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glitchdollmemoria · 1 year ago

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HaShem said to me, He said little freak of mine you are gonna have the most unbearable addictive tendencies and you will have multiple disabilities that demand your abstinence from even the least harmful substances, and you will sit in your apartment distressed out of your mind sipping ramune and wishing for cigarettes and booze

#addiction cw #im gonna be honest since im not employed and prob wont be for a hot minute im tempted to just #buy some cigs and if they give me a flare up then oh fucking well #maybe they wont!!! or maybe theyll be a waste of eight dollars #i told myself im gonna buy cbd bud once i land a job but fuck dude #im having a really fucking hard night bc one friend talked about her cigar special interest #and another smoked around me whilw we were hanging out which idc i told her it was fine #and then i saw some art with characters smoking #i dont even like the smell of cigarettes ive never smoked one its like my brain just NEEDS some substance or another #like im fucking allergic to sobriety #cant have thc because it makes me psychotic #cant have alcohol because it interacts badly with my meds #cigarettes are the next legal option but that might leave me bedbound idfk #idk maybe i can just fuckin... buy some and see if it fucks with my muscles #and if it does i can give them to someone else #i know i really shouldnt but i literally just dont think i know how to function as an adult without some kind of drug in me #venting #minors dni #weed cw #smoking cw

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