#cause I also applied to a zine I’d love to write for

[adrift-in-thyme]

EEP I JUST APPLIED FOR AN INTERNSHIP

[zekroudon]

Dinner with the in-laws

Adrien's first dinner with Marinette's parents since they officially got together. A lot of puns ensues. As usual, you can read it on Ao3 here.

This was the fic I wrote for my application for the Totographs zine, but I didn't get picked, but I'm proud of myself for applying! Once again, beware, lots of puns ahead. 

P.S. I won't be writing fanfics during November since I'm attempting Nanowrimo for the first time! It might not have been the best idea since I still have my classes, but I'll manage.

Edit: Thanks @komorebirei for beta-ing and their insightful tips.

   As Adrien stands in front of the door to Marinette’s home, the bouquet he got for her feels heavy and useless. He has already given so many roses to her, but they feel meaningless compared to how grateful he is to still have her in his life. Her parents must know how amazing she is — they’ll be disappointed…

   He’s hit by flashbacks to the events that led to Tom being akumatized into Weredad. Coming to the bakery after a lonely breakfast. The grey gloomy sky. The awkward kissing Marinette on the cheeks. The pink rose. Admitting he loved Ladybug, Ladybug and not Marinette, an irony Plagg kept teasing him about now that he was fully aware of her identity. Marinette being too good of an actress at being hurt. The enormous tower of vines with the angry beast on top protecting his princess. Ladybug only appearing at the end when everything was crumbling…

   Even though Nino assured him it was casual enough, yet fancy, and that Marinette would like it—a light green buttoned shirt, with only the top two buttons undone, and dark jeans—Adrien feels like he’s underdressed. Plagg phases through his shirt and looks him in the eyes.

“Just press the doorbell! I’m starving and I can’t wait to see Sugarcube!”

“Plagg, what if I mess up again? What if they hate me?”

   Adrien starts fidgeting with the bouquet in his hands. He wipes his sweaty palms on his pants.

“How could they hate you? I’m pretty sure Pigtails couldn’t hate you.”

“But, what if…”

   The kwami presses the doorbell and returns to his warm pocket while dread fills Adrien. He hears the steps creak lightly as someone comes down to open the door. Is it Tom? No probably not—he’s heavier and the steps would creak more. Maybe Sabine? She can also be very scary when she wants to…

   The door opens and relief floods his body at the sight of his lady, princess, and girlfriend. Marinette is wearing a pink dress with a black jacket. He didn’t fail to notice the small cat paws and the kitty she embroidered on the jacket. The dress is fairly simple to the casual eye, but having been raised in the fashion industry for so long, he recognizes all the hard work she put into the hems and her trademark flower motif. Her black hair, free from the usual pigtails, cascades in waves over her right shoulder.  

“You look… beautiful,” are the only words that escape his lips.

“Thank you, you look great too!”

“So… These are for you!” he says, extending the flowers to her.

“Thank you! They’re pretty...” She leans her head into the bouquet, smelling its perfume. “They smell amazing too! Let’s go upstairs so I can put them in some water.”

   Adrien follows her as they enter the apartment over the bakery. Delicious scents hit him as they step inside. Except for the usual sweets from the bakery, he can smell a plethora of aromas he is not familiar with. An overly excited Tom practically bounces to him, followed by Sabine, who looks more calm and composed. Adrien swears the man is about to burst from how much he is shaking and buzzing with energy. He kisses Sabine’s cheek and extends his hand to shake Tom’s, who gladly accepts.

“Welcome, Adrien, we’re glad you could make it! We could not wait to meet the young man that stole our little daughter’s heart.”

“The pleasure’s all mine! Thank you for having me for dinner.”

   Once Tom let go of his hand, it instinctively went to rub the back of his neck, his usual tic when he’s nervous. Fear fills him as the man’s eyes grow big like saucers when a ray of light hits his ring, making it shine a little. Does he recognize him as Chat Noir? Marinette looks at him, unsure of what to make of her father’s reaction.

   He then turns and picks up Sabine. He whirls her before doing a pirouette himself.

“Our little daughter is engaged! She proposed to Adrien! We need to prepare the wedding cake, it’ll be the best Paris has ever seen!”

“Tom, dear…” Sabine says, trying to bring back her husband to Earth, with no success.

“What?” is the only word that escapes Adrien’s mouth.

   “Is it another case of Oblivio?” Adrien asks himself. ”Last time I checked, we were only dating…” He realizes at the same time as Marinette what gave Tom the idea, but she’s quicker to react. He thought that Adrien’s miraculous was an engagement ring. Though, it’s not on the correct hand…

“We’re not engaged, Papa!!” shouts Marinette, calming her father. “The ring’s, um…”

“It was from my mother, it’s not a wedding ring. Not that I would mind being engaged to Marinette, she’s amazing and any guy or girl would be crazy to turn her down. I mean, I’d gladly propose to her, but I don’t want to go too fast and I’d rather have your blessing before…”

   He is stopped by a hand on his arm. Sabine looks up sweetly at him, just like she did with Chat Noir all those years ago.

“It’s okay, dear, we know you love our daughter very much—it’s obvious in your eyes. Tom just tends to get ahead of things. That poor Chat Noir, I hope he wasn’t too traumatized.”

“I don’t think he is…” Adrien shyly replies.

   Since he arrived a bit early, Adrien offers to help make dinner. Considering his lack of ability in the kitchen, he gets vegetable duty, since it’s pretty straightforward and he won’t risk ruining the meal with a beginner’s mistake by putting in too much spice or causing a fire.

“You know, I can’t believe no one ever taught you to cook—but at the same time, knowing your father, it does make sense.”

“Yeah, I  carrot  believe it either. I guess he expected me to  stew  in the mansion and have a cook for my entire life.”

“Even for you, that was pretty bad,” she says, rolling her eyes. “Finish slicing them, it’s nearly ready...”

“I don’t know about that, young lady—there’s always  thyme  for puns,” replies Tom with a smirk, a fire lit in his eyes. “Once you’re done Adrien, I’ll  knead  some fruits for dessert

“Of course! Would you help me,  gourdgeous  princess? We make the perfect  pear , after all.”

“I think you’ll be  apple  to do it yourself, my prince.”

“Ah, you leave me  floured  ! You know I only have  pies  for you.”

“You’re such a weirdo…”

“Maybe, but I’m your  weirdough  and you  loaf  me.”

“See, Sabine, they were  baked  for each other. I’m sure  muffin  could break them apart.”

   A little bit later, once they are all sitting at the table, plates set and food served.

“This is so delicious! I don’t think my chef has ever made me something this good!”

“I doubt your chef would have cooked this—it’s not really suited for a model’s diet,” Sabine says. “But thank you. I could show you some recipes if you want.”

“I’d love that, Mrs. Cheng! Well, I’m  bacon  track now, I’m no longer following a diet as strict as before: no more drumsticks and crumbs.  Dough , I have to admit that I would have been  toasted  if my father had found me eating a meal like this.”

“You can call us Sabine and Tom, dear, no need to be so formal.”

“I’m glad to hear that! You sure could add more meat to those bones of yours,” Tom adds jokingly.

“The  yeast  he could have done was to let you see your friends more often,” Marinette replies drily.

“It’s okay, it’s all behind us now. The  bread  of akumas, the  pain …” He adds, giving Marinette a slice of bread. She shakes her head, but still takes it.

“Doughnut  worry, son, you’ll always be welcome here. I could show you the ropes of a baker’s job! I  croissant  your talent.”

   The rest of the main meal goes well—more puns, talking about their future and hopes. Adrien loved the fact that Tom and Sabine didn’t expect him to follow in his father’s footsteps and take the reins of Gabriel, unlike almost everyone else in his life. Instead, they encouraged him when he said that he would need some time to figure out what he really wants to do with his life, to forge his own path.

   As Marinette ices the cake, Adrien finishes slicing the fruits and placing them. His fingers are all sticky and stained from the juices, but he’s the happiest he’s ever been. He feels like he’s part of a family, in a house filled with love, warmth, and fun. He dips his finger in some cream that has fallen from Marinette’s pouch. She’s fully focussed on the task at hand, just like when she was figuring out an especially complicated lucky charm in a face-off with a strong akuma. He gets an idea. It’s a bit mischievous, but a good one.

   Smirking, he carefully sneaks behind her, channeling his inner Chat Noir. Once he’s close enough, he pokes her nose with his cream coated finger. She jerks back into his arms and squeezes the icing bag, making it explode. Their faces and clothes are covered with icing.

“Ch-Adrien!”

“See, m’ lady, I always told you that you’re  la crème de la crème  . Getting my miraculous was an  ameowzing  day in my life, but meeting you was the  icing on the cake ,” he whispers in her ear.

“Shh! They’ll hear you!”

   Her scolding expression lingers for a bit longer, but she soon bursts out laughing.

“I can’t believe you! All this for puns?”

“I felt like I needed to remind my girlfriend of how amazing she is...”

   Tom and Sabine turn the corner to the kitchen, taking in the mess the two made.

“What are you two  loafing  about… Oh, that’s quite the mess, isn’t it?” Tom asks, stopping in his tracks.

“Go change into your pyjamas, I’ll finish icing the cake in the meantime,”Sabine sweetly adds, opening the fridge to get more icing.

   As they walk past the counter to go change, Marinette picks a cherry and perches it on Adrien’s nose.

“You don’t need to remind me, Adrien, I’ll always  cherrysh  the  koalaty  time I get to spend with you.”

[disdaidal]

For the Shipper Questions: 2, 4, 20 and 25

2. Talk about three of the most important ships throughout your life.

1) Uruha/Aoi (the GazettE) - Somewhere between 2017-2010, I used to read and write jrock rps on LJ - and I actually did that for quite a few jrock bands then. Aoiha however became my biggest OTP and an obsession, so I wrote it for quite a bit (well, I shipped Aoi with others too, but yeah.) I also made some really good online friends around that time. In fact I met my now ex-gf while we were both writing Aoiha fiction and we started roleplaying them together as well. Then last year I actually traveled to another country to finally meet another friend of mine whom I also became friends with during this jrock era.

So an important ship? Hell yes. I’d also like to mention Die/Shinya (Dir en grey) as well because I think that was literally the first non-oc ship that I ever wrote for.

2) KieferLou - Ah yes, these two gentlemen. After seeing them together in “Young Guns” & “Young Guns II”, as well as “Renegades” (after learning they’d acted together there too), I really couldn’t help myself. I remember how obsessed with them I was and how I was so desperate to find so many movies with them as I possibly could. And ended up watching some pretty horrid shit, too (yes, Lou, I’m looking at you). I also remember finding an old Yahoo! group for their ship and a fanzine, and I felt blessed when the admin of that group still responded to me! Sadly though, I could never get my hands on this particular zine but I was still thankful that I even got a response to begin with.

I did write a couple of pieces of fanfiction for them back in the day as well. One was a series of drabbles which I actually posted to my LJ and another was some smutty piece that I never got to finish (who knows, maybe some day I will :)).

I also have a tag in my blog called the “gayest action movie ever”, which is specifically reserved for Renegades. >XD

3) Harringrove - While I have only been into this ship/fandom for a few months now, it has already made such a huge impact on me. I’ve been more active in this fandom than I’ve been on in any fandom for years now, have already talked to quite a few people here on Tumblr and on a Discord group as well. I even started writing a couple of fics for this ship (I still have that one pending prompt too, I intend to finish it very much, thank you). And I’ve been actively rp:ing this ship since October and we’re still very much excited for it.

This ship/fandom has really helped me cope through this tough autumn and winter, especially after my nearly whole last year was filled with depression and and fatigue. And no, corona wasn’t helping with that at all. So I’m really glad to be part of this fandom now. :=))

4. What’s your current NOTP? I’m not sure if I currently have any NOTPs really, I usually try to avoid unpleasant ships with my best ability.

But if I had to choose some -  and absolutely no ship bashing here, you do you <3 -, I’m not a huge fan of Billy/Nancy. I just don’t see any real chemistry between Billy and Nance, I’m sorry.

And in The 100... okay, so the main reason why I even started watching the show is that there was so much hype around Clexa (Clarke/Lexa) at the time. And well umm... I may be the villain for saying this but I actually didn’t like their relationship. I understand why people ship them (it’s a lesbian canon after all) but there was just too much... nope for me in their relationship.

I also don’t care much for Becho (Bellamy/Echo) or Memori (Murphy/Emori) either. I don’t hate them but I don’t care about them either.

20. Talk about a ship you feel alone in shipping. As you know, my dear friend, I feel so lonely in shipping Morgan/Erkki. Who doesn’t love a good Norwegian crime story, in which a bank robber kidnaps a schizophrenic patient and then takes them into the cabin in the woods so that the two of them could spend some romantic time together? I mean, what’s not to love there?

There were also a couple of ships back in my jrock era that I felt very much alone in shipping. I wrote and published a couple of fanfictions for them too, but yeah.

25. Have you ever shipped a pairing before you even started watching the show/movie simply because of gifs and graphics or similar? Like I said I pretty much started to watch The 100 for Clexa, though I ended up not shipping them after all. I’ve also seen a lot of gifs of the movie The Old Guard and so far I’ve liked what I’ve seen (gotta watch that movie sometime). And I do have a memory of shipping Carlos/Jill even before I even watched any lets plays for Resident Evil 3 Remake. So naturally, I bought the game even though it was expensive and have already played it through 3 times.

But yeah, umm... Usually I only get invested in ships after watching something for some time. I’m not that easily influenced into things in general cause it takes me time to warm up to them (and this applies to most things in my life, so xD).

40 questions - Meme for Shippers

[ronanvespertine]

I would love to see your work in the gen hawks zine

ERMAHGAWD THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY WRITING THAT MUCH—!

I try not to talk about which specific zines I applied to because I don’t really want people to know while the application period is going. Idk, I don’t really like knowing who is “competition” or not, cause it might discourage me, other writers, etc. So I tend to keep quiet about it. And if I got rejected, I don’t say anything either and just hype up the zine. (I’ve gotten rejected once, but it was for an MCU zine that I wasn’t really feeling anyway, so in a way I’m kinda glad lol.)

Although in hindsight, I guess that would mean I shouldn’t talk about which ones I’m considering applying to, either. 😅 Honestly, maybe I should be a little quieter when rambling about zines. Put them on my rant blog, which is absolute trashy chaos and has no theme.

Anyway, thanks for liking my writing that much to say that! And trust me, I try my hardest at zine apps and zine work. And so do a lot of the other writers I’ve met! There are so many good writers out there, and I’m betting the applications for the Hawks zine are extremely hard to narrow down (rip mods), because there’s so much talent in this fandom. Either way, regardless of who gets accepted or not, you’ll have an awesome zine to look forward to! (I already have post notifs on for the zine so I can snatch a copy in the first 24 hours—)

I’ve also been playing around with the idea of making my own mini zine. A free, digital PDF anyone can access. It only be me working in it, though, so like a personal zine (kinda like kadeart’s fashion Hawks zine in her store), but hey maybe if some mutuals or readers are interested I’d put y’alls work in it too? That’s an iffy prospect, however, cause I’ve never modded a zine and idk if I can handle other ppl working on it with me. I’d draw and write, maybe include coloring pages cause I freaking love lineart. I don’t really like digital merch, though. But DISCORD EMOJIS! I’d totally make discord emojis for everyone. XD

Don’t get too excited about it because again—never modded a zine and I’d be going in a little blind. Also I have no idea what formatting is so I bet I’m absolute shit at it. But hey, learning experience.

[haikyuusuperherozine]

Dissolving Doubts

So I noticed there are some reoccurring questions and doubts written in the applications and since I've got some free time I thought why not help to ease some minds?

Do you have to see my ideas?

Yes and no. Of course we will have to have an idea of what you're gonna do for the zine once we accepted you, but since we're still in the application period it's okay if you keep it to yourself and work on it in silence. Also not everyone has an idea yet and we don't want to pressure them into thinking up something random on the spot when nothing is cut and dried.

'Reference'? Did you mean 'example context'?

Yes, that's what we meant! A selection of your favourite or 'best' works, so we don't have to go through your whole linked blog to get an idea of what your art/writing looks like when you aren't doing simple drabbles/sketches/answering asks!

The ‘where would you like to be featured’ question is a bit weird?

Yes, we were actually going to make it a single option question with "Physical Copy", "PDF" and "Both", but by allowing you to choose both options the "Both" becomes unnecessary and by giving you a third open option you can add any additional thoughts you have, like "I’d prefer to be in the Physical Copy, but if there are too many applications I'd be fine with only appearing in the PDF as well" or "I don't feel comfortable with being featured in a PDF, so I'd like to be in the Physical Copy only". I'm sorry for the confusion the third option might have caused!

The fear that there will be a lack of communication post being accepted

I'm pretty sure we mentioned that somewhere, but let me say it again anyway. We have a Discord chat where we'll invite every participant into. Mainly to check up on things and allow a better exchange of matters, but also to decide on things like “What merch will we do?” "Who does what merch?" and "Who will collab with who?" We hope that this will make communication with e.o. easier!

Will the participants receive a Physical Copy?

Let's say we have different opinions about this. One of us would like that, the other isn't sure if we can calculate the zine prices correctly if we do, since we don't know how many people will truly buy the zine when it's time, so that mod prefers it if they buy their own version. We decided to postpone that choice and talk about it with the participants first, along with the question whether we will be profit or non-profit.

Ship hate / drama

If we select you as a participant and there's a ship you hate and you can't stand that and you can’t hide your dislike either. Then leave. Both of us mods are multi-shippers with respect to other's ships even if we don't ship them. If you can't contain your dislike for a ship within the discord chat, we might have to ask you to leave so we can give your spot to someone else. We all want to have fun while creating this zine and create a supportive environment. If you can't do that, then you can't be a part of our project. (If you have any kind of critic, pls come to us directly and don't bring it into the group chat!)

That people laugh at/hate my art

There are so many of you who mentioned this and let me tell you: we want to hug every single one of you; you guys are adorable and we already love you so much! It's gonna be okay guys! I know we can't protect you from bad feedback and evil anonymous pests, but you aren't alone. Anyone who says anything bad about you should 1. Make it better before they dare to say anything bad and 2. Only says that because they arent even half as courageous as you are. It's not them who ignored their fears and applied but you, and that alone holds such higher value! We wouldn't choose you if we wouldn't trust or like you and your abilities, either! Even if we don't choose you, that doesn't mean it's because we don't like your style! We have to limit the number of participants to make the price for the zine affordable, though, so we have no choice but to make some kind of decision.

Mods disappearing without a word / Zine not being made for some reason

Yeah, I'm feeling you on that. The weight of all the things that are still undecided can be really heavy at times, so I can understand that, when it gets too much, the people in charge just end up disappearing without a word. Being anonymous online makes that really easy. We would like to promise you that won't happen with us but we can't look into the future so we'd rather not make promises we can't keep. BUT! we can and will promise you that we will not disappear without a word. If things turn out wrong, we will leave a message and/or postpone the date of publishing/shipping till after new year when the pressure of the holidays is gone and things are less stressful.

[kylegoodmanuca-blog]

How to start your own zine - Ione Gamble

What I do and why I do it "I create and edit a self-published zine called Polyester. I created Polyester during my second year of university, frustrated by the media industry's representation of fourth wave feminism and favouritism towards minimalism, and obsessed with the group of young women and queer people I knew online who were creating progressive, beautiful work but weren't being provided with a proper platform to showcase it. From early teenhood I always knew the area in which I wanted to work, but not the specific job. I was obsessed with collecting whichever magazines I could get my hands on, watching VHS tapes bought from charity shops and constantly scrolling through Tumblr seeking things out - and after a short stint studying photography during my A levels decided journalism was the path I wanted to pursue.

I'm not sure there was one specific person or thing that made me want to decide to do what I now do - the generation of women I grew up with were always creating things on their own terms. Watching my peers produce imagery, writing and zines, at a much younger age than I felt confident doing, eventually gave me no reason not to give it a go myself. Seeing people actually buy and enjoy the first issue of Polyester was a nice moment as before then I'd sort of created this thing without really knowing if anyone would like it, if it would resonate with anyone else or how it would be received more generally."

A day in my life... "Consists of a lot of emails, mainly. Juggling my freelance assignments whilst working towards the next Polyester print issue and administrative tasks such as packaging up the zines sold that week. I look forward to the point in production of an issue in which most of the planning is out of the way and we begin shooting or I start interviewing people who we're featuring. A task I hide from is definitely tackling my mammoth pile of unread emails. The most rewarding aspect of my job is seeing people come to the launch parties, zine fairs, or even just posting a picture of the zine on Instagram and seeing that other people actually engage with the project. The biggest misconception about my job is that you'll be making lots of money. Polyester by no means pays for me to live and being advertising/sponsorship free all of the money we make goes towards producing the next issue and paying our contributors expenses."

The moment that made me...

"This is a difficult one to answer as I tend to separate what I think of as 'my career' to what I do with Polyester as a publication - even though obviously certain aspects of the two are linked and intertwined. In terms of my own career as a freelance journalist: Ashleigh Kane was the first person that approached me about writing for her and has always been so supportive of what I do. In terms of Polyester I think the defining moments so far in terms of advancing the zine have been our Meadham Kirchhoff feature in issue two and securing Tavi Gevinson as our cover girl for issue four. Both of those features were incredibly important to establishing the zine's tone of voice and gave me the opportunity to work with figures I hugely admired personally. The first birthday party we threw for Polyester was really cool - seeing hundreds of people come together to have important discussions on feminism, gender and social politics whilst also doing completely fun and ridiculous workshops like creating crowns out of pipecleaners and partaking in a live photoshoot with Maisie Cousins. It really cemented the community around Polyester that I've always strived to create."

To degree or not to degree, that is the question.... "I went to university, and did a degree in Fashion Journalism and although don't think it's entirely necessary in order to have a successful career in journalism the grants and loans that were available to working class kids (before the Tories scrapped them) - who couldn't afford to intern for free off the back of their parents' paycheck -- did mean it was a more viable route for many (including me) than going out into the industry alone. I think work experience is completely necessary and more important than studying in some cases. But traditional placements aren't the only way of securing job offers - during university I wrote for smaller publications, and other zines before I established my own, which provided me with the invaluable experience of working with editors and pitching ideas - it also meant I wasn't hugely reliant on working for other people for free full time and already had contacts in place when looking for freelance work once I'd graduated. Be enthusiastic and don't be afraid to chase things up - people are busy and forgetful, but that's not to say you should hound them with five emails a day until they reply. Apply for places you genuinely care about and give reasons as to why you want to work for them and why you feel like you'd fit in well there. Most of all don't feel disheartened by rejection as something will always work out! The biggest lesson I've learnt is to persevere against all odds, stand up for yourself when you know you should be getting paid, and don't let anyone or thing get in the way of what you want."

What I wish I knew then that I know now...

"Maybe that harding work does actually pay off and as much as people say that the fashion/media industries are super difficult to break into, if you're motivated enough then anything is possible. Make sure you really know what you're getting yourself in for - starting and maintaining a zine is a lot a lot of work but really, really worth it when it all pays off. Find a strong community of friends and creative peers to surround yourself with and work with each other on projects both just for fun and in a professional context. Write for other people before you try and go it alone."

I'm excited by tomorrow because… "I'm currently in the early stages of planning Polyester issue six, and we're also looking to make some changes to Polyester online and organising more events in between now and the next issue. At the beginning of each issue the thing that excites me the most about making Polyesteris the opportunity to work with a load of new inspiring people, or the opportunity to interview someone who's work I have loved for a really long time. I think that's the best thing about working in a creative field - making things collaboratively, watching the images and words other people have produced for the issue who live in other parts of the world be submitted, and eventually seeing it all come together in the form of a printed publication. I'm inspired by my peers and creative women. In general the community around me of visual artists and activists who continue to fight for the causes they believe in and create inspiring work inspire me to continue doing what I'm doing. Spoken word artist Liv Wynter completely made me reconsider my own writing style after reading the brilliant profile she wrote on fellow performance artist Liv Fontaine for our current issue. My friend Maria Cabrera who helps run Reel Good Film Club, and Art Baby Gallery's Grace Miceli both work so hard and both of their individual hustles inspire me daily."

Source:https://i-d.vice.com/en_uk/article/7xvgkz/how-to-start-your-own-zine-by-ione-gamble

[ronanvespertine]

Personal Rambling coming up. I dont got a read more function on mobile so yea you gotta scroll past a lot. My bad. Hopefully this post doesnt show up on ur dash cause im writing at night lol.

...

Oh god, I'm starting to wonder how many zines I can apply to. 😅 The Hawks zine, the Endeavor zine, and the Pro Hero Academia zine. I'd love to write for all of them. But man, can I handle all their stories? Hnngh, I also have my own work that I wanna do. The Tokoyami character study literally takes like 4-5 hours for progressing into the next phase. :( It's not that bad, though. BUT, I also have irl things I gotta do, and a lot of my zine work happens at night. Which is my writing time. And having a lot of projects for my writing time at night.....hmmmmm.

Not to mention I also wanna draw more. But that usually happens in the daytime, though. Ugh, idk. There's also the fact that creation periods are spread out over 2-4 months, depending on the zine. So....yeah.

It's possible? But maybe not? Idk. I gotta look at the schedules again and see how much I wanna do. Hmmmmmm.

...

There's also the fact that I felt like I had too much time on my hands for the zine I'm currently in. Cause, like, I do a lot in a short amount of time anyway. So I kinda wanna stack at least multiple zines when I'm participating in fanprojects. Just so I keep busy and stuff. But aish how much is too much?

How much can I dedicate to my own projects? And how much do I dedicate to zines? And how much do I dedicate to just not doing anything at all? (Haha!) I don't know~!