#cant tell if I'm overstimulated or understimulated?

[quadrantadvisor]

I'm taking adderall for the first time in two years and my brain is freaking out but in a different way from before so.... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[krunktrunk]

Hi :) My question relates to your experience of having both ADHD and autism. It's hard to imagine the combination of both and how it can manifest in a person's life. In any case, would you say you like to stick to routine and the familiarities? How do your autistic traits manifest in general?

hi! :)

having both adhd and autisim can be harder to understand, as a good handful of the traits like to contradict themselves- everyone will be different but I can tell you about how I experience it :3

when I'm having to go out somewhere, my autisim will make me get ready hours in advance, sometimes I'm even ready a few days before hand, and then for the rest of that time until it's time to go I'm in waiting mode. I cant do anything but wait because even though I have 2 hours, that's only 2 hours and what if I'm late? I have to be leaving before or right on the minute that I said I would be leaving or I panic. but because I also have adhd, it means I tend to forget something really important, either I remember it just as I'm leaving so I end up making myself late, or when I'm already where I'm supposed to be, so it's a mix of the both with things like that.

also with my fixations, I tend go have a handful of hyper fixations that will last me years (my current ones being byler, cults, and dementia) but then I will also get alot of short lived fixations, that I love and it's all I think about and do but within a few months I still like it I just don't care for it as much. and that comes from me having both adhd and autisim.

those are only a couple of things to show you kind of how it works for me! I love routines, but I cant have a full day strict of routines or I become very understimulated, but if I have a day where I'm sorting out the plan and then it changes last minute I will become very overstimulated and overwhelmed.

it's a very fine line between feeling numb and my dopamine being very low and feeling like I need energy and to do things and then the flip side of feeling I have way too much energy and I need to just sit down and do nothing and feel nothing or I'm going to have a meltdown. it's an extremely hard line to find, I'm high-masking, so I've always just learnt to live with it, that now because I'm allowing myself to actually process things, things are alot messier- it's not going to be like this for everyone, and this is only a small handful of how these things effect me, I'm happy to speak more about this and it's effects on me if your wanting to hear :)

[gl4ssfan]

girl help i cant tell if i'm overstimulated or understimulated

[gaminegay]

Also I've been hyper-producing art for like 2 years, maybe more. You can't tell on here because I hop between side blogs and Instagram, but I've been doing so much art, like SO much.

considering taking like a weeks break from the internet

[chocolvte]

(I'm a different adhd anon) first off, thank you for taking your time and being so considerate before posting!🥰 I think the biggest thing to avoid is the 'loud class clown who cant sit still', which is what alot of people still think of, when thinking about adhd^^ There are pretty much three types of adhd: the more 'stereotypical' type, who needs a lot of stimuli, has concentration issues and is more on the hyperactive side(I cant think of a better word, sorry!)due to understimulation; the second one is not as known, ppl with this type usually daydream ALOT (most also have maladaptive daydreaming), are just "more in their head", have issues following conversations and directions, also struggle with concentration issues, tend to stim much less noticable and often get overstimulated; last type is a combination of both!

A bad day for someone with adhd oftentimes just ends up being with them struggling with over-/under stimulation, issues concentrating, spending a lot of time stimming, not getting the work done, being frustrated with themselves and executive disfunction (basically, not being capable of doing basic tasks (brushing teeth, getting dressed, cleaning, homework, etc.) not because they are too lazy or dont want to, it sort of feels like someone/something is stopping you for no reason and you cant fight against it, no matter how much you try).

At least this is how I experience it, as the "daydream" type😊

I hope this helps, and dont be too worried about making the post perfect, I can tell you're trying your hardest to make it right and that's what counts💕

thank you so much for being so reassuring and kind and helpful. i appreciate you so so much :(

i’m def saving this ask to look at later. it was so helpful so tysm for taking the time to send it :)

[polymorphic-starsender]

I don't ever see clearly.

Many people express vision as this:

Clean and accurate.

But I see things like this most days:

This is without my glasses sure but

This is with my glasses. Its used to look less like this and more like the first one when I'd wear my "corrective lenses".

Now. You think that's hard to see. Get ready for:

"I drank coffee oh shit", "I'm telling someone to back off for the 8th and last time", "I'm feeling overstimulated/understimulated", "I am going to yell", or "FuckIRanToCatchTheBusMyHeartIsBeatingIsThisDeath"

Sure sometimes its can be a combo of those things. But many times it just takes one thing to absolutely get in the way of walking (in every case but the bus situation because there is no way i am moving when all of my body burns).

I've told doctors about this. They said that they cant find anyway to help, or diagnosis whats up. Like okay. Good. I stay away from all the things that do case me to "blank out/black out/tunnel" when i can. I work retail sometimes people just get on your nerves and you're there standing in the corner being as calm as you can waiting for the static to peel away the darkness.

Im not worried about the blacking out, thats a therapy problem obviously. But the static and shit still covers my viewing and I'm good at dodging the static to type but like why do i have to do this if the doctors cant figure it out. A neurologist. Eye doctor. And you better believe a heart specialist.

But guess the fuck what! Not anymore bitches. The next time i go to the doctor im going to show them these rough filters of my eyesight and ask them more questions.

Because fuck this shit. Its getting worse and i lack the speech to actually make them see what i see.

I suggest others to try to do the same. These aren't perfect pictures. But im trying. Try it too. Try your best. We deserve better than dodging.

So yeah! Thanks for being hostages for my mock Ted Talk. See ya.