#cannot think. i am in misery 🎶

[vvindication]

experiencing pain levels that could turn me evil fr. touring every circle of hell tonight apparently

[anchorandrope]

Louis would be useless and do nothing, we’d die quickly after he tried to catch a fish with his hands or a homemade spear or something. Liam would try hard but not know what to do, he’d be good at like breaking rocks or collecting firewood that we wouldn’t know how to light without matches. (Btw I am not expecting that I’m bringing much to the table here because I’m not outdoorsy, this ain’t all on them). Niall again would do nothing helpful. I feel like he’d want to write “help” in big letters with seashells on the beach and hope to be saved that way (does this show take place near a beach? I assume it does I’ve never seen it). Harry, again, he’s picking poisoned plants. He thinks he can identify mushrooms but he cannot. He will catch a frog and it will be poisonous. Useless for survival however charming company before we die. It really would have to be Zayn. He’s my only hope. He was strong enough to walk away from 1D to live on a farm and raise animals as well as a child and grow a vegetable garden. He once saved Harry from fire onstage and also stopped him from eating a muffin thrown onstage by a fan, he has some sense of survival in him. But again, I assume we die with any of them. And I am scared of insects, the wild (I am a city girl), wild animals and having to fend for myself in the dark overnight so chances are I die from sleep deprivation after 140 hours awake in a row under extreme misery and duress. They can eat my body to survive if they want as long as they promise to record one more song as 1D and dedicate it to my memory. This is how I think Naked and Afraid would go, the one direction edition.

[related to this post]

"He once saved Harry from fire onstage and also stopped him from eating a muffin thrown onstage by a fan, he has some sense of survival in him. But again, I assume we die with any of them."

— wise words from an anonymous tumblr user

you are so real for this one, and the "HELP" sign from niall is so niall 😭 i still feel zayn has survival instinct but he has no idea how to use it. and regarding a song in memory of them eating you: well we do have no control that is a song of eating someone... but in a different way... maybe they can dedicate that one to you for a night! what do you think? 👀😅

taste on my tongue 🎶 (he's eating you) i don't wanna wash away the night before 🎶 (you were his dinner) in the heat where you lay 🎶 (he grilled you) i could stay right here and burn in it all day 🎶 (he saved a bit of you for later)

[maybe-thou-shalt-find-valimar]

✨️Put 5 songs you listen to, post it, then send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers :) 🎶

you have no clue what you just did

7 by Arctic Monkeys (best fucking song literally omg i fucking love 7)

Two Hearts in Two Weeks by The Last Shadow Puppets (completely different from the rest of tlsp's discography but literally fucking immaculate like !!!!!!!!)

Woman's Touch by Miles Kane (losing my fucking mind. oh my god. why am i so simultaneously sapphic singing about this perfect woman but also so insanely attracted to miles kane i am bi panic what the fuck this is actually the best song ever)

Reckless Serenade by Arctic Monkeys (basically the same as above. also the bassline makes me wanna kiss the arctic monkeys bassist nick o'malley sloppy style [i mean i already wanted to do that but come on])

Catapult by Arctic Monkeys (Both sides In softly came the growl from both sides And if his whisper splits the mist Just think of what he's capable of with his kiss Nice try You cannot turn away, but nice try Turned your legs to little building blocks And with his index finger, flicks you on your socks I go high-pitched He'll talk and make your voice sound high-pitched Dread to think if he got you on your own And whispered in your ear in that baritone It's the same stone His heart was cut out of the same stone That they used to carve his jaw It's impossible not to feel inferior And he could catapult you back to your daddy Or into any hissing misery And he will tell you how the day after a triumph Is as hollow as the day after a tragedy He'll extinguish any chance of escape When he slaps you on your arse or kisses your nape And he's leaving without saying bye And you will queue up to listen to him pissing And hang around to watch some poor girl blub And then they chase him down the avenue Incessantly pestering him to let him join the club He knows how to put a cork in the fuss And just how to shut up the charming ones of us And I've seen him talking to your lady friend There's a dust track waiting for betrayal Where he'll teach you all the bits they missed Nice try You cannot turn away, but nice try Nice try You cannot turn away, but nice try Nice try You cannot turn away, but nice try Nice try You cannot turn away, but nice try You cannot turn away)

[alichach]

Today I decided to write this paper to express what I feel inside. Perhaps I may feel some relief, or these words may heal me from the psychological and internal pain that I am facing, and I do not reveal it to anyone. I just bear with all my strength to withstand. I came out unusually early. From home maybe an hour and a half before I have to go out to go to school🚶. Well then the reason I do this is one of my biggest fears fighting and strife 💥. This problem felt narrow and suffocated 😭 as if I no longer had oxygen in this universe 😵 and I no longer had enough energy to endure. I felt feelings of anger 🤬 and fear 😰 and tension 😱 and despite that I tried to stop myself from crying 🙁 I didn’t want that because they might ask me why. Crying does not mean weakness for me, but rather it increases my stamina and venting about everything inside me. I didn't want them to know that I was upset because they wouldn't really understand my feelings and wouldn't take them seriously. And my destination and the place I decided to go was the garden opposite my institute. It was fresh air 🍃 which refreshed me and the trees were beautiful 🌳 and varied in shapes and colors 🌴🌲🌵 and although it was a dirty little place 😹 there were empty cans and bottles on the green grass 🌱 This really spoiled the scene and on The road leading to the benches 🪑 is in this garden full of orange peels 🍊 and “Turkish hearts” some cigarettes 🚬. And when I looked at the sky I saw a breathtaking sight of its great beauty and splendor 🏞️ It was a shining sun and some beautifully shaped clouds wrapped around it 🌤️ And a few calm wind breezes 🌬️ I always say that nature always comforts me and forgets all the worries and miseries of the world and brings me back my lost breath. The place is very quiet and almost empty, and we only notice some passers-by on the road, including students 👭 and parents 🧕👩 🦰 and women are old 🧓are taking a break on benches on the other side after Their return from the market .they look tired of carrying some vegetables and food, and sometimes an old woman sits next to me and may tell me about a topic about life or the children of this generation or how exhausting it is to carry these heavy bags every day and my company with them really makes me very happy. Silence prevailed in the place, and you could only hear the footsteps of people passing by, or the sweet chirping of birds that tune into the ears of the listeners 🐦🎶. And anyone who was except for friends, family or an acquaintance comes to me in a predicament or in sadness or worries, so I try as much as I can to change a bad mood and make him happy ☺️ and he does not leave me except with a wide smile on his mouth 😄 and he may feel some reassurance perhaps and this also makes me happy a lot, but here I felt that I A magnet that attracts the negative energies of the people around me and gives them all that is positive.

But what about me?

Can I be like them, I mean to face their same negative and sad feelings, in fact I did not find anyone to comfort me in these moments. But despite that, I will know that I cannot express my feelings to anyone, but I store it for long periods of time inside me without revealing it to anyone. I couldn't find anything more to say. Let me think. No, now I feel comfortable for a while even though I know that after I leave the institute I will go home and what scares me 😨 is that they are still the same as I left them. And I will state that I am visiting a psychiatrist to help me overcome the psychological pain I feel, improve, and obtain the peace of mind that I once desired. And she is the one who told me about this way to face my fears and not take the wrong path and harm myself, which is to leave the place where I do not feel comfortable and go somewhere comfortable away from the noise and problems until they are finished. Her words were true in this respect, but what terrifies me is when night falls, where I will go, I cannot go out. But she said that there is another solution, which is to isolate in a room far from them and put music in a loud voice 🎵🥁 so that I do not listen to them, but this will not last long, as their voices still reach my ears. You were able to understand me more than any other “person” 🌟 even though it is just a piece of paper, but no matter what I write on it, you will not oppose me or judge me. Despite everything, praise be to God, I am still strong and able to endure more and nothing will prevent me from achieving my goals 😉. And last but not least, despite my inability to use a rich and eloquent lexicon, and this is because of my neglect to read books that may provide me with a sea of ​​words and sometimes I have an idea I have to write my own note. Now it's time for me to go, the bell rang and I had to enter my class...

I wrote this down on paper and rewrote it in my note on the phone so it didn't change today

Well it's a new day and now it's 16:46

And I decided to go back to the same place, I mean the park I went to yesterday, next to the institute, and things are the same as usual, the same recurring daily problems. My mood is not worse than yesterday, but I feel some annoyance 😞 and a little hungry 😅, and the park was empty I mean there were some people last day but now There are only some cats and ants under the seat I'm sitting on, collecting their goats and a white cat no and black too 🤔 is this a coincidence? And there were two friends on the other hand, or two lovers, I think.. And in the middle of the square there was a huge marble in the form of a square with the inscription: “The Square of Literature and the Book”, “Behring Al-Wadi”, Friday, November 17, “As for the year, it was not clear and located This park is next to the Municipal Palace, and in front of it is the institute where I study, and in the back is a basketball court.......

I stopped writing a little because I decided to stop and turn the other side of the park, I saw some of the people I know who study with me in the same class. I thought they might come to me and ask me why I was there and I had no desire to talk to anyone 😔 I came back to the same seat and after a few moments of sitting I saw my aunt coming on the other side of the road. She said to me: "Are you crazy? How do you sit alone in this empty place? Don't you know that this is dangerous for you? The conditions in our society have become frightening and there are many criminals and thugs." In the streets”... Her words were true somehow 😐 But I only had this shelter to comfort myself 😕.. And we decided to go home and it was about 17:18. I do not currently want to talk about the cause of the problems because this is somewhat private. This does not mean that I will not mention the reason later when I complete my paper, or I mean, can it be called a memorandum?

To meet my loved ones, I will complete the next day or when I have another chance to write.. I know that everything I have written so far is negative, but I still have hope and my condition may improve and change my writing style and mention everything that is positive and joyful for myself....

Finally I'm really sorry for any grammatical mistakes because English is not my Natal language

So I'm trying my best and using a translator .🥺🥰