#catrino.txt

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😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡

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remember when we made a joke about how we were uncomfortable being taught an indigenous studies course by a white man (who was fucking awful) and then everyone on tiktok was like “i hope your people die and you get to watch them be eradicated”. remember when we made a joke about not liking spain and all the spainiards on tiktok said to get over it and also that my people belong as servants to spainiards and they banned me from tiktok. remember when we said tiktokers should respect indigenous cultures and refrain from saying w*nd*go and treating it like a cryptid and we spent months getting edgy white people commenting and messaging me “w*nd*g*”. remember when on here we said we dont like a movie with racist and colonialist themes and to this day still get people harassing us and calling us slurs. remember when we made a post asking for people to treat us like a human and we even now still get violent hate.

it feels like online we cant even fucking breathe without spending the next years getting constant violent hate and threats. how the fuck is social media an escape.

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drawing smth for salam

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i FUCKED up the COLORS i am ANGERY

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i fucking hate fucking. Everyone in this fucking house. Pharmacy company fucking. I ordered refills on fucking. MONDAY. And paid fucking. 12$ for 2 day shipping. And they haven’t even fucking. SHIPPED my meds. And I just try to fucking vent about it but then everyone is fucking. MAD AT ME and saying I’m irresponsible for not planning ahead when I fucking DID but the fucking pharmacy company fucking doesn’t give a shit and so now I’m fucking. Out of meds, won’t be able to fucking sleep. And everyone is mad at ME for ruining the evening and being irresponsible and childish. No one fucking even. CARES that we fucking barely remember shit so it’s fucking hard to remember medication was out and we hadn’t gotten our refills yet.

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why do so many latinos have lil dogs what is it about being latino that makes us fucking see a lil dog and go like yes este es mi hijo ahora

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i fucking hate our mother so fucking much all she just acts like an entitled child that just fucking lies blantantly she uses her fucking white tears the make everything about her she’s a fucking ableist piece of shit but now that she had foot surgery she’s recovering from now she’s acting like she’s fully disabled and thinks she deserves accommodations but doesn’t think i do she once said she would only support me having a wheelchair if we lost weight she acts like a child and leaves all of us to fend for ourselves and gets mad when her behavior triggers our ptsd i fucking hate her and everything she’s done to us

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these parents are acting like we have as much or more money than them bcuz we dont have rent/bills. we’re fucking unemployed and havent had regular income in over a month and continue to have to pay for our own food and clothing. theyve even made US pay for food for the whole family. i fucking hate it. any expense for us that they pay for they transfer money out of our bank account. these are the same people that fucking refused to help us buy a rollator because they “didnt have the money” and made us pay for it while they bought our siblings nice clothes and makeup. i fucking hate it.

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why do people online think it’s fucking like. okay and cool to call strangers a bitch or whatever the fuck. if you don’t fucking know me you don’t get to call me shit especially if you’re some white asshole

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i just want to be a mean lesbian

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literally fucking insane that freaks are like "but introducing any amount of moderation will cause the ban of all nsfw content and lgbt content or dark content, and people will still manage to skirt the tags". like fucking. do you know how many sites ban erotica/porn of minors but still have "dark" shit and things people could find offensive. do you know how many websites and places have moderation. it literally fucking sounds like people being like "I don't support snuff films but I think youtube shouldn't ban snuff films because what if next they start banning my true crime videos or violent videogames :(("

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also fucking hi

its catrino

i cant remember if ive been fucking tagging or whatever and I'm not fucking gonna go through and back tag or whatever the fuck

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i hope everyone dies, actually

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I hate being here

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fucking stayed up this late for nothing i fucking hate this fuck everything

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i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it fucking

cant even communicate right with my own fucking community

fuck i feel awkward fuckin

dude who is helping clean the parents house, tried to pick up our fuckin

Weighted blanket

and was taken aback

and fuckin

stopped and got my attention 5 minutes later using google translate

to ask “why is it heavy?”