#cc!ranboo be like: i will make a character that is SO relatable to the outcasts of society

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I know that there's used a legitimate discussion about c!Ranboo possible having OSDD around the time that he introduced the panic box and the fake c!Dream that cc!Ranboo went out of his way to debunk but here me out. 

c!Ranboo’s moments with the fake c!Dream were legitimately reminiscent of my own experiences with OCD. 

I’m not trying to assign c!Ranboo with any canonical mental illnesses because its very obvious that isn’t whats happening but I just want to discuss how familiar the panic box scenes felt from my perspective. 

c!Ranboo’s discussions with fake c!Dream about assisting the real c!Dream and c!Ranboo’s subsequent denial felt like an internal dialogue with my own intrusive thoughts.  c!Ranboo repeately tries to wish fake c!Dream out of existence, to deny the supposed “truth” that a part of him is actively trying to convince him is real. That he does actually want to cause destruction, that he actually does want to serve c!Dream. c!Ranboo lives with these completely contradictory ‘truths’ about his own morality and the guilt that he might actually, deep inside, agree with the fake c!Dream.  OCD’s largest impact of my mental health has been the intrusive thoughts that come along. Intrusive thoughts are often involuntary and more likely to happen  in moments of emotional stress and seeing c!Ranboo call the tiny space where he goes to supposedly calm down, be called the PANIC box is an unfortunate similarity. I’d have vivid thoughts of immoral actions that I “wanted” and would feel immense guilt afterwards, trying to deny that I even imagined the action to begin with. c!Ranboo’s loss of self-trust felt very similar to how I would try to steer myself away from the objects relating to those intrusive thoughts, seeing myself as a danger despite my moral system objecting. The discussion between fake c!Dream and c!Ranboo felt like a dialogue between my actual desires and the intrusive thoughts. c!Ranboo keeping that voice a secret from everyone and only coming clean to one person with his experiences after he’s no longer suffering is very similar to how I opened up after I got professional help. 

Even knowing that c!Ranboo's circumstances are drastically different because of enderwalking, it’s still comforting to see a character go though similar struggles and still be adored be the audience. It makes me feel less insecure about my own experiences and makes me feel more deserving of self forgiveness.  tldr; whoops cc!Ranboo accidentally made a very very very relatable character for mentally ill people (me) and im glad he did!!!