#cant wait for my 4000000 rants when the season starts again

[atlastmyself]

nothing drives me more crazy than people who claim alicent's jealousy/anger towards rhaenyra is just because "oh she's sad/regretful and wants someone to suffer with her". don't even get me STAAAARTED in what way is her anger and resentment selfish? or maybe it is, and that's the point

actually the WHOLE POINT point of the show is the stories between these two women, and the way misogyny has affected them in different ways. r/haenyra's rightful rule has been undermined, shamed, and belittled at every turn because she is a woman. alicent's entire life has been formed by decisions made by the men in her life

the difference is that r/haenyra has some form of independence due to her status that alicent never had. additionally, she had a father who supported her rather than a father who wanted to use her as a pawn to rule. not to say r/haenyra didn't suffer and wasn't a victim -- like i said, she absolutely was -- but from alicent's perspective, she's always gotten "what she wanted" while alicent's whole life has been dictated by others. she got to marry who she wanted while alicent didn't, she had the support her father while alicent had to watch her children be blatantly ignored by viserys at every turn, and on it goes.

in her eyes, r/haenyra has gotten everything she ever wanted while she had to live her life in service of duty, and give up her own autonomy and independence in order to help the men in her life come up around her. due to the space between them she's obviously not going to find out otherwise. in turn she's pushed herself lower and lower. she's queen but she's not. she has control but she doesn't.

and yet, throughout all of this, her love and adoration for r/haenyra has never once faded. we already know she loved r/haenyra more than anything as a kid/teenager, but if we continue with the theory (which has been pretty much confirmed lol) that she was in love with her, then it's a thousand times worse. all she's ever wanted was a life with her best friend, and all she got was the opposite. and then she has to watch r/haenyra have a great relationship with her father, her children, her husband, from her perspective and she's gotten the opposite. a father who uses her, children who don't trust her, and a husband she never wanted.

it's resentment, it's love, it's all of it. that is why i am not interested in hearing the opinions of ANYONE on the knife scene unless they can give me this whole speech beforehand too lmao. SHE DOESN'T EVEN TRULY RESENT HER, she resents HERSELF, she resents her OWN LIFE. it made her bitter, angry. and don't even get me started on how if she had turned out to be not angry and bitter then the fandom would've loved her more because god forbid a woman be imperfect/angry/mean. i'm so sad.