#can i bite ur tongue like a bad habit kvar

[billdenbrough]

For the wip game can i bite your tongue like a bad habit please please plaesw ples i have that song in my kevaaron playlist and it's so them

omg ALLIES yes i love it for them so much... i knew the song already but this wip came about from like. this is so niche lmao but i was watching the ken & friends pop out show (the kendrick lamar concert on juneteenth) and at one point, steve lacy comes out and performs that song. and something just... clicked? in my brain? i listened to that song multiple times that night (i kept rewinding the recording slightly gdhkjhjgk) and then had it on repeat during work hours (there's this youtube video that's like the first half of bad habit on loop for an hour. which is crazy but i would play that at work lol) and when driving home etc.

and eventually it resolved into an achy vague messy reunion-ish wip vibe of sorta ... hilariously, given it's a different song completely, but you know that line in stick season that's like "and i'll dream each night of some version of you / that i might not have, but i did not lose"? there's a little bit of that energy in the mix too, at least on kevin's end

anyway, an excerpt. part of one of the scenes i've got:

Aaron isn’t looking at him. It’s 10:37pm on a Tuesday night, Kevin’s wrist hurts, Nicky’s laughter is echoing through the night sky, and Aaron is not looking at him.  He’s still out there on the balcony, though. So that has to count for something, right? “Three years ago,” Aaron says abruptly. He’s gazing out over the carpark, like he’ll find what he’s looking for there. Maybe he will. There’s an exit route, after all. That’s not fair. Kevin’s left a lot of things too. And he at least knew what he was leaving. “Three years ago,” Aaron says again, tone measured, like Kevin’s never heard it. He’s never heard Aaron so careful. He doesn’t know what to do with that. “At Eden’s. The night you wanted to dance.” Kevin wants to say, be more specific, but he doesn’t want Aaron to look disappointed in him. Kevin on the cusp of twenty-two liked getting any of Aaron’s expressions on him, because at least it meant he was looking at him. Kevin at almost-twenty-five hasn’t seen Aaron properly in months, and doesn’t want to be left with disappointment as the one thing he gets to take home. “Is that a one-off occurrence to you?” Kevin asks. It comes out without his entire permission. Sometimes Kevin thinks his mouth is a gate with a rusted lock: he spent so long keeping all his secrets locked up, only letting commands and complaints through, that when he opened the door to let some out to save Neil, the latch never shut again properly. Some honesties can’t help but bleed out.

i do have more in the doc (even just for that scene, there's more lmao) but it's also the kind of wip where i'm like... still circling in on what's going on. ykwim. lauren once said smth abt wanting to examine aaron's brain with a microscope and that's the vibe for them both with this one, except i need to rattle them like maracas too

wip game