#cant even stay up late tonight because of it and I'm so fucking pissed that I keep getting shafted here

[sonofsin]

😒

[andthemoonwalks]

did something in particular happen at work or was it just overall bad? I'm really sorry you had such a shitty time though :-( ❤️

I should preface this by saying that I think I'm close to getting my period so I think that has a lot to do with Everything tonight

anyway this is going to be the stupidest explanation you've ever heard but I dont control the way my brain works and this is my vent blog so whatever

so. we have to backtrack to last night first for some context. normally on Fridays I'm on till because I dont like being on makeline especially on Friday nights because its stressful and I've cried. a few times. anyway last night I was on till but they didnt have that many people to be on makeline and our phones are supposed to ring anymore so I stayed on makeline trying to be helpful and so my tips for the night were super shitty. and I know that sounds like I'm just being bitchy but I've learned that it's better to use cash to buy food throughout the week because it's easier for me to recognize when I'm low on funds or whatever and Friday nights and Saturdays are when I get a good amount of my food money for the week, so I kind of count on the tips from those nights.

then today the day was okay I had a guy get shitty with me but whatever but I got taken off till at like four or five and alexis did it and I was like um? whatcha doing? and she told me Hollie told her to and I was like okay whatever so I went and bitched at Hollie and she was like I'm just trying to make it easier for you to go home so no one has to count your money and I didnt want to have to explain the whole cash thing so I was like fine whatever but I was pissed and then judy needed me to go help on makeline

so I did but I was making noise the whole time about how I was done topping pizzas for the day and about how I wanted to quit and i wanted to go home and i started crying a little bit when i got over there which is why I think my period should be soon but also I've been super tired all the time lately so it could have been that. anyway, the point is I was really just making noise, and most of it wasnt serious, and all of it was either in the general sense, or directed at hollie.

then alexis stops stopping pizzas, and walks over to dough and Judy is like um. what are you doing and alexis says I'm making a papadia dough and Judy was like no you're not theres pizzas on the screen and alexis looks at me and goes no I'm sick of this childish bullshit about how if you have to top another pizza you'll quit I'm not doing it anymore and I was like I didnt even say that that's not what I said but fucking whatever fine (also it's important to note that I had been making breadsticks the whole night and she hadn't been marking them off the screen so we kept having to make extras so she would mark them off and we ended up with four extra orders of breadsticks because she couldnt fucking pay attention) so anyway I topped the pizzas and cleared the screen meanwhile I'm so pissed I'm shaking and just waiting for her to say one more thing to me to give me a reason to scream at her and quit but she didnt say shit to me the rest of the night

and like I make a lot of noise about quitting just because if I dont say it out loud then itll bottle up and I'll lose it one day and actually quit but before she yelled at me I hadn't said a single thing to alexis but she had been talking shit about me all night and pissing me off and I wish I was kidding when I say I was two seconds from walking out of that store. I dont want to quit because I really like the gm and I dont want to leave a shitty situation for my dad but if this bullshit with alexis doesnt get fixed I cant fucking work there anymore