#call me a clown the way im fucking bonkers

[manofbeskar]

imagine you are a red-haired pirate named shanks and you are so full of love and contagious adoration for the world and your laugh is infectious and your smile is sunshine and your potential is limitless and you have the determination to keep up with anyone and you are so much bigger than the sky that the world's loneliest boy finds peace within you, you are the only one who knows the marine hunter has a sentimental side, and you are his only friend, and he's completely okay with that, because you are all he needs

[franollie]

shuffle your on repeat playlist (on spotify) and list the first 10 songs and then tag 10 people tagged by @sabrirene

1. for my lover by tracy chapman: calling me out…and during lesbian week of visibility…

2. just a man from epic: i love odysseus and the odyssey and im constantly going bonkers over him struggling with keeping his humanity and questioning what makes us human and (i am dragged away before i give a 40 hour speech on the odyssey)

3. send in the clowns by frank sinatra: stephcass playlist also just a really fucking good song to improv and choreograph to

4. all i ever wanted from the prince of egypt: uhhhhh….i have feelings about moses and ramses ii sometimes okay…and all i can do about it is rewatch or listen to the prince of egypt because no one else cares about them the way i do…

5. prière pour la nuit par barbara pravi ét november ultra: its in a lot of my playlists (most notably my stephcass and improv playlists)

6. baby im yours by cass elliot: i love the mamas and the papas…also it’s in my stephcass playlist

7. the end of love by florence and the machine: another one that i improv to a lot! i think i made a combo to this one recently too

8. material girl by madonna: its in my morning playlist to get me out of bed

9. roses are falling by orville peck:…also in my stephcass playlist…guys i promise i listen to other playlists

10. beautiful child by fleetwood mac: i had a mental breakdown about this song many times…stevie nicks gets me

tagging (not 10 people):

@fracturedanatomy @mysteriousbeetle @hobartsaglet @misspickman @toastsartcornerthesequel @devine-fem

[hongism]

ok prepare for another mini essay. i knew, i knew wooyoung was a siren but why did you confirm it this way caly my heart hurts. i can’t imagine the pain yeosang is in a want to hug him so desperately please let those two reunite soon i can’t take this. and poor yunho i knew there was way more guilt tied into his job than he let on but i never thought it would be that. and han jisung, i love him irl but i want to deck him so bad you have no idea. i’m thinking that all of this is tied to jin (1/?)

if vlad is the captain, then jin is the ringleader and if that assumption is correct then we’re in for one hell of a ride. with woo, san, and mingi all away from the crew things are going to be much harder for the crew especially with how shattered yeosang is. hongjoong has an absolute shitshow to wake up to. and sweet selfless seonghwa where do i begin, he just never catches a break. i want y/n to be happy, but i really don’t think that happiness lies with jisung and she’ll stay (2/?)

with the crew in the end or return to them if she does leave. the prophecy is really concerning too, it sounds like something bad will happen if all five sirens are brought together kind of like in raiders of the lost ark when they open the ark at the end. i’m so excited for act 5 but i’m also so afraid please give us some kind of fluff soon i’m begging you. and you know,,, if there’s conflicting feelings between the crew they could just form a poly relationship and be in love together 👀 also i just realized i’m a clown that last ask was (3/3) 🤡 -🌻

WHEW BABY yesyesyes i fully welcome mini essays for this crazy batshit chapter lmAO you know me tho. you know me, i cant just tell you guys things i have to make it memorable and unfortunately yeosang had to hurt to get there but you know what that’s okay we’re okay everything is gonna be okay 💆‍♀️

and YUNHO i told you you were onto something little did you know you were reading my mind mmm delightful yes chef’s kiss right there we call this the Yunho Redemption Beginnings

moc han jisung WHEW yall haven’t even seen the half of it this is just a taste of what’s to come and what will be revealed so far all you know about jisung is through the romanticized memories that y/n has of him and nothing about his true character or who he is as a person so 😃 get ready for that!

interesting thoughts about jin being somehow tied to this, it runs very deep and it’s very intricate im still working out the kinks bc otherwise im gonna confuse myself but WHEW you are absolutely right about things being super difficult now without woo san and mingi and with yeosang being somewhat out of commission and hongjoong being Fucked Up and having to deal with it when he wakes up damn it’s gonna be crazy

and our darling darling seonghwa our sweet angel goodness this man breaks my heart every time i write him and i know it’s my fault but WHOOPS! as i said there is a lot more to jisung than i’m letting on right now which is all intentional but it will show so much in time

you are thinking big about that prophecy and god there are so many hints in that prophecy alone it could reveal so much if someone figures it out like absolutely bonkers there’s a lot to it!! we do be having fluff on the way you will get a break i promise there will be some freedom soon LKJDJSK we just gotta get over this painful hill first 👌👌

[mama-germany]

Submission: {IIRC, submission format is bad. This is feminists-against-feminism, hopefully unedited by Mama Germany :^), and ill end my submission with “/submission”, and the rest, if anything, is mama-germany. Also, hopefully the paragraph breaks take, and if they dont…. welp…}

Imma be real with u chief, I dunno what you want me to do with this.  I’m a Jew.  I don’t like communism.  I don’t actually live in Germany.  And I’m not reading all this.  Idk.

Karl Marx’s “On: The Jewish Question” seems a prototype for conflict theory, but has ‘the real jew’ as the 'Haves’ the in place of the 'bourgeois/rich/capitalist’ 'oppressor class’. Conflict theory, icydk, is the collectivist egalitarian pseudoscientific theoretical paradigm taught in sociology, underpinning essentially the whole social justice perspective, and directly encompassing marxist theory, feminist theory, critical race theory, critical theory, gender schema theory (and likely influenced John Money’s gender theory, and builds on gender theory), queer theory, gender critical theory, postmodern theory, lysenkoism (mostly abandoned), standpoint theory,  post colonial theory, animal liberationism, and of course, intersedtional theory which synthesizes them all together wherever they can be synthesized. Marx said the nature of jews is huckstery, he said the real lofe manifestationnof the god of israel is money itself, he said eliminating money would render the jew an equal and normal person. His whole theory, and every conflict theory since, relies on the presupposition the indovodual is irrelevant and what matters is only the aggregate disparities between groups. This turns his theoey ultimately against all boundaries of the individual, their private property and necessarily their innate natural self ownership, their right to self ddetermination. Marx viewed liberalism/individualism as egoism. His whole family was actually jewish, IIRC, he just didnt succeed like they did, he was jealous and a mooch, kind of a beta, likely an aspie if i am to go off the symptomology. He hated them, he was jealous, he wanted success and they had it and he didnt, and so he was basically spot-on like the character Cain from hebrew legend.

Martin Luther. He wrote “On The Jews and Their Lies”. He described jews as piglets suckling from their mother pig, israel, and blamed jews for pretty much everything he viewed as wrong in society. He was basically the predocessor to Hitler and Marx. And one might actually say Marx was an additional predocessor to Hitler. I sure would posot that as likely, even if by proxy of Hitler being influenced by left socialists. I mean, he literally modified the marxist “'class struggle” into his own version of “the struggle”, “MY Struggle/Mein Kampf”. Which brings us to out next german collectivist philosopher. If youre picking up the theme im putting down.

Third subject, Hitler. Self explanatory. Jew-hating anti-egalitarian ethno socialist. Obviously fits in with the last two subject entries. BTW,I have a larger point to all this random pattern listing. One more.

Slightly diverging from hatred of jews, and more toward the begining of postmodernist thought, Max Horkheimer who said freedom and justice are incompatible opposites, and argued everything are oppressive social constructs, every letter and word and phrase and interaction. He said there is no way to know what a just society is, but that we can complain and struggle against the things we dont like and dont find just. And so if you also consider he in the same sitting said freedom and justice are opposites, and this was while summarizing his academic ideas to an interviewer, we can deduce he was directly opposed to freedom, despite considering himself anti-authoritarian…. Anyways, he was bonkers, hope you dont live near Frankfurt, theyre bonkers around them parts, and i know someone who has told me firsthand just how horkheimer style bonkers that town is.

{Honorary mentions. The Kaiser Friedrich Wilhelm Viktor Albert. Although there was clearly nuance here, Prussia WAS part of the German Empire, but the german youth injunction/sinker was still set in him, to which collectivism was his driver/floatation. He was a nationalist and refused advisors compelling him into an anti-left policy. Honorary mention 2. Antifasciste Aktion, the communist vanguard formed by the german communist party, the KPD, formed to forght fire with fire, using brownshirt tactics against the brownshirts (to whom they lost).}

All four, all German. All of them. 5 if we include the Kaiser. The father of protestantism, the father of communism, the left reformer whos students sparked the “New Left” movement, and Hitler, HITLER. ALL GERMAN. Which is not an implicit racial claim im implying, but one about a sour philosophy. I refer to this as German Collectivism. It is the archetype if collectivism which germany seems particularly possessed by. These have ravaged the whole world, toppled entire nations and enslaved likely over two billion people considering just the PRC, USSR, and Nazi Germany esp with its labir camps. Luther could be viewed as the origin, certainly the origin of modern german collectivism (protestantism & lutherean conspiracy theory, left socialism, and nazism), but the purpose of germany has not changed through any of its past or present phases. It’s purpose seems to be unintentionally destroying itself in the process of intentionally trying to destroy the rest of Europe in attempt to conquer Europe and/or the world. Maybe it came from its clash with Rome, and it never left that modality of picking away at its neighbors. Perhaps its influence from the abrahamic faiths it long traded with, maybe that caused the sort of over-populate-and-make-conquest-youth-army kind of societal reproductive modality, by influence of the abrahamic faiths that did that in the middle east for millennia (with obvious great success, whereas Germany fails at the same niche). Maybe it’s because of their empire-orientation, their pre-lutherean state where they were catholic, and so the culture, thinkers and leaders became oriented toward empire. I dont know. But i do know Hitler, the Kaiser, and Marx were all three alienated children who were very disturbed, and assume Horkheimer and Martin Luther were of similar origins, it seems the common theme among these german influences. Disturbed children make for great communists, and germany has long been riddled with communists. Communists & new left communists like intersectionalists have been frequently compared to a religion, and germany was previously, according to Neitzsche who overtly shared my distain for German philosophy (to my surprise, i love him even more now), he said it seemed to him 4/5 people in germany  were part of protestant clergy. The whole state seems in an unending modality if one total hegemonic culthood after another.

The purpose for german collectivism being so consistently against jews, i assume. It is that jews are very successful on average by comparison to every other category in the west. So theyre integral to the structure of society, particularly around power. So to do the sort of semetic strategy, the strategy of Mohammad and Moses, the strategy of just toppling societies and inheriting the remains, in the west, one must (perhaps in a sidenote of historical irony) go through the jews. If they want to make their collectivist totalitarian ideology dominate, they have to go full cain, and stab their brothers - the jews. And just as stabbing Abel didnt wirk well for Cain, obviously taking out the most success oriented demographic (OF WHICH THERE ARE TWO) in your country is not going to work well for Germany. The other the German Collectivist opposes is the individualist - the English liberal, the stoic, the empiricist, the existentialist, the naturalist, the skeptic, these sorts. These sorts of ideas bring success, and so the authoritarian german collectivist requires their demise as well. The Kaiser hated types like us, the Fuhror hated types like us, marx hated types like us, Horkheimer, and Luther to a clear extent.

i should mention, im not a supernaturalist, the supernatural is all metaphor taken as superstition, im woth Neitszche. Theres certainly no supernatural, and race is a politically meaningless concept to me. But what is contained within the borders of germany…. There seems to be an eccentric kook persona, as a sort of cultural clone prevalent in germany, parallel to the American redneck or hillbilly. Theyre not all terrible people, but theyre often super fucked up like longislanders are in NY, or hillbillies from appalachia, or rednecks from alabama. Or just extremely eccentric like a german lady i knew IRL or Joerge Sprave, or oh my god, Max Horkheimer the kook. And it doesnt miss the city, theyre like that, but converted to progressive ideology. Crazy brutes from yesteryear, mostly tamed, or stubby and eccentric out the wazoo, or tall frail and vegan and metro af. And it’s not limited to the old german. Einstein, (not shitting in einstein, not calling him collectivist, but) absolute weirdo jewish german, Horkheimer, absolute nut job, jewish german, Marx, jewish family, the only correlation is they lived in Germany, like Hitler, the SS, and the kaiser. Even the nations east of them who share similar culture, look at Freud, absolutely a german collectivist type, but from Austria, which today is apparently an ethno national socialist state in all but admission. Prussia influenced the Kaiser’s collectivism. Even people i know from america who have all german ancestry and only third gen american, theyre bonkers, like ICP & Twisted clown-rap omega bonkers, and believe in shit like vampires and wicca and werewolf “lychen”. Oh, and i forgot to mention in summarizing Hitler, his wackjob supernaturalist beliefs. What is that? Why is this so normal there for so long and nowhere else for so long? It seems to spread from there more than anywhere else.

It has to be cultural, and deep seeded. It can be changed, and it needs to be. A german lady mutual of mine sees it and is clearly very weighted by it; i was hindered by it drastically, and i live in America. The nihilism, the self hatred, the narcissism, the psychopathy, the selective empathy (ie, selective psychopathy), the tribalism, the scapegoating. You live in germany, you must see it. You dont seem to like sj or right socialism. You seem closer to an individualist. A westerner despite Germany.

Would you consider it a real phenomenon? 'German Collectivism’? A label for describing the seeming german modality of collectivist government and the german philosophical origin of the majority of world’s largest, most wide spread, and deadly collectivist movements? Particularly today regarding the medium of marxian/intersectional conflict theory ideology? I can easily empirically trace intersectionalism and the french fake-gobbldigook-espousing 'intellectuals’ Peterson points at, back to the ideas of Marx (a german). What are your thoughts on it? What caused it? Why is it so historically persistent to this day? It’s still trying to domineer and control Europe via the proxy of the EU. And what the hell is wrong with so many (#notall) German children?! Or, likely, should i moreso be asking about ***the (#notall) parents***? But today, those parents were raised by nazis, or people raised by nazis. (#notall) but those nazis were raised by communists and imperialists, and those imperialists and communists were raised by communists and lutherean protestants, and those communists and lutherean protestants were raised by more protestants, and then catholics before them, and tribalist pagans before them. The hegemony is just unending waves of wacky who begat waves of wacky. Id like to see the origin of this crap fixed, see germany liberalized, just to show german collectivism undone SOMEWHERE it has been established for once, and in Germany itself no less. My first thought is just end the EU.

Is it real? What’s the cause? How do we undo it? 

[swampgallows]

it’s actually kind of... hurtful, i guess, because i know my music sounds like nightcore circus music or whatever the fuck and it’s entirely tongue in cheek totally bonkers daycare childish bullshit, and i wear clown clothes n shit, and i KNOW how it looks to everyone else, but the rave scene and happy hardcore and kandi and all of that means SO much to me and it is a pivotal part of my being. i would not be myself without it, it’s a huge part of who i am and it’s where i derive most of my uninhibited joy from. but people just see garbage when they look at me or my clothing or my kandi because it’s cheap and childish to them. 

and i mean, the “amateur-ity” is part of the aesthetic of raving, anyway, it’s the entire crux of why me and my friends have such an affinity for the 90s etc; it prioritized DIY, it was about doing what you wanted and doing it for yourself and being self-reliant and self-producing only because you, individually, had a vision, and only you could make it the way you wanted it. so even if it didn’t turn out like you expected or like others would have expected, the point was that you did it yourself and that you made it happen. a lot of the aesthetic of the rave scene champions utility and DIY and that reminds me to give myself a fucking break with my gifted-child 100% straight-A upbringing where everything has to be perfect and if I don’t excel immediately on the first try then i might as well just slit my throat; you’d see the rave flyers that looked “so unprofessional” or whatever but that was the charm to them, that was how you know that real-ass people were throwing it. you look at like the JNCO graphics with their rudimentary photoshop knowledge and Graphic Design 101, or any of the y2k shit where everybody had just discovered Bryce and Reboot-esque textureless CGI was the hot new commodity—orbs and chrome everywhere—and that’s what made it so cool. people unabashedly were happy about celebrating the new cool shit instead of thinking about how it was going to be outdated in 6 months or any of the other cynicism that comes from a hyper-technological era like we’re currently in. 

so like, yeah i don’t make the super-polished soft painterly shit that everyone else on tumblr with their thousand elf OCs makes, nor can i hold a candle to the photorealism of wei wang or the hi-res rendering of glenn rane or whatever, but i know that what I’M making is what NOBODY else is making, and the less i feel in competition with the literally infinite amount of artists on the internet, the more i can concentrate and actually MAKE shit instead of getting caught up and suffocated by my own perfectionism.  cause you know what happens when you leave everything to fuckin graphic design ~professionals~? you know what happens when the main focus on your music is the “production value” and fidelity of your VSTs instead of, god forbid, maybe using a retooled drumloop sampled from a 70s funk record? This shit.

do you consider that shit art, or advertising? do you want to keep those flyers? do you give a shit about what’s on them? do they grab your attention or do they just say “Hey, this font says ‘here’s a place you can get ecstasy’”? like, can you imagine if someone handed you a dreamscape flyer in 2018? your head would fucking explode.

“this looks like it’s trying to get me to join a cult...” GOOD. IT SHOULD. IT’S A FUCKING RAVE PARTY DUDE. it’s going to be off the fucking CHAIN. but dreamscape parties were fuckin huge, im talkin also about those seriously underground flyers with drug puns hidden in the names of bootleg licensed characters, like fuckin “rice KrispEs” and shit. im talkin about those ultra cheese flyers with how to draw manga-lookin ravers on them and existing cartoon characters with kandi painted on in Flash or MSPaint and free fonts with photoshop filters out the ASS, called whack-ass cryptic shit like “SPARKLE” or “BOUNCE” or “COTTON CAND*E”

these right here are exactly the kind of abominations i’m talkin about. there were a lot more ‘anime’ flyers in the early 00s but i can’t seem to find a lot of them (butterfly ball specifically comes to mind, advertising a BOUNCE HOUSE n shit like that, had some limited too-lookin girl in phats w butterfly wings; my ex/abuser told me about how he said he’d promo for the party and threw half the flyers in the front seat of a broken-in car and the other half in the trash.)

but look at that shit dude. that is ART. that’s stuff people kept because it, in and of itself, was a piece of artwork, a piece of the culture. flyers for parties now are basically made to be thrown away. even digital flyers for event pages had more work put into them ten years ago than they do now. 

i mean yeah im kinda doin the nostalgia goggles thing, i dont mean to be like “IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER BACK THEN” but there was actually an ability, for one, for people to do things themselves. kids could move out at 18. the dot com bubble had yet to burst. and rave was new and wild and hard for feds to control, and as technology kept advancing the music only got crazier and more experimental. now things have kinda plateaued, really, and even clubs and DJs push more for fine-tuning tracks over producing anything with any real artistry or experimentation or, well, soul. people aren’t makin shit like sesame’s treet anymore for the laughs even though we have exponentially less to lose (you can just throw shit up on soundcloud for free for god’s sake; even sesame’s treet was pressed to wax).

but then again, maybe soundcloud mumble rap is the closest this generation will get to grunge, garageband (and other DAWs like ableton etc) becoming aptly named substitutes.