#cause im always a easte of space and i bother everyobe by getying in the way and exost8nf anyway

[teahouse3]

God ok i haven't vented because everyone hates me and wants me to stfu but i cant take this anymore!!!!!! Ny depression has been shitty and bad since high school ended i dont have a job anymore i dont know what im doing and im unable to even take a shower or talk to anyonw because of fucking anxiety!!! Abd paranoia abd everyonw keeps leaving me bevause im apparebtly a toxic delusional person i wasent even mean yo tyen!!! And it hurts because people hate ne and i know people haye me noe and eceryone hates me!!! And alsp im sick of livi n im sick of my bad fucking health and how weird iam and how i csnt even fuckibg talk and hpw i break doqn often vecause i csnt even get help for it!!! What im upset about most is how i need 2 be the best!!! !!! !!! But i know im not,,, Everyone os always better than me I wanna hace a nice style like sleepykinq or scotchtapeofficial abd make cool stuff and likw everyone loves them and they arw t e best but honesrly nobody gives a shit aboyt mw Like I honestly dont fucking exist If i dint force myself to say hi to some9ne nobody ever cares how im doing!!! And everything is shit haha!!! IM DONE TRYING!!! everyone fucking hates me im ao insecure about myself abd my art cause i need 2 be the best but im not!!! Everyone is always better than me!!! Aaaaaaa!!! Like everyone whps youbger and 13 has like jobs and amazing art and commission a and everyone loves them and they hace everything butme o have no job and fucki n depression i csnt even get fucking help for!!! Im serious iv tried fucking ecerything but family dont give a shit dont even give me advice i know ill just disappoint y more!!! I csnt do anything im super sick mentally and im alsp phyiscally bad 2 and i cant fucking do anything!!! Im so!!! Done witu everything i dont even care anykpre!!! O dont cwre!!! Im sick of being thrbwpese thos hurys ao mich i wont be special or anything!!! Im not gonna hace anything im good at ot best at because im always comparws to someone smarter and better!!! And om always called stupid lazy a bitch and a r*tard and in always mad fun pf how im weird and tye hesd snf how i shpilf be locked up those are commebt from my mom!!! I dint o cant do t is anymore!!! Everyone os happy and im a mistakw!!! Im a mistale amd i just wanns kill myself and deleye !!! I will necer be good im always taken advantage of caude im stupid!!@ and nobody takes me serusoly and im rly hurt!!! Im hurt by everyone and NOBODY FUCKING CARES THE SYSTEM DOESNT FUCKINF CARE T E WORLD JUST WANTS F7CKING MONEU AND DIAABLED PEOPLE SHOULD JUST GO DIE RIGHT HAHA CAUSE IN A STUPID PEIXE OF SHIT WASTE OF SPACE WHP WILL NEVER DO ANYTUI N GOOD??? im just so upset and sick of everything i hacent even talked to anypne irl i hacent left yhe house im usless there is nothing i csn do!!! Im sp done im done im done!!! I keep fuckingtrying but i dont deserve anything good cayse eceryone else is always bettwr thab me im sobbinh im so hurt