#can we have a resurgence of that pwease

[pcktknife]

y'all ever think about how we will never go back to early 2000s style of music :/

[longeyelashedtragedy]

last night i went to an open rehearsal for a ukrainian folk singing group. i'd had my eye on them for a while but never had the time or energy to think about it. i had such a fucking good time. i sing when i lead services of course, but that's generally solo and it's more serious than singing music in a big happy group. even though it was an open rehearsal almost everyone there was officialy in the group and knew each other, but i felt so at home so fast and i just. it would change my life to get to sing with cool people here in the city to rehearse and do workshops and get to perform...and of course they're not having auditions till september. i was like pwease???? at one of the leaders, and she was like no sorry but you can come to our workshops and also i totally remember seeing you at the [epic nyc area slavic/balkans/etc folk festival that used to be held every year]

(context: the biggest thing in my college life was the slavic/balkans folk singing group i was in...it was my everything and the 5 year reunions are euphoric and i've been singing all my life but this is the only situation where my peculiar voice has ever been useful and desired to a group of people 🥺)

i used to sing with a group of alums from my college group who lived in nyc, but most of them were Older (i can tell you, nothing is more fun than singing with some badass older ladies) and all the covid resurgences just got them too nervous and we stopped. plus we only did it once every two months.

i'm tearing up because of how much i want to sing with people again. i don't think my voice is all that great, but--i can't explain what it feels like, maybe it's like what a team sport feels like for those who like to play team sports. idk. i'm passing out invitations for the pity party, i wish i could catch a break, something, anything!