#call me kylie-lie-lie

[mrmatthewconnor]

Kylie Minogue "Tension" music video (2023), dir. Sophie Muller // Paris, Texas (1984), dir. Wim Wenders

[boxwinebaddie]

anyways *me ignoring my stannic attack* speaking of tkak ( the delicious uncle nina tsot toxic yuri ) i'm conflicted bc writing it in the old english is kind of impossible to read...but having stas say shit like "gwendolyn, your frock looks rather fetching, particularly the bodice Not That I Was Looking Upon It!" and "alas boys! i am ruined! fetch me the mead so that i may drown my eternal sorrows in it before i throw this cruel wretched form from the bell tower" and "butters you are true ally and kinsman! tucker...may your next meal contain many Poisons" IS SO FUCKIN FUNNY THAT I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAVE TO

[90s-music-tourney]

Here are the entries to the 2000s tourney:

Pokerface by Lady Gaga

Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Toxic by Britney Spears

Sk8ter Boi by Avril Lavigne

All my Life by Foo Fighters

American Idiot by Green Day

1985 by Bowling for Soup

Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand

Somebody Told Me by the Killers

Hey There Delilah by Plain White Tees

Feel Good Inc by the Gorillaz

Sugar we're goin down by Fallout Boy

Brave as a noun by AJJ

Hot N Cold by Katy Perry

Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) by Beyonce

The Dog Days are Over by Florence + the Machine

Seven Nation Army by White Stripes

Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down

She Hates Me by Puddle Of Mudd

Stacy's Mom by Fountains for Wayne

All the Small Things By Blink 182

Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

Hurt by Johnny Cash

Hey Ya by Outkast

Rehab by Amy Winehouse

Stan by Eminem

Do you realize by The Flaming Lips

Sexyback by Justin Timberlake

Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus

Drops of Jupiter (Tell Me) by Train

Californication by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

Fireflies by Owl City

TiK ToK by Ke$ha

Gives you Hell by All American Rejects

Paper Planes by M.I.A.

Can't get you out of my head by Kylie Monogue

I write sins not tragedies by Panic! At the Disco

Short Skirt/Long Jacket by CAKE

Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus

Bring Me to Life by Evanescence

Before he cheats by Carrie Underwood

Vida La Vida by Coldplay

Photograph by Nickelback

99 Problems by Jay-Z

Hash Pipe by Weezer

A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton

Love Story by Taylor Swift

Unwell by MatchBox Twenty

Yeah! by Usher

Dilemma by Nelly and Kelly Rowland

Beautiful by Christina Aguilera

My Hips Don't Lie by Shakira

I gotta Feeling by Black Eyed Peas

Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani

Watcha Say by Jason Derulo

Drop it like it's Hot by Snoop Dogg

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

Numb by Linkin Park

Umbrella by Rihanna

Crazy in Love by Beyonce and Jay Z

How to Save a Life by The Fray

Get the Party Started by P!nk

Survivor By Destiny's Child

Everytime we touch by Cascada

Beautiful Girls by Sean Kingston

Bad day by Daniel Powter

Chop Suey By System of a Down

I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

Crazy by Gnarls Barkley

The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

Harder Better Faster Stronger by Daft Punk

Chewing Gum by Annie

Lollipop by Mika

It's gonna be Me By Nsync

Low by Flo Rida

Fuck the pain away by Peaches

Misery Business by Paramore

It's my life by Bon Jovi

The Past Is a Grotesque Animal by Of Montreal

Work It by Missy Elliott

Butterfly by Crazy Town

Caramelldansen by Caramell

In da Club by 50 Cent

4 minutes by Madonna and Justin Timberlake

White Flag by Dido

Beautiful Day by U2

Fallin by Alicia Keys

All for you by Janet Jackson

Bootylicious by Destiny's Child

This Love by Maroon 5

Milkshake by Kelis

Smooth Criminal by alien Ant Farm

I'm a Believer by Smash Mouth

Sandstorm by Darude

I believe in a thing called love by the darkness

Float On by Modest Mouse

[misty-howler]

Messages from your Future Spouse...

Hello everybody 🌸 This pac is purely based on my intuition.No Tarot cards were used. So, it may or may not resonate. This is an old pac I did on my lost and forgotten account @luminarygirl but my heartiest thanks to @pyramerex (yes I will mention you in each and every post you retrieved because I am grateful) for retrieving a few of my posts. I really love you for what you have done for me. Thank you ❤️

These messages are in the form of poems and songs.

And also one of the pic is of my dog. If anyone wishes to guess. I hope you enjoy the reading.

DISCLAIMER : All my Readings are for entertainment purposes only and none of the pics or gifs or poems used below belong to me except one. Credits to the rightful owner

Choose your pile intuitively :)

Pile 1

I love you.

After all this time I still love you

It's always been you.

It was you yesterday.

It is you today.

It will be you tomorrow.

And for the rest of my life

It will be you.

I will love you as long as

the sun burns the sky.

As long as the moon

Shines it's light into

the dark night.

Until the raging blue oceans

become calm and dry.

I will love you until the

end of the time.

SONG :

Pile 2

In you,

I have finally found all I

never dared dream I could

deserve or have - the kind

Of love which is rare.

Being known in a way that

touches the deepest parts

of me. Accepted in a way

that blows my mind.

In you,

the love I have always

desired to give now has a

place to call home. I have

been skeptic, but you are

my undeniable miracle.

The questions won't matter anymore

When we finally find each other

And that would be enough.

SONG :

Pile 3

It is so easy

for me to love you

that it frightens me.

I have never been good

at anything.

But I have never wanted

anything so much as

I want to hold you

every waking minute.

And every night

While I sleep

The question has ceased to be

"How do I love you?"

And has become

"How would I ever stop?"

SONG :

Pile4

To lie with you

in a field of grass

To lie there forever

And let the time pass

Touching lightly

Shoulder and thigh

Neither wanting more

Neither asking why

To have your whole

cool body's length

Along my own

to know the strength

of a secret tide.

Of longing seeps

Into our veins

Go deep...deep

Disolving flesh

And melting bones .

Oh, to lie with you alone

To feel your breast

rise with my sigh

To hold you mirrored

In my eye.

Neither wanting more

Neither asking why.

SONG :

The energies were so beautiful y'all ✨ I hope you enjoyed your reading. Do leave behind feedback 🥺 if possible.

Divider : @firefly-graphics

[5centz]

HFJONE Theory Thingy ab Bryce, SPOILERS FOR INVESTIGATIONS 4/KYLIE

(This was pointed out by my bf so this moreso his theory than mine, hes got another one too which Imma prob post later but ye-) -

OKAY SO, when Bryce picks up his mail there's a pink letter amongst the pile (for reference, this from EP 11)

It might be possible that this is a pink slip/termination of employment

and in the case that it IS a pink slip (which he does look directly at), he might've been lying about needing to go to work

So, IF he's lying, what's the phone call about? Listening to the clip, the voice on the other end- - OKAY SO I HAD WROTE THE STUFF BEFORE THIS POINT BEFORE KYLIE'S INTERVIEW CAME OUT (LIKE MORE THAN 2 DAYS AGO)

FROM THE NEW INVESTIGATIONS, THE VOICE ON THE PHONE DOESN'T SOUND LIKE KYLIE, I was going to note before that the voice on the other end sounds like it's saying "something something police department" but now on top of that THIS VOICE ON THE OTHER END DOESN'T SOUND LIKE KYLIE (EVEN IF MUFFLED)

Even weirder, if this isn't Kylie, Bryce A) made up a lie about the freezer on the spot and B) doesn't want Liam to know there was a police investigation for some reason WHY? I'm not totally sure- but me and my bf just wanted this pointed out so, ya yeet

[i-spaced-sorry]

Coffee and Comfort Summary: Reader works at a coffee shop and one morning is rough enough that she gets sent home not even 2hrs into her shift. Jay comes home and comforts her.

Waking up for your 8am shift at the coffee shop felt more like waking up for a 6:30 am shift at the coffee shop. You were tired and slow in your movements. You sat down in front of your mirror closet doors like you did every morning out of habit. Quickly changing into your work clothes, you gave yourself a quick pep talk while simultaneously trying to both convince yourself to go into work and at the same time convince yourself to call the manager on duty phone and call off. Opting for the route of needing to pick up your tips, so you had date night money for your date with Jay that weekend, you got up off the floor, zipped up your docs and walked out the door. 

To say you should have called out of work, is an understatement, walking onto the floor and taking a tiny glance to the duty roster, you noticed it looked like every employee under the sun was scheduled for the day. Meaning there would be too many employees and not enough positions or tasks. But alas, you tied your apron and asked, “Where do you want me” to your shift manager. 

“Start on register” she replied and you dutifully went over to the register and signed in. Taking a look at the long line forming outside the shop, you sucked in a breath, thought ‘I need the money’ and waited for the door to be unlocked. 

The chaos didn’t take long to become overwhelming. On top of every employee scheduled, all the new fresh out of training employees were also on the floor. 

“We are out of chocolate croissants” your coworker Amari called out from the food section. 

“Hi, can I get a -” started a customer, “ - 86 the sausage breakfast sandwiches” called out Amari. 

“A iced vanilla latte” concluded the customer. 

“For su-” you began, “we have chocolate croissants again”

“For sure, what size”

“Medium” “you have 2 almond left, and 1 classic left” 

“Hey, I’m looking for Kylie, is she still here?” asked the senior manager in charge. 

“I don’t know” called your shift manager Riley. 

“Ooh, what are we going to get?” asked an overly excited customer to her friends while they waited in line. 

Was the music getting louder? Why can I hear every conversation but can’t finish a single conversation? 

“Your total will be 14.99” you choked out while blinking back tears and hopping the customer in front of you doesn’t see you failing to keep tears at bay. 

“Hi can I -” started the next customer who walked up. 

“I’m so sorry, just give me one second” you choked out, before turning to face Riley. 

“Can I go to the back real fast?” you asked. 

After getting the go ahead, you quickly walked into the back and pulled your neckline of your shirt to your eyes and began crying. And before you could stop it you found yourself hyperventilating. “No, No, No” you audibly exclaimed while trying to get your breathing in check while you started shaking. 

After a few minutes you had staved off the dreaded panic attack but you found yourself panicky, shakey, and on the verge of more tears. But alas, you wiped your eyes with your shirt, took a breath and walked back out on the floor. 

“I’m back” you said as you walked back on the floor, “thanks I needed a moment” you added. 

Riley took one look at you and could immediately tell you weren’t doing good. “Are you okay?” she asked. Normally you would lie and say you were fine, but you really didn’t want to be there anymore, so you actually said you weren’t. 

Next thing you knew you were talking to the senior manager and then being told to go home and take care of yourself. You didn’t need to be told twice. 

Walking into your apartment, you sighed, changed your clothes, and lept into bed and under the covers. 

“Y/N?” called out Jay an hour later. 

Noticing your bag on the floor, he walked towards your room. Opening the door, he noticed your shoes discarded to the side and could hear soft snoring. Gently shaking you Jay called your name until you rolled over and looked at him, “What?” you asked groggily. 

“Why are you home? I thought you worked til 4:30”

“Had a rough morning, got sent home” was all you muttered while cuddling close to your boyfriend. 

“Wanna talk about it?” he asked while shuffling himself to make himself more comfortable on your bed and allowing you to get comfortable curled up next to him. 

“I was just overwhelmed and staved off a panic attack and it was too many people talking over one another, I’m good at my job, I’ve been in food service since I was 15, but today I felt like I was a newbie because I could never finish a single sentence without being interrupted and neither could a customer. It was like if I listened to a customer and drowned out the person on food, then I’d hear what the customer wanted but would miss out on important food items we were out of or running low on. And if I drowned out the customer and listened to what was being said on food, then I felt like an ass having to ask the customer to repeat themself or me guessing what they wanted based off of the limited words I heard them say and if I guessed wrong, which happened a lot, then I look like a ditz who can’t do their job! And I can do my job! I’m damn good at my job!” you cried. 

Jay just held you while you let out your frustrations, “I know, I’m sorry it was overwhelming!”

You cried til you couldn’t cry anymore and you looked up at Jay and sighed, “I’m sorry, I know we were going to hang out tonight and this weekend, but I just have so much anxiety and really don’t want to do anything at least tonight, maybe this weekend we can do something” 

Hugging you close to him, he bent down and kissed your head, “never apologize. You are always so quick to help me after a tough case, the least I could do is return the favor. When Kim and Roman responded to a call at your work and they noticed you weren’t there, when they got back to the district they told me and I knew something was wrong, you never willingly leave work early.” 

“That’s why you knew to come here, I was starting to wonder how you knew I was home. Since normally you come over after I get home.” 

He shrugged and smiled, “now, let’s say you get dressed in comfy clothes, then I’ll take you to your favorite coffee spot for some ice tea and then we’ll come back here and watch all the trash tv shows you want. How does that sound?” 

Smiling, you replied, “Can we watch As The World Turns?” referring to the Soap opera that ran from ‘56 to 2010.

“Anything for you” Jay smirked. 

[eretzyisrael]

by Kylie Ora Lobell

Dutton is just one of many journalists who has chosen to ignore facts, instantly side against Israel and spew lies to the public. From the outside, it looks like Israel’s supporters are losing the information war, as there seems to be an endless wave of fake reports about the country, always putting it in a negative light. 

But Murray, who has been in a similar fight for years against progressivism in the West, is convinced he is making a difference. To him, there is a reason to keep fighting.

“I think I make a lot of headway,” he said. “My view is that 1,000 lies can be corrected by one truth. Obviously social media is testing my theory in real time, but I still believe it. Whenever I’m in a debate with someone who is fervently anti-Israel, I tend to find that audiences appreciate you introducing new facts or little known or unknown facts to the debate. They appreciate that people are pushing back against this. Is there a percentage of the population who simply won’t listen? Absolutely. But the majority of the public is still available. They do listen. And it’s to them that I speak.”

When it comes to Israel, Murray said there are people who “absorb the mainstream media each night, and then they call for the killing to stop and think it’s being done by Israel. In such moments, it’s very important that a voice speaks up and gives courage to others to speak up as well. I have a favorite quote: ‘All I have is a voice to undo the folded lie.’”

Sometimes the lies and criticism come from the Jewish community itself, like when Senator Chuck Schumer (D-N.Y.) spoke up against the Israeli government, or Bernie Sanders (I-Vt.) demanded “No more money to Netanyahu’s war machine to kill Palestinian children.” Why does Murray think this is happening?

“Chuck Schumer, whom I respect, is probably playing a domestic political game in the U.S.,” Murray said. “He’s an intelligent man, and he must know that every Israeli leader would be doing the same thing as Netanyahu [in the aftermath of Oct. 7]. If America had thousands of citizens taken hostage – relative to its size – and tens of thousands murdered in one day, America would be doing much more than Israel is doing, and Schumer knows that. I think it’s about a domestic political game playing out in America, which I regret, because this issue is above politics.”

As a staunch defender of the West and its values, Murray is compelled to support Israel because, as he said, it’s on the front line of the civilized world, defending the West. “Israel has recognizable ethics and culture,” he said. “It’s different, as all countries are, but it’s part of us.” What baffles him – and many others – is the fact that Westerners in America and Britain are supporting every country in the Middle East except for Israel.

“Israel is the one country in which Americans could live in the Middle East,” he said. “I’ve spent enough time in other countries to know this difference. A lot of people don’t. Israel is a core part of the West. When people ask me, ‘Why do you support Israel?’ I say, ‘Why would you support every other country but Israel?’” 

[aespicysstuff]

Masterlist:

BlackPink

Reactions:

You being buff

You being their back dancer

You calling them wife

Headcanons:

Meeting Latina Y/n for the first time

Gifts they get you

Scenarios:

Smau:

Aespa

Reactions:

Their girlfriend being buff

Headcanons:

Scenarios:

Smau:

Itzy

Reactions:

Headcanons:

Scenarios:

Find Us - Hwang Yeji x Fem Reader

Smau:

New Jeans

Reactions:

The first time they meet you

You having a masc style

Headcanons:

Little things you do

Your ship dynamic

The playlist of your relationship

Scenarios:

Cool With You - Haerin x Actress!Fem!Reader

Smau:

Ive

Reactions:

Headcanons:

Scenarios:

Smau:

Le Sserafim

Reactions:

Headcanons:

Scenarios:

First Heartbreak - Miyawaki Sakura x Fem!Reader/ Platonic!Hong Eunchae x Fem!Reader

Smau:

StayC

Reactions:

Headcanons:

Scenarios:

Smau:

___________________________________

SWF 1

- Monika Shin

Mi Corazón - Monika Shin x Fem!Reader

- Lip J

- Gabee

L.A Love - Gabee x Tattoo artist!Fem!Reader

- No:Ze

Máscaras - No:Ze x Stripper!Fem!Reader

- Leejung

- Aiki

SWF 2

- Kirsten Dodgen

You Heart Call For Me: part 1/part 2 - Kirsten Dodgen x Dancer!Fem!Reader

Home - Kirsten Dodgen x Soldier!Fem!Reader

- Harimu

- Redy

- Bada Lee

- Lusher Lee

- Minah Lee

___________________________________

Others

- Jenna Ortega

Why did you have to go? - Tara Carpenter x Fem!Reader

Scream - Jenna Ortega x Fem!Reader

- Halle Bailey

- Florence Pugh

My Rival - Florence Pugh x Dc!Actress! Fem!Reader

- Bruna Marquezine

- Margot Robbie

Eyes Don't Lie - Margot Robbie x Bodyguard!Fem!Reader

- Dua Lipa

- Kylie Jenner

Angel - Kylie Jenner x Actress!Fem!Reader

[thisisyourdriverspeaking]

In honour of Le Mans today, here's a little soundtrack for you. This is motorsport number twos, the edition for all the drivers. Enjoy 😊

Sebastien Loeb (26th February 1974) - Alvin Stardust - Jealous Mind

Tony Kanaan (31st December 1974) - Wombles - Wombling Merry Christmas

Juan Pablo Montoya (20th September 1975) - Leo Sayer - Moonlighting

Mark Webber (27th August 1976) - Wings - Let 'Em In

Kimi Raikkonen (17th October 1979) - The Police - Message In A Bottle

Jenson Button (19th January 1980) - Billy Preston & Syreeta - With You I'm Born Again

Felipe Massa (25th April 1981) - Ennio Morricone - Chi Mai

Heikki Kovalainen (19th October 1981) - Laurie Anderson - O Superman

Andre Lotteter (19th November 1981) - The Police - Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic

Pippa Mann (11th August 1983) - Paul Young - Wherever I Lay My Hat (That's My Home)

Simon Pagenaud (18th May 1984) - The Pointer Sisters - Automatic

Robert Kubica (7th December 1984) - Jim Diamond - I Should Have Known Better

Nico Rosberg (27th June 1985) - Madonna - Crazy For You

Jerome D'Ambrosio (27th December 1985) - Whitney Houston - Saving All My Love For You

Rahel Frey (23rd February 1986) - Diana Ross - Chain Reaction

Kamui Kobayashi (13th September 1986) - Boris Gardiner - I Want To Wake Up With You

Rene Rast (26th October 1986) - Status Quo - In The Army Now

James Hinchcliffe (5th December 1986) - Berlin - Take My Breath Away

Oliver Turvey (1st April 1987) - Mel and Kim - Respectable

Sebastian Vettel (3rd July 1987) - The Firm - Star Trekkin'

Alexander Sims (15th March 1988) - Rick Astley - Together Forever

Molly Taylor (6th May 1988) - Fairground Attraction - Perfect

Simona De Silvestro (1st September 1988) - Brother Beyond - The Harder I Try

Sarah Bovy (15th May 1989) - Kylie Minogue - Hand On Your Heart

James Calado (13th June 1989) - Cliff Richard - The Best Of Me

Brendon Hartley (10th November 1989) - Milli Vanilli - Girl I'm Gonna Miss You

Earl Bamber (9th July 1990) - Luciano Pavarotti - Nessun Dorma

Cristina Gutierrez (24th July 1991) - Heavy D & The Boyz - Now That We've Found Love

Abbie Eaton (2nd January 1992) - Michael Jackson - Heal The World

Timmy Hansen (21st May 1992) - Guns 'N' Roses - Knockin' On Heaven's Door

Daniel Abt (3rd December 1992) - Charles & Eddie - Would I Lie To You?

Alice Powell (26th January 1993) - Exterminate ft Niki Harris - Snap!

Tatiana Calderon (10th March 1993) - Shaggy - Oh Carolina

Christine GZ (22nd July 1993) - 4 Non Blondes - What's Up?

Alex Lynn (17th September 1993) - Pet Shop Boys - Go West

Bubba Wallace (8th October 1993) - DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince - Boom! Shake The Room

Michelle Gatting (31st December 1993) - Take That - babe

Naomi Schiff (18th May 1994) - Stiltskin - Inside

Jessica Hawkins (16th February 1995) & Luca Ghiotto (24th February 1995) - Annie Lennox - No More I Love Yous

Beitske Visser (10th March 1995) - Alex Party - Don't Give Me Your Life

Nicholas Latifi (29th June 1995) - Outhere Brothers - Boom Boom Boom

Jack Aitken (23rd September 1995) - Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

Oliver Askew (12th December 1996) - The Prodigy - Breathe

Louis Deletraz (22nd April 1997) - Robbie Williams - Old Before I Die

Catie Munnings (15th November 1997) - Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

Cem Bolukbasi (9th February 1998) - Backstreet Boys - All I Have To Give

Jamie Chadwick (20th May 1998) - Aqua - Turn Back Time

Kevin Hansen (28th May 1998) - All Saints - Under The Bridge

Mick Schumacher (22nd March 1999) - Boyzone - When The Going Gets Tough

Toni Breidinger (14th July 1999) - ATB - 9pm (Till I Come)

Max Fewtrell (29th July 1999) - Five - If Ya Gettin' Down

Robert Shwartzman (16th September 1999) & Bent Viscaal (18th September 1999) - Lou Bega - Mambo No. 5 (A Little Bit Of...)

Felipe Drugovich (23rd May 2000) - Madison Avenue - Don't Call Me Baby

Marta Garcia (9th August 2000) - Craig David - 7 Days

Arthur Leclerc (14th October 2000) - Mariah Carey ft Westlife - Against All Odds

Sophia Florsch (1st December 2000) - Leann Rimes - Can't Fight The Moonlight

Clement Novalak (23rd December 2000) - Eminem - Stan

Frederik Vesti (13th January 2002) - Puretone - Addicted To Bass

Luke Browning (31st January 2002) - A1 - Caught In The Middle

Liam Lawson (11th February 2002) - No Doubt - Hey Baby

Olli Caldwell (11th June 2002) - Eminem - Without Me

Jack Doohan (20th January 2003) - Busted - Year 3000

All added to this playlist 😊😊

[fictionalreads]

Chicago Fire Season 13 Episode 5

Carver

Carver she’s affecting your ability to work. She’s gotta go.

And why is the counter so gross? Clean up.

Sam if you have to lie that’s not a good sign.

Oh shit it’s about to go down.

He ended up there cause that’s where he wanted to be and not with you.

Violet don’t get involved. He’s the one who lied. It’s his problem.

See you just made him angrier by telling him about the text.

So it wasn’t just one text.

Finally he’s cleaning up. Thank God.

She keeps gaslighting him. WE DON’T DO THAT TORI

Damn you Sam for falling for her bullshit.

Severide and Stella

Not her quoting Beyoncé.

“I just talked myself out of leaving” 😂😂

Fire cop and his wife the relentless detective are at it again!

So y’all just not gonna do anything?

A ghost? What does that mean. It seems odd.

Oh! That’s what it means.

The 21st? Is that lady calling for you? Or her son?

What the hell? Where is the kid?

Oh good! She’s gonna help take down the company.

No she does not back down. It’s why he fell in love with her.

Novak and Ritter

Novak are you flirting? Don’t. He’s sus. I mean that in the he seems like a creep way not the he might be gay way (which I don’t get why that’s a thing? If somebody is gay why are we calling it sus? Why not just say they’re gay? It’s not a curse or a bad word people.)

Ritter being jealous is hilarious

RITTER HOW COULD YOU BREAK IT

Love that Ritter is giving Kylie advice

I like these two together, they’re fun.

Ritter I love you.

Hermann

I would say something about whatever he wants not going to plan but somehow it always works out for him.

Kylie is gonna find the money some way.

Emergencies

Severide don’t do anything stupid please. Pascal already don’t like that you and Stella are in the same house on the same shift. If you get hurt and she loses it there will be problems.

That guy seems suspicious.

People just be so angry and violent these days. Chill y’all. Ain’t nothing that serious.

I thought the carotid was in the neck.

Good Samaritan was kinda cute.

Novak is me 😂😂

IS THAT THE SON?!

Miscellaneous

KYLIES BACK

[washipink]

Rain by Jocelyn Samara D Year 1: 2010-2011

erSo I recently found out that 1 year ago, a comic that was INCREDIBLY important to me as a trans middle schooler who went to catholic school had wrapped up. This year, I’ve decided I’m going to read through and review Rain by Jocelyn Samara, 1 year of the comic’s run at a time. First up: Year 1, which covers Chapter 1 (The New Girl) through Chapter 6 (Fallen Angel). I’ll be summarizing the story and characters for those unfamiliar, so feel free to follow along.

There’s a LONG-ASS post under that read more. If you have any experience with the comic or enjoy the post, please talk about it with me. It’ll be a good time.

Year 1 Summary

The star of the show is Rain, a transgender 17 year old girl who moved in with her Aunt Fara after her mother’s death. It starts on the first day of her senior year of high school, the first time she’s ever tried to pass as female in front of... anyone???

Based on some of the language used in the character bios, I should be very clear that this comic is from 2010 and written by a trans woman who is most likely older than most of my followers. There may be language used that you personally don’t agree with. I’m not a fan of being called transsexual myself, but there’s nothing wrong with saying it.

Anyway, the basic gist is that Rain passes EXCELLENTLY and attracts a lot of attention from her male classmates, much to her dismay.

But the men aren’t the only people with their eyes on Rain. Lesbian classmate, Maria and her fake boyfriend, Gavin make a bet of 5 United States Dollars out of who can talk to Rain first.

Here’s the rub: During Role, Gavin seems to recognize Rain’s last name. It’s the same as his childhood best friend, Ryan. Gavin and Maria then banter a little bit, jokingly saying “what if that IS Ryan? could ya believe that?”

Little do they know...

One thing about Rain is that its cast of characters is by no means infallible. Even characters that I came to love, like Maria, are kind of insensitive. Just about no one in this cast has ever MET a trans person in their lives prior to Rain. It’s very true to life in that way. You meet a lot of people that are ignorant or accidentally insensitive. And sometimes, they learn to stick up for you.

The realistic portrayal of how trans teens can be treated by other teens is one of my FAVORITE things about Rain.

Anyway, Gavin brings up Ryan Falherty to Rain, which causes her to panic and run away.

And Crash Directly into the fifth member of our main cast, RUDY!!!!

A rather gossipy gay boy that sees up Rain’s skirt and thinks she’s just a REALLY brave gay dude. He tells Gavin and Maria pretty much right away and Gavin does not take it well. The majority of Year 1 is spent on Gavin and Rain repairing their strained friendship after years apart from one another. That begins here, with Gavin confronting Rain about her identity.

Gavin’s super upset about the whole deal, but Maria and Rudy are some of Rain’s biggest shooters going forward. Even if they can ask a LOT of invasive questions.

If I’m being completely honest, there’s no MAJOR developments in Chapter 2. Fara gets a call from Rain’s older Sister about how their older Brother hasn’t talked to either of them in forever. This lays a few seeds for later events, but it is PRETTY unimportant for a while. There’s some really good emotional dialogue in it though.

In Chapter 3, Rudy’s meddling directly causes Rain and Gavin to reconcile. They have a discussion about how the reason she never told him was just that she was scared to lose her only friend.

MEANWHILE, in an attempt to make some actual friends, Fara reaches out to her neighbors and meets Ky(lie) and Heather Coven, a Gender Ambiguous Teen who goes to a different high school and her less approving older sister.

Kylie, also known as Ky, swaps gender presentations incredibly frequently, not really showing any bias for one or the other. So do not expect me to be consistent with their pronouns. Their gender is kinda messy. Almost like he’s some kind of... real person with a real life gender. Crazy.

Anyway, Fara invites them over and she and Heather get drunk, which means she can’t pick up Rain from the mall. Rain needs a place to sleep that night and Gavin invites her to stay with him.

This begins Chapter 4, in which Gavin and Rain realize that things may be different from when they were kids... but there’s a lot that hasn’t changed. Gavin remarks about how much more feminine Rain is than when she was a kid and how that’s WEIRD for him... but they end up playing a game from their childhood pretty much all night. It reminds them of all the good times and ignites within them the hope that they can have MORE good times going forward.

As an adult with friends I’ve had on-and-off relationships to, this speaks to me way more powerfully than ever before. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

The next day, during her hangover, Fara sees Rain’s older brother on an ad for a dating website with his new fiance.

And on the way back to her apartment, Rain meets Ky for the first time. Neither one of them is aware that the other one has ANY kind of Gender going on and they won’t be for quite some time.

The chapter ends with Aunt Fara telling Rain about what happened with Aiken.

Chapter 5 is a simple one, Popular prep girl, Emily is giving out invitations to a Halloween party for her “perfect senior year”

Everyone but Rudy gets one, which causes Maria to give Emily a talking to. She assures Maria that he wasn’t intentionally excluded and it definitely wasn’t because he’s the only openly gay student in the whole school.

Oh, also a dude beats Rudy up for that exact reason, earning Maria’s fury later on. Rain invites Ky to come with the rest of them to the party.

Like I said, pretty simple chapter.

The last chapter of year 1 is Chapter 6: Fallen Angel.

Everyone is showing off their Halloween costumes before they leave for the party. Rudy’s reads as a bit insensitive to rain, as he goes as.... a high school girl.

We’ve all heard this one, right? young queer person that wants to toy with their gender expression uses a Halloween costume as an excuse? It can hit different watching your friend do this when you’re a stealth trans person and especially when you’re one as self-conscious as Rain.

When they reach the address for the party, they find out that Emily... has an older Boyfriend. Like, a WAY older boyfriend. Who lets all these literal teenaged children drink at a party in HIS HOUSE.

also he’s dressed as the devil in case you needed any more signals he was BAD NEWS.

This sounds like a good time for an aside: Fara is on a date with someone she met online. He works at a manga translator and offers to get Rain a meeting with her favorite mangaka.

Meanwhile, at the party, Chase seems to recognize Rain from somewhere. What could this mean?

Anyway, remember how I mentioned the underage drinking? Yeah, Rudy is HELLA drunk. And the results are not pretty.

The whole school sees this and is... BAFFLED. Because of course, Rudy is gay. how could he kiss a girl? Did he do it because he was dressed as a girl? Was it the alcohol? was RAIN Gay? Who knows?

The chapter ends on Rain riding home in tears.

Thus ends the first year of Rain.

Art

Ok, let’s talk about the elephant in the room. This art is... not too impressive. Every character looks like they jumped out of a How to Draw Manga book and Rain’s design is VERY 2010. Backgrounds are infrequent and many panels feature just 2 characters next to each other against a flat color.

But I think that’s okay. While the visual design of Rain is not immaculate, it’s certainly passable. Samara had a story to tell and she didn’t let her art hold her back. She just took pen to paper and let it go. As the comic goes along, you can tell she’s trying different things and experimenting with drawing a variety of poses. That said, the art style never really changes at all during the comic’s run.

Pure Unfiltered Story Opinions

Rain was one of the first real queer stories I’d gotten a chance to read. At the ripe, young age of 12, every word of it was unreal to me. A girl like me made REAL friends in spite of it all and got to be who she was. And now, reading it again, it really holds up.

Rain has a depiction of queer friendships that’s very true to a lot of peoples’ lived experience. Not everyone GETS each other, but they try. Sometimes, they ask a stupid-ass question. Sometimes, you get into fights. 

Also, sometimes people in your high school get prayed upon by creepy weirdos in their late 20s who think they can get easy tail from CHILDREN. (Trust, people. This gets addressed. This is NOT a fucking glorification and if anyone in the notes says it is, they’re blocked.)

I look forward to seeing where the comic goes from here and I hope you’re ready to take that journey with me.

[junjiie]

⊹ . ⠀ for my faves !!! ☆

♡ ⠀ you know who you are be fr.. My Four Faves!!!! (and taeil). i feel like tht shld be a trademarked phrase or sth LMAOO. anw. my gross little msgs for you 🤓 in no particular order i promise 😓 happy new yearr my sillies muah i love you all lots and lots!!!

› ⠀ GO ⠀ ★ ⠀ !

( @wave2love ) ⠀ ✦ ⠀ KARMA 🫧

let’s get this over with i Guess.. THE FIRST!!!! (on this acc anw). my main supporter when i was nothing but a nugu fr. i might start repeating what i said in my christmas msgs so sorry if i do but first. I LOVE YOUUU!!! MY STARMA!!! you are so strange and it’s a chore and a half to find songs you like and you spend way too much money on tiny bits of cardboard that really you could probably just print off and you make fun of me on twitter but i am taking one for the team and shouldering it all because i really do love you a lot 💗 my best friend!!! even if you call me a senior and apparently i have the worst reads ever (still scarred from how i got TORN TO PIECES over assigning you an idol and a song like. your other friends are crazy it was never that serious..) thank you for all the karma updates and the random little asks saying “us” (they really make my day) and reading over or looking at the things i send you and for letting me YAP on and on for two long ass paragraphs with multiple spelling mistakes about plots i am never going to actually follow through with (#RIPROCKET because let’s face it im probably never getting around to it). i still remember our pact and hopefully i’ll actually make a start on it this year. my tyun, my chenle, my ricky, my younger brother. i love you 💗

an us song ♪ ⠀ might b kind of an odd choice.. but it’s one i introduced you to!!! and you put it on your playlist!!! so it’s ours now ^.^

( @mins-fins ) ⠀ ✿ ⠀ ISA 🧸

ISAAA ML 🫶 another one of this accs first iktr.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHH i love your fics and your ocs and your brain (eats it) and all the comments you leave on my own stuff and all your asks (that i should really work on reciprocating omg!!! one of my resolutions will be to pop up in your inbox more i promise) and i just want to wrap you in a massive hug and spin you around until we fall over. even if you do make me want to log off permanently and start bawling with some of your angst fics (angst for MARK LEE of all people.. crazy). you are another one of my best friends ever!!! one of my favourites ever!!! you are so soft blanket cuddly teddy bear i want to do something really dumb and cringe with you like lie on a blanket in a park and look at the weird shaped clouds like they do in romcoms 😭 thank you for being one of the best parts of my year!!! you always make my day when we talk even just a little bit. i think you’re like an actual little pill of happiness omg.. i just love you so much. let’s have lots of fun this year too ^.^ isa wisaaa you’re my cinnamoroll jeno!!! and if i had to give us some other duos i think we’re quite haobin and sunkyu too 💗 (i think you’re very hanbin and changmin. for sure).

an us song ♪ ⠀ dream scenario where we’re in a dark room with blinding flashing disco lights and dancing and having fun and this is playing way too loudly in the background. this is our song now deal with it!! i love a bit of kylie omg.. x

( @so2uv @taeiun ) ⠀ ⟡ ⠀ SOL 🪼

i never know when you’re on which acc so i’ll j tag both. ‘become a dreamzen’ BETTER be on your to-do list for this year because so help me god i am going to make it happen. another from-the-start whaaaat!!! (all four of u are idk why i keep saying it like We Know..) I LOVE YOU SO BADDD CHEESECAKE OMG!!! actually so happy we got closer because you’re so cool and funny and amazing and a little Strange and Odd. in a good way. like i want to make you a little jellyfish tank in my heart or brain or chest something so you can live there and i can feed you. jellyfish food (????? boy i don’t know what jellyfish eat). thank you for the song recs and for listening to MY song recs (even if it takes you a while) and listening to my rambling and letting me in on things for fics or your ocs early (it makes me feel so special i fr giggle a little bit like what) and matching pfps w me (#2MIN4L.. we’re just too good) and forgiving me for unfollowing you like twice now 😓 (AN ACCIDENT BOTH TIMES I SWEAR). i love you a lot you’re so silly and fun and i’m glad i met you!!! i hope we talk a lot and have some fun this year too! and longer after that!!! my minho, my hyunjin, my renjun, my 원할 땐 맘껏 뿌려 jalapenos.. muah 💗

an us song ♪ ⠀ no, it’s not pretzel. it should’ve been. but it’s not. this is my favourite onlyoneof song, and i think it sounds a bit like you. so it’s ours now. Wink (ˊᗜˋ*)

( @astrozuya ) ⠀ ✶ ⠀ LUKA 💫

the FIRST first.. raise your hand if you remember heartchikara. and i55ji. and 7irara. ok the last 2 were the same acc but still. SFTOPP i went back and reread the thing i wrote you for your birthday and oh my god 😭 Call the Gay police.. this guy right here 🚨🚨🚔 ahhh but to be fr though i really meant it all :( i love you so baddd it makes my eye twitch and i start like breaking out into nervous giggles and i am at constant risk of exploding. i know we’ve kinda drifted a couple times this year so i am being FOR REAL when i say for 2024 im gonna try and annoy you so hard!!! you’ll be sick to death of me and scream for it to stop!!! but i just won’t!!! maybe not the long ass us otd ones as much (running out of us pictures.. there’s only so many duos i can pull out of my ass) but just. tiny little updates and stuff with songs that gave me a real #LUKAVIBE. thank you for still wanting to talk to me and listening to my song recs and sending me cute little asks and most of all for just. sticking around (๑´ㅂ`๑) it’s us forever loca!!! you are stuck with me i fear.. you’re a cute little rock or sea creature or something and im the barnacle attached to you. Forever. or maybe not if that’s too weird. #SOZ. so yeah. i love you so so soooo much. jjka (???? it was on the fly forgive me) duo 4L! my hyuka, my haechan, my hao, my slime (LMFAOO), and my star ⭐

an us song ♪ ⠀ it’s nothing new because it’s already on your playlist (sorry :<) but i just love it so much. steve lacy fr called me up and asked what i wanted to say to you and then made this song. Not even joking.

TAEIL ⠀ ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎

laugh it up #IDGAF. guys he Will see this i am NOT crazy. stop do you wanna know sth funny.. before i started love, love, love he wasn’t even on my bias list 😭 back then it was mark jaehyun & doie LOLL. and then i wanted someone to be like a recurring theme so i chose taeil at random and then. i just fell down a massive rabbit hole. he’s so odd and weird and silly and strange and like genuinely i love him so bad????? he’s my ULT ult like i will never feel this crazy over another kpop guy EVER this is the end of the road for me. he is stuck with me forever (he does not know i exist). plus we’re literally #CONNECTED like my fave sanrio character is badtz-maru and guess who he got in the collab.. Yeah. ik ur all in shock rn. jjaeil is real johnny move over. kinda the worst year to become a mds though like he’s been THROUGH IT this year omg. i hope 2024 goes better for him and he makes a full recovery ^.^ god knows how im gonna cope when he enlists but we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. thank you taeil for being my favourite and bringing me comfort, i love you ♡

you all deserve like. the whole world and more. muah 💕 happy new year lomls.. stay safe, maybe get a little drunk (NOT karma. go to bed toddler..), have fun, and i wish you all love and happiness and money and good music and good movies and good food. KISSESSS from ur fave (Me). baii!!!

[myhughniverse]

Kylie Minogue - via social media - "Call me Kylie-lie-lie 💚💋"

[90s-music-tourney]

Here are the polls as well

Beautiful by Christina Aguilera - Bootylicious by Destiny's Child

Sugar we're goin down by Fallout Boy - Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Low by Flo Rida - Love Story by Taylor Swift

Get the Party Started by P!nk - I gotta Feeling by Black Eyed Peas

Chewing Gum by Annie - I write sins not tragedies by Panic! At the Disco

Do you realize by The Flaming Lips - Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand

I'm Yours by Jason Mraz - Sexyback by Justin Timberlake

TiK ToK by Ke$ha - It's my life by Bon Jovi

A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton - Misery Business by Paramore

She Hates Me by Puddle Of Mudd - Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) by Beyonce

Butterfly by Crazy Town - All my Life by Foo Fighters

The Dog Days are Over by Florence + the Machine - Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani

Lollipop by Mika - Seven Nation Army by White Stripes

Harder Better Faster Stronger by Daft Punk - Gives you Hell by All American Rejects

Milkshake by Kelis - My Hips Don't Lie by Shakira

Sk8ter Boi by Avril Lavigne - Bring Me to Life by Evanescence

This Love by Maroon 5 - Stan by Eminem

Fireflies by Owl City - Fuck the pain away by Peaches

1985 by Bowling for Soup - Float On by Modest Mouse

Pokerface by Lady Gaga - 4 minutes by Madonna and Justin Timberlake

Fallin by Alicia Keys - Beautiful Girls by Sean Kingston

It's gonna be Me By Nsync - Umbrella by Rihanna

Drop it like it's Hot by Snoop Dogg - Dilemma by Nelly and Kelly Rowland

Paper Planes by M.I.A. - Rehab by Amy Winehouse

In da Club by 50 Cent - Work It by Missy Elliott

Numb by Linkin Park - Before he cheats by Carrie Underwood

Survivor By Destiny's Child - Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

Chop Suey By System of a Down - Hot N Cold by Katy Perry

Crazy by Gnarls Barkley - Sandstorm by Darude

White Flag by Dido - Short Skirt/Long Jacket by CAKE

Feel Good Inc by the Gorillaz - Toxic by Britney Spears

Caramelldansen by Caramell - Hurt by Johnny Cash

Californication by the Red Hot Chili Peppers - Everytime we touch by Cascada

Watcha Say by Jason Derulo - Hey There Delilah by Plain White Tees

Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus - Smooth Criminal by alien Ant Farm

I believe in a thing called love by the darkness - All the Small Things By Blink 182

Photograph by Nickelback - Hash Pipe by Weezer

The Middle by Jimmy Eat World - Stacy's Mom by Fountains for Wayne

All for you by Janet Jackson - I'm a Believer by Smash Mouth

Yeah! by Usher - Beautiful Day by U2

Drops of Jupiter (Tell Me) by Train - Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

Unwell by MatchBox Twenty - Bad day by Daniel Powter

American Idiot by Green Day - Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus

Brave as a noun by AJJ - The Past Is a Grotesque Animal by Of Montreal

Somebody Told Me by the Killers - Crazy in Love by Beyonce and Jay Z

99 Problems by Jay-Z - How to Save a Life by The Fray

Can't get you out of my head by Kylie Monogue - Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down

Hey Ya by Outkast - Vida La Vida by Coldplay

[destinyc1020]

“Even if the mother and Kylie orchestrated this relationship, isn't that how it USUALLY is?? Like, women go after men ALL the time lol. Especially GOOD-looking, eligible men with good careers.”

This is the point I’ve been trying to make for years . Kris is a business genius and a mother of course she’s gonna game , lie ,exploit and hustle for her kids. If she did set them up , TC is grown and it’s his choice . There is a woman that I work with who literally scopes out our surgical residents to set up her daughters and nieces . We call her the husband hunter and and she’s 3/5 for successful marriages. Hollywood is definitely weird but a lot of the stuff that happens isn’t that outrageous.

This type of stuff happens all the time! Shoot...my mom tries to set me up with random guys sometimes that she thinks are "good" for me lol... Too bad we don't have the same taste in men AT ALL lol 😅🤣

But yea, this isn't anything all that scandalous. And if a man gets "caught", it's because he WANTED to be caught. One thing I know about men is that they usually do not do what they don't want to do. 👀

[deadlycupid]

Seahorse - taod college au

“The tiger sharks?”

“Apparently, it’s a marine biology reference.”

“I thought only Noah studies that.”

Tommy said it as if Noah was the only person in the entire world who studied marine biology. Which wasn’t true, David hoped.

“He is, but Nico drew a cool logo and after a while they just stuck with it,” David explained and put his study books away. Then he slopped back down onto Tommy’s bed, staring up at the red canopy and sighed.

“For someone who claims to not like that guy you know awfully lot about him.”

David shoot him an annoyed glance. He had to arch his head backwards, he saw Tommy upside down, so it wasn’t as effective as he wished it to be.

“Well, it’s hard not to listen to him when he talks directly into your ear.”

Tommy only chuckled and put his hands up in defence. “I’m just saying.”

David rolled his eyes. He knew it would have been a bad idea to invite Tommy to go with him to the show. But he had to face the truth, he would have never showed up there alone. He wouldn’t even have the courage to enter the club let alone leave his house.

Besides, he hoped that when Tommy was there he wouldn’t have to face Noah alone. Tommy was a good buffer. He knew the social rules and how to talk to people. It was easy to hide behind him, because he knew how to draw people in and make them listen to what he said.

Tommy leaned against the headboard and looked down to where David was laying. For a second they just stared into each other’s eyes. Ocean blue met meadow green.

“Fine,” Tommy made a swinging hand gestures towards David, “let me get this straight. We are going to a concert-“

“They call it a show.”

“Concert, show, it’s whatever.”

“Apparently it’s not.”

David had made that mistake too and had been quickly taught better.

“Fine, we’re going to a show of this guy who clearly has a thing for you.”

“We don’t know that,” David rushed to say. He felt the blood flush to his cheeks and he was glad he laid on the other side of the bed where Tommy couldn’t see him.

“He said he had ‘taking a liking on you’ and made some clear hints. Most obviously he wrote a song for you,” enumerated Tommy. David had to hold his head to make sure it wasn’t exploding.

“And you have a crush on him too.”

“Oh, I don’t,” David shrieked and shot up into a sitting position. He could barely face Tommy with how hot he felt but when he did look him in the eyes, Tommy only had his eyebrows raised. His best ‘you can’t lie to me’ - face.

“David, I love you, but don’t try to deny it. I’ve seen you in love two times and you are acting the exact same way right now.” Tommy pushed himself off the headboard and crawled to him.

“Wait,” David’s mind was a mess, “I’ve been in love two times? With whom?”

“Well, thanks for asking, I’ve been dying to talk about it,” Tommy’s face lit up but all David felt was anxiety. How had he not known that he had been in love before, but Tommy so clearly knew? Was he so unknowable to himself?

“First, that girl you sat next to in biology first year in high school. I don’t know her name anymore. Was it Katie? Kylie?”

“You mean Katlyn?”

“Right, that’s her name!”

“I hardly remember her.”

There was only one thing he did remember when he thought about her, and he’d rather not do that.

“Well, you kept staring at her face all the time back then.”

“Because she had a gigantic cyst on her lip. It moved when she talked; it was really disturbing. You could hardly look anywhere else.”

Now he had that image burned into the back of his eyes again, thanks Tommy.

“Really? I never noticed,” Tommy looked genuinely shocked, which didn’t surprise David.

“It’s because you don’t look at girls longer than 5 seconds.”

“Why would I? There are plenty of men in the world for me to see.”

“Okay, I get it, you’re gay,” David chuckled and Tommy joined in. It was oddly ridiculous, the type that came with years of friendship.

“But I wasn’t in love with her. If I was anything than probably disgusted.”

David did feel bad for Katlyn, after all it wasn’t her fault. But he had to make his point clear.

“Hm, okay but you definitely had a thing for Dolores.”

David’s heart stopped for a minute and so did the world. Cosmic moment, apparently.

“She has a partner,” he muttered through gritted teeth.

“And? I don’t see the point. You can still have a crush on someone even if they are taken.”

Dolores was the daughter of his mother’s best friend. Dolores and her mom had visited them two summers ago. It was all a hazy dream now, all the memories mixed together.

But what David did remember as clearly as daytime were the long nights where they all danced together to Latino music and how much fun he had. He remembered the times he danced with Dolores, how her body moved like she was free from any boundaries. How her long curly hair bounced around her head. And her laugh, so bright and melodic.

He also remembered how crushed he had felt when he found out that back at home Alex waited for Dolores, her long time partner. David had tried to be happy for her, tried to listen when she talked about them, but it was hard to force himself to smile.

After he found out, he couldn’t bare dancing with her anymore and always excused himself, spending more times sleeping over at Tommy’s place than home.

At some point he even made up an emergency that Tommy had so that it wouldn’t be suspicious.

David could hardly face her and he was glad that after that summer she had returned to Mexico, miles away.

Enough miles to put his heart back together and forget that she had ever existed.

“Okay, let’s pretend I had a crush on Dolores, because I most definitely didn’t have one on Katlyn, what makes you so sure I have one on Noah now?”

“David, I know the look on a man’s face when he is in love with another. I’ve seen it directed at me multiple times and you don’t look any different. Besides, you keep on blushing when ever you talk about him and he’s like the only thing you talk about lately. Which means you are blushing constantly.” Tommy took a deep breath. “And the most important one, you are willing to go out to a bar to see a show. Not even I could get you out dancing and I’m like your siamese twin.”

David took a deep breath. He knew Tommy was right. The moment Tommy had laid his feelings bare he had known that there was no escaping.

But he had never loved a boy, yet what he felt for Noah was so real. It might even be better than what he had felt for Dolores.

Perhaps that only meant that he had never had a crush on Dolores after all. But the heartbreak he had felt, hab been so painful and he still felt it haunting him now.

“So does that make me bisexual?” David asked helplessly, feeling everything he knew about himself slip through his fingers.

“It makes you whatever you want.”

“But I don’t know.” David’s throat tightened and his vision was blurry. All he felt was Tommy’s hand on his shoulder, who gently pulled David towards him, and the great weight of helplessness. Of being stuck with not knowing himself despite always being so sure that of all things he at least had figured out who he was.

“Oh, David,” Tommy whispered, “you don’t have to know.”

A sob broke through David’s sealed lips and he surrendered to Tommy’s arms, slumping himself against his chest.

“But- but you know who you are. Everyone knows!“ David cried. “Everyone has it figured out, but I don’t.”

He was full on crying now, not holding back anymore. He hadn’t realized how lost he had felt all this time. That he was alone on this big sea and everyone around him had surrendered to a boat, only he was floating, drowning in the cold ocean.

David always figured out his feelings when it was too late. When he had already went and hurt himself.

“Shh, that’s not true, David,” Tommy mumbled, rubbing slow circles into his back.

“There are plenty of people who don’t know their sexuality or gender. And that’s okay. You can take your time to figure it out. Or you don’t label yourself at all. You are valid either way.”

David hiccuped, taking a deep breath: “But you figured it out so flawlessly.”

“Oh, don’t think that,” Tommy chuckled. “It took me a long time to realize that fantasizing about boys was not something straight guys do. And plenty of google researches and many nights crying on the floor of my bedroom later made me come to the conclusion.”

David lift up his head. He hadn’t known about that.

Well, he had never asked actually because when Tommy had come out to him, first year of middle school, Tommy seemed so confident. When he said “I am gay” it had been a statement, a given, something he hadn’t spent time thinking about.

“Don’t look at me like that,” Tommy dried the tears that had streamed down David’s face with the sleeve of his sweater. “I never told you because I never thought it was important.”

“But you could have told me, I would have listened. I would have understood.”

“I know.” Tommy pulled David back into his arm. “But it doesn’t matter now.”

Eventually the initial tears stopped coming and David’s head was bedded onto Tommy’s lap, where Tommy gently brushed through his hair and traced the scare on his forehead.

They quietly talked about different labels and their meaning but for David they never felt quite right. Like they were all lacking something.

But instead of feeling helpless, now he had Tommy who reassured him, that it was fine the way it was, that he would find a label fitting for him and if he didn’t then that was okay too.

That he loved him either way and that he didn’t need to figure it out today.

Then it was quiet in Tommy’s room. David’s thoughts circled around Noah, his snow white hair and those unremarkable red eyes of his.

And in the quiet room to himself David could admit that maybe he liked Noah a bit more than he had thought.

Maybe a part of him had always knew but had been too scared to admit it, too scared of what it would mean for him. Because after all Noah was the complete opposite of him. A free spirit always going with the wind, while David was anchored to the ground, held back by weights even he couldn’t see.

He was scared, even now, that for Noah he was just another person he passed by. Another person caught in his storm until the next sunshine and David knew that he couldn’t do that. He needed reassurance and reliability.

“You know what I hate about Noah.” David said, his voice soft. He had turned his head to the side to look at Tommy before he spoke again.

Tommy crooked his eyebrows.

“It’s all about fun for him. What if I’m just some fun thing for him, too?”

Tommy breathed out, the hot air tickled David’s cheek and he grimaced.

“What does your mother always say? ‘Emilio, Emilio, el mundo es feliz porque estas vivo.’” Tommy then sang.

The heat flushed up his cheeks again and David playfully slapped Tommy’s arm.

“Ah, shut up!”

Tommy laughed and the sound was so addicting that David did too.

“Tommy, I mean it.” David mumbled when he calmed down. “I don’t want my heart to break.”

“A person can have a lot of fun and still take the things they are passionate about serious.” Tommy drew his fingers down David’s nose and then up his cheek back to his hair.

“Also, he’d be an idiot if he broke your heart. You’re like the lottery win, David.”

David closed his eyes, the dark complexion of his skin could only hid so much of his embarrassment, so he hid from the world instead.

Tommy’s hand stilled in his hair. “You have to go out there and live, David. Protecting your heart won’t keep it from breaking. Loneliness might be even worse. But if your heart aches from love, lost or not, it’s still better because at least then you know that you have loved and were loved in return.”

David sighed, then he opened his eyes.

He was done hiding.

spanish translation (mind you I don’t speak Spanish and I wrote this with help of Google translate and my Italian knowledge so if it’s incorrect pls correct me!)

el mundo es feliz porque estas vivo: the world is happy because you are alive

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