#cannot wait until my brain decides im not doing this anymore itll be so much nicer | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

chimaerra · 2 years

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i love when a the embarrassment of a crush is entirely negated by how improbable it is. who gives a shit if i get stupid over the thought of one boy when he lives literally 4000 miles away and i will most likely never live in the same place as him again

#ntxt #i mean. i do intend to like. try and go to grad school over there or work there for a few years after college #ive always wanted to not live in the us for a few years. but like. im too american i cant leave permanently.#but. realistically i dont know how possible that is going to be? or if he's even going to be staying. so. who gives a shit #whoooo gives a shit #its entirely impossible and even if it were its years away.#i miss him.#wish i could convince HIM to go to college here. i cant go to college there the uni all my friends over there would be going to doesnt do #undergrad in english. and frankly its trash for the degree i want. itd be like me waving around a grocery store receipt and trying to go to #grad school based on it. itd be a bad decision #ugh #cannot wait until my brain decides im not doing this anymore itll be so much nicer #i literally just had a moment of 'oh why isnt he texting me today' and then went to google to see if there was a big soccer game happening #and boom bingo. what the fuck am i doing with my life

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