands up in surrender.

"Ok! Ok! You kids can never take jokes, can you?" Mr. Harrington pushed his glasses further up the bridge of his nose. "Speaking of the field trip, there are a few things that I need to run through before we leave."

He paused to pick up a piece of paper from his desk. Peter could see the Stark Industries logo in the corner from where he was sitting.

"We will be arriving at Stark Industries at 9:30. When we get there you will all be given visitor lanyards, I highly recommend you do not losethese lanyards because they are your key in. Lose your lanyard you get chucked out and you'll be waiting in the bus for the remainder of the trip." Mr. Harrington said punctuating each word threateningly.

"The tour will involve looking through the intern labs 3a and 4c, which primarily focus on research and preliminary trial experimentation." Harrington said flipping the piece of paper over. "Lunch will be provided kindly by Stark Industries and this is when you will have the opportunity to talk to some of the lower level interns and get a feel of what you may be doing should any of you be given the opportunity to actually intern there."

"Or we could just ask Parker," Flash said snidely, "Cause y'know he obviously has the internship already."

"Shut up Flash." Ned said in exasperation.

"Shut up Flash." Flash imitated, making a face. "We’ve all heard the same rumours, Parker was probably working in the cafeteria kitchens, or as a janitor, trying to pull together a little extra cash. Like Stark Industries would actually need the help of a high schooler."

"Yeah those rumours started with you Flash." Ned snapped and Peter shook his head at Ned.

"He's not worth it." Peter said quietly.

"Doesanyone mind if I get back on with what I was saying?" Mr. Harrington said, ignoring the short argument between the two students, it was a common occurrence in this class. "After lunch the remainder of the tour will be focused on looking at some of the history of Stark Industries and if you're lucky you may have the opportunity to test some of their old prototypes." A chorus of excited whispers broke out at this point.

Peter still had mixed emotions about the whole trip, but he couldn't help echoing a little of his classmates’ excitement. He'd always enjoyed visiting Stark Industries and getting to actually apply the knowledge that he learnt in and out of his Midtown classes. Hands on work was definitely more interesting. Plus, he got to help out Mr Stark here and there and that made him feel a bit better about keeping the insanely expensive suit that he'd been gifted.

At least he had been able to help Mr. Stark. Things were very different now and there was no telling what the field trip was going to be like now that Mr. Stark was gone.

Later that night Peter was sitting at his desk balancing a pen on top of his finger as he tried to think of the appropriate formula to use on the advanced chemistry question sitting in front of him. He wasn't particularly focused, and his eyes kept flicking out the window to the clear night sky. At times like these he couldn't help wishing that he was swinging from building to building instead of stuck at his uncomfortable desk.

But he wasn't ready. Peter hadn't put the suit back on since that fateful day almost one month ago, or was it technically five years? Whatever, this whole time thing was really starting to boggle his mind.

When Peter finally turned his attention back to the task before him, he was distracted yet again by a red flashing light from the corner of his eye. It was coming from the wardrobe which had been left slightly open from when he had gotten changed after school.

Hesitantly, Peter put his pen down and got out of his chair. The flashing was getting more insistent as he made his way over to the closet and opened it slowly.

Peering out from between his other clothes, the iron spider suit was flashing distinctively, a little red light appearing each second from in-between the blue plated metal.  

"What the…" Peter said taking the suit off of the hangers, probably not the best way to store a multimillion-dollar suit now that he thought about it. Peter turned the lightweight metal suit over in his hands. Not pausing to think about the possible implications of his actions Peter jabbed the flashing red light hoping to make it stop.

The light stopped immediately, and the suit seemed to let out a sigh, if machinery could even make such noises. Suddenly, the suit was crawling up his hands, fitting to his body plate by plate. Within seconds it had covered his arms and chest and before Peter knew it, the suit had reached his toes.

"Whatttt." Peter said glancing down at his hands. He'd probably activated it by accident, but that didn't explain the whole flashing light thing.

"Hello Peter." Karen said in his ear.

"Hi Karen… long time no see." Peter said quietly, hoping that Aunt May hadn't heard anything.

"It has been a long time." Karen said. "Where have you been?"

"Sorry… where you lonely?"

"My brain is synthetic, Peter, as of yet I cannot experience loneliness." Karen said matter-of-factly, "but it was different without you here."

"Oh." Peter said quietly, he rolled his shoulders, feeling the skin-tight suit shift to fit his movements. "So how come my suit was flashing?"

"For me to keep everything in top condition, the suit needs to be unpacked at least once every 30 days." Karen informed him. "As it is nearing 30 days since you last used it, I decided to get your attention."

"Huh." Peter said nodding and looking at his hands and the metal plating that was covering them. "Well seeing as I'm in the suit, and I really don't feel like studying, shall we take it out on the town?"

"It is currently 77 degrees outside, there is limited wind and the sky is clear with zero chance of rain." Karen informed him as Peter walked over to his bedroom window and slid it up as quietly as he could. "I believe the conditions are perfect to take the suit… 'out on the town' as you put it."

"Here we go." Peter said, failing to keep the excitement from his voice as he stepped up onto his windowsill and promptly threw himself out into the night air. For a moment he was falling but then, with a press of a button, a web was pulling him up towards the sky again. For a moment the euphoria of it all was the greatest thing in the world.

And then everything flooded back to Peter like it had been yesterday.

His body had ached all over. He was bleeding from somewhere on his head, but he wasn't sure where.  He was still feeling nauseous from clutching the gauntlet, the power that emanated from it made him dizzy and sick to his stomach. The rest of the battle had been flashes of pain and exhilaration and more pain. And when it finally came to a stop…

Peter's throat was burning, and his chest was heaving so rapidly he didn't have the control to shoot another web before he was falling towards the ground.

"Peter!" Karen said alarmed, or as alarmed as an AI robot could sound. But Peter didn't register any of it.

Some back up protocol of the suit must have been activated and blasters like Mr. Starks appeared, slowly lowering Peter to the ground.

Once his feet had touched the earth, Peter's knees gave way and he sunk to the ground. He pushed himself to the edge of the path. Luckily it was quiet in this particular area of the neighbourhood.

"Peter your vitals are displaying signs of distress." Karen said, seemingly concerned. "May I walk you through a breathing exercise?"

Peter could barely hear anything past the thundering in his ears. He kept a hand clutched over his mouth as the suit receded down to his neck, allowing him to breath better. Unfortunately, he was now exposed to the sounds and sights of the street around him. A motorbike roared down the road two blocks away, but it felt as though the engine were right next to him and Peter groaned and clutched his hands about his ears. A cars headlights made his eyes burn so he closed them and put his head between his knees. He wanted it to stop… everything to just stop. He felt like his heart was about to fail, it was beating so wildly, his throat so tight that breathing was becoming more and more difficult.

"Karen." He managed to force out weakly in-between desperate breaths. "What's happening?"

"I believe this is a panic attack, if you allow me, I can walk you through a breathing exercise."

"Please." Peter whispered past the lump in his throat.

He tried his best to listen to what Karen was saying and ignore the onslaught of memories that had bombarded his brain. He sat like that on the ground, outside a nameless building for what felt like hours, trying to get his breathing and heart under control again.

"-hold your breath for eight seconds." Karen instructed him calmly and Peter did so. It was starting to help and slowly he felt like he could breathe properly again.

When he finally felt steady enough to stand, Peter pushed himself to his feet. He was still shaking a little as he held his hands out in front of him. He'd experience panic before, but nothing on that kind of scale.

"Shall we go home?" Karen asked softly.

"Yes." Peter said, and the head of the suit covered his face again as he slowly but surely walked the block back to his house. He passed one or two people along the way and they stared, but no one said a word. When Peter finally made it to his front door, he closed his eyes and reached for the wall, feeling his finger tips stick immediately. Keeping his eyes closed he climbed up as quickly as he could without falling or being consumed by another panic attack and slipped in his window.

"Sorry Karen, I don't think I’m ready yet." Peter said, exhaustion hitting him as soon as he was inside once again.

"I understand." Karen said. "I have sent a copy of the information I received from your body to your computer if you wish to have a look. There will also be several websites for dealing with panic attacks should you wish to read them."

"Thanks, Karen." Peter said quietly and slowly the suit began to retract across his body until it was the small backpack like object it had been half an hour ago. Peter returned it to his closet, this time shutting the door firmly.

He definitely wasn't ready to get back into the whole Spider-Man gig.

The scary part was, Peter wasn't sure if he ever would be.

[christinethethunnus]

So..back from watching HTTYD 3...

(I respect everyone who loved it and cried during watching it, so if you loved it a lot, I recommend on not reading this post.) 

(Contains entire plot of movie including personal criticism.) 

And I didn’t really like it. I thought the visuals were good, but the plot and motivations were really weak compared to the previous movies and there was a lot of weird stuff in there that was just unnecessary or actually relevant.

 My main problem with is it’s just too predictable. Movies can be predictable, and maybe because this is the last movie of a trilogy I might have gotten too hyped up. But if you’re going to make it be predictable, then add actually good conflict or good dialogue. But the dialogue is so cliched like, How are your plans on conquering the world going? You’re the one who changed me, I will destroy everything and everyone you love MUHAHAHAHHA Our home is not only this place we live on, it’s us and something like that. 

 And am I the only one who thought the writers were gonna go with Tuffnut is actually gay for Hiccup route? I know he’s an annoying character, but the way he’s always bringing up

  is Hiccup’s getting married to Astrid, is he not gonna get married to her, he’s gonna help out with him, talks about a lot about Hiccup, overly agreeing with everything he does and the weird smashing Hiccup into his ‘beard’ 

was really disturbing in my opinion. I don’t get why Tuffnut’s there. 

 Snotlout likes Valka now. Yeah, wasn’t okay at all with that. And he still has inferiority issues, now with Eret. Which was resolved in the end with Hiccup’s mom going like hey, I think you have better brains than Eret, which means we have possible chemistry and this is NOT OKAY TO ME. Snotlout never had any scene which would make her say that, and why would she even show any interest to someone at a similar age to her son? 

I have no idea how Snotlout’s character development is like in the tv series, but writers, if you’re gonna use that as a character trait, can’t you just have it actually be relevant to the story and build up the guy to be an actual character than a stereotypical stupid bully jerk who now likes the MAIN CHARACTER’S MOM??? 

And the villain.

This guy. I forgot what his name was after I came out watching it, so I just found it’s Grimmel, Grimmel the Grisly. Okay. You claim to have killed all of the Night Furies. How did you know you killed all of them? Did you like count all of the N.Fs and then started killing them off one by one? Did you do the same with the Light Furies? Does NightLight Furies live outside of the Hidden world and that’s why you could count all of them? 

How does Valka know the Night Furies were all killed too? If He’s a dragon ‘hunter’ why didn’t Valka, who were protecting the dragons like Hiccup, not know who he is and have methods to defend against him? Was she just protecting dragons who lived in a certain range of land? 

I really thought Grimmel was going to turn out as the ‘Anti-Hiccup’, someone who Hiccup could have been, challenging Hiccup physically and psychologically. He could have threatened to destroy Berk with the help of his conqueror friends, he says he’s a hunter but Hiccup and his friends and viking guys just chill on the island. 

At that scene when Grimmel’s like ‘can’t you guess where they must have gone’(evil guy face), I was thinking that this guy knows EVERY PLAN THAT’S GOING ON IN HICCUP’S BRAIN OMG DON’T CAMP IN THAT ISLAND YOU GUYS ARE DOOMED but no, they have to tail Ruffnut, who was accidentally left behind, to find the actual location wayyyyyy later on. Great tracking skills, I’m so impressed. 

I can’t help but think the writers went the easy route because they didn’t want to take risks and disappoint or shock the kids that would watch the movies, but you’ve already taken risks in the first and second movies with Hiccup’s leg and Stoick’s death, the viewers have grown up with the movies, so why are you going backwards all of a sudden? Not to mention this being the end of the trilogy so I can’t expect that the next one will be better than this one. 

 My final rant is a plot I wrote right after I came back from watching it yesterday, contains the entire plot of the movie, I didn’t change the final half completely because I had to rest after all that 3D and moving chairs, just added ideas which I thought could have been in some scenes. It’s not great, some scenes could be cliche too, but it’s what I wished could have been. I haven’t watched the entire TV series, so please put that into consideration. 

(I didn’t write Grimmel’s name because I forgot what it was at the time when I was writing this down, but I think bad guy’s enough for his current characterization and you could add any name in it if you wanted, I also forgot how you call the people of Berk and just wrote vikings instead. There’s no full dialogue scenes either, just some gibberish lines.) 

Hiccup and gang saves the dragons, and returns to Berk.

 Berk is overpopulated by dragons and humans, and while managing to co-exist with them, are having problems like the dragons consuming too many fish, serious arson, and some of the vikings (including Gobber) are interested in plundering other villages with their dragons, because that’s what VIKINGS DO.

The giant dragon knocks down the towers which served as houses for the dragons, and they need a place to stay, and the newcomer dragons end up barging into the Vikings’ houses, being not accustomed to the rules. The alpha, Toothless, tries to control them, but the damage is done.

So, Hiccup is forced to look for a haven for some of the dragons to stay beyond Berk, which he recalls the memory of his dad, and the stories of the ‘Hidden World of Dragons.’ And while he wants to work on looking for that, Hiccup is chief, and can’t leave the village like he used to while Stoick was around. Hiccup also addresses that they’ll have to do something about the dragon hunters and their plans to use the dragons as weapons, and same scene with Gobber, him saying that one day Hiccup will meet his match. 

(Scene with the Conquerors, showing them training dragons to be brutal killers and detailed plans of weaponizing them) appearance of the bad guy, he doesn’t look menacing, thin and has the appearance of a weasel. Is irked at the mentioning of ‘dragon riders’, and follows similarly to movie scene. (shows his power of DARTS by immobilizing a big dragon) 

 Snotlout, claiming to be second in charge, leaves with Astrid, (and the dragons) and he brags about how dismayed she must be to lose such a guy like him (Astrid ignores him), and continues to fantasize about Hiccup’s mom.

Astrid: (disgusted, scoffs) she’s like the same age as your mom

Snotlout: and more awesome, thinner and beautiful...... (A:ugh)

Snotlout mumbles about her probably preferring Eret, and they talk over Snotlout feeling inferior and wanting to get compensation from being adored by stronger women. (like Valka or Astrid)  Astrid points out he can’t fill in that gap by getting married to the previous chief’s wife, he has to prove himself actually being courageous (S:Which I am!) They go through clouds, and is astonished.

(black screen, transitions to Berk) 

Toothless tries to play with Hiccup, but he’s burdened by his chief duties and can’t spend time with his bud. Pouting, Toothless leaves the hut and catches the scent of the Light Fury and searches for her, meeting in the forest. They have a moment, but she flies away, and Toothless looks at his prosthetic tail with resent, and looks back to the sky with longing. 

(Transition to hidden island in the clouds) 

Snotlout and Astrid arrive on the island, and finds it good enough to hide the dragons in it, and the dragons find refuge in the woods. Snotlout announces all is done and they should leave, but Astrid decides to explore the island, and draws it on pieces of paper. Snotlout questions what she’s doing, and Astrid answers it’s for Hiccup’s map. S comments on when she’s so become like Hiccup, and she comments, 

Yeah, I never saw it coming.   (Astrid smiles as she continues to draw, when suddenly she spots the Light Fury in the sky, and hurriedly draws it on another paper.)

Done with work, Hiccup sighs as he finally comes out, and sees Toothless, and asks whether his bud wants to get some flying with him. Toothless looks depressed, and trips Hiccup with his prosthetic tail. 

“Aw, come on, what you’d do that for?” (Toothless:growls)  and Hiccup is slightly worried about him. Astrid arrives with Snotlout, their mission accomplished, and Snotlout announces that HE’S seen a NEW NIGHT FURY, ONLY WHITE BUT NEW AND IT WAS HE WHO FOUND IT SO HE’LL NAME IT-  Astrid comes over to Hiccup, and hands over the drawing, and that it disappeared while being  chased by other dragons she’s never seen before.(the bad guy’s dragons.) She comments on them being very hostile, and that they were trying to force the L.Fury to come with them. Toothless listens to them talking, and makes enthusiastic motions at the mentioning of the Light Fury (also named by Astrid)

(transition to Valka) she talks about how the Night furies went extinct (memory scene) she was looking for other dragons which were going extinct, and comes across the bad guy’s lair which had skull upon skull of all kinds of dragons, and mostly Night and Light furies. And since she could communicate with dragons she never heard of them recalling on seeing another Night Fury, so assumed they had gone extinct. (Fishlegs adding that the last records of N,Furies were made of patches of writings from decades ago, so it was unclear whether they went extinct or not)

After listening to Valka, Hiccup is delighted at the idea of finding a new dragon, and wants to go and find it. Some of the Vikings are interested in having another Night fury to protect them, which they could use in their pillaging villages.(Viking stuff) Hiccup is still against using dragons as weapons, (H: They are our family) and Gobber counters, We are already using them to make weapons, you, are doing it as well, Hiccup. (H:But not to harm other humans-) But you are no Dragon. It’s high time you chose the side where you want to rule over.

And Hiccup notices most of the things he did was to assist in humans living a better life with dragons than actually trying to solve the problems the villagers had. He wonders whether he just took the place of chief just to not disappoint his father. Hiccup turns to talk with Toothless to collect his thoughts, but he’s not there, and Hiccup feels more alone and burdened than ever.

Toothless is absent during the previous scene, as he hears distress calls from afar and looks for the Light Fury. He can’t fly, but can glides down and climbs trees to look for her, and finds her hurt and afraid, injured by the bad guy’s dragons.   (same scene like the movie, tries to court her, but fails, tries again, but fails, and then succeeds with the drawing.) and when she tries to get more close, she’s shot by the evil guy’s dart, and Toothless is captured in a trap. He calls a distress call, which orders all of the dragons on Berk, who goes to save him, and the Vikings including Hiccup notice this. Before Toothless is taken, Hiccup arrives on the back of another dragon, and Hiccup encounters his enemy for the first time, but the guy flies away with his dragons. 

(transition to dart scene) Eret explains who the bad guy is, calls him ‘The Dragonslayer’  who was rumored to have killed all of the Night Furies. which connects to Valka’s story of the dragon skeleton heap. Eret adds, that if the conquerors have called upon the bad guy, then they must be ready for another attack. The Vikings call on war with the conquerors and the Dragonslayer, and they’ll use their dragons to crush them. Against the idea, Hiccup tries to say they could work things out without fighting, but he is reminded by Snotlout (Valka winces) how that turned out a year ago. He looks for Astrid to support, but she agrees with Snotlout, saying that she can’t lose him too. Not a second time. And she glances at his prosthetic leg. [which H notices, and understands]

The crowd over agreeing or disagreeing on war, and Hiccup bellows Enough! 

He asks to give him some time, he’ll work something out, and goes into his hut. (opens his map and Stoick’s book about the Hidden world.

 (same scene with the bad guy)(the bad guy’s dragons circle around Hiccup, threatening him, drooling venom)they have a talk about how the guy became a hero by killing a night Fury, (Hiccup is reminded of himself

in the first movie) Hiccup claims the dragons are harmless, and can live along with humans, as he has proven with Berk,

But the bad guy retorts, then why can’t the other Vikings exist with the dragons, if they are so harmless? Why didn’t the people of Berk co-exist with dragons before Hiccup, although they must have had so many chances to?

Hiccup:  Because they went the easy way of trying to kill them off.

B.G: Exactly. And how wrong is that? You don’t seriously think dragons to be equal to you? Just because they are big lizards that breathe fire and can fly? You wouldn’t befriend flies even if they had grown to the size of a horse, you kill them. same with dragons.

Hiccup tries to ignore the bad guy’s words, claiming he’s nothing but a cold blooded murderer, and the bad guy says he killed dragons for humans, and was therefore hailed a hero among men. Just like Stoick.  

“And whose chief were you again? Hiccup, Savior of Dragons?”

  Suddenly, Astrid hacks into the hut with Stormfly, which smelled the dragons’ venom. She saves Hiccup (and asleep Toothless or fake Fishlegs, but then Toothless comes to save Hiccup with Astrid) 

 and the bad guy retreats on his dragons, shouting that he will kill off the last Night fury alive, and he will wear their skin as his coat to honor Stoick, the greatest of dragonkillers. If Hiccup dares to stop him, he will destroy Berk. (The hut is burnt down)

Everyone hurridly arrives to see Stoick’s hut burn down, and Astrid pulling Hiccup out, them coughing from the smoke.

Hiccup says they’re in danger, the bad guy’s going to come for them unless he gives up Toothless and the dragons. The Vikings and Snotlout claim this a proclamation of war, and they leave to prepare for it, and Hiccup tries to stop them, but they don’t listen, and leave off without him. Agitated, he sighs, and leans on a post to think. Astrid comes up to Hiccup, and asks him if he’s okay. 

Hiccup: Yeah, probably, on a second…I don’t think so.

She smiles as she gives him the map of the island she (and Snotlout)found.

“I don’t think this is the place you were looking for.. but it’s not half bad. And it’s a new add to your map. “ Hiccup ponders on this information, large, not on the map, and hidden from plain sight.

He calls on the Vikings that they could move on to this Island to hide themselves, and the dragons to hide from the ships that are coming for Berk. Hiccup declares that he cannot lose the soul of Berk which is both this island and the lives of people of it.) Including the dragons.

(same scene with the bad guy and the conquerors) – B.G says he has a plan to find them (Moves off to the island with the dragons.)

(scene with Snotlout and Valka talking about inferiority issues (she says she only loves Stoick, and gives him motherly advice on being warrior like by talking about Stoick) 

---(Below are summaries of the scene from the movie, and the ideas I wished it could have been)

*The L.F arrives on the island, Toothless is given the good new tail and goes after her

Hiccup tries to capture the bad guy, falls into obvious trap (Ruffnut captured and annoys the bad guy, he follows her back with the armada)  

-  Ruffnut talks about everything about the Hiccup Gang, the bad guy could have like used that to harm Astrid and force Hiccup to do his shit or if they’re only eating fish, use some dragon to poison the water and fish so they’ll starve to death. Ever heard of Siege tactics?

*Hiccup tries to find Toothless, finds the hidden world. (Toothless hailed king, Hiccup is saved by Toothless and remembers his dad talking about his mom and getting not married and how love is powerful) 

-      This could have gone like this, Hiccup and Astrid is attacked by the dragons, and as Hiccup is the intruder, (or he or Astrid accidentally injures a dragon) Toothless shows hostility towards him, (mirrors hostility from first movie), until he recognizes it’s his best friend. Hiccup, who looks upon him with some fear. Toothless tries to look menacing to save face, and ‘kidnaps Hiccup and Astrid’, flying out to the outside world to save his friends. 

-      and Hiccup has a flashback of his dad, being this dragon killing warrior, and how he too wanted to be like his dad. But despite his fearsome front, he still believed in love and loved his mother.

*Goes back to Berk, only to find that the L.Fury returned with them, she is captured by the bad guy,  and Toothless is captured, and the other dragons have to follow their ‘Alpha’ and are caged. Hiccup is distressed, Astrid cheers him up, the gang suit up and glide down to the so conveniently barked enemy ships ALONE and tries to save Toothless (with no plan, just kamikazes into it) -      After the bad guy leaves, the Vikings panic on having no ships and stuff and they’re stuck on the island(All of their dragons are gone and nobody notices or panics?? Did the dragons mean nothing to them?) 

-      Hiccup talks with Astrid about how similar he could have been to the bad guy, whether if the bad guy is actually the true successor of his dad, the dragon slaying warrior. Astrid reminds Hiccup of how he’s changed the lives of Berk for the better by saving and looking for ways to live with dragons, that he’s always been looking for ways for both dragons and humans, and just because everyone doesn’t get Hiccup’s methods deem his work useless. Hiccup being an exception has changed so many lives and destinies, including his dad. And don’t forget it’s him who made Astrid who she is now.  Now determined, Hiccup stands. 

-      (Orders the Vikings to fight for their once friends, and regain the victory of vikings (and Snotlout agrees with him, (maybe he’s finally learned some humiliation and acceptance by then, idk) 

-      Leads the Vikings all to fly, and they all attack the fleet (surely he has more flying suits...) 

*they don’t save Toothless until the last part, saves the other dragons first and destroys ships, and then has fight with bad guy, who flies off with L.Fury and Hiccup follows with Toothless, Toothless zaps the other evil dragons into oblivion, bad guy injures Toothless and Hiccup holds onto the guy and tells L.F to go save Toothless, and he lets go and falls with the bad guy.

Bad guy rips off Hiccup’s wings, and L.F catches Hiccup, Hiccup takes off his prosthetic leg and the guy (holding on to the leg) falls to the ocean and dies(probably)   -      There could be dialogue in this scene, cliché but cool like if your father could see you now something. Maybe he takes both Astrid and the Light Fury and makes Hiccup choose between the two, 

 and Hiccup frees the Light Fury, tells her to save Toothless, hands himself over to the bad guy, and chooses to fall to the sea to save Astrid . 

“If your father could see you now. Sacrificing the love of your life... and your life for a dragon.” 

“He’d be proud.” 

[insert Astrid grinning back at Hiccup]

-      Astrid attacks the bad guy, who falls from his dragon(or falls with dragon until the dragon gets to his senses and abandons him) and Astrid leaps down to save Hiccup, (she tries to glide but the fall is too great) and they hold onto each other before falling……and then the Light fury catches them. (Give me more Hiccstrid dammit) 

(Hiccup chooses to let the dragons go, away from the humans so that they’ll never be used as weapons again) 

(I kind of expected the dragons to shut the door to their world and that’s why they can’t meet again, and can’t they just go back to the isle of Berk by making ships? I see no reason for them to not go back home) 

*Hiccup lets go of Toothless and the dragons, and gets married with Astrid (best scene with the final fight scene, where they both look at each other and the soundtrack from the first movie oh SO GREAT ) Years pass, Berk has no dragons, and Hiccup and Astrid and their kids go to the end of the world and sees Toothless again, Toothless remembers Hiccup and they ride him and Stormfly and goes off (monologue going on like the dragons are waiting for humans to accept them)

-      monologue about Berk, establishing shot with clouds, the first person view being a flying figure, and the viewer sees faint figures which look like dragons flying through the sky. The camera moves through clouds and dives down, showing the new island of Berk, the sea and Viking fleet. -      Hiccup leading a fleet with Astrid, they come across a great mist and hear sounds of dragons, but cannot see them. Astrid stands on the front deck with her children, they try to touch the mist as if she’s trying to touch the clouds (homage to first movie) The new generation of vikings are worried of the sounds being a threat, but Hiccup calms them down, and silently waits looking up to the clouds. 

Suddenly a black great figure lands on the ship, the children scramble behind Astrid’s back, and she assures them, saying it’s okay.

-      Hiccup slowly movies towards the figure, and same scene as in movie, they recognize each other, and the camera shows their expressions (as if they realize something forgotten) and ends with title.

(End) 

The bad guy’s plot for my plot (the first half I wrote) , First, make his dragons force the Light Fury to land on Berk to hide herself, and she’ll meet Toothless, and the N.L furies mate for life so they’ll fall for each other. The Light Fury’ll want to find a safe place to not get captured again, so she’ll look for a place to hide with her possible future mate in or out of Berk, but he orders his dragons to injure her, and get her calling for help, forcing Toothless to be more concerned about her. (Making them inseparable) And then it returns back to the movie with him capturing her and then forcing Toothless to be captured and then taking all the dragons in Berk.......................................................................................................................but why doesn’t he force them to lead him to the Hidden world, where he could kill all dragons by blocking the hole and Atlantising them? Why would he let her go in the first place, without any dragon following where she is?? Can he SMELL DRAGON? IS THAT HOW HE CAN TRACK THEM DOWN?? How was he sure that they’d come back after the Light Fury took Toothless back to the H.Word??? This is so confusing and ugh your plans are the worst GRIMMEL THE GRISLY YOUR NAME IS FORGETFUL AND SO IS YOUR TITLE OF DRAGON KILLER GO FOR SOMETHING THAT PEOPLE CAN REMEMBER AFTER HOLDING ONTO MOVING CHAIRS FOR OVER AN HOUR in fact, you are NEVER SHOWN ACTUALLY KILLING A DRAGON, YOU ALWAYS JUST PUT THEM TO SLEEP YOU ARE NOT A DRAGON SLEEP FAIRY 

I do think the sub-title ‘The Hidden World’ doesn’t suit this plot, but it doesn’t matter probably. I’m really sad to see it go, but am still joyous to see that wedding scene. I’m happy to have grown up with you, How to Train your Dragon, good bye and farewell. 

[thecharmingwildflower]

A Quick Refresher

This blog is a continuation of a previous blog of mine. It’s about my progress through anxiety. Here’s all of my previous posts:

21 May 2018

Have you ever heard a song that changed you? One that really shook you to the core? Three years ago that song was “Sing” by the ever so iconic My Chemical Romance. To this day, it is still my favorite song. Anyways, recently the illustrious Shawn Mendes released a song called “In My Blood.” And, let me tell ya, since I first heard “Sing” I have never heard a song that shook me so hard. This song is actually about Mendes’ anxiety disorder, which only adds to the power behind it. According to Wikipedia “Mendes has been open about his anxiety disorder, which he disclosed publicly through “In My Blood”;” and honestly, I think it’s a perfect song. Here’s what he said about it:

“I spoke to a therapist a couple of times […] Therapy is what works for you. Therapy is listening to music and running on the treadmill, therapy is going to dinner with your friends—it’s something that distracts you, that helps you heal and so it just depends on what you think therapy is. I made a conscious effort to be more connected to the people in my life. I found I was closing myself off from everybody, thinking that would help me battle it then realizing the only way I was going to battle it was completely opening up and letting people in.”

Honestly, his song describes my life in a manner that’s almost terrifying, and his statement says something that I haven’t thought about enough. Depression and Anxiety isn’t only the lack of will to do things. I’m constantly on discord with friends, or practicing an instrument or working, but I don’t let people in. If you read my blog (which is highly improbable) you would probably know that. It takes baby steps to get better, so maybe I should start with my friends. Maybe I need to face my problems by letting people help me. And here I am, in my history class, about to cry my face off because of Shawn Mendes. Maybe I sound like a thirteen-year-old, but I guess that’s okay.

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I wrote the first part of this at about 10 this morning, so let me recap the rest of my day from 10 tonight. I was doing so well until about 12:30 and then I just lost it. I don’t know what hit me, I guess it was like an episode. I even talked about trying to switch schools or something because no one cared about me. That all seems irrational now but it sure as hell didn’t feel that way earlier. I opened up to a few people, mostly people that already had an idea or that knew about my anxiety though. I also tried to open up to my parents, to which they basically just said “I get it” “everyone feels that way” “I’ve felt that way” “Why don’t you open up to us more?” “Why don’t you pray?” All things, might I add, that you should never say to a depressed person unless you have gone through things with them.

In the fourth grade, my teacher told me that when someone’s relative dies you never tell them you understand because you don’t really. Maybe you’ve lost a relative and know that it’s sad, but you don’t know that person’s specific relationship with that specific relative unless you’re really close to them. Having depression is like that too. You can feel depressed, maybe you even had depression but just because you’ve experienced it before, it doesn’t necessarily mean that you know how the person you’re talking to feels. It’s better to just be there. Just listen. Don’t try to import yourself unless you know that person is okay with it.

Praying also bothers me because, to me right now, it’s like this giant douchebag in the sky made me with a mental disorder and the cure-all panacea to that is to ask said douchebag to fix me because I love him. And on top of that he’s gonna condemn like half of my friends to hell for being gay, and maybe even myself for being bi. But I should still love and worship him anyway because he might not and an entire civilizations worth of people have been wrong for 2000 years. I appreciate when people pray for me, and that they go to their highest power and ask him to help me. But sometimes I have a hard time comprehending all of that, so telling me the best way to fix it is to pray and not actually work out my problems really just doesn’t help.

Sing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTgnDLWeeaM

In My Blood: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IlkBLwl4aBM

One good thing that happened today:

There was a double rainbow after my therapy session. I don’t really know about God right now. He and I have had our differences if he’s even there. But if he is, I hope this is a sign that I can get better.

Jo

20 May 2018

I genuinely don’t know if I’m going to finish out the school year. I only have about three weeks left (two if you count exams) but I’m just so incredibly done I can’t even put it into feasible words. I just want to sleep honestly. It’d be even better if there was no limitation to how long I sleep. But now I have to go to school, go to work, go to the therapist and repeat supplementing a different activity for ‘go to the therapist’ every day, and on top of all of that I still have homework. I don’t get anything going on in a math-related class, I’m tired as fuck and I have about three tests and two projects due this week. I just don’t know if I can actually pull through with an A in any of my classes except for, like, band.

Something good that happened today: I became the official first chair flute at my school (if I haven’t already said) but in a more literal sense because we had our last concert this year). My band directors boyfriend even came (then again he comes to all of our concerts). I saw a few of my graduated friends.

18 May 2018

One of the biggest struggles of living with a mental disorder is that telling people about it sucks. According to some source I read, some 40% of children struggle with a mental health disorder before they graduate college. *Note* that does not make your struggles any less real. Despite this evident factoid, I don’t talk about my problems. It makes me feel like I’m being clingy or grasping for attention. Because of this, my therapist is the only one that knows the key struggle to everything: although I’m not suicidal I genuinely wish I wasn’t alive. I feel like it’d be better if I’d never existed in the first place, which is ironic because I was artificially conceived. Ah, irony, sweetly stabbing me in the back once again. Being stabbed to death by irony, I feel, is a very savory way to die. 

No one else knows why I’m depressed, not even my closest friends, albeit a few know that I have depression and anxiety. Most importantly, my teachers know nothing. I’m a rather good student but some days are hard. I’ve been known to completely fail a random quiz leaving my teacher in awe at how I, a 95 average student could get a 48 on something as infinitesimal as a vocabulary quiz. And when my Chemistry teacher tells the whole class we’re literally not going to get into college because we failed a chemistry test, she doesn’t understand that it stresses me out more than it would most people.  And I pretended that I was just sick to the boy that tried to comfort me because what can I say, I cry a lot but I hate to do it in front of other people because, again, it makes me feel like I’m dragging attention to myself. Just note that even if someone says they’re okay it doesn’t almost mean they are. Please act accordingly.

A good thing that happened today: I won the award for best sophomore musicianship; I won it for freshman year too. Since obviously, you guys don’t go to my school you should know that this is the only award you can win as a freshman, sophomore or junior.

Peace out,

-Jo

I think a blog would be good to run.

I can’t promise that I’m some god tier writer and I also can’t promise myself that more than like -1 person will read this but if there’s one way to help me find a will to live it’s to write about life … or at least that’s what my therapist says.

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The idea here is to write about something good that happens every day, so I suppose I could mention that my religion teacher gave me a 120 on the project that I did based off of tumblr pictures and homestuck music. I find it a particular type of irony, like the kind that laughs at god because yeesh homestuck is Satan’s work (but hey the music is pretty good right?). I also discovered the name of my band directors boyfriend. Since I (allegedly) go to a Christian school, this factoid becomes even more significant once you enlighten your brain with the fact that my band director is also a man. Not that this is surprising to any of you because he’s a band director and this is tumblr. So anyways, please do enjoy my shitty blog that’s gonna give me a will to live. Good night y’all.