#can donna be a hyperfixation? dunno

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Buncha Donna doods!

Driven by tatto Donna cosplay by @feshsticks (permission asked)

[devils-malady]

Tw: mention of suicide

Okay, just an observation and i am probably 100% wrong but... i don't think I've seen anyone else bring this up.

Donna is always in mourning clothes. She hyperfixates on her dolls maybe as a way to try and recreate the family she has lost. She obviously puts alot of love into them. But ultimately she is lonely and always mourning. Now her boss "fight" was not really even a fight, then we find it was her that Ethan was stabbing. If she wasn't deliberately trying to die then and there, she could have done more to escape, unless splitting her cadou the way she does just drains her to the point of having the inability.

So did she see Ethan as a means to end her own suffering?

"Stupid idiot, what are you doing to my cute friends?"

Not anything about herself. Just why is he hurting her dolls, her friends?

So did she use Ethan as her means of assisted suicide? She probably couldn't have before because Mother Miranda "needed" her and likely wouldn't have allowed it and stopped her, probably including some pretty bad punishment.

She's already tragic and I dunno, the thought just makes it even moreso to me.

She deserved better.

Hey capcom, give us the dlc but make it alternate timeline where ethan convinces the 4 lords to flip on miranda and then they can all have happy endings. Kthnx.

[pirateboy]

Josh and Donna for the ask game 😎

The babes!!! Will absolutely do them hell yh

(also realising that i don't rlly have any proper hcs outside of queer/nd stuff so lmao we'll see how this goes)

Joshua ;^)

Adhd josh!!!!!!! U see all those exclamation points? I am Passionate about this hc. He literally does have adhd I dunno how to explain it to u. (Obligatory plug of my ADHD josh fic sorry). I think he definitely struggles with rsd a lot (e.g leo in disaster relief), as well as impulsivity and not just. doing stuff lmao (tobacco and when he almost got fired in the first ep). I think he gets rlly deep into hyperfocus as well, luckily a lot of his interests are in politics so often it's stuff for work, but it's equally as often not (see lemonlyman.com). He's pretty hyperactive and definitely is a very fidgety stimmer, I can also see him vocal stimming a lot, but not even words he'll just make weird sounds. Space hyperfixation josh lyman is my beloved it makes Perfect sense. Also the theoretical physics thing? Yh that was a hyperfixation I dunno what to tell u. Oh also I have to mention how he forced himself to do work.by tying himself to a chair with a belt like. that man has adhd I'm sorry to tell u

Trans Joshhhh. I don't rlly have. proper reasons like I do for the adhd hc I just think it would be cool lmao. (Also have a trans josh fic to plug for this oops). It's definitely something that he's very insecure about, it's something that he doesn't want a lot of people to know about (cos y'know politics), but obviously the gang all find out at certain points and they're all very cool about it <3 I think it's something he's always known about himself in a way, but I think he only lets himself realise it when he's in college. And I mean like, within the first term he's just like oh shit. Also I think a lot of his whole * I'm a manly man >:( * thing is a product of his insecurities about being trans and y'know I've gotta act a certain way or people won't accept me type thing. And hey, at least in the earlier days of his transition probably to prove to himself that he's trans as well. Anyways my guy low key hates himself but he's learning. He's healing <3

Ok hc numero 3, aka the sexuality one. So I Have been converted to gay josh, but also I'm gonna be talking about my tried and tested aro josh hc as well :) I'm doing these together cos I don't have too much to say on gay josh and I've already elaborated too much on aro josh. A couple things about gay josh tho, definitely giving me lesbian > gay man vibes, also was very affected by the whole 'u have to be straight to be trans' rhetoric which led to him denying he was gay for a long time. Aro josh I've talked about to death, but I've been thinking a lot about romance repulsed josh as well and it's very good. Also josh being grey-aro (shout out to theo for this :)). Actually it's probably how I usually think of him now, and not only because I have joshtoby brainrot, I think it makes sense. But also exploring how people who don't experience romantic attraction navigate romantic relationships so... I go back and forth.

Ok Jesus this is getting long. Anyways this is just the vague josh childhood section. Would like to start off by saying that josh was an art kid u can fight me on that. He also did music as well, but it was never his thing on the same way? I also think it was something he picked up, or at least continued cos it helped him feel close to Joanie after she died, and he doesn't play as often as he'd like too but he still kinda keeps up with it. I hc him playing the violin and/or piano btw. Also josh doing ballet my beloved. He has a pretty complicated relationship to it, he still likes to dance but doing it in an organised sense rlly fucked him up, he has adhd and is trans and even aside from that ballet is pretty brutal. His guilt after Joanie died meant for a while after he rlly focused on trying to be the Perfect child, he didn't wanna cause any more trouble so he stayed with ballet a lot longer than he would have otherwise. Also when he started struggling in school a lot more, he's grieving already and he puts so much pressure on himself to be perfect in school but he just Can't do it and it just makes everything worse. In the mrs morello episode he also mentions a teacher that he had who he rlly liked? Anyways that teacher recognised that josh doesn't work in the same way as other people and helped him and taught him different study techniques and all that so he started improving. Even so, I think he was getting by pushing himself rlly unhealthily, he definitely uses his anxiety to help him get stuff done (which is bad lmao) but that's stuff he's continued doing into adulthood as well. Oh this is a rlly random one but I think he moved schools quite a few times.

Last one let's go!!!! Josh and his mental health B). I think he has a lot of fire anxiety still (inspired by that one time he says to Ronna to make sure the buildings up to fire code). I also think he has a lot of regular anxiety. He. has Anxiety is what I'm trying to say. Definitely started when he was a teenager and he's been in therapy on and off for it since then. Actually no wait. He had anxiety when he was a teen yh, he'd have panic attacks but he'd hide them cos he didn't want anyone to worry about him. But he gets to college and his mental health gets a lot worse, I think he is actively suicidal at one point, but he eventually finally goes to therapy, and he's not ok, but he's better. I obviously think he's been in therapy for lots of things, but anxiety is one thing he consistently finds himself in therapy for. I hc that he originally started seeing first stanley cos of his anxiety, obviously worsened because of his dad's death, but that and joanie is something he's still uncomfortable talking about, he doesn't bring it up often even to his therapists. Josh dissociates a lot as well, I don't have anything to elaborate on that I just think it's true. Also he's rlly bad at avoiding his triggers at least at the beginning, he either thinks he just has to push through it or he's too afraid of telling people they're doing something that's triggering him (he's also pretty bad with poking at his triggers as well, which we can see a bit of at the end of noel). He's also uncomfortable talking about his ptsd, so no-one rlly knows what his triggers are at first. At one point he has an episode in front of the gang, at which point they kind of force him to tell them stuff and they're a lot more careful with him after that, which josh kind of hates? But also appreciates cos he knows he's not at a point where he can ask for that himself. But y'know he gets better he keeps going to therapy all that.

Ok wow I'm so sorry that was like 20 hcs squished into 5 probably lmao. I'll have to do the donna one in a pt.2 cos this is getting way too long but uhh yh. Thx for the ask again :)