#cause sm people I’ve spoken to say it’s too much difficult content they don’t understand

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24 hours later same feeling but worse. I already know I’m flopping these exams. For this module I had online assessments that make 10% of my grade, I think I did alright there but I haven’t gotten the results yet so who actually knows. I’m just hoping I can scrape 35 marks because with that amount I think I’ll be in the clear.

This module in general is awful, the lecturer as nice as she is isn’t great at teaching, and the slides have mathematical errors which makes everything more confusing. The content is also really difficult and there’s so much of it. Usually I rely on past papers and loads of examples of questions to understand how to answer questions but this module has the bare bones.

A lot of this is still my own fault, although I did the readings and showed up to seminars and lectures I didn’t go to office hours cause it was at inconvenient times and I was focusing on my other modules.

Worst thing is that I spent the most time revising this module and it’ll be the one I’m most likely to fail. I know failing isn’t the end of the world but it feels like it and I don’t want to resit in the summer. I’ve never failed an exam before and I dont want to start now. I have two more exams after this one as well, and I don’t feel great about the other one either.

I also wish my exams were at the end of the term rather than the end of the holiday, I spent so much time worrying I feel like I didn’t really get to enjoy my time off. I wanted to get back into writing and improve using oil pastels and I barely got the chance to.

Second term of uni I’m going to be on it, I’ll just tell myself first term was a trial and this is the real deal. I won’t let myself feel like this again at the end of second term.

I have a exam on the 7th I’m so fucked. I revised sm and I still don’t understand most concepts and the exam has 20 formulas to remember. It’s also worth 90% of my grade I hope I can somehow pass