#ch: ilya semree

[pinkfey]

“Imagine that the world is made out of love. Now imagine that it isn’t. Imagine a story where everything goes wrong, where everyone has their back against the wall, where everyone is in pain and acting selfishly because if they don’t, they’ll die. Imagine a story, not of good against evil, but of need against need against need, where everyone is at cross-purposes and everyone is to blame.” — r. siken.

[pinkfey]

wip wednesday thursday !!

tagged by @mrs-theirin and @druidgroves; tysm!! kissie kissie <33 tagginggg @lvllns @rosykims @malefiicarum @rosebarsoap @kirnet @aartyom @devilbrakers @shepardgf @shadowglens @arklay @nuclearstorms @merry-harlowe @galeboettichergf @morvaris @narshadda @steelport @kymal @calenhads @indorilnerevarine @risingsh0t and you!!

ilya/kina stuff pre-romance era bc i'm cringe and predictable

And the voice in her head not of her own but of a ghost—stern, lilting, enervated, painfully familiar. Said rarely with a smile and rarer with fondness. Focus, Semree.

Focus, as her former master had taught, was life or death. Lack of was life or death. Irress was life or death.

Ilya deigned not to dwell on Irress in company of the Council. That was death. It was an ancient gut-wrench of an instinct born from one mortifying perception, for thoughts of Irress had a weight. A presence. Not a window through the Force but a door cracked open. The door should have been deadbolt. The door should have been sealed.

This was the fear: that someone would notice.

Worse: that someone would not.

Something was wrong with Ilya. She would die before letting it show.

[pinkfey]

STAR WARS -> ILYA

Ilya’s greatest wound was neither severed limb nor subsequent grief but the absence of Master. A gap in the heart. The question with no answer. Was it my fault? Was it my fault? Was it my fault?

[pinkfey]

tagged by @lexcanium @shadowglens @druidgroves @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew !!! thank u all so much!!!!!! mwah mwah !!!!!!!! tagging @kirnet @narshadda @malefiicarum @rosebarsoap @kymal @nuclearstorms @shepardgf @aartyom @steelport @arklay @devilbrakers @merry-harlowe @gelvaan @morvaris @calenhads @brujah @cultistbase and you !!!!

finally breaking my tag game silence!!!! have some star wars ocs 🫣

ilya (she/her) ♡ kinasi (she/her) ♡ safiya (she/they) ♡ alicent (wip) (she??)

[pinkfey]

i commissioned @drasin to paint ilya and kinasi and am so in love with the result!! please please please consider commissioning them!! she’s a sweetheart and so lovely to work with <3

[pinkfey]

anyways i made more 😔

tagged by @aartyom @morvaris @devilbrakers @shadowglens @jendoe to make some ocs in the cutest picrew ever; thank u so much my loves !!!!

i think this one has made its rounds so if u see this i tag you 💕💕

audra (mind blind) ┆ bright (dnd) ┆ calpurnia (pathfinder) charity (shoh) ┆ saskia (mind blind) ┆ ilya (star wars) wren (star wars) ┆ thea (fable) ┆ honey (bloomic)

bonus: revel ♡

[pinkfey]

i know you’d kill me if you could stand the sight of blood.

the wonderful @al-norton did this neat lil piece of my toxic star wars girlies and i am truly obsessed. give their work a look and consider commissioning them bc they’re nothing but lovely!!

[pinkfey]

INTRODUCTION -> ILYA & KINASI

“Give it up, Kina. This is no hunt. It’s a courtship. Flirt with fate all you’d like—when you fall, none of us will catch you.”

[pinkfey]

STAR WARS -> THE HUNTER & THE HUNTED

"Perhaps it is not love when I say you are what I love most—you are the knife I twist inside myself, this is love."

[pinkfey]

beloved @solasan tagged me to make some ocs in this picrew!! tysm mollie mmmmmmmmwah!!!! tagging: @calenhads @shadowglens @arklay @steelport @morvaris @swordcoasts @avallachs @narshadda @ianeiras @aartyom @sanguinettii and you 💕💕💕

ilya semree (sw), kinasi irress (sw) lillian (fable), jael khatri (pwotr)

[pinkfey]

@solasan lucky for u mollie my beloved i have SO much information abt them 💕💕💕 soooooooo ilya & kinasi introduction time <3

so first things first. ilya = jedi. kinasi = sith. oooooo~~~

now !! when ilya was about seventeen she severed her left leg in an uhhhhh ambitious battle where she found herself in the wrong place at the wrong time. her master, damren, never lived down the guilt of it. the council blamed ilya for getting ahead of herself but he knew he should have been with her at the time. she didn’t resent him for it but it did change their master/padawan dynamic. there was immense love, as always, but coldness now. strain. after she got her prosthetic they both tried to pretend like it hadn’t happened, but things were never the same. when damren later went missing in action, it didn’t surprise ilya. (tldr damren made her losing her leg about him when he should’ve been focusing on her)

she doesn’t like to admit it, but sometimes she finds herself slipping into the same coldness damren did. she is loving and empathetic and extremely affectionate with her padawan, a zabrak named sunma, just as damren should have been. but once in a while she catches herself scowling, criticizing the smallest of mistakes. she loathes herself for it.

speaking of stuff she loathes, ilya is a powerful jedi. she loves the force and the force loves her. but she struggles with a little thing called repression. she takes issue with the hypocrisy council, strong issue, but since she has essentially been trained to not “rock the boat” as it were, she swallows it down and ignores the teeming discomfort that grows everyday. she hid it well from most, but kina could sense it immediately.

personality wise, ilya is Cool and Collected. she uses a double bladed orange lightsaber but i have yet to decide which form she uses oops <3 she and obi-wan are brunch date besties fmdnsbfn they’re both the wise, lowkey judgmental type with padawans that are overeager to say the least

a brief intermission to talk about sunma: ilya has known him since he was a wee babby and she didn’t pick him so much as he picked her <3 ilya never pictured herself formally training anyone but sunma just kept seeking her out—times when she tried to relax in the library or as soon as she returned to the temple, he’d show up at her side. he was silly and goofy and desperate to please and when he demanded that she train him, she couldn’t say no. he’s everything to her.

now at the time of order 66, sunma was about eighteen years old. ilya and sunma were not together at the time—ilya was actually caught up in another ill-timed battle with kina—but ilya felt the lurch in her chest. it was a kind of devastation she had never known and she knew, she was certain, he had died. she did not have time to search for him though. kina was already quite literally dragging her to the escape shuttle.

INTERMISSION OVER !! kina time <3 now kina is………. so pathetic. just absolutely pitiful. she has something to prove and hunting ilya is her golden ticket. it’s her obsession. she’s come to know ilya intimately, possessively. she knows how ilya favors her right leg, how she twists her lightsaber just so, how she smells up close when she’s glaring at her with all the rage a jedi can bear. all this knowledge of ilya and she can’t. fucking. kill her. fjdbdjfkdsh SHE IS SO BAD AT KILLING HER. SHE KEEPS FAILING. KINA IT IS YOUR ONE JOB TO KILL HER AND IT IS TAKING YOU TWO YEARS WRAP IT UP BABE !!!!!!!

she is angry. remember when i said i need more angry ocs?? kina fits the bill. pissed 100000% of the time. she hates her sith faction, she hates her master, she hates ilya. she’s irredeemable, she just has so much malice in her heart. does this have to do with the abuse she suffered at the hands of her master?? yeah probably lol

kina’s master liked punishment. for every time she failed, he dug a blade into her arm to form a scar in a circle all the way around. it was a lesson in ambition—one she only needed to learn once as a child. only one scar out of all her fellow apprentices, it was quite a reputation she had—until ilya escaped their first encounter. that earned her another scar. then another. and another. ilya ruined her near flawless record not just once, but over and over and over again and kina became nothing in the eyes of her faction. that’s why her vendetta against ilya is so extreme and personal. fun <3

now kina has a rival in the sith ranks who she just might despise more than ilya. this rival (inanah; super old oc who i’m reviving just for this) pushes her buttons just the right way. she points out that kina isn’t trying to prove herself to their master any longer, but to ilya. she says kina’s pursuance of ilya isn’t a hunt, it’s a courtship. kina wants to kill her sooooo bad fkdhshfjfk

but inanah is right. the comfort there is in knowing your opponent so well… you can love anything if you become familiar enough with it. it’s the exposure. it infects you. and kina is familiar with ilya like no other. the first time she seriously wounded her she felt a sickening satisfaction. the fear in ilya’s eyes made her nauseatingly giddy, heart fluttering at the sight of blood like it was a first kiss.

the hatred between the two was largely unrequited until inanah gave kina some unsolicited advice: go for the padawan. and when she did, when she turned her attention to sunma instead of ilya—ilya, who had been so evasive and untouchable, threw herself between the two. it was thrilling. kina finally had her, and ilya finally felt hatred.

“but jasmine montliyets!!” you say. “this is so toxic!! how does this ever work??” well kina’s faction had been sensing something twisting in kina, that admirable-if-unhinged bloodlust of hers had become muddled with something else, something that could not be exploited. they turned on her, hunter become hunted, and kina could have gone blind with anger at the betrayal. she should have seen it coming, she knew, but she blamed ilya. she threw everything out the window. if the sith were going to kill her, nothing else mattered anymore, not even her safety.

she went to the jedi temple, and because kina “poor meow meow” irress has the worst timing in the world, it was the same day as order 66. she found ilya alone, but her faction had followed her and interrupted her before she could strike. then the clones attacked and it was too overwhelming for both kina and ilya and kina knew she couldn’t kill ilya if she was already dead. so when ilya offered her a cautious hand, kina accepted, and they escaped.

granted they did crash land on a desert planet and, after ilya pulled her from the wreckage, kina immediately came out swinging (and missing each one because she’s such a loser fldbsbmffks). but her energy was spent. she told ilya to kill her. surprise surprise!! ilya didn’t. there was nothing left for either of them, no point of fighting when they were both on the verge of death. ilya was done. walking away from the wreckage, she told kina to move on.

kina followed her.