#certainly the men in this show are geared towards girls absolutely. and i can absolutely see how girls might be pushed to focus on them and
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Vision of Escaflowne is good! The dub is good! It starts out great! Great characters, main character, action and portal fantasy. But then the writers seem to forget that the main character is the main character. I think this is often a very big problem with mildly to very sexist writers: their default thought about women is that they are passive. And so it's no big deal in their minds to let them remain passive as long as the men around her are active. Letting the girl be active is like a special treat, and they assume the audience should be perfectly accepting of a passive main character if she's a girl.
#i really think this.#its a variation on the woman being powerless as standard#certainly the men in this show are geared towards girls absolutely. and i can absolutely see how girls might be pushed to focus on them and#treat the main character like a shell#i was trying to watch chinese magic shows and it was like: this woman is a magical general!! or whatever#but no she gets turned into a chicken first and is a whiny baby the whole time#because when when women are powerless thats default and not frustrating to these men/people#and a woman being powerful is a little treat maybe. no#the men are the focus of power and the female character interacts with that power - thats how women can TOUCH power in that way#anyway#anywayyy#my thoughts#voe#vidi#my stuff#i cant keep watching bc she keeps getting to do nothing - sulk - think about her love interest - and then tell boy to cheer up lol after his#home got entirely destroyed#huh???#how can i identify with her ? how can i take the character seriously???#such a good start
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âYou lie to your best friend/crush that you have an OnlyFans just to see their reactionâ
Ft. Sugawara; Nishinoya; Tsukishima; Oikawa; Kenma
Pt. 2
A/N: My bias is so obvious here LOL
KARASUNO
âł Sugawara
⣠ You are over at his house, the two of you idly watching a sitcom while browsing your phones and chatting in between; itâs comfortable, as times with Sugawara usually are.
⣠ Every time Suga leans in to show you a funny meme on his phone or throws his head back in laughter at a joke from the show, you find your heart skipping a beat.
⣠ He is beautiful, basically an angel in your eyes, but he is also your best friend and you donât think he has any interest in you like that. Not in the way you do.Â
⣠ Thatâs how you get the idea to test his feelings.Â
⣠ Being the troublemaker you are (how else would you and Suga get along so well?) you decide to shake things up by casually mentioning youâre interested in starting an OnlyFans and asking if he thinks its a good idea.Â
⣠ You expect either of two reactions: either heâll be as supportive as usual, possibly advising you to be cautious with strangers online like the mother hen he is, proving he only sees you as a friendâor heâll tell you not to, possible evidence that likes you.
⣠ The response you receive is not quite what you were expecting...
⣠ Once the words leave your lips his head immediately whips around in your direction, light brown eyes looking at you with a serious expression on his face, something youâd never really seen before. It makes you uncomfortable and you begin to regret all of your life decisions.
⣠ Suddenly though, he is leaning into you, his arms coming up to trap you against the couch as you try to back away. Your eyes are as wide as saucers and face completely flushed as he continues to stare you down before speaking.
⣠ âEven though Iâm your best friend, Iâm still a man, you know. Youâre being awfully cruel right now.â
⣠You audibly gulp, suddenly feeling light-headed but he keeps speaking, close enough that you can feel his hot breath fan across your cheeks.
⣠âAsking me to watch the person I like show off in front of thousands of other men? Even I have my limits.â
⣠And that marks the day of you and Sugawaraâs first kiss. âĄ
âł Nishinoya
âŁÂ Your best friend, Nishinoya Yuu, is notoriously unabashed with his affections.Â
⣠The two of you have an interesting relationshipâNoya has no qualms with expressing how pretty he thinks you are, borderline flirting with you at times, and you frequently return the favor.Â
âŁÂ But you donât take any of it seriously, of course, regardless of how much you secretly wish it were real. Everyone at Karasuno knows about Noyaâs undying dedication to the volleyball club manager, Shimizu Kiyoko, and he confesses his love to her at least twice a day.Â
⣠Unbeknownst to you those professions became less and less frequent after he met you and now most of Karasuno thinks the two of you are basically dating
⣠The two of you are at the mall, a frequent hang out place where Noya can look at volleyball gear and you can browse manga at the bookstore, when you get the idea to prank your friend.
⣠âHey, Noya? Iâve been thinking about finding a way to make more money but I donât have time for a part-time job so I decided to make an OnlyFansâI already have a few subscribers.â
⣠Nishinoya nearly trips and falls flat on his face. You would have laughed if it werenât for how he immediately grabs at your shoulders, staring at you with a mix of anger and fear.Â
⣠âAbsolutely not! No one should be allowed to see your beautiful body like that but me!â
⣠You immediately fluster at his loud declaration, acutely aware of how other customers in the mall are giving the two of your strange looks as they walk by.Â
⣠âB-but Noya, we arenât even datingââ
⣠âThen letâs start dating!âÂ
⣠And what are you gonna do? Say no?
âł Tsukishima
⣠Being friends with Tsukishima could be frustrating at timesâa sentiment you and Yamaguchi frequently discuss when the blond isnât around.Â
⣠Tsukishima likes to think most things are beneath him and heâs too cool to find enjoyment in activities most other friends enjoy, ranging from mini golf to video games. The man seems content to waste his life away studying and listening to music if it werenât for you and Yamaguchi forcing him out of his room.Â
⣠Naturally, something like a prank war would be something Tsukishima would want no part ofânot that that has ever stopped you.Â
⣠Usually, your pranks are failures. Either Tsukishima easily figures out what youâre doing before it can happen or he doesnât give you the satisfaction of a reaction, chastising you for wasting your time pulling pranks when you have a failing grade in mathematics youâll later beg him to help you study for.
⣠He still helps you though, heâs whipped
⣠Your newest prank however, you feel exceptionally confident in. Not only is it simple to pull off, only relying on your acting kills, but it also might answer your curiosity on whether you have a chance in getting your dearest Tsukki to see you as more than just a friend.
⣠The day you decide to do it the three of you are hanging out in Tsukishimaâs bedroom as usual, you working on the math homework Tsukishima forced you to study while he reads a book and Yamaguchi sits in the corner reading a book.
⣠You had already discussed your plans with Yama beforehand, to which his expression looked suspiciously devious, like he knew something you didnât know, as he proclaimed his support.Â
⣠You hear Tsukishima turning a page and decide to speak up.Â
⣠âHey, Tsukki, have you heard of OnlyFans?â
⣠You hold back a snicker as you see Tsukishima visibly tense, his eyes widening behind his glasses for a moment before he relaxes. From the corner of your eyes you can see Yamaguchi smirking behind his comic, watching the blond closely.Â
⣠â...yeah, Iâve heard of it,â Tsukishima simply replies.Â
⣠âIâve been thinking about making more money but I donât have time for a part-time job so my friend suggested it. She said I could make over ten thousand yen a month.â
⣠âI think only the really attractive ones make that much.â
⣠You gasp, thoroughly offended, and Yamaguchi looks mildly annoyed by his friendâs response, already opening his mouth to chastise him for being so meanâbut before he can say anything, Tsukishima is speaking again, still looking down at the book in his lap.Â
⣠âDonât do it though.âÂ
⣠âWhy not?â You pout, refusing to look up at him when you speak.Â
⣠â...I donât want the person I like to do those types of things.âÂ
⣠You nearly choke on your own saliva, head darting up to stare at him in disbelief. Yamaguchi, for some reason, only smiles softly, looking unsurprised by the admission.Â
⣠âW-what? You...like me?â
⣠âOi, shouldnât you be studying? One more F and youâre gonna flunk out of the class, dummy.â
⣠Youâre slightly disappointed by the change of subject but when you notice the soft pink on Tsukishimaâs cheeks you canât help but to smile the whole time you finish your homework.
AOBA JOUSAI
âł Oikawa
⣠Oikawa is a busy guy.
⣠You were well aware of that before the two of you happened to be paired up for an assignment and got to know each other, eventually becoming close friends.Â
⣠Between volleyball practices, tournaments, magazine interviews, and appeasing a passionate fan club, Oikawa rarely has time for himself, let alone another person.Â
⣠Despite all of that, you could tell he always made sure to spend time with you, dedicating a few weekends a month to hanging out, just the two of you, and constantly texting you in the times the two of you couldnât physically be together.Â
⣠From an outsiderâs perspective, it was almost like the two of you were dating.Â
⣠But alas, you know the sad reality is that Oikawa is most certainly not your boyfriend and you have no idea if he has any interest in your like thatâŠ
⣠...Which is why you decide to try to make him jealous one day to push him towards confessing his feelings, if they exist.Â
⣠The two of you are at a cafĂ©, sipping lattes and gossiping about other students when you bring it up.Â
⣠âYâknow...Iâve been thinking of making an OnlyFans.â
⣠To your surprise, Oikawaâs eyes seem to light up, his lips curving into a smile of excitement.Â
⣠âWow, really? Maybe I should make one too!â
⣠Oikawa immediately pulls out his cell phone and the color drains from your face as you realize your plan has completely backfired.Â
⣠âMy fans are going to love thisâhey do you think we can do a collab? The two of us in one pic would make us top creators for sure.â
⣠You can only nod numbly with a fake smile at Oikawaâs enthusiasm.
⣠Oh god, youâve created a monsterâŠ
NEKOMA
âł Kozume
⣠Unless youâre Kuroo, becoming friends with Kenma is a nearly impossible feat. Actually making him want to spend time with you alone, even more so.Â
⣠But somehow, you managed to work your way into Kenmaâs tightly knit social circle more like a two point line segment of him and Kuroo and your evenings after his volleyball practice are usually spent in one of your bedrooms, playing Splatoon and Animal Crossing until your Switches die or your parents force you to come home for dinnerâwhichever comes first.Â
⣠You love spending time with Kenma, his quiet presence somehow making you feel comfortableâbut over time those feelings of ease have shifted into something more akin to nervousness and excitement as youâve come to develop a crush on the setter.
⣠Every moment with him, watching the small smiles tug at his lips when he wins a match or his cute, frustrated pout when he canât figure out how to defeat a boss makes your heart flutter and itâs becoming more and more painful to idly sit by without expressing your feelings.
⣠A direct confession, especially to a boy with nearly 0 social skills, is scary, so you want to be sure your feelings are returned before you even attempt to share them.Â
⣠Thus, youâve decided to take Kurooâs advice.
⣠âPush him into a corner. Kenma will only act when he thinks he has to.âÂ
⣠You take a deep breath to steel your nerves before you speak, eying him sneakily from behind your Switch.Â
⣠âGamer girls and boys are kind of trendy these days; Iâm thinking about starting an OnlyFans to make money to buy more games.â
⣠The only visible response you receive is a slow blink as Kenma continues to play his game, fingers tapping furiously on the keys.Â
⣠âAh...I donât think thatâs a good idea.â
⣠âWhy not?â
⣠There are a few moments of silence between you two, the room only filled with the SFX of your games as Kenma seems to finish his round. You recognize the victory music as Kenma pauses to finally raise his gaze to meet your own.Â
⣠âIt's your body so I canât tell you what to do but...I would feel really jealous of all your subscribers.â
⣠And just like that, Kenma returns his attention to the video game, unpausing and starting a new match, blissfully unaware of you struggling to calm your racing heart and flushed cheeks.Â
#haikyuu#sugawara koushi#nishinoya yuu#tsukishima kei#oikawa tooru#kozume kenma#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu scenarios#haikyuu imagines#haikyuu headcanons#karasuno#aoba johsai#nekoma#sugawara x reader#nishinoya x reader#tsukishima x reader#oikawa x reader#kenma x reader#sugawara hcs#nishinoya hcs#tsukishima hcs#oikawa hcs#kenma hcs#haikyuu hcs
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The Conspiratorial Bullet: Chapter 5
Returning our view from where the two girls began to rekindle their beautiful friendship to the site of the flag once again, a fierce battle was still raging on.
Just moments earlier, the blue team had been at a numerical disadvantage. But with their allies having received their communications and returned, the battle could now tilt either wayâŠâŠ No, they currently had the momentum to push the enemy back just a little.
âAlright, weâre totally forcing them back here!â
âIf we can get through this fight, thereâll only be a handful of them left. We just have to hold out a bit longer.â
The nobles had spotted a chance of victory, and they could even afford to smile now. But as they verified their opponentsâ positions from within a thicket, from behind a tree on the opposite side, a mysterious object was lobbed in their direction.
âWhatâs that?â
One noble had noticed the item sailing towards them â a bulging leather pouch. But its opening wasnât fully shut, and as the blue team members stood rooted to the ground, the contents of the pouch spilled out onto them from above.
Out the bag poured a vast quantity of dummy bullets.
âH-Huhhhhhhh!?â
Stunned, the men shrieked as the rain of bullets pelted them without mercy. Of course, in the blink of an eye, most of them had been covered with paint.
One of the noblemen touched the paint on his clothes with a finger as he spoke in a daze.
âIs this, really possible?â
It seemed that doubt had surfaced in the othersâ minds as well, for those whoâd been paint-bombed simply stood where they were, their confusion plain as day. And as they did so, in the distance, a figure watched them from behind a tree.
âSorry about that. Still, this is a great tactic.â
ââAs James Bond murmured that, he chuckled.
Needless to say, the one who had delivered that hefty blow on the blue team was Bond. At a spot far removed from the crossfire, heâd quietly made his preparations alone, and lain in wait for the chance to pull off this stunt.
Using bullets in this manner, when they were meant to be shot from a gun, could potentially invite controversy; but Herder had said, âIf you get paint on any part of your body, you are outâ â and not âif you are struck by a bullet fired from a gunâ. In other words, if one adhered to the rules as explained, it could be said that this tactic of raining huge quantities of mock bullets on the enemy was legitimate.
Although theyâd been suspicious at first, after a moment, the nobles looked at one another and laughed.
âThat was an interesting attack for sure, but nowâŠâŠ whatâll we do? Should we call the referee and seek a decision?â
âNah, we were completely done in â itâs our loss. Letâs bow out with grace.â
Far from leaving them frustrated, the innovativeness of that idea had felt refreshing; even as they harboured twinges of regret, the men obediently left the battlefield.
The red team members glanced at one another, as if wondering why their opponents were leaving the battlefield: it seemed Bondâs unconventional attack had surprised even his own allies.
Gazing at their puzzled faces with delight, Bond began to head for the apparent location of the opposing teamâs flag. There was no rule that a certain person had to capture it, so he wanted to settle things himself if he could. With the blue teamâs forces severely depleted, as long as they eliminated the remaining few members, they should be able to steal the flag with ease.
But the instant he saw the path to victory, from the direction of his own allies came a familiar voice.
âOâi, everyone. Iâve taken the flag. The gameâs over now.â
That was absolutely impossible. A chill ran down his spine.
The voice announcing their victoryââ was his own.
âHuh? Weâve already gotten the flag?â
âThat was quicker than I thought.â
Naturally, since they thought the game was over, his allies had let down their guard. Bond shouted to them as fast as he could.
âNo! Thatâs not me!â
But the warning came a second too late. Before his voice could reach them, several gunshots could be heard coming from their direction.
ââŠâŠTheyâre done for.â
Bond bit his lower lip as he headed for his allies. There, a group of men stood in a daze, their clothes stained with paint. It seemed they had fallen into a spectacularly executed trap.
The number of players eliminated here was comparable to what Bond himself had taken out earlier. Once again, the balance of the battle had been restored, and his shoulders sank â but then he heard the rustle of leaves from a thicket behind him.
Sensing danger, Bonds dived swiftly into the nearby bushes. That instant, from the corner of his eye, he caught sight of a certain colleagueâs young face.
Bond smiled as he raised his gun.
âYou said you werenât the type to get passionate, but that was a pretty nasty trick you pulled there ââFred-kun.â
âThatâs because I canât let the team Mr William is on be defeated.â
Fred Porlock responded in a flat voice.
âBondâsâ voice from earlier had been a product of Fredâs mimicry. Heâd led his opponents to mistakenly believe that the blue teamâs flag had been captured, then took advantage of their lowered guard to inflict a massive blow.
âHmm, so youâre determined to win too. Speaking of which, youâre rather passionate for someone whoâs stone-faced.â
He purposely slung those provocative words over, and from the other side of the thicket, Fredâs retort sailed back.
âPerhaps â but getting too passionate only impedes my work. For me, an ironclad rule is to remain calm at all times.â
âI donât think thatâs necessarily true. Itâs precisely this important work which requires a passion thatâs second to none.â
âIn that case, shall we prove whoâs right?â
Fredâs unusually provoking comment had a somewhat joyful ring to it.
Bond chuckled.
âI knew you were a passionate man.â
With that single line uttered with joy as the catalyst, Bond leaned out of the vegetation and raised his gun. It seemed Fred had the same idea, for both of them were now pointing their revolvers at each other. But this was no time for indecision. Both men pulled the trigger, then took evasive action. The bullets passed through the exact spots theyâd been a moment earlier, and they each hid behind a tree at the same time once more.
That thrilling battle lasted only a moment. Then, Bond called out with a childlike innocence.
âAah, what a shame: Iâve been hit. Look, hereâs the paint stain.â
âIâm not getting fooled by that â you completely dodged the shot.â
Fred had instantly seen through his deception. But even after his true intentions had been read like a book, Bond seemed to be enjoying himself, and he made to step out in preparation for his next move.
ââThen, as if in response to that action, Fred raised his voice.
âMr William, we can carry out a pincer attack now.â
ââŠâŠWhat?â
That shocking line sent Bond looking around the area in suspicion. Then, as Fred had said, he saw William standing behind him.
âHey Bond. Howâs it going?â
âWâ Will-kun!?â
For a split second, Bond panicked. Heâd been trying to keep an eye out for Williamâs movements, but then the man showed himself just when heâd been focusing on Fred â this was the worst possible situation he couldâve found himself in. Bond knew he still had a few teammates left, but could it be that William had wiped them all out without making a sound?
In any case, it was a fact that his most formidable enemy had crept up behind him. Bond switched gears: in a flash, he took aim at William.
But far from defending himself, the man simply shrugged, as if he was troubled.
âSorry, but â Iâve already been eliminated.â
âEh?â
Yet another surprising statement. Bondâs thoughts were in disarray as he stopped himself, his gun still trained on William. Then, he felt something thud against his back.
ââŠâŠâŠâŠâ
With an awkward smile plastered on his face, Bond turned his head, and looked behind him. There, stood Fred with his gun raised. Somehow, it seemed a slightly victorious smile had risen on his face.
He didnât even need to check his back â he knew heâd been hit. With a magnificent sigh, Bond sat down on his haunches.
âAh~, youâve got me. So something like that was possible tooâŠâŠâ
Now, he finally understood the plan that William and Fred had concocted. Bond ruffled his hair in regret, and William smiled as he spoke.
âThere wasnât a rule saying that you canât take a detour as you leave the battlefield.â
William had anticipated the strategy his opponent would employ, then used the fact that heâd been eliminated, purposely passing through the frontline where Bond and the rest were in order to give the impression that he was still in the game. Of course, he made sure to tell the people he encountered that he was already out, so that they could avoid wasting bullets on him.
Even so, for those who knew Williamâs true power, the effect of his presence was enormous; now, just as William had planned, Bond made the mistake of leaving his back open to Fred.
âI didnât think youâd also exploit loopholes in the rules.â
âNonetheless, itâs a tactic bordering on foul play. Though, as long as Herder doesnât show up, it should be alright.â
ââŠâŠWill Herder-kun appear when someone breaks the rules?â
It was certainly an entertaining thought, but keeping watch over the movements of every single player must surely be a monumental effort. That said, it was flat out impossible for a single person to cover such a huge area â that was probably just a joke, wasnât it?
In any case, Herder had yet to reveal himself; whatever the truth about his actions behind the scenes, with Bond â the mainstay of his teamâs offence â now eliminated, this battlefront had effectively collapsed. As a result, the red teamâs chances of victory were now almost zero.
âAww, even though I was so fired up; I wanted to play on just a little longer.â
Bond hung his head in regret, and William smiled gently at him.
âItâs a pity indeed. Now itâll be up to Moran and the rest to turn the game around.â
Analysing the state of the battle from here on, William looked towards the little cabin: the setting of the gameâs impending climax.
Scoreboard
đč Blue team: Albert, Jack, Fred, William, Kevin, Andy
đș Red team: Moran, Bond, Louis, Helena
#moriarty the patriot#yuukoku no moriarty#yuumori#english translation#the girl who sees rainbows#illustration insert
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Funny Bone
The other day Supernatural9917 threw out this meme as a cracky Halloween Dean/Cas prompt and I was SO MAD, because I then had to write it:
And so here it is. Goddammit.
Funny Bone
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26761150 Words: 4930 Castiel/Dean Winchester Fluff and Crack, Crack Treated Seriously, Skeletons, Bad Pick-Up Lines, No Angels AU, Men of Letters Bunker, Mild Gore Mature (mentions of lewd acts, canon-typical violence, and some truly horrible pickup lines)
It wasnât even a particularly creepy skeleton; it was in kind of a âjust chillinââ pose on the floor. One ankle was still locked up in a heavy iron cuff, at the end of a short chain leading back to the wall. Snoresville, as dead stuff goes; Deanâs seen worse at Disneyland. It was the skeletonâs comment about Deanâs ass that really livened things up.
Discovering the bunker in the first place was a helluva surprise. The whole facility is legitimately batshit; Dead Guys of Letters knew how to live (and, apparently, die. All at once.).
But after plowing through a dozen rooms worth of priceless treasures and crusty boobytraps, even Sam was looking kinda full up on shock and awe.
âWe can hit the basement tomorrow,â he said. There was a big smudge of dust across his nose and some cobwebs in his hair.
âNuh uh,â Dean answered, kicking the door shut with the toe of his boot. âIf thereâs shit still kicking down there, we gotta clean it out before it cleans us out. Itâs that or weâre sleepinâ in the car.â
âUgh,â Sam said, as if twenty minutes ago he hadnât been losing his mind over a rare book about werewolf hemorrhoids.
So discovering that the basement included a no-shit actual dungeon felt more like an unanticipated bonus, and stumbling across a skeleton while exploring it barely even registered. Skeletons and dungeons! They go together like rama lama lama ka dinga da dinga dong.
It wasnât even a particularly creepy skeleton; it was in kind of a âjust chillinââ pose on the floor, inside a big circle of greasy black ash. It looked a little mildewy in in places. One ankle was still locked up in a heavy iron cuff, at the end of a short chain leading back to the wall. Snoresville, as dead stuff goes; Deanâs seen worse at Disneyland.
It was the skeletonâs comment about Deanâs ass that really livened things up.
âWelp,â Dean had said, holstering his gun and wiping his hands on his jeans. âWeâre all clear. Letâs head back upstairs, salt the shit out of everything, and then we can pick up some groceries.â
âDo I get to buy a vegetable that doesnât fit in a bun, or are we still in the refractory period?â Sam snarked from the corridor.
âI donât see you cookinâ, â Dean started, shuffling back towards the hall, and thatâs when the skeleton butted in.
âAre those astronaut pants?â it asked. âBecause your ass is outta this world!â
Dean absolutely did not scream, but itâs possible there was a yelp.Â
He almost unloaded a clip into it â unclear what that wouldâve possibly done, but itâs good to start with the simple, available solutions. Next he nabbed the lighter fluid off of Sam and dumped out half a pound of kosher salt as a chaser and set the fucker alight.
This does not have the intended effect.
âBaby, Iâd like to put my meat on your grill,â the skeleton says, greenish flames dancing between its ribs, âbecause youâre hot, and Iâm smokinâ.â Then it sits up a little, just enough to shoot Dean some finger guns.
âWhat the fuck,â Dean says.
Sam makes a little evaluatory noise. âSexually harassed by a skeleton,â he chuckles. âI think thatâs a new one. Even for you. Is that a new one? I know a lot of strange shit went down in Purgatory.â
The skeleton perks up even more at that, grungy eye sockets sweeping up and down Deanâs body. âAre you a time traveler?â it asks. (Maybe he asks, because the voice is pretty deep and dude-ish, although possibly just on account of its vocal cords being leather shoelaces.)
âWhâŠno, Iâm not a time traveler,â Dean fibs. Heâs more of a time trafficking victim, anyway. âOh, wait, god,â he says. âPlease donât tell me youâre asking that because ââ
ââ I can see you in my future,â the skeleton finishes, eagerly, and Dean really wishes this thing had eyebrows so he could tell if theyâre waggling.
âYeah, okay. Thatâs enough for today,â Dean groans. âI need a drink.â He starts to back out of the room as a pre-emptive strike against Bones commenting on how he hates to see Dean leave, but loves to watch him go. Deanâs working on stumbling back again Samâs left shoe when the skeleton pipes up one last time, this time with a husky, anxious edge.
âIÂ realize that Purgatory isnât accessible through a simple chronological shift,â it says, teeth chattering. âBut it does require travel between modalities, and if youâre capable of that, I would very much like to speak with you again.â
Dean and Samâs heads slowly swivel back towards the skeleton, like two little pizzas on the same Lazy Susan.
 An hour later, theyâre still in the dungeon, working on dousing the skeleton with every possible anti-bad-stuff solution theyâve got, just in case heâs a vampire skeleton or a ghoul skeleton or a witch skeleton or maybe just a wendigo thatâs incredibly bad at its job. In between progress reports, heâs still hitting on Dean.
âDude, donât you have an off switch somewhere?â Dean asks him.
âWell, Dean, you certainly make me feel like a light switch,ââ
ââ because you turn me on,â all three of them say in unison.
The skeleton looks a little embarrassed, which is kind of impressive when you think about it. âYouâveâŠheard that one before?â he asks.
âI spend a lot of time in bars,â Dean deadpans. âOkay, sage is a no-go.â
Sam strikes a line off on the clipboard he found upstairs. âIs this part of a curse or something?â he asks, glancing up at Bones. âLike on top of being a sentient skeleton, you can only speak in horrible pickup lines?â
The skeleton shakes his head, which produces a sound Dean recognizes from his kneecaps on cold mornings. âNo, the spellwork allows me to speak freely on most subjects; except who I am, or how to free me. But itâs helpful to use language modern humans can easily understand.â
âHuh. Well, in a way, it is Deanâs native tongue,â Sam says, smirking.
âYou shut your face,â Dean hisses.
âWhen I first saw you, I lost my tongue. Can I try yours on for size?â Bones asks Dean.
âBuddy, I donât know where you get your information from, but nobody actually talks that way,â Dean tells him. âNobody sober, anyway. Who isnât a virgin.â
The skeleton slumps. âI learned from my last visitor. He tried to release me on several occasions, but he either died or abandoned the project.â
Dean arches a brow. âThe project beingâŠyou?â
âI would be very valuable under the right circumstances.â The skeleton shrugs and casually holds out an arm for Dean to scrape at with the demon blade. âHe gave me lessons in modern vernacular as a way to pass our time together.â
âSounds like a peach,â Dean says, before he can catch himself. âIf you have a peach-related pickup line in there, man, youâd better just sit on it.â
âThatâs what-â
âI will smash you with a hammer,â Dean barks.
The skeleton relents, but with obvious reluctance.
 They call it quits before Kansas rolls up the sidewalk for the night and leaves them stranded with nothing but two Clif bars and a gross of septuagenarian cans of franks ân beans. Bones shifts nervously when Dean leaves â âWhich is better, pancakes or waffles?â he asks.
âPancakes,â Dean says, with a sense of grim duty.
âBecause Iâd like to know what youâre making me for breakfast,â says Bones, his voice trailing off as Dean books it down the stony corridor.
  By lunch the next day (bologna sandwiches, so sue him, heâll make something good later) theyâre pretty sure that Bones doesnât pose any known, immediate threat â other than to Deanâs sanity â so they switch gears to springing him. Maybe he will be worth something, or maybe heâll crumble into dust and Be Free, or maybe heâll just stop being chained to the basement wall, in which case he can become their skeleton butler or something.
There are weird runes on the ankle cuff, so Sam snaps some quick photos and heads upstairs to feel up the library. This leaves Dean in the basement with Bones, some good old-fashioned power tools, and Bonesâs ex-suitorâs gross sense of humor.
âYou know I can understand you just fine when youâre talking normally,â Dean says. âYouâre just reciting some prehistoric shit that idiots say to girls to get a pity-laugh, hoping it leads to a pity-fuck.â
âWhatâs a pity-fuck?â Bones asks, all mildewy innocence. Deanâs pretty sure the grunge in his eyeball sockets is dried eyeball.
âPretty much what it says on the tin, my guy,â Dean answers, and reaches for the acetylene torch.
 âEnochian,â Sam says, when Dean surfaces for another sandwich and possibly a beer. Heâs really disappointed about the torch.
âGesundheit?â Dean replies, around a mouthful of bologna. Like everything else here, the kitchen is pretty schwa, although the inside of the fridge required three exorcisms and half a jug of bleach.
Sam paws around the smelly old book in a way that makes Dean feel sorry for the girls Sam dated in high school. âThe symbols on the cuff. I think theyâre Enochian. Itâs a fake celestial language made up by some sixteenth century con artists.â
Dean coughs up a bit of Wonder Bread. âI respect the hustle, but whatâs it doing on an ankle cuff in a dungeon younger than Mickey Mouse?â
Sam frowns. âWell, it could be for show. But just because some nutbars made it up doesnât mean itâs totally powerless. Maybe it does have some kind ofâŠheavenly mojo.â
âLiwl probbem,â Dean observes, finishing off his sandwich. âDef nuh heggen.â
âHuh?â
Dean takes a swallow of beer. âI said: thereâs no heaven.â
Sam shrugs. âWe didnât think there was a Purgatory, either.â
âOkay, but if we find out angels are real,â Dean snorts, âthen Bones can fuck me in the ass.â
 Sam reports his findings to Bones, who sits placidly on the back of his pelvis, carpals splayed out on his kneecaps. Whatâs even holding him together? Dean can see whatâs left of his ligaments, but they look like petrified gas station jerky.
âDo you know what they mean?â Sam asks him, pointing at the sigils.
Bonesâs jaw creaks open a little, then closes again, and then he shakes his skull (something rattles inside.) Finally he makes a little frustrated noise and replies â âBaby, are you a book? Because Iâd like to check you out.â
âHey!â says Dean. âKeep it in your pants, man, Iâm right here.â
Sam squints. âI thinkâŠDean, I think heâs trying to tell us something, but the spell on him means he canât say it directly.â
Bones clenches his fists, releases them, clenches them again.
âYeah. Keep him talking. Letâs see how close he can get.â
Clack clack clack.
âUh,â Dean says, rubbing the back of his neck. âOkay. Do I need to, like. Give you some kinda opening?â he asks Bones.
âSweetheart, Iâd like nothing better,â Bones answers, then clacks his knuckles on his brow with exasperation.
âSorry, Christ. Hit me with your best shot, buddy. Dealerâs choice.â
Bones clears hisâŠghost throat? and tries: âTell me, DeanâŠdid it hurt?â
Dean blinks. âWhen IâŠfell from heaven?â
Sam claps his hands. âFucking knew it. It is Enochian, and it does have something to do with this. I think he wants me to check the library for another book. Maybe thereâs one misshelved or something that I can actually use to translate. Or I can Google around, maybe thereâs a subreddit.â
Deanâs pretty sure Bones has never heard of a Google or a subreddit (for that matter, does Dean actually know what a subreddit is?), but it seems like thereâs a glimmer of hope deep in those scum-holes.
 Sam gets translations for a few of the words â âobedienceâ and something heâs fifty percent sure means âmillstoneâ â but the rest is still gobbledygook, and he hasnât come down with another update in hours. The dungeon is pretty roomy, but itâs not like thereâs a foosball table or a cable TV pickup down there, so Dean and Bones wind up lying on the cold-ass ground, staring up into the dark reaches of the ceiling together and, like. Chatting.
Occasionally Bones goes quiet and Dean glances over at him. He really could just be a totally normal, completely dead dungeon skeleton. A good power washing and the right mounting hardware and heâd be ready for a high school biology classroom.
âSo if these runes are a celestial thing, does that mean youâre some kinda demonic...thing?â Dean asks. âCause I gotta say, youâre a much less of a douche than the demons Iâve met.â He snorts. âI know you probably canât say.â
Bones sighs (how? With what lungs?). âThe last person who tried to free me was a demon.â He shifts a little, maybe surprised that he can say this out loud. âIt had been so long since somebody had spoken to meâŠIâm afraid I came close to actually enjoying his company. But he was no better than his kind usually are.â
âDonât suppose you caught his name? Maybe Sam or me killed him for you already.â
âHe called himselfâno, I canât say it.â He makes a sound resembling a harumph.
Then his skull creaks over to look at Dean. âDoes your name start with âCâ?â he says, very deliberately.
Dean is momentarily puzzled, but he works it out by the time Bones wincingly adds ââŠbecause Iâve got a D that wants to come behind you.â
There arenât too many demons under the âCâ tab in Deanâs blood-stained mental rolodex, and when he says the name out loud, Bones makes a sound like an entire set of dominos being thrown down a spiral staircase.
  Crowley is pretty pissed, which is fun.
Itâs nice that the dungeon floor already has a perfect trap on the floor; they donât even have to hit up Ace Hardware for paint. A damp shop cloth and a little nail polish (Wet ân Wild in âRed Red,â donât leave home without it) brings it right up to working order.
âWhy does it smell like a nail salon fucked a bloody wine cellar?â Crowley says, after heâs settled down a bit. He manifested right in the creepy torture chair (in the shackles, even! What service!) and he made some escape attempts followed by angry noises about rust stains. Now heâs recovered his dignity and has kicked back a bit, legs crossed, fingers steepled, oozing maximum levels of 2 cool 4 school.
âHow do you know what a nail salon smells like?â Dean retorts.
âI get a monthly mani-pedi. Thereâs no shame in a little self-care, boys.â Crowleyâs eyes trickle down to their feet. âImagine what fungal horrors those work boots must conceal.â Then he squints, and looks up, finally taking in the whole room. âCould swear Iâve been here before. Little upscale for you, isnât it? Did we splurge for a vacation rental?â
âCrowley, why donât we roleplay Titanic?â Bones growls from the wall behind him, and Crowleyâs face goes slack. âIâll be the iceberg, and you can go down.â
Crowley swallows and slowly twists back, as far as the shackles let him. âFeathers, is that you? Well, as I live and breathe.â
âYou do neither,â says Bones, with so much gravelly contempt that Dean suppresses a little shiver.
âOh, I still breathe now and then, when the mood takes me. Iâm a sentimentalist.â Crowley cranes his neck a little harder and squints into the dim. âGoodness, youâve dropped some weight since we last spoke, havenât you. Finally let go of all that pesky soft tissue?â
Bones tilts forward and kind of clatters onto hands and knees, then tipsily begins to rise up to standing. Deanâs a little concerned heâs gonna topple right over and theyâre gonna spend the next two hours collecting him in a basket, but when he moves to help out, Bones waves him off. After a couple false starts he makes it up onto his feet bones and then shuffles out to the end of his chain, right under one of the overhead lights. Heâs still a good couple feet off from Crowley, but Crowley looks like he wouldnât mind a few extra acres.
Bones sways a little bit, just enough for Crowley to wince. âYou didnât come back.â
âI got busy.â
Sam shifts impatiently. âWhat is he?â he snaps, gesturing at Bones.
âExceedingly dull,â Crowley says. âI shouldâve guessed you were friends.â
Dean uncorks a fresh bottle of holy water.
âYou wouldnât believe me if I told you,â Crowley amends, quickly. âAnd even if you did, you wouldnât know what to do with him. Itâd be like giving a laptop to a pair of howler monkeys.â
Dean puts his thumb over the mouth of the water bottle and holds it over Crowleyâs head. âTry me.â
Crowley scoffs, rolls his eyes. âIt doesnât matter what he is, since heâs useless as long as heâs chained up. And I wouldnât have left him down here if I had a single clue how to smuggle him out. I havenât even been in here since the Bay of Pigs; Iâd worked a loophole in one of the defense spells here that let me in. When it broke down, I lost my exploit. Wasnât worth the bother after that.â
Dean slides his thumb a millimeter north of a perfect seal, and a fat drop of water busts its ass open on Crowleyâs forehead and sends up a thin line of steam. âGood thing Iâve got a limitless supply of bother,â Dean notes. âSam, we still got those syringes in the trunk?â
Crowley snarls. âGo ahead and melt me like the cartoon shoe in Roger Rabbit, itâs not going magically make me come up with a solution.â
Bones grunts and rattles his leg chain. âDo you speak Spanish, Crowley? Because you look like the Juan for me.â
âDid I teach you that one? You absolute xylophone.â Crowley glances back at Dean. âDo your worst, Squirrel, I deserve it.â
Sam frowns. âHe uses the lines to get around the spellâs speech restrictions. This is something about speaking languagesâŠwere you able translate the Enochian symbols on his cuff?â
Crowley blinks. âWhat symbols?â
 After a whole lot of faffing around with mirrors and terrible cellphone photography, they confirm that Crowley canât see the symbols at all.
âMore demon-proofing. Clever little buggers, those Men of Letters,â Crowley sighs. âA real shame they were peeled and eaten like bananas.â
Finally Sam just hunkers down with a pencil and pad to transcribe the entire ankle cuff, and Dean awkwardly holds up Bonesâs ankle, like heâs being sized for a glass slipper. When they shove the results in Crowleyâs face, Dean watches his eyes dart along the words.
âWell, itâs your lucky day, boys. Along with the usual wankery, there are instructions on how to release the cuff. I can translate it,â he finally says, with an unusually low inflection of bullshit, âbut Iâll thank you to release me, first.â
Dean is flummoxed. âWhat, youâre not gonna haggle for a cut of the profits or anything?â
âActivating the release mechanism will free him completely, and restore hisâŠrestore him. Iâd rather be at a safe distance.â He glances back at Bones, looming in the shadows. âA continent or three should do the trick.â
âIf it doesnât workââ
âIâd be more worried about what happens if it does,â Crowley sighs. âBut feel free to summon me back for tea and sympathy. Here, Iâll even give you my number. But please, no personal photography. I pity you enough as it is.â
  Crowley finally smokes out, and Dean has a beer to celebrate while Sam looks over the list of what they need and Bones clatters his fingertips like castanets. The ingredients are (as always) larded with shit thatâs exotic and expensive; Sam is looking crestfallen at some of the items. âIâve heard of all of this, but Iâve only seen maybe half of it for sale anywhere.â
âBaby, are you a yard sale? Because youâve got some serious junk in that trunk,â Bones monotones. Heâs back to lying on the floor.
At least itâs getting easier to translate this shit. âTheyâve got all the ingredients here somewhere,â Dean says. Sam looks skeptical. âCâmon, Sam, no way these dudes would use a lock when they didnât have the key.â
The ensuing scavenger hunt takes a few pints of elbow grease, but at least by the end theyâre both familiar with the Bunkerâs floor plan, document filing system, and inventory records. They find virtually everything in-house, though they do end up driving to the nearest farm stand for some henâs eggs and rosemary (and heirloom tomatoes, because they look bomb).
Dean christens â or maybe exorcises â the kitchen range with some red meat, and they fuel up with burgers before taking the plunge. Deanâs still licking the ketchup off his fingers when Bones pipes up one last time. âCan I ask you something?â he says.
Dean and Sam brace for impact.
Bones sighs. âThatâs not the start of a pickup line. I genuinely have a question.â
âShoot.â
âWhy are you so intent on freeing me? You could have just left me down here. Iâm not a threat this way. You only have Crowleyâs word that you might profit - or suffer - from my release.â
Sam gives Dean a look; itâs the look that says I sure hope you have an answer, because I think this entire thing has been dumb as shit and half as necessary. Itâs a look Sam uses pretty regularly.
âUh. Itâs the right thing to do? As far as I can tell, you havenât hurt anybody or done anything else to deserve being down here. We went through all those records upstairs, and thereâs no note that says âby the way, that skeleton downstairs eats babies for breakfast.â This place is cool, but the dudes who built it were obviously shady as fuck.â
âI see.â Bones sounds a little disappointed.
Sam fake-coughs into his hand, and Dean sets down his paper napkin. âAlso, you seem cool. Like, youâre easy to hang out with. Other than the stinky one-liners, and weâre gonna wean you off of those.â
Bones straightens himself out a little. âThank you, Dean. You know, on a scale of one to ten, Iâd rate you a nine.â
âOkay, okay. Why not a ten?â
Bones sets his chin on his knuckle bones with a tidy little clack. âBecause Iâm the one youâre missing.â
Dean groans, but he thinks the guy might be smiling, somewhere behind that skeletal grin.
 By hour two, Samâs pretty tuckered out from pulverizing a billion and three mummified dove livers while reciting nonsense syllables, and Deanâs right arm is about to fall off from holding up this giant silver swizzle stick thatâs either a really weird short sword or a decorative javelin, but Bones has never looked perkier. Heâs lying on a nice white bedsheet and looking fresh as a recently exhumed daisy.
âOkay,â Sam rasps. âLight the candle and we should be good to go. Any last words, Bones?â
âAre either of you religious?â He crosses his arm bones over each other.
âFuck no,â Dean answers, before Sam gets a chance to launch into it.
Bones shakes his skull fondly. âYou should reconsider. Because youâre the answer to my prayers.â
Dean makes a gagging noise and lights the candle.
 What happens next (well, after the cuff pops open) is some of the freakiest shit that Dean has ever seen, and his Freaky CV is pretty fucking impressive, thanks. Bones tells them to avert their eyes, âjust in caseâ, but he takes a peek between his fingers anyway, because heâs an idiot.
For a second Bones is just lying there, and Dean has a second of real disappointment that maybe heâs Moved On Past The Veil or something, but then he startsâŠfoaming. It starts out kind of uniform and colorless, but then it really picks up speed and volume and starts to separate into swaths of distinct and horrible colors and textures. He closes his eyes again for a second to give his stomach a chance to reboot, and when he looks again the foam is gone, and instead thereâs a whole lot of angry jelly trying to form into organs.
Just as the jelly is really getting its shit together and looking more like lungs and intestines and stuff, the heart-jelly pulses once and sends out a fistful of big squishy vinesâŠveins? and a fat white worm of nerve scrambles down the spinal column and starts putting out franchises. This is followed by some disturbingly tasty-looking red sheets of muscle that swiftly sheathe over all the whole scene, and then the muscles start sweating out fat and cartilage and this is the point where Dean decides that looking away is actually definitely one hundred percent for the best. Even then, the sounds are tough to handle.
Kinda wild: heâs seen people taken apart, but watching one get put back together is somehow gnarlier. Well, if this guy is even a person. Itâs a human skeleton, sure, but god knows even Mickey Rourke has one under there.
Finally everything seems to have quieted down.
âHow you doinâ over there, Bones?â Dean asks, and dares to take a peek.
Bones is crouched down in front of them, fists balled up in the bedsheets (itâs a relief that the bedsheets didnât get accidentally sucked into the muscle layer or something, like one of those surgeons who leaves a sponge behind). Dean sees white guy skin and some dark messy hair and gets the gist of a decent build.
The face slowly cranes upwards, and Dean is really truly ready for anything here; tusks, fangs, Klingon forehead ridges, gingivitis. Instead he gets a faceful of hot math teacher. Bonesâs eyes are still closed, but heâs frowning like heâs mentally reviewing his strategy to explain the quadratic equation to a roomful of horny teens.
He slowly rises to standing (yikes! Naked! Dean is a Moderately Bad Man, so he glances, but just long enough to register ânice), uncurling slowly and carefully.
Then heâs all the way up. Bones squares his shoulders and straightens the last kink in his spine, and the frown resolves. Deanâs about to say something, when his eyes snap open, and this cold white light absolutely blasts out of them, and fuck, Crowley wasnât kidding: this guy is definitely A Thing. The whole room flattens and distorts in the light. Shadows race up the walls like theyâre looking for a way out, then snap together into the shape of enormous ragged wings, stretching thirty feet higher than the actual ceiling clearance.
Then the light dies down; the wings fade into regular-grade shadows. Instead of a terrifying unearthly avatar of Oh Shit, Deanâs looking at a buck naked thirty-something math teacher. Who happens to be an unearthly avatar of Oh Shit. And has nice eyes.
âMy name is Castiel, angel of the Lord, Seraph of the First Shield,â the avatar says, in a piss-shakingly resonant version of Bonesâs voice.
Then: âDo you speak English, Dean?â
âYes?â Dean fumbles.
âSo do I,â says Castiel, and smiles.
Then he makes finger-guns.
  Castiel sticks around for a grand total of five minutes before heâs suddenly gone again, because angels are (a) real and they can (b) teleport? at (c) any moment because (d) fuck you, then he reappears six hours later (clothed) standing over Deanâs bed, having apparently forgotten that humans like to sleep; this time Dean does shoot him, but luckily he doesnât seem to take it personally. Â
âI located Crowley,â Bo- Castiel says. The silver sword-javelin thing is sitting on the kitchen counter in front of him; apparently itâs an Angel Blade and it lives in Castielâs coat sleeve and can vaporize demons. It doesnât look like it has any Crowley on it, but maybe itâs self-cleaning.
âDid you kill him?â Dean asks, now that heâs semi-coherent and wrapped around a cup of coffee in the kitchen.
âNot this time,â Cas answers. âHe did help, after all.â
âSure,â says Dean.
âYou donât need to let me fuck you in the ass, either,â Castiel says, and Dean honks some coffee up the back of his nose.
âOh,â he gasps. âOkay. Cool. Thanks. Didnât realize you could hear that convo all the way down there.â
âAngels have excellent hearing. Mine wasnât impacted by the spell.â
Dean can think of at least three very private moments Castiel almost definitely could hear every instant of, and longs for death. Or maybe not, since apparently this guy lives in Heaven and could hear him there, too. âGreat. Good to know. Noted.â
âButâŠâ Castiel looks wistful.
âWhat?â Dean nudges him. Dean Winchester: angel nudger.
Castiel frowns. âIf I saidâŠâ he stops himself. âThis isâŠwhat I want to say is very irregular, at least between angels and humans.â
âJesus christ on a goddamn pogo stick, man. Itâs three in the morning, some of us have a circadian rhythm and a limited lifespan. Say whatever it is you gotta say.â
Castiel looks up and drowns Dean in his swimming pool eyes, which Dean has learned belong to a radio ad salesman in Illinois, who Castiel possessed a few years back before jumping several decades into the past to run some errands and getting rope-a-doped by the Men of Letters and then warehoused in their basement; after they all spontaneously bought the farm, he just slowly ran out of the power reserves needed to keep his vessel from turning to mush and hey presto, talking skeleton.
Classic story, really.
âIf I said you had a beautiful body, Dean,â Castiel says, solemnly, âWould you hold it against m-â
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Field of Poppies Part 25
Summary:Â After being apart for six years, childhood friends Tommy and Amelia reunite under odd circumstances. Tommy is an outspoken young man and Amelia is pregnant and out on the streets. The bond of family can be unbreakable but it is tested often. Especially when Europe descends into war.
Part 25: Some have trouble adapting to home again. Some are gearing up for trouble theyâre going to cause.
      By August of that year, Barney was locked away in the asylum. It happened so suddenly. Although he certainly hadnât been himself since his last gunshot wound in the trenches, everyone had hoped that he would reacclimate as time went on. But his behavior only got worse. He was prone to violent outbursts that he didnât even remember seconds after.
      Tommy and the rest of the 179th did their best to try and keep him calm and out of trouble. But there was only so much they could do. A few episodes at the Garrison was one thing. Harry could accept that the man was clearly out of his mind and not doing it on purpose. But the rest of the public world couldnât understand.
      Barney was arrested a few times. But his was committed after he bit a cop and tried to escape jail. He was deemed insane soon after.
      Amelia knew Tommy took it very hard. They all did. These men who were parts of their lives were suddenly changed beyond a point of return. And there was nothing they could do about it. They couldnât visit Barney and they couldnât get Dannyâs fits under control either.
      Rosie was at her wit's end and relied heavily on support from Amelia. Consequently, this allowed Tommy to slip back into his habits of working all hours of the day.
      Amelia noticed this a few months in, but she wasnât sure what to say. Before the war, she had no problem laying into him about working himself to death. But after? Well, she didnât know what to even say. She felt guilty about being strict about anything. In her mind, he had been through enough. Why should she scold him on something that was small compared to the grand scheme of things?
      But she wasnât blind either. Amelia was aware that he never slept more than a few hours at a time. She couldnât find the warmth in his eyes anymore. He was less outspoken than before and had a habit of sitting in stony silence instead of speaking out. He was energetic with the kids, at least as much as he could be on the amount of sleep he was getting.
      Amelia was grateful for that. Although it hurt to know Tommy had changed so much, at least the kids wouldnât realize.
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      Amelia went into the betting shop one sweltering afternoon to bring Tommy lunch. He hadnât eaten that morning and had been absent during dinner the night before. But there was no sign of him. She went into Arthurâs office to see where he was.
      âHe came in early this morning, was here before everyone else.â Her brother-in-law answered. âHe left âbout an hour ago saying he would be back later.â      Â
      âHe didnât say where he would be?â Amelia asked, her concern growing.
      Arthur shook his head. âI asked but he never answered.â
      She chewed on her lip. âOkayâŠwell.â She considered waiting but figured her nerves would get the better of her. âHere, you can have this.â She gave Arthur the lunch before leaving the shop.
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      Small Heath wasnât particularly large, but that didnât mean he was even there. He couldâve gone beyond the neighborhood. She started with Charlieâs Yard. Thatâs where Annie and Max were for the day. They were cranky inside because of the heat so she sent them to both Charlie for the morning.
      âHavenât seen him,â Charlie said, sitting on a stool in the shade while he watched the kids. Curly was showing them a grasshopper heâd found in one of the horse stalls. The kids were so taken by the discovery that they didnât even notice their mother arriving.
      âDo you know where he mightâve gone?â Amelia asked hopefully.
      âWhenever heâd get in a mood, heâd go to the graveyard to visit his mum,â Charlie replied. âIâd look there.â
      âThank you,â Amelia said gratefully, hoping Tommyâs uncle was right.
      Across the yard, Annie squealed. The grasshopper had jumped out of Curlyâs cupped hand and was on the loose. Max ran to try and catch it again. They were both so caught up in the summer fun, that she wasnât going to interrupt it with her nerves.
      âIâll be back to take them off your hands,â Amelia promised Charlie.
      âSâalright. Theyâre not hurting anyone.â He nodded before she went off toward the graveyard.
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      Charlie was right. Amelia found Tommy among the overgrown grass and crooked headstones. But he wasnât standing in front of his motherâs grave. Hers was a few rows down. No, he was standing in the newer section in front of a newer plot.
      âTom.â Amelia hated interrupting him while he was in deep thought, but she was just thankful sheâd found him.
      He glanced over his shoulder. Without saying anything, he reached for her hand. She took it as she stood beside him. Thatâs when she noticed they were in front of Greta Jurossiâs grave.
      âWhen I got the letter from you, the one where you said she had died, I didnât believe it.â He spoke in a quiet voice, just loud enough to hear over the sound of cicadas in the grass. âI dunno, I just thought she was going to be the one to upset the system. One of those historical figures that people talk about.â
      Amelia knew that he and Greta shared the same ideologies. Aspirations that she was afraid of but Greta wasnât. He had respect for her.
      âI know.â She said gently. âShe would come by sometimes to the shop. She and Polly would always get worked up about the rights of women and the working class.â She smiled weakly.
      Tommy nodded, his eyes staring into space. âYou were right, though.â
      âAbout what?â
      âWhen you came back, I was telling you about the communist group. You didnât think it was enough to change the world.â He recalled. âAnd you were right.â
      âTomâŠâ
      âYou donât have to say anything.â He shook his head. âThereâs nothing more to say.â
      Young Tommy Shelby had so many dreams and a drive to change everything he saw as unjust. But the world had taken him in its fist and squeezed the convictions out of him. It had forced him into the mold of a soldier. Forced him to comply. Killed off Greta, killed her message.
      But Tommy wasnât dead yet. There was a new fire lit inside of him. âPolitics, laws, parties. It doesnât matter. You canât win if you play by their rules.â
      âSo, what are you-â
      He began to walk back down the path, still holding her hand. âEverything will be alright.â He promised her. âYou wonât have to worry about a thing.â
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      The two went back to the Yard to bring the children home with them. Charlie was still taking refuge in the shade, smoking a pipe and watching Annie running around in the mud.
      âYou found him then.â He commented as Amelia and Tommy came up to him.
      âNot a lot of places you can hide in Small Heath,â Tommy replied to his uncle.
      âI hope they werenât a fuss, Charlie.â Amelia ignored her husbandâs glib response.
      âIâll tell you what, that boy of yours is just like you, Tom,â Charlie remarked. âFull of energy but once heâs around a horse, heâs quiet as a mouse.â
      âIâm sure you taught him well then.â
      âI didnât teach him anything.â He shook his head. âMust be the Traveler blood in him.â Â
      âHe doesnât have Traveler blood, Charlie,â Tommy muttered in reply.
      âWell, then itâs fucking intuition, hell if I know.â His uncle rolled his eyes, his pipe still tucked between his lips as he spoke.
      âHell, if you know.â Tommy shook his head. âYou better not have been teaching him that kind of fucking language.â He warned before heading toward the horse stalls to find Max.
      âThat one has Traveler blood in her.â Charlie pointed his pipe toward Annie. The little girl had ruined her skirt by stomping around in the mud by the canal. She had a loose hold on her teddy bear that seemed just as filthy from the morningâs play.
      âYou think?â
      âReminds me of Pol when she was little. An absolute terror but youâd be happy to see her come around. Max will be a gifted rider, like Tom. But Annie wonât back down from a challenge, no matter how many times sheâs bucked off.â
      The thought of her precious daughter being bucked off a horse was a nightmare to Amelia. But she knew that there was no forcing Annie into being someone she wasnât. Amelia knew that all too well. Her family wanted her to be a lady of high society. They wanted her to be proper, educated but not too educated, and a million miles beyond Small Heath. But she was aware that she was a girl of lower class. Her upbringing was nothing compared to the socialites in London. She ran the streets with the Shelbys much to her parentsâ discontent. And while she wasnât as fierce and feisty as Tommy and Arthur, she didnât mind living in Small Heath. She loved the people there.
      The more her parents pushed, the more she rebelled. In London, she felt empty. She had no friends because all the girls her age were boring to her. London felt cold and desolate to her. Sure, the place they lived in was nicer, but it didnât matter.
      So, if Annie wanted to be a wild girl who flocked to dangerous horses, then there really wasnât a thing Amelia could do about it. Not with Tommyâs blood in her.
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      âNot even half a year since heâs come back and youâre already up the duff, again.â
      Martha and Amelia snickered behind their hands. It was true. Martha was pregnant again and Polly was bewildered by the revelation.
      âOh, Pol, itâs okay.â Amelia smiled. "It was bound to happen once John came back."
      âYou and John are getting your own flat, or I'll get my own. Iâve had more than enough newborns in this house at one time.â Polly replied firmly.
      âI suppose thatâs only fair.â Martha agreed. Six Watery Lane had become quite the den of rascals. âAt least John is home and can help me with the other two."
      âAnd make sure he does. Those three have been working themselves to death.â Polly shook her head in disapproval. âAnd itâs all Tommyâs doing.â She glanced at Amelia.
      âI think theyâre just trying to find their place in the world again.â Amelia shrugged. âRemember when they were gone? We had to adapt to the world. Now they do too.â
      Polly didnât look convinced. âWhen a Shelby man is working like the devil, that means thereâs going to be trouble.â She warned.
      It did speak to the conversation she and Tommy had earlier in the graveyard. âHe did seem to have some plans.â She admitted. âBut he didnât say what.â
      Polly continued to smoke by the kitchen table where Amelia and Martha were sitting. âOne can only guess what goes on in that head of his.â
      Amelia looked down at her lap. As his wife, she thought she would be the one to know. But she felt just as blind as the rest of them.
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      It was a rare night, but one that Amelia rejoiced in having. After dinner, she got the kids washed up and put in bed. After Tommy kissed them each goodnight, he returned to the master bedroom and caught Amelia before she even made it to her vanity.
      Without a word, he kissed her deeply. He pressed her up against the door as he locked it to avoid any awkward situations if one of the children wandered in unannounced.
      It was so easy for Amelia to forget everything when Tommy held her. She could rejoice in the fact that in those brief moments, she was taken care of. There was nothing to interrupt them, nothing to cause them harm, it was just the two of them. They were the moments Amelia yearned for when he was in France. The moments where she could keep him close and cast aside the ugliness of the world.   Â
      But the feeling couldnât last and they were brought back to Earth as the night wore on. Still, they enjoyed each otherâs company in the dead hours of the night. Amelia curled up in the crook of his arm, tracing the new scars on his chest that heâd obtained in the trenches. He held her close as he smoked.
      Eventually, he broke the silence and uttered a rare confession to her. âIâm going to do bad things, Mel.â
      The admission sent a chill up her spine. Yet, it was something she already knew. Something sheâd known even in childhood when adults would comment on Tommyâs proclivity for mischief. When they remarked how his father was nothing but a waste of space. When they speculated how Tommy would live up to the Shelby name. A name cursed.
      âI know.â She whispered. From then on, she was complicit. Her wish to stay in Small Heath as a child had brought her to that point. Her wishes for Tommy to stay out of danger had fallen upon deaf ears as she shouldâve realized. But if she wanted a quiet, polite, bland husband, she wouldâve stayed in London to marry one. Instead, she was with someone who was destined to be one of the most dangerous men in Britain.
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Thunderstruck Outtake: Sally Cancels the THOT in Sandorâs Dressing Room (What happened after Chapter 14)
Dedicated to @jennusdemenus who asked for a glimpse into what happened directly after Chapter 14 (aka what happened to that THOT in Sandorâs dressing room, you know the one!)Â
Read on below the cut to find out!Â
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Back to the door, Sally watched the venue thin out. This bit was always the same. The city or the venue didnât matter. Groupies and drunks, they were always the last to go. The drunks would plant themselves in an empty floor and wail for another encore well after the band left the stage and the crew started clearing off the gear. The groupies would flock to the door Sally had planted himself in front of and wield their feminine wiles in hopes of sneaking past.
As it stood, neither the groupies nor the drunks got too far, and Sally occupied himself with self-indulgent daydreams. He was usually hungry right about now. Having scrambled for scraps earlier, tonight was no exception. While Cannibal Star was likely on the prowl for booze and women, Sally had one thing on his mind.
Soft and sweet. Heaven on his lips. Heâd savor every moment.
I shouldnât.
Heâd already had two cupcakes, but then also that beer and he wasnât a twenty-something anymore, metabolism burning through every bit of bullshit he put in his body. His gut could prove it; the wobbly bits that hadnât been there two years ago and showed no signs of slowing down now.
Whatâs a third cupcake when youâve already had two? Sally reasoned with himself.
Catering got the kind he liked; the icing wasnât too sweet and melted like butter on a hot July day in his mouth. Not that he ever let it be known. This shit wasnât about him and he was just grateful no one had told him to pound sand yet. If anything, Cannibal Star had become some of his closest friends, the crew like family. They took care of their own and catering got the cupcakes he liked. That must count for something.
A flurry of activity snapped Sally out of his daydream. The crew all appeared absolutely addled as a roadie hurried across the stage, hollering about something or another that beckoned the others to gape in saucer-eyed wonder. The roadie jumped down to the floor and rushed to Sally.
âShitâs going down. Sandor and his girl,â the kid panted and nudged his way past Sally and through the door that led to the hall.
âOh my God!â Sally damn near punted the roadie out of his way and bolted down the corridor. He caught of glimpse of fiery red hair blazing towards the back door and Sandor looking like the world was crumbling around him.
Sandor turned to Sally, at a loss and out of words, any stray bits of explanation he could manage. That all fled the man now and he tore into his dressing room like a tornado, fury quick on the heels of emotional ruin and it was a wonder the flimsy door wasnât ripped off the hinges.
âTrouble with the little lady?â
Sally hovered outside the dressing room and recognized the voice emanating from the other side. Mona the Monsterâs ludicrous attempt at sultry banter was embarrassing even in the best of times and now solidified her place squarely on the blacklist of shame.
The men of Cannibal Star didnât spook easy and certainly put up with their fair share of crazy if it meant getting laid at the end of it. It took a lot to get added to the blacklist.
âGet the fuck out!â Sandorâs shouts exploded into the hall and he bounded towards the doorway, wrangling Mona by her upper arm as he went.
âIf you think Iâll tell you twice, youâre stupider than Iâve always known you to be.â
The womanâs feet barely had the opportunity to the meet the floor before her mostly naked ass was being tossed into the hall for Cannibal Star, the crew, and all of Godâs green creation to see.
Ankles buckling, she stumbled and barely caught herself when her arms shot to the cinderblock wall.
âIâm actually very intelligentââ she fired back, equal parts furious and haughty even now, mostly naked and looking haggard in the harsh fluorescent lights beaming up above.
Anger like Sally had never seen consumed Sandor. Wide-eyed fury, fists curled, chest heaving, and face burning redâif Sally didnât know any better, Sandor was teetering on the precipice of quite literally exploding.
âYouâre trash! Thatâs all youâve ever been,â he seethed in a commendable show of restraint, so much so the man was shaking. He pointed a trembling finger at Mona the Monster.
A crowd had gathered in the corridor, the message having spread like wildfire. By Sallyâs estimate, the entire production now lined the hall to watch this holy terror finally get taken to task. Mona the Monster had a reputation all her ownâan ungodly abomination of self-righteous entitlement and paper-thin self-esteem.
Sandor shifted towards her in a quiet step and a faint smirk Sally knew to be the calm in the storm. The fury roiled beneath the surface but next came the exacting cruelty that Sandor wielded better than anyone Sally knew.
Mona seemed to know what was coming too. Her eyes scanned the hall of faces all watching in twisted delight at her impending downfall. Her arms crossed over her chest in a laughable attempt at modesty.
âIn all these years youâve been around, spreading your legs for anything with a guitar and a pulse, Iâve never gone for you,â Sandor began, voice a deep rumble, but his eyes still flashed with rage. âI havenât even looked at you twice. I find a girl whoâs leaps and bounds better than you in every conceivable way, the first girl Iâve ever loved, and thatâs when you think Iâm going to hit it? Tell me again how intelligent you are. Youâre nothing. Youâre old, your tits are saggy, you reek of cigarettes and booze. Even at your youngest, all you could ever offer anyone was a lousy lay and now youâve defined new levels of disgusting and thatâs the only distinction youâre worthy of.â Â
Snickering and quiet encouragement rolled over the crowd. Monaâs eyes darted up and down the hall, desperate to find a sympathetic gaze to latch onto. For some absurd reason, her eyes landed on Sally.
âDonât look at me!â Sally barked. âYouâve done it now, you nasty bitch.â
âLike youâve ever amounted to anything,â Mona snapped. âYouâre a nobody!â
All at once, the members of Cannibal Star hurled themselves from their perches throughout the hall, peeling away with congruent fervor to be done with Mona the Monster.
âDone! Youâre done!â Sandor bellowed and lurched towards her, settling in next to Sallyâs side. âIf I ever see you at one of our shows or practices, you even breathe the name âCannibal Starâ in this city, youâre getting a Stratocaster shoved so far up your ass, youâll be choking on the strings for the rest of your shit-filled life.â Sandor leveled irate eyes at Sally. âTake out the trash.â
Sandor turned on his heel without another glance and disappeared in his dressing room. Silence blanketed the hall.
After all these years, the shame finally caught up to Mona and, when it came, it came like an avalanche. For the rest of them, justice came just as mighty and sugary sweet. Tears rolled down Monaâs cheeks in a river of jet-black mascara. In one last ditch effort, she reached for Thoros, tits now exposed for all to see.
âA bridge too far. Get the fuck out,â he grumbled and eyed her in a way no groupie ever wanted to be regarded. Sandor had the right of itâdisgust. This woman was worthy of nothing more than that.
Mona stumbled towards Harwin, probably seeking out the softest of the bunch, the one most likely to toss her stray bits of sympathy. Sally held his breath and said a little prayer that the kid would keep his wits about him. Â
âYou heard the man,â Harwin sniped with usual iciness. âYouâre done. Get out.â
In a few more faltering steps and gasping cries, Mona eased down the hall towards Bronn. Sally fell in after her, blocking her path should she try to flee the other way. Mona blubbered a plea and Bronn crossed his arms tight over his chest.
âThis was a long time coming, sweetheart. We all stand behind his decision. Get gone.â Bronn motioned to the door at the end of the hall leading to the parking lot.
Sally remembered now thatâs where that sweet little Sansa had disappeared, and he hoped like hell that girl still wasnât out there. Or maybe it was better if she wasâshe could witness Monaâs fall from grace, though she probably wouldnât enjoy it as much as the crew was now.
A wave of applause rolled down the hall, growing louder as Mona continued towards the doors with Sally close behind. At the end of the line, no rope left to cling to, Mona turned to Sally.
âCan I at least get my clothes?â she pleaded on a quivering breath.
In only heels and a thong, Mona tried in earnest to cover herself. Sally reached around her and pushed open the door. A blast of chilly air swept through.
âNo, shouldâve thought about that when you took them off in his dressing room.â Sally shoved Mona through to the other side and followed after. She shivered against the night air. âI mean, he came here with her. How fucking stupid are you? What exactly did you expect?â
Mona lifted her eyes from the ground and glared at Sally but mustâve thought the better of mouthing off. As it stood, she was the one humiliated for all to see and standing outside naked. Sally scanned the parking lot for Sansa and thanked the man upstairs that she wasnât here. Hopefully, she was safe and okay.
Sally spotted a flattened cardboard box perched against the fence on the other side of the lot. He motioned his head towards it. âYou can cover yourself with that.â
She had the audacity to scoff. The offended breath escaped her thin, ugly lips that snarled at him. Sally prodded her shoulder with his finger and stepped to her, forcing Mona to shuffle backwards.
âNow you listen here, and you listen well, you trampâSansa is beautiful, and kind and she loves him. Youâre not even in the same Universe as her. You have nothing to offer him. And if you think sheâs some lovesick hanger-on, Iâve known that man far longer than you have, and Iâve never seen him like this. He loves her too.
âNothingâs coming between them. Not a tour, not distance, not time. Nothing. Mark my words, theyâre it for each other and theyâll figure this out. And youâll still be a dried-up, bitter hag.
âLike he said. Youâre done. Iâm putting the crew on notice. If anyone catches a whiff of your skanky ass, youâll leave here missing more than just your clothes next time.â
âBye now!â he taunted with a wave before pulling the door shut.
On the other side, the hall had cleared out, both shows of the night now over. Sally retreated to the catering room and poked his head inside. The stars aligned in a rare formation and by some celestial miracle one lone cupcake sat pristine and unaccounted for on the table. Sally plucked it from the spot on the plate and admired the swirl of white icing on the top.
Back down the hall, he cradled the cupcake in his hands but the little flush of joy he felt was short lived as he passed Sandorâs dressing room door, wide open now. Inside, Sandor dwarfed the chair he sat in, elbows to knees and his forehead cradled in the palm of his hand.
Sally hovered beneath the doorframe, almost certain Sandor was aware that a presence had joined him. His shoulders tensed and his breathing shallowed, but the man remained resolute in his abject misery that kept him rooted where he was.
âAnything I can do?â Sally ventured.
Face still obscured, Sandor didnât move other than the faint shake of his head. It was a wasted courtesy anyhow. What exactly could he do? Anything he could think to offer would be like tossing fistfuls of dirt into a gaping chasm thatâd been created in Sandorâs life. The futility was absurd, and the man was so clearly already suffering the loss.
Sallyâs gaze drifted to the cupcake in his handâthe last one, but heâd already had two, so the right choice was glaringly obvious. He paced into the room in shuffled steps and stopped in front of Sandor. Â
âHere. Take this.â He held out the cupcake and Sandor finally lifted his head from his hand. Sally saw clear enough what heâd been trying to hide. Sandorâs eyes glistened with tears. Â
âThose are your favorite.â Sandor shook his head and settled back in the seat. âWhy do you think we tell catering to get them?â
âAlways assumed it was a coincidence,â Sally shrugged. âThen it sounds like there will be plenty of cupcakes in my future. Take it.â
He jabbed the cupcake towards Sandor who took it from Sally and set it on the table next to him.
âThank you,â Sandor murmured on a voice almost as deflated as he looked. Â
A cumbersome silence fell between them and Sally took it as his cue to leave. He retreated to the door but stopped beneath the frame.
âIf youâre curious, after handing her ass to her, I told her touring, distance, time, a tramp in your dressing roomâI donât honestly believe any of that is going to come between you and Sansa.â
âHow do you know that?â Sandor countered and a deep crease of contemplation settled between his brows.
Sally couldâve laughed. It was obvious. Everyone that met Sansa tonight commented on it in one way or another and it all distilled down to the same damn thingâsomething shifted in Sandor with her around. She quieted him in a way, the stillness of peace for a man so accustomed to a life uprooted and unsettled; one who prided himself on being grounded and Sansa rooted him in a different realityâone where he was worthy of love and she was more than willing to give it.
Sandor had no family, nothing much to call his own, except now her and it scared the poor bastard in a way that meant he understood the gravity of what heâd been given. In some ways, Sally couldnât blame him; the guy had been given the keys to the kingdom and bore the responsibility of not fucking it up.
âJust a feeling,â Sally said because how the fuck was he supposed to explain all this? The man would figure it out one way or another. âWhen you know, you know. You know?â
Sandor expelled a quiet laugh. âYeah, I do know,â he said, shouldering the tremendous weight of regret. Sally had been there. The lessons of age came with more than just a few extra pounds and some things were heavier and harder to carry.
âWas she out there?â he asked and, when his eyes drifted from the floor to Sally, Sandor looked caught in a tangle between devastating sadness and foolhardy hopefulness.
âNo, man. Sheâs left.â
Once more, Sally glimpsed the way Sandorâs eyes glistened when his gaze returned to the floor. Sandor bit his bottom lip hard and nodded.
Sally offered what paltry advice he could, and it wasnât about placating the man. He and Sandor had an honest understanding, one that meant they could speak freely with one another and Sally took that liberty where he could and right now Sandor needed it.
âShe may have left, but that doesnât mean sheâs gone,â Sally offered. âAnd you may not be able to get her back tonight but, one of these nights, you will. You just wait and see.â
It was a call to faith and Sally didnât know much about what Sandor believed in and in some ways it didnât matter. Certain things superseded the superficial constructs of belief and love was one of them. And if there were ever two people desperately, stupidly in love with one another, it was Sansa and Sandor and sooner or later theyâd figure it out.
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I was challenged to rewrite this prompt into something a little more serious/fleshed out with a few inputs from a friend:
Note 1: Why am I still here? Just to [make myself] suffer?
Note 2: This was supposed to go up the day before yesterday, but every time I get Metal Gear asks I just [vibrates uncontrollably and writes an essay]. So, sorry âbout that to the anon asking.
Note 3: Higgs is unapologetically on his full creep shit in this. So. Consider that fair warning.
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Of course sheâd get caught wandering through Homo Demensâ territory on her way to deliver a fucking pizza. That alone was bad enough luck for a lifetime. But, in an even more unfortunate turn of events, of course one of those terrorists just had to be the same guy that just couldnât leave her alone on these god-forsaken deliveries to the middle of nowhere.Â
The Man in the Gold Mask that sheâd had multiple run ins with wasnât just âone of themâ, either. Oh, no. She could never be that lucky. Of course he just had to be the leader of the fucking pack, to boot. The entire situation would have made her laugh hysterically, the cosmic irony of it all proving too much for her already fraying sanity, had the business end of a rifle not currently been digging into her temple with the slightest shift in movement.Â
Unsurprisingly, the ter â she couldnât bring herself to even think the word, because thinking it confirmed that sheâd been fraternizing with a monster â Higgs liked to bloviate in front of his lackeys just as much as he did around her. She could only count the seconds passing by; could practically feel her delivery getting colder through its packaging. She hadnât been paid for this delivery, and yet, Â she could feel it being snatched from her hands with each lost moment. Her thoughts inadvertently had her jaw clenching, brows furrowing into a glare at no one in particular. The anger at her current situation and grief over the unfortunate nature of Higgsâ real identity caused a roiling her gut so intense, so immediate and all-consuming, that she found herself half tempted to nudge her guard and see if she couldnât take an early exit out of the situation.
No pay meant no resources, and no resources meant, well... she refused to be in a âno resourcesâ situation ever again.
She wasnât the same dirty, starving little lost girl any more. Wouldnât be. Couldnât be.
(And though sheâd never admit it, sheâd grown accustomed to his sudden appearances and self-insertion into her life. He was a random variable that interrupted the stagnancy of her days.)
(He was almost delicate with her when the rest of the world had not been.)
(He was a... friend, reluctant as she was to admit it, and now that had been taken away.)
(She was so tired of things always being taken away from her.)
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â...Darlinâ, I donât much care for the look youâre giving me or my... associates.â Higgsâ drawl was lazy, almost bored in tone as he came to a stop in front of her.
Hearing that pet name finally interrupted her brooding.
She blinked, fully snapping back to reality when she felt sting of the the rifle muzzle pointed at her digging its way into her temple a little more. Wincing at the resulting thin line of blood trickling down the side of her face from the new cut and the gravel digging into her knees, she flicked her eyes up to meet his expectant gaze as lowered himself to a crouch, their eye contact never breaking.
Well, shit. This was bad.
Had Higgs been speaking to her directly?
Whoops.
âWhatever.â* It was entirely dismissive in tone, but she was spiraling quickly, and couldnât bring herself to care. If this was how she was going to die, she might as well show some backbone and die with a little dignity. Go ahead and get it over with. âMaybe I really donât like assholes like you holding me up.âÂ
Was it a stupid thing to say in her position? Absolutely. But what else was there to do? Apologize for wallowing in her own misery and zoning out? Beg for her life?Â
Yeah, no.
Fuck that.
Her life really wasnât worth much, anyway.
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Higgs sneered through his masks at her, hidden face beginning to lose its composure at a rapid rate. It was taking everything in his power to maintain his even facade toward her before removing the physical masks he hid himself behind, especially when heâd noticed in the porterâs eyes that sheâd drifted off to a place very far from her current reality.Â
It felt like a dismissal. Made him feel powerless, like he had for so many nights with his daâ when he was a child. And that had infuriated him, especially coming from the one person he couldnât take his mind off of; that he kept finding his way back to.
Why this reckless little porter got under his skin so easily, he didnât quite know.
But she did, whether she meant to or not. And the hold she had on him was powerful â so much so, that he could often physically feel her emotions as she was experiencing them. Rarely were they positive, but they served as an easy guide back to her, wherever she may be.
That was why, not long ago, when an incredibly pleasant, persistent tingle down his spine had nearly doubled him over with arousal, this so-called âconnectionâ of theirs had gotten infinitely more irritating to him.
Investigation led him to her private room at Mountain Knot City and, more importantly, to the sight of her being far less mouthy than sheâd ever been with him toward some fucking no-name porter... One that she was currently riding late into the night, so desperate in chasing her release that she didnât notice â or perhaps, worse, didnât care â that heâd decided to pay her a visit.
Heh. Higgs supposed, in retrospect, that he shouldnât go there. It was rude to speak ill of the dead, after all. That, and the poor fuckâs corpse had effectively wiped out Bridges Corpse Disposal. So, realistically, he shouldnât be too angry.
(Except he was. He was still absolutely fucking seething.)
(If only she hadnât looked so goddamned enticing with her skin glistening from a thin sheen of sweat in the low lights; hair partially shielding her face and biting her lip to hold back the noises of pleasure-pain and her pleas to a god he was sure she didnât believe in.)
(If only the way she looked with her toes curled and back arched skyward hadnât effectively rooted him to the spot, unable to look away from the sight of her strong thighs trembling and parting just enough that he could see a tiny, heart-shaped birthmark sitting high on the inside of one of them.)Â
(If only the thought of claiming that little heart with his teeth before he buried his face in-between her thighs hadnât left him so painfully, achingly hard that heâd had to bite down on a gloved knuckle to keep from howling as he spilled into his hand later that night. An ultimately useless act, given the perfect visual he now had of how sheâd look riding his cock, controlling the pace of her hips until he was finally ready to let her tip over the edge â an image that had him rutting into his hand again in record time.)
(If only, if only, if only. If not for so many if onlyâs, heâd have killed her âacquaintanceâ in the act that night.)
Logically, he should have killed her, used her body for a voidout long before now. Forgotten her name and everything about her. She knew his face now, after all, and the last thing he needed were witnesses.
But he couldnât. There was something about her he couldnât let go of. Something that made him want to completely devour her, mind, body, and soul. Something about her defiance toward everyone and everything despite being dealt a shit hand that made him see a bit of himself in her.
Still, even though he had no intentions of killing her, he couldnât let mouthing off go completely in front of his men.
âA word of advice, darlinâ?â Higgs gripped her chin hard as he spoke, forcing her to look him in the eye as he ran a gloved thumb over her full bottom lip.
She refused to say anything or to shy away as Higgs tugged his masks off with his free hand, dark eyes catching his blue ones and staring him down fiercely. He kept their little contest going for an extended moment, amused, before leaning in close to her ear, positively delighted at the small shiver he sent through her body.
âTrigger fingers can slip. So might want to work on on keeping that mouth of yours shut, quickly,â Higgs growled out, casual drawl giving way to something much darker, before jerking her head away from him. He was pleased at the further surprised widening of her eyes in response. Flicking his tongue out, he dragged it down a in wide stripe on her cheek, the coppery tang of her blood welcome on his tongue. â...because Iâd just hate to see this gentleman put a bullet in that pretty little head of yours.â
He lingered for a few seconds longer, too close to her graceful neck and that remarkably smooth looking skin of hers. She smelled good, sweet, evenâ faintly of soap and something else he couldnât identify.
Funny, given her sour personality.Â
Still, despite his efforts at unnerving the porter, nothing even close to fear was registering on her face â only a look of shock and revulsion, maybe even annoyance with him. âWhat the fâ Look, man, Iâm not interested in your business. I just wanted to pass through to deliver a fucking pizza. But Iâll shoot myself itâll make you just stop. fucking. talking.â
He barked out a genuine, surprised laugh at the unexpected, honest response. He certainly could do that, but given the look in her eyes and the way jaw was set, he knew it wasnât an act â sheâd actually do it.
And thatâd be no fun for either of them. She was even more feisty than heâd originally thought. Confusing. Interesting.
And heâd be lying if he said he wasnât curious to see more.
âBring her back to my tent and let her get cleaned up, but donât let her leave,â he ordered her guard her guard before turning his attention back to her. âThe pizza girl here and yours truly are going to have a nice nâ friendly little chat about everything thatâs happened here today.â He smirked at her near-instant change of expression from completely stone-faced to puffing out lightly freckled cheeks in anger, ready to hurl expletives at him.
Yeah.
Yeah, she was definitely a keeper.
(He was internally mourning the loss of a perfectly good pizza the whole time, of course, but its delivery girl was just too appetizing in her own right not to entertain for a little while.)
(Heâd just have to make another order and make it more than worth her while to deliver it. An offer she couldnât refuse, if he recalled the quote from the old pre-Stranding movie correctly.)
(Cold pizza was for the dogs, after all.)
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The Girl Out of Time
Pairing: Bucky x Reader and Sam x Reader
Background: Willow Roffe was born and raised in Brooklyn. She lived her life as happily as she could with her two childhood best friends Bucky Barnes and Steve Rogers. When they both left her to join the military she tried to continue with life but that didn't get to happen for her for the simple fact that she meant something to James Buchanan Barnes.
Rated: Story will be over all MATURE but not every chapter. There will be strong language, talk of both mental and physical abuse, some good ole angst, and some eventual smut once the story reaches that point.
Chapter 2
I stood outside the door of the "avengers tower" as Steve had called it. The building truly was a tower. I'd never seen anything like this in my life. Steve gently pulled my hand to lead me inside. I'm sure he felt like he was dragging a child behind him. All I could do was stare. I tried to look at everything. There was just so many odd things that looked familiar yet completely foreign.
"Welcome back Captain" a pretty blonde woman said as she smiled wide at Steve.
I noticed the deep 'V' in her shirt's neckline. She was wearing a very tight and short skirt as well. My father would beat the absolute hell out of me if I even thought about wearing something like that.
Steve lead me down a small hallway that stopped at some closed metal doors. Steve pushed the lone button on the wall next to the doors. The next second the doors came open. We stepped inside letting the doors close again. It's an elevator but where's the operator? I heard Steve chuckle as he pressed one of the numbered buttons.
"It's completely self efficient now. They no longer need an operator." He smiled down at me.
"How?" I asked him.
"I'm still not entirely sure I just know technology has come a long way. A lot of things have changed."
I nodded staying quiet. I already had so many questions but I didn't want to bombard him with all of them especially since he's only been here for two years.
The metal doors opened up to a very large living space. It was so elegantly decorated. Something you'd see in a film or in a rich person's home possibly. I've never had the luxury of knowing what the finer things in life are.
"I'll introduce you to everyone." Steve smiled walking towards the small stairs leading down to the sitting area.
"Jarvis" Steve said looking up towards the ceiling.
"Yes, Captain?" An odd monotone type of voice sounded like it filled the whole room.
I didn't see anyone at all that the voice could have came from.
"Can you tell everyone to meet me in the living room please." Steve said back to the unknown voice.
"Of course" the voice answered.
"Who was that?" I asked as I stepped farther into the open room.
"Jarvis, he is an AI. Tony created him."
I turned to look at Steve. I know I looked completely confused because I felt completely confused.
"An.. AI? This Tony created a person?" I asked in bewilderment.
"I'll let him explain it." Steve chuckled.
A few minutes later as I walked around the room I heard the footsteps of a few people coming towards us. I turned around to see a small group coming down the few steps to put them in the sitting area.
"Ok, all of you guys already know about Willow but I thought I'd introduce her to all of you." Steve explained.
I walked back over to his side as the others each took a seat around the room.
"This is Natasha Romanoff also known as Black Widow." Steve gestured to the gorgeous red head in extremely tight and revealing clothing.
The woman waved and smiled.
"That's Clint Barton also known as Hawkeye." Steve pointed to the man sitting next to Natasha.
He smiled and nodded.
"The timid genius over there is Bruce Banner who is also the Hulk so I'd avoid irritating him." Steve said with a humorous smile.
Bruce looked embarrassed by what Steve said as he gave me a small smile and wave then looked anywhere but towards me.
"Lastly, this is Tony Stark." Steve barely gestured to the man standing by the counter on the other side of the room.
"Stark?" I questioned remembering that name.
"Capsicle, you forgot to tell her I'm also known as Ironman. I'm also a genius billionaire." Tony said with a cocky grin in place.
"Stark" I repeated the name.
Why can't I remember how I know that name? Wait, of course, Howard Stark. How could I forget him.
"Do you know Howard Stark by chance?" I asked him.
His face fell instantly. I knew I had struck a cord without meaning to.
"Howard was my father." He said simply.
"That's amazing! I met him a few times. My father worked with him on several occasions. He is a great man." I smiled widely.
It was an odd thing to see the son of Howard Stark standing in front of me looking the same age now as his father was the last time I had seen him.
"Well, Willow, what exactly happened to you? Do you remember anything?" Natasha asked leaning forward.
I shook my head. The last thing I remembered it was 1946 now it's suddenly 2013. I'm at a complete loss for 67 years. I should be an old woman right now or maybe even dead.
"I can show you what happened." Tony said suddenly.
"You can?" I asked excitedly.
Tony nodded as he walked to the center of the group.
"Jarvis, open the Hydra Research file." Tony ordered.
"Certainly sir" the voice answered.
Suddenly images appeared to come out of the table Tony was standing in front of. I watched as he moved his hands around which also seemed to move the images. He made one image larger. It was a newspaper article with my photo on it.
The headline read "Local Woman Still Missing After Months of Searching".
The picture was originally of myself and Steve as well as someone else it seemed. I remembered the picture partially. Steve and I were at the Stark Expo. I could see his arm draped around me in the photo but the rest of him was cut out. What I don't remember is who the other arm draped around me belonged to. I only remember being there with Steve.
Tony moved his hand and the photo changed to a moving picture. It was of the same man I met earlier. Fury. He was sitting behind a desk staring straight at me.
"Your mission is simple. This is a research Intel gathering job. You are going in to one of the former Hydra bases in the Swiss Alps. I want as much information as you can gather. We will meet at shield headquarters in 24 hours."
The picture stopped then Tony changed it again. It was another moving picture. I saw several people in head to toe black gear. Most of their faces covered. They carried large weapons. They were walking threw some kind of cave. There was odd equipment everywhere. I recognized a few things. The image seemed to change suddenly to a different area.
"What the hell is that?" I heard a man ask.
Ahead of them were some kind of chambers. There was two of them. One was open and empty while the other was closed with something over the glass to shield what was inside from view. I watched as they used tools to break the door open. It looked like a cloud of smoke that came out of the chamber. Once it cleared I felt every bit of color drain from me.
"That's me" I whispered in shock.
"What the hell?" One of the men questioned in the image.
"We need immediate extraction! I repeat immediate extraction! We found something!" A man shouted loudly.
Two men worked carefully to pick me up out of the chamber and carry me back threw the area they had come threw.
The image changed again. This time I was laying on a table. My skin looked to slowly be gaining color again. A few people in white lab jackets stood around me.
"Do you have any idea who this is yet?" One of them asked.
"I do" the voice came from somewhere unseen.
The video moved to show Fury standing in a doorway. He walked over to where I lay and looked down at me.
"This is Willow Roffe friend of our very own Steve Rogers." He stated.
"What would Hydra want with this woman?" One of the doctors asked.
"That I do not know. Not yet anyway." He seemed bothered by that.
The moving picture stopped and Tony turned to me. He waved his hand and the images disappeared.
"Any questions?" He asked.
"Yea, actually, a lot of them." I answered honestly.
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[ Do you think that Gin, due to having not had his mother in his life to raise him to be understanding of the social norms and etiquettes that people follow, that he had to, in a sense, raise himself with the turmoils and harshness of the world that he had to live in? In a sense, he was raised by "mother nature", and mother nature certainly isn't the best mother for children to grow up learning from. Do you think that Gin's slightly 'creepy' ways of expressing himself and his emotions are 1/2 ]
[ this fact? For example, he was never taught about emotions like love and hate, and about things like personal space and social etiquette, so he came up with some warped sense of them as a child which influenced how he would act about things in future (his plot to kill Aizen, his love for Rangiku, his constant Duchenne grin, and his constant toying about with characters like Rukia and Ichigo). Could it also be why he was able to kill without any remorse when he was only a child as well? ]
     I have to start this off with a thank youâbecause Iâm really not accustomed to followers / people outside of my immediate roleplay circle being engaged with the content I post. Itâs extremely exciting! You raise some good theories, too, friendo!Â
     Itâs important to note that Shinigami / souls, once theyâre reincarnated within Soul Society, the Rukongai, etc., they have no memories of their previous life. Gin cannot recall his mother from when he was human, nor will he know of the loss of her somewhere deep down in his heart. Souls are cleansed in their passage to Soul Society, and in the general scheme of reincarnationâ-so Ginâs inner workings canât be attributed to the lack of his mother or a mother-like figure, because heâd be unaware that he was lacking anything of that nature.
     Thatâs where Iâll start: simple unawareness. Ginâs seen helping out a collapsed Rangiku by the side of a beaten up dirt path. Thereâs no one else around, which assumes that he was well-past the outskirts of any nearby village. Gin did not, also, seem to be lost or wandering. Itâs important to note that, because it means Gin prior to meeting Rangiku had minimal interactions with othersâ-he lived an outcastâs life, most likely akin to how Aizen, too, was completely alone during his days in the Rukongai. Heâs not aware that his life could be anything different. Beyond the merchants in which Gin likely stole from to get by, Gin did not have anyone that knew his name.
     Itâs even implied, just by the sheer simplicity of his nameâs meaning, that Gin named himself one dayâ-a boy, nameless, wandering the woods, looking into a moonlit pond or creekâs reflection, finally sees that yes, Iâm silver. This name could have been with him since his rebirth within the Rukongai, but itâs unlikely. This further implies that Gin had absolutely nobody in his life before he met Rangiku.
     Meeting Rangiku, and immediately helping her before he even knew her name (or she knew his) also gives us insight that as a child Gin instinctively wants to help others. He was not taught that, he naturally wished to share his rare and prized favorite snack not because someone told him he should, but because he wanted to. It is with Rangiku that Gin shows his seemingly first sign of compassion. It is also the moment he ceases being a child, and becomes instead a caretaker.
     We donât know where Rangiku was before, but she looked far worse for wear when she was initially picked up by Gin off that pathway. Her clothes were torn and dirty and she looked malnourished, though that could have been due to the men attacking her to steal part of her soul for Aizenâs Hogyoku. Back to the malnourishment, howeverâ-itâs a theme, like with Rukia and Renjiâs past in the Rukongai; children with power tend to starve. Rangiku likely was starving for a while but simply didnât understand why (that she had power) because Ginâs offering of food (that itâd help her) seemed to surprise / confuse her.
     This also implies that Gin, in some way before meeting her, already knew he had power within him, and how to also handle that power.
     Itâs said that Rangiku, even after meeting Gin, had severe PTSD-esque episodes of absolute sobbing concerning those men, what was taken from her, and it bothered Gin to his coreâ-enough to motivate him to, on sight, condemn the men he recognized gathered around Aizen in the middle of the nightâ-and to also ultimately condemn Aizen himself. This wrathful anger towards those who wronged his newly acquired friend was born from mere months, not even, of knowing the girlâ-Gin, by nature, seemed to harbor strong loyalty, dedication, and brutal protectiveness. This implies that Gin, again, knew no one else before Rangiku. She is his first complete connection with anotherâand sheâs his age, which is important to note too because over the span of his life Gin seems to be surrounded by people far older than him.
     Growing up in the Rukongai isnât easy. We have multiple character backstories stemming from the hardships presented in those often run-down villages. Any time weâve seen child!Gin, heâs alone in a vast wasteland, or alone in the forest, or alone, and then thereâs Rangiku. Alone, and then thereâs Aizen. Gin didnât need to know about Aizen, be âtaintedâ by Aizen, to construct his own murderous plot for him, for the men involved with hurting Rangikuâ-no, Gin had already carried out multiple killings before he introduced himself to Aizen that night. There can be a case for it being due to Gin raising himself, raising himself and taking care of Rangikuâ-thereâs no denying that children taking care of themselves is taxing enough on their cognitive development, as well as all things psychological. Gin has a twisted concept of âplayâ and it shows.
     Ginâs first parental / adult authority figure in his life is also simultaneously someone he harbors the deepest pits of wrathful hate for, so even then thereâs a stripped-bare concept of parenting present, if at all, between them. I cannot begin to stress the effects such a dynamic can have on a childâs mindâ-Gin will never be put into a position where heâll feel itâs safe to ask an adult for help purely because of his absolute distrust, dislike, of Aizen as his primary adult figure in his life. Why show him any vulnerability, why give him an unwanted advantage? Itâs around that time where Gin completely shuts himself off and hunkers down for his overall goal of plucking back Rangikuâs soul piece and shoving a blade through Aizenâs heart.
     Dark stuff for a kid to think about.
     In the Academy for Shinigami, Gin was surrounded by adult students, or at least older teen-equivalents, and graduated within one single yearâbreaking all recordsâto immediately place himself as a Third Seat in the Fifth Division. On the educational front; sure, Ginâs a genius, he didnât need to complete those other years. He blew through with flying colors. But socialization got completely bypassed. All Gin needed to do was study, practice, train, for all of what⊠8-9 months? Easy enough to seclude himself to all but Rangiku, thatâs how he grew up to begin with. So not only has Gin avoided socializing with others during the Rukongai days, heâs also set himself up to not make a single Academy friend. Heâs instantly scooped up by Aizen, and itâs right to closing up shop for never making another meaningful connection.
     Itâs said in one of the character books (I canât remember what exactly) that Gin enjoys people-watching, he prefers the sidelines to observe others. This can be a nod to the fact that the lil fast-learning kid had to watch others to recognize what was appropriate. From properly dressing himself to how to clean his blade after a messy killâ-Gin learned almost everything surrounding behavior via observation, and his own conclusions brought on from those observations. So whilst mother nature indeed did some raising of Gin in the harshness of the Rukongai, Gin for the most part raised himself. He taught himself, he cared for himself, and he did so while also taking on Rangiku, making sure she had nice clothes, good food, a roof over her head, and protection via vowing to become a Shinigamiâ-for her, âso that you donât haveta cry anymore.â
     People who miss out on socialization during their younger years will struggle to make connections in their adult lives. Gin cannot fathom caring beyond a furrowed brow for the woes of strangers. The only times he will care for completely new faces is if they carry a trait that reminds him of someone he does care about. Things need to be easily translatable for him, easily relatable, for Gin to consider caring. It never served him as a child to care about the merchant who threw rocks at him for grabbing a piece of bread, it never served him to wonder about the other Shinigamiâs feelings as he beat them to death for hurting Rangiku. It never occurred to him to think about the previous Third Seatâs family as he cut him down.
     Itâs not that he kills with no remorse, however. Itâs that he kills with no remorse for the victim he has killed. Gin canonly is aware of and mourns the wrongness heâs committed in relation to Rangiku. So he doesnât think of them, the victim, and if there had been a time where he did it was swiftly snuffed out by Aizen. Aizen, ultimately, filled any and all holes that Ginâs parenting of himself left behind. To me, Aizen indeed raised Gin into the man he became, but the foundation on which Aizen built his perfect traitor was already geared towards terrible things. If anything, Aizen simply enabled Gin to go further, fall harder, delve deeperâ-he gave him the resources, the knowledge (even through mere observation) on how to become the monster his snake speech boasts of. Aizen wanted Gin to become a certain chess piece capable of immense cruelty, power, and Gin too wanted that same outcome. It was easy enough, at that point, to fit such a mold.
     Gin seemed to gravitate his worst teasings towards Rukia, who at the time held within her the Hogyoku, an incomplete structure of everything Aizen desired to feed to his own. Therefore, the animosity between them was mutual. Rukiaâs strong dislike is also, in flashbacks, countered by the fact that Byakuya never was bothered by Gin in their short little chats. Rukia didnât like Gin because of his reiatsu, his presence. Gin didnât like Rukia for the fact that Urahara / Aizen were both using her as a Hogyoku storage unit. To him, she was blissfully unaware of how helpful she was being to them both. Him teasing her on the bridge can, to some extent, be attributed to the fact that Gin knew she was about to fall into Aizenâs hands. The thought of saying âI could stop all of this, save all of you, right nowâ was too heavy to keep to himself. A cruel offering that needed to be immediately removed from the board.
     Ginâs testing (and in some perspectives bullying) of Ichigo in their second fight within fake Karakura Town was hardly out of pure cruelty. Gin needed to know Ichigoâs resolve to stop Aizen, he needed to know that the kid was readyâ-and at the realization that he wasnât? He needed to kick his ass into gear so that he at the very least tried his damn best to stop Aizen from winning. Gin knew that if he failed and Aizen continued on with his plot, Ichigo would be the only one standing in his way. Never shooting or slicing at a vital, Gin hardly even wounded Ichigo beyond shattering his Hollow mask and saying some viciously blunt words. A messed up version of a pep-talk, but it readied the kid enough to realize he needed to reevaluate himself. Perhaps it assisted in simmering his recklessness, his near-arrogance in believing he could simply chop away at Aizen until he was down for the count. Gin passed on the same cruel reality that he himself would go through within the next two hours following their altercation; pure futilityâ-that sometimes⊠you just canât win.
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better // t.h.
aight lads!! this is my piece for Kathâs ((@upsidedownparker)) 3k writing challenge, itâs inspired by in my blood by shawn mendes and i hope itâs at least a little bit good bye xo
summary // tom calls layla earlier than usual, and more needy than usual, to pick him up from a bar where heâs drinking to forget his broken heart, and maybe he tells her why itâs broken.
pairing // roommate!tom x oc
warnings // mentions of drinking, swearing
word count //Â 2,222
Being startled awake by her phone ringing in the middle of Saturday nights wasnât anything new to Layla since she had become roommates with Tom. In fact she preferred the calls seeing as that meant he wasnât bringing home another girl for the night. When sheâd first moved in heâd call his mate, Harrison, but once she and Tom were comfortable around each other sheâd told him to call her for rides home instead. He certainly stretched the limits of that offer over the next few months.
What she wasnât used to however was Tomâs goofy contact photo lighting up her screen while she was still up. She was sprawled out on the couch, part way through the third rom-com of the night and it wasnât even midnight yet. Layla pauses the movie to answer the call, already getting up to put on some shoes.
âWhich bar are you at again?â She asks, instead of saying hello.
âNeed you,â Tom whimpers.
Layla stops in her tracks, noticing the quiet from the other end of the phone. Normally Tom would be in the bustle of the place he was at, sheâd barely hear him ask for her to come pick him over the sound of music and people. But now all she could hear was his strained breathing and the faint thump of bass from rooms away.
âTom, are you-â
âPlease, just get here. The Blackbird.â
Before she could say another word the line went dead. She quickly scrambled to her room, pulling a hoodie over her thin long-sleeved t-shirt and stuffing her already socked feet into a pair of vans. She hissed at the cold on her bare legs when she hurried out the door, quickly locking it behind her.
The Blackbird was a bar a couple of towns over, about a twenty minute drive during the day but Layla could make it in fifteen at this time of night. She was thankful he was there as both of them frequented the bar with their friends so the staff are mostly familiar with Tomâs antics.
It was right on twenty minutes later when she pushed open the door of the Blackbird, her hazel eyes scanning the room hoping to meet Tomâs warm brown ones. After a minute of no luck she walked to the bar, waving down Max, one of the bartenders sheâd come to know fairly well. Sheâd barely opened her mouth when he nodded his head in the direction of the bathrooms.
âHe went in âbout half eleven,â he said, âchecked on him about five minutes ago and said you were on your way. I gave him some water, hopefully he drank it, he looked shocking.â
Layla smiled gratefully. âThank you.â
She walked around the corner to the little hallway where the bathrooms were, a guy slipped passed her and shoved open the door to the menâs and she quickly tapped his arm. He stopped and raised his eyebrows at her questioningly.
âCan you check and see if thereâs a guy called Tom in there? Heâs got brown hair, probably looks like a corpse by now, I just need to take him home.â
âSure thing, Iâm gonna piss first though or Iâll explode.â
She smiles at the guy as best she can after he put that horrid image in her head, before leaning on the wall opposite the door. She drums her fingers on the wall to the faint beat of the song vibrating the walls until the door opens and the guy sticks his head out.
âHeâs in here, but very out of it. He said he wonât go anywhere until he sees Layla, and Iâm assuming thatâs you.â
She licks her lips and rakes her fingers through her dark brown curls.
âYeah, thatâs me,â she sighs.
Layla slides passed the guy who says Tomâs in the last stall and that heâll watch the door until she can get Tom out. She mutters a thanks and continues into the room, it smells bad, but that doesnât matter when she finally lays eyes on Tom. He sitting on floor, back against the wall with his legs straight out in front of him leaving his feet sticking into the next stall. Thereâs an empty bottle of water beside him, a small wave of relief washes through her knowing heâs had something other than alcohol to drink. She bobs down beside him, definitely not sitting on the floor herself, and brings her hand up to his cheek, tilting his face towards her. His eyes open slowly, theyâre a bit bloodshot and it takes him a few seconds to focus on Laylaâs face.
âHey, roomie,â he whispers, bringing his hand up to cover her own on his cheek.
It sends shivers through her body, there was something about the feeling of his fingers on her own that drove her crazy.
âHowâre you feeling?â she asks.
âNot really feeling anything, if Iâm honest.â
His eyes slid closed as he spoke but his hand stays over hers so she knows he hasnât passed out.
âCan you stand?â
Tom nods as Layla withdraws her hand, he uses the toilet and the wall to pull himself up. She pulls his arm over her shoulder and wraps hers around his waist and starts walking towards the door, surprised at how steady he is. She kicks the door to open it, and the guy waiting outside holds it open before a few impatient looking guys enter behind her.
âYou right with him?â the guys asks.
âYeah, Iâll be fine,â Layla replies, âthank you so much for your help though.â
The guy nods but walks beside her to the door of the bar before giving her a salute and heading off. She gets the unusually quiet Tom out to her car and buckles him in with no problems before getting in herself. She sticks the key in the ignition but before she can turn it Tom grabs her other hand and mutters for her to wait.
âPlease donât throw up in my car,â she begs.
He chuckles, the most emotion Layla had seen him show since she arrived, but shakes his head whilst leaning on the headrest. He rubs his free hand over his face and up through his hair. She looks him over, his hair now looking even messier, his eyes barely half open, his flushed cheeks from drinking. His fingers carelessly twisting with hers as she turns as much as she can to face, he lulls his neck to the side to look at her properly.
âWhy do you do this to yourself, Tom?â she whispers.
âTo numb my broken heart.â
Layla opens her mouth but Tom presses his finger to her lips to silence her before rolling his head back to face forwards.
âI had a girlfriend before you moved in, she lived here. We were pretty serious or at least I thought we were but she up and left me with no explanation. I went to my parents for dinner, she was sâposed to come but said she wasnât feeling well, I told weâd go another night but she insisted I still went. When I got home, she was gone and so was all her shit. Never heard from her again.
âThatâs why I went out all the time, go out all the time. I was so used to having her there and all of a sudden she wasnât, I didnât know how to handle it. First time I was out I just kinda hid in a corner, looked at my phone until I was drunk enough to not have any worries,â Tom pauses and takes a deep breath. âThat felt so good, just having the clearest mind because I couldnât focus on anything properly. Not on how much I was drinking, not on who I was kissing, not on taking them home for the night. The more I did it the easier it got. If I felt like shit my mind was like âjust have a drink and youâll feel better, just take her home and youâll feel better.â And I thought maybe it was getting better, I hadnât thought about her in a while, and it didnât hurt when I did think about her. But, fucking hell, I ran into her on the way down here and I just- fuck, it was like it was the night she left all over again.â
Tomâs voice cracked and he dropped his head quickly, bringing his hands up to cover his face. Layla still saw the first tear spill from his eye, and her heart was breaking for him. She knew he wasnât in the best place when she moved in but she didnât want to over step so she never asked about it.
âYou wouldnât think this could get worse though, right? But it fucking does, because sheâs pregnant,â Tom spat the words like theyâd left a foul taste in his mouth.
âYours?â Layla asked.
He looked up at her, eyes red and raw from him wiping them dry, and shook his head.
âYouâre sure?â
âYeah, she left just under eight months ago now and she definitely wasnât that far along.â
âJesus, Tom, Iâm so sorry.â
âYeah, so am I.â
The pair sat in silence for a minute before Layla reached for the key again, when Tom made no move to stop her she turned it and put the car in gear. She hated driving in silence so the radio was playing at a low volume in case Tom wanted to talk, but he stayed silent the whole trip.
Getting Tom inside was a bit more of a bother than getting him out of the bar, now that tiredness had settled through him Layla had to hold up more of his weight. None the less she got him inside and to his room, telling him to get ready for bed while she got him some water. She also kicked her shoes off as she passed by her room, before grabbing two glasses of water, one for herself as well.
When she entered Tomâs room she thought he wasnât in it, it took a few seconds for her to notice he was sitting on the floor leaning against the bed, just in his boxers. She carefully sits beside him, putting the glass down in front of his feet and then waits for him to make the next move. Minutes go by before Tom picks up the glass and downs the liquid as fast as he can manage, a few drops leaking from the side of his mouth in the process.
âPeople keep telling me it gets better,â he mumbles, turning to Layla, âdoes it ever?â
âAbsolutely,â she tells him confidently, placing her hand on his leg and giving a reassuring squeeze.
âDoesnât feel like it, it feels like the walls are caving in.â
âTom, I think youâre forgetting that better doesnât mean good. It just means that tomorrow, or in two days or even more you arenât going to feel as shitty as you do right now. Iâm not gonna sit here and say everything will be fine, because I canât promise you that. But I can promise you it will get better.â
Tom lays his hand over Laylaâs and tucks his fingers in between hers. He wonât look at her in fear of seeing any form of distaste across her face at the action. She wonât look at him in fear heâll notice the flush in her cheeks at the action.
âWill you be my better?â
Tomâs voice is croaky and barely audible, but she hears it, head turning towards him hastily. He still wonât look at her, she can see how hard heâs trying to not meet her gaze and he cheeks only redden the more he tries. She leans over and presses a kiss to the soft skin of his cheek, pulling away and waiting for him to turn his face to her.
âIâll do my best, Tommy.â
He finally looks at her, loving the way the nickname sounds in her voice, loving the way sheâs looking at him. He canât help but let his eyes flick to her lips as her tongue darts out to wet them quickly and he subconsciously does the same.
âWill you kiss me?â
He leans in the tiniest bit as she nods and brings her free had up to his face, running her thumb along his cheekbone gently before closing the gap between them. He lets Layla dominate the kiss, she keeps it slow but teasing, biting softly on his bottom lip a couple of times before he pulls back.
He untwists his fingers from hers and gets up onto the bed, holding his hand out to Layla to help her up.
âWill you stay? I think I need somebody now.â
She doesnât answer out loud, but accepts his hand and gets under the blankets with him. He rolls onto his side, facing away from her and tugs her arm over his torso. She happily cuddles into his back and he splays her fingers out on his chest so she can feel his heart beating, itâs a little fast. She starts drawing patterns on his skin until he falls asleep, tangled in her limbs, she traces the word âbetterâ across his chest before letting the fatigue drag her to sleep.
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Guatemala Mission Trip
     We knew going into this endeavor that it wouldnât be easy, but I donât believe anything or anyone could have adequately prepared us for what we experienced during our trip to Guatemala. No amount of bug spray, hand sanitizer or Imodium could have helped us with the mental and emotional struggles we each experienced. We knew this adventure would be extremely hard on us physically â that was a given, but I donât believe a single one of us accounted for the overwhelming emotional rollercoaster that was our first ever Dental Mission Trip with KIA. Kindness In Action â is the most appropriately named nonprofit organization based out of Alberta, Canada with an absolutely fearless and eccentric leader, Dr. Dave Maskell. As per our knowledge, we were the first dental hygiene students to ever embark on an adventure such as this â which made it all the more intimidating and exhilarating. We have our beloved instructor, Nicole Edworthy, to thank for the opportunity. Without her persistence and advocacy, we may not have ever been given a chance to experience anything like this.Â
   Volunteer. Itâs one of those words with such a lovely connotation. But how much of yourself can you give to it? How far can you push yourself for to your cause? How committed, involved, or passionate are you? Empathy â is another lovely word. I donât believe I understood itâs true meaning until this trip. Until youâre fully immersed and standing smack dab in the middle of it - faced with the reality of it all - how could you? It wasnât until we were done Day 1, sitting on the bus heading back to our hostel that it hit me - exactly we were doing here & why this work was so important. Some things in life are so much bigger than anything you could imagine and no matter how much you thought you knew what you were getting into â your world is rocked regardless. This project changed a lot for me in ways I find hard to describe. It went beyond trying to do some good for people we knew didnât live the luxurious lives we do â I feel as though I benefited so much more than they did. It has shaped me in ways I doubt any other experience will ever touch on. Just a simple task we perform weekly such as teaching oral health education â became a life-alternating event.  The children we were met with at these remote pop-up dental clinics were the most eager to learn. They showed more enthusiasm and attentiveness then any of the clientâs Iâve instructed at our schoolâs clinic. My heart is overjoyed with the fact that we may have changed their lives for the better with a simple instructional session using a goofy oversized toothbrush and set of teeth. These childrenâs only motivation being a free toothbrush, maybe some floss or toothpaste but nonetheless they demonstrated how intelligent and quick to learn they could be, performing almost perfect technique. If all of my clientâs could be taught to floss the way these children are now able to, then weâd be laughing. Iâm so unbelievably proud to have had the chance to do to this.
   A sharp reality check occurred to me shortly after my heartfelt oral health education morning of Day 1. These people led bare minimal lives. I began to realize I wasnât even sure if any of the local stores would sell floss. Later in the week we happen to pass by a vender selling toothbrushes and toothpaste as a bundle on the market street and that briefly made me hopeful. But this is a reality of living in a country such as Guatemala. Even an established city such as Chisec had the bare bones as far as what we consider ânecessitiesâ. So tell me, what good is a flawless flossing technique without a single spool of thread to do so? My heart sinks immediately thinking of this. How do you ask someone living in parts of the world such as Chisec to prioritize purchasing toothbrushes and toothpaste over food to feed their family? You certainly canât, just as they canât. All the good I thought I might have done for even just one child, vanishes before my eyes and Iâm at a loss. The first of many emotional rollercoaster rides. We were only able to do so much for the people of Guatemala during our brief time there. Sadly that may have just consisted solely of their first and only professional dental cleaning or tooth extraction â and we had to let that be enough. No matter the toll it took on us. However, there is a silver lining to this aspect of the trip â or should I say silver diamine. We saw countless carious lesions (or cavities) in all stages of development â and the line up for restorations and extractions was never short. A new treatment to us, with miraculous powers was the application of this silver diamine fluoride. SDF has the ability to arrest further progression of the lesion, and also eliminate pain for the individual. I canât tell you how many stories we were told of people chewing with only one side of their mouth, or eating nothing but soft food for sometimes years due to uncomfortable pain. I canât imagine living like that but it was so common among this population â they shook it off so easily. Something any one of us would have such a hard time tolerating â dealing with this pain day in and day out. Thankfully SDF was quick and easy to apply and seemed almost heaven sent. I can sleep better at night knowing that even if we did nothing else for these people than aid to eliminate their pain and prolong the life of their existing teeth â then weâve made a significant difference in their overall lives.
    Thankfully through every whirlwind of a day, we had an incredible team to fall back on. This sounds so clichĂ© I realize, but my god was it ever true. Most of us arrived in small groups together conjugating at the airport in Guatemala City. We exchanged pleasantries and gathered our luggage having no idea the extent of the wild ride we were all about to take together. These were the people we set up a dental clinic daily with, operated using the most minimalistic materials and equipment, slugged at it all day in the abnormally hot and humid weather, worked full days through doing whatever was needed or asked of us to then pack it all up and lug it back to the buses to await the next dayâs challenges. Our team consisted of dental students, hygienists, husbands and other family members, as well as the finest, hardest working handy men you could ever ask for and us â the first ever hygiene students, all wide eyed and bushy tailed. The group dynamic was pretty inspirational, considering you couldnât pick a more random group if you drew names from a hat â coming from all over the country and having never spoken to one another before. We did pretty well spending the entire week together, working collaboratively on a project that most of us had no prior experience with anything even remotely similar to. It made me realize you donât have to be a dental professional to make a dental teamwork, but you certainly have to be a team to make a dental profession work. We had one huge common denominator though â compassion. I am so honored to have been a part of this incredible group of empathetic professionals â each bringing the hugest amount of heart and give to every minute of every day. I was constantly in awe of every single one of them. Again, clichĂ© but the absolute truth, I promise you. Plus the pizza dinners and evening laughs kept me rolling â I wouldnât have made it through without them.
   But holy heck my girls. Oh my good heavens these incredible girls. You have my whole heart. From the very beginning of this endeavor playing luggage Tetris, packing ourselves into trucks, three flights, one 6 hour bus ride, three different countries, so many food/drink/airport mishaps, grouchy mornings, grouchy afternoons, evenings, days, all the mood swings, panic attacks, near misses, and baggage checks, shared snacks, water bottles and hand sanitizers, laughs, cries and proof of life pictures â these girls came through. I wouldnât have lasted a single day without them â theyâll deny this but I know itâs a very true fact. They each showed me themselves throughout this journey. If I take away just the smallest piece of what each of them taught me, Iâll consider myself sincerely blessed. Theyâre empathy, knowledge, skill, grit and grind, compassion, patience, and love for theyâre profession truly moved me. These young women have what it takes to conquer the world â I have no doubt about it. Things I feared weâd struggle with, they soon proved they were thriving at, things I worried we couldnât do â they had already gone ahead and done, things I wasnât sure if we should tackle â they jumped right in with. These women are my inspiration, my goals, and my tribe. I have a love for them that wonât ever be diminished â because we did this - completely together. There are never enough thank youâs to the ones who pull you through or give you theyâre last granola bar â absolutely the most touching gesture.
   I can only hope to bring forward into my career, the vast amount of knowledge, skill and compassion I gained during this trip. My outlook on dental hygiene has now been expanded worldwide. Typically in office, we are told our most common client will be at a DD1 status (low in degree of difficulty in dental hygiene school terms). This is relative to the part of the world weâre blessed to be living in, but also the region in our province of Ontario. Although the population of Guatemala had particular dental attributes, I believe if we were to travel outside of our main cities, to regions of Ontario that are more remote, without fluorinated water and with less to dental care â we may experience similar conditions. I hope that during my career I am able to travel throughout Canada to aid the people in our own country whom are in need. With the experience I obtained from this trip to Guatemala, I feel as though I am better equipped to service these more vulnerable populations. The care I provide would be better geared towards them â with a greater understanding of their struggles, and dental needs. I feel I will be able to prioritize appropriate treatments and oral health education specific to the individual and based on their way of life. I look forward to future trips to help expand my knowledge of these remote locations an their specific needs.
   Perhaps the highlight of this journey isnât something that can be pinpointed â itâs in the everyday life that follows - the constant reminders and memories, the things you bring forward with you into each day. I wake up more thankful, more patient, in a kinder mood, with a slower pace, and brighter eyes that stay fixated on the important things for a little longer. I remember telling my loved ones when I left, to expect a changed girl when I returned⊠but to be completely honest â Iâve never felt more like myself after all this. And that is an indescribable feeling that I hope more people pursue. However that may be. Find your journey and let it find you.
Thank you for reliving my journey with me.Â
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